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caandlelit · 5 years
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hqb has been trolling us from the start, sticking pictures of oikawas face but not delivering on the seijou chapter this is like queerbaiting i am actually angry
i also got another ask for matsuhana and listen, to both of u and every other matsuhana stan, ive got you. cant believe people got tired of them what do you mean theyre not in the manga anymore shut up and love them
theyve respectively worked so hard to look like slackers and they are 
theyre so lazy neither of them have any of their shit together before coffee
 hanamaki takes it 'black like my fuckin soul' and matsukawa takes it "like i take my men. sweet as fuck-no ow fuck stop-stop hiTTING ME-" 
no one has complained as loud and as full of energy as makki about oikawa forcing early practices
 watari, barely breathing: h-hows he even,,,,,,got the fuggin energy,,,to yell as l o u d as that,,,,what is he an animal
 makki is lazy as fuck because he doesnt see the fucking point but he is still the most energetic
 like iwa will be on the floor and makki will be dragging his feet forward because once he starts hes determined
 hes shouting filthy curses at oikawa while doing receives but matsukawa grabs him weakly and pulls himself up to his full height only to drop onto him heavy as fuck
 "oW shIT issei what the fUCK" 
and doesnt even bother whispering when he says that he'll 'suck you off if you shut the fuck up' 
their perfect day is lying in bed together for hours, getting up eventually to brush their teeth and then pancakes, and then netflix and more lazing about and fucking, baking cookies at three am because they cant sleep because they slept all day
 theyre spontaneous!! its cute 
dates happen on the spot, no planning unless matsuns in a mood and wants to romance makki 
but matsukawa in a suit just makes makki's brain stop working and tbh half of the wooing is just the suit 
"omg you didnt have to do all this,, hey turn around i wanna see the suit from the back- hOLY SHIT,,,wh,,,your baCK and sh-shoulders,,,,,,fuck,,,,,that flat ass-"
'heY-'
 speaking of matsukawa is a saP 
you'll hear me shouting this from the rooftops right next to one hanamaki takahiro 
"he's actually a romantic its tragic i thought he was a badass fuckboy who rides a motorbike but nope im stuck with someone who feels the need to kiss me goodmorning and text me goodnight-" 
"oh fuck oFF you'd cry if i didnt at this point you loser" 
'alright stop then i dont care' 
"nah you love me. and thats why i wont stop. because i love you too" 
'... thERE HE GOES AGAIN, SAPPING THE PLACE UP, WHAT A LOSER' 
"yOU CANT HIDE THAT BLUSH FROM ME BABY-" 
so they are stupidly domesticated and also very very clingy they are That Couple™ 
they have a couples instagram and everything
 oikawa got jealous and refused to speak to anyone 
and then he made an instagram for his dog and matsukawa lost his shit
"babe please lets get a dog please holy shit imagine the likES BABY DO IT FOR THE LIKES
""issei what the fuck we're not married yet we cant have a dog together get a hold of yourself be a man and get through this-" 
"...i heard that yet you cant steamroll on i wont let you" 
"what are you talking about lmao go away issei,,w-what do you mean i didnt say-"
 "ill get on my knees right now. ill even ignore the fact that you said the word 'lmao' out loud" 
'whats the catch' 
"........just,,,,,,,,,,please lets get a corgi-" 
theyre both stubborn but they never fight ever 
theyve had onE big fight and it was over a misunderstanding and it was terribly minor and because they were both stressed
 they yelled and oikawa and iwaizumi had to pull them away and neither if them spoke for the whole day
 and they felt so so bad 
 neither of them could sleep
matsukawa decided to run all the way to hanamakis house 
five streets away but, a truly horrible, dramatic, stupid decision 
makki couldnt yell at him for it 
because he stopped a few blocks to his house and stared 
there he was in all his sweatpants and bubblegum pink bedhead glory
makki was standing there with wide eyes, panting like he'd also been running 
matsukawa, dazedly: you hate running 
hanamaki, winded as fuck: what the,,,what the fuck,,,,,what kind of
romcom bullshit- holy shit- 
theyre walking towards each other and start talking at the same time 
"issei you stop right there you fucker dont you dare-"
 "technically im more sorry because i started running earlier-" 
"-no shut up thats just your long legs im so sorry-"
 "-fuck naw you cant have this im the sappy one right let me have my grand romantic gesture goddammit i love you-" 
'-issei you'll stop and let me apologize tearily and cry and ask if i can make it up to you with sex if you know whats good for you please i felt so shitty-' 
"- that sounds hot as fuck and i love you, im so in love with you, i love everything about you-mMPH" 
queue hanamaki stepping forward and leaning up to cup his face in both hands and kissing him quiet 
matsukawa fondly recalls it as 'literally the most romantic thing he's done' 
hanamaki fondly recalls it as 'the most teary sex i've ever had, jesus christ we were a mess' 
ive got more but i dont have it in me to write it out atm ill be back tho
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hanasaku-shijin · 6 years
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Been a minute since i did one of these, rwby liveblog:
all right let’s hear that new opening
oh okay jk maybe next week
yooo the fucking, what are they - manticore?? hell yeah give em to me
WEISS MY LOVE
just fucking skates along the train im glad they FINALLY did that in canon do u know how many fics have written weiss ice skating anywehre/anytime just cuz she fukcing can
i appreciate how they went in RWBY order for that
but like.... it’s great that blake and yang are chill now buuuttt uummmm did they have a proper talk about shit?? cuz they need to
RenoraaaaaaaAAAHHH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
thank GOD we finally have an official canon white rose moment that isn’t just a joke or casual scene FINALLY A FIGHT-SCENE MOMENT THAT IS EXCLUSIVE TO THEMMMM havent seen that since vol1 ep8
okay i can stop now that’s good enough for me lmao
their lil pink rose petals aaaaaaahhh im cryinn
oh so Adam just went on a tantrum murder rage. sick.
lol Adam taking “man pain” to a whole new level jeeeeez like congrats u remembered Blake’s name u get a gold star
lol weiss saying gifts are a waste of time but i BET U ruby got her something and she’s gonna love it
RUBY SHOULDVE GOTTEN HER THE SCARF RT WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOIIINNNGG
at least explain where weiss got it pls
i s2g if we get a beach episode 
“team rwby wont leave your side for a second. i promise.”
welp time to break that promise probably
oh great. more boys.
are they. are they based off twiddle dee and twiddle dum cuz that’s what it sounds like lmao
okay ive been asking this question for 2 volumes already WHERE’S BLAKE SHE’S SUPPOSED TO BE BACK NOW
“waiting on Blake, as usual.” Weiss has gone on many dates with her she knows she can take some Time getting ready lol
oH SHIT i legit forgot about Ilia oops BUT HER CASUAL CLOTHES THO
oh is sun still here too then
HUG
THANK YOU
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
oh whY IS NEPTUNE HERE TOO
ohhH OHH OMG WAIT 
OH MY GOD IS HE GONNA HIT ON THE LESBIAN
OH MY GOD PLS RT DONT FUCK THIS UP
this could be good oh pls
LMAO OH MY GOD BLAKE AND SUN ARE LIKE ‘UH WIAT-’ BUT IT’S TOO LATE
oh good that was good yes YES
Sun saying he and the boys were cool on a little hiatus when they’re based off a fucking boy band is HILARIOUS
god SSSN get back to the stage go make more songs u slackers
ohhhh
we’re going there aren’t weeeee
sigh but y’know what, im whatever it’s fine Black Sun is good Sun is good
the whole reason i never really liked Black Sun so much was not cuz it’s het but because like??? I’m so tired of the Faunus falling for Faunus and humans falling for humans sort of trope y’know?? I hate thinking they’re together just cuz they’re both Faunus but it’s whateverrr i guess
we just have uhhh no official inter-racial(?) couples in this show y’know what i mean
If I have to accept any het couple Black Sun is probably the best tbh because y’know why?? they are friends first. they have a history together, and it’s a good one. so fine. I’m glad it isn’t gonna be a main focus tho (seemingly)
OKAY ANYWAYS
i appreciate the rwby bunkbed arrangements again on the train ahah GOOD TIMES
oooh? what’s this?? the second Yang speaks Blake perks up??? i like where this is going pls have a Talk together now
ohhh.. Guilt. Wonderful.
ffUCK
Blake stopppp
okay but when weiss and ruby shared a glance tho 
“just my luck” “it’s not yours” oh right Qrow is Unluckiest Uncle of the Year
dont worry blake. black cats arent unlucky in this show
Oh? some of the manticore have manes but the one doesnt?? is the female like the head honcho?
i am sooooooooooo loving weiss’ leggings GOD it looks SO GOOOOOD
“dont let anyone else die” WOW RIGHT AFTER THEY WATCHED THE DUDE GET CHUCKED OFF SHE JUST ASSUMES HE IS DEAD ALREADY OOPS
coulda said that FIRST RUBY LOL
okay i know i have a new fav Grimm every season but daammmn these guys knock the Griffons off the top spot
Ruby’s making an awful lot of promises today hmmmmm im sensing a theme how long’s it gonna take before she cant fulfill one
yes GOOD i like the Jaune/Ren tagteam a lotttt
LMAO WEISS JUST FUCKING PASSES THE GRMM tO RUBY LIKE THEY’RE PLAYING BALL nbd
oH SHIT WHAT IT HAS A CHIMERA TAIL TOO?? i didnt notice that before thats fuckin SICK
vol1 - weiss burns down a forest
vol6 - weiss derails a train
oh hi little old Katara how u doin
OH THE NEW OPENINGGGGG 
the renora
WAIT WHAT WHAT THE FUCK IS THE
WEISS GIGGLING AND RUNNING AWAY AND RUBY PLAYING TAG LIKE SOME CHEESY COUPLE RUNNING ON THE BEACH WHAT IS THIS?? IM LAUGHING
OH MY GOD ROMAN’S HAT?? IS NEO GONNA COME BACK PLS???
i s2g if it’s Cinder laksjdhfksldf
if that last shot of Weiss supporting Ruby is just more BAIT IM GONNA RIOT
THEY’D BETTER MAKE GOOD ON THAT OH MY GODDDDDDDDD
LET VOL6 BE RUBY/WEISS VOLUME PLEASE GOD
we’re off to a good start so pls.... pls let’s keep it up
i’d forgotten how good RWBY could be if the girls were together lol
good to be back for once
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Ali & Carly
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Ali: only the same as yours Ali: not enjoying the chaos around us or the chaos waiting at home Carly: nah Carly: but worry about your sister Carly: this is nothing Ali: no it isn't Carly: just chatter Carly: weve heard it all before Ali: you're a we now yeah Carly: ha Carly: everyone on this coach has heard it & said it is what i mean Carly: dont be jealous babe Ali: Why would I be jealous? Carly: im only playing Carly: i kno youre not Ali: Whatever Carly: dont be mad at me Carly: be fun Ali: not feeling it Carly: baby come on Carly: why tho Ali: you actually need to ask? Carly: yea Carly: i havent done anything wrong Ali: it ain't about right or wrong Ali: it's still a mess and i'm over it Ali: that's all Carly: k Carly: but ive been a mess since we met & you cba about that before Ali: i didn't say you Ali: the situation Carly: theres no situation Carly: only sex that didnt even happen Ali: forget about it Carly: nah Carly: say what you wanna say Ali: okay, the fact he's fucking ruined this entire trip Ali: Ro had to go home Ali: and Laoise is taking the opportunity to cyberbully her about it as if she's not already fucked up enough from it Ali: and he's not even a little bit sorry that he just wasted the last 3 months of her life with his bullshit Carly: None of that's my bad Carly: be mad at him not me Ali: I am Ali: but I'm mad at you for not giving enough of a shit to not get dragged down in his crap either Carly: hes not dragging me anywhere but the bathroom Ali: bullshit Carly: nah Carly: youre making it something else Carly: its not Ali: the whole bus is slagging on you Ali: half of them wanna fight you Ali: and that's cos of this Ali: its not debateable its facts Carly: and what Carly: when dont they Ali: there was no need Carly: yea there was Ali: no worthwhile one then whatever Carly: worthwhile to me Ali: i really hope so Carly: wouldve been like Ali: i don't need to hear Carly: k Carly: be like that Ali: yeah i will Carly: why do you wanna fight w me? Ali: i don't Ali: you got your priorities i got mine Carly: but youre a priority you kno Ali: its alright Ali: let's leave this drama behind Carly: how tho Carly: youre still gonna be mad Ali: yeah but that is what it is Ali: nothing's going to change Ali: we'll both deal Carly: but Ali: idk Ali: idk what we do, if you think of something lemme know Carly: im sorry Ali: me too Carly: tell me what to do Carly: i wanna make you feel better Ali: I dunno, Carls Ali: its all already done Ali: not just you, all of us Carly: lets do something else Carly: go somewhere else Carly: whatever you want Ali: Oh, that reminds me Ali: Tommy's back, he asked if you wanna go out Carly: is it k w you if i come? Ali: yeah Carly: nah its weird Ali: no it isn't Ali: i don't wanna not see you Ali: fuck that Ali: its just this trip and him Carly: i only did it cuz he said hed hook me up when we got back Carly: i dont want him Ali: its alright Ali: you don't have to explain to me Carly: its not Carly: alright isnt how we feel you kno Ali: as far as this trip goes Ali: i'll take it, babe Carly: i shouldnt have come on it Ali: nah, don't say that Ali: apart from this shit Ali: it was good, right? Carly: but this shit happened cuz im not good Carly: my heads wrecked Ali: no Ali: it didn't Ali: yeah, you went there too but so did Laoise and it coulda been any girl Carly: she didnt fuck him for a hit tho Carly: why i gotta do that Ali: that hit of revenge Ali: worse reason, to be honest Carly: yea Carly: she is the worst we kno Ali: you're not bad Carly: im not an angel like you babe Ali: yeah you is Ali: can't fool me Carly: you cant stop being nice to me Ali: and what bitch Carly: youre meant to be mad Ali: i'm sick of it Ali: its not getting us anywhere so Carly: where you wanna get to baby Ali: better Carly: we'll start tonight Carly: out w your brother Ali: yeah Ali: fucking ray of ☀ that he is Carly: ha Carly: maybe ill find a nice girl at the club tho Carly: then youll be happy Ali: i don't wanna be that bitch about it Ali: just drew, babe, c'mon 😝 Ali: please tell me i ain't that bitch Carly: ha Carly: hes no worse than ronan tho Carly: to your sister k but not to me Ali: yeah and thinking 'bout how hard Ronan sucks made you cry the other day so Ali: 👀 Carly: dont Carly: he took your vs its so sad Carly: i wouldnt let goldie take mine nah Ali: I dunno what the fuck I was thinking Carly: youre too good Carly: you think everyone is Carly: 👼 Ali: nah Ali: I mean, he ain't the 😈 but he was bad enough for my purposes Ali: my stupid ass 🙄 Carly: nah you're too smart Carly: you knew what you were doing like Carly: been there had that fight w my ma Ali: the flashbacks not needed Ali: still got that 📢 in my ear Ali: though, probably gonna lay off a bit now Drew's showed Caleb up for the good boy he is Ali: awks Carly: its my turn Carly: thanks for turning up ma & da turn into his drama Carly: then turn away cuz nothing to see Ali: yours back home rn? Carly: nah but im sure theyll get the summons if the teachers kick off loud enough Ali: shit Ali: they gonna kill ya? Carly: theyll only be mad if their hol gets cut short but like they can go again when the teachers have had a word Carly: dont need a babysitter Ali: yeah, soz we can't come back we got free drinks here 'til next week so Carly: you kno Carly: gotta draw straws for which one shows up & who gets to keep the party going Ali: 1000 on ur dad showing up then Carly: yea Carly: plot twist my nan rocks up like it hasnt been years Carly: carly who bitch Ali: bitch same Ali: missing nan gang Ali: conspiracy, like Carly: i kno where she is but she not trying to kno us Carly: family fights like Carly: boring Ali: gurl, so much in common Ali: let tommo regale you with the fuckery Ali: other peeps drama always be more fun Ali: WELL Carly: hes such a gossipy bitch Carly: ill tell him about all this so he can have fun w Ali: beat u to the reveal honey but Ali: always more scandal I probably saved him from Carly: you been chatting about me Carly: aw Ali: yeah Ali: keep my slagging on the downlow Ali: wise up lads Carly: its k cuz youre creative Carly: its all slut, slag and whore w them Ali: truly Ali: switch it up Carly: drew did skank and he was wasted so its not hard Ali: 🤢 Ali: anything drew is capable of is basal Carly: wtf does that mean tho Carly: he calls me a bitch a lot like boy thats mine and my girl's thing k bye Ali: he talks a lotta shit for such a lil bitch boy himself Ali: yeah, back off Ali: ur not part of the gang Carly: he wants to be on you so bad that id feel bad but cant cuz yea hes a prick Ali: i can't Ali: why bitch Ali: like, i'm nice the rest of the time but like, no nicer to him than any other acquaintance Ali: and rn its clear i lowkey hate Carly: cos youre you Carly: who wouldnt want that Ali: 😽 Ali: always out here hyping me up boo Carly: yea i love you Ali: i love you too bitch Carly: serious tho Carly: im sorry Carly: i hate it when youre mad at me Ali: i swear i was never mad at you Ali: who could be mad at that lil face Ali: right teachers? 🤞 Carly: ha Carly: well they saw me making a seduction face like Carly: my bad Ali: don't act like you didn't love that too lads Carly: you kno Carly: youve seen it its good Ali: willing to write that review Carly: aww Carly: so sweet Carly: id give you top marks too baby Ali: you better 😒 Ali: don't be lying to me or yourself baby 😏 Carly: ha Carly: nah youre the best Carly: no lie Ali: 😳 Carly: so cute Ali: just trying make me have a huge head to drag my cute down Carly: nah you earned those props from me Carly: put a lot of work in Ali: no slacker 💪 Carly: facts Carly: lot of fun Ali: funsized Ali: that's my secret Carly: aw Carly: but were the same size tho Ali: exactly Ali: team pocket rocket Ali: get out giant boys Carly: your boy gotta stay cuz hes not i see you bitch Ali: 😎 Ali: you said yourself, i'm too smart Carly: 🖕 Ali: how tall is my brother Ali: forgot Ali: kick him out of his own partay how rude Carly: shit Carly: sorry boy Ali: can walk on his knees if he wanna hang Carly: or hands Carly: wtf would that make a difference nah Ali: nah babe Ali: that perfect form Ali: twat 😒😂 Carly: im too sober to have thoughts Carly: no scholarship to a fancy school for me Ali: don't be fooled, he only there 'cos he can twerk good 💅 Ali: #bitchmetoothefuck Carly: fuck why you worried about me getting expelled from here if thats what it takes to go there Carly: i got this Ali: you just gon leave me like that Ali: 😞 ok Carly: nah Carly: come w me baby Ali: running away to london Ali: heard worse plans Carly: you kno Carly: be fun Carly: we always have a good time running off together Ali: no lie Ali: maybe we can crash when he goes back early to get settled 'cos he's dramatic like that Ali: lots of fit boys, can't all be gay Carly: are they allowed to fuck Carly: or is it like footballers and shit Ali: Ooh Ali: we'll have to ask Ali: good pickup line, babe Carly: i'll ask your brother if hes getting any Ali: he'll die of embarrassment 💀 Carly: aw Carly: is he a virgin serious Ali: I think so Ali: he won't say obvs, withholding that ☕ so shady Carly: i'll ask Carly: find him a cutie to do the honors Ali: 🙈 Ali: he was feeling sorry for you but he gon' wanna square up now too Carly: yea? Carly: i need the practice if i gotta fight leesha again Ali: 😒 she better stay tf away if she knows what's good Ali: still, he used to being target practice Ali: he quick tho Carly: teach me those ballerina girl moves Carly: never went as a kid Ali: aww baby Ali: i did for the hottest of secs but Carly: bet your ma has pics im hitting her up Ali: yeah, she loves pissing herself @ me, the cow Ali: you can join now, or yoga with me, your fave 😉 Carly: nah Carly: got enough teachers on my case Carly: & bitchy girls Ali: 😱 Ali: i ain't that bad, rude Carly: never you my baby Carly: youre the only one who isnt Ali: bus full of bitches Ali: sounds like a song marlene would write Carly: pitch it to her Carly: or find her in the club Ali: maybe Ali: idk if she's got a girl rn Ali: we shall see Carly: me & her Carly: weird Carly: i'll ask her if shes feeling it Ali: oh lord Ali: can't play with her like a boy tho Ali: wifey'd up before you know it Carly: nah she scares me Carly: im a good wife tho Ali: you is Ali: but you wanna be? Carly: what? Ali: you don't wanna be no wifey Carly: not hers Ali: as long as not his either then we good Carly: ha Ali: 👀 Carly: what you saying w those beautiful eyes boo Ali: i see u and ur lack of a response is what i'm sayin Ali: honeyyyy Carly: dont Carly: i said about him before thats it Ali: i'm just playing Carly: dont Carly: he thinks it too Carly: such a prick Ali: i'm soz baby Ali: he thinks everyone loves him as much as he does Carly: yea Carly: i need to find a new dealer Ali: honey, in this town? done is done Ali: find one tonight Carly: so smart
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Marx Mem
Aighty this is long and it gets a bit dark I guess? Idk its a panic attack mem so.. Warned ig
After a really bad day at the news station (Katie and other various bosses being total fucking dicks. Writing 3 whole news reports in a single day AND Having to take care of food stuffs for the day cause our intern fucking d ied or something) I stumbled home fucking exhausted.
Pretty much the moment I get inside my apartment bastard speaks up "I can't believe you're tired. You barely did anything today."
I tilt my head back and forth and in a mocking tone I talk back "oh sure writing three full length news stories in a single day while making sure the staff is fed and keeping Katie off my damn back is nothing. Su r e"
I pull my gloves off, untie my bowtie and pull off my jacket as I head to the bathroom. Just wanna shower and pass the fuck out, I don't care that it's like 5pm, I deserve a damn nap. I realize I'm far to exausted to stay awake for an entire shower so I just opt for cleaning my face and hoping I dont just conk out on my bathroom floor.
I stand infront of the sink and just space out staring at the faucet for at least a minute. When I snap back to reality I look to my mirror- Surprised to see my actual reflection for a moment before bastard pops up. "Katie was right you know. You're such a slacker~ And you don't write nearly enough stories for her! The head anchor. Sure Tom is nicer to you but he shouldn't be doing the most talking! Keep the camera on Katie, Marx!! You're a man of taste, you know that everyone just tunes in for Katies chest- Hell thats why you tune in. 'Course you already know everything she's gonna say. Unless she throws your script away, like she really should every time cause you write utter filth. I'm surprised she even tries to read the mess you give her each day."
I honestly just stare tiredly into the mirror as he goes on and on, nodding occasionally cause I'm tired enough to believe him. His words blur out at this point and I manage to splash my face with water before tiredly making the stupidest comment I could possibly make while bastard is really active, "God I wish Angel and Bee were here-"
And bastard laughs at me. "Now why could you possibly want that???"
"Oh I dunno maybe it's cause I'm exhausted and curling up with my hoard seems really fucking nice, you pathetic piece of shit."
"Ah yeah I'm the 'piece of shit' have ya seen yourself lately?"
"Oh I'd love to but you seem to always take my reflections place."
"Oh wow Marxy has a bite now, huh?"
I glare into the mirror "Don't call me that."
"Why? Cause your precious little Angel gave it to ya? C'mon Marxy lighten up, it's not like I'm real."
I roll my eyes. Again with the "not real" thing, huh? Okay yeah sure. "Yeah, them being here would be great... I'd love to ignore you for the night." I turn from the mirror, ready to go sleep but-
He seems to not like when I want to ignore him... Cause- well thats when he brings out the big guns "What makes you think they want to be here?"
I freeze... He usually doesn't get to me like this... But ya know- I'm exhausted.. And hearing that one sentence makes my mind swarm with all the things Angel and Bee could be saying about me- about how much they could hate me... I can't shake it away with logic cause it practically doesnt exist in this moment. I turn back to the mirror. "I- I don't-"
"Exactly. There's no reason for either of them to want to be around you."
"Y- yeah-" I nod slowly and lean against the wall, glancing at the mirror for a moment before looking to the floor.
"I mean, just look at you! You're pathetic!"
I listen and look back to the mirror, my reflection is back. My eye bags are huge, my hairs a mess (more so than usual), he's right. I look pathetic... Of course I do. I always do... I slide down the wall, mostly due to my legs being to tired to hold me up, but also cause it's where I belong. The floor is the proper home for someone who looks like such trash.
"Do you really think they care about you? Oh sure Angel's stopped taking blood but who's to say thats his choice? He probably stopped cause Charlies buckling down on his drug problems~ If thats the case, then why would he bother to still have sex with you? Maybe you've somehow convinced him you're the only one he should be with? How cruel... Why should you hold him back? Why even bother talking to him when you're so controlling and possessive??"
I bring my knees closer to my chest, instinctively curling up to try and block him out. I try to mumble a stop but only manage a small squeak. I feel my claws digging into my arms but dont do anything to stop it.
"Oh and Dont even get me started on Bee! You're clearly manipulating him too! Why else would he call you "boss"? Why else would he do nearly anything you ask of him? Oh sure he could easily take you down if he found a problem with you, but what if you're all he has? He puts up with your constant abuse because he thinks he can't get anyone else? Do you really think he wants to put up with you? That either of them do?"
I shake my head. I dont know if I'm answering him if trying to refuse it.
"Just look at what happened with Baxter. How long until you somehow corrupt them aswell?"
"B-"
"Pfft- Surely you didnt think Baxters actions were his own?? My my, Marx I knew you were stupid but I didnt realize it was that bad. You obviously made Baxter feel inferior, even you knew that. But you never dealt with it. You let it fester and grow. I bet you just loved watching Baxter hate himself all because of you? Don't try to deny me, Marxy. I know it all, its so incredibly obvious I'm surprised nobodies figured it out yet... Then again, if you cant even figure this out about yourself, then maybe your friends have the intelligence of rocks!"
Now I feel a few tears run down my cheeks and go to wipe them- But.. Well I suppose I've broken skin on my arms cause I just smear blood on my face.
"Oh nice job you fucking idiot. What are people gonna say when they see those scars? They'll think you're some kind of edgy teenager. Then again- you might aswell be. Constantly wanting the attention of others."
I shake my head harder, hands moving from my arms to my head "n-no... It- it was an accident-"
"Awe... But that doesn't matter Marx! The point is that you did it in the first place!"
I whimper and shake- pulling my hair hard enough that I feel I should be pulling out hairs.
I hear the faintest door in the distance- due to how muffled it sounds I assume it's a neighbors door...
Bastard.. Thankfully quiets down for a moment- I manage to move my hands back to my arms- I can't loosen their grip... But scraped up arms are easier to deal with than a scraped up head.
Then Angel comes in- "Ma- Oh my god- Bee! Bee I found him-!" Angel crouches down beside me and very carefully grabs my hands, and pulls them from my arms. "Marx wh- What happened?"
I hear bastard laugh from the mirror "You can't tell him. He won't believe you."
"I-"
Bee comes in- Fast. "Boss?!" I assume Angels tone must've scared him- and well. He scares me- I jump, grabbing my arms again and my wings pop up.
Angel grumbles "Damnit- Bee ya scared 'im-"
I scoot away before Angel can try to pry my hands free again-
"Mar-?"
"N-no no- you're- You're not supposed to be here-"
Bee crouches down by Angel, "Boss what're ya talkin 'bout?"
"Oh you're finally pushing them away now?" I glance at the mirror- bastard is just eating this up.
My hands get tighter as my eyes dart back to Angel and Bee. I stare like a deer in headlights- expecting them to.. I dont know- do.. Something...
Angel turns to Bee "Bee see if you can find some bandages- I'll... Try and calm him back down..."
Bee nods, gives me a sad/worried look then gets up and leaves the room. Angel shuffles over to me, and I instinctively push myself farther into the corner.
"Marx I'm not gonna hurt you- it's alright..."
"He's talking to you like youre an animal. He sees you as dangerous. He has every right to. You could attack at any moment."
"Sh- s hut up-"
Angel tilts his head "Wh-?"
"Awe look how cute, he thinks you're talking to him."
"Shut up"
"Mar-" He looks concerned... Possibly scared..
"You're scaring him~ Of course you are... You probably scare him often.."
I shoot up, yelling toward the mirror "I said shUT UP!!!" I hear a loud thud and suddenly my hand hurts- I punched my wall...
Theres a small crash in the kitchen and Bee comes running in, holding a roll of bandages- I look down to Angel- And yeah.. He looks scared- So does Bee- I drop my hand from the wall and back away the few inches I can without stumbling into my bath-
"C-can't... Can't you hear it" I try not to physically cringe at how... Pathetic I sound
I hear bastard laugh, and Bee and Angel exchange a confused look.
"Hear... What, Boss?"
"I- it. The voice. I- I can't- I can't be the only one-" One hand goes back to my hair.
"Oh you sad, sad man..."
Angel gets up and comes over to me- Grabbing the hand in my hair and pulling it down before I can start pulling. "Marxy.... Hun- Are you alright...?" He lowers me onto the side of the tub.
I stare at the floor, squinting slightly "I-... I don't???"
Angel gestures at Bee, he steps over, handing Angel the bandage roll then sitting next to me. He puts a hand on my back, rubbing small circles.
"Let me see your arms, Marxy-"
With the extra exhaustion from the panic attack I just tiredly listen to him, flopping my arms on my lap- my wings vanishing. Angel starts wrapping them up. I feel myself yawn, and I lean on Bee, he moves from rubbing my back to putting his two arms on that side around me. I feel myself starting to doze off- but I'm still jumping awake each time.
When Angel finishes wrapping my arms, he picks me up and heads for the bed. I glare at the bandages, My tired dragon brain doesn't like them... So I bite at them- Or at least I try but Angel baps my nose. "Don't you even try, Mister."
I tiredly whine and grumble, flopping into Angels chest. "B u t.... I dont-"
"I dont care if ya don't like 'em, you need to heal and bitin your bandages aint gonna help."
Angel sets me down on the bed and I pbbthh at him. Him and Bee climb in on either side of me and I yawn again.
"Sounds like ya need to sleep, Boss-"
"Mmrmm..." I roll over and face Bee, "No shit... Katie n the others worked me like a dog t'day..." I shove my face into the Matress
"Don't they overwork you every day?"
"Ye s it was just worse this time"
I feel Bee pat my back a few times, and Angel cuddles up to my side and starts talkin, "Well we wanted to go to the bar- But a nap sounds pretty nice instead..."
Bee hums in agreement- he doesn't lay down though... Just stays sitting next to me and keeps a hand on my back.
There's a few moments of silence, but I eventually pass out.
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