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#and when i succeed thats just par for the course so who even cares!!! a is for average b is for be better or else and c is for crying
junietuesday · 2 years
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OUGHHHH the endless striving to be good and appreciated and perfect but never quite reaching it no matter how hard you try
#june speaks#pouring one out for revali and theseus#it just always feels like even as i improve its not enough!!!! maybe i dont start my projects the night before but i chip at it like once#in a while til i have to still rush at the end!!! my grades have actually gotten worse even tho im taking all honors now!!! i have friends#sort of but theyre more friends w each other than me and we never speak outside of school and they just get along so easily and i just dont#know how to close the gap!!!!!! i dont know whats wrong with me!!!!!!!!! why can all my classmates connect and bond with each other like its#nothing but im always stuck on the outskirts with no idea how they even got there!!!!! we all started fresh and i had a chance to befriend#people but even with a new start i wasted it and now theyre all so close w each other and im just here!! as always!!! first to have to take#a different table when theres no more room first to have to walk on the grass or the street when theres no room to stand together#and so i tell myself that it wont matter in the end and what i need to do is focus on my grades and i’ll get a scholarship and career and#itll all work out but i cant even accomplish that!!!! i cant make myself work hard enough and when i try its never perfect never good enough#and when i succeed thats just par for the course so who even cares!!! a is for average b is for be better or else and c is for crying#its 12 am so maybe i’ll feel better after waking up but like. its like the ocean. it hits and i come up only long enough to take a breath#before being shoved back under. i keep thinking ‘‘things are so much better’’ until i have to realize nothings really improved after all#vent//
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s-serendipit-y · 3 years
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infj s/o - hajime, izuru, nagito
@officialshushu asked: Hello! Could I request a Nagito/Hajime/Izuru who has an S/O with INFJ as their database? That would be great. Good luck! 💖
a/n: i got a bit carried away, so i’ll put it under the cut
slight dr2 spoilers
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——— hajime hinata
hajime is a reserve course student
so people would generally ridicule him for being talentless
he was standing outside of hopes peak like he always do, some of the students began to say things about him
usually he would just ignore them until they really got on his nerves
but then someone stepped in front of him
they were also wearing a hopes peak uniform
“c’mon leave him alone, he did nothing to you,”
why would an ultimate stand up for him?
he’s talentless, far worse than them by comparison
“i’m sorry about my classmates,” they bow, “i’m s/o”
“oh umm- i’m hajime hinata. if you don’t mind me asking, why did you stick up for me?”
“i feel inclined to stick up for people facing unfairness,”
after this encounter, you and hajime began to hang out
well, more like you two would sit next to each other on the schools bench and make small talk
hajime first noticed how reluctant you were to open up
he wants to know more about you and your ultimate talent but you would always find a way to turn the conversation to him
yet hajime felt happy that someone with an ultimate actually wanted to hang out with him
after a while, you two grew closer and you started to tell him small things about yourself
and that’s when hajime noticed his feelings for you
there was no way that you would want to date someone like him
there was nothing he was good at
yet for some reason he convinced himself to confess to you
“s/o, i-um-i understand if you don’t feel the same way, b-but i need to tell you that i-er-i have feelings for y-you.”
“hajime, i’m glad you feel that way. i feel the same.
now you two started to date, and the first thing hajime noticed is how you would do your best to help him improve
whenever he complained about his lack of talent you would tell him talent isn’t the only thing in the world thats great
making memories with people he loves is more important
and not only that, he was free to do whatever he wanted, not just being tied to a talent
sorry chiaki for taking your lines 💀
you loved that hajime wasn’t trying to change you
many people that you knew would try to make you do things that you don’t believe
hajime appreciated you for how you were which made you gravitate towards him even more
overall you and hajime compliment each other very well. you both want to help the other improve, but you two also appreciate them for who they are
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——— izuru kamukura
your reluctancy to open up didn’t matter for izuru
he could easily figure out everything about you just by looking at you
what made izuru pay attention to you in the first place was you avoided the ordinary
you did everything for the greater good, and for you own success
when you two did end up in a relationship there was nothing you could really do to help him improve
and every time you tried he would always remind you that his was great at basically everything
now you could try to help izuru improve his relationships with his classmates since he either chooses not to talk to them
or when they do try and speak he would immediately cut them off since he knew what they were gonna say
but if you really want him to he could try to be “nicer” to them
but it’s boring to him
now if you’re doing something you love, you probably shouldn’t ask for izuru’s opinion
he thinks it’s boring to lie and doesn’t understand how his brutal honesty could hurt your feelings
you tend to be sensitive to criticism, especially if it’s something you truly love
“well how do you want me to respond?” he would say in his monotonous voice
during times when you exhaust yourself and don’t take care of yourself izuru is the person you’d want to go to
he is the ultimate massage therapist after all
or if you don’t want a massage he would just stay with you
he’s not the best with affection but he does love you so he’ll do his best to comfort you
sometimes he would try to say things that are comforting but it could come off the wrong way
in all, izuru is known as the ultimate hope and you want the best for the world, you both fit each other pretty well
junko punching the air rn
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——— nagito komaeda
oh wow...
ohwowhowowohwowohwow
people like you actually exist?!
nagito is obsessed with hope
we all know this
and you, who did things for the greater good, was unselfish, and didn’t want to succeed at anyone’s expense
was in the same homeroom as him?
it had to be his luck
you were so full of hope that nagito couldn’t help but follow you around
not only that, you had a ultimate talent to compliment your hopeful personality
nagito was already in love with you
but it’s not like he could confess,
he was completely out of your league and not only that-
he didn’t deserve you
so to combat his growing feelings he just avoided you
but that seemed to do more harm than good
as said in all of these you had a hard time opening up to people
and of course nagito were on of those people you felt close enough to tell home about yourself
you even started to have feelings for him
so it seemed that you were going to have to confess to him
and nagito was very surprised when you did
“oh wow s/o, it must be my good luck. i feel the same way”
when you two started to date the first thing you do is help him improve
mostly it’s how he self depreciates himself
but he really loves watching you improve yourself
now what he dislikes is that you’re a perfectionist
and often get disappointed when things you do don’t come up to par with your expectations
nagito just tells you that everything you do is perfect
on another note, your dislike for people trying to change how you believe is something you never have to worry about that with nagito
he basically worships the ground you walk on, you’re the most hopeful person he’s ever met
overall, you’re the most amazing person that he’s ever met and he’s forever thankful that you chose to be with him
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