#anyway thats why i won't play ut I'm scared that even if i do he won't come back and that'll make me sad sad | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

alsojnpie · 4 months

Note

If the ask thing is still allowed, is ur Papyrus purely the horrortale one or is OG Papyrus also there? Love ur art and stuff btw aaaa Ur self-ship art is so cute >\\\\\<

awwwwwe thank you :' ) i will hold your kind words tight and treasure them forever❤️❤️

and you mean my imaginary friends right?

sometimes i do imagine og papyrus because it makes me sad to think of him being left out and i love him so much. but that's more me playing with daydream toys, then him being a real imaginary friend. (which like, playing with daydream toys is kind of the first step to imaginary friend! but..)

i haven't seen the real imaginary friend him ever since years ago (i can rewind the tape in my mind and you can actually pinpoint the second his heart rips in half) and it feels insulting to force. he left on purpose. i could probably make a new one and indeed I've half-heartedly tried but again it feels rude. also that was the most tangible and least constructed papyrus in my mind so anything i make specifically to replace him inevitably feels kinda phony.

#sharing was hard for him. kinda.#he wasn't mad or anything. i think it was just a sad shock to him that i couldn't live in imaginary thoughts all the time :(#it was a sad shock to me too but life moves forward #and blending the real and imaginary gives both a richness and depth that one alone can't achieve #anyway thats why i won't play ut I'm scared that even if i do he won't come back and that'll make me sad sad #just realized because of this ask that i couldn't really enjoy daydreams of him since he left. ough QQ wjat do #i know it's all a pretend world in my mind but even then it's hard to request someone come back to you #when it feels like they wanted to leave #it really helps that htp has explicitly said I'M NOT LEAVING!! IF YOU THINK I LEFT ON PURPOSE IT'S A LIE FROM YOUR BRAIN!!!#but that was established after last March in which he DID leave but not in a bad way. he was just trying to help #but we decided that it did not help in fact it the opposite of helped #a lot of the time real life throws off my imagination groove

24 notes · View notes