#aspen speaks

[artisticdysfunction]

as a DID system. it really infuriates me when I tell anti endos about how psychiatrists and other mental health professionals have tried to fakeclaim me and such with schizophrenia and they just don't listen and claim that endogenic systems are solely responsible for such fakeclaiming.

i guess it's convenient for them to not listen? i guess? maybe some will listen but the ones i've directly said this to tended to not listen.

[blackwood4stucky]

Catch Up Game

tagged by @moodymelanist 🩶

Last song I listened to: Lose It x Sebastian Mikael

Last thing I read: What Happens on Asgard - stucky

Last movie I watched: Dune 2

Last tv show: Citadel

Last thing I googled: Princess Irulan's opening monologue 😅

Last thing I ate: a double cheeseburger w/ grilled onions & fries

Sweet, salty, or savory: salty & savory

Sleep: 100/10 would reccommend

Currently reading: Burning Oranges - narusasu

no pressure tags: @ellethespaceunicorn, @gyokujyn, @capsicle13, @kingofsorrow20, @katie-delaney, and any others that would like to play!

[tale-of-4-detroits]

mod intro!!

Hi! I'm Aspen, a silly fella who has been a part of (and has been going insane over) To4D for quite a few months now. Pretty pretty please use they/them pronouns to refer to me, that would be lovely thank you <3

I do a decent bit around To4D (hopefully more soon) I've done quite a bit of art, I've assisted in compiling music, I've helped with a bit of lore, and I've written radio announcements (for some reason I've adopted Fake Detroit as my own instead of Nowhere, the city that I personally created and have obsessed over since the beginning, but that is beside the point)

I shall be here to ramble on about Nowhere and Fake Detroit mostly (mostly Nowhere) Hopefully I make sense

[aspenonpawzzz]

update

I’m heading back to school, so I’m probably going to be less active!

[thefamilyofgerald]

DUN DUN!!! This blog is run by a friend group of teens lmao. We just wanted a blog for the all of us to post dumb shit. More under the cut.

ROLL CALL!!! :

- Aspen (they/it/xe/any other neos)

- Rya (any pronouns, including neos and xenos)

- Re (any pronouns EXCEPT masculine pronouns)

- Lalla (they/them)

- Noah (any pronouns)

-Mani (she/her)

TAGGING:

#(insertname) speaks - self-explanatory, that person made the post

#(insertname) quote - something one of us or multiple of us has said

#quotebook -record keeping of things we said

#incorrect quotes - we shoved our names into an incorrect quotes generator for shits and giggles

#gerald reblogs - again, self-explanatory, just reblogs

Interests list and DNI list will be added onto here soon.

[cunning-and-cool]

my brother (literally) seek mental help. dealing with you is affecting Me, Personally

[coyotepawsteps]

oh how i Wish i had paws. how i wish i had fur. how i wish i had a muzzle and a lil nose to boop. how i wish i had ears and a tail. how i wish i had big feathery wings. how i wish i had the body i have in my mind

[snowthornes]

And then his words sunk in, and he stiffened. “The Shepherds?” His words came out rushed, urgent. “You’re— you’re Shepherds?” The dark-haired man blinked slowly, stoic and calm in the face of his teetering sanity. “Yes,” he said, straight to the point. “I am Blade Bronwyn, Commander of the Shepherds. This is my second-in-command, Trouble Alder, and my third, Tallys.” Ah, Thorne thought numbly, nearly straddling the line of hysteria. He could practically see his carefully thought-out plans crumbling before his eyes. So this is Caine’s infamous assassin-commander. He certainly looks the part. Blade looked at him as if he knew exactly what he was thinking. Thorne closed his eyes, took a deep breath… … Then flopped back onto the bed like a dead fish. A snort — a mix of what sounded like surprise and amusement — rang through the room, only to be quietly hushed by what sounded like the Norm woman. Thorne ignored the exchange, staring blankly at the ceiling. Shepherds. He thought bleakly. Of course they would be Shepherds. Of all the godsdamned luck in the world. Thorne had never planned on joining the Shepherds. TW: Panic attacks,  swearing, mildly off putting imagery (Thorne has strange thoughts sometimes).

1 ✦ “No offense, but you look like hael.”

“Do you believe in free will?”

Thorne tilted his head to the side ever so slightly, studying the man with an air of casual inquiry. The man’s apparel was all in black, a wide-brimmed hat — also pitch black — perched on his blood red hair and shadowing his eyes from view. A little smirk was sketched on his mouth. He would remind Thorne of a charlatan, if he didn’t exude such an air of… ominous knowing.

“Why wouldn’t I believe in free will?” Thorne asked, smoothly hopping onto the sudden train of conversation with nary a flinch and responding with a smile of his own, unfazed. He wanted to see where this was going.

The man waved a gloved hand, his slight smirk still fixed in place. “You know,” he said airily, “There’s the matter of the One-God — or gods, if you’re daring enough to admit it. Most believe that Xe has a plan for each of us. Some fate or destiny in mind when we’re created. If that’s the case, doesn’t that mean that every action we take is predetermined, absolute — out-of-our-control?”

Thorne lightly grasped his cup of water, keeping his face politely interested as he inclined his head at the other man in a gesture to continue. He suddenly felt all too aware of everything: the cool touch of the necklaces looped around his neck, the weight of the man’s intense stare.

Hael. Anything that had to do with that damned One-God made his spine itch. But it was too late to escape the conversation, not without exposing how much it had truly bothered him—

The man sat back and took a drink, hair gleaming like blood under the black of his hat. He gazed at him over the rim of his cup, his stare intense and unwavering. “Then there’s the matter of magic,” he said lightly, smacking his lips — Thorne’s gaze snapped coolly to his face, smile sharpening ever so slightly. He must have noticed his eyes. “In a world where anyone could secretly spellbind another — can we ever truly know if what we’re doing is of our own will or someone else’s?”

Lazily, deliberately, Thorne sat back in his seat; now carefully scrutinizing the man with a stare of his own. “Free will, you say?” The man inclined his head in affirmation. His light smile never wavered, but Thorne knew that he was studying his every move just as he was studying him.

READ ON AO3 HERE

Note: If you can't open the link and you get the 'typo in href.li.' error, just delete https://href.li/? from the link in your browser and press enter :D

Hello! Thank you very much for opening my fic :D This won't be a chapter by chapter retelling of SHOH, but more of a fic about Thorne's own experiences in Blest as himself , not as an OC limited by the (very understandable!!) narrative constraints of the game. There will be scenes that weren't directly addressed in the game like Thorne's initiation to the Shepherds, so there will be quite a lot of headcanon-ing going on! This is very much a passion project and something I'm writing for fun — Thorne Briers and the world of SHOH are both very dear to me, and I couldn't resist the urge any longer. I hope you have as much fun following the story as I do writing it!

This is an unpolished work; I'm still very new to writing. Hopefully I'll be able to improve my craft while writing this fic, and have fun doing it!

DISCLAIMER: The world and characters of "Shepherds of Haven" do not belong to me, but to Lena Nguyen. You can find her on Tumblr under the @ shepherds-of-haven. Thorne Briers is a character of my own creation, and the MC of this fic. Due to narrative reasons, there will be several lines lifted directly from the game (ex. when a canon character speaks). Please let me know if this is a concern!

[adventures-with-aspen]

Hopes and prayers, friends. Aspen and I are going on a very short, very local nature walk with my parents—who last interacted with Aspen the day we brought him home. 3 years ago?

I don’t have any differing expectations for Aspen than any other outing. The trail is 4 miles and very flat so it’s barely nature.

My parents, however, hold in a very old-school opinions of a “good dog”. I would label them as “balanced trainers”—with an emphasis on adverse tools like head halters and e-collars.

I don’t agree with their methods at all and imho their relationship with their own dog suffers because of it.

But, my mom especially, has spent the last 3 years stating that Aspen is “too much dog” for my wife and I to handle. And I have spent the last few months trying to convince them that they would understand him more if they would spend some time with us.

So, here we go!

[fruit-smoothie]

Uh oh

[artisticdysfunction]

it feels like sometimes people who fakeclaim over the amount of introjects someone has, doesn't exactly understand what emotional neglect (especially from caretakers) does to a child and impacts how they grow up.

a child must learn how to deal with things emotionally. how to recognize their feelings, what name to put on it, and how to deal with it. and if a caretaker fails to take care of the child in that way, the child will go to someone or something else in an attempt to learn. sometimes there also just isn't any safe people in their real life to go to. so of course they would go to fiction, to television, to the internet. they need to learn somehow. and it would only be natural that the amount would rise with easier access to the internet. especially when the internet, for many, is the safest place they have to be emotional.

[blackwood4stucky]

Music Tag Game

Tagged by @gyokujyn 🩶

Rules: shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and list the first 10 songs that play, then tag 10 people.

There will be explicit songs on this list.

Cheers (Drink to That) x Rihanna

Somebody Else (Remix) [feat. Usher & Wiz Khalifa] x Rico Love

For All Time x Michael Jackson

Water Fall Out of Love x Victoria Monet

Champion (feat. Nas, Drake, & Young Jeezy) x Nicki Minaj

Hurts So Good x Astrid S

Wait (feat. A Boogie wit da Hoodie) x Maroon 5

Pretty Head x Transviolet

Forever & Again x The Kid LAROI

Didn't I x OneRepublic

No pressure tags: @ellethespaceunicorn @moodymelanist @peyton--warren @kingofsorrow20 @spectrumos @late-to-the-party-81 @unlifeira @capsicle13 @wheezy-stucky @navybrat817

Here's a bonus song cuz I went to a JoeBros concert recently and it was awesome!

[a-little-monotonous]

my supercool awesome minecraft house (it's um. a work in progress)

[lulubeanie]

Thinking about drawing my ocs like as songs from their playlists..

[aspenonpawzzz]

Woah what’s this????

a hunter toh rp blog randomly spawned??

and the mod has my name and pronouns??

and it uses my hcs???

weird…

@hunter-nocedareal

(Edit: @imhereandqueersuckas @oh-cramity-its-amity look)

[thefamilyofgerald]

I feel the need to commit a crime, maybe theft maybe vandalism, maybe both!