#at home kits are also expensive lol

[asexualbookbird]

stained glass looks like a fun hobby but i dont want to spend 250$ on a six week course to see if i like it i want to spend 8 consecutive hours hyperfixiating on one project and then never think about it again

[fatuismooches]

Your brain for Star Rail!Dottore omg...

I always think he would've been like Ruan Mei, only more extreme... he's will be pathless at first but if he's under genius society then he'd follow nous...Meta/game play wise he'd be 5 star Ice Nihility or Erudition DPS who focus on break and freeze team (So his good team would have Ruan mei on it because they're both my fav).

Also, since Star Rail doesn't have designated weapons, creative liberties could be taken, no?? (Ratio did use a chalk and a book as weapons, so there's many possibilities for him. Hmmm, Dottore fighting with syringes, or chainsaw, or surgery knife would be nice lololol

His lightcone could be of like Boothill's but instead it's just the creations his segments on a lab (does he still need segments in this universe?we'll never know) and his splash art would be so cool if it were lab centric since most star rail splash art focuses more on scenery.

His phone case....it would be plain boring black-grey-blue color that probablyhave blood splatter on it...and his expression when looking at phone could've be like welt. His texts would consist of talking about how expensive it is the equipment to do experiments these days, or asking the trailblazer to hear his new experiments or just him complaining. And when he visits the astral express, he'd be curious about Pom-Pom and the machinery of the astral express.

If Dottore were ever be a genius society member and got invited to simulated universe collab he would get his own Occurrence and Curio (There's this one curio in divergent universe, a new endgame mode which was a syringe that cause you to go auto for the rest of the game and i thought it was funny lol) I think Dottore's Occurrence would be "The Wise Doctor" and it would give you options something along the lines : You are approached by a figure, a charming doctor who need a volunteer for his bext experiment "Are you willing to help this doctor's experiment" And the choices are :

1. Give in and help the doctor (Your party lose 50% of their HP and given one blessing of 2 star rarity)

2. Refuse the doctor (You will lose 99% of your HP and gain a negative curio)

His curio will either be his mask or the wise doctor's pinion with effects, including: Whenever you enter a domain (up to 3 domains), you lose 10% of your HP. After the curio is destroyed, you will lose 1 Blessing of 3 star rarity. (I THINK his curios will mostly have negative effects, lol)

This is a different section if he's with fragile!reader:

1. Dottore definitely would make an appearance in their lightcone and splash art, maybe them running in the field of flowers whilst dottore follow close behind??? Or maybe them dancing with dottore...that would be cute...

2. Since there's phones and all I really agree with what you said dottore does not care for his phone!! It's reader who teaches him how to use camera and messaging apps and teases how he's a genius but have a hard time keeping up with phone technologies lol

3. If they're playable, meta wise they will have harmony path, wind or ice...their kit would go well with Dottore maybe increasing weakness break efficiency or atk% (kinda like Ruan Mei lol) I would want to make their kit to focus on frozen enemies only but that would make them niche in meta ?? AND THEIR EIDOLONS....oof I imagine if they still have their sickness here it would be them in their comatose state while looking very troubled (like a nightmare) :( but in this happy universe they're just smilling peacefully!!

4. Would see them as the type to be traveling around the cosmos. They love collecting trinkets and gifts from their visit!! Also, they would be a big fan of Robin, me thinks... dragging Dottore to her concerts or just blasting her song in his lab.

5. They would!! Love!! Pom Pom!!! They would much want to take Pom Pom home.

Overall, they're just happy in this universe living their lives to their where they don't have to suffer :((

I have been having the biggest star rail dottore brain rot ever!!! I hope you don't mind me writing it out here!!

(x) YES. He would definitely be more extreme than Ruan Mei (who is also one of my top favs, her and Reader would be besties because I said so! I'm sure Trailblazer would make some catcakes of you and Dottore, which you happily take off their hands. Dottore is unsure of how to feel with the two things constantly stacked on each other and staring at him...)

I also love how unique HSR weapons are - it could quite literally be ANYTHING. I've always imagined Dottore using syringes, for his skill, he'd switch the size, fluid, and quantity of it for an enhanced attack, the mysterious liquid inside anyone's guess. I'm not sure if he could have segments in HSR, just because he was only able to create the segments thanks to having a very good test subject (Scaramouche) so he would need to somehow have an equally good experimentation partner in this universe. If he did though, it'd be amazing - he'd get so much done by sending his other selves to different planets...

His lightcone would be similar to Natasha's - a doctor helping their patient, except in his case, the "doctor" will be doing the opposite. His blood-red eyes would pair well with the blood stains on his hands. For a soft route, Dottore falling asleep on his desk and Reader placing a blanket over him. For an angsty route, Reader being injured and he has to hold your dying body. (Poor Pom-Pom... they'd hide behind a crew member the whole time, in fear Dottore might snatch them up for some experimenting... Even more, they would NOT be amused with you trying to constantly pet them.) And yes! I feel like besides his negative curios, they would be high risk, high reward - you're going to have to prove yourself to him if you want his help!

If you want to be soft, Reader's lightcone would be them flustered as another pair of hands (Dottore) place a carefully woven flower crown on their head. If you want to be angsty, it would be them sickly laying in a bed as Dottore scrambles to do anything to keep them stable. Reader and Dottore's E6 would be like Hanya's and Xueyi's - they hold hands with each other! Except they would be more intimate with each other, they would bring each other's hands closer to their lips for a small kiss. Or perhaps they would have a hand over each other's hearts.

You steal Dottore's phone often. You have like... a dozen games installed on his phone, and although his phone is always on Do Not Disturb, sometimes he scrolls through and just sees tons of notifications from random apps... he texts you as to what the hell you did with his phone and you just beg him to log on and do your dailies. He leaves you on read.

You would love traveling about too. (Kind of like Himeko - she was unable to fulfill her wishes in HI3 but now she can!!) You bring back so many items that you have to use Dottore's storage rooms to fit them all (he's not amused.) You probably even got a Warp Trotter as a pet somehow... OMG AND YOU'RE SO RIGHT ABOUT ROBIN... you have her playlist blasting during research time and he's just... not amused once again!! Reader falls back dramatically into Dottore's arms once they meet her...

I love the pookies dearly...

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

My Old man's tale about benetint (product) & review:

in summer 2008 i was 14 & my best friend's family took me to Vegas w them. she had only just moved to my school for 9th grade & i hadn't met her older sister til this trip. She was 21 & soooo insanely beautiful like if barbie was a hollister model she had the look so refined in every sense, i was dazzled by her.

& she was so sweet to us, my friends parents went & did their own thing so the whole trip we spent with her but she wasn't annoyed about it at all she seemed content to hang w us & protect us from vile men along the strip.

On this trip i went to sephora for the first time. hadn't heard of it before. it had huge windows so everything was glowing from sunlight & it was sooo overwhelming. my friend's sister liked this brand benefit so i picked out a little starter kit that came w bad gal mascara, high beam highlighter, booing concealer, and benetint.. Let me tell you for the next year i cherished this kit like it elevated me a new level towards Prestiged Adult Woman status. but the makeup was noticeably nicer quality for sure! from my memory at least.

the thing i remember most was benetint cus i wore it soooo much for the rest of the summer & beyond, i stretched that tiny bottle as far as it wld go cus i luved it sm.. but after it ran out i never tried to use it again idk just being a teen moving onto the next thing. But lately i jst rly wanted a goood lip tiiiint cus i dont wanna b wearing lipstick or gloss all the time its too much i just want chapstick but i like a little more color too.. usually i wld use lip liner but it always felt like it wld smudge off so quick n its kinda drying.

so i tried benetint again bcus i remember it being so easy to put on n then just forget about, it didnt get on ur clothes or teeth or nothin. after wearing for a couple weeks i can say this is still tru! i rly like it, very convenient, chapstick goes gr8 over top so my lips r never dry from it. its kind of expensive but it lasts a long time , for me i dnt have much makeup rn so felt nice to get st i actually use ^^ the taste & smell of it are mildly rosey, rly brings me back to those times..

being in vegas those 4 days w my friend n her sis are definitely a core memory for me it was totally surreal. i wish i had photos still but no clue where to find them, my friend's fb account got hacked years ago n had to get deleted, so many photos gone </3 we stayed at treasure island & across the street was this huge mall that was repeatedly playing an ipod commercial with the song Shut Up & Let Me Go by the ting-tings, like... ON REPEAT, ALL DAY & ALL NIGHT, so that song gives me the wildest flashbacls like i'm literally There. In the august heat. i can smell it like. its amazing thank you advertising :)

this is not an ad btw i mean obviously LOL i honestly just got thinking so hard about vegas '08 after purchasing The Product. oh yeah there was thunderstorms too... i went to hot topic at the mall which was wild for me since they didnt have one any where near my town.. i got some shorts from hollister i remember, also a rarity. friends sis got me my first ever drink, a peach daquiri...just one <3 it was such a nice break from my woeful home life lol i wanted to live in america so bad after this xD

thats my story...o and benetint is chill i mean i genuinely wanted to recommend it to ppl who want st simple it looks rly pretty cus until this i was struggling to find anything worthwhile. theres other shades too. Yup. Thanksyou for reading my LiveJournal Entry tonight minasan ^_^ Hope you're well x

-PMD9

[mumifyy]

Christmas special :3❗️❗️ Gaz + Price Head cannons <3

+Sfw!!!

SFW Price 🥃

When Your decorating the house, such as the Christmas tree, he’d would help with the higher places of the tree that you couldn’t reach, like picking you up onto his back or shoulders for you to put the star on the top <3

You and him would make cookies, half the time he would eat the batter so you’d have to make a new bowl (and get some of it in his beard 🤦‍♀️

If you guys have kids, there would be tons of gifts under the tree with uneven wrapping 😭

If you guys don’t have kids there would still be gifts under the tree, from both you and him

One of the gifts being a pair of REALLY EXPENSIVE earrings / rings

You’d cry 😭

You got him a rock climbing RC car and a beard kit

He loved it 😖

After the gifts you helped him with his beard kit thingy

He was freeesshhh but then wanted to take a shower (with you lol)

The rest of the night consisted of eating popcorn and cookies and watching movies like home alone and ELF <3

SFW Gaz 🧢

Gaz would be a little different

Gaz would take you out to the mountains where he has a cabin set up for the both of you

You both would try to make sweets but fail cause of you both throwing batter at eachother 🤦‍♀️

Christmas tree would have ornaments with pictures of you and him <33

Sleepover in the living room!!!

Gaz would suffocate you in snuggles :))

He’d bring his pets def

All the pets with you and him snuggled with blankets and pillows with a movie and the fire place going (this with price too omggg)

When opening gifts you’d only bring one or two for eachother cause of how long to trip was yada yada yada

He got you some clothes and his cologne (cause you keep taking his cologne and spraying it on his hoodie so it’d smell like him 😭)

And he got you a kitty :3

You got him new boots (this mf was wearing some that STANK.)

And you also got him a puppy 😭

Both y’all cried

NSFW❗️❗️❗️

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Price 🥃

This mf would be so vanilla 😭

Pushing inside you gently while whispering praises in your ear huskily 😵‍💫

Got me feeling kinda hot and bothered 😳

Soft at first, hard dom at the end of it

Would tie you up with his belt when you tried rubbing at your clit / covering your mouth if no clit 🤗

“Let me- ffuuck- hear you baby..”

Def cums in you

MORE THEN 2 ROUNNNDDSS 😤

Your spent after the 2nd HE AINT DONE

“Cmon you can take more yeah? Goooooddd Girl/Boy/Pet…

Aftercare consist of a bath. (Y’all do another round 😭) warm snuggles and massages :3

Missionary Fr

(No, the kids didn’t hear you.)

Gaz 🧢

Soft aswell :))

Gentle Christmas music in the backgrounddd!!!

Pounds you like a damn punching bag 😭

Doggy styleee + missionary most the time

Either has your face shoved into the pillows or shuts you up by kissing you roughly

“Fucck- baby you close? Huh answer me babe.” *Proceeds to smack your ass.*

Praise + degradation ☺️

Christmas light rope!!! (Yk where I’m going with this.)

Admired how colorful you are before absolutely eating your insides out 🤗🫶

Vanilla scented candles lit to set the mooddd!!

Aftercare is like Prices with the bath and snuggles :)) + animals

[crguang]

Weeeeellll since you said it’s ok to continue sending in asks. Could you give us your thoughts on Hamel and Garofano? Ik you’ve made some post about her before but now I want an 12 page essay like you did the others lol. And also perhaps Shalom too? If you think you’re able to give thoughts about her if not maybe just some thirsts? And is there any characters that have caught your attention? Personally I thought Eleven would have been in your favorites but maybe she is just not top 5. I’d like to keep asking about the characters but i think I should ask about the ones you actually have an interest in before sending in my own 12 page essay on asking you questions about them lol

-🍷

omg this hydrogen bomb… hamel and garo in the same ask… i got you. i havent met shalom or eleven yet! shalom is one of those characters that i already know i’ll love because people have said that she’s similar to kafka (hsr) in personality so im very very very excited for the 2nd anniversary so she can come home. ppl also gassed up flora unfurl a LOT so i have high expectations for that event but i know i’ll love it cause it’s yuriful. for eleven, i hvent played her event but her design definitely drew me in because she looks gorgeoussss. i love her battle kit as well but since i dont have her i have no idea what kind of character she is yet. i would say that the characters i like so far, off the top of my head, are: hamel, adela, zoya, nightingale, angell, garofano, shawn, oak casket, chelsea, sumire, uni, cabernet, bianca, chameleon, cassia, BAI YI!!! i know little about bai yi rn but she’s a menace so i already love her. im mad she isnt home yet ive wanted her since day one </3 interrogations/events play a big part in me getting attached to characters so if i dont have them it’s usually hard to tell if i like them or not but i like a lottt of them passively.

i’ll start with hamel, my angel… she makes my heart so full. i want to protect her from everything and let her dance to her heart’s content i would always be her most devoted audience :( her strength of mind is incredible. she’s such a pure soul who’s gone through unimaginable trauma and she still regards corruptors as beings deserving of peace instead of monsters like everyone else. she spent over 20 years dancing for an audience that was keeping her trapped in the darkness and instead of wishing for freedom, she wanted to stay and heal them at the expense of herself. her compassion is admirable despite what she’s been through, how her mother was using her and how the previous audiences she danced for never appreciated her as they should. at the end of the day, this is how she expresses herself and whether it’s for corruptors or selfish people, she has to dance. i love her dedication to her art and the beacon of hope she’s become. she means a lot to me because of her character arc. she was stuck at the bottom of a lake for decades, surrounded by darkness and contamination, and at the end of her interrogation she has a newfound purpose and people who appreciate her art for what it is instead of using her to console their souls. she’s able to dance for herself and her freedom being described as a spring day made me so emotional; i got a tattoo on my forearm that says “you are spring” on my darkest day to remind myself that the bad times eventually pass and rebirth is inevitable. it’s the same for hamel who’s now free of her past torments and who creates life where there was only despair. it’s really inspiring, she’ll always be my favorite character because she reminds me that a barren land can still grow beautiful things.

hamel is sooo beautiful. she was the first character that caught my attention, i got her like my second day playing the game and immediately made her my profile picture and put her on my home page for her pretty design. i love her hairr!! she looks like a mermaid, and the jellyfish she conjures up are just as cute as her. just like adela, she looks a little trapped in her clothes when they should allow her total freedom of movement so i love the contrast of the leather with the flowy dress, it’s a really nice touch. her outfit inside the black ring is different because this is how she appears to the corruptors, an angel in white. it’s so prettyyyy i love her so much.

her voice is so soft and seeing her discover new things through supervision incidents is heartwarming, like that time she tried ice cream and her eyes lit up🥹 she’s my baby fr, she doesn’t like physical touch but that’s okay, i’d still spend all my time with her. she has such a comforting aura ughhh i love her the most.

for garo……… hehehehehehe it’s pretty straightforward honestly. i have a very specific type and she fits all the boxes. i did her interrogation because i was bored and saw on her profile that she killed her husband so i was intrigued, i love widows who killed their spouse it’s a trope that i’ll always like lol. i was very pleasantly surprised when she revealed herself to be a deceiving, manipulative, lying, possessive freak. she’s so meant for me. older woman with a controlling personality? i need her. i love characters who lie so much or embody other people so much that they lose a little of themselves in the disguises they wear. garo is never straightforward when asked anything; when Chief asks about the identities she portrays she says something vague about how she’s able to lie so well because there might be some truth in them. very curious about that but i guess that’s all she had to say… and i havent made it far enough to know about the purpose behind the garden yet, so there’s really a veil of mystery around garofano for me. and i love unraveling my characters, that’s why i gravitate towards people who are reserved/closed off/hide or lie a lot. i love garo’s mastery over her craft and i think about that MBCC lovepost every day of my life. a woman who could effortlessly kill me yet chooses to caress? *takes a deep breath*

garofano’s ECB is my favorite. it’s her at her rawest, her most vulnerable, her fear and lack of control made obvious, and it’s such a different side of her. the art is fucking insane first of all, but my favorite part is the emotions on her face. the cracked picture frame, the bed of flowers as if laying in front of a blazing fire, the mannequins on the floor, the tears on her face— everything is so messy. a far cry from the control she now constantly has over herself. losing people has made her deeply afraid of it happening again, so much that she starts objectifying those she cares about. they’ve become possessions to be taken from her, and her desire to help others only stems from the need to not be abandoned again. she likes to be needed because it means that people won’t leave her, it’s so sad😭 i hope she can understand that she doesn’t have to be useful to be wanted. but she’s so gentle and i don’t think that’s a front, i love that about her. sinners come to her for help with their clothes and stuff it’s so cute i want her babies

her design is very cherished by me but i need to see her naked. very grateful to aisno for giving her a different shirt in her P3/ECB art just so that they can show us that boob window because i would’ve never known about her mole and that’s unforgivable. shes so sexy man… the tape around her neck like a necklace is really clever and her apron is super cute, she dresses like a grandmother lowkey with that shawl around her shoulders hshshfnd i’d still hit. 10.99 billion times. her bangs weirded me out at first but i’ve come to love them, they’re original i suppose… she actually makes me crazy like i need that old woman so BAD. she brings out the wolf in me that’s screaming “BREED BREED BREED BREED” like you called me a lesbian in heat well that’s really me with garo. the things i would do to her would weird out sigmund freud. i can’t even say them all because i still have some shame but like that anon said, we’d go freak4freak. the things i would do to hear her call me a good girl in that deep ass voice of hers… oh my goodness. it scratches my brain every time i bought her fucking skin just to hear that playful, “careful!” every time i log into the game. got me cheesing every time fr

my home screen is literally this picture of her birthday art and i almost made it my lock screen but my dignity stopped me… in short, she’s THE character for me attraction wise and if we get put in a room together i hope the building is empty because everyone will be hearing us.

[possibilistfanfiction]

legitimately fuckin obsessed with the avatrice football au my dude. that last snippet brought me pure JOY im tellin you what

[well here's some ava pov while i procrastinate ch3 plot lol, s/o to @unicyclehippo for the worst/best gay pun of all time, love u. honestly this is long enough to put on ao3 so ... i'll do that in a footy au series i suppose for context... justice for chanel lol]

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waking up from your first surgery is a blur, mostly an inexplicable terror when you can’t feel your legs, when you can barely move your fingers. tears leak from your eyes and you can’t wipe them, can only let them roll down into your temples. but then there’s a hand in yours, and chanel’s comforting touch, her voice soft.

‘it’ll be okay, ava,’ she says.

it won’t be okay, you’re certain of it, because you’d been taken straight from the field to the hospital, and then right into surgery, your kit cut off so that they didn’t move your spine more than you already had. you love football; you love football, the feeling of being so at home in your body, the feeling of going fast and the delight of the burn in your muscles, of not being afraid of anything.

‘i’m really scared.’ you look at chanel, showered and gorgeous, in a team issued bomber that seems impossibly elegant, even now. 

‘yeah,’ she grants, swipes her thumb against your cheeks and into your hair, catching your tears. she grabs a tissue and wipes your nose, which, from anyone else, would be absolutely horrifying, but she does it with so little fanfare and you’re in pain and also not pain — the worse option — you can’t even really care. she’s your favorite teammate: kind and brave and funny. she’s your friend. ’you’re gonna get through this, though.’

‘i don’t — i don’t want to.’

you don’t even quite know what you mean, still out of it because of pain meds and anesthesia, but chanel sighs gently.

‘you will. one day, you will.’

/

you don’t, not for a long time. after your fifth surgery you kind of tell yourself that you’ve definitely given up on football; they move you to a long-term rehab facility specifically for spine injuries, which is better than the hospital for sure, but it’s still hours and hours of physical and occupational therapy that leaves you feeling discouraged more often that not. once the inflammation starts to go down in your spine, you start to, at least, regain some function in your arms and hands, and after your sixth surgery, things are, you’ll admit, more hopeful. at the very least, you’ll be able to do things like use a manual chair and cook and type emails. 

you’re not great at texting yet; your occupational therapist is always telling you that if you worked on writing, and holding cutlery, and even more boring, pointless shit like pick up sticks, you’d have an easier time, but, whatever, you can type with the pointer finger of your right hand and it gets the job done. chanel visits as often as she can, most days in the late morning, which feels particularly generous in the off season when she could be being glamorous somewhere else, probably invited to paris fashion week or something. she brings makeup — expensive, beautiful makeup — and doesn’t seem to care when you clumsily fuck up lipstick or poke your eye with a mascara wand. you know she brings it so you actually do your occupational therapy exercises, but she also brings you changes of comfortable clothes and washes your hair gently every few days. she lies back in bed with you, long limbed and beautiful, and watches matches when you don’t feel too sad. 

a few days after your eighth surgery, your last, according to your neurosurgeon, you wear a giant back brace over your beatrice xin jersey, your favorite player to watch, and your physical therapy team gets you strapped into this harness that connects to the ceiling so you can try to walk on the treadmill and for sure won’t fall. it kind of feels like you’re doing a stunt or something, and chanel stands there and indulges you with a smile while you make all of your best ‘strapped into a harness’ jokes.

and then — you do walk. it’s slow going, the treadmill barely moving, and your legs feel sluggish and so weak and almost not like your own. it’s been two months since you took a step and it feels like a fucking miracle. chanel wipes a tear or two from her own eyes, even though you can only walk for five minutes and are sweating kind of profusely — it’s a fucking miracle, and she understands it too. 

/

‘what are you frowning at?’

she rolls her eyes and pockets her phone, easily pedaling with insane resistance on the peleton next to you while you struggle to get your legs to listen to your brain and pedal at all. ‘idiot bros on twitter. “trans women don’t belong in women’s sports” and all that bullshit.’

you stop trying to pedal because you’re already entirely unsuccessful today and now you’re not able to focus at all. ‘fuck them.’

she grins. ‘yeah.’

‘i’ll beat them up, just you watch.’

it makes her laugh, and you think she knows you really would physically get into a fight — on or off the field — if anyone ever said anything to her. 

‘plus, i can take you 1v1.’

‘in your dreams, silva.’

‘i’m going to, again. don’t even think i won’t.’

chanel pats your hand; you feel it all. ‘i’ve always known you could do it. i’ve never thought you wouldn’t, ava.’

you duck your head, unused to genuine praise after all this time stuck in the same boring, discouraging, painful rooms at the spine center, even though all of your doctors and nurses and therapists had been nice.

‘but,’ she says, ‘first you gotta pedal on this bike.’

‘it’s hard,’ you whine.

‘you’re just distracted.’

you look at the game you’d turned on, beatrice xin currently with two goals and two assists, and sigh. ‘i’m horny.’

it gets the biggest, best laugh out of chanel, and you feel a little something like pride bloom in your chest: you love making people you care about laugh. 

‘fine, fine,’ you grumble. you look down at your feet, your quads and calves so small and pale compared to six months ago; you try to breathe through the immediate fear and the tiny bit of shame that pops up. but you focus, feel your feet firmly on the pedals, think about how you know how to ride a bike; you know how to stand up straight and put on pants and kick a ball. the back brace you have on feels tight, feels restricting — but you focus on activating your quads, then your hamstrings, and you eventually get the pedals to move.

‘hell yeah,’ chanel says.

‘if you try to give me a high five right now i think i’ll get all scrambled if i try to move my hand.’

she laughs, reaches over and pats the top of your head instead. 

/

‘ava silva,’ chanel says, and you grin; you can’t help it. she holds her phone at a, thankfully, flattering angle as you walk along the beach — slowly, but steady: you trust you won’t fall, that you’re strong enough and getting stronger. ‘what does freedom feel like?’

chanel has like… three million followers, and she loves social media, something that your old club has always been thrilled about. they hadn’t renewed your contract, but you’d understood; they’re still paying for all of your medical care, so you don’t really feel upset, just a sense of loss you’re not quite ready to name. but chanel loves you, and she’s so, so happy for you — even if you never play again, you’re walking and even starting to run now; you’re in pain but it’s manageable. it’s okay.

‘it feels —‘ euphoric; devastating — ‘like a miracle.’

/

you flop down on chanel’s neatly made and extravagent bed; you’ve been staying in her guest room — which she had turned into her closet, so it’s still kind of packed with all of her beautiful clothes, although there is a very expensive bed for you — and training until, hopefully, you can get signed somewhere. she doesn’t even look up from her ipad when you sigh. ‘hello, ava.’

‘i have a favor to ask that i actually think you’ll be interested in.’

she pauses whatever she’s doing, then looks up. ‘i’m listening.’

‘well! okay, so. as you know, i’ve basically only worn hospital gowns and sweats for the last year and a half, and before that, i was, like, a child.’

chanel perks up, and you can practically see the wheels in her head turning already.

‘and now, wherever i get signed, you know, people are gonna care, and want interviews and all this stuff. so, in small part, i want to feel good about how i look for this next chapter of football.’

‘i love it,’ she says. ‘and what’s the large part?’

you flop back again, just for the dramatics. ‘i am… so horny. like, you don’t even understand.’

she laughs. ‘JC is nice though, right?’

‘yeah,’ you say, because he is. ‘but, like, girls.’

she pauses for a second, a happy smile on her face. ‘so, you want to look… more… bisexual?’

‘i mean, i do already? because i am? right?’

‘well, of course, ava.’ it’s gentle and reassuring but still a little amused.

‘but — yeah. like, i want to pick stuff i love, my clothes and my hair and whatever, gain back control, blah blah, everything my therapist is always going on about.’

‘your therapist is great, you love her.’

‘sure.’ she is; you do. ‘so anyway, i just — i guess i just want to feel like myself.’

‘now that,’ chanel says, ‘is a favor i love.’

/

‘you’re sure?’

‘it doesn’t matter if i’m sure,’ chanel says, sitting in the hairdresser’s chair next to yours. you have the salon to yourselves; she’d booked you a private appointment with her hairstylist immediately.

you turn to said stylist, dimitri, with their chic and very neat fade. ‘are you sure?’

‘like chanel said,’ they say. ‘it only matters what you want. we don’t have to do anything big.’

you look in the mirror; you hadn’t had the real opportunity to get a haircut in a long time, being in the hospital and rehab and then spending as much time as you could training after that. you haven’t, really, taken the time to deeply care for yourself, something your therapist has been bothering you about. you want, so badly, to live as big as you can. as much as you can. 

‘well, i’m sure, as long as you think it’ll, like, be good for my face shape or whatever.’

chanel and dimitri share a quick glance and then chanel rolls her eyes. ‘ava, you have to know that you’re beautiful, right?’

you pause for what you feel is an appropriate amount of time. ‘yes.’

‘but since you asked,’ dimitri says, ‘i do think this will be great for your face shape.’

‘alright,’ you say, feeling suddenly very excited and a little buoyed. ‘let’s fucking do it, then.’

chanel cheers and dimitri grins; they wash your hair gently, and you feel a little panicked until chanel starts talking about the threesome she had a few nights ago, which is delightful and grounding enough you stay, fairly easily, in the present of this beautiful, outrageously expensive salon, the control you get to have. not that you’re thrilled about your therapist being completely 100% correct, but… she was right. 

dimitri dries your hair and then combs it out patiently, divides it and then clips up the top part. ‘ready?’

‘definitely.’

chanel grins and it’s easy, so much easier than you knew it would be, to sit and watch yourself become. you’re filled with a sense of joy, this tiny seed that grows as dimitri cuts your hair to your chin precisely, and asks you about your plans for the day, and food you love, and chanel talks about her latest modeling contract — in addition to football, which amazes you in a way that makes you feel proud in the very center of your chest, this incredible person who showed up and helped take care of you. you feel your shoulders relax; you feel your feet firmly in the new sneakers converse had sent you, comfortable and cool; you even take time to feel your butt in the chair with the knowledge that you don’t need to do any pressure reliefs or weight shifts because, when dimitri is done, you’ll be able to stand up and walk and dance and run and even play football. and even if — even if — one day, you couldn’t, you have your friends and your teammates and your life.

‘you look hot, ava,’ chanel says, very genuinely, after dimitri finishes with a leave in, then shows you how to dry your hair and recommends a light oil. 

‘go ahead,’ they say, ‘run your hands through it, all that jazz.’

to touch; to feel. you think you might cry, all of a sudden, with your soft hair that you picked, that you wanted, and chanel takes in your wobbling bottom lip and then tuts and pulls you toward her. because of your height difference, your face is basically smooshed into her chest and, even though you do cry, you laugh too, wet and messy and alive.

‘this probably my favorite place in the world,’ you say.

chanel shoves you playfully and you grin up at her. 

‘thank you.’

she waves you off, as she always does when she’s a little overwhelmed too. ‘don’t thank me yet. now we have to go shopping.’

/

it’s not as bad as you’d feared; despite the fact that chanel only wears the most elegant designer clothes — her closet is full of gucci and bottega and, of course, chanel, and a whole shelf of louboutins — but she also loves you and knows you, deeply, and so when her driver pulls up to a row of a few very cool-looking thrift stores, you have to hug her again. she gives you helpful feedback on pieces and outfits and you feel, quite genuinely, happier than maybe you ever have. you buy crop tops and high waisted, loose jeans and a few sweaters you love; some silly earrings and a necklace and a cap that chanel laughs at, but fondly enough you know it works. you find a men’s button up with a bunch of flames on it and she rolls her eyes but you put it on anyway, knot it at your waist so it feels just above your shorts.

‘do i look bi?’

‘you look a little bit crazy, but i definitely wouldn’t think you’re straight.’

you’re practically shaking with excitement: ‘it’s… flaming. i’m flaming! get it!’

chanel groans. ‘ava,’ she says, but wraps an arm around your shoulders and throws it on the growing pile anyway.

/

you feel happier than maybe you ever have until the next morning, when you come back from a silly game of football on the beach with her and JC and a few of your other friends, your hair spilling out of the tiny bun you’d managed to get it into, which had made you laugh, and sit down to have some burrata — another one of your favorites that chanel indulges in getting for you from time to time, even did while you were in the hospital and she had to put it on little crackers and feed it to you herself — and then accept a call from your agent. you step inside to take it, close the door softly. 

after it’s done, you yank the door open this time, burst onto the patio. all of your nerves are alive; in your shorts, your legs look strong again, tan and muscular and capable.

‘good news?’

you’re almost too excited to explain that you’re getting signed by your favorite club, $6 million for the year, with, if all goes well, an option to extend your contract another season after. a bonus: they just hired dr. jillian salvius, one of the best sports specialists in the world. all of your care will be, of course, included.

chanel starts to cry, which makes you start to cry, and she hugs you to her tightly. 

‘i am so happy for you,’ she says. ‘and i’m really gonna miss you.’

‘i’m gonna miss you too,’ you tell her. 

she backs up and puts her hands on your shoulders, a smile sneaking up her face. ‘you know, i happen to remember your favorite player in the whole entire world playing at a certain club.’

you hadn’t really thought past football and then six million dollars, but — ‘fuck.’

chanel laughs, face beautiful and delicate and rich in the sun. ‘i can’t wait to show her pictures of you in her jersey.’

‘oh god, are there any on my instagram? i have to go check.’

she just keeps laughing, and it’s all brimming, so wonderful, right at your fingertips.

/

you sign a few days later, your hands steady.

/

‘well,’ chanel asks, lounging back in bed on zoom, ‘how was day one?’

‘oh my god.’ your hair is still wet from the shower you took at the training grounds; you had raced back to your new apartment to make sure you were on time for your call. ‘i got there early, to play a little bit, get the nerves out, you know. and guess who was there and wanted to play 1v1?’

she grins. ‘no fucking way.’

‘i got schooled, obviously,’ you say, think of the way beatrice xin had moved with the ball, how surely she went into tackles, how precise she was. ‘i did score twice, though, and nutmegged her once. greatest football moment of my life, i’m pretty sure.’

‘what’s she like?’

you think chanel is probably humoring you, but you don’t care. ‘beatrice is… beautiful.’ it’s really the only word you have: her neat bun that stayed in place perfectly other than a few errant strands by the end of the session today; her clipped, lovely accent; the way her calves had looked while she was sprinting; the delicate lines of her face; her freckles and her eyes; how she had been serious and professional but kind; her strong back, muscles rippling under her skin in a way that made you shiver, in the locker room when she had untucked her quarterzip and pulled it over her head; how she seemed lonely, despite it all. ‘she’s really beautiful.’

/

it’s a while later when the sheer mortification dawns on you, but then beatrice, in her weird, hot, hilarious way, seems to dissipate the extreme embarrassment you’re going to be faced with by being embarrassing first.

‘hello, chanel.’ she reaches out her hand very seriously, in her favorite linen jumpsuit and a very expensive pair of off-white dunks and black, cat eye sunglasses that are honestly cooler than you expected, in front of her favorite nice brunch place. chanel shoots you a glance and then shakes bea’s hand firmly while you both try not to laugh. 

‘hey, it’s great to meet you.’

‘you, as well,’ bea says. ‘i — before we sit, i just wanted to extend my admiration, for the work you have done both on and off the field for trans equity in our sport.’

it’s so serious, and so genuine, chanel seems a little disarmed and a little affected. ‘thank you.’

bea nods once, seriously. ‘and, maybe more importantly, even, my deep gratitude, for caring for ava. she’s spoken so highly of you, and it means — i love her,’ bea decides on, after a pause. ‘i’m glad, immeasurably so, that she has people who love her too.’

chanel suspiciously sniffles. ‘can i give you a hug? is that weird?’

bea smiles, a real smile, your favorite, and opens her arms. you resist the urge, passionately, to make a joke about how the two hottest (sorry, lilith) women you know together is really gonna do it for you during your alone time later, which is honestly a fucking feat.

‘well,’ chanel says, ‘i made a presentation of every embarrassing thing ava has done that you should know about.’

‘oh no.’

bea loops her arm with chanel when she gallantly offers, and bea says, ‘oh yes.’ you trail behind them, feeling short and small and bursting with happiness. chanel orders basically the entire menu for you to try and she and bea laugh at your expense when chanel opens her phone and does, indeed, have an entire canva presentation of you being embarrassing, but you don’t really mind at all. the sun warms your shoulders and you drink champagne that costs way too much money, the bubbles bright on your tongue. chanel laughs and bea puts her hand on your thigh, just like that: you feel it all.

[lovely--lover]

Hellfire Holidays

Merry late Christmas if you celebrate the holiday! I always seem to post the holiday themed writing late lol I am settled in my personal life so I will be writing more now. I have missed it a lot 🥺

Eddie Munson

🔥Christmas inflation has hit the drug sales! Eddie gives no discounts or deals during the holiday season. He needs the money to buy Wayne Christmas gifts.

🔥Eddie gets all the Hellfire club members new D&D dice (even Erica) he sees a glittery set of pink dice and thinks of her 🥺

🔥Eddie never knows what to buy Wayne for Christmas. He never wants anything except Eddie to be safe. So Eddie gets him a new hat and mug every year (it’s become some what of a tradition) Wayne must like them since they’re displayed all around the trailer!

🔥Eddie also gets him new work boots and clothes. The nice kind that cost a lot and last a long time. Wayne always protest that he can’t accept the gifts.

“I know these are expensive boy. I don’t want you spending your money on me mine are just fine….take em back and get your money back”

“That’s too much work plus I lost the receipt so just keep em old man”

🔥He buys gifts for Max and leaves them on her front porch with a scribbled tag that says For Red. The gift contains various cassettes and a fluffy blanket (the trailers get cold in the winter) and When Max pulls out a Metallica cassette she can’t help but smile “That freak”

🔥Eddie hated Christmas as a kid his only family was Wayne and they were poor and kid Eddie didn't understand. So Wayne would take him to see Christmas lights and meet Santa, and attempt to decorate the trailer.  

🔥Every holiday since Wayne wraps the trailer in glowing Christmas lights making it stand out in the dark trailer park.

🔥Wayne also made a tradition that on Christmas Eve Eddie could stay up as late as possible and watch the Christmas movies on TV while eating cookies and waiting for Santa. Little Eddie would always crash on the couch resting on Wayne's shoulder. Wayne would carry him to bed and tuck him under the blankets before placing the presents under their small tree.

🔥They still do this tradition but Eddie stays awake much longer and no longer believes in Santa so when midnight hits Eddie will run to his room and get the gifts for Wayne to open “It’s technically Christmas!”

Gareth Emerson

🔥Gets dark red dice with silver numbers from Eddie for Christmas Gareth feels bad so he runs to the vending machine and gets him a candy bar and a soda.

🔥Every year his mom makes him and his sister wear matching outfits and take pictures together at the mall. They are awkward and Gareth doesn't smile until his mom yells at him to.

🔥His mom bribes him with $20 to not tell his sister that Santa’s not real and if he does she will beat him (said jokingly…..maybe) Gareth wasn't gonna tell his sister that anyway but still takes the money and uses it to but his sister a Christmas gift

🔥Gareth gets his a mini red flannel, markers and coloring books, and a bracelet making kit (yes she makes him a bracelet and yes he wears it everyday 🙄)

🔥Gareth gets a bunch of photos of him and his sister and puts them in a scrapbook. Writing down his commentary on the pages. He’s really nervous when she opens it (he spent all his money on his sister’s gifts) 

🔥His mom cries when she looks through the pages and grabs Gareth in a hug squeezing him tight “Oh Gare-bear you’re so sweet such a good boy!” “Mom please!”

🔥He’s secretly a sucker for Christmas sweaters! They’re so soft and cozy but he only wears them at home while watching movies with his family or laying in his bed cuddled up with his stuffie that his sister got for him…..so he can’t get rid of it! (that’s what he says anyway)

🔥He stays up late and stars out the window when it snow he thinks the falling snow is mesmerizing. The next morning he makes snow angels and has a snowball fight with his sister (he really adores her even though he would never admit it 🥺)

🔥Jeff makes him a bear plushie!

Dustin Henderson

🔥He gets dark green dice with silver numbers from Eddie for Christmas. Dustin gives him his old copy of the Never Ending Story soundtrack. 

🔥The second it gets cold his mom is pulling out the scarves and gloves making him layer up until he’s sweating. 

“Mom it’s not that cold!”

“Dustybun! Yes it is, you’ll get sick. I still remember how miserable you were last year after getting the flu. My poor baby!”

He takes off all the layers when he gets on the bus (yes he does get sick🙄 )

🔥Has been getting gifts for months to make Suzie a Christmas box! It’s full of candy, fantasy books, a blanket, and one of his hats and a bunch of other nerd stuff lol

🔥Always makes his mom a Christmas gift (because she loves it) and it is the only type of gift she will accept.

Every Christmas Eve him and his mom eat cheese and crackers while drinking sparkling cider and watch game shows. His mom is so proud when he gets all the questions right!

🔥Jeff makes him a lion plushie

Mike Wheeler

🔥Mike gets yellow and purple dice with gold letters from Eddie

🔥Mike is an absolute Grinch!! He hates Christmas all the cheer annoys him. He always complains when his mom ask him to help decorate or go to festivities

🔥Only gets a gift for Eleven and spends hours at the mall trying to pick something. Makes Lucas and Dustin go with him (Max refused) he ends up getting her some scrunchies, markers, a teddy bear, and a Hawkins t-shirt to remind her of home.

🔥On Christmas morning he refuses to get up early so everyone has to wait to open gifts. He doesn’t really show any expression when opening gifts just gives a “thanks”

🔥He hates the snow and gets cold easily but still only wears a jacket because he thinks he’s too cool to wear a coat.

🔥Jeff makes him a mouse plushie

Erica Sinclair

🔥Gets pink glittery dice from Eddie and gifts from all the other Hellfire members. It’s all cute and nerdy stuff! She is the Hellfire Club baby but no one says it because the one time Gareth did she had to be held back by Dustin

🔥Erica likes Christmas because all of the gifts and money she get’s. She is a material girl! But she will not be getting gifts for anyone else she’s Erica she doesn't have to 😌💅

🔥I'm torn between the idea that she still believes in Santa or when she is taken to meet Santa she says something like 

“Who is this man! I know he’s not Santa! He’s not real” all the other kids in the line gasp in horror 

“Erica!”

  “What it’s just the facts”

🔥She is very honest about gifts if she doesn’t like it you will know

🔥Has an American Flag Christmas sweater where the stars are snowflakes instead (something like that) because Christmas is the peak of capitalism and she loves it!!

🔥Jeff makes her a bunny plushie!

Lucas Sinclair

🔥Eddie gives him gold dice with white numbers for Christmas. Lucas gives him a Hawkins Jersey “What the hell is this Sinclair?”

🔥Tries to convince Erica that Santa is real because he sees her as a kid “Only nerds think Santa is real”

🔥Gives Max the basketball he first scored a goal with, a new cassette player, and sneakers because he knows that hers get worn out quickly from skating and walking everywhere.

🔥Send will a letter updating him on everything and painting supplies for Christmas asking for him to send back a painting.

🔥He and Dustin have snow ball fights and Erica watches them from the window before knocking on it. “What is she saying?” Erica rolls her eyes and holds up an L before closing the curtains.

🔥Loves Christmas movies and popcorn! Invites Max to come watch one every Friday even though she always declines.

🔥Jeff makes him a tiger plushie

Jeff

🔥Gets light blue dice with silver numbers from Eddie for Christmas. He gives Eddie a handmade bat plush, chocolate chip cookies, brownies, and lemon bars for Wayne.  

🔥Definitely knows how to sew and makes each of the members their own plushies. They are different animals.

🔥He loves Christmas and the winter. It’s cold which gives him an excuse to stay inside and bake all day. Gifting the sweets for people around him!

🔥He proudly wears Christmas sweaters and is the person to wear a Santa hat all day on Christmas. Insisting people fill a plate and make another one to go.

Adam (Freak 1)

🔥Gets black dice with silver numbers from Eddie. He gives Eddie the new Metallica CD (he wants to impress Eddie so bad lol)

🔥He loves the Holidays because he gets to spend time with family and loved ones. He is a very sentimental guy and loves being close to those around him.

🔥I get the vibes he is half Jewish. He tells the members about Hannukah and how they celebrate it. They are all very respectful!!

🔥Jeff makes him a shark plushie!

Masterlist

Thank you so much I hope you enjoyed it! 

[weixuldo]

Unconditionally// Ch 14

Anakin x Reader

(A/N: Sorry this chapter is really long lol, also ngl theres alot of fluffy writing and detailed scenes for no particular reason... But I hope you enjoy and thanks for reading!!)

Things are getting better

Warnings: Injury recovery, loss of limbs, cursing, bad grammar

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Ahsoka rolled Anakin’s new chair down the ramp in the front of the house to the car. The chair was motorized and was quite expensive, though Anakin could definitely afford it. Ben helped him into the chair and then went to get the twins.

You bent down to fasten the seatbelt over his waist. He thanked you and you responded with a light kiss. 

“Welcome back” Ahsoka smiled brightly.  

“Thanks, its great to be '' he returned.

Soon you hear the front door burst open and out ran two excited kids.

“Daddy!!!” Leia shouted, bounding over to him.

Her brown hair was done up in braided pigtails and her purple nightgown flowed behind her. 

For a moment you worried she would attempt to jump into his lap, but thankfully she stopped just in front of him. Luke wasn’t far behind and quickly found himself by his sister’s side.

“Dad! You're back!” Luke exclaimed.

He smiled and nodded, “Yeah, I am. How has your Christmas been?”

“So cool!! I got a new puzzle and some books” Leia exclaimed.

“I got my very own tool kit and some new stuffed animals,” Luke smiled. 

“That’s awesome guys, I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for your presents” Anakin offered as Ahoska, you, and Ben began bringing his stuff into the house.

“It’s ok!! You’re here now! Best Christmas ever!” Leia reassured her father. 

“Ok, we should get everyone inside, it's pretty cold out here” you offered, rubbing your arms. 

Anakin nodded and allowed you to guide his chair towards the ramp. He used his longer arm to push the toggle at the end of the arm on the chair to move himself forward. Once everyone was inside the house you closed the front door. 

A warm smell of fresh gingerbread flooded your senses, the house was even more decorated than it was when you left last. The bright garland swiveled down the stairwell and the tree was lit up magnificently.

You missed it. 

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The rest of the evening went pleasantly, the kids got to sit with Anakin on the couch, Ahsoka helped you make a nice dinner, and the snow began to fall harder. You felt great relief now that Anakin was finally home, though you could tell he was exhausted.

Ben and Ahsoka said their goodbyes and left after giving everyone hugs. The kids were fast asleep on the couch next to the fireplace. 

“Should I take them to bed?” you asked, to which Anakin nodded.

You gently scooped the sleeping Luke into your arms and quietly made for the stairs. Next you fetched Leia, you tucked them into their beds and gave them each a forehead kiss. You really did love these kids.

Back in the living room, you took your place next to Anakin on the couch. “Merry Christmas”. 

“And to all, a goodnight” he smiled, leaning over to kiss you.

“Would you like to get into bed?” you asked softly.

“I would love to sleep in my bed,” he confirmed.

You hopped up off the couch and helped him into his chair. You placed a gentle, yet firm hand on his back and guided himtodards the edge of the cushions. Once he was in the chair he headed for his “new “ room. Since the stairs proved too difficult to modify as of now, you had to move his room to the base floor. 

Once inside the room you showed him some of the new accessibility features. The bed could be lowered and was equipped with modern looking guard rails; you knew he was peeved that he needed them, but it was for his own safety.

There was a stand for his phone to hook up to so he would be able to read messages and see the screen without having to pick it up. The door frames were widened slightly and the bathroom connected to the room was handicapped accessible.

You followed closely behind him as he examined the new furnishings. You could tell he was a little down, but he was too tired to voice his opinions on the matter. You had helped him bathe before coming back from the hospital so he didn’t need to shower tonight.

You unbuckled him from his chair and helped him onto the soft bed. He breathed out a contempt sigh once his body hit the mattress. 

“Fuck, this is so much better than that shitty bed” he exhaled as he leaned into the pillows behind him. 

You smiled, the hospital bed was not the most comfortable thing in the world, so this bed must've felt like a cloud to him.

You smiled and began to help him into nightwear. You slid off his sweater and undershirt before taking off his bottoms. You replaced his boxers with a new pair and pulled the covers to his chest. 

You went to flip off the lights when he caught your attention,

“Where are you going?” he asked.

“I was going to go back out and clean up the kitchen some more” you answered, to which he frowned slightly.

“That can wait”

“I guess so, but I also want to give you some time to yourself, I know you enjoy that” you gently smiled at him.

He shook his head, “I do, but not tonight… will you stay?”.

“Would you like me to?” you asked curiously, you thought we would have been tired of you by now. 

“Of course” he said and your feet led you to his bedside. You couldn’t lie to yourself, you were pretty ecstatic he asked you to stay. 

You took off your sweatshirt and jeans to be left in a tanktop and underwear. You genty dipped into the mattress, careful not to jostle him, and found yourself beside him.

Lying beside him made you feel like you were worth something, he never made you feel unwanted or a burden like all the others in your past. He hadn’t abandoned you. 

You were snapped out of your mind when you felt his eyes on you. You turned to meet his face, his deep blue eyes were analyzing your features, his pupils blown wide. Before you could say anything he said, “You’re so beautiful, did you know that?”.

You blushed, he wasn't usually one to give so many compliments. Instead of responding you leaned into him and pressed a gentle kiss to his lips. He gladly reciprocated the action and the two of you quickly fell asleep.

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A few more weeks went by, the kids were quite happy that their dad was back and so was he.

Your classes resumed but you still spent most of your free time at the house or taking Anakin to his physio. Lately they had been focusing on strengthening the muscles left in his limbs to get them ready for the prosthetics.

The therapists often took the elastic bands and made him repeatedly stretch them out with his arms or legs to build up his strength. 

Today was no different, except for the fact his personalized prosthetics were ready. Your professors allowed you an excused absence because you were the only one who had time to take him. 

You had stayed the night at his house so currently you were getting the kids lunch boxes together. Once they were done you went upstairs to check on the twins, “Are you guys almost ready?”.

Leia was zipping up her boots and Luke was struggling with the buttons on his coat.

“Yep! Almost!” Leia smiled. 

Once they were done they grabbed their bags and bounded down the stairs. Anakin rolled around the corner to see them off.

They hugged him while you grabbed the lunches to hand them. 

“Today’s the day, right dad?” Luke asked enthusiastically.

Anakin huffed out a small laugh and nodded.

“You promise to take it easy, ok daddy?” Leia fretted.

He bent down to kiss her head, “of course princess. And tonight I will be able to give you two real hugs”.

The twins smiled widely before waving their goodbyes as the bus pulled up on the other side of the gate. You waved to them from the door as Anakin watched them leave from the window beside you; he didn’t want to scare the other kids or embarrass the twins. 

You closed the front door and turned your attention to the man beside you, “Are you ready for today?”.

He inhaled a breath, “Yeah, I’m just ready to have some semblance of normality”. 

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The robotic digits of Anakin’s new hand flexed and relaxed around the foam ball as he concentrated on moving what was left of his muscles. Thankfully the physical therapy had been helping him flex his triceps and biceps separately to carry out different actions with his new arms.

“Anakin, they look great” you complimented as you watched him adjust to the arms. 

“Thank you, Y/N” he beamed up at you.

 He huffed out a relieved sigh as the mechanics were responding well to his commands. He lifted his new arms and watched as he rotated the hands to get different grips on the foam. 

“You're taking quite well to the prosthetics Mr. Skywalker! As time progresses you will become even more accustomed to them.” One of the prosthesis experts said as he made sure to gather all of the paperwork for the devices.

Anakin stopped examining the limbs to thank the mechanics, you smiled at his excitement. This was so good for him. 

Soon the appointment was over and you were headed back to the house. Once you arrived, you helped him out of the car and into his chair. You smiled as you saw his relief when his new hands worked to control his chair, he wouldn’t have to rely as much on you, Ben, and Ahsoka.

He was gaining his independence back.

You closed the doors after you followed him into the house. Once you turned around you were surprised to see anakin facing you.

“Hey, What’s up Ani?” you thought he had gone back to his room.

“Would you join me in my room?” he asked.

“of course Ani”

The two of you made your way to the bedroom; you were currently sitting on the edge of his bed as he faced you in his chair. 

“I’m so proud of you Anakin,” you said tenderly.

He smiled softly and lifted his new hand to your face, you heard the small whirrs of the mechanics as he moved the digits to brush your cheek. 

“I couldn’t have done it without you, Y/N” his blue eyes stared softly into yours.

You knew he couldn’t feel it, but you cupped his hand with yours; the cool surface of his hand pressed into your warm palm. Your eyes began to water.

It didn’t matter that it was metals and plastics, he was finally touching you.

“What’s wrong, darling?” he asked worriedly.

“I missed your touch, Ani. I missed it alot” you sniffled.

He released a comforting sigh and leaned his forehead to yours, “I missed holding you”.

You looked up to meet his gaze, your faces were mere inches apart. Something inside told you it was the time. You looked deeply into his eyes and whispered, “Anakin, I think I’m in love with you”.

Your heart thumped in your chest as he studied your features. Was it too soon?

You didn’t expect him to guide you into a kiss, the cool material of his hands cooling the blush rising on your cheeks. 

“I know I am,” he smiled. 

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(A/N: ahhh this chapter is so fluffy but i love it, the next few chapters will be the ones with time skips, so i hope it doesn’t get too confusing :)))

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[fizzingwizard]

Sims 4 has supposedly started rewards for logins (something like log in three times a week and you'll get a reward idk really). I don't get the point, the rewards just look like recolors of objects that already exist, I kinda want a couple, but I'll definitely live without them - and I'm also glad it's not anything more desirable because that would suck, I have time to play sims when I have time to play sims, an "incentive" won't free up my schedule haha. (yeah I know they're really not thinking about their adult bill-paying players with this :P we're here nonetheless tho)

Anyway, for better or worse, it exists. And I guess what I find most egregious about it is... the EA app itself is what makes logging in such an effing pain!

Since being forced to switch from Origin to EA app, I've had constant issues. Almost every single time I try to use it. The program ALWAYS wants to make changes for some reason. It often crashes on booting. It was also constantly "verifying" in the background when I was not using the app, until I figured out that actually meant it was searching for automatic updates or something and turned that setting off. Currently I've been waiting for the program to open for 5+ minutes.

Why would I want to log in to a crappy program three times a week for any reason, let alone so I can get a recolored mini fridge? Get real EA :/

ALSO THEY INCREASED THE PRICE OF KITS. At least in Japan. Because of how freaking weak the yen is I guess? I haven't heard anyone say the (already steep) base price of $4.99 was increased in the US. Anyway it's now 700 yen for a kit, up from 500. Fuck that shit. Literally everything here is super duper expensive right now. I can't even think about moving home to the US because 10 years of savings in Japan are basically in the toilet atm. So yeah Sims kits are abolutely 100000% not worth it. I'm buying the Riviera one because I really want those rock fountains, but kiss my ass bistro kit lol. Geez I don't even know what the price is gonna look like for the next expansion...

[soupsnakessss]

just found your blog and i’m a big fan!! i’ve always thought that something was “up” with those two but never cared to look into it further until now, when tumblr recommended you and i spent hours reading all the posts i could lol 🫣 i have two questions for you: first, what are your top mindy and bj moments? second, any other blogs like yours that you recommend? i’m rapidly becoming obsessed with them i fear 🤪

** this has been in my drafts for like two months now- sorry anon but here you go!**

This is such a fun but hard question.  It's impossible to narrow it down…

When BJ suddenly got choked up and started crying about Mindy on NPR last year.

When Mindy was talking about this tweet from him on the Today show in 2018 and also, suddenly started crying.

This IG post (caption!) from Mindy in 2012 and the way BJ is looking at her.

This tweet from BJ on Halloween 2011 and the way Mindy is smiling at him- that he deleted shortly after because all the replies were asking why she’s kneeling.

Being the cutest parents together this May when they attended the spring fundraiser gala for Kit’s school.

When BJ was away in Europe in 2014 and was caught obsessively liking all of Mindys IG posts.

When BJ described Mindy as having “skin the color of a caramel latte, and the voice of a studious songbird”

This birthday present Mindy gave him.

And this birthday present- the expensive necklaces BJ bought her while he was in Paris in 2013.

Mindy’s “Happy Birthday, Rude Boy” post for him.

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The “come home” saga / BJ & Kit’s FaceTime 😭

“You autocomplete me”

These videos:

The two of them at BJ's 40th birthday party.

The legendary Bookcon talk - which includes the "love of my life" moment.

Mindy explaining how he was going to dress up as Santa for the kids in 2020.

All of the times Andy Cohen has gotten them to talk about their relationship.

BJ talking about their relationship last year and saying she is the most important person in his life.

Or saying that having "multiple generations" all together with Mindy, the kids, and both families in Boston this summer was "a dream come true"

Sightings like:

Out and about in NYC when she was secretly pregnant with Kit.

Mindy going to New Mexico to visit him on his movie set when she was secretly pregnant with Spencer.

The Hawaii trip no one knew about in 2012.

BJ spotted carrying and kissing baby Kit in 2018. And BJ spotted kissing baby Spencer in 2021, while Mindy held him.

The sweetest Central Park stroll with Kit before Mindy did the Met Gala in 2019.

This old sighting of them kissing and laughing in NYC.

Any and all of thirsty comments he leaves on Mindy’s IG.

These portraits from 2018 & 2020.

The time they were spotted getting cozy at the 2019 VF Oscar Party.

When BJ referred to them as eternal.

This quote from Mindy

This quote from BJ

And lastly this one

❤️❤️❤️ Everything is a top moment!

Blogs i recommend are: @heartcm /@karenwalkerdesigns / @aflawedfashion / @livelovecaliforniadreams / @bjkaling / these and any of the ones I previously linked, to look through their archives and tags.

[gggermicide]

it's not a permanent solution but there are mouth-safe kits you can get online to temporarily glue the crown back in place (as many times as you need until you can find a way to get actual help for it) if you look up "crown repair kit" and many guides online to help.

if you can i'd try to see if there are any dental schools or colleges with dental students in the area as they often offer much cheaper services (at the expense of students looking in your mouth lol).

there are also some outreach programs and dentists offices which do sliding scale or low interest payment plans when asked. i was in a similar situation in 2021 when two of my crowns popped off and i'm really sorry this happened to you as well! sending you all the good luck i have <3

thank you a lot for your help !

Hopefully I live in france and things are different here, even without insurance I will be able to pay the dentist, it just sucks. Why does it have to happen when I'm not home for 2 days ans during the week end 😭 I was just eating a rice ball lmao

[alectoperdita]

What creative hobbies does your interpretation of Joey and Kaiba (in general) have or do? Like for example, drawing, creative writing, 3D modelling, sculpting, woodworking, etc

I do remember reading one of your chapters from the gundam crossover series where joey did sketches lol

I don't think I really have a consistent view of creative hobbies for these two. In fact I don't seem to write a lot about them having creative hobbies unless it's directly plot relevant. Ironic, given 90% of my life outside of work revolves around my creative hobby.

Canonically in the manga, Jounouchi is mentioned as enjoying plamos. Which makes a lot of sense to me that he likes making stuff with your hand. It's also hard to have a lot of creative hobbies when growing up poor. So I can see Jounouchi wanting to make a lot of stuff like plamos and kits, but that shit gets expensive fast if you do the whole painting bit too. One of the pleasures of growing up and making your own money for Jounouchi will be getting to explore those hobbies he might have always wanted to but couldn't because of financial reason. That opens the door to related hobbies like painting/sculpting/woodworking.

(Related, I love making Jounouchi a carpenter. I think it's an excellent trade for him to pick up, giving him both room to grow and decent financial security).

Conversely, traditional sketch art/doodling is relatively inexpensive and a much lower barrier to entry re: tools. So that's why I think drawing/sketching is a nice hobby that Jounouchi could pick up and enjoy earlier on. In the Gundam crossover, that combination of a love for plamo and sketching definitely informed his career choice.

I think Jounouchi enjoys singing too, but he probably thinks of it less as a hobby than as a way to goof around. He's pretty good too when we take into account his Japanese VA's singing career.

Kaiba, on the other hand, lived a life of (relative) financial security. However, given how strict his education was, I dunno if he was ever given much of the mental space to explore creative hobbies. Art might have been seen a frivolous waste of time within his home schooled education. The one exception to that might be music. I can see Gozaburo insisting on Kaiba learning an instrument or two. But at that point it's more about developing a skill set to show off (and maybe me projecting the Asian experience of your parent forcing you to pick up an instrument because that's classically considered part of a well-rounded education in many East Asian cultures). Violin or piano are the most likely candidates here. Kaiba is good at them, because he has to be. He can't not learn it well if Gozaburo is invested in that part of his education.

How much he personally enjoys it is up for debate.

Definitely one of those things that I imagine falls quickly to the wayside once he's out from under Gozaburo's control. But that also offers opportunities for him to maybe rediscover it later in life, after his skill set had rusted a bit from lack of practice, and learn to enjoy the hobby for itself while relearning the ropes.

A lot of the creative hobbies I've written for Kaiba follow the same development model, including tea ceremony and calligraphy.

I guess that makes them both kinda comparable, because they've each lived a life of scarcity in their youths (more financial for Jounouchi, and emotional deprivation for Kaiba) that robbed them of opportunities to explore their creative sides. As they heal and grow, they can begin to explore those possibilities for themselves.

[achaiapelides]

Kit's Diary

Chapter 15

Dear Ty,

today we left Paris to spend a few days in the Netherlands. In Paris, we visited the Louvre, the church Notre Dame and of course the Tour Eiffel, which looks beautiful at night. Tessa also told me stories about Matthew Fairchild, the parabatai of her son James, who always was fascinated with Paris and run away with James' wife Cordelia to the city. I tell you, the drama is perfect. Tessa should totally write a book about them. Lol.

But we only stayed in Paris for three days. The day we arrived (Saturday), the day we explored the city (Sunday) and the day we left (Monday). So in addition to that, we only visited the Paris Institute and ate the famous French breakfast, which was very expensive, but totally worth the prise. So delicious. If cookies ever go extinct, I might survive with croissants, too. Also, I found out, that Americans pronounce croissant wrong. It's not "craysant", it's pronounced somehow like "cruwasoh". I can't really write out how it's pronounced, because it ends with this French nasal o-sound.

Anyways, after the breakfast on the third day we packed our stuff and portalled to the Netherlands. For the next days, until next Sunday, we are staying in a holiday home in a village called Cadzand-Bad. The house has three bedrooms, a living room and kitchen and three bathrooms. Now we can all shower at the same time. Lol. But the room Tessa and Jem are sleeping in is really the best in the whole house. It has a giant window, so big that basically the whole wall is the window. Here are some pictures:

This is the house:

Tessa and Jem's room:

Mina and my rooms (they look the same):

And the living room / kitchen:

Source: Verhuurburo Cadzand

After we arrived at noon, we went to the beach. It was still very warm and we decided to swim in the sea. First I was a bit shocked because, obviously, the North Sea is way colder than the Pacific in Los Angeles. But after a few minutes it wasn't that cold anymore and Mina and I attacked Jem and Tessa with the water. Note to self: Never attack a warlock with water! Mina suddenly decided that she wasn't on my side anymore and came up with a new game: Making-Kit-As-Wet-As-Possible. Or rather, Mate-Kish-Wet. When she archived that goal with the help of her parents, we put our normal clothes back on and walked back to the house through the street where all the shops are. We also bought some fish called Kibbeling and some North Sea shrimp.

Back at the house we ate dinner (the Kibbeling with fries), showered (not at the same time because the water pressure wouldn't be good) and went to bed. There, I texted Dru, who is staying with Emma and Julian because she also has holidays at the academy. She had asked me to meet in London, but since I'm not in England right now, I had to decline. But I send her a lot of pictures from Cadzand and now she's happy again. She apparently also showed them to Julian, who decided that the sunset here looks so beautiful that he had to come here, too, to paint it.

Obviously you also need to see the pictures, so here they are: 

The sunset:

The street with the shops:

And Cadzand from above:

Now, I'm going to sleep before I fall asleep in this position. That might not be great for my back.

Good night and sleep well.

Love, Kit

Author's note:

The photos of the sunset were taken by me, when I was in Cadzand last year, the other photos were not taken by me, but the source of them is linked.

Also, we actually wanted to rent this house for our next vacation, but somebody else was faster than we were, so Kit is now living in it instead.

And, yes, the next posts will be about Cadzand. Because I like it there so much.

[erigold13261]

What sort of careers would the arachnikids choose when they grow up (NSpideR AU)?

(I can’t get the mental image of Miles as a physics/art teacher)

(Or Gwen as a ballet teacher/drummer)

Since this is the NSR world, they would all most likely have something to do with the arts. Either music, art, entertainment, something like that is the most probably career to make the most money in this world and is a lot more fun/easy for the average person compared to jobs related to tech or something like that.

Though obviously I doubt every one of the arachnikids would take up a job in the arts. Like Miles probably does still have some affinity for science and tech. I don't have any great ideas, so I'll give suggestions and vague answers/career overviews.

Miles I can see as trying to do something similar to Miguel but in an actual helpful way. Either that or going into a science field that he can use his powers to help him. Maybe researching powers like Olivia (not in the way she researched, but like the fact she was researching powers at all) or using his art/color powers to document certain things in books (Plus he could be in a band with Gwen if he wanted).

Gwen I can see being an actual ballet performer, not a teacher. She would also be in a band with Miles (maybe Hobie). I don't really have any other ideas for note at this moment.

Pav, funnily enough, I don't know why but I can see him being a stay-at-home boyfriend lol. Like he would somehow have an income, maybe performing tricks or being like an influence (like I can see him having a yo-yo platform where he shows off tricks and stuff which makes him a bit of money over time) but he mainly takes care of the house while Gayatri works (I do see them staying together).

Gayatri probably stays as a model but goes more into fashion later on. I like the idea that her and Celine do constant collaborations which sometimes brings Eve into the mix (though Gaya tries to limit her business interactions with Eve so people don't think she is using Pav's relation to her to get ahead in life, even though at this point she's pretty well established).

Hobie is an indie artist. Makes enough money for it to live comfortably since Hobie doesn't have a very expensive lifestyle. Playing their guitar and not being told what to do (other than to have permits to play or the speed to outrun whoever is trying to stop it) is what Hobie would want in life. Heck, maybe Hobie joins Ex-Jay either permanently or just for collabs (three guitars in one band is something I think a few bands do, it's pretty cool the ones I've seen and I think they could make it work). I think Hobie would rather just collab with Ex-Jay than fully join them though because at this point they would be NSRtists and I doubt Hobie would ever want to join NSR no matter how much progress the company has made.

Margo and Peni go into tech fields. Margo I can see going into the field that Sayu and Crew are in. Virtual reality stuff. Margo could literally bypass having to code things by being in the code/virtual space and actually being able to touch and move stuff without it being programmed in. So Margo would be pretty indispensable along with one of the only people who could do that on her team (without having whatever special thing B2J had to go into Sayu's space. It is possible for people to go into virtual spaces, but Margo has a significantly easier time doing so). She probably wouldn't work with Sayu and Crew, at least not on the regular. I can see the Crew sometimes contacting Margo when something HUGE goes wrong and they need it fixed in a very short amount of time (like a few hours before a show starts).

Peni on the other hand goes fully into the tech scene and works with cybertech and biotech. Probably working in one of Neon J's companies, or at lest one that is connected to them. Kit could also work a bit with Vandelay Tech since Roxanne would be back in charge (or Peppermint would depending on if Roxanne is still around at this time) and Vandelay would be a much better company to work for. Honestly if kit wanted to work for Psychonauts kit could, especially in helping work with anti-psychic defenses. Peni might not be a psychic herself, but she knows tech and can help Gisu with inventions and stuff.

Noir.... hmmmm. I don't know really. I'm sure if I knew their comics a bit more I could think of something, but the only thing I can really think of is something related to a Rubik's cube but that's only because of the movie Noir having a deep fascination with them lol. I actually doubt Noir would do anything related to their color depletion. Maybe they go into sailing competitions (like the one on surfboards, not actual boats) because of their wind power lol (and then get kicked because of their wind powers not being allowed but they still do the sailing recreationally).

I can see Peter Porker going into either a science field or animation. Actually, let Peter Porker be a photographer! I feel like that fits him best, considering that was his actual job in the comics lol (or at least the movie). It would be funny if he ended up being one of the paparazzi for some of the Megastars. The science or animation field are also things I can see him going into though.

I feel like I'm forgetting someone but I can't really think of who.

[tayyemon]

Gamer Gifts to buy this Holiday Season

The holidays are around the corner, so if you have a friend or someone special you need to buy a present for and/or are just looking for something to treat yourself to this gifting season, then look no further than here. Also, a disclaimer that no part of this post is sponsored.

Geekshare for Console Accessories

Geekshare is a company that specializes in gaming accessories, they have products for the Nintendo Consoles, PlayStation 4/5, and XBOX. With a cute aesthetic for the most part when it comes to their selections, the main offerings are the following: Thumb grip covers, protective shell cases, controller covers, carrying cases for traveling. Geekshare has also broadened their store to include other options for tablets as well as desk accessories such as mousepads and charger adapters and even crossbody bags. (There is this cute plush cat one I saw that I want to buy myself now lol). There is both a personal website as well as an Amazon storefront linked below.

BenQ Screen Bar for Late Nights

Yes, this product is on the more expensive side ($109 USD), but the ways you could use this screen bar are quite versatile. It hooks up onto your monitor or laptop (via USB), but you can use this to be a regular desk light as well as this product has quite the range as well to help with those light nights of working or reading books; for aspiring streamers, it could also be their ring light as well! BenQ products are also certified as Eco-Friendly as well so if you want to shop with environmental consciousness in mind BenQ is a good place to start for tech related goods.

Hagibis Cleaning Kit for Tidiness

If you have some dusty and dirty electronics? Look no further than this 5-in-1 cleaning kit that does not only help with you keyboard and mouse but also other electronics such as ear buds and even for your scale figures. This product is revered by many and especially so on Tik Tok subgenre Tech Tok for its affordability as well as its versatility beyond tech goods. Currently this product is only available on Amazon, which is also linked below.

Cooluli Mini-Fridge for Snacktime

Something I have seen for a while across all my social platforms as of late is the trend of personal minifridges, whether it be for storing skin care, drinks, snacks, subscriptions, etc. While I personally do not understand the phenomenon of them it is something I can get down with, I mean who wouldn't want one to have their favorite snacks and drinks ready. I myself would personally use one for skincare though, what about you?

Yes, there is way more ideas out there (You should tell me all about them lol), such as the Wishlist buy as most games and websites let you buy for others such as Steam Wishlist’s and even in-game cosmetics such as League of Legends and Wildrift to name an example, but if this helps anyone, it is a solid win for me. As always, thank you for reading!

[legendary-assassin-stance]

3, 4, 5, and 8 for Noriaki <3

3. What was their most expensive purchase/where does their disposable income go?

Most of Noriaki's income (what he gets for helping people around New Kaineng / Arborstone with... a myriad of spirit / ghost issues) goes to food for himself, Orion, and the pets -- however, he does tuck some away whenever he can just in case of emergencies; his parents taught him money management very early on, so he tends to be the more responsible one between him and Orion lol

4. Do they have any scars or tattoos?

He has Shiro's Mark on the entirety of his back; he's had it since birth, but it's only been recently (since Shiro accidentally got bound to him during his botched summoning ritual) that it's started to glow a fiery-red whenever he uses his spirit-channeling / ritualist abilities.

The only other person to ever have this mark in the family was Yūki, unsurprising since he was the direct son of Yūma and Shiro all those generations ago, so Noriaki having also been born with it was a.... very big point of contention within the family while he grew up, whether it was a good or bad sign of things to come.

5. What was the last time they cried, and under what circumstances?

The most recent reason was Yūma appearing from the Mists; it was... definitely overwhelming to meet his ancestor, the reason his family line even existed, and be able to actually talk to him. (He'd never say it out-loud, but it was also so fucking relieving to have someone who could rein Shiro in from picking fights with Orion, Viktor, and Archemorus.)

8. Describe the place where they sleep.

His room at home is very bare-bones and only really filled with books and the talisman tools that his family employs for their rituals. Now that he's moved in with Orion, it's mostly Orion's stuff that decorates their room, though Noriaki has started to collect odd-end books once in awhile, as well as picking up another talisman kit from Kaineng.

10. What objects do they always carry around with them?

Other than a few assorted emergency talismans, the one thing that now no longer leaves Noriaki's person is a small, metal bell adorned with jade beads on the cord that he keeps tied to his belt -- it's what Yūma "bound" himself to, so he could freely wander the mortal realm and manifest if necessary.