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mrburnsnuclearpussy · 2 years

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I wish so badly that I never started watching Downton abbey because here I am now having near anxiety attacks over a fictional character and it’s just miserable and I want out!!!! This obsession hurts more than it feels good but I can’t get rid of it and idk how 😭

#god damnit I want to be normal and I have normal problems that I can explain to others and they can relate to #instead I’m just ??¿¿? stuck alone in this ridiculous embarrassing state of mind #i know it makes no sense. i know it’s not real but I can’t control the emotions and how much I care and I’ve been trying to for years 🥲#because it always gets to a point like this like #why is this my life and who I am 😵‍💫 I don’t want to be!#this shouldn’t be my joy and purpose in life and identity!! how do I stop the thing that’s been wrong with me for like 10 years now #this about dumb Downton abbey and stupid dumb shitty dumb things #it’s probably not even that bad (the stuff from the show) but it feels bad #at least if my blorbo had been Thomas then I’d have other ppl to share with #but no it was carson and everyone hates him and I’m the only one who cares abt him #and this is why I can’t tell ppl irl because it’s so embarrassing and cringe 😔#like oh my god I know all of my ranting is so whiny and insufferable also I just want to express this at least somewhere coz like I say I li #literally can’t in any other aspect of my life #god this is so stupid and it has a chokehold on me

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