#audhd

[the-future-is-chrome]

the neurodivergent experience:

20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333

80% of the time: this mind is a prison

[existennialmemes]

Please be patient. I'm trying very hard to be A Person™ but it's really difficult for me, and I'm not particularly good at it. There was no tutorial and the rules seem wildly inconsistent.

[aphel1on]

AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be

[thund3randrain]

when the autism is being an actual mental health problem instead of making me obsess over fictional characters again:

[eli-evermore]

I love human beings sometimes

[gentlebeardsbarngrill]

I was fucking red hot mad at the RFK Jr. after his horrible comment about autistic people and my knee jerk reaction was to defend my high functioning ND family and then I was scrolling through IG Stories, and adhd me didnt save it but I came across a reel (if I Can find it again I’ll link it) and it made me realize that by defending my high functioning ND family and focusing on how we can pay taxes, that I was leaving out my low-functioning ND and disabled Sibs.

So here is a gentle reminder—

For all the low functioning ND/Autistic folks (and all our disabled sibs) who require more care— and may never be able to pay taxes or be able to join the military— you are still worthy, and beautiful and you deserve happiness, and safe housing, and healthcare, and love just as much as every other human being.

Your contributions back to the society in which you were born do not define your worth. You are worthy the way you are. Dont forget that.

To my High functioning sibs. We’re in this together, and part of our jobs when defending ND folks rights is to make sure we’re including our low functioning sibs in the convo because the current administration is trying to dehumanize them.

Every single person, regardless of race, color, gender, sex, economic impact is worthy of this life.

[sleeplessv0id]

what doesn't kill you makes you weird at intimacy

[anexperimentallife]

One interesting thing about getting old as an autistic TBI survivor with ADHD and at least some degree of conventional attractiveness (YMMV) is that I'm no longer just "weird"--rather, I'm an eccentric old man with oft-entertaining idiosyncrasies and an (apparently) somewhat-endearing air of perpetual bepuzzlement, who--since I've fucked up so much--can advise people on exactly what NOT to do in many situations. (This apparently passes as "wisdom" on occasion, despite my insistence that I am not at all wise.)

[vroomvroomwee]

Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of being perceived.

Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?

Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.

Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?

Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?

Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?

Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out

People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?

Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.

It's all a defence mechanism

[sunnimals]

Bored with your everyday 'too-big' vocabulary? Here are a few terms to incorporate!!

AKA a translation for my language/body language / it gets more and more unhinged

Anybody - Anybuggy, Manybody, Anybuddy, *shrug and vaguely gesture*

Everybody - Everybuggy, Everybuddy, Everbody

Hello - Hallo (German), Heyo, Yellow, 'HAIIIIII!!!!', *walking up to them and waving at them from right in front of them*

No - No Tankoo, Nu-uh, Mmmmm!!!!, *hiding eyes*

Mouth going faster than brain - Bubbubbubbubbububu (while waiting for it to buffer)

Brain going faster than mouth - *large inhale*

You're going too fast - Wait for me i have little legs!!!!, S'ow downnnn, *running to keep up*

You are my friend - *grabs shoulders* coconuts have Water In Them

Various Vocal Stims that mean 'I am happy' - Sugar Peeeasss!!!! (Drop em!) Okayy!, I am Catbug!!!, Poor little bug on the wall Ding Jing..., Who's Morales?, Once upon a time there was a mom Her name was Mrs. Pteranadon...

[bipolarmango]

How to explain AuDHD things to NTs, by my therapist

"Imagine you're playing chess all day, every day, on a timer, where any wrong move could result in confusion or awkwardness. You are constantly anticipating, strategizing, and analyzing every move."

"Imagine you’re an actor performing a role for 8-12 hours a day, acting as ‘normal.’ You’re following rules you’ve studied your whole life, but one small slip, like showing your interests or being yourself, might make people question you or treat you differently. It’s exhausting because the role never ends and it feels like I’m always one wrong word away from the audience turning on me.”

“Imagine that your phone battery dies by lunchtime every day and the only way to recharge it is by sitting in complete silence for 12 hours. Even then, it only gets to 50%.”

"Imagine trying to use an old laptop with too many tabs open. It lags, freezes and crashes. That’s my brain on a regular workday. No matter how much I try to "push through", the system just shuts down.”

"It’s like sprinting with a permanently broken ankle: it’s possible but it hurts, and it’s not sustainable forever.”

[jesterkilljoy]

pinterest did the thing twice in like 5 minutes (bet u cant guess which hyperfixation is resurfacing)

[chelledoggo]

boomers be like "nobody had autism or ADHD when I was a kid!"

probably because back then, neurodivergent folks were dismissed as "insane" or "r-worded" and were thrown into mental asylums. and before that they were straight up just given hard drugs or lobotomies.

it's almost like as time goes on and technology/research evolves, so does our understanding of human beings and the inner workings of the mind.

WEIRD, RIGHT?

[mischief-night-ghost]

I froth at the mouth with the way that Gerard screams "pick up the phone, fucker" in bury me in black.

Is that normal? Or am I a gay mess? Help?

[sunbeam-catt]

I changed my sheets ‼️