#autistic habit

[saturnniidae]

I like to think Hiccup has whole 'conversations' with Toothless that are essentially incomprehensible to anyone but them (they consist of little human language–mostly draconic noises and body language as well as signals/cues specific to Hiccup and Toothless) the other riders are used to it at this point, but a lot of people are very much not and find it incredibly confusing.

Its started a lot of rumors of Hiccup being some 'dragon whisperer' that can actually speak to and command them and the other riders tease him about it relentlessly because he despises the rumors and always tries to correct them. Like every time they're brought up he'll say something along the lines of "No. If u actually pay attention to and connect with them, adapting to their way of communication isn't hard. I don't actually speak with them ur just not observant enough" and is constantly ignored

(This is kind of a follow-up to another post but I didn't want to tack it onto a rb)

[aroaceleovaldez]

what do you think about the charters (Nico, Percy and others) using mobility aids? (Especially after all the wars, fights, and other general injures they've probably got over the years)

I may be biased as someone who uses mobility aids, but I definitely think more demigods should have mobility aids in general. Nico in particular definitely could use it with how often he collapses and with how he generally exhibits some symptoms of low blood pressure at the very least if not POTS or EDS. I'm particularly biased to drawing him with my own crutches, lol (they have knee rests!!!!).

Also I always love seeing Grover with crutches. He was introduced as having a muscular disease - i know that's implied to be just cause he's actually a satyr, but also he's the only satyr to be described as "walking like every step hurt." So give him crutches!!!! He needs them!!!

I dont have any particularly strong opinions for other characters, except maybe usually giving Leo a prosthetic leg so he can thematically match his dad and sometimes crutches alongside that, and my friends and I have talked about Jason using a rollator before, particularly in Jason Lives!AUs. But regardless I always love discussing comorbidity between various other conditions and disabilities with ADHD and dyslexia and a not insignificant number of those comorbidities may require mobility aids. Functionally demigods are kind of more like intensive athletes with magic healthcare, and very few are on the level of like Nico where they've been through the wringer so much that it has lasting effects on them - actually very few in general seem to get a lot of physical damage that doesn't get healed quickly (i think in part cause most campers don't actually go on quests). mostly just psychological damage - so i don't think every demigod would need mobility aids, but like statistically there should probably be more just given the comorbidity stuff to begin with. Everybody who's come back from the dead should probably have more going on with them though imo.

[muttsandmustelidae]

man have whatever opinions you want about doodles, but if you’re immediately a dick to people who say they have a labradoodle or whatever you reeeeeeally need to work on not being such a deeply unpleasant individual. you’re not being the A+ Good Ethical Dog Person you think you are, you’re just being an unprovoked asshole 💀

[justaturtleindisguise]

2 ways of eating grapes!!

[athina-blaine]

quick friends, share with me the moment you could feel dunmesh becoming a series you were watching/reading to "oh so this is where i live now" for me it was laios getting on all fours and barking like a dog and then forgetting to draw his sword because he was too in-character

[oifaaa]

The one who said slice of unbuttered bread that’s what I was thinking of when I called u a low level beta but Tim is top tier omega just fyi

Damn you see me as unbuttered bread I'd be insulted if I didn't literally have just a piece of unbuttered bread for my breakfast this morning - but yeah I refuse Tim being an omega I just refuse that boys a beta through and through infact new test to see if you understand Tim as a character which abo alignment is he if you say anything other then beta you don't understand Tim

[pagodazz]

What do you personally interpret the emh ending as? Like what was habits goal and what did he accomplish?

OKAY SO I'm actually kinda nervous with this question bc I fear I don't have the same interpretation everyone else has for this ending, and I mean this is just what I'VE chosen to believe. and habits ending is NOT the same as everyone else's and I don't really think he "won" anything and I'll explain why. Also I will be rambling so I'm so sorry LMAAOOO

I'm so sorry for typos and stuff I'm dyslexic and I type really fast so I might've messed up a bunch of things 😿😿😿

@freezingmcxn

What it means for habit:

It's said in one of the canyouseethewords entries that it seems like habit is trying to make himself the perfect vessel, and we see habit over and over again bash Evan, and hate who he is, doing everything he can to rip him apart (literally and figuratively) and hide him and push him down and never let him see the light. He even says in half acre of ash, "Empty... unstoppable ..."

I firmly believe that habit's goal is to hollow Evan out until there is nothing left and habit gets to wear his skin and experience life as something he could never even be. Habit is stuck in this loop just like everyone else, he just had to live with the memories. He got bored he decided to torture humanity and force them to deal with the suffering that he feels like he goes through everyday, he doesn't care about humanity because humanity doesn't care about him, why should THEY matter when HE doesn't, nothing they do will matter when the loop resets, there will be new people and new ways to kill but if he could experience life as something new if he could CHANGE. He needs something fresh something he's never had before in his life.

Habit has never been human, he could never be human, and so he'll wear their skin and ruin their lives because they'll have something he could never have, and I think that's another reason why he latches onto Vinnie so much. Vinnie has a lot of humanity and he even thinks there is good in habit, he ACTUALLY believes habit could change and while habit knows he won't he wants to continually be reassured that HE CAN CHANGE. Habit himself is a very lonely entity he says in a summoning that his only friends are slenderman and the rake and they don't make for good conversation. And Vinnie summoned HIM because habit could talk, he was willing to sacrifice his life just because if he died, he would atleast have someone there to talk to him, atleast he wouldn't die alone. (I'll come back to that)

Habit very clearly needs the north star which is something only Vinnie is able to create, obviously others can draw it and use it but it's VINNIE that needs to do it in order for it to have any true power. I think that Habit had gotten very attached to Vinnie and wanted to keep him from making it because he just... wasn't ready for Vinnie to die yet, he wasn't ready to TRULY change yet. But Vinnie needed to move on and he left and the north star was drawn. While Vinnie does all that Habit goes through his crisis, the fact that no matter what he does it means NOTHING. I mean the emh kids found a FATHER they got LOVE they have the plot armor HE DOESN'T GET TO HAVE. where is HIS good ending?? where is everything HE wants??? He thinks he deserves to get everything great and wonderful even though all he is is awful. So he decides that maybe death is the only way. Maybe if Vinnie kills HIM for a change, and starts it over, maybe it Vinnie kills Evan with the north star, in the next life habit could either come back and there would be less of Evan left and he would be even more wild and animalistic and habit would be able to just completely push him out and take over his body and become him. Yet he doesn't want to be Evan, he just wants to own his body, he wants Evan dead he thinks Evan is hogging something he could have almost. Or maybe, maybe habit just wanted to die.

Although we see him "leave" Evans body, I don't think he actually went anywhere. I think he just gave Evan control and fed him memories in order to keep Evan fueled with anger, enough to fight. Habit knew Vinnie wouldn't wanna do it, he knows Vinnie wouldn't want to kill him, so he brings out Evan who he KNOWS will want to kill VINNIE. He needs to push Vinnie to do something he would never wanna do in his life, which is HURT Evan.

The entire ending of everymanHYBRID is supposed to show that everyone is the worst version of themselves that they could be. Evan had lost sight of who he truly was letting himself be completely taken over by the violence within him and he couldn't bring himself to feel any sympathy for Vinnie because in his head, Vinnie hasn't been through ENOUGH to feel bad. And then he learns Vinnie is numb after everything he can't even bring himself to say Vinnie is NOT a monster. Vinnie goes out of his way to make Evan feel better and Evan can only reciprocate by asking Vinnie to play videogames, WHICH it's the same exact thing habit asks to do in breaking the lease when he realizes Vinnie is clearly upset about something.

and Vinnie let himself get so obsessed with learning more and fixing things that he completely lost himself. He wanted to make things better so bad but no matter what he does he just makes things worse because that's just what he's supposed to do. He is not good but he so desperately wants to be. He'll convince himself by going "I did what I had to do" when he really NEVER had to do any of it. He was convinced he was going to save everyone but while doing that he literally got them all killed. Vinnie believes that he too can change for the better, but in reality he's only going to get worse. I feel like a lot of people don't see it this way but thanks to habit and everything he put him through and taught him, Vinnie was able to kill Evan. It was just when he let his guard down Evan took his chance.

Evans ending is him viewing himself as the hero, He thinks got betrayed and Vinnie is why everything bad has ever happened. Like of COURSE!! Vinnie was behind it all, Vinnie is who put the cameras up, Vinnie killed Alex, Vinnie summoned habit, it all connects. He is so hurt and betrayed that he knows he has to kill Vinnie in order to start the life all over. He even says he doesn't want to but he DOES IT ANYWAY. And he's not kind with Vinnie either, for most of the fight Vinnie just lets Evan beat him probably because he thinks he deserves it. Evan lost everything and he needs someone to blame, someone he can actually kill because he can't kill himself and he isn't willing to blame himself so it's just easier with Vinnie. Evan is killed while trying to kill Vinnie, he's literally everything he never wanted to be. Would the Evan in the early emh blame Vinnie for everything?? would he attack him on site and strangle him and beat him?? no. He would've done everything he could to understand why Vinnie did what he did. But unfortunately, Evan wasn't willing to listen and he acted on impulse and it's what got him killed. But he didn't lose, To Evan, he got the last laugh. He threw the knife he cut Vinnie's throat (the voyuer shall swallow justices sword) and he knew they'd atleast die together. He won. He killed Vinnie.

To Vinnie this ending was a victim finally shining through, after all of this abuse for years, not just from habit but from Evan too, habit barely hurt Vinnie physically he left bruises but it was nothing in comparison to the psychological damage that he had to go through. And Evan brought no solace, when Evan was around he'd look to Vinnie for comfort and immediately get bothered when Vinnie has the audacity to look to him for comfort and angry when Vinnie knows something he doesn't. Because why does Vinnie get to be special?? why does Vinnie know but Evan is left in the dark??? Vinnie has never once acted out against Evan or habit, even after Evan had attacked him in one of the videos, even after he watched the videos of all their friends being killed by habit using Evans body, he stood by Evans side and he loved him. Every minute of everyday he loved him. He loved habit too in a way, he was a constant, he was reliable and vinnie needed someone to tell him what to do and he needed someone to tell him he's good.

(proof lol)

He wants to be reassured just like habit. And what does habit do?? he constantly reassures Vinnie that he's a GOOD MAN. It's only when habit is upset with him that Vinnie is called a "bad little boy." And vinnie didn't step out of line for so long.

It's only after EVERYTHING he's gone through, he sacrificed everything JUST FOR EVAN TO TRY AND KILL HIM IN END??? he was so devastated, and he knew deep down that he deserved it too for what he had done. But when Evan had started calling him a monster it was personal, because after all they went through he NEVER thought of Evan as a monster and for Evan to just ???? turn on him like that??? it had to break his heart. He needed to fight back because he was DONE letting people walk all over him finally, he was DONE letting himself get hurt if he was gonna die, he was gonna out out fighting. And he did it, he stabbed Evan, he shot him he put him down like the sick dog he was, and Evan put him down too, they're both a couple of sick cage fighting dogs who have nothing other to do than fight until they die. Vinnie crawled to Evan, he sat with him and he talked to him even though evan was gone and he says maybe they were just a couple of unlucky bastards... maybe they weren't monsters at all. They were just people who went through the most awful things and came out reacting to the trauma differently.

When Vinnie wakes up, everyone is walking to him, he's greeted with warmth and love and he acknowledges he messed up and no one is mad at him, they KNOW he did everything he could because they too did everything they could. They have their moments but even in the end they'll always have love for each other and they're just glad to have each other. Which is when Vinnie says he doesn't need the camera at the end. He doesn't want this to keep doing. If this life is going to restart, this time he won't document it. this time it'll be different.

It's even said in the tapes that they never know when the cycle will end but ONE DAY it will end. and you know what??? maybe that day came early. Maybe they're free. Or maybe they're able to start all over again and slenderman will find his way back to Vinnie, since vinnie is his favorite. And maybe habit is dead for good, or maybe in the next life there is no Evan, and there is only habit.

To me the ending is open ended on purpose to let the viewer decide what it is and it all depends on what character your attached to is too. Like if you only care about Evan, Vinnie is clearly the bad guy with habit, but if you're a Vinnie fan you'll know that Slenderman is to blame for so much more than Evan even knew about. They're all bad people but they're people at the end of the day. They aren't going to perfect, and they aren't going to honest or kind they're going to be flawed and mean and they're gonna lie.

BUT EVEN IF THEY ARE AWFUL PEOPLE they're awful together and they love each other more than anyone else ever could. They are a family and families fight but usually, they'll find a way back to each other. And they're not family by blood, they're just family in their hearts which to me is far more beautiful than anything else.

Their dad loves them. What else could they want? they have family waiting for them. Even after it all there is love and I think it's perfect. We as people deserve love even if we are awful in some ways.

people bash the ending all the time but it's by far my favorite one and I think it's so beautifully executed. I HAVE TO STOP RAMBLING THO SO IM SO SORRY I LET THIS GET SO LONG. I have a lot of thoughts and I'm sure I didn't even get to them all. If I need to elaborate more lmk 😭😭😭

[broccoli-bitching]

Did anyone else as a child read shopping catalogues for fun? Just me? Okay?

[kaliido-s]

Being into Palaeontology and Biology now means I can’t look at WoF the same way again because the amateur scientist in my brain is freaking out over how much stuff happens in such a short amount of time. You’re telling me these dragons diversified, evolved, and adapted into multiple different tribes throughout the span of a few thousand years, and at two different points in time??? Yeah right. Hell when you think about it, the history of the tribes and what they describe create the implication that it only took a few centuries. That’s insane. How am I supposed to insert spec evo into these fantasy dragons NOW Tui?!??!?!?!

[plumomi]

Stim practice doodles ft. my Radioapple child, Ellie. There were a few more I wanted to do, like some oral stims, but I ran outta drawing room.

[badatparties]

I find it hard to take up new habits because:

I want to know everything about the topic before I start so that I can make well-informed decisions along the way.

I want to start from scratch, as if nothing had come before it – a completely new, crisp white page.

I want to do it all at once, not by taking one step at a time.

I want to be perfect at it, whatever it is, from the very first moment.

I want to keep it up 100% of the time from the moment I start.

[halfsizehellboy]

k thinking abt things again

matt and frank communicating in morse code during nonverbal/missions/whatever because frank barely needs to make a sound for matt to hear it and it’s something they can both use and understand

frank is more sensory seeking and matt is more sensory avoidant, but the noise is a common ground they usually agree on (their good noise vs bad noise debates are very frequent though). While frank’s sensory seeking brain is okay with loud fight sounds because he’s familiar with them and he knows what to expect, they can both agree that the complexity of crowds and close spaces with people aren’t a favorite

they are both very tactile: whether they’re fighting or sparring, just standing next to each other, etc. and usually one of them is actively stimming with the other's hands.

they take turns being the weighted blanket but frank sleeps on his stomach a lot so it’s usually him

oh my god the echolalia. frank will run thru whatever shit he has in his head like marching drills, whatever music he’s been listening to, quotes from shows he overhears, really kind of whatever and matt will repeat it back to him. during missions it’s like marco polo. Matt usually repeats prayers, hail marys, and hymns/church songs.

frank’s main sensory avoidances aside from the noise are harder shelled foods with squishy or gooey things inside of them (think gushers, unfortunately m&ms), really anything that makes it impossible to separate the two textures in his mouth; really bright lights like the LED headlight brights on cars and especially the transition from darker or dim lighting straight to typical store-level or brighter lights. it’s not like matt’s big lights get used anyways.

frank is really good at staying in the same spot for really long periods of time. he is really good at not necessarily completely stopping physical stims, but minimizing them into their most efficient and tiniest forms. or just stimming in his head, turning shit around in his mind or focusing on a visual stim/something to watch.

frank pressing guitar chords and riffs in the air or into anything he has in his hand— including but not limited to: matt’s hand, matt’s arm, matt in general, pens, an actual just fretboard once that he was using as an impromptu weapon in a fight and kept it, a gun, a larger gun, a still larger gun, burner phones, and food. he does have a guitar. matt keeps it in tune because he can hear the air making bad chords when it isn’t. similarly, matt plays everything piano-- on frank, the table, etc.

[sunsetcorvid]

struggle.

[saym0-0]

headcanon that after jon woke up after his coma he just. forgot to put his glasses back on and only noticed when he tried to push his glasses up hours later and they weren't on his face

[jellypawss]

finally getting tested for adhd soon…after over a decade of not sitting when everyone else does, fidgeting with anything I can get my hands on, shaking my legs when sitting, not being able to focus and not being able to have a conversation without looking at my phone lol

[sickacademia]

do you guys know an app called Finch? I highly recommend it if you need a little hand for doing your personal hygiene, keeping up with your tasks, setting new goals or getting track of your mood.

it's free, it doesn't have any predatory behavior to make you buy the plus version and it doesn't show adds.

i started using it very recently, but i can already see some results.

i have always struggled with brushing my teeth, ever since i was a kid. but since i want to send my little bird to their little adventure i feel like completing my tasks.

everything i experienced using this app until now screams humane design. you can tell it was carefully made and its not just an ai generated TODO list.

also there is support for when youre feeling down:

you can dive deeper in your feelings with some type of emotion wheel where they help you finding out what youre feeling.

there are breathing exercises for anxiety

you can use the app as a journal and register important things about your mental health and current feelings

it helps you identifying and dealing with your triggers

there is meditation support too!

you can set reminders to make a stretch break too

first aid kit with many options where you can decide what activity will make you feel better.

and every single activity of these gives you more energy points that will either send your bird to an adventure or make them return sooner if theyre already gone.

also we do love online pets a lot dont we! from tamagotchis to puffles we all have been there some day. but its even better when your online pet takes care of you too :)

theres also ways to customize your birds appearence with clothes, furniture and even smaller pets for them.

i think i already said a lot but thats how much i think this app is worth your attention in this technological hell we're getting in. giving a chance to good apps and supporting their developers is always something good to do!