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awkwardkindatries · 25 days
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My brain rot thought today: Elrond
A dim room, a roaring fire, and the veil of shady grey skies that give way to waves of rain. The Deluge swallowed the valley for hours on end in its resounding tone of white noise and whipping trees. Spending this atmospheric moment nestled beside Elrond. He's broad and warm and welcoming and the brightest vestige comfort one could seek in this weather. His cloak is fragrant of cinnamon and ink, just a touch of musk so familiar to man that it seems nearly misplaced..nearly. Though, it only endears him further, sinking into the fantasy written in the cadence of the downpour and the longing of your mind. How easy it is to fall for someone who falls short of a man and fulfills every rainy daydream simply by relenting to his presence.
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anghraine · 2 months
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Hi! Can you explain what really the power of foresight was with Faramir? I read the books earlier this year and I don't really quite understand it. He could predict the future? Like he would see it in his dreams? But how did he found out from Gollum that he was taking frodo and sam to cirith ungol and that he had committed murder before?
No problem, it's one of my favorite topics!
The concise explanation: I think Faramir's foresight/aftersight in terms of visions is a largely separate "power" from his ability to bring his strength of mind and will to bear on other people and animals, and to resist outside influence. The visions seem more a matter of broad sensitivity, something Faramir doesn't appear to have much if any control over. The second power is (in our terms) essentially a form of direct telepathy, limited in some ways but still very powerful, and I think this second ability is what Faramir is using with Gollum.
The really long version:
In my opinion, Faramir (or Denethor, Aragorn, etc) doesn't necessarily read thoughts like a book, particularly not with a mind as resistant as Gollum's. Faramir describes Gollum's mind in particular as dark and closed, it seems unusually so—
"There are locked doors and closed windows in your mind, and dark rooms behind them," said Faramir.
Still, Gollum is unable to entirely block Faramir's abilities. In LOTR, it does not seem that Gollum can fully block powerful mental abilities such as Faramir's, though his toughness and hostility does limit what Faramir can see. (Unfinished Tales, incidentally, suggests iirc that Denethor's combination of "great mental powers" and his right to use the Anor-stone allowed him to telepathically get the better of Saruman through their palantíri, a similar but greater feat.) I imagine that this is roughly similar to, but scaled down from, Galadriel's telepathic inquiries of even someone as reluctant to have her in his mind as Boromir, given that Faramir is able to still see some things in Gollum's mind, if with more difficulty than usual.
(WRT Boromir ... ngl, if I was the human buffer between Denethor and Faramir, I would also not be thrilled about sudden telepathic intrusions from basically anyone, much less someone I had little reason to trust.)
Disclaimer: a few years after LOTR's publication, Tolkien tried to systematize how this vague mystical telepathy stuff really works. One idea he had among many, iirc, was that no unwilling person's mind could be "read" the ways that Gollum's is throughout LOTR. IMO that can't really be reconciled w/ numerous significant interactions in LOTR where resistance to mental intrusion or domination is clearly variable between individuals and affected by personal qualities like strength of will, basic resilience, the effort put into opposition, supernatural powers, etc. And these attempts at resistance are unsuccessful or only partially successful on many occasions in LOTR (the Mouth of Sauron, for one example, is a Númenórean sorcerer in the book who can't really contend with Aragorn on a telepathic level). So I, personally, tend to avoid using the terminology and rationales from that later systematized explanation when discussing LOTR. And in general, I think Tolkien's later attempts to convert the mystical, mysterious wonder of Middle-earth into something more "hard magic" or even scientific was a failed idea on a par with Teleporno. Others differ!
In any case, when Gollum "unwillingly" looks at Faramir while being questioned, the creepy light drains from his eyes and he shrinks back while Faramir concludes he's being honest on that specific occasion. Gollum experiences physical pain when he does try to lie to Faramir—
"It is called Cirith Ungol." Gollum hissed sharply and began muttering to himself. "Is not that its name?" said Faramir turning to him. "No!" said Gollum, and then he squealed, as if something had stabbed him.
I don't think this is a deliberate punishment from Faramir—that wouldn't be like him at all—and I don't think it's the Ring, but simply a natural consequence of what Faramir is. Later, Gandalf says of Faramir's father:
"He can perceive, if he bends his will thither, much of what is passing in the minds of men ... It is difficult to deceive him, and dangerous to try."
So, IMO, Faramir's quick realization that Gollum is a murderer doesn't come from any vision of the future or past involving Gollum—that is, it's not a deduction from some event he's seen. Faramir does not literally foresee Gollum's trick at Cirith Ungol. His warning would be more specific in that case, I think. What he sees seems to be less detailed but more direct and, well, mystical. Faramir likely doesn't know who exactly Gollum murdered or why or what any of the circumstances were. Rather, Gollum's murderousness and malice are visible conditions of his soul to Faramir's sight. Faramir doesn't foresee the particulars of Gollum's betrayal—but he can see in Gollum's mind that he is keeping something back. Faramir says of Gollum:
"I do not think you are holden to go to Cirith Ungol, of which he has told you less than he knows. That much I perceived clearly in his mind."
Meanwhile, in a letter written shortly before the publication of LOTR, Tolkien said of Faramir's ancestors:
They became thus in appearance, and even in powers of mind, hardly distinguishable from the Elves
So these abilities aren't that strange in that context. Faramir by chance (or "chance") is, like his father, almost purely an ancient Númenórean type despite living millennia after the destruction of Númenor (that destruction is the main reason "Númenóreanness" is fading throughout the age Faramir lives in). Even less ultra-Númenórean members of Denethor's family are still consistently inheriting characteristics from their distant ancestor Elros, Elrond's brother, while Faramir and Denethor independently strike Sam and Pippin as peculiarly akin to Gandalf, a literal Maia like their ancestress Melian:
“Ah well, sir,” said Sam, “you [Faramir] said my master had an elvish air; and that was good and true. But I can say this: you have an air too, sir, that reminds me of, of—well, Gandalf, of wizards.”
He [Denethor] turned his dark eyes on Gandalf, and now Pippin saw a likeness between the two, and he felt the strain between them, almost as if he saw a line of smouldering fire drawn from eye to eye, that might suddenly burst into flame.
Meanwhile, Faramir's mother's family is believed to be part Elvish, a belief immediately confirmed when Legolas meets Faramir's maternal uncle:
At length they came to the Prince Imrahil, and Legolas looked at him and bowed low; for he saw that here indeed was one who had elven-blood in his veins. "Hail, lord!" he [Legolas] said. "It is long since the people of Nimrodel left the woodlands of Lórien, and yet still one may see that not all sailed from Amroth’s haven west over water."
In addition to that, Faramir's men believe he's under some specific personal blessing or charm as well as the Númenórean/Elvish/Maia throwback qualities. It's also mentioned by different groups of soldiers that Faramir can exercise some power of command over animals as well as people. Beregond describes Faramir getting his horse to run towards five Nazgûl in real time:
"They will make the Gate. No! the horses are running mad. Look! the men are thrown; they are running on foot. No, one is still up, but he rides back to the others. That will be the Captain [Faramir]: he can master both beasts and men."
Then, during the later retreat of Faramir's men across the Pelennor:
At last, less than a mile from the City, a more ordered mass of men came into view, marching not running, still holding together. The watchers held their breath. "Faramir must be there," they said. "He can govern man and beast."
Tolkien said of the ancient Númenóreans:
But nearly all women could ride horses, treating them honourably, and housing them more nobly than any other of their domestic animals. The stables of a great man were often as large and as fair to look upon as his own house. Both men and women rode horses for pleasure … and in ceremony of state both men and women of rank, even queens, would ride, on horseback amid their escorts or retinues … The Númenóreans trained their horses to hear and understand calls (by voice or whistling) from great distances; and also, where there was great love between men or women and their favorite steeds, they could (or so it is said in ancient tales) summon them at need by their thought alone. So it was also with their dogs.
Likely the same Númenórean abilities were used for evil by Queen Berúthiel against her cats. In an interview with Daphne Castell, Tolkien said:
She [Berúthiel] was one of these people who loathe cats, but cats will jump on them and follow them about—you know how sometimes they pursue people who hate them? I have a friend like that. I’m afraid she took to torturing them for amusement, but she kept some and used them—trained them to go on evil errands by night, to spy on her enemies or terrify them.
The more formal version of the Berúthiel lore recurs in Unfinished Tales:
She had nine black cats and one white, her slaves, with whom she conversed, or read their memories, setting them to discover all the dark secrets of Gondor, so that she knew those things "that men wish most to keep hidden," setting the white cat to spy upon the black, and tormenting them.
Faramir, by contrast, has a strong aversion to harming/killing animals for any reason other than genuine need, but apparently quite similar basic abilities. He typically uses these abilities to try to compassionately understand other people or gather necessary information, rather than for domination or provoking fear. Even so, Faramir does seem to use his mental powers pretty much all the time with no attempt to conceal what he's doing—he says some pretty outlandish things to Frodo and Sam as if they're very ordinary, but it doesn't seem that most people he knows can do all these things. This stuff is ordinary to him because it flows out of his fundamental being, not because it's common.
It's not clear how much fine control he has, interestingly. This is more headcanon perhaps, but I don't feel like it's completely under his control, even while it's much more controlled than things like Faramir's vision of Boromir's funeral boat, his frequent, repeated dreams of Númenor's destruction, the Ring riddle dream he received multiple times, or even his suspiciously specific "guess" of what passed between Galadriel and Boromir in Lothlórien. Yet his more everyday mental powers do seem to involve some measure of deliberate effort in a lot of the instances we see, given the differing degrees of difficulty and strain we see with the powers he and Denethor exhibit more frequently and consistently.
This is is also interesting wrt Éowyn, because Tolkien describes Faramir's perception of her as "clear sight" (which I suspect is just Tolkien's preferred parlance for "clairvoyance"). Faramir perceives a lot more of what's going on with Éowyn than I think he had materially observable evidence for—but does not see everything that's going on with her by any means. He seems to understand basically everything about her feelings for Aragorn, more than Éowyn herself does, but does not know if she loves him [Faramir].
I'm guessing that it's more difficult to "see" this way when it's directly personal (one of the tragedies of his and Denethor's relationship is that their shared mental powers do not enable either to realize how much they love each other). But it also doesn't seem like he's trying to overcome Éowyn's mental resistance the way he was with Gollum, and possibly Frodo and Sam—he does handle it a bit differently when it's not a matter of critical military urgency. With Éowyn, he sees what his abilities make clear to him, is interested enough to seek out Merry (and also perceive more than Merry says, because Faramir has never been a normal person one day in his life) but doesn't seem to really push either of them.
So I tend to imagine that with someone like Faramir, Denethor, Aragorn etc, we're usually seeing a relatively passive, natural form of low-grade telepathy that simply derives from their fundamental nature and personalities (as we see in Faramir with Éowyn, possibly Faramir with Aragorn). That can be kicked up to more powerful, forceful telepathy via active exertion of the will (as described by Gandalf wrt Denethor's ability to "bend[] his will thither" to see what passes in others' minds, and seen with Faramir vs Gollum, Aragorn vs the Mouth of Sauron, more subtly Faramir vs Denethor). At a high point of strain this can be done very aggressively or defensively (Denethor vs Gandalf, Denethor vs Saruman, Denethor vs Sauron seriously is there a Maia that man won't fight, Faramir vs the Black Breath given his completely unique symptoms that Aragorn attributes to his "staunch will", possibly Aragorn vs the Black Breath in a healing capacity...).
Anyway, I hope these massive walls of text are helpful or interesting! Thanks for the ask :)
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donelywell · 2 months
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HERES YOUR ART PAYMENT
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SILVER!!!! (and Espio)
The boyyyy!!! Worth every cent!
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jaxyscreams · 4 months
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Geek Girl just hits different when you grew up undiagnosed autistic and got bullied for it
Like oooh I see parts of myself in such a kind and caring light and it feels cathartic it feels healing
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dollopheadedmerlin · 1 year
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Gwen really just kissed Merlin on the mouth and he still was like huh what a nice friendly gesture
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y-rhywbeth2 · 8 months
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Considering the politicking between enemy faiths (you can't kill each other in the streets, but that doesn't stop things getting nasty while they try and curb each other's influence) I'm kind of imagining my Durge getting to Act 3, hearing the head of the Open Hand temple is dead and going "Well, it wasn't me this time." Five second pause, rifling through fragmented memories: "...I don't think it was me this time."
I still love the fact that you can talk to Yannis and complain (subtly, but it's obvious why you're defending this position) that she's disrespecting your faith because murder is a religious thing for you. And she doesn't even kick you out of the temple, because while the concept revolts her and she indirectly insults several gods while side-stepping their wrath by not naming anyone, Durge is in fact correct that death is holy to them and that is a legally respected fact as long as they don't get caught doing it or murder citizens.
She's also passive aggressive with evil clerics, if they make snide comments: "Better to occasionally contradict one's morals than to have none. That being said..."
It seems ludicrous, and yet it's how religious politics is supposed to work: They hate each other's faiths but they can't openly fight about it or insult each other's gods directly (that's blasphemy, which is illegal).
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awkwardsaweeb · 25 days
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Brainrot thought: Vinegar Doppio
Something about the nervous man across the way is oddly endearing. He's soft and unremarkable but stands out in a way that compels a hello. It's the pout of his lips when he feels playful and gives way to his bratty disposition, the shy ways he asks for attention for fear of seeming needy, the way he degrades himself so easily and blushes a beautiful shade of flattered when you give the gentlest insistence otherwise.
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lottiies · 10 days
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sometimes i’m like wow i wonder why i suck at communication and then it’s like oh yeah because my mom always ignores me for days on end LMAOO
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tehshelaroxx · 27 days
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Me not being surprised that I wanted to fuck Longlegs after watching the movie....
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finnslay · 3 months
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Just had the realization that I'm trans
I knew before I just forgot for a bit there until I heard m deadname and I was like "who the fUcK-" for a few seconds
But chat I'm trans!!!! :DDD
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awkwardkindatries · 3 months
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I have had such a particular scenario running through my mind all day and I need to get it out.
Imagine: riding horse back through the green wood forests with Feren all day, him showing you were they forage food, the training grounds, the ins and outs of the palace. Then when he’s done he carts you off to his place of rest, a spot in the forest where the smell of decaying leaves is thick and the musk of the old redwood is rich and clings to your clothes. Enjoying an afternoon with your feet dipped into the chilled water of a runoff brook of deep idol chatter and soft longing stares that mean every bit of nothing and still a longing whisper of something.
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anghraine · 1 year
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I don't mean to deny that there's bad writing around, but I think some of the things denounced as bad or awkward writing are just ... characterization?
Dialogue in particular can be awkward when a character is awkward or at least not much of a people person. Sometimes characters aren't especially articulate or eloquent! That's fine!
There's a point at which it can be jarring or "off" even for the character. Or it can be in-character, but still taken so far that it's (unintentionally) aggravating; generally fiction aims to be somewhat life-like, not documentary. But there's got to be some accommodation of character. They should have distinct voices, after all.
Also, there's something related to this issue of examining lines or dialogue in isolation from context, characterization, etc, I think. It's pretty common and useful to quote characters' dialogue to substantiate some position or another. It's not bad per se, but I think it's important not to be uncritical about it.
Sometimes characters aren't completely self-aware, after all (IMO this should be most of the time, in fact!). Sometimes they're wrong. Something they exaggerate out of guilt or self-aggrandizement or some other reason. Sometimes they flat-out lie.
And I think we sometimes look at dialogue (or even narration) that contradicts something else and are like, look, an inconsistency! Bad! But often, it's because the character was wrong, whether about their own motives or something external to themself. Or lying. That's not necessarily bad writing. Sometimes it's just verisimilitude.
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the-badger-mole · 2 years
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If...
Zuko was nervous. He ran his hands discreetly over his pants, hoping to rid them of the moisture that had collected in the creases of his palms.
"I wasn't sure what you wanted to eat," he explained. "So I made a couple of different options. I...I tried to make the sea prunes you like, but they came out...um...wrong? Kind of salty, and...I don't know...tough?"
"I'm sure it's fine," Katara assured him. She grinned at the ridiculous spread on the table. She knew Zuko's knowledge of cooking was purely utilitarian, and while she was sure most, if not all of the dishes he'd made would be at least edible, it wasn't going to be anything like the restaurants in the Upper Tier of Ba Sing Se. Still, it was an incredibly romantic first date with her boyfriend.
Boyfriend. It was still weird to think of him that way, but they had made it official two days earlier. Then Zuko had spent the previous day arranging to have all their friends away from the beach house tonight, so he could surprise her with a romantic dinner. It was overwhelmingly sweet, and Katara thought it was perfect for their first date as a couple....If only Zuko would calm down a little.
"I'm sorry it's so lame," Zuko said. "If I weren't so worried about being recognized, I'd have taken you to one of the restaurants on the water. But, if you don't like what I made, we can still go. I was here a few months ago and no one knew who I was, so maybe-"
"Zuko!" Katara huffed exasperatedly. She put her hands on his shoulders and made him look at her. "If I kiss you, will you shut up?" Zuko gaped at her for a moment. He felt heat rising to his cheeks as her words worked their way through the haze of panic he'd been floating through all day. He swallowed hard, and licked his lips.
"It's worth a shot," he said with a shaky smirk
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popponn · 7 months
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to make my own day, i will talk about my favorite boy
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the isagi spectrum is so you get smiley boy next door who is undeniably plain outside but then boom turns out he likes totoro and has a cute taste and is c u t e and has a smile so bright i fell in love within two smiles. t w o. and silly weesagee. and then the inside aka the one that passionate, kinda twisted (it's not kinda. he is.), who works hard and do everything he can to achieve his dream. competitive as hell too.
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junonreactor · 1 month
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just did all the party sidequests. that was really cute
#i think my favorites personally are bonnie's and beau's#bonnie's because they're such a good kid and it's so fun to see the 'reveal' for not just sif's eye but the awkward distance between them#and sif's heartfelt shouting when it comes to bonnie's safety and the unquestioning acceptance of any personal cost if it means#they can keep the kid safe and alive#and how that changes the nuance a bit specifically regarding their eye when it comes to the way they avoid their problems#and also how the ''i would do it again and again and again'' and ''what's the alternative? my friends getting hurt?''#vs bonnie's ''but i don't want you to get hurt for me''/''you think you're better than everyone and you jump in because you don't think#it matters that you get hurt'' reflects on the overall looping situation#and it's going to be fun to see that super duper promise broken because Bonnie Won't Know#and like with all of the quests but this one specifically it'll suck so bad for siffrin to do these over and be able to Zone Out#''you don't want to have to loop back to before you spent that time with them''#and loop's dialogue when i went back to talk to them before beau's + their ''isn't that nice?'' ohhh i want to be right about them being a#future/parallel sif so bad. i want the ''if i were you i would just spend all my time in the House getting stronger'' thing to have made#this sif's spending time with their friends and having them come out stronger for it hurt in a complicated way#especially with the ''i don't think about your friends. i don't look at them. i don't worry about that. how are YOU stardust'' like i am SO#anyway. and beau's GIRL HELP ME#I WAS PLAYING ON ANOTHER TAB. SIF WHEN I HIT ''ATTACK'' I THOUGHT MAYBE WE COULD HAVE A SNEAK ATTACK ONCE#START THE FIGHT EARLY SITUATION. NOT THAT.#oh neat that was like. a mini loop. can we do that on command now or was that scene like. not technically a loop ?#tristesse is distracted...i know the sadnesses appearing on new floors now is a thing. as remnants how are they affected by loops...#help. the new memory. is that a sif thing or a sadness thing. [remembers the 'ghosts'] could be both ! lmao#ein babbles#isat blogging#the last 10 of my drafts are screenshots and reactions because i want to go back and look at them#i really need to do that thing where you make your own discord channel#i will also say. it was really funny how they had siffrin sort of suggest that you take this party with you all the way to the end without#looping. because that's what i usually do anyway because i'm inefficient but enjoy the grind and looking for new dialogue#and then immediately the game was like. BUT. this time you gotta pay attention and make sure siffrin's not a freak who weirds out your part#like oh ! ok !#kicking my feet behind me twirling my hair calling loop heyyyyyyy bestie what the fuck
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y-rhywbeth2 · 1 month
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...with the Bhaalist thing on wealth and infiltrating and controlling the nobility/halls of power, plus Bhaal's family planning on their behalf, was there ever any plans for Durge to marry a noble? Or at least somebody rich and connected. Not necessarily their plan, but a plan. Let's put Bhaalspawn heirs into the important parts of the city! Of course you don't even have to marry 'em for that...
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