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Are you following me Mr Hiddleston? Chapter 21

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Tuesday 16th March 2021

Tom arrived in Essex during the very early hours of the morning. It is his first official day of shooting The Essex Serpent. A project he had debated about taking on for a while, but he decided to take on the role in the end, thinking it might do him the world of good. After all he has some time in between going to South Sudan, and he thought about all the upcoming Loki promotional work, that was just around the corner. Although most promos and interviews weren't yet finalised, as Luke was still in talks with people. Also, he had been given time off on April 11th to attend to the EE BATFAS to present an award, which he was looking forward to a lot. Especially because he has a few friends who are nominated.

Tom received a text from Owen Wilson late morning about an inside joke. Which made Tom chuckle and he texted back a witty comment. Then Owen's follow up said "one of us is showing off their big ego again." The texts stopped soon after not for any bad reason, it simply was the fact Tom had work to do. Although, he did enjoy the quick Loki promo video he did with Owen the other day too. Which he found lots fun to do, as he got to show off his mischievous side, and banter back and forth with Owen again. Also he did a '30 seconds' recap on Loki on the same day, with a couple of other quick promo videos, which were planned to be later releases compared to the one with Owen. However, Tom's ego still felt broken that was his issue despite not letting anyone know. At least not officially. His friends have their suppositions, well more that Sophie, Chris and Elsa do. Ben seems to dismiss their suppositions, as he believes Tom isn't as bad as they say. He's admitted there is a change in him since New York, they all know that. He says "even though it didn't work with Kristen, it didn't mean Tom couldn't move on." Tom has even stopped updating Chris and Ben about everything. He knew he would feel ashamed if he told them, especially as he had once thought he'd grown out of this stage of his life. The part about sleeping around with different women on the regular. Right now though all he knew he had to think about was work. Regardless of his hesitations he knew the role of William Ransome, (a reverend in the Essex village of Aldwinter), was a role he thought would undoubtably be a good move to make. He'd read the book when it was published back in 2016, so he knew the material already before reading the script and an opportunity to have some sort of break. A break from the women he's been sleeping with.

Furthermore, after filming Loki Tom was reminded again of how much he enjoyed adventuring back to the small screen. Just like when he did The Night Manager. Bobby didn't make this trip as Diana offered to take him for a while. Tom didn't want to bother her with Bobby's over the top energy but she insisted, adding if she needed help she would ask Emma. Luke on the other hand was going to be with Tom, however as he had to deal with business matters besides organising promos, interviews and photoshoots, meant they were keep him in London right now. So he told Tom he would join him when he could.

While on set Tom couldn't stop thinking about Margot, about how scared she looked, and her sobbing her eyes out while being curled up on the sofa before he left. It just kept replaying over and over in his mind. He was at least thankful that none of these people had ever worked with him before, therefore, they had no idea how to dedicate his moods. Especially, compared to those who know him too well, and would pick it up in an instant. Not only was he thankful about that aspect, but he was also thankful for the fresh air, as well as keeping busy with work.

The confirmation of Tom's role went out publicly later on, along with his confirmed co-star Claire Danes, serval hours before the start of the new day. It was all sent over to Luke first via email, he wanted everything forwarded to him in the meantime. And the confirmation of his trip to South Sudan with Susan Kobayashi followed soon after. Usually Tom would avoid reading about himself, most of the time anyway. As travelling down a rabbit hole such as that can certainly weigh heavily on someone. However, for some unknown reason Tom found himself searching himself, while he lay in bed after a long day. Most of his searches were to do with The Essex Serpent, but he did find a loop hole, accidentally. Which lead him into the depths of the internet of some rare images from Charlie's party. He was drawn to one in particular after spotting himself in the background. As he focused in on what the image version of himself was looking at, he wondered how it hadn't become a popular image. Especially as the image version of himself seemed to be staring at Margot dancing with Charlie. Not just staring but full on looking as though he wanted to pull them apart. Seeing the look on his face stunned him. He certainly at the time hadn't realised he looked that way towards them. He even face palmed himself for discovering the photo, and for the way he looked back then too. He thought it was strange, due to all inside photos where only taken by guests. Yet, the photo was linked to a Tumblr account. He simply thought it may have been taken from else where, as it was the only explanation he could think of. Besides, seeing the web address underneath was far enough, as he knew it would be too dangerous to go any further. With that thought he decided it was time for bed.

Tom locked his phone and took off his glasses then placed both down on the bedside table, before reaching over to turn the light off. He soon settled further under the covers and stared up into the darkness, while his thoughts where consuming him. Eventually Tom managed to fall into a dreamless and light sleep.

Wednesday 17th March 2021

Ever since Margot was being followed by the stranger, she hadn't left her room for longer than she had to. She'd only leave to use the bathroom or gather food supplies, that took only a mere few minutes. Seeing Margot like this worried everyone, Peyton most of all especially because she won't allow anyone to report it. Luckily he'd gotten Samuel to agree to a couple days off to be there for Margot. Samuel of course knew how much Margot meant to him and she was in a delicate place right now too. Peyton like everyone else did their best to do what they could, but their efforts simply fell through. Peyton was at least comforted by the fact Margot hasn't started up the family videos. As he knew that's when things are at the lowest point. However, Ethan's birthday and anniversary of his death wasn't too far away now either. He hoped this rough patch wasn't going to bleed into that, because he feared it could really test her. Meaning he feared this could end up to her biggest breakdown yet, when it was meant to be the start of her new accomplishments and achieve her dreams.

As it neared the end of the day Marcus knocked on Margot and Elouise's door. Elouise answered and let Marcus in who was accompanied by Peyton. Marcus gave her a tight lipped smile on his way in, then Elouise gave him a curt nod, then she closed the door behind the boys. She followed in behind them into the room then she hopped onto her bed, with her coursework surrounding her as well as her computer sat nearby, while the boys stood beside Margot's.

"Hi, Mags." Marcus and Peyton said in unison with a gentle and soft tone. Margot appeared to be spaced out with her knees held up to her chest, while she was staring into nothingness.

"Margot?" Marcus maintained his gentle voice as he knelt down. "Margot, you need to get out of here. You need to take a walk and get some fresh air. I know we've all been saying this over and over...we're just worried about you."

"He's right Mags, you need to leave this room longer than to use the bathroom and get food. It breaks my heart every time I see you like this." Peyton's voice almost cracked as he felt tears prick his eyes, as he sat down carefully onto the edge of Margot's bed.

Margot eventually registered some of their words as they kept talking to her, and they could tell with the change in her eyes, recognition flicking within. Elouise just sat there on her bed observing their interactions with her notebook and pen at the ready, however Margot's interactions have been slim to none. But Elouise was there to keep Margot company and found the quiet good in a way to actually get on with her coursework, which was due the following day. Of course Margot hadn't finished either and with her current state she wouldn't be completing it any time soon.

"So, what do you say? How about we go out for a walk around Hyde park, or something?" Marcus suggested.

"Tomorrow." Margot replied quietly, barely above a whisper.

Marcus bit his lip and nodded in agreement. There wasn't much more that could possibly be said at this point. However before Marcus and Peyton left Marcus brushed Margot's tousled hair back from her face, in return she gave him a half smile for his efforts, but she appreciated it all the same. Peyton noticed that Marcus' flirtatious ways were slowly turning into genuine feelings. He had been noticing the change for a while in fact, but this was the turning point. A simple act of kindness and affections shown by removing her hair from her face, made it clear to him that he cared. Also before they left they looked at the photos within the frames on the wall, her memories and moments of a completely different Margot than the one sat in front of them. Seeing them only reminded Marcus that she had no blood family left, Peyton was her family and so were the rest of them becoming her family too. And as Peyton told them about her Dad's death anniversary and birthday are soon, including how things get around that time of the year only increased their worries, and the need to be there for her. When they finally left the room Elouise continued with her coursework and Margot snack back against her pillows.

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Once filming wrapped for the day Tom had taken a shower and changed into some grey joggers and a plain white t shirt, he then settled down with his script in hand and put his glasses on. Already some changes were changed to the script, although not many as they still wanted to remain truthful to the book. As he began reading the third page his phone began to ring. He sighed and dropped the script beside him, before reaching over to the side table for his phone. Diana's number lit up on the screen which gave Tom some relief. He didn't want to deal with anyone who he'd been sleeping with, or many people if he was going to be honest.

"Hi Mum, is everything ok?" Tom greeted her.

"Hi Thomas, yes thank you, all is well here. I wanted to check in with you and to ask you, did you drop off those treats Bobbers likes? You know the gravy flavoured ones?" Diana spoke softly.

"Yeah, all is well here too, thanks. Oh I thought I had packed them along with the chew bones. You could always pop by the house when you go to check on everything tomorrow. I'm sure Bobbers can wait until then." He found himself chuckling a little at the end, while thinking about Bobby's face because there weren't any of his gravy treats.

"I can do. Are you sure everything is ok?" Diana repeated.

"Ehehe, yes I am, more so. I am good. It's nice out here in fact and plenty of open spaces Bobby would love to explore, if he was here with me." Tom said honestly, because he did feel good or at least slightly better and was so far enjoying the fresh air. Albeit he still had his moments thinking about Margot crying among everything else.

"Right well, I shall hang up now to let you get some sleep. Night sweetheart, have a good day tomorrow and sending you all my love." Diana said and blew kisses down the phone.

"I hope you sleep well Mum and find the treats for Bobbers. Night and all my love to you both." They ended the call soon afterwards and Tom finished reading the script.

It was around 11:30pm when Tom switched off the lamp after finishing up his last cup of tea, brushed his teeth and removed his glasses, then settling down under the bed covers for an early night.

Tuesday 23rd March 2021

Tom and Claire seemed to be getting along really well. Although there was no surprise there, as he got along well with everyone including the crew. During the lunch break Claire was talking about her husband and children, which Tom enjoyed hearing about her stories of her family life. Even though it did sadden him a little as he thought he'd just reached his 40's and still hadn't settled down. But he did share the odd family stories about his sisters and their families, by doing so it made him feel some happiness from the memories.

Once they were back on set Tom was in full character again, one thing that was different is the fact he wasn't as distracted now. During filming he didn't think about Margot, he forced himself not to, so at the end of the day he thought it was a good sign. That way he knew he'd gotten through the day fine and hopefully the rest of filming too.

Later on after Tom came back from a walk (he was used to evening walks with Bobby so he went on one), he opened the door to the hotel, and upon entering he found a woman naked on the bed. She's the woman who lives near the Swiss Cottage Farmer's Market. He'd told her about being away for work, he just wasn't expecting her to show up. Although, he was surprised to see her and he was going to tell her no, because he felt as though she was crossing a line. A line that meant seriousness between them, which he wasn't looking for at all. Not with her anyway. However as she began spreading her legs wide to give him a full view of her pussy, was the moment when it seemed as though he'd forgotten the word no. He soon slipped off his jacket and then processed to strip down until he was naked himself. He stood a few large paces from the bed while he looked down at her and his mouth began to water. It wasn't long before she gave him a come hither finger and Tom didn't hesitate, he just dashed over and straddled her before he crashed lips on hers. She began stroking him on the back his neck and massaging his scalp as she kissed him back. Her actions made him moan into their kiss before they both had to take a breather for a moment. However it wasn't long until Tom kissed his way down to her breasts, taking each nipple in turn into his hot mouth and sucking and nipping at them, while simultaneously massaging the other breasts. All the while she tugged on his hair and whimpered softly and arch her back up off the bed. When Tom was done with her breasts he ventured further down latching onto her clit and broadly licking her making her squirm under him. After a while of building her Tom stroked her pussy lips with a couple of his fingers, then dipped them in further moistening them with her arousal. Soon enough he was curling his fingers around inside her and pumping them in and out of her, with added circulation around her clit with the soft pad of his thumb. He worked her up to her first orgasm and felt himself barley hard by her reactions.

A few minutes later she had recovered and could see Tom was having some issues, more than usual. Luckily again for him she wasn't like Kirsten. She made Tom lay down on his back so she could return the favour. She wrapped her hand around his soft cock and began stroking him as she leaded over and whispered into his ear. Her soft voice somewhat helped him as he began to harden, before she started massaging his balls with her other hand. His mind did start to drift like always these days. Images of being there for Margot the night she'd been followed, being with her on the sofa that night over Christmas and waking up to find he'd had her in his arms. As well as the night they almost slept together in New York. Among the images he used before of her mouth wrapped around his cock, as he was currently receiving that exact treatment in the present moment. He began moaning as his nearly fully erect cock was being sucked and licked at the tip. However, before he could loose himself inside her mouth he pushed her off of him and pounced on her, his love affair of entanglement woman. One of many. She stopped him before he could enter which made him frown a little, until she told him to go into her bag to get a condom out. He quickly got off of her and the bed, then he raced over to the chair she'd placed all her belongings on. It only took a minute to find a condom in the zip compartment inside her bag, he tore the sliver packet open and quickly pumped himself a couple of times for good measure, then he rolled the condom over his shaft and jumped back onto his love affairs body who was still lying on the bed. He griped both of her wrists above her head in one of his large ones and griped her hip hard with the other, then he lined himself up with her entrance.

Margot groaned as Tom pushed inside of her and wrapped her legs around his narrow waist. He allowed her to adjust to his size before pulling out half way, then he pushed back in a little harder, then he began a rhythmic pace which she seemed to enjoy. As he thrusted inside her he pushed their chests closer together and began kissing her neck and nibbling on her earlobe, while he kept a tight grip on her wrists. Tom didn't take too long to find her lips next as he kept thrusting in and out of her. She even took charge with how deep she wanted the kiss and ran her tongue along his lips to get him open them. He chuckled softly and parted his lips allowing her to explore his mouth, and their teeth grinding together slightly as they kissed harder than before. As she pulled away after a while she took his bottom lip in between her teeth and pulled on it hard, but not enough to draw any blood. Tom eventually moved his head back out of her reach and moved back so he wasn't crushing her anymore with his weight. Yet, it didn't last long as she dug her heels into Tom's ass, and whined in the form of a beg with puppy dog eyes. She wanted to touch him more and get him to deepen his thrusts. How could he say no? He quickly kissed her again and letting her go so she could explore his body with her hands. She tousled his hair some more as she couldn't get enough of it. Then she ran her hands down his chest and down to his abs, lightly running her fingers across them, next her hands reached around to his back. She ran them softly up and down his back for a bit before shifting over slightly. She had to get him in deeper and right into the sweet spot. He chuckled again knowing she wanted him to be balls deep and build up a sweat, while giving her what wanted and where she wanted.

"Fuck, Margot!" Tom cried as he felt walls clamping around him, and he franticly began pounding harder and panting heavily. As he came his eyes rolled back and she came too, although more reluctantly at the end.

Tom's eyes suddenly snapped open as his cum spurted into the condom followed by a large gulp. He actually called out Margot's name while he was fucking someone else. Embarrassment washed over him as the realisation snack in. After all this time getting off on images of Margot or Zawe (barley these days), he'd never verbally expressed what he was thinking about. He cowardly slipped out and removed the condom, while the woman just lay there and stared up at the ceiling, also her breathing was still erratic from cumming only moments ago. Tom was still panting as he dropped face down next to her, he didn't keep his face berried for long because he needed to get his breathing back under control. He felt himself shudder from the mere thought about how the conversation was going to go later.

After half an hour later Tom heard movement next to him and the air growing cold around him. Not long after he sat up he knew it was time for their little chat. He hoped she wouldn't tell anyone especially reporters about what had happened. Luke wouldn't be all too pleased either about this, but he knew he'd have to have a chat with him too.

Saturday 27th March 2021

Margot had gotten a shower and got dressed for the first time in days. Once she had she went down for some breakfast before work, she was also carrying some pieces of lined paper and a few other things with her too. As she entered the living room/kitchen Elouise and Zac were chilling out on the sofa with their own breakfast, but they looked up as Margot appeared in the room. Elouise's jaw dropped from the sight of Margot in clothes other than the pajamas she has been wearing. While Zac's eyes widened in shock.

"Hi!" Margot greeted, as she placed her bag down by the door and the rest of her things onto the table, then grabbed the kettle to refill it with cleaner water.

"Hi?" Zac replied with a confused tone.

"Mags, are you okay?" Elouise asked, as she stood up and headed towards the counter and stopping opposite Margot, also placing her empty bowel onto the counter.

"I am, thanks." Margot's happy demeanour felt off to Elouise. It didn't feel forced it felt more like a weird bubble or something that had taken over Margot. Whatever it was though Elouise knew they would still have to keep an eye on her.

"Good." Elouise didn't sound convinced but it wasn't like Margot noticed really. Zac could tell though. "What time are you working till?" She asked, as Margot poured the water into her mug which was already filled with her coffee and one sugar.

"I'll be doing a double shift today, I said I would pick up the hours after being off. So I'm doing 10:00 - 4:00, then 8:00 till finish." Margot replied, then processed to drink a sip of her coffee after blowing on it.

"Are you sure you'll be fine with all that? I mean you're finishing late and one of us should be there with you when you finish." Elouise looked worried.

"Yeah, I'm totally fine!" Margot's voice was a little squeaky, but she genuinely seemed to believe herself, her current state was defiantly denial in some ways. Yet she didn't agree or disagree about having anyone with her when she's finished her shift. Clearly Elouise was on the right tracks even if Margot wasn't.

Zac ended up washing the breakfast things while Margot was busy writing something at the table. Elouise had already left with Marcus and Mary had left ages ago (even before Margot came down), when her street performer boyfriend picked her up. When Margot finished writing her sentence Zac had pulled the plug out of the sink and dried his hands on the hand towel. He watched Margot busy herself prepping her bag, before collecting her jacket from by the door on her way out. He noticed she'd left what she was writing in the place she once sat. He picked it up and began reading. It was a letter written to Nora and Ryan, or at least the draft of a letter to them. Many words appeared to be crossed out and and rewritten multiple times. There was even a good lengthy paragraph which was completed scribbled over and partially unreadable. What he could gist from it was that Margot was trying to sound as though none of the current events ever happened, and she clearly seemed to be struggling to know what to write. He put it back though so he couldn't be blamed for taking it, but he sent a quick text to the others Peyton included about her letter. He also volunteered to be there for her when she finished her shift, but Marcus said he would instead. Zac replied straight away and said he could instead of him.

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As soon as Margot stepped outside after her last shift she felt her heart beginning to pound in her chest, and her breathing became shallow, as she felt as though she's been watched from the shadows. Her co-worker and manager hadn't noticed as they were locking up and chatting to one another. They were the last to leave after finishing up on the cleaning and cashing up. Once the doors were locked they said goodnight and left Margot alone. Margot could only nod in response and watch them walk away. After they were no longer in sight Margot's eyes scanned her surroundings, everything seemed normal but she was on edge. Marcus suddenly sends her a text.

"Mags, I'm running a little late. Please forgive me. I won't be too long."

Margot quickly typed out her reply. "Please hurry!"

She huddled up close to the door way as though to feel some protection from the scary possibilities as she waited for Marcus. Luckily he turned up within fives minutes and nothing happened. Marcus stepped out of his car and Margot wrapped her arms around him feeling some relief. He returned her hug but he could feel her shaking against him. Without any words he could tell there was something wrong, yet he was glad she was safe regardless to how she seemed. When he deemed her calm enough he helped her into the passenger side of his car, then he got in himself. Just before Marcus pulled away Margot screamed. She saw the recognisable figure dressed in all black, with their pink lips only visible under their hood. Marcus swiftly got out of the car leaving the engine running and the door open. Then he began chasing after the stranger across the road. Margot watched from her seat while she kept shaking and hoping Marcus is okay, as he disappeared down the dark alley after the stranger.

Marcus reemerged out into the light several minutes later. He was bent over breathing heavily from all the running. He gave himself a minute or two to catch his breath before returning to Margot. She got out of the car leaving the door wide open and raced to meet him half way. Thankfully he appeared to be unharmed. She hugged him again but tighter this time and then they made their way back, once they pulled apart. As soon as they headed back Marcus told her that the stranger managed to slip away, and he reassured her that she was safe.

Elouise and Mary attended to Margot once they'd arrived back to their student accommodation, while Marcus and Zac sat at the kitchen table talking about what happened over a beer. Of course they informed Peyton, as they knew he would want to be kept in the loop. Peyton was quick with his reply too, thanking for the update and added he would phone her in the morning to give her a chance to try and rest in the meantime.

Meanwhile Tom and Luke were chatting in his room about his schedule as usual. It may have been late, but Luke said it was too important to wait until morning. So Tom just did his best to get through to the end, after all this was the first time they'd seen each other face to face since Tom had started filming.

"Well that's all the arrangements for the BAFTA's. TV Guide Magazine have asked for you to do a chat with their Tv Insider presenter the week before the premier episode, as they're thinking of you being on the cover too. Of course there's still a lot of others who are trying to fine tune dates, but Empire Magazine are looking to do a photoshoot and full interview for their next issue. That will be in a few days before they need to sort it all out before they go to print. Now Total Film Magazine are looking around the same time as TV Guide, but yet to confirm a date properly." Luke went on for a while longer about other setups for other photoshoots, promos and interviews. "As for Unicef they are thinking now about pushing back the visit until the end of July or early August, due to Susan Kobayashi's own prior commitments in Egypt, they are keeping her there longer than originally planned. Besides I think the later date is far better for both of you. And they wish to also send you both to Yemen too." Luke said as he scrolled through his iPad and marked the changes with a digital highlighter. Then he sent it all to Tom before turning to some paperwork, that was inside the folder he brought with him too, which was already over due and needed to be sent off first thing in the morning.

"I must tell you something." Tom suddenly changed the subject as he was unable to continue any longer otherwise.

"What is it?" Luke's expression changed from business to friend who looked at him with concern.

Tom cleared his throat first. "I erm...have been sleeping around still, before you say anything I know you don't prove. Especially after what happened with Kristen and I can tell you this time would have been worse. I won't say what exactly, you'll only get mad. The point is-is that I have decided to stop. I shouldn't have started these love affairs in the first place...I've just haven't been in the right frame of mind as you well know. It is still unclear even to myself why I went down this road. Although, I can assure you that I am going to stand on my own two feet and clear the air." Tom confessed.

Luke nodded in understanding upon hearing Tom's confession. "I hope you're ok, Tom. I know I've been hard on you about everything for the past year, I've only done so for your own benefit. We've been friends as long as we've worked together, and you know full well I think about your best interests and wellbeing first. On the other hand I'm glad you have stopped this nonsense with these women. You're much better off." Luke said with a small smile.

"I too. It has been more of a burden anything." Tom lightly chuckled and received a clap to his shoulder. Things between them were better now, more back to a normal and stress free now that the air was cleared.

They spent the next half hour finishing up with the over due paperwork, before Luke left with everything and headed to his own room for the night. When Tom was alone he changed ready for bed and felt as though a weight had lifted off of his shoulders. No more pressure to please women, no more hiding his love affairs from the public eyes, and no more hiding anything else from his friends.

Sunday 11th April 2021

Margot had finally gotten a new car a week ago. Everyone had advised her to finally get around to it and they felt she would feel safer that way too. So far they were right she did feel safer driving around than walking everywhere. Also it meant she didn't have to rely on the others for lifts either.

Despite that she'd missed a lot of uni, she only attended some days, which meant her part was given to someone else. And they ended up giving her a much smaller part, an extra part in only three scenes with two lines. But she was glad to still be involved in some way, as they were split up into various smaller groups, and perform short plays in nearby schools. Two groups per school also her group were to perform Dick Whittington. Even though uni wasn't going all too well she was at least making money while working, and she wasn't spending all her time in her room. This way everyone could relax a little knowing she was standing on her own two feet, or at least a little bit, and they were still there to help her out when she needed. And as Margot is completely all over the place these days, she knew she wouldn't be any fun company to have around for Peyton's birthday (May 26th). However she promised to spend time with him no matter what with the added fact that she wanted to too. And Margot had eventually sent Nora and Ryan a letter. The letter was a lot shorter than normal and by the end of it it didn't seemed hardly worth it. She kept out many details and it seemed so distant, she just couldn't bring herself to tell them much.

After Margot finished her shift in the late afternoon she was going to drive down to see Mary and see if she wanted to get food, however on her way she noticed the road was blocked with a detour. As the car park she wanted wasn't too far from where Mary worked at the V & A Museum, which is close by The Royal Albert Hall, (Mary had gotten the job in the cafe about the same time Margot was getting stalked). Margot soon spotted a bearded man dressed in a security uniform with hi vis vest over the top, he seemed to be talking to the drivers ahead of her. Whatever was going on Margot had now wished she had texted Mary beforehand, as it would have been better that way. As Margot drove forwards she eventually made it to the front of the queue. Then she was asked if she was apart of the staff, or an invited guest to the 74th British Academy Film Awards. As soon as she was asked her breath felt as though it was sucked out of her, and her heart began pounding loudly in her chest. The possibility of Tom attending she thought could be high. When she managed to come back to reality she shook her head no and was then redirected to the detour lane.

Once Margot managed to find a place furthest away to park from all the other cars waiting in the queue, she gripped the steering wheel tightly and tried to take deep breaths. It took several minutes before she deemed herself fine enough before texting Mary and waited for a reply.

"Oh god, sorry Mags! I totally forgot the BAFTA's was happening today, until I got in this morning. The museum closed early and things were getting setup for the fans to come and go, you know if they want to use the facilities. Or if they would like some drinks or food from the cafe. I won't be done until late, sorry again. I'll see you when I get back x" Margot understood and let Mary know as much, before she made her way back to her student accommodation.

As time went on and the BAFTA's was starting Elouise had switched on the telly ready. She sat there all giddy, while the boys where too busy playing some sort of card game at the kitchen table. Margot wanted to just grab a drink and leave but the boys insisted she play with them. She caved and sat down with them and they changed the game to Black Jack. Ten minutes later Margot heard someone talking on the red carpet mention Tom's name, which made her look her up from the game. Her breath hitched in her throat upon seeing him dressed so formally in his black tucks and bowtie. His hair was a littler shorter than he had it the last time she saw him, so was his beard shorter and he was looking incredible handsome as ever.

Of course Margot noticed he was with an equally beautiful woman dressed in a lovely slim fitting sparkly dress, who was introduced to the at home audience as Gugu Mbatha-Raw his Loki co-star. They greeted the fans as they went along the red carpet, signing some autographs and taking selfies. The fans were screaming and all round exploding with excitement. Even though Margot wanted to avoid this, it was actually harder than she thought, and it was like she was fixed on the screen. She just couldn't turn and run like she her mind wanted. However, the boys were worried as to why she was in this state. Zac reached his hand over and squeezed her hand, his action made Margot jump back in her seat. Her eyes manage to then snap away from the screen.

"What's the matter Margot?" Zac asked gently, while still holding onto her hand and softly running his thumb over the back of it.

"Nothing!" Margot replied, although her voice was telling a different story, as her voice was at a higher octave than normal. And because she leaped up onto her feet right after manifested towards her bizarre behaviour.

"Are you sure?" Zac asked as Margot seemed to be glued now to her standing spot, and Elouise had turned around her heard by this point too, she too was also looking worryingly towards Margot.

"Mags?" Elouise asked softly after a minute of silence within the room, but Margot said nothing. Elouise decided to turn the telly off to see if it would make a difference. It did, as Margot let tears fall, even though she didn't notice she was. However, her breathing was shallow and her body started shaking too. "Mags, is it you know...a certain someone who's making you behave this way?" Elouise asked once she made her way to Margot and gripped her upper arms firmly, but not in a hurtful manner.

Margot still couldn't say a word so she settled for nod in agreement instead. Elouise then gave Margot a half smile, before wiping away her tears from her cheeks, while the boys watched what was going on. Although, the boys had no clue that it was Tom who had effected her so. They thought it was her mind playing tricks on her about the stalker, or do to with something else that popped into her mind. They soon packed up the cards as Elouise guided Margot upstairs to sort her out, once the cards were away Marcus called Peyton to let him know what had happened.

Wednesday 26th May 2021

Margot traveled back to Oxford as soon as uni was done for the day. She was exhausted the entire way there, but she promised to spent time with Peyton for his birthday, and she wanted to too. However, as soon as Peyton opened the door to his place the two of them enveloped into a tight embrace, Peyton also kissed Margot on her cheek before they pulled apart. Margot then picked up the gift bag she placed on the door step and handed it to him. He took it gratefully with a smile, then he led her inside and closing the door behind them. He soon took her by the hand to the living room. The room was filled with his family members, a few co-workers and Samuel too. In fact as soon as Samuel saw Margot he took her into his arms and gently rubbed his hand up and down her back. This was the closest and most caring affections she'd ever received from him before. Yet, she welcomed it. Peyton's Mum also gave her a loving embrace and whispered a few words into her ear, words of caring encouragement. Once they pulled apart Margot thanked her and smiled a little before taking a seat.

The little get together was more fun than Margot thought. Although, as she expected she wasn't the life of the party, but she did laugh and forget everything for a few hours. Of course that was the most important aspect of her time there. Margot even had a little to drink too as she knew that she wouldn't be leaving until the next morning anyway. Yet, she knew she couldn't drink too much, as she'd have to travel back to London quite early, in order to not be overly late for uni.

Peyton was happy to see Margot enjoying herself, despite everything that's been going on and he knew it wasn't over just yet. He was even in two minds as of late about talking to Tom, as he was the one who brought her back safely after the stalker incident. But every time he was close to getting in touch with Luke to get in touch with Tom, he found he couldn't do it. Tom still hadn't bothered cleaning things up with her. With those thoughts they only aggravated him to the core, all he wanted was for Tom to talk to her, like he said he would. Also as Peyton couldn't bring himself to make contact it slightly increased his other side of accepting it may never happen. Including thoughts about Marcus might be a better match for Margot. Even though deep, deep down Peyton was secretly still rooting for Tom to step up and be a man.

When all the guests left in the late hours Margot fetched her over night bag in from her car. Peyton had hugged Margot and kissed her cheek again. All before allowing her to settle down for the night in the spare bedroom, (Peyton had gotten a bigger place recently as he hoped that Samuel would move in, in the near future). Samuel had hugged again too, before wrapping an arm around Peyton's waist and then they headed towards the master bedroom. Margot quickly removed her plain cream summer dress and light brown sandals, followed by her knickers and bra then replaced it all with her shorts and top green pajamas set. She soon turned the light off and settled down on the unfamiliar bed, with a light blanket draped over her. She lay there and stared into the darkness, with all the thoughts returning to the forefront of her mind, the thoughts she had cased away for the past few hours away. Ten minutes later Margot heard Peyton hushing Samuel, as they made love through the thin walls. Which made her groan quietly to herself as she turned over onto her left side, and buried her head under the barley used fluffy pillow.

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Tom had gotten in late after a night out for drinks with the same friend who didn't turn up over Christmas. It was fun for him to let loose and catch up with his friend. As it turns out his friend's wife had gone into labour early, and between then and now they hadn't had time to get together. Tom of course had congratulated him on the birth of his son, it was certain something to celebrate. Although it was a celebration over due and shared it over a late drink for Tom's 40th, Tom didn't want to get drunk. He'd drank enough to feel a little merry, but nothing more. Also it was a nice night out after filming finished a few days ago. Right now he was letting Bobby out the back while he checked his friend got home okay. They'd taken a taxi home as neither had driven. After a couple of minutes he received a text telling him his friend had gotten home safety. Once Bobby was done he scratched at the back door to be let in. Tom tucked his phone into his pocket and let Bobby in. Then the pair got ready for bed ready for a new busy day ahead of them.

Wednesday 9th June 2021

While at uni Margot, Jeff and a bunch of others were working together on their coursework in the library. They had to write a 1500 word evaluation on their performances for each school their groups visited. However Margot still had to complete work on her last unit, which was covering current trends within the Performing Arts Industry, and include all the research and links too. Also she still had to write 2500 words on method acting and imaginative acting, as well as comparing and contracting the two, on top of her evaluation. Luckily Margot had caught up on everything else prior to this work load, thanks to Mary and Elouise helping her out. But she had until Monday to complete everything and study for the end of year exam. Due to how close the exam was and the amount of work she still has, all made her feel far from being prepared. An hour and a half later Jeff had completed his evaluation and emailed it over. Then he decided to scroll through his social media for the reminder of their independent study session. During the course of the hour and a half, he kept glancing over at Margot from across the table, occasionally she caught him looking and she tried to smile at him. But she felt uneasy at the same time, although, she didn't understand fully why she felt that way towards him. Yet, she thought it had something to do with the recent stalker issue. As the stranger who has been stalking her ever since March has made her feel uneasy, most of the time, which ultimately has her on edge with anxiety. She even felt ashamed by it all, and Jeff seemed harmless ever since he opened up a lot since the academic year started. Albeit, he has his quirks as anybody does, but again Margot was getting an uneasy feelings from him too. In fact the more she thought about Jeff and his recent behaviour, she found that he's been acting a little differently as of late. Not that she could pin point exactly at that moment when the change occurred.

Later on when their independent study session was over Margot was the last to pack up her things and leave the library, as she made her way to Mrs Shaw's lesson she bumped into Jeff.

"Erm...hi, Jeff." Margot said feeling a little tense all of a sudden.

"Hi, Margot!" Jeff beamed. They may have spent their entire independent study session together, but they hadn't spoken a word until now. "Can I walk with you to Mrs Shaw's?" He asked as he walked beside her.

"I guess." Margot replied gathering she didn't really have a choice, as he was already walking next to her.

"Did you finish up on your evaluation?" Jeff asked still sounding too happy, yet there was still that ever present off feeling about him, which was lurking in the air around him.

"Ye-yeah, I emailed it over." Margot stuttered.

"Great! One other thing to check off your list." Everyone knew Margot was behind so it didn't sound weird. "May I say something?" He continued while now walking ahead of her slightly.

"Sure?" Margot wasn't sure what else to say or how to sound less anxious.

"I've noticed you are looking tried lately. I hope you're alright and if there's anything I can do to help...make you feel more relaxed just let me know. Ok?" His words made Margot stop abruptly in her tracks. She blinked hard a couple of times in between stares, as he stood before her with his current smile across his thin pink lips, which felt a little too creepy for her liking.

"No. No thank you." Margot pushed past him and quickly walked away, then diverted from her destination into the female toilets.

Margot locked herself into one of the stalls while bracing her back against the door. She began breathing rapidly as her heart skipped beats and her head started to ache, along with a spinning feeling taking over. Jeff's creepy smile seemed to embed itself into her mind, which only increased how she currently felt.

Twenty minutes into Mrs Shaw's lesson she sent Elouise and Mary to go find Margot. They split up and looked everywhere they knew Margot could possibly be. Eventually Elouise decided to call Margot as the search was fruitless. The phone rang almost until the end before Margot picked up.

"Mags, where are you? Mary and I have been looking everywhere. We're worried about you!" Elouise clearly sounded panicked.

"I'm-I'm..." Margot sounded breathless down her end and on the verge of tears.

"Margot, you sound awful! What's wrong? Where are you?" Elouise tried to sound a little calmer to keep Margot calm.

"I-I...'m scared. Oh god, I can't breath." Margot said before Elouise heard the phone being dropped, followed by a loud thud.

Elouise quickly hung up on her end and thought there was one other and last possibly place Margot could be. So she raced to the nearest female toilets but she wasn't there. Then she thought about the fact Margot had gone to the library last lesson, while she and Mary had been down by the race track watching the sporty students run around. Along with the knowledge of Margot's last whereabouts Elouise ran towards the toilets that weren't far from there. Upon entry she could see Margot lying on the floor in one of the stalls. She quickly reached the stall and tried to break the door off, however her efforts were useless. As Elouise took a few calming breaths she texted Mary to get help and informed her of their location. Within minutes Mary, Mrs Shaw, a nurse and the caretaker all showed up. The caretaker managed to get the stall door open without any trouble, then the nurse took over and checked to see if Margot was alright. Luckily there was no bleeding or broken bones, yet she was going to have bruises no matter what. Eventually they moved Margot to a more comfortable place in the nurse's office. When Margot finally came to her vision was blurry for a bit as her eyes adjusted to the light. The nurse asked her a few questions and jotted the answers down, then instructed for Margot to go home right away with some pain killers, along with a note to see a doctor as soon as possible.

As Mary drove back to their student accommodation it was rather quiet. Elouise had chose to ride in the back of Margot's car with Margot resting her head on her shoulder, and Elouise ran her hand softly up and down Margot's arm to comfort her. Mary had Marcus pick up her car from the uni car park at the end of the day. Marcus didn't drive that morning as he'd lost his keys somewhere, and Mary gave him a lift there. Also her keys were dropped off at the front desk before they left.

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Despite what happened earlier Margot sneaked out the front door and drove off to the theatre where her drama group was. For some reason she felt she needed to be there or at least try to be. As she stopped at a red light and waited for the lights to change she looked up out of her door side window, and looked up at a nearby advertisement board, which displayed the official Loki poster. She hadn't been able to get away from seeing Tom plastered everywhere for the past few days. And as she was so busy staring up at the poster she didn't snap out of the moment until the cars behind her beeped, telling her the lights had changed. She then quickly drove on and within no time she arrived at the theatre. When she stepped out of her car her phone went off as a text came through. She sighed and took her phone out of jeans' back pocket.

"Mags, where did you?" Elouise's text read.

"Out. I'm okay, be back later. Promise." Margot replied then entered the theatre.

For the duration of the theatre group session Margot was completely out of it. Her mind elsewhere while everyone else got up to perform their prepared monologues. When it came to her turn she stood on unsteady feet and somehow got through her monologue. She performed the Antigone monologue, that she used to audition for 'How to succeed in business without really trying.' Everyone was stunned by her performance as they never seen her this good before and they applauded loudly. Margot barley smiled when she heard what seemed like faint applause to her. She soon sat down and realised her current state somehow made her put on her best performance of the year, and she didn't see how it really was possible. Also it didn't even count towards her final grades.

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As the evening was drawing to a close the boys had planted themselves in front of the telly, pop corn was wedged between them in a large bowl, with various other snacks on the table in front of them. Along with their beers and cokes in a little cooler sat beside the sofa. They hadn't seen the last couple of episodes of The Falcon and the Winter Solider, so they wanted to binge them before moving onto Loki. They'd watched everything else prior to those episodes including Wandavision. They were clearly behind on their Marvel viewing as they've been so busy, and they would only watch them when Margot was present too. They knew she was the only other huge fan of Marvel, therefore it became they thing to do together. Whereas Mary and Elouise were only in it for the Chrises (Evans and Hemsworth), or Tom if they were in the mood for older Marvel content and if the others had it on. Margot may have had conversations with the boys but she avoided anything related to Loki, although she was not successful every time. Her photos from New York gave the boys clear sings that she was a fan, but they found it strange that she wouldn't talk about it.

Luckily as Marcus loaded up Disney+ on the telly, Margot had arrived from her drama theatre group session. She dropped everything by the door of the room and leaned on the door frame with a large sigh.

"Mags, it's good that you're home! Where have you been?" Marcus asked while standing up abruptly. His face was screwed up with worry making Margot feel bad, also she could see the same expression on Zac's face too.

"I needed to get out for a bit. I was fine, I just went to the theatre. It is Wednesday." Margot shrugged.

"Next time if that's where you are, just say so. Elouise was pissed off with your reply. We're all worried with the stalker being out there still." Marcus said while closing this distance between himself and Margot. Then he rubbed hands gently up and down her arms.

"I'm sorry, I know...just...at the time it seemed the right thing to do." Margot replied giving him an innocent yet sad expression."

We're happy you're safe." Zac shimmed in for the first time. "Come sit with us, we're about to watch the last couple of episodes." He added excitedly.

"Sure, give me five and I'll be right with you." Margot said and raced upstairs with her bag and changed into her pajamas. Now she was back again she was finally not feeling as out of it, nor was she still 100% either.

When Margot headed back down Marcus got the remote to hover over The Falcon and the Winter Solider box, which is on the continue watch list. And as Margot got closer to them Zac moved the pop corn out of her way, so she could get comfy in the middle. She settled down on the sofa with her legs crossed underneath her, then she grabbed the pop corn from Zac and placed it in her lap, just before Marcus clicked continue on the next screen.Once they finished the last The Falcon and the Winter Solider episodes and watched to the very end, as tradition the boys stretched out a little. Margot by this point had uncrossed her legs in order to stretch them out too. They had also taken it in turns for a bathroom break in between episodes. Margot thought now they'd finished the episodes that they were going to head to bed, but....

"Loki time!" The boys yelled in unison, but were surprised when Margot hadn't joined in.

"We thought you'd be more excited." Zac said while he frowned his brows.

"Yeah, I mean he's your favourite, right?! I mean it's obvious when we've had these conversations. It's like your eyes secretly light up, if only briefly. Besides he's up on your wall too." Marcus playfully nudged Margot with his elbow. Margot had no idea that she reacted in such away about Tom, or in fact about Loki, during the conversations that she may have not avoided. However, she knew it was not the best idea to see Tom on screen right now, the poster advertisement was enough for her for one day.

"This is Loki's big moment!" Zac added. " He's literally taken over the Earth." Marcus chuckled along.

"I'm tried that's all. Margot said as she yawed. She was tried after such a long day so in that sense she wasn't lying. However, she knew deep down she'd been looking forward to this day for ages. Yet, everything between herself and Tom started to get to her for the billionth time. Even though the last she saw him he was being kind and helped her when she needed someone."I'm going to turn in. Maybe another night." She added and swiftly left the room.

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Tom felt exhausted after all the interviews and various other Loki promotions. He'd been up since 5am and on the go none stop, it was now 1:40am the following morning, and he's yet to get some sleep. He was glad that Luke was pleased with all his hard work and he'd expressed as much, before Tom left for home. Of course Tom had gone out for a walk with Bobby when he first got back and they both had some food too. Although sitting to eat was a moment to stop for a while, it just didn't really feel that relaxing until he'd showered and changed. He soon settled down on the bed with the covers laying at the bottom end. It was far too warm as of late to have them on and he found himself on occasion sleeping in his birthday suit, in order to cool down even though he had a fan on and the window open too.

As Tom had been so busy and had his phone on silent most of the day he thought he should return some messages before settling down. He had hundreds of notifications from Twitter and Instagram alone. He had serval text messages and many missed phone calls too. Clearly everyone was going crazy over the Loki premier episode. Well in fact he knew for the past few months things have been flooding the internet, especially when all the promos, teasers and interviews began to surface and circulate around. He was proud of himself and everyone who have been involved in the series, more so than ever as of late. As he scrolled through Twitter he smiled at seeing how many fans used the new Loki emojis and laughed at a few tweets. He didn't spend too long on Twitter or Instagram as he noticed Mark Ruffalo for one was trying to get his attention on Twitter to get a text. So Tom sent him a quick text among texts to the other Avengers, both to the original six and those who later joined. As for the phone calls he'd missed he just text a text telling them he'd phone back for a proper chat when he gets a chance tomorrow. Once he was done he turned the lamp off and settled down and Bobby had come to lay on the bottom end of the bed, he curled up in no time flat.

Thursday 10th June 2021

Margot was driving to work and she still felt worn-out from yesterday. However, she was asked to go in early to cover a shift, which meant she had a much longer shift, although it meant she didn't have to work again later. Even though she needed the time to catch up on her coursework. Yet, she accepted anyway. For most of her way she'd blocked out the sound of the radio, right until she immediately hears Tom's voice echoing from the speakers. She draws in a sharp breath upon hearing his laugh. She'd missed it, missed hearing his laugh. After a moment longer Margot turned the radio off and continued on her way in silence.

Later on when her dance lesson was over she made her way to her car, but she failed to hear the stranger walk up directly behind her, as her mind had drifted back Tom for the 100th time that day. The stranger's presents wasn't known to her until she leaned inside her car on the passengers side, and she felt them squeezing her hip firmly. Margot screamed in shrill of a voice as her blood ran cold. The stranger quickly let her go and whipped around to scan the area and someone from Margot's dance class had heard her screaming. Margot had swiftly got in her and tried to close the door, but the stranger was in the way for a bit. They soon fled though as they knew they weren't alone, then the stranger disappeared down the road. The person from Margot dance class went to check on her and she looked pale. They stayed with her until she said she was fine and drove away.

Once back at her student accommodation she rushed up to her room and hid under her covers for a while. She was alone and shaking. Eventually she forced herself to continue with her coursework and when the other came back they had no idea what had happened. She didn't tell them. They just left her to finish. She never even told Peyton either.

Thursday 24th June 2021

Thankfully the first year of uni had finished finally the week before and Margot felt the weight of the work load had let up. Despite that though the waiting for the results from the end of year exam was worrying her, on top of still being stalked and feeling on edge most of the time. Also she had allowed the boys to the Loki episodes on which were available thus far. She had found herself able to watch even though found herself crying during the first episode when Tom had, even in later moments when he wasn't. In fact the entire time they watched Loki she shedded a few times on and off, although she still laughed at the right movements too. Marcus had put his arm around her to comfort her after a while, she responded well as she leaned her head on his shoulder. Marcus smiled at that and squeezed her arm a little too. Zac had seen Margot rest her head on Marcus and sent him a smile his way, he was rooting for them to get together.

Currently though Margot had an early shift now that uni was over, which meant finishing early in the afternoon. Or at least she was free after 3pm until her dance lesson at 7pm. Albeit before she left everyone was surprised that Margot seemed to be fine, as she hadn't slept much. Also considering it was the 3rd anniversary of her Dad Ethan's death. Yet they knew if she were to spiral down they'd be there to catch her.

During Margot's break Peyton phoned her up to check on her.

"Hi Mags, how are you?"

"Hi P, I'm doing fine. Just on lunch. How's things with you?" Peyton could tell there was something off in her tone of voice, but he didn't mention it as he didn't want her to hang up on him.

"Oh good. Yeah fine, fine. Sammy and I are going to go visit your Dad this afternoon and take him some flowers. We'll catch him up on us and work." Peyton tried to sound delicate about mentioning Ethan, especially today of all days.

"Awh, I'm sure he'd love to see you both. Tell him I'll come see him soon!" Margot said in an eerily happy voice.

"Yes, I'll tell him." They talked a little longer before Margot had to go back to work.

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As Margot headed towards her car after her dance lesson she felt as though the stranger was nearby staring at her, yet out of her sight. She may have felt uneasy but the distance was good, or so she decided it was. When she did reach her car there was a note under the window wiper, which made her franticly look around to see if the stranger had moved. There appeared not to be no sighting. She took a shaky breath as she removed the note from the window wiper and unfolded the paper. The handwriting was scruffy and small, but also all too familiar. Not that she could at that moment place where she'd seen the writing before.

"My dearest Margot,

I have been admiring you from afar longer than you think. It took me what felt like an eternity to actually become comfortable to get as close to you, as I have as of late. I did not mean to scare you when I squeezed your hip. I only wanted to touch you. You have lovely birth baring hips by the way. Do not take this compliment as something to be scared of or take affiance to, it is how I see your body. You are a beautiful woman Margot. Also I am not a man who is all about looks, no, I am too old fashioned in that respect.

Your smile is sweet, your laugh is music to my ears and you have a great personality. Also you are a very talented actor, singer and dancer. I know you will go far in life.

Again when you sense or see me nearby, I do not wish to cause you harm or make you feel scared. I wish to only get to know you and touch you. To know Your likes, your dislikes, day to day routine and to know how your naked body moves. I am desperate to know how to woo you properly and how to please you physically.

A lady such as yourself with all the beauty you behold means you deserve to be wooed with precise perfection. Which I cannot give you unless I know every ounce of you.

My old fashioned ways guarantee you shall only receive the best from me.

All my love,

Your dark knight x

P.s get a goodnights sleep, you look awfully tried." Read the note.

Margot quickly crumpled up the note once she read it and threw it onto the floor of the passenger side of her car, and dumped her gym bag onto the seat. Next she hoped into the drivers seat and started up the engine as she took in another couple of shaky breaths, all before pulling away and driving back to her study accommodation.

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Straight after Margot had parked up outside her student accommodation, retrieved her gym bag and locked her car she raced inside. Marcus heard the front door opening and catch the tail end of Margot racing upstairs. He decided to head up after her and he found Margot with her knees held up to her chest, while she was rocking herself back and forth. She was also muttering to herself which was barley audible to his ears.

"Margot? Margot, it's me. Ssshhh." Marcus spoke softly and sat beside her, then ran his hand up and down her back. "What happened?" He asked and Margot's muttering stopped, but she never answered his question. Although tears began rolling down her cheeks causing Marcus to wrap his arm around her, pulling her closely to his side causing her to stop rocking.

A good twenty minutes later Margot had finally stopped crying, but still refused to speak, or at least about what happened. Yet Marcus had an inkling that it was the stalker. However, Margot made Marcus leave her alone, so she could shower and change ready for bed. He did as she asked of him and thought it would be best to phone Peyton in the mean time.

"Hi Peyton, it's me Marcus. Margot is crashing fast and she won't tell me what happened. All I know is she's looking and sounding worse than ever. She's working a lot and running on very little sleep. I think she'll start up the home movies, just like you said she might. " Marcus explained.

"Hi Marcus. Fuck, I wish I could be there more often for her. I truly thought she was ready to move back, to start over...to follow her dreams. Now I fear she's far from it. The shit won't stop hitting the fan." Peyton sighed heavily with frustration.

"I agree. Only if we took her out she may never come back."

"No, you're right. She may never go back again. I have to go. There's a lot I need to organise for tomorrow's meeting. I'll call her on my lunch break. Thanks for calling." Peyton spoke honestly, as he was swamped with paperwork and all sorts of files, that he needed to go through before the ten o'clock meeting.

"Right, will do. Bye." Marcus said and they both hung up. Then Marcus slumped down on the sofa barely paying any attention to what was on the telly, which he left on before heading up to see Margot.

Once Margot got out of the shower and got changed, she turned on her computer and began watching home videos, just like Marcus thought and said to Peyton that she would. She needed the outlet after holding herself back from doing so much sooner. She has been plummeting down into this spiral depression state for quite some time now, and she wasn't sure how much longer it was going to continue to suffocate her. She needed her Dad right now. She needed Peyton. After a few minutes in Margot was crying again, while she was watching the home movies and she began rocking herself like more before. Legs up to her chest and rocking back and forth on her bed, but with her computer now sat in front of her, and the light emitting from it being the only light source in the darkness.

An hour later Elouise had come into the room and found Margot in laying on her side with her legs held close to her chest. Her cheeks stained with her tears and more yet to spring from her eyes. Elouise could hear laughter from what Margot was watching, which was followed by a young girl's soft voice speaking, and then an older male voice naming said girl as Margot. Elouise knew it had to be the home movies. She carefully made her way over to Margot's bed and tried to take away her computer, gently from her hands after Margot went to snatch it closer. Eventually Elouise was successful and hid her computer away for now. She left the room to grab Margot a glass of water, then she sat next to her coxing her to sit and have a drink. Margot did sit up after a couple of minutes and slowly sipped the water. As she drank Elouise started stroking her hair to try and comfort her. It did help a little to begin with until Margot flinched and moved away, causing Elouise to sigh and take the glass from Margot. She placed the glass down within reach for her and then she took a shower herself before turning in for the night.

Monday 28th June 2021

It was only four days since Margot had read the note she found under her window wiper, four days since the anniversary of her Dad's death, four days since things got worse. Despite she was slowly trying to rebuild back to a more stable manner and start anew, everything felt more out of her reach than ever. Not only that she hated feeling like this and crying all the time. Although she was lucky to have such good friends and their support around her. However, she hadn't told anyone still about the note and the words were constantly on her mind. Whenever she used her car though she just had to have the crumpled up paper hidden under a blanket. It was out of sight even if not out of her mind.

Margot had an hour's worth of sleep before her alarm went off. Work again. She didn't want to get fired so she kept forcing herself to go, despite really wanting nothing more than to sit in the dark and block out the world around her, just like before. During her shift however, she tried her best to get on with it even though she was spaced out, and her manager received a number of complaints about her behaviour. And before leaving her manager sat her down and had a little chat with her. Her manager pointed out the dark circles under her eyes and clear to see given her face is bare, which seems to be more often than not as of late. Her manager had included points about her absents has been noted as the reasoning for the dark circles, and they express their worry too. Margot eventually reassured them she was fine and was still perfectly fit to work. The weird bubble aura had been just as present in her life since Elouise had noticed it, the denial eating away at her. There was a bit of a twitch to Margot's left eye as the stress and lack of sleep taking its toll on her, a slight crack in her mask too clear to ignore.

When Margot was allowed to finally leave she found herself on the road heading to Oxford. However, during her journey she felt as though she was being followed, followed closely behind but not too close to be overly noticeable. She had turned the radio on for a while during the drive, but she couldn't find anything good to listen to. So she turned it off and switched to her own music playlist instead. She thought it was far better than being left in silence with her own mind.

After the drive Margot had parked outside a florist first. She picked out a lovely bouquet of mixed flowers and wrote out a small note on a card to add to them. She paid for them and as she left the flower shop she found another note under her window wiper as she approached her car. She'd never seen anyone near her car while she was inside nor now that she was out in the open. She gulped hard and removed the note from the window wiper to read it.

"Dearest Margot,

I know why you've come here to Oxford. I know all about your late father. My condolences. Just know I am not far away. I will be watching over you while you visit him.

All my love,

Your dark knight x" Margot shivered as she crumpled the note up just like the last one. Then she put it next to the other one under the blanket on the passenger side of her car. She soon began on her way again but she had to wipe away tears from her eyes a number of times, as she didn't want her vision to be compromised while driving.

Twenty-five minutes later Margot arrived at Ethan's grave. She stood there staring at his headstone with her tears now freely falling, her breath shallow once again and she hadn't stopped shaking since she read the note. And just like the note had said he was watching her from a far. She'd caught him hiding during the daylight behind a tall tree a few feet behind her. She had heard a snapping of a twig causing her to look around after being there for a few minutes. Also considering how hot the weather is he still wore the same all black outfit, surely it would be rather stuffy in it. Not that she would have care if he had suddenly fell to the hard ground from a heat stroke. However, Margot tried not too look at him for too long as she wanted this time with her Dad anyway. She misses him terrible.

"Dad, I feel...lost. I know what I want to do. I want to act still, but I don't know if I can cope. The man over there has been following me since March. He and other things have been diverting me off my path..." Margot whispered quietly enough for the stranger not to hear her, and she'd knelt down to make the moment more personal between herself and Ethan. "Of course Peyton has been there for me every step of the way, even though we're miles apart...he'd told me that he was coming to visit you last week. I'm sure he told you on my behalf that I was coming soon...I miss you so much." Margot started sobbing softly and trailed off from what else she was going to say.

Next Margot lay down the bouquet on Ethan's grave before she stood up to her full hight. Then she kissed her fingers and lay it to Ethan's name and wiped away her tears with her other hand. As she began to walk away she directed her eyes to the stranger and keeping her distance. He pulled his hood down further so she couldn't see his face as she past. She wanted to run but her fear forbid her from trying, as he might chase her back to the safety of her car. Once there was a fair bit of distance between her and Ethan's grave the stranger had continued to follow behind, and watching her get into her car. He watched her drive away from the gates of the grave yard.

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