#because 'I worked with autistic kids and you're nothing like them' yeah duh this was in the nineties and they were under five years old | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

david-watts · 2 years

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I think this just solidifies the fact that I can’t trust anyone or anything and I knew already the world was acting against me but the only way to get things fucking done is to do it all yourself. nobody else can be trusted to do anything. if you want something you have to fight tooth and nail uphill to get anywhere.

#I'm not walking anyone's fucking predetermined path they didn't consult me on and based solely on what they want #and despite the fact that's always been forced upon me and I've been aware of it since I was fucking fourteen #stop having interests study all your time away why are you working on that portfolio that genuinely takes hours upon hours to complete #and work on this thing for hours more time than you could actually fucking spend on it because there's not that much content #why don't you do anything they say as you work on something else that needs doing because you aren't doing what they want #I could spend hours sorting things and still be called lazy for not doing something else that wasn't explained to me I have to do #because spoiler alert I do actually need to be told if you want something done. I'm autistic. I don't take clues very well #well. my grandmother only started believing I was autistic like two years ago. and I don't think she understands that #because 'I worked with autistic kids and you're nothing like them' yeah duh this was in the nineties and they were under five years old #I cannot trust a single person to help me and the only way I can do anything is to do it myself #if it takes it I'm going to walk myself and my things to a better place #even if the better place is in the fucking americas or in europe or somewhere else half the world away #humanity by nature might be selfless and help each other but individuals are selfish as I've learnt. I have to get with that to survive.#would've done better had I learnt it sooner and realised I had to learn skills myself. how to cook and clean without instruction.#because I was expected to do that and I was a whiny baby for thinking otherwise.#I'm gonna go clean and if they complain I'll ignore them because they don't care. if it's easier for them to ignore a problem they will

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