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cemeterything · 1 year
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okay fine i'll read homestuck. whatever. i've cracked i can't take it anymore i need to fuck around and find out.
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the1975attheirverybest · 10 months
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ATPOAIM Ep 4- Still...at their very best
As promised, here comes my break-down/ interpretation of yesterday's episode. I'm not really sure if I'm on to anything here. Just thoughts. a discussion starter perhaps. also, I do talk about the criticisms or problems that I have with this episode towards the end.
yeah, let me know what y'all think!
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The opening scene does a lot to set the tone of this episode and let us know, from the start, that it is in stark contrast to episodes 1, 2, and 3.
For one thing, it's in color as opposed to black and white. The style of filming is difference. we see the wide open space surrounding Matty on his mattress, instead of the camera moving along with him, or, focusing on him.
He doesn't acknowledge the camera in the way that he does in previous episodes. In fact, he spends the first 59 seconds of a, roughly, 8 minute video just getting out of bed and getting dressed. Might not seem like a lot of time, but in a short video like this, every second counts. So, the decision to focus so much on this opening moment is deliberate.
The MUSIC, lest we skip over that, is also a big deal. It does have an eerie-ness to it that suggests we should feel unsettled by what we're seeing, maybe?
Of course, the first things that happen in the mid of the audience are: wtf? why is he sleeping on the floor? why does he sleep like that? where/what is this?
Curiously, the first thing that he reaches for is the oxygen mask? I wonder if it's sort of the opposite of reaching for cigarettes (or maybe im projecting as someone who has recently quit smoking, lmao). In any case, it's not normal. That is, it's not the sort of thing one usually does when waking up in the morning. Is it to highlight the artificiality of the set up? Is it the David Lynch thing? I know he had an oxygen tank for ATVB, but I can't remember how consistently he used it. Wasn't at every show, was it? idk. Or maybe it is simply to remind us of the strangeness of the seemingly mundane things that we are about to watch him do?
His clothes are laid out for him on the cart, which, again, makes the perfectly normal act of getting dressed in the morning very strange. Perhaps also eliminates the choice. He doesn't need to make a decision about what to choose, cuz there are no options. Kind of like a uniform.
First thing he does when he's dressed and has made his "bed" is go up to the wall. I'm interested in these.
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Because, he is fixated on it, and because that's what we see later on.
The music and the tone of the moment changes when he moves on to making coffee (fuck, now im really craving a good cup of coffee).
The coffee-making scene is utilizing lab apparatus. Though, I will say, drip coffee does usually use a grinder, a scale, filter paper, etc. So, I suppose that process is, in itself, adjacent to working in a lab. It also requires exactitude, slow motion, a lot of waiting around for the coffee to finish brewing and dripping, etc. (side note: the coffee he makes is nowhere near as strong as he should be. What kinda color is that, Matty?!) So, is he dramatizing the process? exaggerating skills required for the task? or i he SO committed to his grass thing that he's taken to sleeping in his lab and this is legit just an obsessed scientist making coffee in his lab thats also his home.
Some of you have pointed out that the door he exits from and the door he enters through are two different doors to the same building. If that's the case, is he suggesting some sort of cyclical nature to this everyday routine (in contrast to the day in the life thing that we saw in episode 1? Two sides, one coin?
Now, he's in an entire different lab space! Here's everything we can see when he first enters.
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The greenery certainly stands out in the otherwise monochromatic setting, and we shortly see him make very exact moves to snip a "sample" of the plant, and then mist it. But not before he puts on his "Matty" coat and tosses away the "Truman Black" coat in the biohazard bin (more on that in a bit).
He moves on from his potted plant to his ??? patch of grass perhaps? which, remember, we saw a picture of in the first minute of the video. on his wall of sketches and images. One of the images was showing the layers underneath the grass. Meaning that what we see at the top in only the surface?
Briefly, we see a crack in his "character." In contrast to making deliberate and precise moves, he's suddenly stirring chaos. Trying to ride the cart, fucking with the drill, and watching stuff on his phone. You can toss the Truman Black lab coat into the biohazard bin but you can't take the Truman Black out of the Matty?? after all, the Matty dude is just a coat that he put on. He can take it back off at any moment. Is he saying that every version of himself is, ultimately, a performance of selfhood? even if he were to be "Matty"? is he saying you can't totally separate the two?
He writes "la poesie eat dans la rue" in his notebook. "The Poetry Is In The Street" BUT WHY? Nothing he's doing has anything to do with streets or poetry. Hint for the future, but what?
Next, he gets pretty tactile. "touching grass" as we joked yesterday, but maybe also testing it a bit? We get a visual trick that makes him go from hovering over the small patch of grass to laying in a much bigger one. Followed very quickly by him posing for the SATVB Tour poster.
which is the very first time that we feel there's someone maybe with him? who's taking the picture for the poster? is it pre-set? but we didn't see any signs of it in the room prior to the shot. Has more stuff happened in between, that is conveniently left out? has more time passed by? is that why the grass is larger?
He ends the video by shutting things down and pulling the lever, just like he used to do at the end of ATVB shows.
I'm not entirely sure what the "studying plant in lab" is alluding to or suggesting other than bringing the natural into an unnatural space? experimentation? exercise of control over natural being? construct building? I think that's the key to putting together the subject matter of the following tour.
NOW FOR HANG UPS I HAVE these might not be legit criticisms. It may be that once we get more info/ see more episodes, these things will become clear, but for now,
I'm not sure that this needed to be an episode of atpoaim. Like, couldn't the tour announcement have been its own thing? the series seems to have had a very specific goal that it was trying to achieve in a very specific way, and this was different. Didn't Matty say atpoaim was meant to get to color gradually as the series also got more theatrical and dramatic? kind of as a parallel to the 1975? this wasn't gradual. this went into color right away!
We also know that Matty filmed this in NJ a few weeks ago. MUCH after filming other stuff for future atpoaim episodes. Does this mean he's scrapped all previous footage and changed the whole plan? is this a brief interruption and we get back to normal next month with episode 5? is episode 5 gonna be totally new and different from an original episode 5 that maybe he'd planned before? This is why I say, if the tour announcement isn't intrinsic to where atpoaim is going, then it should've just been its own thing.
ANYWAYS THOUGHTS???? I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ANYMORE.
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actualbird · 1 year
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Hi zak! I've been a longtime reader of your original works. Do you have any tips on what pieces to put in your writing folio?
hi anon !!! im very sorry it took me forever to get back to this ask, and doubly sorry if you are no longer in need of tips OTL. still, thank u for reading my original works, thats a pleasant surprise to know!! i havent posted my original writing website here in......a long while, since im the (very slow) process revamping the site HAHA,
but yeah, tips on what put in a writing portfolio!! if ever you still need em or if ever anybody out there can make use of this. all of these based completely on my personal experience of applying to writing workshops and writing jobs, so feel free to take what you think applies to you/would help you, and leave the rest behind
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1 ) in general, put your Best Works. but take into consideration that You are usually your own worst critic, so you definitely could benefit from a second opinion (or many)
so, obviously, you wanna be putting in your best stuff. and thats still the general method that i'd choose, but with the added reminder that a lot of the time, writers can be blind to certain works that they themselves made that other people really liked or found immensely compelling.
this for lots of reasons: writerly self-esteem problems, that odd experience of mostly remembering the arduous Process of writing the thing and less the actual finished product, general blindness to stuff in your own work since you Wrote That (and probably revised it 76439754985 times) so it's just hard now for you to realize the level of skill thats apparent to many others
the opposite effect is also very possible, where you can be Incredibly attached to a work (maybe for sentimental reasons, maybe because the you learned a lot along the way, etc) but other people kinda found the whole work meh.
bottom line: by this point, you know youve got skill in writing. but the skill OF seeing and evaluating your own skill is a whole different animal
reach out to your friends, writing peers, or reading peers and ask them what they think some of your best works are. personally, i think it's good both to ask people who are Also in the practice/study/career of writing, and people who arent, simply because a more diverse set of information is always better than a lesser diverse one. if you want, you can ask follow up questions like "why?", or you can just stick to getting a general pulse check of what is resonating to the people who read your work. because [tv commercial voice] The Answer May Surprise You!
and once you know what resonates with others, you can start chopping down the list with armed with that new knowledge
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2 ) "Best" should not be a catch-all term, cut it up into specific categories and showcase your Best in top categories you want to focus on. this way, you get a folio that's showing a wide range of your capabilities
if i were picking between two applicants, both of which submitted portfolios of their Best fiction works (and theyre both Very good), i would ultimately choose the applicant who gave a portfolio that showed a wider range of what Bests theyre capable of rather than the applicant who submitted 5 really great stories but they all still employed the same techniques/concepts/themes
......if that makes sense?
like, okay, let's assume the portfolio is a fiction portfolio. no specific lit genre limitations or whatever, just, fiction in general.
"fiction in general" is a ridiculously huge field! theres the genres of course, so many damn genres. but what im more focused on is Technique. there are so many ways to structure your plot and pacing, there are so many ways to create your cadence and tone, there are so many kinds of characters and so many ways you can make them clash, so many dang ways to make your story's themes come to light. theres a Lot
so take a portfolio as a chance to show the widest possible range of what you can do, and what you can do Well
let's say you did Tip 1 and coming from that, youve got a list of 15 stories you think would be good for a portfolio. your next step then is to identify which stories are doing the same Thing (whether that be in its genre, structure, themes, etc) and then decide which of those stories showcases your ability to Do that Thing best.
if ive got 3 different stories that are all magical realism pieces using a very subdued tone to communicate the plot's conflict and emotion, then im gonna need to pick just one to put in my folio, the one that did it Best. and then you can go back to Tip 1 and get a second opinion on that if you want, and THEN i repeat with the other stories, this time picking a different Thing-Technique-Structure-Theme-Etc to focus on
basically my point is that a portfolio, ideally, should show different Kinds of Bests. because that is much much more appealing than only seeing One kind of Best
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3 ) you can make as many portfolios as you want, tailor-made specifically for what youre using that portfolio for
this is something i learned after college and when i was applying for various writing jobs. for context, i dual wielded fiction and nonfiction in college. though my degree ultimately/officially went into the nonfiction track, i still wrote a whole lotta original fiction, and when i was applying for jobs, my personal list of Bests included a lot of fiction pieces, as well as nonfiction pieces
but i was applying to all different kinds of jobs, and it would be slightly off-course to submit a fiction piece to a job like Feature Writer For Magazine. additionally, it would be slightly off-course to submit a nonfiction piece to a job like Romance Game Writer
(.....both of those real jobs i applied for and man, sidenote, can you believe i almost became a romance game writer? like, how ironic that is now that im into the fandom i am Currently into. guys. guys i got to the second interview stage of that job. Guys. jdhvfhvfkshd)
anyway, remember how Tip 2 is about showing off a diverse array of what youre capable of? well, dont get Too diverse. always remember the people/organization/etc that you will be submitting this portfolio to, and keep in mind what They are looking for
if youre applying for a sci-fi fiction workshop, submit your Best pieces that do different techniques or things BUT are still within the parameters sci-fi fiction, so they are relevant. if youre applying for a feature writing job, maybe fiction might work, but read the works that the magazine puts out, maybe. get a feel for their style, what they like. like idk , if theyre super into that Anthony Bourdain-esque kinda description of gritty details, then maybe a fiction piece that shows off that kind of descriptive skill can still be relevant.
make a new portfolio whenever the need arises to best adapt to whatever it is youre gunning for
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in summary :
tip 1: Best works but cast a wider net and ask other people because us writers can get tunnel vision sometimes
tip 2: whittle down your list to show different kinds of Bests that you can do, avoid redundancy
tip 3: keep your Bests relevant to whatever the task at hand may be
well....thats all i can think of. i hope some part of this can be helpful to anybody out there. hope youre doing well, anon :")
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Hiii I just got done reading about you and your SO. It's so awesome that you were able to tell them! Do you mind writing about one of the tickle fights you've had? In story format if you dont mind? You can totally ignore this btwww. Thanks(:
This is an awesome ask! I would love to!
This story really happened and takes place a few months after I told him. For this and for future reference, I’ll call him Jackson. Side note, I was excited to write this, so I just finished and it's 5:30am right now. There's probably going to be mistakes but I really wanted to get it out. Hope it's enjoyed!
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Apologize
Pairing: Lee Me, Ler Jackson
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Reading Time: 7 Minutes Read more tickle asks/stuff ∘₊✧ Here ✧₊∘
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“Fuck! Jackson, I knocked one and Marshmallow is one hit!”
“Where is he?”
“He’s inside the- Fuck man! He fucking finished me! Just leave. It’s a whole squad now; people are third partying.”
“I have a shot.”
“No, Don’t! They- Oh my fucking God! Now they know where you are!”
“Fuck! It’s a whole squad!”
“I just said that!”
“Chill out, it’s fine. I can-”
“Don’t just stand there! You gotta- BRUH!”
“Shit.”
“Yeah, thats what happens when you shoot at people and just stand there like a bot- you get sniped.”
“I had 200 health.”
“200 health doesn’t matter if they snipe you for a head shot!”
“You died first.”
“Trying to save you waddoyou mean?!”
“Should’ve been better.”
“Jackson, I knocked one and got Marshmallow down to one hit. You died bent over with your ass in the air, begging for it.”
“Thats crazy.”
“I don’t give a shit, I told you to leave.”
“I can hear you from the living room, stop yelling.”
“What, you don’t want everyone to know you’re a bot?”
“Yo, chill on me.”
“Whatever, man. My back hurts.”
“What? Why?”
“From carrying you!”
“…You’re pissing me off.”
“I played four games with you and you fucked up every one. Get good, kid.”
“Say one more thing.”
“You’re dog waterrrrrr.”
The moment the mic muffled, I knew he was coming into the room to argue with me face to face. I rolled my eyes in frustration, knowing that we had just lost another game of Fortnite because of him. He had caused us to lose every single game we played, whether it was because he had wandered off on his own and gotten jumped, or missed all of his shots. He always got downed and left me to face duos on my own. I was fed up.
The door opened and he walked inside, closing it behind him.
Jackson’s a big dude. Dedicated to the gym and healthy eating habits, his lifestyle awarded him with a beautifully sculpted physique, one that I often admired, being the exact opposite of him. I’ve hardly set foot in the gym and I love my burgers with a side of fries. I’ve been blessed with a fast metabolism, otherwise I know I would have weighed well over 300 pounds due to my horrible eating habits. Instead, I’m slimmer and a little top heavy, one of the things I know Jackson loves about me.
He didn’t look in love with me right now though. He crossed his big arms over his chest and glared down at me, visibly peeved off due to my comments. Being as stubborn as I am, I doubled down.
“What?” I asked, irritably.
“It’s not that serious.”
“You suck at the game.”
“You died first.”
“I was-”
“You died first.”
“Do you really think I’m the one that’s been lacking? Really?”
He shrugged. “Maybe.”
“Use your critical thinking skills and get back to me on that.” 
His eyes narrowed at me. “You got one more.”
I frowned. “One more till… what?” I asked, my dismissive voice dripping with sarcasm.
He shrugged again, leaving it vague.
I rolled my eyes and waved him off. “I’m texting the group chat. I would like to win at least one tonight.”
He rolled his eyes and waited for the message. When I put my phone down, he frowned. “Did you send it?”
“Mmhhm.” 
“I didn’t get anything.”
“You wouldn’t. We have a separate group chat for people who know how to play the game.”
There was a moment of silence and during, I closed my eyes, starting to feel bad. I often talk a lot of shit when I play video games and I have to remind myself that it’s truly not that serious and that maybe, I shouldn’t be talking to my boyfriend like that. I huffed and turned back to him to apologize, but I was met with eyes that were filled with mischievous energy.
“What-”
Before I could finish my question, I was being lifted out of my chair and held to his chest as he princess carried me towards the bed. Once arrived, He flipped me onto it, then the air was pushed out of my lungs when he threw himself on top of me.
“Jackson!” I yelled, pushing on his shoulders. “Fuck! You’re heavy as hell! Get off! What the hell are you- GAAAH! AHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! FAHAHAK NONONOSTAAAAAAHAHAHAP!”
Jackson Immediately took to squeezing the top of my ribs, rotating his thumbs in the most agonizing circles I’ve ever felt. At this point, he knew exactly how to tickle me if he wanted to turn me on, and tragically, he also knew how to tickle me if he wanted to punish me. He was going for punishment today, and I immediately regretted being mean to him. 
Due to the way I was positioned, my hands arms were up over his shoulders as he lay on top of me and due to his mass, I couldn’t reach around and dislodge his hands from my body. So instead, I pathetically writhed underneath him, unable to even kick my legs as he tangled his with mine.
“I warned you.” He commented simply.
Having been completely caught off guard and pissed off just a few moments ago, I was unable to hold back my reactions like I usually tried to do. I thrashed around as much as I could, which really wasn’t much.
“FUCK! JAHAHAHACKSOHON WAHAHAIT! GHHEEEAAHAHAA! STAHAHAP! NOOOOOOHOHOHOHO!”
His thumbs crept inward, towards a spot on my ribs below my breasts, a spot that he recently discovered, if played with the right way, absolutely wrecked me. Sensing him gearing up to attack it, I panicked.
I started pinching his back, hard. His chest rumbled as he chucked at my pathetic attempt to fight back. My laughter grew more desperate as he approached, just to fake me out and shoot his hands down to the crease below my hips where it bends into the tops of my thighs. He pressed his thumbs inward to rub at the tendons that make up my inner thighs on both sides, knowing how devastating that spot was for me.
I pounded my fists on his back, trying my best to to close my legs and buck him off, failing miserably. It’s only been a minute, but it felt like I was fighting for my life for hours. 
“Apologize.” He demanded.
“I’M SOHOHOHOHRY!” I quickly concede, but he chuckles. 
“Too easy. Tell me I’m better then you in Fortnite.”
“WHAHAHT THE FAHAHAHAK? NOHOHOHOHO!” I yell in frustration, having less than a second to be irritated all over again before his devious fingers find another sweet spot along the waistline of my shorts. I threw my head back and continued fighting, even though I knew it wouldn’t get me anywhere. He started pinching my sides, and my laughter died down for a few seconds before he remembered that light tickles do the job. Then, I was thrown into hysterical giggles as his blunt nails sneak underneath my shirt to scribble lightly at my twitching sides.
“Ohohoh my Gahahahd Jackson!” I giggled, arching my back and shifting from side to side as he teased me, intentionally going easy to give me the chance to breathe.
“You were being annoying and rude. You get too into that game.”
“Yeah, okahay! Juhhust stahp. You’re- AH! Dohohone!” 
“I’m still sensing attitude, and you haven’t admitted I’m better than you yet.”
“Because you’re noHOHOT! JACKSON, NOOO!” 
His fingers suddenly made their way up to my ribs again, where a firm yet lighter touch was required. He rotated his thumbs again into the bottom of my ribs, working his way up, knowing how much the anticipation killed me. My giggles, grew more frantic as he teased, his pinches growing firmer with each rib he climbed.
“JaCKsON!” I heaved when he rapidly pinched up and down in rapid succession. “JEHehehesus CHRIst!”
“Admit it.” 
“It’s a liIHIHIHIE!! NAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!”
He finally got to work, but instead of hitting that sweet spot on my ribs, he shoved his fingers into my armpits. My back arched and I slammed my elbows as far down as they could go, which didn’t matter since he was already in there. He pushed himself up slightly, an adjustment that forced my arms up and away from my body. Then, he used four fingers to rotate and undulate them right in the center of my underarms.
I kicked my legs out and scrunched my eyes closed, rapidly approaching my limit. I could usually handle being tickled for a long time, never really having met my true limit, but he was heavy and I  was finding it hard to keep the same breath in my lungs for longer then a second. So when his fingers finally dipped into that spot on my ribs, I cracked within 5 seconds.
“YEAAHAHAHAAHAHA! SHIIIIIHIHIHIT! OHOHOHKAY! OKAYOKAY YOU’RE BEHEHETER! YOU’RE BETTAAHAHAHA!”
“I’m what?”
“JAHAHAHCKSON! I CAHAHAN’T BREATHE!”
“Then you better say it.”
I fruitlessly thrash for a second before giving up completely. In one long breath, I muster enough strength to get it out.
“YOU’REBETTERTHENMEATFORTNIHIHIHITE! PLEHEHEHEEEEHEHEHSE! I’M SAHAHAHAHRRY!”
Within that instant he was off of me. I continued to lay there, eyes closed and breathing hard in exhaustion. He laid next to me and placed his hand on my stomach, lovingly rubbing it in non ticklish circles. The touch caused me to flinch and he snickered, wrapping his arms around me and dragging me in for cuddles. 
“Thah- That was fucked up.” I chided, but slowly cuddled up to him anyway.
“You liked it.” He said, chuckling when I lightly tapped his chest with the back of my hand.
“Shut up.” I mumbled, having never been so flustered in my life.
Knowing that I should issue a sober aplogy, I swallowed. “I really am sorry though. I shouldn’t have talked to you like that. I'll be better.”
Jackson kissed my forehead and lightly massaged my back, exactly how I liked it. I let out a content sigh.
His arm wrapped around me, and I felt a sense of calm and security as I lay my head against his shoulder, feeling his heartbeat against my neck. I closed my eyes, my exhaustion allowing me to drift off into a deep and restful sleep.
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visenyaism · 3 years
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absolutely wow is filled with all kinds of colonialism against all kinds of races. but why do you need blizzard to directly say that it’s bad? i doubt anyone at blizz is a fan of colonialism, and just because it’s put in the story and lore, doesn’t mean they condone it at all. it’s up to the player to see the wrongdoings of the character’s and races throughout warcraft lore. unfortunately, it’s hard to create conflicts without using something like ethnic/racial hatred, the blind desire for power, or any other horrible thing that motivates war/conflict. in MoP there’s a quest where a panda directly calls the horde vs alliance conflict a ‘race-war’ which is a totally legitimate stance an outsider may have on their (our) war. it’s all a matter of perspective. it’s all a matter of culture. there’s no objective right or wrong values, that the alliance should change their ways because their values don’t fall in line with yours is silly. it’s fiction. fiction is great at letting us explore these horrible themes without actually harming anyone. i don’t want fiction to turn into a place where we can’t talk about anything controversial, because people will believe that creator of said fiction actually condones whatever controversial topic they’ve chosen to comment on. this is quite long and i’m sorry about that.
obviously people should use their critical thinking skills when consuming any media. i just meant a lot of their storylines are based on real world historical precedent thats had horrific consequences and they don’t depict it like that. they often depict colonialism as a both-sides conflict or as a net good considering the alliance is always right. a lot of media especially that made in imperial nations does this and should be criticized imo cause portraying it as a both sides issue actively erases the damage settler colonialism does .
for example, look at the drustvar storyline. the drust and their leader violently resisting occupation are framed as irredeemably evil, because they attacked the kul tiran settlers first (framing settling as a neutral act rather than an aggressive one), and where Lucille Waycrest openly revives the witch-hunting practices of her colonial ancestors to hunt down the remaining drust, all of which is framed by the narrative as a good and cool, because you’re killing monsters who deserve to be attacked because somehow they “started it”. it frames that colonialism as totally fine. no one in the narrative disputes it, and we don’t hear from the drust except as a monolith of scary monsters. unless the player is going out of their way to recognize and condemn media that promotes settler colonialism, they’re not going to think anything else. how would this make them think about real-world instances of colonialism? are they likely to view settling as wrong and violent, or neutral and inevitable?
there’s no nuance to it so it in fact is not up to the player to see when things are wrong when the narrative is directly communicating the opposite or just doing a really bad job of communicating anything at all. also, you can criticize media, and if it’s up to the player this is literally MY blog
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anonil88 · 3 years
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Euphoria Part 2: Jules live blog
I'm so excited imma throw up
Aw Jules she looks so scared
My heart i can't, also I told yall she loves her
Not me skyping my bestfriend, who also happens to be the ex I sent liability to.
My therapist would have been like why not? Why not?
My lil nonbinary ass is gagging.
Also existing for the approval of men is toxic and once you stop the glow up is in fucking credible.
Jules and Rue both too damn hard on themselves because of their experiences and their age.
I've had this conversation recently after having it years ago again. Its a different conversation but still has roots in the same conversation of perceiving yourself and conforming to how the world sees you. I had that convo at 17 and I'm having it again a week from turning 25.
Who am I at 25 ? This person I thought i became after trauma and my teen years is so so different.
Girls are critical as hell.
Awe these two are really soft as hell and GAY.
Jules has mommy issues and Rue has daddy issues
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Just gonna say it this outfit that Rue has on is hella cute.
Women aren't delicate at all, even when they are they are also quite the opposite. This conversation of what is femininity?
Hunter is an amazing artist and it is going to be very fun seeing where her artistic vision goes on paper, in cinema, and in fashion should she continue in all these routes.
Oh honey Rue's gay ass is just in her feelings, the minute she sees Jules's ass Rue's gonna be like
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Aw hunter them suicidal ideation.
Rue and Jules are giving me so many romeo and Juliet vibes.
Fuck Nate, Fuck Nate, FUCK NATE.
I like her therapist for just listening and letting her go through the waves like an ocean.
Being with an addict or anyone with a mental illness, part of you worries what if I bring up something and they snap or it sends them spiraling.
Omg Zendaya really gave Hunter an E shot. Omfg yo, thats a hell of a lot of trust.
Jules and her mommy issues, this therapist said you are projecting and latching onto them.
Tyler made her feel like a real person and then he turned out to be a fucking monster. He was real, he just wasn't who she thought he would be.
It's a shame that Rue was right and Jules probably is so angry at Rue for being right.
These kids all need to learn a topic called COMMUNICATION.
If they had just said, oh so what are we?
I told yall sis was just spooked. Thats called gay panic, I wanted to write a whole psychology essay on gay panic and how it persists well into queer adulthood.
She looses everyone that she loves. Ugh chile and she feels unlovable because of her trauma so she searches for love in all the wrong places, instead of the ones that could be healthy and happy. Instead of actually using communication skills and not just sex to develop real relationships.
Nate is fucking evil, but he also did what a lot of guys do and thats prey on the potential to get what they want.
Am I crying? Maybe? Yea.
Rue's dream would be Jules's nightmare, but again this is one of the anxieties of loving an addict in or not in recovery. The fear that they will relapse and it won't end up with them just relapsing but that they will die from it.
You sent her to a mental institution because she is trans. She has every right to be angry. I hate when people force their kids to accept apologies etc. from those who caused their child trauma.
Now Jules is going to think its her fault if her mom relapses.
Oh no 😢.
She wanted to live in her fantasy even if it was small and shitty with Rue dead or alive because its so much better than having to deal with reality. That's fucking sad.
Ugh watch they are gonna end things and its gonna break my fucking heart.
I fucking love Rue man.
These two need to communicate god.
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aly-kurta · 3 years
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I wanted to do this since a long time .... I'll upload infos about my HxH oc!
Friendly reminder that I'll lovely accept advices and constructive criticism! Just do not spread random hate. <3 Creating characters should be fun, not something people should insult each other for!
CW: mentions of violence and family loss.
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Imagine having a serious oc but the only decent drawing you have is one where they are embarassed.
Okay, let's start this.
BIOLOGICAL INFO
Name: Lewis
Meaning of name: "Illustrious warrior"
Gender: Female
Age: 18 years old
Date of Birth: 27th January (Aquarius vibes biatch)
Place of Birth: Lukso, Kurta clan (don't worry there's a reason for her survival)
Height: 1,57 cm
Weight: 51 kg
Blood type: 0-
Hair: wavy and dark brown. Shorter behind and longer on the sides.
Eyes: brown. her eye shape is sharp, giving her almost all the time a judging and serious look.
Skin: pale, there are a few white scars on her body due some fights.
Body: thanks to the training her father made her pass throught in order to be capable to protect herself, Lewis has an athletic and kind of muscular body. Sometimes it's difficult for her to keep up fighting and training due an illness concerning her legs' bones.
OCCUPATION + PERSONALITY + CLOTHES
Occupation: Blacklist hunter. She's willing to accept assignments from wealthy families (for example, Nostrade's family), but the quest, in order to be accepted, can not surpass boundaries set up by Lewis herself.
Personality: at first glance, Lewis can come off as a sarcastic but overall serious and cold brat. Due her being cautious, random friends and chit chats are a big "no", she will low her standars if the she finds someone intersting and cultured. In fact, for her, culture and intelligence count more than everything else. Her realistic, harsh irony and coldness may soften if someone forms a strong bond with her (but if you think they will be safe from her scarcasm, oh boy, you're so wrong). Slowly, her enthusiastic and curious side will come off. Small warning: joke about her height and you'll get lovely beaten up.
Likes: books, learning, smart people, cats, traveling, fighting.
Hates: ignorant people, loud noises, seeing children and innocent people suffer, killing without any particular reason.
Clothes: total black style, so it's easier for her to not be seen in the dark and during the night. She wears a sleeveless jumper, with shorts and high boots. She also wears her father's gloves in his memory and a neckacle with a blue pendant in hyaline quartz.
NEN AND FIGHTING SKILLS
Nen type: transmuter. Her hatsu consists in transmuting her aura in heat, elevating the temperature until the creation of flames ( red flames are the "weakest", the strongest one are blue -purple flames, said to reach 1400 degrees on the Celsius scale). In order to protect herself from the flames, she wraps a little bit of aura around herself, but sometimes her skin gets burnt from her hatsu, thats why she counts more on a "speed" strategy more than a "strenght" one.
When her scarlet eyes are active, she become a Specialist (I deduced every Kurta does and not just Kurapika, since the scarlet eyes are a really particular thing, what do you guys think?). When in this state, her flames and explosione created by them are way more intense and her aura gets wider. But obviously she has an harsh condition: in order to use it she has to use her own body as fuel (so that's why she has to eat regularly, not allowed to be weak).
When the scarlet eyes aren't active, her nen uses her energy and, when in En, external resources in an area of 9 meters as fuel (so if you feel yourself or the air around you becoming cold, you better keep constant distance from her).
Fighting style (hand-to-hand): her father trained her to muay thai.
TRIVIA
Her father taught her how to play the violin, but she does it rarely due painful memories;
She admires Gon's desire to meet his father because she understand that feeling, she would do anything to meet her mother or remember more and more about her;
She is inspired to Lewis Carroll, the writer of "Alice in Wonderland". Why? Originally she was a BSD and Carroll is my favourite writer together with Tolkien;
She often scolds Kurapika because he is careless about himself;
Lewis has met Hisoka before. She was in search for money and ended up fighting with him.
Why did I make her a Kurta? Six years ago, when I created her (and I didn't watch HxH) I added this thing about her eyes having a red hue when angry due her ability. Then I watched HxH and was like "wtf Lewis";
The meaning behind the name "Lewis" helped me defining her personality;
I lowkey ship her with Kurapika because of their personalities becoming even more complex when together. Their story is a whole mess because they believe that by becoming a couple, they'd just destroy each other.
BACKSTORY
Lewis was born in Lukso, along with her beloved twin brother. Her family was watched with doubt and oddity by the other members of her clan due both her parents being Hunters.
Her mother, a Virus Hunter, passed away when Lewis and her brother were five years old, so their father, a Blacklist Hunter, took the responsibility to teach them about self-defense, the outside world and to always have a goal in life. So the twins grew up knowing how to fight and the desire of making their life complete.
After her 13th birthday, Lewis decided to take the Hunter Exam (because she wanted it? Well yes, but she also aimed at making her father proud). Succeding the exam to exit the clan and greeting her people, she started her journey to get her Hunter License.
Once she got the license, after a long road, Lewis was ready to return to her forest with pride and victorious and show her clan what she was worth. So you can imagine how she felt when during her return trip she heard about the slaughter of the "demonic Kurta clan".
So pained that she couldn't even manage to return to her home, Lewis strayed for two years and half on the streets, living off the duties of a Blacklist Hunter, and then affording a decent house in Yorknew city.
What do I do now, she asked herself. Her desire to make the Troupe pay for their genocide marched together with her will to follow her father and her brother's desire: help the weake, live life to the fullest and become the best version of your soul.
That's how Lewis lives, the grief and rage battling against the desire to go on and live for herself. What will win this fight?
YORKNEW ARK
So time passes on and Lewis decides to try and get the eyes of her clan that will be exposed to the Auction.
How can she achieve this little goal? Of course she had money, but not that much to afford her purchase.
That's how she ended up meeting two little boys who came there for a videogame called "Greed Island" and a man. Their names were Killua, Gon and Leorio.
Lewis' first plan was just to do something similar to a business contract, you help me and I help you. But her planning mind didn't take in consideration the fact that this move would have changed her life.
When she told the three boys what she wanted to buy at the Auction, the group immediatly looked at each other, asking her what she found amusing about a pair of eyes took away from some innocent person.
"Let's call it... personal interest" she answered. Her vague response ringed a bell on Killua's mind, making him thinking she was a member of the infamous Phantom Troupe.
Gon, Killua and Leorio immediatly came up with a plan to make that misterious girl confess her identity and show them her spider tatoo. The plan was perfect and the three of them, after a week, cornered Lewis, ready to attack.
Little did they know about her being sligthly annoyed by this "betrayal".
Leorio's jaw almost dropped to the floor when Lewis' scarlet eyes came out instinctively. The kurta quickly hid her face but it was too late.
Gon was confused because... how did she survive the massacre?
Killua meditated if it was the case to rush and call Kurapika. Or was it a trick to prove false innocence?
With lots of sighs and sarcastic jokes like "yeah I'm the boss of that shitty Troupe, wanna come at our Christmas dinner this year?", the girls sat down and waited for that Kurapika everyone was talking about. It would have been better to kill the three boys and escape but she couldn't push herself to see life escaping Gon and Killua's eyes. They were kids and they didn't hurt her in any way yet... and the way their eyes shone, specially Gon's ones.
And so, she waited until a blonde boy stormed into the room in a rush.
What was even happening? Who was he? These question made her head fuzzy from all the thinking.
"You have scarlet eyes, don't you?" the boy approached her.
"And what if I do?" Lewis coldly looked at Kurapika.
Gon pointed out at Killua how the temperature lowered in the room.
"Show me your eyes" Kurapika said with a commanding tone.
"Don't play with fire, boy, or you'll get burnt"
Leorio interrupted the two of them: "he's a Kurta too don't worry!"
Kurapika scolded Leorio with an angry look just before realizing what he meant.
"Another... survivor?" he looked at Lewis "no it isn't possible..."
The two of them were shocked and couldn't even process the deed. They weren't alone?
"Let me use the Dowsing Chain on her, so I can state that it's the truth and not a mischevious trick.
Still shocked and confused, all of them made sure about the truth: Lewis was in fact a Kurta.
How will this twisted story reach its end? Lewis will decide to help Kurapika retrieve their clan's eyes. Will their opposite lifestyles and dreams go well together? Will Lewis succed to reach the "better version of her soul" and help Kurapika do so? Or maybe they'll both drown in the abyss of loneliness and self sacrifice?
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Alatreon Advice for Anybody Struggling
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Alatreon is a strong monster, but is not a difficult fight. The handler is the one misleading you. The learning curve in Monster Hunter can be steep, especially for casual players who want the cool and end-game gear (not hating on casual gamers we all do it) but don’t have fun grinding themselves into dust taking the risks to determine what works and what doesn’t.
Break the horns in dragon active mode to stop Alatreon from sliding into the opposite element, BUT you can ignore the horns and hit the DPS elemental damage check instead. This weakens the Escaton Judgment and allows you to survive w/ healing items. “Opposite element” meaning if it starts in Fire Active Mode and breaks during the Dragon Active Mode between Fire and Ice Modes, it will return to Fire Active and you have until the next Dragon Mode to destroy the remaining horn before it can go into Ice Active mode. Ice does a lot of element damage but there is a risk in putting all your eggs into the Single Element Basket.
The reason this is useful knowledge is because you need to come into the fight with element heavy builds and Fire and Ice weapons deal the most damage overall.
In Fire Active mode, Ice weapons deal the most damage, and in Ice Mode, Fire weapons are the answer. If you bring an ice weapon to Ice Active Mode, your elemental damage will be completely nullified, and the same thing happens in Fire Active mode with fire weapons. Since the only way to HIT THE ELEMENTAL DPS CHECK is by dealing elemental damage this creates a serious problem if you are not ready for this eventuality or are unwilling to adapt to it, even more so if you are attempting to solo hunt.
YOU CANNOT CHANGE WEAPONS IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS FIGHT. Unless you’re willing to let it cart you (send you packing to camp) there is no way to return. Farcasters and animations that would allow you to leave the area are disabled, and a lot of gunners are struggling with this fight in particular because you cannot reload ammo or switch gear on the fly. The way you start is the way you end, unless you are willing to take the cut in money and rewards. Bow users have reported having an easier time but that requires quiet a bit of skill.
Breaking the horns does nothing to weaken the Escaton and you WILL cart. Concentrate on the DPS checks, bring healing items, and (preferably) equip a high element weapon that you can use in all three Actives Modes.
Evidence this can be done:
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Horns were ignored in favor of elemental damage and checks were made both times. Alatreon slayed without horn breaks WITH RANDOMS. You need HIGH ELEMENT weapons not HIGH RAW DAMAGE WITH A LITTLE BIT OF ELEMENT FOR FLAVOR.  It doesnt matter if your weapon has 1100+ damage and 200 element. That’s too little element to meet your needs. Up the element as much as you can and use an element thats strongest against the mode you keep it locked in.
My set in the second pic is Safi Beta Armor and I used a fully upgraded Velkhana Charge Blade. For the most part, my hunts involved keeping it in Fire Active mode so that my ice weapons could get me to the DPS check asap.
During the Ice Active mode, when my element was null BECAUSE WE DIDN’T BREAK THE HORNS, I ran healing items and clutch claw until it shifted to Dragon Active and I could do some damage again.
Alternatively, during the Ice Active Mode fight, I brought the Glavenus Charge Blade. The Special Assignment WILL ALWAYS BE FIRE ACTIVE TO START. Dawn of the Death Star starts in Ice Active Mode, The Evening Star starts in Fire Active. ADJUST YOUR SET ACCORDINGLY.
It’s better to bring a weapon with an element that will not become nullified at any point during the fight like Thunder, Water, or Dragon elements, though they do less damage in different modes so stack up elemental boosts and get as much critical eye as possible. I didn’t have a good weapon in these elements so I built up what I had and found a team that understood the above.
A lot of people think the horns are the key to winning the fight because the NPCs don’t shut the fuck up about it. It is not. Stay on the legs and tail and deal elemental damage as hard and fast as you can until you get a “Velkhana” falling animation and the Handler says “You’re Doing A Good Job Containing Alatreon’s Power.”
That’s it. You’ve hit the DPS check and can shift focus to the horns if you want or keep going because there is a SECOND Escaton coming and you know you need to hit another check. Whatever works.
I hope this helps anybody having a hard time with this incredible fight.
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lcnguor · 4 years
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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.
fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.
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My muse is:   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /
Is your character popular in the fandom?  YES / NO.
Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.
Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.
Are they underrated?  YES / NO.
Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO.
Were they relevant for the main character?  YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.
Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO.
How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL.
How strictly do you follow canon?  — Since she is an OC with her own lore I would say pretty much . Of course there are some heres and theres and she changed a lot from the first time I dragged her out of the void of my head . I originally wanted to make more of a gag character but ended up taking too much of the screen if I’m honest . but of course , since there is many other lores and crossovers are a must , some things change once or twice .
SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.  —  Nora is a mentor character , supportive and most likely to be the ace under the sleeve like a Kisuke Urahara from Bleach or Sinbad from Magi --- you know there’s something fishy but there is a charm that even thought they are slidding in the background for the main character , their relevance is vast . As a mentor characters , she would often help with insight , understanding of complex things , giving moral lessons and giving others a sense of security whilst also making sure to throw hints about a doubious nature . Keeping a character around her to keep their feet on ground while never shooting down their hopes and dreams .
Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).  —  She is not approachable unless you have enough guts to -- perhaps even looks intimidating or hard to come up with something plausible to make the meeting more natural . And honestly , she looks like a mainstream angst character at first glance --- even I myself believe this and start having second thoughts ... :laughs:  
What inspired you to rp your muse?  —  An old project I had archived in my closet of memories (?). She was the main , nameless character of a journal about , well , her and the emotions she had to deal with in the everyday . I will be seriously honest ... it was a self insert :blushes: after all it was like a personal journal I was doing on my darkest days . But after that , she became Sable -- the first character on her own -- who also served as a mentor ( but the story was much more dark , seriously ) and then just came to this . I even used the pre-prototype name lol . The idea was to put the whole story into a RPG pixel game or a short comic series where she ( Sable ) and the protagonist would wander around a city called “Nobody’s Home” , a place were people with “thats” ( what now are called Stalkers ) got dragged into and either confront their emotions and solve / comes in terms with them or get eaten by them ( a metaphor for suicide or dead by mental illness ) . The story was more or less about Sable teaching Nona ( the genderless protagonist ) about different mental states , issues and others and helping people solve them so they can return to the real world . Needless to say , the story ends with Nona returning after coming in terms with their condition ( funnily enough , the protagonist had a bunny shaped emotion ) while on the other hand Sable stayed behind along with her closest friend , who she question why he keeps being around if he could return himself , to what he replies he doesn’t want to leave her alone esp since she can no longer return --- hinting Sable committed suicide but by sheer will power remained there to help others to deal with what she couldn’t . Voez , the friend I mention , is even Victor from her current lore . Haha , I like recycling I guess . When I came with Nora , it was mostly to kill time and altered her base story a bit since the original plot was way to close up to make an interaction .
What keeps your inspiration going?  —  How well received she became , I know it sounds a bit ... uh , bad . But I honestly never expected people to like her . heck I even have my doubts about myself liking her haha . plus I know it’s not easy to deal with a character with a somewhat meta power ... I still struggle from time to time but I’m managing and having the support I have atm is something that keeps me going . I love plot a shit lot . I love to come up with ideas with others . To expand what I already have . besides , there is so much I haven’t write down yet that is about her lore but I’m a bit insecure yet . I guess I’m too used to forums where everyon follows a general plot haha ... old habits die hard .
Some more personal questions for the mun.
Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.
Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO / EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO / 50-50
Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES / NO, I HATE DRABBLES.
Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day?  YES/ NO.
Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO / .... UHHHH
Are you confident in your writing?  YES / HAHA NO.
Are you a sensitive person?  YES VERY MUCH A LOT / NO.
Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?  —  I haven’t got any so far --- which honestly surprises me because well ... there is so much that can bother people . as I said , I received a lot of support and praise , which also surprises me haha ... I won’t deny I would love to hear what people think , even if I later end up riding the anxiety train to the moon but it’s also a way to grow up , I believe . god ... I sound like nora Uu
Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?  —  I absolute love this and need this . It comes easier for me to make a 20 word pages of information about stuff if I’m asking specifically about it . even add explanatory drawings with it lolol since I’m kinda bad with words . besides , showing me interest on a character would just fire the heck out of me to keep going . I mean , everyone likes to get some curiosity and a chance to develop more their characters , canon or not .
If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?  —  I would for sure . I’m not smart and I actually do a shit ton of research --- but even so I can miss a lot of shit people would say <nah that’s not how it works> and that would be helpful as heckie . but of course , needing the why also would tell me if the person disagreeing is doing it with a solid ground or just because they are being a piece of crap . I’m really tired of tumblr mentality and shitty people who aren’t mature enough to act decently .
If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?  —  you cannot like everyone or have everyone like you either . I don’t really care much ... esp since nora is an original character . if it constructive critisism , okay -- I will take it , but gimme a solid reason other than “ your character is / is not ... “ and then give a crappy critique because she doesn’t fit your agenda or standards .
If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?  —  you are fucking free to unfollow me and ignore me for the rest of your life . I really don’t get the point of hating on the internet just because and keep promoting your hate just to be a pain in the ass .
Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?  —  I fucking wrote in my rules that people are even fricking free to fix my grammar and english because holy heck , even to this day I still do some ugly shit . I’m dumb , help ...
Do you think you are easy going as a mun?   —  ehhhhhhhhhhhhh, kinda . I take everything with water . whenever it’s of ideology , people as it is , characters ... I am quite tolerant and try to keep the “okay this person thinks this way , fine .” but as long as nobody crosses the line where they try to spoil it for me or others , I get super bitter . I love OOC , getting to know the one behind the character makes me feel more secure about coming to them and just rambling about plots and hcs and whatever idea got in my mind . but if I see someone and , forgive me god for misjudging , see them as a person that will put me on my nerves -- I won’t even try . as for the friends I have and those who don’t know me as much ... I am obnoxiously sporadic and have a lot of ups and downs very often . one day I could be talking 100 words per second others I will just take a fucking week to respond . honestly , I had mined my social skills for two years plus several other irl stuff previous to that , so I’m always a bit too anxious around people , esp people I REALLY like . I’m insecure as heck , if someone is vague ( just because , idk , it was a lazy day for them ) I think at least 10 different reason why probably that person hates me now . I’m a bit dumb 26 year old baby .......... but I’m very aware that is completely on me . I’m a mess.......  so , what was the question again ??? ... I , yeah ... it’s a kinda . but I try , at least haha.
That’s about it, congrats for filling out!
Tagged by:  @skyvar​ herself Tagging: y’all , cowgirls and cowbois . i hate tagging bc i forget urls :finger guns:
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wildfangz · 5 years
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@liliithvatore tagged me in that simself thing thats been goin around DAYS ago but here it finally is! also thank you for the tag this was fun :-]
I tag @slythersim @thelurgoyf @seoulchii @weicyn @solitasims @daisydezem @raha-plays-the-sims if they want to do it & anyone that just wants to do it in general! message me and I’ll even @ u directly if u want. 
anyway lets DO THIS shitload of questions under the cut u’ve been warned!!!
1. what is your name?
julian
2. what is your nickname?
jewel, jules
3. birthday?
oct 26th
4. what is your favorite book series?
percy jackson and the olympians will probably always own my heart & soul
5. do you believe in aliens or ghosts?
yes & yes. tho i do think a lot of alien sightings and conspiracy theories and what not are bullshit
6. who is your favorite author?
maggie stiefvater probably? also cornelia funke but its been years since ive read anything by her so i cant be sure BUT i loved inkheart & the thief lord so much
7. what is your favorite radio station?
ummm when i listen to the radio at all i kinda just switch between two rock stations and our popular music station.
8. what is your favorite flavor of anything?
blue raspberry !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tasty and i love a blue tongue
9. what word would you use often to describe something great or wonderful?
cool. or bitchin’.  i play it simple
10. what is your current favorite song?
hands like houses - revive
11. what is your favorite word?
roulette and inhibition which i never get to use either as much as i want !
12. what was the last song you listened to?
emarosa - givin’ up ! its a bop!
13. what tv show would you recommend for everybody to watch?
the new she-ra on netflix its so good. and gay
14. what is your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down?
moana. its also like the only movie i dont have trouble getting thru despite how many times ive already seen it
15. do you play video games?
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16. what is your biggest fear?
idk... being inherently unlovable i guess n ending up alone? also spiders !
17. what is your best quality, in your opinion?
im fairly open-minded and laid back. Unless someones being like, purposely nasty or something I generally don’t get defensive or aggressive. also a lot of little quirks that piss others off dont bother me im very u do u as long as its not actually harming anyone and ive had people tell me this makes it easier to open up to me so thats probably my best quality....
18. what is your worst quality, in your opinion?
....at the same time though i do get very sensitive when faced w/ criticism even if its of the fair variety when its not phrased really gently for various reasons and i dont like that. especially since I have a tendency to not even talk to people about it. I’ll just immediately start distancing myself. also other than that i think overall I have a really high tolerance lvl but if you cross that line I hold a grudge like a motherfucker
9. do you like cats or dogs better?
cats! dogs are good too but cats are a lot easier for me to handle...and quieter generally but even when they’re loud cat sounds dont get to me quite as much as barks do
20. what is your favorite season?
autumn but im starting to really like summer for some reason? wack :/
21. are you in a relationship?
nope
22. what is something you miss from your childhood?
the lack of responsibility, probably. that sounds real bad lmao but for me its like...I know I’ve grown in various ways over the years but I also feel like so many of my experiences, my trauma, my mental health has held me back and I don’t think I’m mentally where I should be for my age. so all the responsibility of adulthood is just..really overwhelming for me sometimes, even though ive been given a pass from certain aspects of it and the rest is pretty simple its the idea!!!!
23. who is your best friend?
my ex
24. what is your eye color?
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25. what is your hair color?
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26. who is someone you love?
my mom
27. who is someone you trust?
not really anyone rn unfortunately...would like 2 work on that
28. who is someone you think about often?
are my OCs a fair answer because i am always thinking about my babies.....
29. are you currently excited about/for something?
my favorite webcomic (that also has two of my all time favorite characters in it) just came back!! the artist disappeared back in 2015 like the day after I binge-read the whole fucking thing & i was so disappointed but its BACK and 2018 has been redeemed
30. what is your biggest obsession?
sims probably! i could talk about anything relating to it for hours
31. what was your favorite tv show as a child?
there were so damn many its hard to even think and figure out the most notable ones...i really, really liked teen titans though?
32. who of the opposite gender can you tell anything to, if anyone?
my ex, again
33. are you superstitious?
not terribly so but somewhat. I take certain things as signs and I mean I do believe in astrology & such to a degree
34. do you have any unusual phobias?
i used to be afraid of mirrors but thats all i can think of and its not even a thing anymore...the only other thing is tornadoes but i dont think its unusual. but it definitely sucks for me ‘cause i live in tornado alley!
35. do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it?
behind it....like taking pretty pictures and dont like ppl capturing my image 2 film
36. what is your favorite hobby?
sims.....also singing!!! and drawing!!!! video editing!!!!!!!!! the works
37. what was the last book you read?
The Dream Thieves....havent finished it though because last time i went to read it a spider was lying in wait and im traumatized
38. what was the last movie you watched?
coco i think???
39. what musical instruments do you play, if any?
drums, various other percussion instruments, and violin mainly
40. what is your favorite animal?
ferrets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
41. what are your top 5 favorite tumblr blogs that you follow?
uhhhhh @bratsims @liliithvatore @cabsim @wildlyminiaturesandwich @keysims pls dont feel bad if i didnt include u these were just the first to pop into my head and ive been following some of them since I first made my blog!! and have kept up with their stories completely and enjoy them etc check them OUT !
42. what superpower do you wish you had?
shapeshifting!!! dysphoria? gone. ugliness? gone. want to morph into a fucked up clown and scare people when they realize all the classic clown features are a real actual part of my face? possible!
43. when and where do you feel most at peace?
chillin’ at the pool in summer during the part of the day when no ones there.... swimming is always relaxing 2 me then i love just resting under the sun and drying off afterwards especially since we have a little pond nearby and i can hear the water! its nice
44. what makes you smile?
always and without fail? interacting with anyone i have a crush on. i’ll look like a dope the whole time
45. what sports do you play, if any?
i used 2 play basketball a lot. Like not seriously but it was a thing
46. what is your favorite drink?
dr pepper and monster energy (original flavor) pumps through my veins at this point. we love a carbonated beverage
47. when was the last time you wrote a hand-written letter or note to somebody?
two years ago for my ex and I’s first year anniversary... I never got it mailed but I did at least take a picture of it (with included caption because my handwriting is atrocious). i was very up front about being a romantic and see heres the PROOF
48. are you afraid of heights?
nope! very excited by them actually
49. what is your biggest pet peeve?
i cant stand passive aggressive behavior. my stance is either get over it or quit acting like a bitch because otherwise im just going to ignore you thats the scorpio way (in all seriousness I really, really do recommend not putting up with it and ignoring it until they decide to be up front with you. it can be exhausting constantly reading into conversations and its not healthy for you or them. if they have something to say they need to learn to talk about it properly, and that lack of social skills is not ever on you)
50. have you ever been to a concert?
yep! i think about....six or so? i love them...which is really funny im autistic and EVERYTHING about them should freak me out and they do in other circumstances but at a show i just live for it
51. are you vegan/vegetarian?
nope! ive thought before id like to go vegetarian...but i couldnt do it with my health problems. also i love shrimp too much
52. when you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?
ive always wanted to do something creative! when i was rlly young I thought a lot about singing and acting and writing in particular...all things im still interested in.... also i wanted to be a dictator ages 4-7 because i told my mom i wanted to be president of the world and make people do what i say and she said “honey thats a dictator not a president”. i then made that known at school and that turned into a situation!
53. what fictional world would you like to live in?
pokemon universe or bust. 
54. what is something you worry about?
never being able to do things i want to do or catching up with others because of my disabilities
55. are you scared of the dark?
yes but a reasonable amount i think
56. do you like to sing?
yes :]
57. have you ever skipped school?
yes i used to play sick a LOT and as my parents caught onto it id even go all out to convince them. i was good at school but i hated it so much
58. what is your favorite place on the planet?
dunno! malls maybe i love shopping and looking at material objects i wish to own
59. where would you like to live?
oregon! portland in particular thats been my dream for a few years now
60. do you have any pets?
a cat! he lives with my dad & grandma though...hes grown up there and likes going outside so I felt bad about taking him with me when i moved out but anyway this is him hes fat and stupid and i love him his name is coffee
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61. are you more of an early bird or a night owl?
night owl because my rhythm is all fucked up but in my heart....an early bird...if i get a good nights sleep i’ll be up early yacking your ear off and so excited for the day
62. do you like sunrises or sunsets better?
sunsets are prettier...but sunrises feel more refreshing
63. do you know how to drive?
nope ! im gay !
64. do you prefer earbuds or headphones?
headphones. better sound quality also discourages people from talking to me slightly more
65. have you ever had braces?
nope! but i need them
66. what is your favorite genre of music?
post-hardcore maybe?
67. who is your hero?
every trans person living their truth and being open and loud about who they are past present & future. the worlds not particularly kind to us and our existence alone is considered a radical act, so its always given me hope to see others refusing to pretend to be someone they’re not in this environment and I’ll always have mad respect for that
68. do you read comic books?
i read manga and webcomics...ive always wanted to get into superhero comics but the amount of issues and different versions is ridiculous and makes it inaccessible 2 me 
69. what makes you the most angry?
i mean its hard to pinpoint what makes me angry the MOST...but a contender is definitely how some people feel free to treat others with cruelty and think its their god given right to deny or attack someones existence in some way, & how acts of kindness, even the most basic are branded as liberal bullshit or whatever....it goes against everything i was taught growing up
70. do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book?
real book! electronic device can be easier but....rough on the eyes after a while and nothing beats the real thing for me
71. what was your favorite subject in school?
language arts...at least when we did creative writing stuff
72. do you have any siblings?
two older sisters & an older brother that passed away years ago but. still my brother u kno
73. what was the last thing you bought?
mocha frappe baby!!!!!
74. how tall are you?
5′4″
75. can you cook?
a little bit....not as much as id like to though but im learning
76. what are three things that you love?
storms, cheesy breadsticks, and cat purrs
77. what are three things that you hate?
unnecessary rudeness, being talked down to or generally treated like im stupid, grapefruit which is the worst thing on this list
78. do you have more female friends or more male friends?
female i think?
79. what is your sexual orientation?
im the big bad promiscuous bisexual your parents warned you about
80. where do you currently live?
oklahoma. gofundme campaign to get me out
81. who was the last person you texted?
my friend jojo! just Now!
82. when was the last time you cried?
yesterday afternoon but im a changed man now thats behind me. i will cry about different things soon
83. who is your favorite youtuber?
the mcelroy brothers. also super best friends play. matt, pat & woolie are all great tbh
84. do you like to take selfies?
depends on whether i feel ugly or terribly dysphoric that day or not
85. what is your favorite app?
ummmm....love live school idol festival ive been playin for years its an addiction
86. what is your relationship with your parent(s) like?
dad = bad mom = okay. theres some issues that strain it but its not too bad
87. what is your favorite foreign accent?
i have no idea what the fuck australians are talking about half the time but i dig it anyway 
88. what is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit?
Italy, Greece, Germany, Japan, Mexico, various other states (ive only been out of state three times. twice to texas and then once to kansas. for five minutes)
89. what is your favorite number?
6!! 26 also
90. can you juggle?
ive always wanted to but alas.... :-[
91. are you religious?
i suppose...but im rlly not into organized religion
92. do you find outer space of the deep ocean to be more interesting?
space probably theres so fucking much of it man!
93. do you consider yourself to be a daredevil?
not to brag but sometimes i eat my mcdonalds hamburgers cold from the fridge so you can figure that one out yourself B)
94. are you allergic to anything?
pecans. not deathly allergic though so catch me eating turtle pie anyway! 
95. can you curl your tongue?
nope :[
96. can you wiggle your ears?
nope :[
97. how often do you admit that you were wrong about something?
usually as soon as i realize....unless someones being real smug and annoying then i might be stubborn about it
98. do you prefer the forest or the beach?
ive never been to the beach but i love her!!!
99. what is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you?
probably that you have to look at your accomplishments differently when you’re disabled or just struggling, to not be so down on yourself because its a fact that what might be a mole hill to someone else is a mountain to you and you have to judge yourself accordingly. Like maybe you weren’t able to clean the whole house, but washing the dishes and tidying your desk doesn’t usually get done but you did it. That that should be celebrated because while it would also feel good if you did more, you still did something and thats great all things considered.
100. are you a good liar?
sometimes, really depends what im lying about and if im like....into it at all. If my guts against it for whatever reason I’ll have trouble
101. what is your hogwarts house?
i always get slytherin or hufflepuff! usually with like 1 point difference
102. do you talk to yourself?
i am talking to myself right now as i fill this out
103. are you an introvert or an extrovert?
extrovert mainly! i used to think i was more introverted but now i think a lot of exhaustion when theres any comes from me just going the extra mile and actively trying to read people and pick up on social ques.... if I just chill im fine
104. do you keep a journal/diary?
nope...ive tried but i just cant keep up with it so i do the next best thing. shouting into the void on the internet to a bunch of strangers
105. do you believe in second chances?
depends on what you did the first time. Some people just don’t deserve taking that risk imo...but i can be a little guarded so maybe thats a bit too harsh
106. if you found a wallet full of money on the ground, what would you do?
turn it in, unless there was no identifying things in it & it was found somewhere kinda random. Then I’d maybe hold onto it unless my gut challenged that
107. do you believe that people are capable of change?
absolutely. i mean thats all we do throughout our lives is change and evolve...that being said I think extremely drastic changes are maybe not entirely impossible, but extremely rare, and the residue of the former self usually sticks around in some form
108. are you ticklish?
yes, dangerously so
109. have you ever been on a plane?
nope
110. do you have any piercings?
one day hopefully!
111. what fictional character do you wish was real?
asra from the arcana.....even if he wasn’t my boyfriend thats just a dude u could chill and eat some pomegranates with u know. Before I downloaded the app my friends kept telling me he was made for me and he really was he ticks like everything on my Favorite Characters Feature List except villain but he has that particular allure & attitude i like so much in villains so thats not a single point off hes perfect
112. do you have any tattoos?
nope...one day! hopefully!
113. what is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far?
accepting my genderqueerness and bisexuality definitely. Self Love hasn’t been perfected just yet but that was such a huge step in the right direction
114. do you believe in karma?
yes! she doesn’t get shit done as much as id like however
115. do you wear glasses or contacts?
glasses. not contacts yet because my eye doctor is a bitch
116. do you want children?
I do....just not sure if id be a good parent. Its really important to me if I had a child itd be for the right reason and I could raise them well in a healthy environment & be able to take care of all their needs yknow
117. who is the smartest person you know?
probably my friend jojo
118. what is your most embarrassing memory?
one time i looked outside and the sunset was really pretty and i wanted to get a photo of it so i walked out.....and stood like right by the street so there weren’t trees in my way...and then i realized mid-pic 1) i am not wearing pants & my shirt is full of holes 2) id been depressed for days so my hair was a tangled mess. I tailed it back inside so i didnt even get a nice pic it was blurry!
119. have you ever pulled an all-nighter?
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120. what colour are most of you clothes?
black i didnt even have to think about that one
121. do you like adventures?
they are pretty swell
122. have you ever been on tv?
a few times when i was little. always photobombing the news reporters 4 what i thought would eventually lead 2 fame & fortune
123. how old are you?
21
124. what is your favorite movie quote?
this is technically lyrics to that lil song in moana at the end but
“ They have stolen the heart from inside you. But this does not define you.”
hits me hard every time! emotional impact? i know her
125. sweet or savory?
sweet!!!!!!!! gotta balance out my bitter somehow
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Spy Challenge rules
I’ve made up a challenge, because making up challenges is fun. It has to do with spies, because spies are cool. The rules are pretty hefty, because I like making lists and challenge rules are all about lists. You can read the rules below the cut or at my Dreamwidth.
The challenge is to play a successful spy. There are a few Dos, a few Don’ts, and lots of flavor.
 DO
Max Body skill (Spies need to be able to climb things, swim away from things, ski down mountains after jumping out of airplanes, and fight big thugs with metal teeth – or at least James Bond does in the movies…)
Max Logic skill (Spies need to know how to figure things out from little hints and scraps of information, and know what information is important and what isn’t)
Max Charisma skill (Spies often have to recruit others to find things out for them, so they need to be charming)
If your sim was a playable with a family, you have two options.
1.       Easy Mode: You can have contact with your family as normal – unless your cover is blown
2.       Hard Mode: You can have contact with one relative of your choice, once per week +200 points for voluntarily completing the challenge on Hard Mode
 DON’T
Do NOT take a job in the Intelligence career, if it’s available in your game set up (Successful spies don’t go around saying “Hi, I’m a spy!”)
Do NOT use strawberry juice (If someone gets mad at a spy and somehow blows their cover, their life is on the line, after all)
 FLAVOR SKILLS
Spies have lots of skills they need to know. I freely admit that I picked up a lot of these from a BBC reality show called Spy that came out in the early 2000s. I’ll list the skill and then how to incorporate it into your game.
 Go gray/Go undercover: Spies need to be able to blend in with everyone else and not stand out in any way at all. Get a job in any career (except Intelligence), but make sure you do NOT pass Level 5. If you pass Level 5, your cover is blown. You may not ignore chance cards.
Withstand torture: Spies need to be able to keep their heads at all times, even under adverse conditions. Keep your sim with all meters in orange/red for at least 24 hours without any critical failures or death. “Critical failures” are the Shrink, the Social Bunny, or any of the Aspiration desperation actions. If your sim wets their pants, that’s okay – just have them drink three glasses of water right away afterwards. +15 for every time you complete this. You can only choose to do this once. It may trigger additional times based on other circumstances.
Talk their way into someone’s home: Spies need to be personable and able to talk their way into places. Build a relationship with another sim such that they invite you to a community lot/on a date. When you get the invitation, accept it, and have the outing/date be at least a Good Time if not better. Bonus points if this sim is a townie or a safe NPC. +5 for every time you complete this.
Follow someone: Spies need to be able to follow people without being caught. Go to from one community lot to another and see the same sim 5 times in a row. (This is somewhat random due to game mechanisms, but theoretically possible.) +20 for every time you accomplish this.
Get someone to do iffy things for them: The first step for a spy to recruit an informant is to get them to do something a little bit iffy but not actually illegal. If that works, they ask for a bit more and a bit more and all of a sudden, the spy has another unwitting spy working for them. Use Influence 5 times in a row without being rejected. Refusal to perform the task resets the counter to 0 and means that you can never try Influence on that particular sim again. Bonus points if you manage this on 5 different people. +5 for every time you complete this. +25 bonus points for completing this with 5 different people.
Be good at languages: Spies need to be able to talk to people from other countries. In some cases, they even need to pass as people from other countries. Travel to all three vacation destinations and learn the vacation greetings. Do not stay at expensive hotels, and do not stay a long time, as both of these will make your sim stand out. +10 for every vacation destination greeting mastered.
Evade pursuers: Spies need to be able to get away when an enemy is following or actively chasing them. Learn to teleport, either from the ninja or from meditation once your Logic skill gets high enough. +10 for learning via meditation, +20 for learning from the ninja. You can only learn to teleport via one method, not both.
Have covert contacts with allies, informers, double agents, and so forth: Sometimes spies need to meet with contacts that they can’t really be seen with, so these meetings need to be brief, casual, and apparently accidental. In Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman stated that this was usually done by feeding the ducks, but there aren’t any ducks to feed in TS2. Fish in public and chat with other sims fishing. +5 per event.
Romance/seduce people: Spies sometimes have to use their sex appeal to get information from the enemy. Get Mr. Big/The Diva to fall in love with you. Bonus points if the love is one-sided (them to you only). Double bonus points if the one you seduce is the one that’s opposite your autonomous gender preference. +50 for successful completion. +25 for a one-sided love. +50 for a successful romance with the opposite of your autonomous gender preference.
Take covert pictures/plant cameras: Spies often need to get footage of an enemy doing something, or need to photograph important documents. Take pictures on four separate, busy community lots without having any other sims looking in your direction when you take the picture. If you do not have Bon Voyage, see if you can figure out a way to use the University career reward. +15 for every time you manage this.
Send hidden messages in innocuous things: Spies sometimes send messages in otherwise ordinary items rather than on secret thumb drives or microdots or similar. (For instance, sending a contact a perfectly ordinary book where the message is conveyed by the book chosen.) Paint a picture or write a novel.  The painting cannot be a masterpiece, and the novel cannot be a best-seller, since this will make your sim stand out. +10 for every time you complete this.
Drive well: As anyone who has ever watched a spy movie knows, car chases are inevitable. Buy a car, install an alarm, and “Go for a spin” 3 times a week to practice driving – and to learn the lay of the land. +10 at the end of the challenge if you have completed this faithfully. If you have not completed it faithfully, -10 points.
Hack into systems: Spies often need to get into protected databases. Have a LAN party 2 times a week and chat online 3 times a week. +10 at the end of the challenge if you have completed this faithfully. If you have not completed it faithfully, -10 points.
Courier items from one place to another: Spies often need to transport secret documents, packages, or messages. (Fun Fact: Josephine Baker once smuggled important documents past an enemy checkpoint in her underwear.) Take something from one lot to another lot and leave it at the second lot. The second lot must be a community lot. You can hand the item off to a secret contact identified with the appropriate code phrase (see below). Bonus points if you somehow manage to leave the item on a community lot without handing it off to a contact. Extra bonus points if the item in question didn’t belong to your sim in the first place – for example, a gnome stolen from a different sim’s house. +10 for each successful courier mission. +20 if you manage to leave the couriered item on a community lot without handing it off to a contact. +10 if the item in question didn’t belong to you in the first place.
Use code phrases: Spies often have to identify allies they have never met to get help in difficult or emergency situations. To be sure that you are working with an ally, first pick an area of Interest. There are 18 of these in TS2. Each area of Interest has 5 icons that represent it. For example, for Sci-Fi, the icons are rocket ship, astronaut, robot, planet, gray alien. (You can find a full list here: http://sims.wikia.com/wiki/Interest) Before you go to a meeting, pick a sequence of icons. This sequence can be as few as two icons, or as many as you like. (The higher the number, the more unlikely it is that you be able to use it.) When you arrive at the meeting, go up to the sim you think might be your contact and initiate a conversation about the chosen Interest. When your first chosen icon starts off the conversation, this is bringing in the code phrase. If the other sim replies with the next icon in your chosen sequence, they are an allied agent. (If your chosen sequence is longer than two icons, then matching icons need to continue until the correct sequence is reached.) In English, this exchange might go something like “The pelican flies at midnight” answered with “Crickets chirp in the rain.” In TS2, the exchange might go “Rocket ship” answered with “Gray alien.” Feel free to make up your own fancy code phrases to go along with the icons; making up silly code phrases is fun! +25 for every successful pair of code phrases exchanged. -10 every time the initial code phrase is not met with the return code phrase. -25 if the entire topic of conversation is rejected.
Use dead drops: Spies often communicate with or leave things for allies who they never meet. They do this by leaving things in a public place to be picked up later, leaving things visible in an area they control, or doing specific things that are publicly visible. This way, their ally can get the message without ever having to come in contact with the spy. Every day, flip a coin or roll a die to see if you need to do one of the “dead drop” type tasks listed below. Heads/evens= yes, tails/odds=no. If you get an assignment, roll a d20 or use a different randomizer of your choice to choose what your assignment is for the day.
1.       Put red flowers out in front of your house (in a vase or a pot or something, not on a bush)
2.       Mail something (this can be paying a bill or using the custom mail system of your choice)
3.       Wear a blue shirt
4.       Read the newspaper in your front lawn
5.       Wear a hat
6.       Play fetch
7.       Go jogging
8.       Buy a magazine
9.       Walk to work/drive to work (whichever is not usual for you). If it is your day off, walk/drive to a community lot, again doing whichever is not usual for you.
10.   Order groceries
11.   Have coffee on a community lot between 4-6 pm
12.   Comb/style your hair differently (do not cut or dye it – just a different part, an updo, something like that)
13.   Sunbathe (either on a towel or in a recliner – if it is currently winter, this will be quite cold)
14.   Water your plants between 2-3 pm
15.   Dig for treasure and leave the hole for 24 hours
16.   Make and play with a paper airplane, then leave it on the lawn
17.   Buy and display a new lawn ornament (you can leave it on the lawn after – it won’t be new anymore, so it’s okay)
18.   Leave trash on the lawn while you are at work
19.   Wear sunglasses
20.   Hang out in the yard with a radio playing salsa music in the yard with you
If you do not have the specific EP needed to perform one of these actions, do something similar given your particular game set up. +1 for every dead drop completed
 SPECIAL CIRCUMSTANCES
These are special circumstances that may or may not come up in your game, depending on your set up and play style.
Friend or Foe?: When you identify an allied agent using a code phrase, spend 3 hours cultivating a relationship with them. If you end up with a positive relationship, you earn points. If you end up with a negative relationship, as enemies, and/or with the other sim furious at you, they will betray you. You lose points when they betray you. If you are Enemies, this blows your cover. +15 for a positive relationship. -25 points for a negative relationship.
Take a Chance on Me: If a stranger calls you up and asks you to go out (either date or outing), always accept. Flip a coin before you head out. Heads=the person is an ally, tails=the person is an enemy agent. If the person is an ally, nothing further happens – have an ordinary outing. If the person is an enemy agent, try to befriend them. If you max out the outing/date meter, you turn them into a double agent who is now secretly on your side. If you have a positive (but not maxed) or a neutral outing/date, you and your enemy go your separate ways with a new respect for each other, but without interference. If you have a negative (but not bottomed out) outing/date, this triggers the torture scenario above. If you bottom out the outing/date meter, you become the double agent who is now secretly on the enemy’s side. If you become a double agent, adjust your relationship with the enemy spy to 75/75, and change your relationships with your former allies to no more than 30/30. For all scoring purposes, your former allies are now your enemies and your former enemies are now your allies. Every time you complete a mission for your former allies, call your friendly enemy spy and chat on the phone for one game hour. +25 for a maxed outing/date meter, 0 for a neutral meter, -20 for a negative meter, -100 for a bottomed out meter.
Sim of a Thousand Faces: If you are contacted by a hobby leader, you must put on a disguise – in fact, a whole new identity (see below) – go to a community lot (or even the hobby lot), and pick a sim you don’t know to interact with in keeping with the disguise for 3 hours. At the end of the time, if your relationship with the sim is positive, your mission was a success. If your relationship is negative, this triggers the torture scenario above. If you end up as enemies/furious, your cover has been blown. +25 for a successful mission, -20 for a failure triggering torture.
 Identity Elements (Choose all 20 elements randomly via whatever randomizing method you prefer)
1.       Male/Female
2.       Young Adult/Adult/Elder
3.       Hair: Red/Blonde/Brown/Black/Custom
4.       Fit/Average/Fat
5.       Eyes: Brown/Dark blue/Green/Gray/Light blue/custom
6.       Supernatural/Not supernatural
a.       If supernatural: combination supernatural/just one type of supernatural
b.       Vampire/Alien/Zombie/Witch/Bigfoot/Genie/Servo/Plantsim/Werewolf
c.       If witch: Good/Neutral/Evil
7.       Employed/Not employed
8.       Rich/Not rich
9.       Hobby: Cuisine/Film & Literature/Tinkering/Sports/Music & Dance/Fitness/Arts & Crafts/Science/Games/Nature
10.   Turn On: Hair Color/Clothing/Accessories/Makeup/Fitness/Smell/Life State/Employment
a.       Hair color: Red/blonde/brown/black/grey/custom/facial hair
b.       Clothing: Swim wear/formal wear/underwear
c.       Accessories: Glasses/hats/jewelry
d.       Makeup: Makeup/full face makeup
e.       Fitness: Fat/fit/average
f.        Smell: Cologne/stink
g.       Supernatural state: As in #6b above
h.       Employment: Unemployed, employed, hard worker (Level 6+ in career)
11.   Turn Off: As in #10 above. Remove the Turn On you chose from consideration.
12.   Primary Interest: Environment/Food/Weather/Culture/Money/Politics/Paranormal/Health/ Fashion/Travel/Crime/Sports/Entertainment/Animals/Work/School/Toys/Sci-Fi
13.   Career: Adventurer/Architecture/Artist/Athlete/Business/Culinary/Criminal/Dance/Education/ Entertainment/Show Business/Journalism/Law/Law Enforcement/Medicine/ Military/Music/Natural Scientist/Oceanographer/Paranormal/Politics/Science/Slacker          (Note that Intelligence is NOT an option!)
14.   Successful/Not successful
15.   Pet/No pet
a.       If pet: cat/dog/bird/fish
16.   Taken/Available (for romantic purposes)
17.   Kids/No kids
18.   Favorite color: Red/Orange/Yellow/Green/Blue/Purple/Pink/Black/White/Gray/Brown
19.   Conservative/Rebellious/Quirky/Sporty/Elegant/Geeky/Ordinary
20.   Social group: None/Gearhead/Bohemian/Jock/Tech/Socialite
Some of these things may require custom content to pull off. (For example, if a male sim has to pass himself off as a female sim, you will probably need some form of custom content for his clothing.) Some of the things you choose will not show (such as social group), but can inform your interactions. For example, if your sim is supposed to be a Socialite, they should greet people with the Kiss Kiss Darling interaction. If your sim is supposed to have a Turn Off for red hair, they should not flirt with any redheads. If your sim has kids, they might turn the conversation topic to School or Toys. If your sim is a geeky sim with a pet fish and with the favorite color of pink, they might wear a pink shirt with a picture of a fish on it. Some of the Turn On options listed above are not available in game, or are broken. That’s okay – you’re not really changing your sim’s preferences, just having them pretend. (It’s harder that way.)
Maintain a Legend: Have a pretend relationship with another sim, preferably an allied agent. This pretend relationship has all the trappings of marriage/romance, including living together and sleeping in the same bed, but without romantic attachment. This sim may NOT be Mr. Big or The Diva. Bonus points if, when you’re playing a different household and invite the spy over, this pretend partner comes along when the spy asks “Can my friend come too?” +100 for a cover identity, +50 if the pretend partner your sim’s friend brought to a different household.
 END OF THE CHALLENGE
This challenge can end in one of two ways: Either you are successful enough to eventually be brought in from the cold, or you mess up badly and can never work as a spy again.
If you make it to Elder without having your cover blown, you can come in from the cold. You can drop your cover identity, and even take a job in Intelligence if you like. (This represents getting a nice desk job or training new recruits.) Alternatively, you can relax and enjoy retirement without any fear of anyone torturing or killing you. You do have to move to a completely different house. +500 for honorably coming in from the cold.
If your cover is blown once, you lose all your points, lose your job, and lose any Rewards or inventory you may have earned. You have to move to a new house with a new cover identity (use the Sim of a Thousand Faces chart to help pick this) and start a new job. Your new job cannot be in your old career track. You are immediately placed in Hard Mode, if you weren’t already there. -200 points for being forced to complete the challenge on Hard Mode because your cover was blown (Yes, this means you might start over with negative points.)
 If your cover is blown a second time, you are not cut out for the spy life. Flip a coin or roll a die to decide what happens to you.
1.       Heads/evens=You are forcibly retired. You move to a new house with a new identity. You can never see your family again (if you had one), and you have to get a new job that is not in any prior career path, in Intelligence, or in Law Enforcement.
2.       Tails/odds=You are found out and killed by the enemy. You lose all your points. Kill your sim via the method of your choice. Hey, being a spy is dangerous!
 SCORING
+1 for every dead drop completed
+5 for every time your sim is invited on an outing/date with a known sim
+5 per covert contact
+5 for every successful completion of the “iffy things” requirement above.
+25 bonus points for completion of the “iffy things” requirement with five different sims
+10 for every vacation destination greeting mastered
+10 for learning to teleport via meditation
You can only learn to teleport via one method, not both.
+10 for every time you send a message via an innocuous object
+10 if you faithfully complete the driving requirements
-10 If you have not completed it faithfully
+10 if you faithfully complete the hacking requirements
-10 If you have not completed it faithfully
+10 for each successful courier mission
+20 if you leave the couriered item on a community lot without handing it off to a contact.
+10 if the item in question didn’t belong to you in the first place.
+15 for every time your sim is invited on an outing/date with an unknown sim
+15 for every time you successfully take covert pictures
+15 for every time your sim withstands torture
+20 for every time your sim successfully follows someone
+20 for learning to teleport from the ninja
You can only learn to teleport via one method, not both.
+25 for every successful pair of code phrases exchanged
-10 every time the initial code phrase is not met with the return code phrase
-25 if the entire topic of conversation is rejected
+50 for successful romance/seduction of Mr. Big/The Diva
+25 bonus points for a one-sided love
+50 bonus points for a romance with the opposite of your autonomous gender preference.
+200 points for voluntarily completing the challenge on Hard Mode
-200 points for being forced to complete the challenge on Hard Mode because your cover was blown
+500 for honorably coming in from the cold
Friend or Foe? scenario
+15 for a positive relationship
-25 points for a negative relationship
Take a Chance On Me scenario
+25 for a maxed outing/date meter
0 for a neutral meter or a positive but not maxed meter
-20 for a negative meter
-100 for a bottomed out meter
Sim of a Thousand Faces  scenario
+25 for a successful mission
-20 for a failure triggering torture
Maintain a Legend scenario
+100 for a cover identity
+50 if the pretend partner is the “bring a friend” at a different household when your sim goes to visit
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re-no · 6 years
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What MBTI personality type do you consider Reno?
anonymously ask the mun something you want to know about them, their portrayal, or what they will/won’t write. [ always accepting ]
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I actually took a personality test for him a while back but I’d be damned if I remember what he got, so I took another one ( can be found here if anyone would want to do it also ) and it says that the closest personality types are ENTP and ESTP, but I do believe he fits better into the ESTP category.
                ESTP personality type : the entrepreneur 
ESTP : Extroversion, Sensing, Thinking, Perception
summary pt. i : ESTP personality types always have an impact on their immediate surroundings – the best way to spot them at a party is to look for the whirling eddy of people flitting about them as they move from group to group, laughing and entertaining with a blunt and earthy humour, ESTP personalities love to be the center of attention. theory, abstract concepts and plodding discussions about global issues and their implications don’t keep ESTPs interested for long. ESTPs keep their conversation energetic, with a good dose of intelligence, but they like to talk about what is – or better yet, prefer to just go out and do it. ESTPs leap before they look, fixing their mistakes as they go, rather than sitting idle, preparing contingencies and escape clauses.relevancy : in canon ( games and ACC ), Reno is depicted as a loud, witty one-liner ( if not a little tropey ) extrovert, often attracting most ( if not all ) attention, whether it’s due to whatever came out of that filterless mouth of his, or the general garishness of his appearance ( the unkempt suit, the almost irradiant shade of crimson staining his hair, the questionable combination of all-business turk uniform and a rat tail ). he is, by nature, quite chaotic and disorganised ( quite flighty ), yet, despite that, he is quite the logical thinker ( as depicted in before crisis main and before crisis : episode Reno ), and his sense of humour tends to oscillate back and forth from being blunt to downright vulgar/offensive, depending on the situation. 
summary pt. ii : ESTPs are the likeliest personality type to make a lifestyle of risky behaviour. they live in the moment and dive into the action – they are the eye of the storm. people with the ESTP personality type enjoy drama, passion, and pleasure, not for emotional thrills, but because it’s so stimulating to their logical minds. they are forced to make critical decisions based on factual, immediate reality in a process of rapid-fire rational stimulus response, which makes school and other highly organized environments a challenge for ESTPs. it certainly isn’t because they aren’t smart, and they can do well, but the regimented, lecturing approach of formal education is just so far from the hands-on learning that ESTPs enjoy. it takes a great deal of maturity to see this process as a necessary means to an end, something that creates more exciting opportunities. in addition, it makes more sense for an ESTP to use their own moral compass rather than someone else’s. rules were made to be broken ; it is a sentiment that can earn ESTP personalities a certain ( unkind ) reputation. however, if they minimize the trouble-making, harness their energy, and focus despite all the boring stuff, ESTPs are a force to be reckoned with.relevancy : putting all my gang-related background headcanons aside, Reno is a turk, which isn’t exactly a lifestyle pertinent to the peacekeepers and the virtuous. it’s risk-ridden, violent and unpredictable ( again, putting all my headcanons aside ). they are the intel unit of a company unafraid to challenge a nation ( look at what happened to Wutai, for example ), so it would be silly to presume that all the turks do is sit around on their asses all day. ShinRa isn’t afraid to deploy all kinds of dirty methods to further their agenda ( again, Wutai serves as a stellar example of that ) and the turks are there to accomodate that. Reno loves danger, it’s thrilling, it’s fun, it keeps him entertained. I don’t quite agree with him being a thrill seeker only to ‘ stimulate the mind ‘ because, personally, I think his obsession with danger is rooted deeply in wanting to experience both an emotional thrill and to stimulate the mind ( to make him think ) but that’s mostly unimportant in the grand scheme of things. this is purely headcanon-based, but Reno strikes me as a kinesthetic learner, meaning that the best way for him to grasp a concept would be through taking an active approach to the issue at hand. he doesn’t do well when someone is trying to present new information via a lecture ( he loses interest instantly ), which is also why he’s paired up with someone as well put together as Rude ( there is an inherent balance because they compliment each other quite well : strength / speed, meticulousness/spontaneity, organisation/chaos ). this is also purely headcanon-based, but Reno is incredibly morally grey. he has his own set of rules and morals and doesn’t adhere to anybody else’s standards and values ( doesn’t care enough to even try to understand another’s viewpoint ). a good example of that would be him dropping the plate on sector seven as per president ShinRa’s orders. ShinRa is trying to deliver a powerful message to AVALANCHE : we aren’t afraid to sacrifice innocent lives in order to dispose of any and all opposition. the turks, just like the SOLDIERs, are expected to follow orders to a t, whether or not their personal moral compass aligns with the president’s decisions or not. in Reno’s case, he simply doesn’t care. those people crushed beneath the plate ? unimportant, just another set of numbers on yet another report of a mission well done. it’s just a means to an end for him, which can also explain as to why ( amongst his other traits and merits ) he was made second in command rather than any other turk. 
summary pt. iii : with perhaps the most perceptive, unfiltered view of any type, ESTPs have a unique skill in noticing small changes. whether a shift in facial expression, a new clothing style, or a broken habit, people with this personality type pick up on hidden thoughts and motives where most types would be lucky to pick up anything specific at all. ESTPs use these observations immediately, calling out the change and asking questions, often with little regard for sensitivity. relevancy : this is based entirely on the way Reno is portrayed in before crisis : episode Reno ( transcript for which can be found here ). one of the themes of mission Reno is that he notices that Rude is acting strange ( he is the only one to notice this ) and proceeds to figure out that the reason why he’s being odd is that his favourite/usual pair of sunglasses is being repaired, so he’s forced to wear a spare pair. now, Rude isn’t exactly known for openly showing his emotions, so to notice that something is off about him takes someone ( inherently and ) incredibly perceptive, but to work out that the cause of such a shift is Rude’s glasses ?? that’s quite the feat, especially considering that the shades he wears are identical. the fact that he notices even catches Rude visibly off-guard, which isn’t something that happens often, at all.
reno : let’s make a bet. rude : a bet?reno : let’s see who can get the prize first. rude : get ? get what ? reno : your usual pair of shades, Rude. rude : wha-!? reno : you’re having them repaired, right? rude : but, how… I haven’t told anyone. reno : how many years have been a team? you’re wearing a spare pair. no wonder I thought there was something strange about you today. come on, you gonna stand around and pout forever? rude : mph… I’ll take you up on that bet. reno : then what will you bet? rude : …our partnership.
putting aside the showcase of the bond the two share ( because that in itself deserves a separate post ), Reno is exceedingly perceptive, to say the least.
tldr : overall, a million meta pages later, I find that Reno fits the ESTP personality type best !
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hexpatient · 1 year
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i talk about how i used logic and chose what to believe based on evidence and i was still considered erratic and insane. but before i was this well thought out and couldnt put a finger on how or why this shit is so bad and wrong, i felt it and i knew there was something wrong even though i couldnt quite figure out why. nowadays when i have a spiral i open up tumblr and try to type it out like a persuasive essay. and back when i was 17 and could only keysmash and sob, i was still right then too. when i kept saying "im powerless" because i was. and getting jolts from remembering having my reality defined by cognitive distortion thought rules by the therapist ("you're never powerless because black and white thinking etc") and i didnt know how to prove it wrong even in my own mind. and the accusations of being so emotional made me so distressed that i couldnt even think clearly anyway (thats the power of thought stopping cliches and loaded language...). i was still right then too before i learned these critical thinking skills. my feelings were right. my knowledge was right. i was right. i saw things how they really were. kicking and crying and screaming and throwing up, i saw things how they were then too.
the idea that emotions can only cloud your judgement is false. the idea that emotions cant be trusted is false. or that you cant know anything while also being emotional. emotions are not the opposite of logic. emotions are not the Dumb and logic is not the Smart. they are two hands clasped together with fingers interlaced. sometimes its accurate, sometimes it isnt. i shouldnt have to make a power point presentation with sources to convince a therapist that i know whats happening in my own life. and even when i did provide evidence, they just called that crazy too. there are no holes in my knowledge or my cognition and there never has been, even at my most """hysterical"""". there is only a massive hole in the integrity of the thought leaders (therapsychiatrists).
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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.
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Fill out & repost! This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.
My muse is: canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /
Is your character popular in the fandom?  YES / NO / i would say she’s popular in the jpn fandom rather than the eng since i do know people in the western side likes Elise more than her since not everyone isn't a fan of the shy little sister healer™
Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK. She’s just cute doesn't make it better from what anons ive been getting making my stomach churn 
Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / somewhat between i believe
Are they underrated?  YES / NO. / well it’s a between tbh
Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO. / does some parts of the story count?
Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / i mean she’s their sibling so it be strange if she wasn’t
Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO. / Maybe if you count her being the princess
How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL / 
How strictly do you follow canon?  
I do follow the fates canon as i can but some of their writing i just don’t even want to accept that for sakura like how no one once defended Azura during her stay in Hoshido while the siblings just ignore it?  yeah hell no thats the part i wont agree with in canon tbh
SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.  
Well she’s kind, wants to get stronger, adorable, don’t make her upset (thanks Azama), trying to being nice to those who are rude to her, her archery/healing skills, broken(thanks feh i still don’t have halloween sakura STILL), fun to use in fe:w,  she even punches Iago to save Azura. 
Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?)
This..i dont know i am aware in some popular opinions about her that she’s boring, too shy yeah i can get it but from her back story about the rumored kidnapping i feel like people tend to forget that, hated her voice(btw i like her eng VA but her jpn one..i heard about the infamous incident with her and yikes), dislikes shy little sister healers, sakura idk i know people just prefers Elise than her and yeah
What inspired you to RP your muse?  
I wanted to try rping in the fe rp community my first option was f!Robin who married Stahl or Priam but when Fates was announced i kind of saw Sakura since her design was cute and interesting so i just pick her
What keeps your inspiration going?
Daily stuff, trying to make some new verses for her, japanese events, the things i seen or just whatever comes on my mind fits for her. 
Some more personal questions for the mun.
Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.
Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO. / I hope so i am even more worried i made her ooc in some rp moments
Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO./ I mostly write ship hcs or verse hcs
Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES / NO. / it’s mostly private ones i dont post them since i worry it make people sleep lol 
Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day?  YES / NO. 
Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO. 
Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO 
Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO. / i dont think i can take criticism well to be honest had bad ones before
Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?
I do but i rather have ones that are too mean or too harsh that i’m not sure if it’s a hate or advices
Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?
Of course!
If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?
Even if they like my hcs or not i’m not here to please them i dont want to know why if you dislike it thats you but it’s my hc not yours since everyone has different hcs of characters
If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?
Tbh some rpers portrays Sakura differently i did mention if you don’t like how i portray my muse then the unfollow button is there 
If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?  
Okay If it’s a muse that hates her (along with her siblings) for reasons in their oc story or a hc then i will let this slide it’s their muse not the mun but if you sending hate to my muse just because you hate her it’s not cool  :/ i do have some friends/people i know who hates Sakura and honestly i just dont bring it up to them
Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?
A little just don’t go too mean about it okay? 
Do you think you are easy going as a mun?  
A little sometimes i be just not in the mood to talk on certain days or i’m just busy kind of suggest you don’t spam message me if i’m away or not in the mood to talk 
That’s about it, congrats for filling out!
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taken it from: @electricea​
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kendrixtermina · 6 years
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Every time I think I have a handle on this infefior Fe thing or even start to consider wether I might actually be a feeler or something, a THING happens
"Sometimes I feel like you wouldn't care if I died in a ditch somewhere?" Seriously? Does he have eyes and ears in his head? This just comes out of fucking nowhere like WTF
I mean I know that relationships are supposed to be work and that there are no perfect people, but I thought Id finally found a person who actually likes me being me and gets deep stuff and now he's giving me all this vague shallow bullshit about doing my hair nice (but NOT in ways he doesnt like. Im already disentangling long hair I would otherwise never bother with every morning because of him) i lost like 15 kilos just like he wanted.
Would always listen to his - and I dont even want to be citing this like its some chore I do, i listen to him because hes an interesting person- I just thought he thought the same of me but now im wondering if he realizes im a person at all. All this whole tirade because I did not feel like fucking after an ardous journey. Like I like it aa much as he does I go along almost every time but im a *person* who is tired or busy sometimes
Yet here hes going on about how there ought to be some ill-defined "excitement" when talking to the opposite gender that he somehow says isnt there like I dont even know, or have a sense for what hes talking about
- and that compliment sandwich about "oh sure in some ways yore smarter than me" even though hes the one whose career is taking off and shit and ge tscked on "get a job"
"It shouldnt be an effort, it should just cone from you automatically" and accusing me of montrous coldheartedness just bc im busy sometimes you know just like he is
I thought he thought I was "nice" and that he admired me, I thought he liked that I didnt pry in his business and didnt mind if he spent a long time working and then sone shit about " its not like I want to go back to those vchicks who would nag me" like its a choice between cancer and aids.
Like hiw can someone who seems like such a deep person care about such shallow crap of all sudden.
Cant I just have a hunan connection without any of that shallow performative gender roles bullshit tacked on???
I really dont want to go all aggro tumblr chick on this but its making me understand the temptation
Like this has zero to do with whats going on inwardly like I know I'm not the worlds most sociable person and i might as well be blind and deaf as far as this whole social cues bullshit goes but why do people always have to conflate that with a person's feelings or lack thereof?
And that shit about how "ozs weird to stand next to you when you suddenly talk about murder".. with my own sister, who gets my humor?!
One part of me wants to freak out and do penance in a hermitage, another wants to storm out in an insulted huff but what I'm actually gonna do is probably none of those things.
I meam we kind of talked it over and communicated things im partially just venting this shit here do its out of my system and done with I realize I cant ask to br told the whole truth and then turn around a throw a tantrum
I just dont want to live with someone who thinks im sn antisocial freak, you know, just like them shoolyard bullies. Who might be the reason why I may ir may not be unreasonably touchy about this
I understand that O cant alwaxd have my will and comprpmises are part of relationships but I dont want to perform any sort extensive exhaustivr fakery in my own home, you can either have an attractive mask or a real human connection like otherwuse itd not worth it
Maybe my expectations were unrealistic like of course humans arr products of their societies theres not really any point in getting hing up on "he said this" or "she said that"
Im just such an idiotic sucker for anyone telling me im special or that theire "chosing" me ever since bloody gradeschool, I tell myself to be realistic anf not to expect the huge abd romantic but I still want to believe that its *somewhere* out there.
Im not going to make any decisions right now or do anything rash but Im also experiencing a certain degree of "UH I haze everything why is nothing ever good why doesnt life ever make sense"
I mean if hes not happy with this and we cant even get that bare minimun of communication across what is even remotely the POINT
Thats ehy I was reluctant to move in together because now it would be a huge hassle to exist snd im just going to calm down and do nothing and well just stay there being mildly but not critically miserable out of sheer inertia or at least that was the silly nightmare thst I kept telling myself was just anxious bullshit jitters that made no sense
It really makes me want to never talk to humans ever again and at the same time I just feel stupid because I realize how childish and overdramatic that seems
Its not possible not helpful so I wont actually do it but like all of this just drains my already limited energy that I could be using for useful thongs or at least to enjoy my holiday
Like I would like to claim that Im a poetic soul behind my shitty social skills but what do I even base that on? And it frightens me when people aufdenlx bring out those vsgue formless things I have no control over and treat it as if it were indicative of ME.
Thats why I always preferred to express myself in writing over the intertubes. Its not like people never misunderstanf or dislike me for that but at least its for flaws or positions that are part of my actual personality
I think im beyond all this and older and wiser and more differentiated and understand everything better but in the end im still sick of being seen as a freak and having to play all these pointless social games
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