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hi morgan! how’s iceland?

hiiii beet! Iceland has been so so gorgeous. today I stripped naked in -2 celsius weather and got into a hot spring LOL

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How do people in Japan dress compared to the States? I know showing a lot of skin casually is uncommon but like the heat 😢

people here wear long sleeves and long pants in this weather 😭 but there's also a lot of modest/long dresses and skirts I have no idea how japanese people do it!!! This is not to say I haven't seen tank tops or short skirts it's usually just the younger women in central tokyo around shinjuku/shibuya/harajuku

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Oh absolutely! And honestly, as much as it pains me, I think ily!mc would probably break up with megumi before he tries to break it off and he would take it SO HARD. So many things would pile up!

Things would get so busy and he’d be so tired that he’d be really short with her and keeps pushing her away until ily!mc has had enough.

I’m torn between him letting the break up happen and being like “I’m fine whatever, I won’t have to worry about their safety anymore” even though he’s so upset and thinks about it every day or immediately apologizing and feeling guilty for the next several days. and if they went the break up route ily!mc would be open to getting back together if he approached her, cause she misses him too!

and the only comfort gojo offers (if u can even call it that) is just saying something like “well the jujutsu world isnt for normal people” or “maybe u should get strong enough to where you don’t have to worry about that” and then Megumi would probably internalize it but he wouldn’t be able to stop thinking about her and he would just end up spiraling. rip!mc would probably encourage him to make up with her because she believes he deserves happiness like that. He wants to be selfish and have her by his side but also he doesn’t want her too close for her own safety.

To add something a little light hearted, I think he would use his demon dogs as look outs sometimes whenever they’re out together. One time they came over and ily!mc was petting them all over while megumi was trying to act like he didn’t know where these dogs even came from.

if you're getting relationship advice out of all things from gojo you know you've fucked up 💀

irly!mc is emotionally mature enough to tell megumi that a relationship is the last thing he needs rn bc she knows megumi is hiding something from her and that it's stressing him out, and that they should break up stay friends. the thing is megumi has abandonment issues so i think irly!mc would have to be the one to gently broach the topic of a breakup bc the thought of breaking up wouldn't even occur to him until someone says something. he's just so desperate to make it work. bc he loves her. i did write her as being able to see curses so maybe she does know about megumi being a jujutsu sorcerer but he does his best to keep irly!mc separated from all that. which is getting increasingly hard considering being a jujutsu sorcerer is a large part of his life and to an extent his identity. a whole side of him he refuses to show her.

but also irly!mc wouldn't be above being just a little petty and trying to rile him up by getting him jealous. she'd be like 'no need to walk me home. a friend of mine is picking me up!' casual male name drop. or 'oh yeah he asked me out. do you think i should give him a chance?' feigning ignorance. all while megumi is secretly seething bc he knows she's popular and well liked LMAO

gojo going "if it's any consolation—" then proceeding to say the worst things Ever is so Him 😭 he's so horrible. he deserves every single relationship woe he gets from rip!mc. rip!mc would be soooo concerned though. all she wants is for megumi to be happy. he's just an extreme overthinker though help

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Cause megumi has been on my mind a lot lately for…obvious reasons. I cant stop thinking about how, if he were in a relationship, it would be with someone who is like normal, for jujutsu kaisen standards, and completely separated from the sorcery world. Like it would be really hard at times cause I think he wouldn’t tell them anything about sorcery if he could but the mundane and peaceful moments he’d get to have with them would be soo..!! His life would get to feel a little normal for that bit of time.

I think he’d cling on to his partner’s normality and try to protect it (especially since Tsumiki…yeah). even if he might do something that hurts them, like he wouldn’t WANT to hurt them but if it comes to it yeah. As long as they don’t get caught up in any of that mess. Those mundane moments with loved ones amidst a chaotic backdrop are sooo much to me.

omg yes.....i feel like for megumi who didn't even want to be a jujustu sorcerer in the first place he craves normalcy and even though he knows it's a bad idea, he's a little selfish and can't help but want it despite it all. i feel like there's a conversation with gojo somewhere there about how he should be more selfish and that if he wants it that much he's going to have to be the one to protect his s/o. and he can only do that if he gives up his self sacrificing tendencies and gets stronger. gojo is probably all goading about it too like 'you can't call yourself a man if you can't even protect your lover!' 😭

but at the same time i think megumi is like...the type to retreat. zero communication for days on end. the 'it's none of your business' kind of guy who you would worry would be cheating on you if it were literally any other guy. like i know i rag on gojo a lot for being a terrible lover but megumi's got daddy issues AND abandonment issues and it's going to manifest in some horrible difficult way. if gojo is the ex that doesn't acknowledge that you've already broken up with him megumi is the ex that should probably be an ex but he's somehow still your on and off boyfriend who tries to break it off every time he thinks he's strong enough but ends up reneging. you only stay because you keep on holding out for that possibility, that hope for something better. YEAH.

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Hi Morgan, it’s been a while! I know everyone else has been telling you similar things but I just wanna say it too, but you really did singlehandedly rekindle a love of reading for me. Like I was reading things but not nearly as much I do now, something about your writing just flows so well and makes you want more. It’s hard to put into words. I started picking up books and VN I had been reading but didn’t finish and even saved a lot of your recommendations cause I got excited about reading again. You really are one of a kind! How was the ramune vanilla ice cream btw?

EVERYONE STOP GIVING ME COMPLIMENTS IM LITERALLY GOING TO BAWL IN PUBLIC! I don't have to words to explain how much this touched me 🥲🥲🥲🥲 I totally understand how someone can fall out of love with reading I actually think school has a lot to do with how people perceive reading and how it sucks all the joy out of the wonders of reading!!! I'm so glad I could rekindle your love of reading I'm going to cryyyyy

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I just saw the new opening for s2 of jjk and immediatly felt the need to reread all your satosugu stuff. It was so cute…i missed them. Maybe, just maybe, jjk can be forgiven for all its affronts against me.

that's how im tryna be except i know i'll end up disappointed anyway 😭😭😭

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Hi Morgan!!! 😊 It’s been a while! I binged Dog Days Are Over and, as usual, it made me wanna work on my own wips. I love your writing it really gets the inspiration flowing.

I ended up liking Hideo a bit TOO much. i really liked seeing him around and was happy he didn’t run off when he got bullied…(i hope) and I love the Shoko interactions I love women so much

She’s surrounded by so many people who love her…we love you rip!mc, everyone loves you!! 😭

I know she would feel guilty about it immediately after, but I think rip!mc should get to give satoru and suguru one good punch, yknow as a treat. Or shoko can do it in her stead.

Also your Shoujo/Josei list 👀

Hotaru no Yoimeiri has me in a death grip and so many others on that list has a hold on me too. I love shoujo and josei. I love love. And this is so crazy cause when I was in high school, I wanted to act like I didn’t love shoujo and romance as much as I did. Hears to growing up and accepting you wanna kick your feet and roll around at the thought of love.

Anndd Congratulations on going to Japan! I hope you have so much fun and eat good food! I hope this trip makes you feel better!!

BEET!!!!!!! im so happy you're enjoying ddao!!!! people are surprisingly in the hideo camp lmfao everyone wants to bully stsg apparently which i am down for. also YES HOTARU NO YOMEIRI IS SO FUN it's been a while since i was actively invested in a romance manga i love my unhinged MLs and that man is crazy lmfao

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I’m so sorry I’m messaging you so much, theres just so many things to talk about and it’s exciting (we just have so many similar interests 😭)

When I finished Nier Automata even the start up screen made me sad, even despite the hope of a different ending I was still sad. I have Nier Replicant on my backlog but I keep avoiding it. The vibes of the Nier series is just sooo!! I even tried playing the gacha for a little but I couldn’t keep up. I wanna play Drakengard 3 so bad, Zero seems like the exact kind of woman I love, but my ps3 might be dead 😔

If I could recommend some games, I think you’d like Caligula Effect. The story is pretty simple but it really shines when it comes to the characters. And since you like horror, have you ever heard or played Death Mark? It’s a great supernatural visual novel with miserable looking men.

omg don't apologize i love seeing u in my asks beet <33333

if i could choose one game to wipe from my mind just so i could replay it it would probably be nier automata. the true ending where it asks you to delete your save data to help others and seeing all the ppl that did delete their save data made me !!!!! look at us all brought together by this silly little game about existentialism nihilism and sexy androids!!! the amusement park is laptop screensaver. beautiful art beautiful women great gameplay what's to hate. i actually think you can play drakengard 3 on a emulator! while the gameplay is a bit difficult the story is >>>>>> and nier replicant is SO good im so glad they finally released the jpnese version bc it makes so much sense and kanié is such a delight i love her so much. yoko taro loves making foul mouthed brash angry women and putting them in skimpy outfits and i kinda love him for it LMAO

my friend actually played caligula effect when it came out and she was obsessed with it so i will definitely add that to my backlog! i actually have death mark on the ps vita!!!! miserable looking men????? SAY LESS! i should really get started on it if u recommend it thx for the recs friend <3333

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No, the shit that happened with Megumi was my breaking point I think. Everything started going downhill for me with the culling games, where it was nothing but battles. I like a good choreographed battle, but man, I have limits. Like, I really can’t fathom what could happen from here and I don’t think Gege can redeem himself in my eyes

yeahhhhhh im so confused as to where this entire plot with sukuna is going and where kenjaku's plans come into all of this. like what is going ON. i feel it's most plausible that it's all just a set up for gojo to get out of the box and 1v1 sukuna, but then we have kenjaku and foreign interference???? where did all the japanese citizens even evacuate. shouldn't we know what's happening in JAPAN before we see the us special military forces!???!?? what is sukuna's plan anyway??? wreak havoc???

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I wanna read House of Fata Morgana SO BAD! It’s been sitting in my steam library for forever but I’m reading Kitchen by Banana Yoshitomo AND Higurashi right now which are great. I love Ryukishi’s intros, they always hit. Also who was your favorite route in Cafe Enchante 🥺

if there is one thing i could force ppl to play it would be house of fata morgana. it's beautiful. it's life changing. it's horrible. it's suffering and nihilistic and tragic but somehow humanity love and forgiveness prevails. somehow. i think there's a trigger warning guide out there that you should seek out if you're weak of stomach because the game is a lot!!!! but it's unforgettable and one of the best things ive ever read!!!

also banana!!! let me know how your thoughts on it when you finish <333 it's so funny you brought up higurashi bc my friend's been bugging for ages to play it and he just texted me yesterday asking me when i was going to start LOL

as for my favorite route in cafe i rlly rlly rlly thought misyr was going to by my favorite (unsurprisingly) but il came in and stole my heart. i think his route thematically was the most coherent. but also i just really enjoyed his and kotone's chemistry and their entire relationship 😭😭

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@ the bnha vs jjk ask….I get it even though Im not caught up with bnha at all. Like I’m not really into the direction jjk is going (especially with the geopolitics walking into the room 😭). I really started losing interest when we kept jumping from battle to battle (Hakari’s fight felt like it went on for forever), but I guess thats what I get for forgetting jjk is a battle manga and not character focused. Your writing is honestly the only thing thats keeping me invested in the series.

HIGH COMPLIMENT 😭 i honestly think it's bc bnha found its footing a little after i dropped it (it also helps that it's a bit further along in it's plot than jjk which makes it more coherently organized at this point). jjk is just....kinda going off the rails and if akutami introduces all of these new elements without ever really taking the time to explain or process that's a negative in my book. horikoshi also gets points for fleshing out characters especially the side characters (yes i was and AM invested in shoji's backstory). meanwhile we still know little to nothing about yuuji or megumi or even nobara past a 2 panel flashback..........like we're 200 chapters in and im honestly thinking akutami is going to just do a big reveal at the very end lmfao

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Just found out the first episode of Skip and Loafer came out today so Im using it as a break from TriMax hell. I think its funny how I didn’t think too much of Knives in the 1998 anime version other than that he was ugly and crazy, but now he’s left an imprint on my brain. You’re so psychotic king.

Also I finished Kitchen and started reading Fata Morgana. I think the first story is my favorite. The bit about losing your loved ones in the physical things they leave behind, like the scent of them fading away from something, really got me. I’m not super far in Fata Morgana yet but the soundtrack already pulled me in hard.

I love stories about people connecting through grief, whether it be negative or positive. Something about it is so intimate and cathartic. Especially ones that get into those ugly feelings. It feels so very human to acknowledge that. Theres so many things I’m reading/watching/playing rn I feel insane.

BEET!!!!! they lowkey did knives dirty in the 1998 anime like he straight up gave my 12 year old self nightmares 😭 i gotta say studio orange redesigning his knives as an eldritch tentacle >>>> points for that!!!!

yes!!!! i think it was a very poignant book about loss and considering the first part is only like what 100 pages?? made me go through the 7 stages of grief. ahhhh im so glad you started HiFM!!! the soundtrack is PHENOMENAL. i always listen to it when im studying LOL. if you like stories about grief you're going to love hifm because it rlly is all about love and grief and letting go and moving on. but before the catharsis it's tragedy on tragedy on tragedy 😭😭😭 i feel like hifm is about the ugly parts of humanity as much as it's about believing in the good. this might be the unpopular opinion but i do firmly believe it's an optimistic game about hope despite everything. i hope it brings you to tears like it did me. but in a wonderful cathartic way <333

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11, 23, and 25!

11. Do you write scenes in order, or do you jump around?

lmao i don't think i've ever written a fic in chronological order!!!! i jump around all the time. sometimes if i can't bring myself to finish a scene i'll just move to the next one. if i have 9 scenes in a fic each scene will be like 50%-80% done while i just jump around them adding a sentence or paragraph or finishing the scene in it's entirety. i know it's chaotic my brain is just not wired for the chronological 😭

12. Is writing the beginning, middle, or end of the story easiest? Hardest?

beginning.....sometimes i find it difficult trying to start a fic in a way that's compelling enough.

13. What’s your favorite part of the writing process (worldbuilding, brainstorming/outlining, writing, editing, etc)?

answered!

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I’m going to atone and offer Megumi fluff as compensation for aiding in making him more miserable 😔 It’s like I got hit with an inspiration beam

i will gladly take megumi fluff i think he needs it after these sadistic last chapters

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morgan…have u heard abt the most recent jjk chapter yet 🧍🏾‍♀️ I

i saw the leaks (untagged AGAIN) and immediately logged out because i could not handle it

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sometimes i remember that gojo like, actually teaches general studies and grades papers. like, he’s actually a teacher and not some guy thats just at the school. i think thats crazy

between me and you i don't think he's doing any teaching or grading LMAO