#betrayal trauma

[abusedpixie]

𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐥 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐤𝐢𝐧. 𝐌𝐲 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠!!

[samxcamargo]

You might question if the love you have now is real if you’ve been betrayed in the past, but that doesn’t make the love any less real. It can be so hard to trust again, but if it feels real in your heart, don’t let the thoughts win. If they make you feel safe and it’s only your past you fear, it’s okay to let them in.

-Samantha Camargo

[unwelcome-ozian]

[abandoned-w0rm]

sometimes i get so upset deep down inside i feel like i’m going to explode. i hate having to hold in this anger. i hate how angry i’ve become. i used to be soft and pure until you ruined me. now i feel like i’m always on edge. i feel myself relapsing so hard into everything just to cope with your presence.

[traiciontrauma]

[muse-lost-herself]

Let's start from the beginning again. And again. And again 🙂

[yuricin]

any parent who knows that their spouse/partner is abusing their kid and still defends the abuse and chooses them over their own kid should just get buried in a ditch, honestly.

you had a job as a parent to fucking protect your kid, but you betrayed them by siding with the person who hurt them, when your kid came to you for COMFORT, HELP, AND SUPPORT. you see a child being abused, and your first reaction is, "my partner is doing it, so it's fine."

you chose a shitty person over your kid's safety. this shit makes kids grow up to have trust issues, fear of abandonment, and a shit ton of other issues because their development got fucked up at a young age. all because of YOU. fuck you. you failed as a parent, and you shouldn't even be around kids in general.

[anotherbpdbitch]

i’m so tired of having to force people to spend time with me. why am i not enough. why is loving me such a fucking chore. what am i doing wrong.

[thepeacefulgarden]

No matter what you've done or not done, or what you (or others) think you "could have done differently." Cheating is an action, not a reaction.

[frostthewolf24]

[abusedpixie]

𝐀𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐭 𝐚 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝, 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝, 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥, 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞, 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞, 𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐬, 𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐬, 𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐬𝐲𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐧 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐭; 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐩𝐝 (𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 ) 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐢𝐬 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐜𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐮𝐥𝐭. 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐨𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐞𝐩𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐦𝐚. 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝. 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐮𝐧𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞. 𝐍𝐨 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞...𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐠𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐞...𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞. 𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐈'𝐯𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡

[samxcamargo]

Book: The Pain of Healing by Samantha Camargo on amazon 💛

[unwelcome-ozian]

[abandoned-w0rm]

i feel so sickeningly alone on this earth. there is not one person who truly knows me, i just reflect off of whoever i hang out with because i don’t even know me! i don’t know what i like. i don’t know what i dislike. i don’t know what i believe in. i don’t know anything! all i’ve done my whole life is be a doormat, all i know how to be is whatever i’m expected to me. i don’t know how to be myself. i don’t know how to find out anything about myself. i’m so boring.

[traiciontrauma]

[gaydissertation]

Hi, I'm a queer doctoral student trying to finish my dissertation. If you qualify and would be willing to participate in an interview I would be super grateful (I only need a few more people). I'm sorry I do not have any money, only the love in my heart. Please DM me or email me ( lalvarado1@ego.thechicagoschool.edu ) if you're interested.

I am reaching out looking for interview participants for my dissertation on parenting. These interviews will take about an hour of your time and will take place over zoom

You are eligible to participate if you:  -Are over the age of 18 years old  -Assigned female at birth  -Identify as female  -Identify as Lesbian  -Are in a relationship  -Are parenting at least one child born between the years of 2010-2020 -You have experienced at least one instance of betrayal trauma as defined by Freyd (2008) "Childhood physical, emotional, or sexual abuse perpetrated by a parent or caregiver” before the age of 18

I have attached the full research flyer to this post.