#binge ed

[desultory-suggestions]

Happy Holidays Friends! This is a tricky time for so many is ED recovery, so here are some helpful links to utilize when you need them. Take tender care, loves!

Coping with a binge eating disorder during the holidays

ANAD Coping with an ED

Coping with a loved ones ED during the holidays

101 Body Affirmations

[laba2dub2]

At this point my biggest motivation to starve myself is the hope that being sick would excuse me from being a productive and functioning human being. I don't want anyone to expect anything from me. I don't want to keep working. And I can't just quit because then I will be a disappointment. I want to be sick enough so that it would be justifiable to quit.

I don't want mom to look at me with a disgust, that I can't do anything right and can't even handle a simple job.

I want her to look at me with worry. Pity. I want pity.

I want to lay in bad and rot. And I want to have a reason to do it. I want it to be acceptable for me to do. Because I'm sick. I can't help it, it's not like I'm a lazy failure, I'm just sick.

But I'm not sick. Not enough. No one sees it. I starve and then binge and gain everything back. So no one knows. So I'm just an idiot who can barely handle her job. I want to kill myself every time I think about future projects and tasks that will be given to me. I can't handle that. I'm scared. I'm incompetent. Everyone will be disappointed in me. But if I will just be sick enough. Just a little thinner. Just a little paler. All I need is to faint one time for people to see something is wrong, for them to see that I can't handle it. I can't handle it. I TRULY CAN'T HANDLE IT.

Please. Please. I want release from the responsibilities of life. I really can't handle it....

.......

if i can't be sick enough..

i will have to end it

[caloriecounter-ibarelyknowher]

hellooo :)

I'm 15 and I'm tryna lose weight, I don't rlly mind how my body looks atm but I kind of have health anxiety and I think my parents think I'm fat (they're low-key health freaks.)

I think I've had either binge ed or food addiction for a looong time and didn't realise bc I never thought about how much I was actually eating. in February (like the 20th I think) I binged (like proper binged) and I scared myself so much. since then my mental health has kind of gone down the shit hole 🥰

I also have misophonia which makes me hurt myself.

I'll also post about my SHIT social life and stuff :)

all my posts are tagged #mine

anyway:

bmi: 23.9 (omfg it's so close to overweight I might actually scream)

sw: 65kg

cw: 63.5

lw: 63.5kg

gw1: 60kg

gw2: 55kg

gw3: 50kg

ugw (but probably not knowing me): 48kg

workouts and mealspo I have saved are under the tag

saved-for-l8r

[chubbyybunnie]

My face is getting fatter because I keep fucking binging

[klepazia]

guys I NEED new moots 😭 plsplsls is anyone active on March '24 plsolslsslets be moots I'm begging I miss the old days sm , I'm ftm, almost 17 and I NEEEEED new ed moots😭 someone to talk to ab stuff like this and other things toooo, no nsfw.

pls reach out <//3

[scaryscinny]

i can never just have a little. eating isn’t a duty or an experience to me, it’s a hobby. it’s something to do with my hands and my mouth. it’s a comfort. i don’t know, i teally need to stop :(

[never7enough]

Ich muss abnehmen, ich muss, muss, muss!

[notpeachykeen]

I’m in college now. I thought it would be easier to starve myself away from home but I just see to binge non-stop. I walk to the nearest supermarket and buy chocolates and cake ad crisps and eat them all but can’t even purge then because vomiting is so traumatic for me. I have too much access to food 24/7 here and I hate it. I have no scales up here either so I can't tell how much weight I've gained

[antibiscottiiii]

for any ppl out there who use laxis, what type do you find works best

i started with using polyethylene glycol (PEG) but i got sick of the powder and started using senna, it’s a lot easier but i tend to experience more stomach aches and bad feelings,

what laxis can just flush it all out from my body without any effects?

[f4intbutt3rfly]

Random vent but I feel lied to. Just in general tbh. More specifically clothing sizes though. I'm a size 0/32/xs, but I don't think I am. I fit into the clothes, and that's what my wardrobe is made up of, but I don't feel like it's right. Maybe the brands are lying to me. Maybe they are saying that a size large is actually a size xsmall. I don't trust anything or anyone and I'm too skeptical for my own good, but what if they are labeling their clothes wrong to make us think we are skinnier than we actually are? Idk just a thought tho, what do u think?

[thekpopkid]

accountability journal

Well, I’m officially rebirthing this account, at least I think I am. I was once almost at a healthy bmi and now I’m almost at an obese one again and I am suffocating in misery and I am in a perpetual state of anxiety. All because I have an addiction to food. Tomorrow, June 2nd, is my birthday. So I’m starting a tracker, following my road to 50kg. I’m currently at 69.5. 

My first benchmark will be reaching 68kg. 

My intake will be set at 1200 until I do this. Depending on how many days it takes me to lose weight I will set my next goal. Hopefully this take me 4 days. 

Additional rules are:

- no plain cheese

- no eating after 8pm

[desultory-suggestions]

It’s okay if you have hunger swings. Remember that this is your body trying to heal. Listen to it’s cues, eat as much as you need to.

[laba2dub2]

Please give me recommendations for chew & spit ^w^ ~°•°~

I've done chew and spit once in my life before, and want to start doing it again because it seems like a good alternative for purging, but I don't know what food would be best for it. I mainly crave chocolate but I'm afraid of the chocolate melting in my mouth so that I won't be able to spit it properly. I also tried potato chips before but they got stuck in my teeth so that also scares me. Anyone with experience that can give me some tips?

[asterope-j]

I can feel it, parts of me

are soaring away like grains of sand

It's funny, I

relapsed not that long ago

didn't expect to be back here so soon

This morning, my cat, her name is Maya

licked my hand and cuddled and purred

She looked at me. If she can see me

it means that I must still be here

...right?

[chubbyybunnie]

Tw: body and weight talk

I dont want to get t worded if I talk about how I have been struggling....but I literally have no one irl that understands.

My weight has been creeping back up, I have been binging again, and I am feeling a lot of guilt because of it.

I wish I could rip it off like lumps of playdoh. I wish I could just have a normal relationship with food! Why is it always binging?! Why?! Why cant I just eat like a normal person?

I wish things were different.

[scaryscinny]

I hate to admit it but wasting food makes me feel so good. I love not being able to come back to it later. But I hate wasting my parents’ food and money, especially when I’ve been really begging for something and desperate for fast food and other junk. Makes me feel like a fat failure