#bpd episode

[bunniibpd]

[jobackmanhorsesworld]

you tell me i matter so much to you, then why is it im so easily replaced?

[bunnieborderline]

[deprixpainsblog]

Die Gedanken machen mich gerade so fertig.

[bpdcrybaby213]

Why does being ignored even in the slightest send me into a spiraling rage? I want to destroy everything and myself. Obviously what I say doesn't matter and isn't worth responding to. I wish I could smash myself into pieces just to prove a point that I don't matter and never did.

[mothseatinghumanflesh]

NO, I AM NOT I PROMISE

[raincamp]

splitting on someone and then splitting back but loathing yourself because how dare you think any thoughts even implying that theyre not an amazing perfect human being what were you thinking they can't do anything wrong!! its shameful that you would have thoughts like that. oh they cant read your mind?? oh well they might as well have, they don't deserve to have to deal with your bullshit mental illness you should block them you shouldn't be in their life anymore you're a constant burden on them no wonder they abandoned you. why were you even mad at them in the first place?? its totally reasonable that they would leave you. with your issues?? pfft yeah you're basically destined to be alone forever.

[doggirlnarcolepsy]

[baphomet-bitch]

you think you know what rage feels like?

have you ever had to write in excruciating detail how you would kill someone in the most personal way? have you had to draw it, visualize it and obsess over it so you can get it out from under your skin? have you ever been scared of yourself and what you’re capable of when you’re angry? have you ever felt like skinning yourself alive would not even be enough to stop the pure rage from imploding within?

[pigeonwinnin]

Is it pathetic of me to just want someone interested enough to ask me questions? About myself, about life, about things I’m interested in that bring me joy?

I find that I like asking a lot of questions about people I care about. I think they’re so amazing and I want to listen to them and figure them out like a speciality puzzle.

But the reciprocation of this is nonexistent and it makes me miss my last friendship that I had this dynamic with that’s almost been gone for ten years.

I don’t want to be tolerated anymore- I want to be cared about.

[pain-is-my-game]

I hate the persona that I've created after all this time. It's not who I want to be and at this point I don't know how to change it. The words that come out of my mouth are never things that I want to say. I only say what people expect of me. I don't think that I can ever be a full person. Just a hollow shell trying to act out a role that I never wanted in the first place.

[bunniibpd]

[agirlnamedpoetic]

I hate having bpd so fucking much. I hate how I feel the urge to push everyone that loves me away. I hate sitting on the bathroom floor rocking back and forth because I don’t know what to do. I hate being called dramatic because I’m unable to control how I react to everything around me. I hate that people will never understand what it’s truly like be inside my head.

[itsallforgottennowtoo]

ugh...

each time i think im at my lowest... BOOM Narc Collapse AND BPD Episode at the SAME FUCKING TIME.

[deprixpainsblog]

Ich sag einfach nichts mehr dann muss ich nicht allen erklären wieso ich jetzt wieder so bin wie ich bin.

[bpdcrybaby213]

Why does it feel so good to just give in to your BPD symptoms? It feels so good not to fight it.