#but as someone who really values platonic love it's been really bothering me the more and more i see it

[allsassnoclass]

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[vroomvroomcircuit]

Early Risers vs. Night Owls

(A/N): Special thank yous to @foreveralbon and @disneyprincemuke for helping me choose which drivers are morning people and which are more of night owls.

Summary: Some people are night owls, others are morning people. But there is another sort that some drivers learn to fear: Morning Monsters (it's the reader)

Pairings: (All platonic) daniel ricciardo x driver!reader, charles leclerc x driver!reader, carlos sainz x driver!reader, oscar piastry x driver!reader (max and lando get a guest starring)

Word count: 1.2k

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It’s difficult, being a night person in a day people’s world. It really is. Especially when you are around morning loving human beings.

“Oh, don’t you look happy?” Carlos comments, when (Y/N) steps into the breakfast room. Coincidentally, several teams are accommodated in the same hotel during this race weekend.

As she lets herself fall in a seat at his table, the young female whispers an annoyed “Don’t”. “I wasn’t saying anything mean?” He genuinely questions. Is his English failing him again?

“Please, just stop talking. It’s only the ass crack of dawn, how can someone be so chatty?” (Y/N) puts her head onto the table, effectively stopping any further conversation with the Spaniard. He looks a little bit lost into his fruit bowl, not sure how to handle this situation adequately. 

“Top of the morning, my sunshines,” a smiling Daniel Ricciardo strolls into the room. The happiness radiating from him reaches (Y/N) even through her closed eyes.

Just as Daniel arrives at their table, she gets up with the most sluggish motions a sober person can muster. “Coffee” is the only thing mumbled, answering to the confused looks around her.

Shortly after, she sits down again with a cup in her hands, not even bothering to try to follow the chatting between Daniel and Carlos. (Y/N) just stares into space, wondering where she went wrong in her life to have to sit in between two morning people. Surely, this is a punishment of some kind.

“Ok, what is up with you? You look like you are about to murder everyone in this room if someone just dares to breathe in the wrong direction,” Daniel observes. (Y/N) takes another sip from her coffee. “Because it’s true.”

Carlos can’t wrap his head around it. “But what happened to the sunshine-in-person-(Y/N)?” “How am I supposed to be a sunshine, when I’m barely a person at this moment?” Well, that is not a lie. She does look pretty rough. Not everyone can wake up and look perfect like Florence Pugh. Some people have to look more like Merida herself in the mornings.

“Why are you talking to this woman during the early hours?” Charles, who just entered the breakfast hall, fears for their lives. “Because this is what people do? They talk when they sit together?” Daniel is confused. What is so bad about making conversations?

Charles steps closer to their table and (Y/N) immediately latches onto him, burying her face into his stomach.

“Don’t you value your life? A tired (Y/N) in the morning needs quiet and some hugs.” The young woman mumbles something, making the Monegasque laugh. “Yes, and coffee. This is the recipe to get the sunshine person you know and love.”

Confused, the other two drivers blink. Did they miss the manual that came with the rookie?

“And you know all of this, because?” Carlos asks the question that popped up in both their heads. “Because (Y/N) and Arthur were together in F2 and he had been ‘chewed out by her like a pack of gum by a class of elementary schoolers’, his words, not mine. She is not all bark and no bite, isn’t that right?” (Y/N) nods, her head still buried into his front.

“Do you want to catch a ride to the paddock with me? I plan on leaving in five minutes.” (Y/N) nods again and quickly gathers her things before waving the other drivers goodbye.

The ride is filled with silence, Charles even leaves the radio turned off. This lets the female drive in and out of a state of half-asleep until they arrive at their destination. At the same time a certain papaya wearing aussie his own car not far away from Charles’ Ferrari.

“Oh, is it still too early?” He asks her with a small smile. Just like Arthur, Oscar is aware how much of a night owl (Y/N) is, having witnessed her outbursts first hand several times during his own career in F2.

The driver nods as she throws herself into his embrace. A tired (Y/N) turns into the most cuddly person. “Let’s get you a cup of coffee, can’t have you go around screaming at people. You will scare everyone off.”

Oscar is pretty much the only smiling person she tolerates in the morning. Whenever another human being dares just grinning in her direction during her own waking up phase, she is ready to jump their throats. But Oscar is different. He doesn't do it out of mocking or pitiness. He is genuinely happy and wants to show and share it. Also, he radiates a nice calm aura, which is the complete opposite to what she experiences during the days of a race weekend.

When Carlos passes (Y/N) by later, he walks up to her with caution, keeping his teammates' warning in mind, “Hey Carlos, have you heard the rumors about the newest Taylor Swift album? Do you think it will feature a song about Nando?”

The woman in front of him has nothing in common with the one he interacted with just an hour ago. She somehow even looks completely different from her. It’s the kind of freshness that doesn’t come with a shower.

“Uhm, no I did not. Are you ok? You seemed… a bit out of it this morning.” There is a hesitation in his voice, not wanting to accidentally offset her.

But (Y/N) just laughs it off. “Oh yeah, that. I’m sorry for being a grump back there. Just like Charlie said, I’m absolutely not a morning person. During the first hour of being awake I’m an absolute monster. Just, don’t talk to me or only when it’s absolutely necessary during that time. I apologize for my behavior, it wasn’t nice. Today was particularly bad, because I do my best work at night and I have been pouring over some data until 2 am. I’ll try to give you a warning next time!”

With that she is off, looking for her partner in crime aka her teammate to start some kind of mischief with the social media team.

Carlos is just flabbergasted. The duality of some people and how a small cup of caffeine can bring that out of them is astonishing.

Just remember to never fuck with night owls during the early hours of the morning.

Bonus Scene

During a free week some drivers set a date to play a private paddle tournament together in Monaco. Daniel enters the court with a big smile. After all, it is a fresh, sunny morning. This day is a promise of having a good time with his friends and colleagues, playing their favorite game and having lunch plans together.

What sets the Australian off are the three frowning faces, sitting on a bench nursing each a can of Red Bull solemnly. “What happened to you?”

Max answers his question first with a grumpy voice. “I had to leave my cats cuddled up in my bed alone.” “My alarm woke me up while the first number on the clock was still a single digit.” Landoo sounds about as tired as (Y/N) next to him looks like.

“Life”, Daniel answers for the young woman already, who just nods and pulls the strings of her hood closed, hindering someone else to make more conversations with her until the caffeine has kicked in.

Desperate times call for desperate measures after all.

[mosneakers]

28, 30, 38; B, G, H for Coraleye for the Character Ask!

:D

Hiiii love! Thank you for these, they were some good ones 🥰

28. Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth?

Coraleye definitely loves the idea of living a fairytale life with no issues, but she values honesty and open communication tremendously. So while she might initially be hurt by an unpleasant truth, she'd ultimately prefer that over being left in the dark.

30. Who do they most regret meeting?

....Out of the ones she's aware of so far? It's probably gotta be Morgyn Ember. She's bent over backwards for them, and the betrayal she feels after their infidelity is extremely hard for her to grapple with, and has left emotional scars to this day. She understands that there were powers at hand that were out of their control to some extent, but looking back on it, she just feels ridiculous that she allowed someone to take hold of her heart like that and believes it'd be better if she'd have never gotten involved with them in the first place.

38. What memory do they revisit the most often?

There are a few moments that she holds close, one probably being the time she was in Sulani, crying about a boy or something, and was approached by a woman, who comforted her and held her while she cried. She believes this might have been the ghost of her great-grandmother, Agnes Darling. That memory can be seen here

The other, is when her family was reunited with Kirsten and Seymour. They've been away in Tres Lagos raising their own youngest child, Sage and finally moved to Strangerville, which was in their universe, making them accessible to their family once again.

B) What inspired you to create them?

Coraleye was born as opposed to being created, so she kinda just... happened. But her personality has definitely been shaped by the Darling elders who came before her. She's a little hodge-podge of all her older relatives, even her brothers! Which is probably why she's my favorite. She's a walking homage to My Darling, really 😭💘

G)What trait of theirs bothers you the most?

Coraleye's innocence and naivety can be so endearing and cute at times, but a lot of times it can leave her vulnerable to manipulation or hurt and it puts her at a high risk of being taken advantage of. Because of this, she also is completely oblivious to when she's coming across as flirtatious or leading someone on, and although her intentions are always pure and usually platonic, it leads to many unrequited crushes and romances. This can be tough to write, and as a simmer, play 😄

H) What trait do you admire most?

I think her being a family sim is the cutest thing ever 🥺 She has a unique relationship with each member of her family and extended family (and believe me that's a lot of Darlings!) She loves babies, and most of the time, if I'm playing another relative's household she'll pop-up uninvited to help out. She's also always so eager to hear stories about her family's history, and the more details the better. She really is the best choice for the heir!

[silver-rings-and-rabbits]

Open Heart Second Year, chapter 12

It’s too soon. I’ve always thought the jump from attack to memorial was too quick. There was still so many characters we didn’t see during chapter 11 (Naveen, Harper, Zaid, Ines, Esme) and we needed a chapter just to absorb everything that happened.

My personal hc was that Raf could go home as long as he had someone looking after him. He had Juliana, but MC’s roommates would all be working long hours so he ended up staying in hospital a bit longer.

I know in reality PB couldn’t be bothered to rewrite this small detail.

Juliana ❤️ I miss my grandma…

One of Ethan’s diamond scenes prompts you to help him fix a relationship, and if you’re romancing him, it suggests you can restart your own. Rafael gets a similar prompt for his chapter 12 scene but the prompt to rekindle an old flame appears whether you’re romancing him or not.

Just another dialogue point that doesn’t change and therefore doesn’t make sense, or at least sounds weird on his path. For example:

(That’s an interesting way to describe a break-up). It makes sense on his romance path…but why would a friendly MC grow apart from him? On my Ethan playthrough I believed my MC was really happy for Raf and Sora and invited them both out when the group met up. There’s certain dialogues I now won’t take for Raf’s platonic route to avoid these, but it’s pretty rubbish if it wasn’t intended to be romantic. At least PB had the foresight to change the dialogue during the kissing scene.

So are you ❤️ (he’s right though)

Matthew, you’re going to a funeral. Stop looking hot.

“Just like that”. Astute observation, PB.

And the whole scene of the wake. Every single time, my mind replaces Danny and Bobby with Rafael and I wonder whether the memorial would have been very different or would it still feel rushed and uncaring? Only half the friend group were given funeral outfits for gods sake.

And PB did it again:

Not letting me visit my own love interest. And this was after the rewrites. Why couldn’t MC go back to Rafael?? I don’t even care that they wouldn’t have sex, they needed to spend time together. After a book full of two Ethan scenes per chapter, you suddenly can’t do that?? Bullshit.

And to think…we were a few days away from this being Rafael’s funeral.

(I chose Jackie, again because it made sense with her and Matthew living together, but the choices are either awkwardly navigating flirty dialogue or leaving her crying that it should have been her funeral.)

There’s mentions of Elijah really struggling through the service, something he’s been to too many of, and it’s never mentioned again. We don’t get to catch up with Bryce at all unless we choose him at the end. And Jackie will tell you about how much she hates the person she sees in the mirror, only to never bring it up again.

On Ethan’s romance path, he gets extra dialogue at the beginning AND during the memorial.

My thoughts at this point:

This whole situation was handled so gracelessly. It doesn’t get the build-up it deserves, and the aftermath is treated like an obligation to get through. As I mentioned before, the character who actually gets all the emotion is the character who was never in danger (Ethan). But we don’t have the time or money to give everyone else the same, so rather than spreading their resources between the LIs, PB wrote dialogue in a weird halfway spot: awkward if you’re not romancing them, not deep enough and now cheapened if you are romancing them.

And then we know MC goes back to the hospital before they’re ready and absolutely nothing comes from it.

The characters faced something deeply traumatic that would have killed them, but the funeral is then rushed, characters aren’t looked after, and then before you can say ‘free healthcare’ we’re back at the diagnostics team like nothing happened because apparently nothing is more important than Ethan and MC.

Mature and emotional storyline my ass. The attack was put in to knock off a LI for shock value and nothing more.

[thetaekookcloset]

I have a question about jikkok and taekook. Feel free not to answer of it bothers you.

I am jikooker and have been following your theories about taekook. Some looks interesting, some does not. That's okay. As you said it's a personal opinion.

Assuming, taekook are real and jikook is a marketing ship with jimin and jk sharing great bond. My question is why taehyung is the one who keeps initiating things on and off cam. While I wouldn't go as far as to say jk is uncomfortable he seems concious and tries to break the moment. On the other hand, if jimin is bringing jk into everything so does jk. His body language is so open and initiative with jimin. I am not talking about the fan service.

From the perspective that everyone has changed their contract and taekook are allowed to be more friendly on cam. Why do you think only one partybis loud and other subtle and before someone tells me jk is shy. Yes he is but he is quite bold too. Not responding and lack of initiation cannot always be attributed to shyness. If he is so shy with taehyung then why not with jimin?

Any couple who got permission to be on cam a little will take chance to be more open. It's all about balance. What jk does is more of a response rather than being proactive. Like yes he engages very happily but rarely initiates but with jimin he would find ways to be pro active.

I feel he greatly admires taehyung, no doubt about it, but as to real relationship. I don't know.

Imagining myself in the situation, could be wrong, if I show love to my partner and if they cannot reciprocate due to any reason but is busy in promoting other ship, i may not be too upset but would also reserve my affection for private. It's not about being extrovert also, it's about validation and also not leaving crumbs for people to nit pick about it.

I am open to view point and would like to know your stance.

Hello and welcome!  Thank you for sending such a respectful ask.  My broad strokes answer to your general question is basically that I think you’re right that Jungkook is more conscious with Taehyung, or at least he seems that way to me too.  I’ve talked before about how I feel that Taehyung is possibly initiating more interactions/contact with JK out of a newfound sense of freedom, but that Jungkook is more reserved, naturally, about that kind of thing.

Their interactions lately seem to me like JK doesn’t have the same drive to be open that Tae has, but that it doesn’t bother him either, because he doesn’t pull away or do anything to try to make it stop.  I do agree, though, that he seems more conscious of those moments, he is more reserved during them, which could be true for a number of reasons, including -- as you say -- that they aren’t actually in a relationship at all.  If that were the case, for me, Taehyung’s clinginess would seem a little out of place, but as I’ve said before, we’re all watching the same content, making our own observations, and then forming our own interpretations and opinions on them.

The rest under a cut because this is pretty long and I know not all of my followers will necessarily be interested in reading it.

You bring up an interesting point about validation, which is something I’ve wondered about too.  No matter what their relationship is, platonic or otherwise, at least lately Jungkook hasn’t really been meeting Taehyung where he’s at in terms of demonstrating affection publicly, and that could be painful between any two people -- and yet, there don’t seem to be any problems.  It just reminds me again that we see an incredibly small part of these people’s lives.  Who knows what they’re like in private, in their own space?  Maybe off cam, JK is the one who makes sure Taehyung knows that he’s valued and appreciated (again, this could be true if their relationship is platonic too), so Taehyung doesn’t have an issue when JK is more reserved on cam.  We just don’t know.  Also, though, as I’ve mentioned before, Jungkook is less inclined to these casual, frequent displays, but more inclined to more subtle and personal displays, as well as big but less frequent gestures (the cuddling moment at GDA 2020, for example).

The one area of your ask where I don’t really see things the same way is where you talk about Jungkook’s actions/reactions to Jimin in comparison to Taehyung.  You say that his body language is open with Jimin, and that he’s more initiative and proactive with Jimin than he is with Taehyung (you make a note that you’re excluding fanservice in this assessment, so I will too).

I’m really trying to think of interactions that substantiate this, but I’m struggling.  I’ve talked before about how Jungkook is generally less demonstrative and affectionate than either Taehyung or Jimin, and you’re right that a lot of my observations sort of rely on that understanding, at least partially.  So if you’re right about this point, I guess I would have some things to contend with lol, but I’m failing to see Jungkook as being more open/initiating/proactive with Jimin than he is with Taehyung, personally.

I think all three of them demonstrate a pretty clear lack of physical boundaries between each other, but there are still specific interactions that stand out to me.  For example, I can think of two instances off the top of my head where JK initiated fully sitting on Taehyung’s lap: while playing Jenga during ITS1, and again on stage in Vegas (I would argue that this isn’t really fanservice, since most people couldn’t see it happening in the moment and attention was focused elsewhere at the time).

Similarly, I can think of two instances (actually a third just popped into my head) where Jimin got really close to Jungkook and JK pulled away, looking neutral at best, if not downright uncomfortable.  One was the moment during dance practice where it looks like Jungkook is pretending to hold a mic in front of his mouth or something, and Jimin gets right up in his face and JK jerks back away from him.  Again during the moment where they’re cooking together in a live and Jimin gets closer and closer in JK’s face while Jungkook is clearly trying to move away from him and focus on his task.  And then there’s the iconic “almost kiss” from Memories 2020, where Jungkook seems to express less discomfort with his body, but is very tense, doesn’t express anything in his face that looks like he’s into it or even thinks it’s funny, and still pulls back looking, in my opinion, really uncomfortable.

I just want to clarify here that I don’t think Jungkook is uncomfortable with Jimin in any way really.  I think that Jimin might intentionally push his buttons sometimes, for whatever reason, but I think it’s obvious that JK is comfortable with Jimin and I agree that he does initiate touching with Jimin -- I just don’t see it more with Jimin than I have with Taehyung, and I haven’t seen Jungkook act physically uncomfortable in interactions with Tae the way I’ve seen him act with Jimin (and other members).

I know that there are examples of openness and Jungkook initiating contact and interactions with Jimin too -- I’m not trying to claim that there aren’t, just that I’ve seen more discomfort between them than I have between Jungkook and Tae, and that while I agree that Jungkook is sometimes proactive with Jimin, I disagree that he’s more so with Jimin than with Taehyung.

These are also just a few examples on both sides, though, because this post is already long.  You didn’t include specific examples in your ask, so if you wanted to do that, I could maybe respond more fully to those.

For me, though, when it comes down to it, I see an openness in body language between Taekook that I don’t personally see between Jikook.  Again, not to say that they don’t touch and have affection for each other, but to me it just seems more platonic, even familial, than romantic or intimate.  Even Vmin, I think, have a sense of sweetness and softness to their interactions that I don’t see as much between Jikook.

All of this is, of course, based on my own interpretations and opinions and I could be wrong.  At the end of the day, I’m here because I love Taekook’s interactions and their relationship, whether it’s romantic or not, and because I think these discussions are interesting.  So thank you again for sharing your thoughts and presenting your arguments gracefully.  I’d be happy to hear more from you if you’re interested.

Here’s some Vminkook as a thank you to anyone who read to the bottom:

[alsjeblieft-zeg]

213 of 2022

Do you wear a ring on your finger?

Yes, a wedding ring.

What’re you doing?

Getting ready to go to the hospital.

Do you listen to your friends’ advice when they give it to you?

Only if I actually asked for advice.

What’s the last kind of soup you ate?

Beans soup.

Do you currently have a sunburn?

No, but I’m prone to them.

Could you eat nothing but grilled cheese for a week straight?

Omg I’d get fat. But yeah, I like our croque-monsieur, so that’s close.

What’re you listening to right now?

Nothing, I’m going out soon.

Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

I like nose piercings, but I’ve never thought about it for myself. Wouldn’t be a good idea, thoiugh.

Can you trust most people?

I know I can trust my IRL friends.

Has anyone hurt or betrayed you recently?

Feels like that. He said he loved and valued me as a friend, then ditched for some other people. It hurts, really.

Is your last ex still someone you care about and do you still have romantic feelings for your ex?

No, not romantic. But I still have lots of platonic love for him, I care about him and I always will, and so does he. We are really close friends.

Are you someone’s best friend?

Looks like that.

What’s the biggest annoyance in your life right now?

People and my feelings.

Have you spoken to your mother today?

No, not yet.

Do you have any tattoos or piercings?

I have eight piercings, but just one tattoo. I’ve booked an appointment for the 2nd tattoo, though.

What’s the latest you stayed up in the past week?

Until midnight, and woke up three hours later. Not fun.

Do you miss anyone?

Yes, quite a few people. I miss my close irl friend who ghosted us a few years ago because he submerged into severe depression, we used to call each other brothers. I miss seeing my ex in person. I miss some of my online friends who have found better friends than me. Sometimes I miss my childhood friends. And I always miss this guy I like when I don’t see him for longer periods of time.

What’re your plans for tonight?

I don’t know, maybe I’ll go somewhere.

Will tomorrow be better than today?

Hopefully. Time will tell.

Are you the youngest person living in your house?

No, our second cat is the youngest. :P

How was last night?

Somewhat better, but still a bit of migraine.

Do you ever think “what if” about anything?

Sometimes, and then I get depressed.

Where’s your phone right now?

In my pocket. I’m just waiting for the driver.

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?

*continues after coming back home* Yeah, my neighbour, my Dutch friends and both my dad and my husband used to do it when they were younger. I enjoy the smell of weed, so I’m not bothered.

When was the last time you cried and why?

30 or more years ago because I was a baby and it’s normal for babies.

How’s your week been?

It just started, it’s Monday today. So far, so good.

Who did you last text?

My dad. He tried to send me a video, but it failed.

Who’d you last call and about what?

My husband, he called me first, but I was in the shower, so I called him back after I left the bathroom. It was about dinner.

Is there someone who makes you instantly smile when you receive a message from them?

No, simply because guys I like don’t text me.

If someone loved you right now, would you want them to tell you?

Sure. Love has many forms anyway.

When did you last eat pizza?

Last Tuesday.

Are you currently frustrated with someone?

Yes, but more with myself for feeling what I feel.

Do you tend to make things complicated?

Yeah, for myself.

Do you like your hair?

I do, but it’s getting too long. Time to cut it.

Is there a girl you absolutely cannot stand?

There’s one like that at work. I don’t hate her, though.

Have you graduated from high school?

12 years ago already.

Has anyone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

No. Instead, someone didn’t say something I wanted to hear.

Do you ever leave the house without make-up on?

Always. I can’t think of many guys who actually wear make up, I clearly don’t.

Do you expect to be married in the next two years?

I’ve been married for quite a bit already.

Did you receive a good morning text today?

Yeah, from my dad.

Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?

Not right now, no.

Do you like to cuddle?

Only with particular people.

What time did you wake up this morning?

6:00 or something.

The last person you kissed calls you, so what’re they calling for?

Probably that he’s going to take overtime at work.

What’re you planning on doing after this survey?

Another one maybe, so I can distract myself from my thoughts.

Is your love life complicated?

Depends on what you mean with love life. I’m married and I love my husband very much, I have a platonic crush on this guy I like, and today I suddenly realised I have a similar kind of feelings to another man. So yeah, seems complicated.

What ruined your day today?

Thinking abouit friends who ditched me.

Is any part of you sad at all?

Yeah, many parts. Maybe more melancholic, though. And nostalgic.

Where will you be two hours from now?

Still in my house.

What’s the last thing you said aloud?

“ Goed om je te zien.”

What were you doing at eight AM this morning?

I was in the hospital.

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?

Not really. I’m free, though, so I might go to the sea or something.

Do you have a garden shed in your backyard?

No, my backyard is tiny, and typically Belgian.

Have you ever felt unwanted?

Yeah, the recent days. Like I’m not welcome anymore.

Do you like seafood?

Nope, not at all. It’s very non-Belgian, really.

Are you craving anything right now?

To sort my feelings out. And to understand myself better.

Have you ever tried to make brownies and they ended up like rocks?

No, but such thing has happened to my cookies.

Where is the farthest you’ve ever been from home?

1,200 kilometres.

If the last girl you texted told you that she was pregnant, how would you respond?

I’d be shocked. She’s my mum and she’s 60!

How old is the last male you texted?

70. He’s my dad.

When was the last time you visited the doctor?

Last Tuesday, I went to my neurologist.

Do you have any of your exes as friends on Facebook?

I don’t use Facebook.

Does more than one person like you?

I have no idea.

Do you ever worry that people might be talking about you behind your back?

Quite often, and it’s because they usually do.

Who is the youngest person in your household? When is that person’s birthday?

Last June or so.

If your hair is long, would you ever think about having it cut short? Or, if it’s short, would you like to grow it long?

It’s short and I like it that way. I used to have really long hair, though, when I was younger. By ‘really long’ I mean, like, hip length.

Do you call your partner ‘baby’?

No. Such names make me cringe.

[thebeautyoffanfics]

Can I request Hanako (or Amane Yugi), Teru Minamoto, and Akane Aoi (the male) with a female s/o who is literally invisible to people. (This totally not based on events that actually happened to me-)

Like some people, even her close friends, won’t even notice she’s there and if she’s has to asks something she tends to repeat it or stutter. She also tends to get forgetting or lost on school trips, etc.

This has happened for as long as she could remember and she’s use to it by now but sometimes it still hurts when they forget her

Headcanons please!

hanako x f!reader, teru minamoto x f!reader, akane aoi x f!reader

a/n: sure thing!! I feel like Hanako would understand that as a ghost, so I think I’ll write for him in his ghosty form! I hope that’s alright :)) thank you so much for requesting, and I hope these turn out alright!!

I’m really sorry if these are shorter or poorer than normal, and if they’re formatted strangely- I’m doing my best to get requests done on my phone (´ε｀”)

warnings: none?

word count: 1,414

Hanako <3

He understands, he understands more than anyone- so he thinks. I mean, he’s a ghost. He literally cannot be seen by anyone who isn’t an exorcist, near death, a fellow supernatural, or bound to him in some way.

Still… honestly, he gets pretty defensive over you-

They can’t hear him, but you can. (They can’t hear you, but he certainly can.) It’s honestly somewhat humorous, Hanako standing behind you, shouting that they’d better listen up!!

“IF YOU GUYS MAKE (Y/N) REPEAT HERSELF ONE MORE TIME?? Are they deaf, (Y/N)?? I think they’re deaf?????”

His reactions like that are half-joking-half-serious. He’s genuinely upset that they treat you like that- but he hopes that all his ranting and going on helps you to feel better somehow?

He can’t exactly follow you on trips, but! He makes Yashiro “Honorary (Y/N) Defense”! Meaning, since he can’t, she’ll defend you in his place!

You get interrupted or ignored? Hanako tells Yashiro to help you out, and (though she would any way) she’s raising her hand somewhat shyly- explaining that you were trying to talk.

Getting left behind on a field trip? Yashiro is sticking by your side! She turns around constantly, making sure that you keep up with her, and especially making sure that you get on the bus with the rest! As per Hanako’s request, and her own care for you, she’ll let you sit next to her.

Hanako is always very talkative, but he’s still very patient with you- he loves to have conversations with you, which is a big reason he doesn’t get why they treat you like that. You’re such a great person-! You’ve got such a cute voice-!!! Why don’t they listen-?!!!

To be honest, he finds your stutter kind of cute… he’s quite bold, so you being timid is something he doesn’t mind! Hanako doesn’t mind listening out for you- even if the other people aren’t in a relationship for you, isn’t it… basic human decency?? What happened to that???

“It’s really alright, Hanako. Things like this have happened since I was little- it hurts sometimes, but I’m mostly used to it.”

Hanako would then grab your shoulders gently, looking in your eyes with some determination!

“You shouldn’t have to be used to that!! I’m used to it because I’m dead, but you’re… alive. You can be heard and seen by everyone, yet they choose to not listen- it’s… ridiculous. I’m sorry that you have to deal with that, (Y/N)... really.”

Uncharacteristically soft moment, but it simply hits different for him due to personal experience. I’m sure as a human, the only time people saw him were when he was bullied, and now he’s- obviously- not seen by nearly anyone. It’s such a lonely feeling, and he genuinely hates that you can relate to it.

Teru Minamoto <3

It’s hard to not garner attention as Teru Minamoto’s girlfriend- so, people certainly acknowledge you once your relationship is made public/becomes obvious.

But! Before the entire school knew about the Prince having a girlfriend, Teru was… quite defensive over you- even before the two of you were a couple, he’d notice the way others seemed to step all over you. Ignoring you, interrupting you, forgetting about you.

Like Hanako, he doesn’t get it? You’ve got his attention, how do you not have anyone else’s? You’re so cute… and really do have a lovely voice, appearance, and overall are really pleasant to be around?? If anything you deserve more praise than he does-

He also doesn’t get it due to the fact that people acknowledge him a little too much-

Anyway, he tends to give that praise he thinks you deserve to you!

Meaning, he brags on you so much. Compliments you to your face, telling you how nice it is to converse with you- telling his family how lovely of a person you are. He even mentions it to classmates, which does start to earn others being more noticeable of your presence.

Not afraid to stick up for you in the least!! Who wouldn’t listen to Teru?? The moment someone interrupts, he’s politely making his way into the conversation- offering an “I’m sorry, I don’t think (Y/N) got her chance to speak.”

“Th-That’s okay, Teru. I appreciate it, but I’m used to things like that,” You told him after class, slightly embarrassed.

“Used to things like being ignored?”

“Yeah..?”

“...you shouldn’t have to be. I’d never be upset with you, but it does upset me that people have been so willing to pretend you aren’t there? I think you’re lovely, and nearly impossible to ignore. It’s simply confusing, I suppose.”

BRO if he, for some reason, isn’t on the field trip and you get forgotten- it’s game over for the chaperones will get their heads chewed off. Except he’ll be calm and collected while doing so- however, on the inside, he can’t express how upset he is.

“Is it not your job to make sure all the students are accounted for? What if (Y/N) had gotten lost? Do you not realize she could have been kidnapped? Should some low-life had decided to try anything strange, the blame would have been on you, and therefore our entire school. What would that do for both your’s and the school’s reputation?”

If he’s on the trip? You won’t be getting forgotten <3 Even you were to get distracted for a moment, he’s grabbing your hand and making sure you stay caught up with the class. Sits with you on the bus, and makes absolutely sure that you’re safe and with him!!

Akane Aoi <3

He worships the very ground you walk on. We all know how he treated Aoi? Well, now that’s how he treats you- maybe a bit less exaggerated and dramatic, but all that love and more is there!

So, he’s admiring you, and sees that you keep opening your mouth in an attempt to speak- only to have someone interrupt you, not even acknowledging that you’re there??

“Hey, (Y/N), what’s up?”

“O-oh, I was just trying to ask them something…”

“Oi, you heard her. Shut up for a moment and let (Y/N) get her question in.”

Most are somewhat aware of how scary Akane can be, so they’ll certainly listen whenever he’s there. Heck, people occasionally keep an extra eye open if they know he’s around- making sure they don’t unintentionally look past you.

If you dislike his very direct method, he’ll try to be nicer to others about it. But, he can’t help but get defensive- like our other boys, he admires you so much, and enjoys talking with you so much, that- by this point- others are simply missing out?? Like, it’s basically their loss for treating you like that. And it’s his mission to shower you in love and admiration to a point where others do the same- platonically of course, and boys better rethink anything that isn’t strictly “wow (Y/N) is cool, it’s cool that she’s taken by Akane.”

Cos, as we all know, if someone even says “oh, (Y/N) probably makes a cute girlfriend” it’s game over. RIP unknowing student, he had no mercy bashing their skull in </3

“Akane, it’s really fine, you know? Things like this happen been happening since... forever. I’m just not easily noticed, I suppose. I’m used to it!”

“Hmm... well, get un-used to it. You’ve got the most beautiful presence and voice of anyone I know! And, I want the class- for everyone- to be able to acknowledge that. You shouldn’t have to repeat yourself constantly, nor be ignored like that. Not on my watch, at least.”

You won’t be getting forgotten. He’s ahead of Teru, ahahahaaaa!!! If he isn’t on the field trip, he’s telling someone who will be to keep an eye out for you “or else <3”. The person wouldn’t even bother to question it- just nod and keep an eye out for you constantly. They even offer to have you sit with them! How sweet! Glad to know they value their skulls!!

If he’s on the trip, like the others, he’s keeping an eye out for you constantly. He’ll hold your hand the entire time, stopping as you pleased, but keeping an eye out for the group. He wants you to see what you want, so you will- all while staying with the class, or at least close to the class. If he, for some reason, were to lose sight of the class, he takes comfort in the fact that you wouldn’t be lost alone.

[asavt]

Another cookie squad Headcanons

Featuring Sparkling, Vampire, cellphones and the Espresso and Madeleine Story of how they came together. Consider it an AU now baby!

-As a note, when I say the squad I'm mostly referring to the adults, so no worries about Walnut or Creampuff useless I mention them too

-Each one of the squad has been in Sparkling's bar at last once. There's no need to say who has been there the most. Sparkling has a time every time someone besides Roguefort comes, because to him it's mostly like "Oh I'll finally know the continuation to the burnt toast accident or maybe the cat catastrophe? Maybe a new POV of the--"

He practically knows a lot of what happens in between the squad.

-As another note, Sparkling's bar is called Milabo (You know, like the song from Zutomayo of the same name, which, btw, I relate a lot to Latte)

-*A great part of this “AU” is kind of inspired by the song. Part of its lyrics and vibe.

-Vampire is there most of the time when the squad visits the bar (it's almost as if he never leaves the bar and this is definitely not me low-key putting sparkvamp in this oh no--) Sometimes the fakes his sleep to listen to the things others say (Which is how he knows most of Rogue's pan-ic).

-Walnut has been in Sparkling's bar too, but at day and for case-solving purposes only. Sparkling will give her some alcohol-free drink for free sometimes (mostly because he gets along pretty well with the nut family and because Almond usually pays him whatever he serves her).

-If the squad had cellphones (and probably an app like discord because.), their group chat would initially be called "Coffee mage appreciation group" and then be changed to "Coffee bean appreciation group"

Coffee Bean: Can we please change the group name and mine?

Guided by the Devine: No <3

Coffee Bean: Fuck you.

-*And they all would dedicate half their time to make fun of Almond but with love.

-Espresso has been mistaken for a dark mage before by Almond. It was how they meet actually. Almond had pulled him to interrogate him and got a long lecture on the differences between black magic and coffee magic.

-Madeleine gets along rather well with Roguefort. Rogue seems impressed by Maddie’s acting skills.

-Madeleine is currently living with Espresso. Out of his armor most of the time. He usually takes care of keeping the house clean and preparing meals (He never really had to cook before but the first dish he made wasn’t bad at all). Sometimes he will tag along Almond in the detective’s work, or Almond will ask for his help.

-I’m still unsure if I want the Almond/Roguefort/Latte to be romantic or platonic. But honestly? Both are good. Latte is pretty close to Almond and Roguefort but not in the way she is with Espresso (that makes them look like siblings jkashduawhu). Perhaps I’ll keep it platonic.

-The Espresseleine/Madespresso story of how they came together, because I seem to not be able to write it down JSHALDHUIWADWA-

--It happens after the Puppet Show mini quest. Madeleine starts to ask for Espresso's "assistance" in different mission that are given to him. Angel is there too, of course.

--During these missions is that Essy clarifies that no, they are not friends, no, he does not like Madeleine. Bringing up the knight begin too prideful and self-centered if not all then most of the time.

--Is not until one of their missions goes wrong, were Angel is knocked out and Espresso (seeing and knowing that if Madeleine is knocked down too they might not be able to go back to the kingdom ever) pretty much receives a rather big attack for Madeleine is that he kind realizes the facts given by espresso true. All while he is carrying Essy and Angel back to the kingdom, running and exhausted too.

--Clover begin kind of a mediator between the two (I want to see more of my son--)

--"Devine, protect us" Should happen too after this. An scenario like, Madeleine coming to think something like "I'm the shield, the one who goes on the front line and receives the blows for those who can't, always looking straight ahead... but if I am doing that then who watches my back? Who do I rely on and trust to take care of most enemies so the damage received is not overwhelming...?"

Power of team work baby!!!

--As a note to this, Maddie getting his cape damaged as well as his hair. So, you get short hair Maddie~

(I've been drawing him with short hair in secret now I have an excuse to show)

-- "You...cut your hair..." *Madeleine touches the points of it with one of his hands, pensive* "...pft it'll grow back!"

--There's also this "Search for your own light" thing between Angel and Maddie. Angel encouraging Madeleine to do so. Maybe Madeleine giving his best wishes to them for their wish to fly before they decide to part ways.

--Madeleine trying other ways to befriend Essy. Which at first Espresso mistaken as the knight usual attempts to befriend anyone he sees out of habit and attention seeking, but once they realize the feeling is completely genuine, Espresso is rather perplexed.

--"You can't just befriend people by buying them gifts (although I do appreciate them)" "Then what?" "hmm..."

--Said gifts used to be rather expensive things, simple though. Eventually Madeleine settles to just pass by Espresso's place, give him any food he had bought that day (which usually is glazed donuts), ask if he needs any help with something (getting a vase, materials, moving things), and if not then he just says his good byes, best wishes and silently leaves. (A note on the "silently leaves": Madeleine is pretty much used to speak loudly and enter loudly anywhere, he still does this at this point, but when it's about Espresso he is a bit more quiet, a bit showy over his entrances still, but less loud, and he actually knocks the door)

--Madeleine eventually manages to go out with Espresso to other places that aren't some place in the forest full of enemies. Probably after some more visits to his place and more calm talks between the two, Madeleine brings up that Espresso tends to act a bit cold or distant towards a lot of people, and that, although he understands his discomfort at begin in public spaces or too long out of his work, he should try and open up a bit. This reminds Essy of a certain friend he hasn't seen in some time, and from whom he keeps getting letters.

--Shenanigans.

--There's still some bickering between the two, always with a playful undertone though.

--Espresso explains Madeleine, one time the knight has gotten Espresso wrapped in a blanket burrito again and got him to bed, that sometimes, no matter how tired he might feel, he is simply unable to sleep. Part of a headcanon of mine that coffee magic has this side effect on it's users, prolonged usage of this kind of magic will induce a high caffeine kind of state, which on the long run can fuck up the user's sleep schedule. Madeleine understands this, but remains stubborn about keeping Espresso in the bed so at last he can get some rest from his work and clear his mind a little, the idiot falls asleep in the process and Espresso doesn't try to wake him up.

--This happens several times after, neither of them thinking of the implications of not begin bothered by the sudden closeness they share until it's too late.

--Espresso realizes first that he has slowly, yet nicely, fallen for Madeleine. I think I talked about this before but I'll do it again: Is in one of the times Madeleine has gotten Espresso to bed to get some rest, Espresso not begin able to fall asleep and Madeleine doing again. Is while he thinks of how he has gotten to know Madeleine for real, not the Knight Commander from a noble family or the Chosen by the Devine, but as he is, that he comes to think that "Ah.... I love him" and he remains calm about it.

--Espresso doesn't overthink it, just thinks that, if Madeleine ever got an interest in him, he would surely show it. So he waits. Even if in the end his feelings aren't mutual he knows he'll do just fine remaining friends.

--Madeleine realizes not many days after. And the realization hits him like a truck. Alone in his place and probably in bed looking at the ceiling thinking about Espresso. Once he realizes and thinks about it a bit more his face gets all red and chooses to scream in the pillow.

--He would think about telling Espresso as soon as he can, after all, he doesn't want his feelings to make their friendship weird. He values it, a lot. Maybe because his friendship with Espresso it's the first one where he genuinely wanted to become friends with someone.

--Espresso takes the confession calmly, gets all flustered after they kiss for the first time.

--As a few extras of this: Madeleine goes back to the Republic, asked to be seen by his family and Espresso goes to Parfedia, where a few students have applied to his class to his surprise. When they see each other again is at Parfedia (Madeleine sending a message to Espresso beforehand about his arrival) -there was this one drawing I did once of Maddie running to hug Espresso, something like that happens-. Madeleine gets very clingy for some reason, which they speak later and comes out as “Home doesn’t quite feel like home…” “Why is that?” “I don’t know… maybe I’ve become used to be around you”

--Espresso lets ends up letting Madeleine stay with him until he either feels like returning to the Republic or is called back, whatever happens first (though none will happen for maybe a year or a little more).

--Ends with Madeleine meeting Latte and Almond.

[akakeiiji]

hii!! i'm really shy and was hesitant to make a request but can i request for hcs for suga, oikawa, kuroo, bokuto realizing they like the reader?? tysm i love ur writing btw

i love these boys too much, it’s borderline unhealthy

✂︎・・・masterlist

-`,✎ Suga, Oikawa, Kuroo, and Bokuto realizing they have feelings for you

Sugawara Koushi

To be honest, it wouldn’t be obvious at all that Suga has a crush on you

He’s friendly and sweet to everyone he meets most of the time so nobody thinks twice whenever he’s with you

But his underlying feelings for you show in the little things he does, the way his eyes shine whenever you laugh, how his ears perk up whenever he hears your name, how he somehow memorized all your favorite foods after you offhandedly mentioned it once before

He would mistake his feelings as a weirdly strong platonic attraction for you and continue spending time with you in hopes to appease the feeling but be confused as to why he always felt unsatisfied

He finally realizes how smitten he is for you after a long internal monologue he had after he almost had a heart attack when you hugged him once after a match

He literally lost all cognitive function after that hug

He wouldn’t be too open about his feelings unless he knew you felt the same

In the end, your friendship is what he values most so he doesn’t want to risk it but let's be honest, ofc you feel the same, I mean how could you not?

He would show his feelings through subtle actions like walking you home, giving you little gifts every now and then (usually food), and always sending you little texts like “Good morning!” or “Good luck on your exam today ♥︎!”

When he does get some semblance of confirmation that you might feel the same then he’s going to jump at the first chance to tell you how he feels

Oikawa Tooru

For someone as perceptive as Oikawa, it’s kind of hilarious how dense he is regarding his own feelings

The team can only watch in pity as they watch their captain gush about you for hours on end, not even realizing how in love he is

He practically glows whenever he sees you and abandons whoever he’s with iwaizumi or whatever he’s doing to run to you

He jumps at any chance he gets to spend time with you

You’re heading home? He’ll walk with you even tho his house is in the opposite direction You need to buy something in the canteen? He’ll join you and probably pay for your meal as well. You’re going to study in the library? Well, you better bet he’s gonna be there because he definitely will

He doesn’t really question why he’s like this but just focuses on the fact that he wants to be with you

He becomes so clingy I swear, it’s like he gains energy from skin to skin contact with you

Oikawa only realizes how ridiculously non-platonic his feelings were for you when a fangirl of his asks him about it obviously very jealous and it hits him like a dozen projectile bricks aimed at the back of his head

Oikawa is not known for his skills of subtlety and ability to be low-key so once he’s aware of his feelings he becomes so obvious

He gets all flirty and coy when you’re around, always tells you the cheesiest pick-up lines he finds online

He thinks he’s being smooth but nah man, he’s just a dork

He’ll always act so smug and suave around you but the minute you do something like hold his hand or gets even the slightest bit closer to him, he becomes a blubbering, blushy mess  

Kuroo Tetsurou

You know when people say that the people who are always teasing you and messing with you do it because they have a crush on you? Yeah, Kuroo is that person

The minute he met you he’s always been so unrelenting with his teasing and badgering

He’s like that with everyone but with you, it’s just on a whole different level

He doesn’t even realize it at first until someone else points it out, and he doesn’t even know why he does it

Spoiler alert: It’s because he subconsciously craves for your attention and being a pain in the ass is the only way he knows how to get it

You would never expect him to have a crush on you, you always assumed that he just thinks you’re an easy target what a bully huhu

One time one of his jokes went too far and you were legitimately hurt by what he said and he literally felt his heart shatter at the very knowledge that he hurt you

He becomes so apologetic and clingy, ready to do absolutely anything to make it up to you imagine a cat clinging onto its owner’s pant legs as they try to walk away

Only then does he realize how much he likes you

Kenma is so exasperated with him

“I can’t believe I like them!”

“Literally everyone knows already, Kuroo!”

He starts slyly sending you hints, trying to let you know how he feels

He thinks he’s subtle but nah

He’s kind of a wimp at first and instead of asking you out outright, he tries doing so in a joking manner so you never take him seriously and think he’s just teasing you

He tries this like a dozen times before you get sick of it

“Jesus, why are you always bothering me?”

“BECAUSE I LIKE YOU, DAMNIT—”

Lots of confused yelling

Bokuto Koutarou

Practically everyone knows he likes you except him

He’s ten times more excited and giddy whenever you’re around which nobody thought was even possible

Whenever he’s in his dejected mode, just mentioning you would immediately cheer you up

Basically, your very existence, in general, puts a smile on his face

Everyone just assumed that Bokuto was aware of his very apparent crush on you so when Akaashi mentioned it to him he was just plain confused

“WHAT?!! I DON’T HAVE A CRUSH ON THEM!”

“BOKUTO-SAN, CALM DOWN—”

Incoherent screeching

After a long talk and some not-so-silent reflecting, he finally understands why he’s so drawn to you

Totally doesn’t hide the fact that he likes you not that he ever did in the first place

He’s the type to just jump right in whenever he has feelings for someone

He starts showering you with compliments, always telling how good you look, how smart you are, how talented you are

He just wants you to know what he sees when he looks at you

Do you know how you sometimes get a sudden craving for some random food you like? Bokuto gets that but what he’s craving is you noT LIKE THAT GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THE GUTTer—unless…👀

It’s as if he gets a sudden urge to see you and drops whatever he’s doing to look for you

“Bokuto, where are you going, we have practice—Bokuto, no—STOP RUNNING, COME BACK HERE—”

He essentially becomes a puppy that follows you around pls protect him ugh

[changebydjo]

IMPORTANT - PLEASE READ

 so i’ve put off writing this for a long, long time, and it’ll be painful for me to make this post but at this point i feel like it needs to be done. someone within the liz fandom has been lying, gaslighting and manipulating me as well as many others, both online and offline, and after getting proof on everything (plus their lack of remorse) has prompted me to write this.

this is about gil perez, aka @unrated-g, and one of his irl friends, kim @kimbus-the-whimbus, to a lesser extent, but mostly gil. since 2016 - nearly 5 years now - he’s been lying that he’s best friends with liz gillies. i’m gonna put a read more because it’s a long, insane, and ridiculous thing that happened, but please read all of it and know how serious this is, as well as all the damage this man has done.

​

i met gil through tumblr in 2018 - he had been replying my posts since before that, but early 2018 is when i followed him and started chatting with him casually. over time, i noticed that he would reblog posts about liz and in the tags he would seem to be talking to her or referencing her, but not by her name - instead he would call her “goblin”. he would mention things that “goblin” liked or behind the scenes on dynasty stuff, and after a few weeks of noticing this and chatting with him about dynasty/liz, i ended up asking him if he was friends with liz/knew her personally because of the way he spoke about her. he confirmed to me that he knew her, she was one of his best friends, and he “didn’t expect” anyone to pick up on it. he told me to keep it private and i agreed, obviously, because i had no reason to not trust him, and i know that liz values her privacy.

it’s important to note that liz does NOT follow him or any of his accounts from her verified twitter or instagram accounts - instead, he said she had an “extremely private” encrypted tumblr account that could only be seen by people she follows/white listed. he was one of them. her blog would not show up for anyone else, and they met through tumblr in 2016 (even though he said she followed him back in 2010 and he didn’t realize until 6 years later) through their mutual love for uncharted, and bonded over playing uncharted 4 multiplayer together. it’s also important to note that liz has had 2 tumblr accounts since 2010, both of which she has abandoned, and he said that her private tumblr is separate from those two. she also was friends with him (according to him) through PSN, where they would play ps4 games together, and all of his text convos with her are from that app:

(^ “liz’s” PSN account)

throughout all of 2018, we would text on a regular basis and started becoming good friends. he was extremely kind, always willing to be there for me, and listened to me about not only fandom stuff but also my irl problems. he also became friends with my friend group, who were also in the liz fandom, and it was really nice for a while. in october of 2018, gil said he went to HHN with liz and matt in LA, and for xmas of 2018, he said he spent it with liz - both in LA and in NJ, which is what she typically does to spend her holidays with her family and friends. her pale blue eyes cover was also for him, according to gil, because he asked for her to cover it specifically and she did just for him.

gil would also occasionally stream for friends, and sometimes liz would show up:

beginning of 2019 is when gil and i started getting much closer - we started playing games together (mostly mario kart, at the beginning) and talking through voice chat. he would talk about liz and personal things about her/her life or dynasty, and he always willingly supplied that information himself - i never asked for it, i wasn’t friends with him to get information on liz or have an “in” with her. chatting with him made me feel good and happy and important to him, and i realized i started having feelings for him - which i told him about in april 2019. he said he wasn’t sure exactly how he felt but he thought he might feel the same, the only really complicated part (besides the fact that this was long distance/not irl) was that he also had a really deep crush on liz, someone who was his best friend/ultimate celeb crush. he was really like in love with her, even though he said he tried to suppress it. anyways, after me admitting that to him, our friendship started to develop into something more. we weren’t ever in an official relationship, but things were definitely not strictly platonic with us. we went from chatting once every week or two to almost every single night for 3-6 hours per night for MONTHS. throughout that time, our relationship became sexual, too, and my feelings for him just continued to get deeper and deeper.

this continues throughout the rest of 2019, and then new years 2020, everything just...goes to shit asap. gil got really distant with me with no explanation, i felt like all the affection he was showing me and the kind things he would say to me, as well as our bonding time when we would chat together, was just ripped away unexpectedly. i constantly asked what was wrong and what was happening, and told him how i feel, and i got no real response besides just being tired/non-sociable, etc. (which, for the record, is completely understandable, but it was such a huge 180 in behavior that it worried me and things never went back to normal after that). in addition to that, kim (who was mentioned at the beginning of this post) is one of his best friends irl, as well as his on again/off again ex (according to him). anyways, there were posts that she had made that indicated to them not being exes and instead still together - or at the very least not platonic - which crushed me when i found out, because until that point i had no reason not to trust him. i told him about it though, and how it hurt me because my feelings were so deep for him at that point i felt that i loved him, and he told me they weren’t together. this isn’t really necessary for the liz stuff of this post, but it’s important for context for how hurt and on edge i was already feeling before things got worse.

we would still chat maybe a few times a week, but nothing like it used to be, and i was happy we would even chat at all, even though things felt so weird and different and off, and no matter what i did, i couldn’t fix it. as 2020 started going on, and this continued, his friendship with liz started making me feel extremely uncomfortable. knowing that he had the weird boundaries with his ex, plus whatever was going on with me and him, AND that he was in love with liz?? it was unsettling. i felt like i couldn’t compare, because it’s *liz gillies*, someone i obviously love and idolize and look up to. and she was up on a pedestal for him, even though he said that he never tried to treat liz differently than his other close friends just bc of who she was, but that wasn’t true. anything that she said or did, he agreed with 100%, and would defend it. when he and i would chat, and i would mention something about dynasty that bothered me, he would talk about what liz’s thoughts were on it and how she felt and that she was right to feel that way and it made me feel awful. this happened on multiple occasions throughout various topics, from dynasty to fandom stuff to liz’s friendships/relationships, etc. no matter what, to gil, liz was always right and he always had an explanation for anything that happened. the way he would describe liz and the thing he said about her made me see her in a completely different light - she was not the same liz that she presented herself as, at least in gil’s eyes. 

he would always talk about how amazing liz was to him and how she did so much for him, such as buying him gifts, supporting his art, etc. this was hurtful to hear because i was doing the exact same things for him, as well as our group of friends: we had been buying his art (not only the art prints but the ACTUAL original copies), sending him gifts or money for gifts, supporting him and his art on social media, as well as just being a genuine friend to him. he never appreciated or thanked us the way that he thanked liz; none of us ever compared to her, even though we were doing the exact same thing for him that he said liz was doing, as well. it made me feel like no matter what i did, or how supportive i was, i was never enough.

we also had a discord with gil, that involved him, me, and my friends sarah, hope, amanda, and dom. within this discord, it’s worth noting that gil was the only man there, and would talk about liz and his friendship with her there, unprompted. we never asked for info, he volunteered everything willingly, and we all kind of glossed over it at the time because we weren’t friends with him for liz or any of that.

(the screenshot gil linked in the gc is what “liz’s” private encrypted blog looks like on his dash. please note the edit post button in the bottom right of the screenshot.)

another important thing about his friendship with liz/being in love with her: he has this specific kink (which i don’t want to say what it is for privacy reasons) and he said that liz was engaging in this kink herself, and that he was jealous of liz’s bf/wishes he could engage in it with liz, etc. i wasn’t into this kink before talking to him but because i had liked him so much at the time, and i was slightly jealous that he wanted it with liz, i thought that i could indulge in it for him. it was something that i was not physically or mentally prepared for/able to make happen, and it really caused an impact on me, and he just...didn’t care. at all.

anyways: this stuff continues, then around summer 2020, my friend sarah reached out to him. she (and my friends, along with me) were starting to distrust the things gil was saying about liz, since it went completely against what liz would say herself. she would say she only plays the sims 3 on her computer - he would say she was a huge gamer and played the sims 4 on ps4, along with minecraft, uncharted, the last of us, horizon zero dawn, etc. he would say that liz and maddison brown (her dynasty co-star) played ACNH with him and quickly got to 5 stars - liz said in a zach sang interview that she didn’t play animal crossing. every time something didn’t add up, his excuse was that liz was lying for her privacy. she didn’t follow gil on any verified social media accounts in case “people harassed him” over being friends with her. so sarah texted him that she needed to talk to him about the liz stuff, because there was evidence it wasn’t true, and he denied all of it. he firmly stuck to his story, and sarah gave him multiple chances over several days to come clean and he wouldn’t. she asked for simple pieces of proof that he could give her, and he wouldn’t besides fake screenshots of her “private blog”:

 he told me afterwards that if it comes between his friendship with liz or sarah’s, he’s picking liz - end of story. his and sarah’s friendship was done after that because of his decision. he blamed sarah for “ruining” liz and maddison’s friendship because of her asking for proof, and made her out to be the bad one in that situation. he ended up deleting the discord gc after this happened, with all of his screenshots/”info” as liz as well (we got screenshots of things before he deleted it though, much more that’s shown in this post).

about a month later, my friend léa also confronted him about it. gil had told her some things about liz’s “reaction” to meeting léa in paris, and at the time, it had made the experience more special for her. once she realized it was all lies, though, it really hurt her - he altered that special experience for her and twisted it into something that wasn’t real. he had the same reaction to léa’s conversation as he did to sarah’s, and he refused to tell the truth. their friendship was done with after, as well, along with a few other people from the liz fandom. i was the only one who stayed friends with him after that, and that was because i was closest with him and still trying to see if i could fix things with him. i was still naively believing that he would treat me okay again, he would make me feel important instead of always a backup option, that he wanted me again. 

but of course that never happened. he continued to ignore me, talk to me less and less, and would subtweet me on his private account. after he stopped being friends with sarah and léa and everyone blocked him except for me, i was the only follower on his private account, as well as being the only person he followed there. gil, though, kept saying that liz had a “private twitter” where she would talk to him on his private account. he also said that he had “merged twitter accounts” into one, which was his private, which messed up his account and wouldn’t show who he was replying to, quote rts, or that he was following them, which - if you have a twitter, you KNOW none of that can actually happen. but it was his excuse to constantly subtweet me and my friends for not believing him, to maintain his story, AND to have convos with “liz” on there that only i could see, where he made it sound like he was talking shit about me to her. it was extremely manipulative and served no purpose except to fuck with me, because he knew that i was the only one seeing those tweets and knew i was already struggling with not knowing what to believe. here’s some of them:

(you can very clearly see that i’m the only follower/following on that account, the number is at literally 1, and he STILL was acting like he was talking to someone else and that other people were following him.)

now comes jan. 2021!! WE GOT DEFINITE PROOF THAT IT WAS ALL LIES. from multiple people. one of liz’s close best friends (that gil included in his stories about her, saying that he met them) said that they don’t know who gil is, have never met him, and it’s best for us all to block him for our own safety. a co-worker of liz’s (who was, again, included in gil’s lies, that he hung out with them multiple times, played games with them online, and bought him gifts) said that not only had they never met gil, but EVERYTHING he said about them was untrue. they even listed the inaccuracies he would say about them, such as gil taking photos of them at things like the SWT, and they confirmed who actually took the photo. they said that “none of it is fucking true” and that gil is a narcissistic liar, and also encouraged us to block him for our own safety. 

i confronted gil myself about this a few weeks ago, and he continued to maintain his story that everyone’s lying to protect his privacy - even though we know for sure that wasn’t the case. he FINALLY owned up to it to me only once he saw i had proof and he was caught, and his reason for doing it was “he was bored”. he said he was sorry but he wasn’t truly apologetic - he either didn’t fully realize the scope of how hurtful his lies and manipulations were, or he just didn’t care, but the bottom line is that he always chose his fantasy of liz over his actual friends. around this time, once he knew he was caught, he also deactivated his private account, but brought it back a week or so later, with all of the subtweets and tweets about liz being deleted. all of the unverified accounts that were supposed to be liz - the tumblr account, psn, twitch, etc. - were all fake and made by him, so he could make it seem more real.

even if he WAS telling the truth about being friends with liz, he still would have completely violated her privacy by the amount of “secret” things he told all of us - from her kinks/sex life, to work life, to very personal things that he claims happened to her. knowing it’s all fake though, and he made up an entire personality and life for liz that doesn’t exist??? it’s insane.

now the part with kim - she’s known gil irl for over 10 years, and has tweeted about liz all the time, about how “good” liz is to her because of gil, and that she’s the one who encouraged him to talk to her. she brags about it constantly, even though none of it is real. she also tweeted multiple times throughout 2018-2019 about how gil “finally deserves to meet liz in person”, even though gil said he met liz irl back in 2017 or so - AND that she came to texas, where he lives, to meet him and his friends. when asked about her tweets, he said that kim’s account was “messed up” and her tweets weren’t “tweeted at the right time”. one of my friends reached out to tell her and show her the proof of gil lying, because gil has been lying to her and other people irl too, and instead she mocked us, belittled us, and chose not to believe a group of women coming to her about a 30 year old (!!) man manipulating us. gil said that kim was “aware of it all being a lie for years now” to me, but i think that was another lie, that he’s STILL lying to her about it. if not, then that means that kim was also lying for many years about knowing liz too, and used it to make us all the butt of her joke, so. so much for her being an “empath” and wanting to help people but anyways!!

the last screenshot is of her subtweeting us and implying that everyone involved with liz is lying for her and gil’s privacy, even though we have proof that that simply isn’t true.

i’m sorry for how long this is, but i need people to understand how serious this is. he’s been lying for 5 YEARS now about knowing liz - about her “accidentally sending nudes” to him, that gil is one of her best friends and he would’ve been at her wedding, that she’s a huge gamer who plays with him - all of it. it’s all lies. he created a fantasy version of liz that doesn’t exist, and incorporated into his real life, his friendships both online and off, and made it his entire personality. he’s not sorry about what he’s done - as i’m writing this, he’s still on tumblr, talking in the tags to “liz” again, because he’d rather uphold his fantasy life where he’s best friends with liz when in reality, she has no idea he even exists. and if she did, i’m certain that she would be disgusted with what he’s done. he lied about her, oversexualized her, used his kinks on her which was brought onto me - someone he knew that was vulnerable and had feelings for him, manipulated people into trying to believe his lies, gaslit people to make them unable to tell what was true and what was fake, and had absolutely zero respect for any of us. he even listened to me cry to him on the phone MULTIPLE times about how insecure and worthless i felt to him compared to liz, and he didn’t do ANYTHING about it. he sat there and listened to me cry, knowing he could own up to his lie, and he chose not to. he’s not sorry about what he’s done, and he’s going to continue to spread his lies. please block him. i can’t express how much he’s hurt me, the therapy that i need to have because of him, how much he’s hurt my friends and how little he respects women in general tbh. he always tried to come off as “one of the good guys” but now i know he’s harmful and not to be trusted. he even tried to separate me from my friends, and make it seem like they’re the ones making this situation even harder for him. i’ve tried so, so many times to get through to him, waiting to see if he’d change or show some remorse or anything, but after over a year of this i don’t think he will, and it genuinely hurts me to know that. BLOCK HIM.

[celest1all]

Terrifying Truths

[Not my gif, got it off Google so creds to them <3]

Pairing: Draco Malfoy x fem!Reader

Warnings: angst, heartbreak, language, dialogue heavy, just angsty.

Summary: "Draco be damned."

Authors note: This was based on this request, enjoy!!

Deep down, you knew. It was obvious, quite frankly. The facts were there in black and white, taunting you every minute of every day. And yet you refused to believe it. Blind optimism is sometimes better than facing the truth. A truth so bad and heartbreaking that the only rational -- or irrational, depends how you look at it -- thing to do is to believe that it is false.

“Hey Y/N.” You were pulled out of your thoughts by the sound of Blaise greeting you first.

“Hey Blaise. How’ve you been?” You sent him a warm smile like you always did. You were probably closer to Blaise than you were to the other two, in a platonic way anyway. If we were talking about romantically, then that would be a completely different story.

“Same old, same old.” He smiled back at you.

“I can relate to that.” You chuckled lightly before turning to Pansy. “What about you, Pans? How are you holding up?”

“Better now you’ve turned up,” she started “I’m no longer stuck with these two tosspots.”

You let out a small giggle, mainly at the look Draco gave to Pansy. “Consider me your saving grace then.”

Situating yourself next to Draco (who didn't really seem too pleased with that decision), you asked him the same question. “How are you, Draco?”

He shrugged, not bothering to answer, causing you to frown. You were going to ask him again, but he got up before you were unable to. "Oh, uh, bye. Have a good day!" You called after him, hoping that might make him feel a bit better.

"Is he alright?" You said, a worried look etched onto your featured.

Pansy and Blaise turned to eachother and shared a look. You watched them move their heads in your direction but were still looking at one another.

After a few more moments of the two looking ridiculous, you waved your hand infront of both of their faces. "Hello, Earth to Blaise and Pansy? Is Draco okay?"

Blaise started sputtering out oh's and uh's whilst Pansy just sat there, stabbing her chicken with her fork. Quite forcefully too.

Rolling your eyes, you got up from you seat. "If you two won't tell me, then I'll find out for myself."

You started to turn around when you felt a firm hand grasp your wrist, making you face the two. You then realised that it was Blaise who grabbed you.

"No!" He basically shouted. "I mean no you can't, he's gone to see Snape."

"I don't care that he's gone to see Snape. Draco's my friend and something is obviously wrong so I'm going to go see if he's okay." With that, you yanked your arm out of his grasp and walked away from the two and the Great Hall.

After a few minutes of walking aimlessly around the Castle, you finally found the blond haired wizard. He was sat on one of the stone benches, seemingly doing nothing.

You debated whether or not you should go up to him, but you then you thought I would want someone with me if I was having a bad day so you went up and sat next to him.

Thankfully, you missed the way he visibly stiffened when he noticed your presence.

"Hey." You began softly. "Are you okay?"

You were once again met with silence, but you noticed him clenching his jaw. "Draco."

"What?!" He shouted, making you flinch back in surprise.

"What's up with you?" You asked again, voice still soft, but you could hear the annoyance seeping into your tone.

"Nothing!" He got up from beside you and began walking away for the second time that day.

Not wanting him to be alone in that state -- whatever that state was -- you got up and followed him. "There obviously is."

Draco spun around, nearly causing you to bump right into him. "Why can't you just leave me alone? Huh?"

You frowned at him, "What?"

"Why do you insist on following me around like a lost fucking puppy all the time?" He ran his hand through his hair and tugged slightly. You would've probably found the action hot but you certainly didn't right now.

"I don't follow you around? You're my friend."

"That's not all you want to be though, is it." He responded dryly.

"Excuse me?"

"You didn't really hide your little crush on me very well," he sneered at you "everyone could see it."

You tried to formulate a response, but the lump in your throat caused you not to.

"Did you think that you would've had a chance with me, is that it? Is that why you were always extra nice to me? Were you trying to butter me up so that maybe, just maybe, I liked you the same way you liked me?" He narrowed his eyes at you, inching closer and closer with every passing sentence.

"No! That's not true!" You finally managed to reply whilst walking backward, not noticing that you had a reached the wall.

You knew it was true, but you were once again ignoring the truth. Because sometimes the truth hurts more than the lie.

"Don't bullshit, Y/N!" He shouted, hitting the wall next to you. Your body recoiled in surprise, or was it fear? You were unsure at this point. "If you're not as pathetic as you say you are, then you would admit it."

You looked him in the eyes and swallowed, "You know what? Fine." You mustered up the courage to place your hands on his chest and pushed him back, giving you some space finally. "I do like you, Merlin, I loved you. You were the reason I got up every morning. You made Hogwarts feel like home when I wanted nothing more than to leave. You gave me something to look forward to."

Draco widened his eyes at your tone, not expecting so much venom to be laced in your words. He carried in listening anyway.

"But now? I sure as hell don't want to love you anymore. Why would I want to love someone who doesn't even value me as a person? Why would I want to be with someone who apparently hates the fucking ground I walk on?" You waved your arms around wildly, expressing just how much emotion you were feeling. You knew that you most likely looked like a crazy woman, but you didn't care in that moment.

"So you know what? I'm done." You chuckled darkly, sniffling slightly. "I'm done with this," you waved between the two of you, "and I'm done with you."

Shaking your head, you walked away with a heavy heart and tears steaming down your face. You willed yourself not to look back because you knew it you looked back, you would go apologise to him. And you couldn't. You wouldn't do that to yourself.

At one point you would've done anything for Draco Lucius Malfoy, but now? Draco be damned.

[icykalisartblog]

Notes on Cardassian Courtship

A running theme in all my DS9 fic has been explorations and interpretations of Cardassian courtship. I’ve spent a lot of time devising a system that I think makes a lot of sense and that I reference in all of my fanwork. At the request of @evenmyhivemindisempty​ I decided to share it! In honor of Valentine’s Day, here are my headcanons, featuring canon and non-canon ships alike! Also on AO3.

Cardassian courtship tends to be vitriolic and rife with arguments from all participants, whether it is flirtation in the leadup to a one-night stand or a lifelong romance. However, established romantic relationships tend to be more openly sappy and calm. See how Tekeny Ghemor spoke about his late wife. This isn’t a universal thing—in fact, a relationship retaining its argumentative qualities could be seen as admirably energetic and youthful—but a calmer future is most common. Quark and Odo (though neither are Cardassian themselves) met on Terok Nor during the Occupation and seem to be in some sort of established Cardassian courtship but never reduced the level of vitriol.

The main principle behind these vitriolic courtships is the intimacy of anger. It involves hashing everything out to get to the heart of your love. Part of the reason this seems so sentimental is because of how repressive Cardassia’s State can be, and much it limits free speech. To share one's true, differing opinions passionately with someone is very intimate, as is the ability to annoy/be annoyed or even absolutely excoriate one’s love/be excoriated with no hard feelings. In addition, the intimacy of anger isn't limited to disagreements. It also involves the ability to explode with rage around one's love with the shared trust that no one will be hurt. “A Time to Stand” features a scene of Weyoun presenting an amiable mask before suddenly exploding at Damar, revealing the stress he is actually under. 

Elements often found in these courtship arguments are insults and challenges, normally involving whatever field the object of one's affections specializes in or cares about. Gilora Rejal’s insults regarding O’Brien’s engineering are a very good example. Insults may also contain a hidden compliment or confession embedded within them. See something Garak tells Bashir:

GARAK: I can’t believe that I actually enjoyed eating mediocre food and staring into at your smug, sanctimonious face. I hate this place and I hate you.

Really, at the heart of these words is the fact that his time spent with Bashir is the light of his life, but this romantic confession is couched in terms that make it sound like that's all a sign of his degradation. This confession of “hatred” is really a Cardassian confession of love.

Courtship challenges can be similar to romantic insults, but they more directly call upon the object of one’s affections to grow/improve/be honest. Here is Quark providing an example, challenging Natima Lang: 

QUARK: All right, then say it. Let me hear you say there isn’t a spark of love left in you.

NATIMA: There isn’t a spark of love left in me.

QUARK: I heard that.

NATIMA: What?

QUARK: You hesitated. Admit it, you still care.

Sometimes the challenge is phrased in a less obvious fashion. Here is Weyoun, challenging Damar: 

DAMAR: I wouldn't trust a Cardassian that didn’t enjoy a glass of kanar every once in a while.

WEYOUN: Tell me, Damar, when you’re alone, do you even bother with a glass, or do you just drink that swill directly from the bottle?

DAMAR: Depends on my mood. 

This exchange contains insults from both parties, but Weyoun’s double as a challenge to reduce the drinking. Meanwhile, Damar both compares Weyoun to a Cardassian while simultaneously implying that he has reason not to trust him. This exchange would be a very typical one for Cardassian courtships in general, and overall the interactions between these two characters would be extremely ordinary for a Cardassian romance. 

When individuals from different cultures engage in Cardassian courtship, it is common for their arguments to involve each other’s media or traditions while also taking cues from them in private. This characterizes practically all of Bashir’s and Garak’s debates.

Generally, flat-out insults, particularly regarding one's intelligence, tend to be viewed as more feminine, whereas boasting, swaggering challenges tend to be viewed as more masculine.

Dukat’s behavior should not be considered typical of most Cardassian courtship because he tends to be interested in and prey on Bajorans, and not treat them as his equals. That being said, Kira’s disgust and insults toward him probably feed into his fantasies because he can pretend she has a flirtatious motivation.

Shows of strength are a final element involved in Cardassian courtship. Power and survivability are traits considered highly desirable among Cardassians, possibly due to the oppressive conditions in which they’ve lived, or perhaps for older, more mystical reasons. Responding to one’s love’s stubbornness by using a show of strength to overpower them for their own good is considered one of the most romantic gestures of all, and may often involve shooting one’s lover. See Bashir shooting Garak or Natima shooting Quark. In the case of Bashir, that instance was particularly romantic because he later recited Garak’s own words in order to resolve the situation, indicating that he had listened intently and valued his stance despite disagreeing with it heartily.

A method of expressing affection that is a clear declaration and acknowledgement of romantic love is pressing palms together. The depth of the affection can be indicated by the strength of the contact and the length of time the palms remain flush. Brief contact may be more cheeky and potentially platonic, but a sustained, firm hold is as clear as a romantic profession. Garak and Bashir share this sort of touch in “The Wire” when Garak asks if Bashir will forgive him and Bashir agrees. Curling one’s fingers around another’s during a pressing of palms, or interlacing them, is even more romantic. 

Pressing foreheads together is a sign of deep, unconditional love in Cardassian culture. It is a gesture normally reserved for family members and partners who plan to be or already are married. 

Key episodes: 

“Profit and Loss” explores reconnecting with an old flame in a Cardassian respect.

“The Ascent” when viewed through the lens of Cardassian courtship rituals, centers on a couple in a life or death situation giving their all for each other to the very end. 

“Our Man Bashir” can be analyzed as an example of picking at one’s love interest to relieve tension, as well as for a romantic show of strength at its climax. 

“Destiny” involves a cultural miscommunication and explicitly states that arguing is how Cardassians flirt. 

[thetaekookcloset]

Why do you think JK went to Japan with Jimin and not Tae? Do you think Tae was uncomfortable about the whole thing? I just can't imagine going on a trip with just a friend and leaving my partner behind.

I have a few thoughts on this topic, and one of them is that it’s a good example of how everyone has their own sense of boundaries and their own ideas on what a romantic relationship entails, which is something I think it’s good to be aware of when we’re looking at the unconfirmed relationship status of strangers.

As I mentioned in my post about Jikook, personally I don’t think it’s weird at all to go on a trip with just a friend and leave a partner behind.  I’ve done it twice lol.  Over the period of a couple of years, I went on two big trips with two different friends, while my partner stayed home.  I did this for a number of reasons, but the important thing is that it wasn’t a big deal for my partner and I.

Everyone is different, so I don’t know whether it was or wasn’t a big deal to Tae (assuming that Tae and JK are together), but either way, I do think it’s healthy and totally normal for people in romantic relationships to spend time apart and do things without each other sometimes.  Add in the fact that they’re celebrities who have busy schedules and need to take advantage of what time off they have, and that they have the money to do the traveling they want to do when the opportunity presents itself, and I really don’t think it’s a huge wrench in the idea that Tae and JK could be dating each other just because Jimin went to Japan with Jungkook.

As for why I think the two of them went together, this is such an interesting point to me in terms of the ongoing “take the guys’ words at face value” debate, because people are pretty fond of lobbying that argument at Taekookers (not saying you are doing this, anon, I just mean in general), but from what I understand, Jimin himself explained that the reason he and JK decided to go to Japan together was that they make a good match for traveling -- they like the same foods, like to stay up late, etc. -- and they happened to both have the time off without other plans.

Obviously, there could be more to it than that, but I see the simplicity of that response dismissed an awful lot.  From what I understand, Tae had originally been involved in the conversation on going to Tokyo anyway.  Based on the events as I understand them, it seems like Tae and JK may have had vague plans to go to Tokyo together, Jimin wanted to go along, but then when they actually ended up with time off in their schedule, Tae made plans with his family instead (he was in Japan too, at the time, just in a different area with his family), and Jungkook and Jimin didn’t have plans yet, so they decided to go to Tokyo.  I really feel like it’s probably as simple as that.

As for whether I think Tae would be bothered by it, I don’t know him and I don’t think there’s anything caught on camera that would definitively show his response. He seems to have a lot of friends himself, though, who he spends a lot of time with, so I hope he wouldn’t begrudge Jungkook a fun trip with someone he cares about, and I don’t think we have any reason to believe that he did.

If nothing else, this topic proves that everyone has their own ideas on what a romantic relationship looks like.  To you, it’s unfathomable to think of someone going on a trip with a friend but not their partner.  To me, that’s totally normal -- even for far more extravagant trips than just a few days away in the middle of a busy schedule.  I think this -- the fact that we all have our own understandings of what non-platonic relationships should and do look like -- is something worth keeping in mind, because our own ideas color how we read what we see when we look at other people.

The fact is, no matter what relationship dynamics are ultimately involved between them, Vminkook love each other and it’s up to them to determine the various boundaries within their relationships.  All we can do is observe them from the outside and appreciate them for what we see.

[saphirered]

Hey! I hope you’re doing well. You’re writing is always great and I get excited when I see you’ve posted something new. Would you consider writing a little something with platonic Caduceus and reader where they have similar personalities and interests, but different backgrounds? Maybe the reader doesn’t have any family to speak of? I’m open to any character class or race :) thank you!

I’m doing well. I’m glad you like my writing and thank you. It’s really nice to hear people get excited when I post new things. I never expected people to like it at all 🙈.  I hope you like the way this one turned out 😘

You were typical city folk. Born and raised in the heights of civilisation; the pride and joy of the Law Bearer Erathis herself. Raised at the temple of the Raven Queen as a foundling the clergy were the only parental figures you knew and they were hardly parents. Your relationship with them is less of a parent-child dynamic. They were your caretakers and supported which is more than a lot of people can say but you missed out on parental pride, love and the ability to confide in someone in such a way. You missed out on the relation with siblings. No running around the hallways of the temple, no secrets between just you and them, no protective older sibling or a younger one that gets away with everything. You had no weird aunt or uncle to tell you ridiculous stories or take you on adventures every so often like the books you’d read as a child. 

Your childhood never bothered you because it was good and happy, just in a different way. You found a mother figure in the Matron. You’d get dreams sometimes, waking up with a single black feather on your pillow. She gave you an appreciation of all things living. Death is a sacred thing but it’s the life that counts. You made it your goal to nourish that what needs a little extra attention and preserve what can be saved before its time, conforming to the natural order. The Matron of Ravens taught you death is just as sacred as life and so you valued it and vowed to upkeep her commandments and preserve that natural order of life and death. 

As a child you spent much time within the public parks and gardens. You had an affinity unrivalled. Making flowers blossom in spring and keeping the branches and roots healthy during the colder months, curing diseases, healing ailments as well as returning to the earth what once came from it upon the passing. When you were old enough these habits carried over to ‘living things’; a term you had to disagree with because all that grows lives. You became part of the clergy and continued your life within the temple of the Raven Queen. 

You were never confined to the temple life. Your work took you far and wide, your expertise wanted by the many. You had tended to the ailments of kings as you had commoner, treating no different. You had tended to the pristine gardens of royalty as you had the fields of a farmer. In the eyes of the natural order all lives are equal in the end and so you treated them in life. 

When a group of strangers came knocking at your door looking for an expert you were surprised by the colourful bunch on your doorstep but heard them out regardless. You were faced with the story of a cursed forest, a sanctuary of the natural order to be disturbed, a family missing and a new one found. A story of beacons of endless stars, possibilities and souls of the preserved to be reborn, conflict, war and death. Stories of salvation, resurrection, a fight to preserve the natural order and save the lives of the many. Stories far and wide yet to be told.

You were needed. Your expertise was needed and when a raven landed on your windowsill staring at you, studying you and awaiting your response you knew it was time to leave behind the life you knew and venture into a strange new world of adventure and the unknown. How could you turn them down? Your help was needed and while the venture might be a bit longer and much riskier than your usual ones, the task remained the same. You’d travel with the Mighty Nein for a while and aid them for however long they needed you. 

You grew to love the Mighty Nein like the family you never had but you have to say from the very beginning you felt a natural gravitation towards the colourful firbolg, a radiance akin to that of the life you vowed to preserve. Caduceus did not hide he felt a same sort of gravitation towards you. The two of you were often paired together on watches or went out together to stock up on supplies for the road, spell components and the likes. The two of you while at first glance are day and night, as your respective deities are when compared, but those who look closer know you are in a way, one and the same. 

You’re sitting on the jungle floor eyes closed listening to the nocturnal critters make their way through, searching for food, hunting and finding their hideouts, burrows and nests before the sun rises and morning comes. A smile on your face, as you take everything in over the soft snoring and slight twisting and turning of some of the Nein. You hear someone sitting down next to you. 

“Good morning.” You say peaking through one eye seeing the pink haired firbolg cup of tea in hand. The two of you had always been and probably always will be the early risers of the group. Old habits? Perhaps so.

“Ah, it is, isn’t it?” He offers you a cup of tea. You take it with a quick thanks blowing away the steam and cool it down a little before you take a sip. A good cup of tea never fails to wake you up properly. 

“How are you feeling? Getting closer to where the Wild Mother has been sending you?” The two of you look out seeing the first light barely bleed through the trees. Caduceus waits a little before speaking, contemplating his answer. His brow furrows. 

“I’m unsure.” Caduceus mentally retreats just a little bit, watching his expression you can see the thoughts rush through his head. You know he worries for his family and how you might find them. A lot is unsure at these times. You can only hope for the best and prepare for the worst but you have faith. 

“You’re worried, for your family. For what might have become of them?” He gives you a bit of a smile and nods. It’s clear Caduceus hasn’t directly been faced with the notion of mortality in this sense close to home whereas in any other situation he’d be fine. 

“I’ve been waiting to see them for a long time. While I trust the Wild Mother’s path, I can’t help but find myself doubting if they are well.” You try to find a way to best approach his concerns and ease his mind. The words of comfort either of you would offer to those coming into your respective places of worship do not apply to this situation nor would they be particularly helpful. You’re not dealing with the dead, just the possibility of death of loved ones. 

“You trust her path and you believe she’s at your side?” You ask deep in thought as a light breeze rushes through out of nowhere. The Wild Mother must be listening. Caduceus relaxes a bit more knowing she’s there. Despite what some may think, the breeze may just tell you what you need to know.

“Yes. I believe so.” He smiles watching the leaves blow, the breeze being carried away into the distance of the early morning jungle, a couple of birds scattering as it comes along. 

You take a moment, close your eyes and reach out your senses sending a little prayer to the Raven Queen. You’re met with a sense of warmth, a soft cawing of a raven flying away and a small light in the darkness. 

“Then they’ll be alright in the end. I don’t sense my Matron’s presence in relation to you. You’ll be reunited with your family once more.” You interpret the signs she shows you. While they might not be a certainty you have faith she would not let you down.

“That’s nice.” You return to staring into the jungle in comfortable silence for a while. 

“What do you miss the most? About home and your family I mean.” You ask a bit out of the blue but you couldn’t help yourself wondering with everything drawing closer and the uncertainty of how you’ll find the Stone family, and what you’ll encounter there. 

“Old habits. The people. The simplicity of life. I’d say the piece and quiet but that wouldn’t be entirely true. Just different kind of noise. You know what I mean.” Caduceus reminisces, dopey smile returning at the memory of his family. You’ve heard some of the tales of his shenanigans when it comes to his siblings. He’s confided in you and you vowed to keep those a secret. Who knew Caduceus could be quite the prankster?

“I don’t actually. I never had a family like yours. The Mighty Nein is the closest I’ve ever gotten to the meaning of a family.” You look over to the sleeping shapes. You wouldn’t trade them for the world but can’t deny it’s still not the same. The others can attest to that. 

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. I apologise if I offended you.” You smile at him. You’d stated before you loved your found ‘family’, the clergy but they were never your real family. It just hadn’t come up your dynamic with them was not the same as a more typical even dysfunctional family. 

“It’s quite alright. I never knew my birth family. I knew the clergy at my temple and that’s alright. I always wondered what it would be like to have parents to confide in, siblings to spend time with, perhaps even share interests with and people who love me unconditionally, people like me but also not. Do you get what I mean?” Caduceus nods in agreement and thinks for a second.

“I understand. Though you might come to take back the part about wanting to spend more time with siblings. They’ll grow on you like ivy in places you don’t want it.” He laughs a little and you join him. 

“They can’t be that bad.” You joke the both of you laughing as quietly as you can trying not to wake the others up. 

“I’d love to meet your family. From what you’ve told they’re wonderful.” 

“They are, in their own ways but don’t tell Calliope I said that.” Caduceus bumps your shoulder and you bump back finishing the last of your tea. You’ve heard enough tales of Calliope to know you better not tell her or she might never let Caduceus forget he admitted it so openly to someone else outside of the family. 

“I’m sure they’d like you too. If you wanted to you could come back to the Blooming Grove with us one day. Clarabelle always wanted another sibling. She thinks Calliope is a bit too stoic. The two of you would make great friends.” Caduceus finishes his tea and you’re a little taken aback. You look for any kind of jest. He must be joking right?

“You’re serious?” Caduceus laughs a little at your reaction. 

“Unless you don’t want to. I think you’ll fit in right along. Our ancestor used to be a champion of the Raven Queen. She might appreciate the return of a new Clay. Not by blood but by heart.” You recall the story he once told about the champions Stone, Dust and Clay of the Matron. You feel a pull in your heart out of nowhere and swear you hear a raven’s caw in the back of your mind. She’d be satisfied. 

“I’d like that very much if they’ll have me.” With Caduceus reassurance his family would very much like you and get along with you you’d see where this would go. Perhaps you would become an unofficial Clay. Your friends are just your chosen family after all so why should it be different? 

You’ll see where your path leads and you’ll stick with Caduceus until either of you grow tired of each other. Not that either of you see that happen. You’ve grown thick as thieves to the point where you could call yourselves siblings. If the two of you claiming yourselves siblings extends into his family then you’d love nothing more. 

A place. A purpose. A home. You’ll have to put the world back into tune first but once the Matron and the Mother call you both home you’ll stick to the path until homeward bound you both be. Both of you lost in thought come to the same conclusion. Caduceus pours the both of you some new tea, cooling it down a bit you both take a sip.

“That’s nice.” You say in unison watching the nocturnal critters go to sleep and the early risers come out and go about their daily business. 

[eisforeidolon]

I have to be honest, it bothers me a bit how much the anti faction of the fandom seems to focus on the "unrequited" angle. For Wincest shippers and non-shippers who've been burned by the Hellers and want no part of their corner of fandom, there's nothing to lose by saying Cas is in romantic love with Dean but Dean doesn't feel the same way. But those of us who are on the same side as y'all but ship Cas with someone else get caught in the crossfire there. It's not canon that Cas loved Dean romantically, and I don't think we should make it any easier for Hellers to claim it is.

I can understand that viewpoint.  I think it probably comes down to not wanting to argue over something that I have a hard time as seeing as anything but intentionally ambiguous?

Berens went out of his way to write that scene with Cas dismissing his other relationships in favor of tongue-bathing Dean.  I mean, I like Dean getting praise as much as the next Dean girl, but man, not when it comes out of fucking nowhere and is grossly contradicted by the characters’ shown relationship.  Now, I do think it was nothing more than a pathetically dumb and doomed attempt to throw those shippers a bone to try and keep them from tantruming over the finale that the general audience and the rest of us could easily ignore.  But I can legitimately see it as intentional for a given value of intent to placate those shippers.  However, Cas does say just “love” yet again rather than the far less ambiguous “in love”.  As Jensen purportedly said, he is an angel whose emotions may not necessarily fit within the same confines of what a human’s experiences of emotions are.  What “true happiness” he “can’t have”?  It could be the opportunity to live a life with those individuals and the world he cares about not in constant danger of destruction, perhaps even happy for once!  It could be a platonic relationship like the one Sam & Dean have with each other that is so all-encompassing it has no room for anyone else at the same level and is so unbreakable despite everything they’ve been through together and sometimes even put each other through.  It could be any number of other things he discovered it was possible to want through meeting and working with Dean and subsequently breaking free of heaven’s cycle of brainwashing him into compliance.  So no, Castiel’s speech is intentionally not canonically romantic, because if they wanted it to be unambiguously canon, it literally would have taken nothing more than that one extra word of “in”.

Arguing that back and forth, when it will inevitably get into territory like the intent of hacks like Berens and commentary from trolling baiters like MIsha, though?  It easily becomes pretty circular and muddy.  On the other hand, there is really no legitimate room to argue that even if Cas’ intent WAS romantic?  That doesn’t make it a canon relationship, because Dean doesn’t reciprocate (not onscreen and explicitly not in the script directions).  So I get why it’s become an accepted shortcut, as well as why that is annoying to fans who would prefer no one cede even theoretical ground on the subject.

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Hi can I request Megumi with a very touchy crush

Megumi with a touchy crush HCs!

Fushiguro Megumi x Reader ^^

An: Hello! Sorry for the late response but I hope you can enjoy this anyways! Since it’s not specified I made this headcannons since that was easier! If you want anything different in future requests please specify at least: format, POV and gender! If you don’t I’ll just do whatever ^^

Contains: Touchy reader/physical contact, Megumi x reader, written with a female reader in mind but generally left as gn!, angst if you squint lol, possibly mistakes as my genius self is writing this at like 12am, just fluffff :) oh and you’re shorter than Megumi lol. (Oh and sorry if Megumi is a tad OOC in the drabble cuz his reactions can be tricky to write for 😅)

Word Count: 1.7k (I got carried away once again lol)

Soooo.... Megumi with a touchy crush? Sign me up!

Now we all know that Megumi is rather reserved and pretty straight forward so I think at first his reaction to your touchiness may be a bit awkward

Not awkward in the sense that he’s uncomfortable being around you but more as in he’s a bit.... shy

He’s not adjusted to receiving a lot of physical contacts so initially, he wasn't quite sure how to react 

His overall awkwardness really depends on how long he’s known you 

If he just met you during high school he would probably be a bit shocked at how comfortable you were with casual physical affection

While you would think nothing of it and treated practically everyone you knew (and were comfortable with) like this, Megumi would still be surprised 

While Yuuji and Nobara would adjust to your touchiness quite quickly, Megumi would probably stay blushy about it for a month or so until he wouldn't think much about it anymore 

it’d be a bit different if he knew you for a while or even knew you as childhood friends

Typically being touchy doesn't become a habit overnight sooo he’d be a lot more used to it and barely think about it 

I don’t see him as one to openly accept or adjust to physical affection without being a bit shy 

He’d probably tease you or question you about it from time to time and be one to begrudgingly accept affection 

Totally be one to act really annoyed by your touchiness but in reality, he treasures the soft moments away from danger 

All of this would change when he realizes he has a crush on you though :0

Cue blushy, awkward Megumi and oblivious you featuring another oblivious idiot, Yuuji, and an all-knowing Nobara 

Megumi isn’t one to develop crushes immediately or overnight since he must value that person’s personality most of all 

He thought of you as purely platonically within these first few months of knowing you untilllll his brain just clicked 

He was like.... ‘Oh shoot... I have a crush....”

Having a crush is refreshing for Megumi but also quite distracting with how touchy you are

Instead of just ignoring the affection or casually playing it off, Megumi forgets how to react 

Now he knows that deep down he really likes receiving affection from you cuz he realized how he likes you more than just a companion or classmate  

Cue Megumi being 10 times more awkward than usual 

Normally if you were to walk up to him and throw your arm over his shoulder playfully or something like that he’d either ignore it, pretend it's not happening or just playfully shove your arm off his shoulder 

Now he just freezes and is like ‘oh what to do’

Would be that person who googles ‘how to act normally around your crush’ but at the same time think its stupid and stop reading the article like five minutes in lol

He’d probably have one of two reactions: 

Cease to function and just stand awkwardly still or

Awkwardly pull away 

...

Now as much as Megumi pretends to hate your touchiness, you do know that he’s okay with you playing around so this reaction is pretty unusual

You probably are a little confused as to why he’s acting like this 

Like huhh????? I thought we were good?????

Cue Megumi continuing to be awkward for a while 

Everyone became more awkward than usual since that day because the friendly atmosphere was put off due to Megumi being even more closed off than usual

He practically avoids you at this point

Ofc you start to feel bad about it

Like did you do something wrong??? Take it too far?? 

Touchiness has always been in your nature and seeing someone react so sharply to it makes you feel insecure about your habits so you lessen the touchiness within the friend group

and everyone notices

Yuuji misses your playfulness and Megumi is simply overwhelmed and lost within his own thoughts and emotions 

Nobara is the most.... suspicious 

While examining Megumi lately (not in a weird way she swears) she noticed the sudden change in behavior 

That’s when she realized ‘Does the Fushiguro Megumi have a crush????’ 

Ofc her curiosity gets the best of her so she just has to question Megumi 

So she does

After a small mission the team had gone on, she asked Megumi to talk 

‘So promise to answer truthfully.’

‘Yes I promise” 

‘Do you have a crush on Y/N?’

“Huh’ Megumi deadpans. This came out of nowhere 

As much as he wishes to play it cool and dismiss the girl’s thoughts, he physically cannot and instead goes into blushy cannot function mode

Nobara takes notice to this immediately

‘Aha! So I was correct! Take that Yuuji!’

Yes they totally made bets on this 

Once again Megumi is lost 

‘Huh? Bets on what?”

‘Bets on what?”Are you seriously that oblivious? On your crush! It’s so obvious it’s painful!” She sighed dramatically

Now Megumi is even more lost 

Like sure he was confused about where his crush stands but he wasn’t aware that he was obvious????

Nobara goes on to explain how stiffly he reacts to your touches and how his blush doesn’t really go unnoticed 

She also explains how you were moping around lately cuz you thought you made him uncomfortable

Shocked at this new found information he rushed out of their real quick to go... idk possibly confess but be more focused on apologizing 

AN: Here’s a quick scenario in first person of how that would go since I have zero self-control :0 

I was settled on the small bed in my school dorm room. Placed upon a stack of pillows was my laptop, through which played whatever random Netflix show I chose. It didn’t really matter what it was as the media was quickly discarded by my mind and treated as background noise. My mind was swimming with rather..intrusive thoughts. As much as I wanted to relax and shut off my mind for the night I simply couldn’t. My thoughts continued to drift back to a certain ravenette and the issues that had circled around him for a while now. Fushiguro Megumi, a boy I met a few years back when beginning jujutsu. We were friends... or at least I considered us friends and I had taken quite a liking to the boy. Despite his distant and rather closed off personality, I had developed a casual and comfortable bond with the male... or so I thought. All changed when he started acting strangely, almost as if I had hurt him or bothered him a little too much with my habits. Admittedly I was a bit hurt over Megumi’s actions but I was more confused. I had always been touchy, so why the sudden reaction to it? 

As if the world was messing with me, a knock sounding from my dorm room door shook me from my train of thought. 

“Coming!” I quickly pushed the blankets and began walking towards the door. The person behind that door was definitely not who I was expecting. Behind the door stood Megumi Fushiguro, pacing lightly as his hand slightly ruffled his hair.

“Megumi?! Did you need something?” It was strange to see Megumi at my door as it was nearing 9 PM and he was usually one to avoid unnecessary intrusions. 

“Oh hi Y/N. Sorry to bother you so late but I’ve come to apologize..” He explained, carding his hand through his hair nervously.

“Apologize for what exactly?” I questioned.

“For how I’ve been acting lately..” He stated. I shook my head. 

“Ahh about that... I’ve been meaning to ask you something..” I mumbled. “Megumi.. do I uhh.. make you uncomfortable? I mean I know I’m kinda touchy and I’ve noticed that you uh don’t-”

“No no no! That's what I’m here to clear up about... Look it's not what you think! You don’t make me uncomfortable I’ve just been too focused on my own thoughts to realize why you may think that...’ We’re both way too oblivious’ or at least that’s what Nobara says..” He trailed off. I sighed in relief. I was happy, albeit a bit confused but still happy that he didn’t despise me. 

“Ok ok.. I’m glad you don’t hate me at least!” I smiled, throwing my arm around his shoulder as I did in the past. “I do have one question though!”

“Ask away.” He quietly chuckled, finally at ease in my touches. 

“What do you mean ‘we’re both oblivious’? And what does Nobara have to do with this?” I questioned, leaning my head onto the taller male’s shoulder. His eyes widened a bit as he glanced away awkwardly. 

“Well, you see... I don’t really know how to say this but..” 

“Just spit it out already!” I playfully slapped his back. 

“I have a crush on you...” He mumbled looking away. 

“....huh” I deadpanned. “That’s why you were awkward all of a sudden? All because you like me? Wait you like me?!” I shook my head, leaving the casual embrace we had settled into. 

“Yeah... that’s not a bad thing is it?” He questioned, once again rubbing at his neck nervously.

“No no of course not!” I waved dramatically. “I’ll let you know that I like you too! Quite a lot actually!” I chuckled thinking of Nobara’s words. “Now I understand what she was saying about obliviousness... Now that I think about it you were sooo obvious! I'm ashamed that I didn’t notice sooner.” I sighed, coming down from my small laughing fit. 

“ Hey well, I didn’t know how to act! I was trying my best ok....” He mumbled. I leaned forward and pressed a kiss to his left cheek, chuckling at his blushy reaction. 

“Don’t worry about it! I mean we cleared everything up didn’t we?” I pondered.

“So uhh.. do you wanna be my girlfriend then?” He questioned, looking as flustered as ever. 

“I’d love that!” I smiled. Glancing at my watch my eyes widened. 

“Hey, it's getting late! Why don’t you come watch Netflix with me yeah?!” I pulled the ravenette into my dorm, leaving him little time to respond.  That night we drifted off together surrounded by the noise of old Netflix movies and warmed by the feeling of love.