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🐝 POLIN WEEK → DAY FIVE — Nicola Appreciation Day 🐝
"Every time I'm asked about my body in an interview it makes me deeply uncomfortable and so sad I'm not just allowed to just talk about the job I do that I so love."
Here is an obscure emotion that took me a few days to understand but Mono no aware is a Japanese idiom that describes the feeling of bittersweet and a deep appreciation for the impermanence of life.
it can be translated as "the pathos of things."
If this is confusing, it's the feeling of nostalgia but instead of longing for the past, Mono no aware longs for the present moments. The moments where life and time becomes still as you appreciate the beautiful sensation of euphoria, however you're sadden that the sensation won't last for long.
If this is still confusing. One prime example is in studio ghibli's Spirited Away, where Chihiro sits on the train in solitude as she stares off in longing. The scene captures this stillness and poignant feeling where it feels like the story has taken a pause. It's the quiet moment where you finally enjoy the silence after going through hardship, where you reflect and appreciate what was lost and what has changed.🌸🩷🌿
Need Simon Riley to hold me down into a mating press and cum inside me so hard and so deep I feel his cock pulsating and I’m so full of him I start leaking.
Part 4 of Inside out 2 Moments I’m obsessed with ( + Ennui x Anxiety moments I love)
This… god I could ramble for hours about this.
This is one of my biggest pieces of proof that it’s not just Riley who’s dealing with Anxiety, but anxiety herself.
Immediately off the bat Anxiety wanted to make a good first impression. She wanted to lead and shape and cultivate Riley into someone who could handle all of life’s pressures. Meanwhile, internally, she’s battling the worries that she won’t be able to help Riley the way she’s supposed to. She needs everything to go right, to see every available option, so she can succeed. So she can prove that she’s worthy of being an emotion.
however. Anxiety doesn’t even realize this. She’s using Riley as a front; so strong so that she doesn’t even seem to realize she has internal problems until this very moment.
This is Riley’s sense of self. But even Anxiety must know that this isn’t all Riley. It’s the Riley she picked out. The Riley she cultivated and grew. This is a Riley entirely lead by anxiety.
in other words. This new sense of self isn’t just Riley’s. But Anxieties too.
But she doesn’t realize that till now. Too her this is just her dream. Her goal of a perfect Riley. She’s so excited to see it worked. Only to completely balk when it goes wrong.
Riley’s says Anxieties deepest fear. A fear she was currently ignoring so deeply she didn’t realize it. And hearing it spoken out loud, it’s the breaking point where she truly starts to spiral in the movie.
Now she doesn’t have hopes and dreams and goals. From this moment on. She’s failed already. She did something wrong despite preparing for every available outcome and from now on she has to desperately try to fix everything because now it’s CONFIRMED that she’s not good enough. And so to safe face and try a salvage anything she can. She has two practically kill herself to prove that she’s good enough. Not just to herself. But to her fellow emotions. Now it’s not just Riley she’s working for. But for herself as well.
The other emotions couldn’t see this before. They didn’t understand that Anxiety unknowingly had two goals. But now, when they see a clear sign that things aren’t going well. That maybe Anxiety is struggling with all the pressure, they start to get that their way in over their heads. And Anxiety is clearly starting to have some sort of internal tension. (Aka this is the moment where Anxiety’s attack starts. Not when Riley hits Grace. But HERE!)
Also, Ennui totally was worried as shit for Anxiety and has too double check with Envy and Embarrasment that what she was seeing was true and she wasn’t the only one who could see her precious little flip flop wasn’t doing okay.
(also you can tell cause she’s practically standing up in this moment. She only stands up straight/moves when it’s something important)