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plutos134340 · 1 year

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God i love songs that dont curse a lot, but when they do, its always in the most perfect place

#this is specifically about fine im fine and a styrian rhapsody #'such convenient luck for a thickheaded dumbcunt'#and #'less is more. slam that door. now shut it whore'#i love those lyrics so much theyre just so fun anyways yeah im done rambling #but do ppl understand what i mean?? 😭#chonny jash #cjgw #also this literally goes against my whole thing about not cursing on the internet but im just reciting a lyric so uh who cares ig??#🗣️

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dnpbeats · 29 days

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besties... a passenger princess is not the same thing as a pillow princess,,,, what do u think the power part of power bottom means

#ppl can do and say and think whatever they want like godspeed 🫡 don't like don't read etc etc etc #however 😭 can we also like. understand what dan and phil mean when they say certain things and not mix things up ksdhkdshf #I had a rly funny tweet about this but I genuinely think twitter phannies would drag me to hell and back for saying this. despite the fact #that I'm literally just talking about shit d&p have said about themselves. lmao #wordvom.txt #p #phan

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mysicklove · 4 months

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ibruh. 😭 youre calling me out i have a slvtty waist and thunder thighs but wear baggy clothes 😭✋

go off icon 💅💅💅💅

#💌 - love letters #edit: sharky says this means something i don’t understand #why do u guys make me feel old wth IM GEN Z IS THIS A REFERENCE?? I HATE U PPL #😭😭😭#EXPLAIN #WHAT IS COPYPASTA

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opens-up-4-nobody · 10 months

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#i ask this as a mccoy hater lol. i mean. i get his whole deal #but it makes me upset when he is being like kinda racist toward spock. i mean its the sorta haha played for laughs #good natured sorta racism but like. i mean thats how it reads to me. but idk i watched star trek #tos when i was a more black/white thinker so maybe i wouldnt hate him so much if #i watched for the 1st time now? but i kinda doubt it bc im a hater ass bitch. and if u r mean to spock its jail for 1 million years #me as a teen: fundimentally i dont understand how ppl can ship bones with spock or kirk 😭 not in like a malicious way #more in a: we obviously do not perceive this character in the same way sorta way #but i dont like when ppl r constantly like sarcastic and abrasive? i dont kno how to react or what to do so it stresses me tf out lol #so its obviously a me problem #star trek #tos #leonard mccoy #poll #polls

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dandyshucks · 7 months

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blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

#I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE BLOCKED ALREADY. i am TRYING to curate my experience 😭😭😭#and i have so many tags blacklisted fjdsjkl like. so many. every single variation of tag to do with those chuckleheads #which helps avoid them a lot of the time tbh bc it'll flag posts that ppl rb if the original post was tagged w any of those #so i can avoid rbing posts that have chuckleheads as the op most of the time #i also usually double check OP's blog before i rb stuff now bc man this place is rife with these weirdos #ANYWAYS. yes i want to try to engage w the community but i do not think i can handle it if theres gonna be so many edgelords jkdslfl #the only way i follow new ppl now is when yall do promo hour and i sometimes see a new face pop up fdsjkl #every now and then i have energy to try to engage with new ppl but its so difficult when so many ppl are such insufferable edgelords !!!!#''im the nasty pr-sh-pper your parents warned you about 😎'' cool man you sound like the most insufferably obnoxious person ever. :/#''if you like CENSORSHIP-'' i am hitting block immediately bc u have a fundamental misunderstanding of what censorship actually is 👍#I'M TIREDDDD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DUMB ABOUT THIS STUFF. ''fiction doesn't affect reality'' I GUESS PROPAGANDA DOESNT EXIST THEN ????#what a strange world they live in honestly. they dont understand how stories have served humans since the dawn of time. sighing loudly.#vent //#SORRY FOR THIS ONE IM JUST. ARGH. ppl talk abt encouraging community but i think maybe im not cut out for community #i want desperately to partake but i cannot handle it if it means dealing w all these bozos #it frustrates me to no end fdhsjkl and it upsets me so much and i wish i could deal w it better but. my nervous system is broken fdsjkl #i will try to expand my circle every now and then but i cannot do it often bc of this 😭 im not going to give up entirely though fdsjkl #(also this is partially why i dont tag my posts w community tags anymore bc i am just. so scared of these freaks getting their hands on it)#(the most i'll do is s.afeship or variations every now n then bc supposedly they're not in those tags fdsjkl)#delete later #dandyshucks

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kavehater · 2 months

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Chappel Roan saying she’s sad she’s demisexual and then there’s me being aroace as a whole like don’t you think I’m even more sad 😭

#not saying she’s not allowed to feel sad at all #just makes me think about myself LOL #I hate being aroace it’s like everyone’s part of a secret club I will never be a part of #and that people don’t tend to understand and if they do they never uphold that fact #like I actually have thrown up before from the concept of being in a relationship because it’s horrifying #and disgusting to me in a practical sense #like I don’t want to throw up every time I start thinking about those things I just want to be normal #and not panic like a relationship sounds like even worse than a death sentence #ppl think aroace is cute and problem free but it’s literally so uncomfortable and inconvenient when you’re in a world which a) doesn’t #understand wth aroace is b) doesn’t respect it at all c) has shit povs on what friendship is and how it can be more fulfilling than somethin #and d) how badly it impacts some ;-; like ik it sounds easy but try telling yourself omg I want to have a forever bestie #but then said forever bestie will never end up truly putting you first because they’d have a partner who will be their number one #and as usual you won’t even be second place you will be last like always #because I’ve noticed that the moment ppl get a partner suddenly they become their forever bestie role and then I can’t have that cause it #freaks me out and disgusts me all at once so I’m literally just cursed with forever feeling lonely and not meaning anywhere near as much to #someone who you wish could even look your way the way you do to them …#honestly by the day these reminders make me feel more and more aplatonic but it’ll simultaneously always feel like a hole in my heart #because apparently being aroace is like being some weird person and some freak #and not in the 𝒻𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝓎 type of connotation LMAO I mean just plain freak #and then that loneliness will always accumulate and accumulate and accumulate until I physically cannot handle it anymore or I take matters #into my own hands and just off with her head to myself LMAO #dora daily #and that is why despite aroace being cool to me it’s just not placed in an environement which makes it cool #as those assholes tend to say oh meh meh meh you never struggled girl … we’re in the 21st century every person in the lgbt community is #living the life dating who they want and being with who they want #but allegedly it is but a crime I can’t like anyone and that nobody fucking listens to me when I say I have an attraction deficit #and that they take it upon their hands to define what I’m attracted to or head canon me as whatever they are #I swear I’m not even fucking worth that shit just leave me alone 😭#I promise like if I was with somebody they will regret the day they were born by being with me LOL I am not all that in fact me being aroace #is saving them from torture ☠️ anyways ! rant over :3

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shopcat · 2 months

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what i'm learning gradually is i am not actually that critical (in the criticism sense) at all like not that i can't read beyond surface level of things i just like to take it at face value esp smth i'm having fun with WHICH I DON'T THINK is a bad thing actually like no one's going to jail bc i don't personally (negatively) overanalyse the shounen manga i just go yayyyy pictures and have fun and everyone else is going to warrr. well most people wouldn't admit this sorry

#🐾#i mean ONLY for recent stuff coming out btw or really big plot lines #i need tiiiiime tk let things marinate before i can think about it deeply if need be but at the end of the day i'm just like very casual #and i am a generally positive person 😭#like ik most people hated everyyyyy bit of the latest couple chapters but you've seen MY reactions to leaks and stuff i think it's sweet ..#i do understand ppl saying reducing tomura to a story or lesson sucks and i understand that too but i don't knowww #specifically the thing with that damn grandma like i think it's nice to see the positive of that as an abuse victim myselfff idk #it's hard to really put my thoughts in order about it but it is over all influenced by my hashtag lackadaisacal nature #it's not the best ending for tomura mind you like the entire thing there IS buns but idk WE can't change canon actually #though that is what criticism is for ... ach. so on and so forth.

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piplupod · 2 months

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also (sorry i'm chatty today and just in general as of late lol) it's really weird to be talking to people at the centre (mainly the leaders/ppl in charge) because they always comment on how many hobbies and interests I have and like. I kind of forget that this is apparently abnormal? I just... I like a lot of things? and I try a lot of things. at some point I changed my perspective from "oh man I could never do that!" when I saw something cool to "hmm I wonder how I could do that?" and I either try things out exactly the way I see other ppl doing them or I adapt it to work for me with my restraints (constraints?) on money/energy/skill level/etc.

and i'm also very quick to jump on opportunities to try things! there is not a lot available because of where I live (small town, rural, conservative, etc) so when things pop up that I am able to try out I jump on them immediately!

when an opportunity arose to learn the accordion (classes were offered and my neighbour offered to lend theirs to me) I hopped on it so fucking fast because I knew if I didn't then I'd likely never have the chance to learn it ever again! when someone is giving away art supplies for free/very cheap, i will usually take it because I know I'll find a use for it (or I can rehome it if I end up realizing I can't use it). when someone offers to show me how to do something (like skin a mouse), I will agree because why the fuck not! i love learning!

but then people always look at me like I possess some incredible talent just because I have so many hobbies and interests and weird bits of knowledge like... no ? 😭 I just try things. and I give myself the grace to learn new things and be bad at them and continue to try if I have the interest. I hate being told this is my autistic superpower or that I'm some kind of creative savant because I genuinely just... work hard. to learn things. I practice a lot. I enjoy making stuff so I do it a lot because it makes me feel good and keeps me from killing myself dsdgjkl. it feels like they dismiss all the time and work I put into this stuff. I honest to god think just about anyone could do this if they just decided to put the time into it. I'm not special for it, I'm honestly just desperate to be good at something so I put a lot of work into this.

#and honestly i think i am fairly mediocre at what i do all things considered #i dont feel like i am talented or skilled fsjkl #i think i have a lot of improvement to make before i get anywhere good but i do not have the focus to get there lmao #i hop from hobby to hobby and project to project too much to get Truly good at anything #if i put all my time and effort and drive into drawing then maybe i could be good at it #or piano playing. or clay work. or sewing. or crochet. or website coding. etc etc etc #but i like all of these things quite a lot. so i do them All.#and so the progress i make irt skill is quite slow #idk i wish i could tell ppl all this without sounding like im just being humble or bashful or whatever #like. please. fsdjfkl. when u say im some creative savant u are genuinely dismissing all my hard work i think :[#i appreciate compliments ! i do! but that specific kind of comment doesnt feel much like a compliment!#i wish i could just say like ''i have to keep creating or else i will kms'' and have them Understand what i mean 😭#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #suicide mention

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cherrysnax · 5 months

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celebrity worship doesn’t make sense to me

#that’s just a guy #a guy who does something or makes something but just a guy #would u do all that for the guy works at the bodega? no! then why do it over some random person just doing their job #I remember talking abt this with friends and I think it may be due to the autism #it’s so strange to me that because u see these people on a screen people become obsessed #they don’t even know you exist? what’s the point of all that?#it’d be different if they were like fictional characters tone #u can project on them all u like #but idk what do ppl gain from knowing their fav celebs birthday or what city they were born in #there’s no lore they’re just a guy 😭#chevy often says that celebrities are treated like another wonder of the world #and I just don’t get it. I think the most I can relate is when I was 12 and used to think abt my fav YouTubers saving me from getting abused #but I didn’t really like the people. I just needed characters to like project on to get me thru the day #iont even mean this in a im better than u because u have hobbies I find weird way #I just can’t really understand it

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ace-dodo · 5 months

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Having a trans friend with internalized transphobia is so funny cuz wdym ppl don't take "us" seriously cuz I dress fem???? Wdym "we misgender him cuz we don't like him" ????? What the actual fuck 😭😭

#i get that most ppl would think im fem cuz i dress fem #but like #im non-binary #and you would think a trans person would understand that #but when he said that to me i was flabbergasted 😭😭#what do you mean ppl wont take us seriously just cuz i chose to be happy and comfortable in my femininity #wdym its my fault just cuz i do cute hairstyles and do makeup #im sorry for doing things that make me happy 🙄🙄#he said this to me ages ago and it still rings in my head

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dandyshucks · 2 months

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the difference btwn irl and online perspective on creativity is so funny to me and idk if I'll ever get used to the stark contrast of it all.

IRL when I mention that I draw and write, people act like I'm some super talented creative genius(???). they don't seem to understand the concept of OCs, and if I try to vaguely touch on my DL project they get visibly overwhelmed no matter how simple I make it for them, and eventually they settle on just insisting that I need to publish traditionally and monetize on it. they don't seem to have the ability to understand the concept of zines and immersive storytelling through non-traditional means.

but then i get online and I'm just another drop in the ocean and always a very mediocre drop at that LMAO, I constantly fight with myself to feel like there is any sort of value to my stories and art, and there's hundreds of people doing the sort of thing that I do but even better than I could ever dream of doing!

it's just so strange going from interacting with this online to IRL, I feel like I'm getting whiplash from being largely ignored or scoffed at online (which I'm fine with btw lol I grew up with that in my family and now I get nervous when I get too much attention) to people at the centre treating me like I'm some kind of artistic genius who cannot be understood because I'm too far above their level 😭

#i simplify the things i talk about so much too like djdksl i rly make it as easy as possible to understand #i continue to simplify things more and more when i talk to ppl. i get vaguer and vaguer. and yet !!!!#it rly is not difficult to understand i feel like ??? the concept of zines is just so simple really #but these ppl are all so deeply entrenched in traditional novels that the concept of a zine is far outside their understanding ig 😭#im just dhfjdls struggling going back and forth btwn these two spaces of online vs IRL #the thing is that i do just want to share my ideas w ppl! i enjoy it!#and i want to hear their ideas too!#but everyone is so weird irl to me about it ??? like. calm down. im a little freak. do not treat me like im way beyond ur understanding!!#if u played w me in the space then u would see oh actually art is smth everyone can engage in!!!#art is not for ''talented'' people only!!! everyone can make it!!! u gain skill the longer u work on it!!#i prefer sharing stuff online bc of this fjdkdl but then online has its drawbacks too #i have a hard time not being mean to myself abt how my work does not measure up to other ppls fjfkdl #which is silly bc i LOOOVE seeing ppl make art no matter what their skill level or whatnot #and i get sad seeing ppl be down on themselves abt their creations #but ... idk sbdjdl I'm rambling LOL i was just thinking abt how strange all this is #sorry for the weird ramble post LOL this is probably smth that should go on my main account but too late now fjdkdl #dandy.cmd #vent //#not rly meaning for this to be a vent but i think perhaps it has some flavours of being one LOL

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lukesunbornn · 1 year

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have discovered the curse of being the masc friend.

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rox-of-iu · 2 years

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@ the people saying kind words and offering me english alternatives for the czech in my last post

first of all, I know you mean well and I love you to bits and I'm giving you a little kissy, ok? But... guys I do know English phrases... hahhah

Listen,,,, I am chronically online and I do actually have a certificate from C2 exams that is just 5 points shy of being 100%. I Know it absolutely doesn't look that way but that's just because I'm the laziest guy around and I don't feel like fixing it after myself when I have the excuse of being a foreigner- sahdjsd

so when i use czech words it is not out of the necessity of not knowing any substitutes but just me goofing around and going haha funny word go brr

#man this is probably coming of as mean and super defensive but its not supposed to be 😭😭 (tones still hard in any language)#it is genuinly super nice of you to try to help out!! and you couldn't have known so 💞#but just throwing that out there....jasdhksdj #o(-( man #ykno like i said throwing in cz words is just me having fun with it #since its my scribble side blog and all that #because due to spending almost all my free time connected to english-centric internet my own language/culture took a bit of a backseat #like even in my day to day life which is very prevalent among lot of foreign people today #but i wont get into it now it doesn't rly matter #so me throwing in some funky words is me just having fun around and trying to bring some of it back while i doodle #but looking back at it it is prolly weird to do since ykno its Chinese so what is cz doing there and no one will understand it anyway #so ppl are probably left feeling confused or cheated out of something #so i should probably just stick with eng alternatives #oh well #idk why im even making this post this has completely derailed ashdk and again I'm not mad at beloveds who commented and left tags #it just made me think #and overthinking hahh bcuz im in the middle of stressful projects #plus tHE STUPIDASS UNI DOENST WANNA ACCEPT MY MONEY OK PLEASE TAKE IT I BEG OF U I WILL PAY EARLIER NEXT TIME (lying)#anyway thats all jhds uhh bye #wait im already having regrets about making this post in the first place man but i did spend valuable time typing it out so ughhh

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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I LOVE LITERATURE SO MUCH. MY FAV COURSE FR

#🌙.rambles #ARGHHH TODAY WAS SO GOOD #w biology w the. oh my god i missed lab so much 🥺#i was just so curious n interested the whole time n it made me so so happy looking n managing stuff yk n #i'm rlly a fast learner 😭 i ended up helping some classmates w their own yk #literature tho i was so happy oh my god i was the only one who liked the 3rd short story the most #MARK ON THE WALL BY VIRGINIA WOOLF !!!! 🤍#ms. was talking abt how out of the three it's the most. complex? idk but a lot of ppl didn't understand it as well i think #MY CLASSMATES CLAPPED WHEN I STOOD UP BCS #for each story ms asked us all to stand up for which is your fav n so with mark on the wall i was uh. the only one #hflsfksjfs n then the last question before ending class.. smth w element of plot n what does it mean to be human #i was fucking restless in my seat but i'm so shy so my hand was shaking but #at the end i finally got the courage to recite 🥺 IM SO HAPPY IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF #n then today i think i actually felt for once that i'm part of my class bcs i'm usually so shy #back to that question tho. this is my fucking expertise #made me rlly realize i am such an empath :^) i won't deny my intelligence i love it actually #i think. a Lot. i do consider myself to be decently self-aware. i know myself well #i can. understand others more personally too yk? oh my god i'm rlly glad w what i recited in class hehe #i cld've said sm more but hflsjgksjfs >< i'm happy w how i presented myself #honestly when i'm not nervous or anxious i really thrive. i'd be a really good friend n lover maybe n. speaking comes naturally #when i'm not nervous 💀 n when i'm passionate abt smth bcs i cld speak on the spot n have a coherent yk lil impromptu recitation or speech #n do well <3 i rlly mean it when anxiety just fucks me up bcs i'm confident in my own self #in the car rn n earlier dad brought up the concert n said he was actually rather interested in going #yh he knows their genre n all 🥺 n uhm. of how lyrics aren't very 'wholesome' as he said T_T #OFC.... MY DAD LOVES MUSIC YK HFLSKFJS #he's interested in accompanying us bcs we need an adult but he. has work so :c #we'll buy the tix later i think but mom said like condition no tailor for our prom dress this year #YEAH NP FUCK LOOKING PRETTY. MUSIC IS BETTER.#maybe tailor w grad ball or wtvr next year >.> honestly i'm just all in for the experience.#i don't care much for looking pretty or having a date for just shows n looks n confidence. i care more for the experience as a whole

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orcelito · 2 years

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Someone the other day asked for our bubble tea "vegan option" and I was just like "? ...it's made with a soy-based creamer by default?" But he was like "No, the honey. I don't want honey." And I was just like. "......Ok."

Dude came in again today and he stank soooooo bad I literally nearly gagged. Bro apparently runs like a mile or some shit to get bubble tea as part of his exercise routine. & it's just like. OK Bro

#speculation nation #the honey thing threw me off bc im so divorced from anything vegan that i just did Not register it #like bro just say you dont want honey 😭 it's not that hard 😭#dont gotta push ur damn vegan thoughts on me. im gonna slurp that honey as much as i fuckin want #and while im at it eat many eggs and drink cows milk and eat cheese and MEAT oh god forbid #i mean like vegetarian i think is more reasonable bc by an empathy standpoint it can fuck with ppl to eat meat #and also for religious purposes and such. & dietary restrictions for dairy and whatever is perfectly understandable #but if ur refraining from all animal products bc of like. Morality re: animal cruelty like. bro. Bro.#unless you grow all your food yourself much of your 'vegan' options are much more awful with how theyre sourced #except cruelty to humans doesnt matter as much as cruelty to animals to you. like. Ok bro.#sure whatever save the bees. quick question what do you do if there are gnats in your house?#do you gently usher them away? pick them up with a cute little paper towel to get them out? it doesnt work like that.#even if honey industry killed bees (which it doesnt) do you still think that's more important than preventing child labor?#i agree we shouldnt kill bugs willy-nilly but Man. sometimes you just gotta kill some bugs. the fuck?#bugs ment/

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berrymeter · 2 years

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don't worry darling i blocked you so you don't have to worry about me being so so mean anymore 💖

#youre so fragile lmfao #you call this guilt tripping 🤣 absolutely ridiculous but you werent gonna commission me anyway & you know it!#anyway for the normal ppl who understand why doing labour while disabled is not all that easy #my comms ARE open & doing work for people who are actually well-meaning is a delight 😌#i was sooo mean in my post but this is what happens when youre pissed & at the end of your rope. which this anon doesnt get #also i may be slightly burnt out rn but ill still do work 😭 if we're lucky it shouldn't take too long lolol

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