#but it's an idea that has me in its grip

[cherubchoirs]

v1's old mechanics giving it a last little tune-up (and maybe refreshing its paint job)

[umblrspectrum]

oh yeah i forgot to post this here too

[yutaslaugh]

my favourite yuta facecam! ↳ requested by @soonhoonsol

[moonlit-orchid]

These two lines in the movie make me the most mentally unwell.

"I should have been the one to go. You needed your mother more than you needed me."

The amount of layers to this, oh my god. He's blaming himself for being alive. He probably wants to die. He genuinely thinks Adrian needs Emilie more.

And it's been YEARS since Emilie's passed away. Look how tiny Adrian is over there, he only just about comes about the bedpost. Gabriel still looks like he did in the pictures of when Adrian was little. It's been literal years. It could have literally been a full decade ago.

And Gabriel breaks the narrative here. He's supposed to be telling a story, he's supposed to be saying what happened in the past. But at this point, he doesn't say "your mother was taken from us" or anything like that referencing Emilie's passing. The story breaks, he's using a statement. I should have been the one to go. It's completely out of the story, because he isn't saying what he felt then, there's no "I felt like I should have been the one to go". It's just "I should have been."

Because he still thinks this. It's been about a decade, and his opinion, his feelings about this, is still "I should have died". It interrupts his storytelling because of how strongly he feels this way, almost like it's a fact to him.

And then he follows it with "You needed your mother more than you needed me." Again, he says this like it's a fact, like Adrian actually did need his mother more. Because he believes it himself. And this could be because of so many things. It could be because of the way people consider the mother to be the one supposed to care for the children much more than the father, or it could be that Gabriel himself didn't see how much Adrian needed him, or even that Gabriel didn't see himself as useful to Adrian. Especially because he said he should have been the one to die. He's essentially saying he was useless. That he was expendable but Emilie wasn't. He literally is implying he doesn't see any worth in himself regarding being a father.

And then it's not just his grief, it's Adrian's grief that has him desperate to bring Emilie back. He literally doesn't care about himself, he wants his son to be happy and doesn't see himself as able to do that. He loves him to the point of being suicidal and self-sacrificing if it would give Adrian what he need, all while simultaneously not seeing himself as what Adrian needs because he doesn't think he has that much worth regarding him.

[wewerebornsextuplets]

it's looking like a restless night for me once again and i can't lie at least half of that is the fault of me thinking too hard about how memory worlds work

[leonenjoyer69]

my dealer: got some straight gas 🔥😛 this strain is called “That's Enough, Let's Get You Home” 😳💊 it'll bring you straight to your knees 💯🙏

me: yeah whatever i dont feel shit

5 min later: woah, here is the church, here is the steeple

Floral sheets on long-given-up-ghosts haunting my bedroom: Let's get you home

[castiel-013]

Mourner

[vilelittlecritter]

The device theory by Molly stars is my lord of the rings.

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

I'm starting to think it's almost impossible for me to write something for Merlin and Leon to not be a main character if not THE main character

[epipeppi]

Over the weekend, I decided to try out the Cloud Data Center stress test that happened on Final Fantasy XIV this week. I made a little comic about the shitpost character I made on there.

As for my experience on the DC itself, It was certainly... an interesting experience and makes me both want to check out and stay the hell away from the NA Data Centers after what I saw in Limsa in Cloudtest 1.

I'm thinking of making some more doodles of my friends and I fecking around on there along with the shit I've seen on Limsa. Maybe I'll even get around to make one of those sideblog yolks for just FF stuff. (Mostly XIV stuff but also for other FF games I'm playing too)

[funboxsupreme]

There's some rich irony in the way a certain group on 40k twitter had a meltdown over the take "Lore = Fluff" and then arguing that the person who made this take wasnt a real fan, seemingly unaware of the fact that "Fluff" and "Crunch" (warning both link to 1d4chan) are literally terms that have been used by tabletop fans for years.

And not even that divisively, i think? I'm pretty sure you can find posts on /tg/ complaining about a game being too fluffy or too crunchy but it's mostly a neutral term that's just slang for lore and rules.

[ghostkingsupreme]

me: okay so today's the day i'll finally sit down and write my fruit party fluff/crackfic!! i've got Time! i've got Ideas!! and i'm Hyped!!!

also me as soon as i open my doc: *writes fengqing angst*

[hekcle]

I get sent into a depression everytime I listen to Careless Whisper now ever since I got into lmk and at first I start laugh crying at the saxophone and suddenly it turns to actual sobbing

[catboydan]

fiance got me a kindle for my birthday <3

[hecksupremechips]

Sometimes if I’ve gotten done with a therapy appointment my dad will ask what we talked about and it’s like. Girl who do you think 🤨

[starswallowingsea]

do my man (not you, the redhead)

jaspdfioamsdpfoasd okay

This might be all over the place but I'm just gonna rant about Rinne's character development and how other people see him mostly since I think that is the most interesting way to look at him.

Rinne, as we all know, puts up a facade in front of basically everyone. He's always laughing and scheming about something and makes it fairly obvious to everyone that he's all about causing trouble on purpose. He wants to destroy ES from the inside out, breaking the system that threatens to homogenize idols and take away what he loves about them.

(Cutting a lot of other screenshots due to image limit). The new system is limiting and that's something Rinne explicitly doesn't like. He wants to be loud and angry and be human. This, ultimately, is what motivates him through the entire main story.

Now, during this same time period we're also establishing the basic Bee dynamic. In the first interactions between HiMERU and Rinne we get some back and forth about what they should do and also find out that Rinne knows about Kaname. Maybe not more than the broad strokes (just that the HiMERU in his unit is not the original HiMERU and that the original is out of commission) but he knows there's something going on there. HiMERU does not like this and directly says that anyone who knows about his secret needs to be erased, but Rinne is too important as their leader to erase, so he'll have to leave him be for now.

Rinne is a nuisance to HiMERU but a necessary one. Crazy:B needs to survive in order for HiMERU to make a proper comeback as an idol, and eventually the plan would be to break away (which comes up again in Night Club, which is a whole other post, but Rinne eventually convinces him that being a solo idol would be a bad idea, potentially also thinking about how it would impact Kaname's legacy, though that's just speculation on my end)

Niki we know at this point sees Rinne as a nuisance as well, at least that's how he vocally expresses it. His conversation with Mayoi in Chapter 5 shows that he does know Rinne better than almost anyone and that Rinne is just putting up a front to keep other people away.

Kohaku's view of Rinne is a little harder to pin down right away. Kohaku fights back initially against Rinne's views on the ES idol system, saying he needs to go with it and put aside his arguments for the sake of survival before Rinne shoots that down with his monologue about not being crushed in the gears of the machine and becoming something he hates. Kohaku, of the three other Bees, seems to be the most open and willing to trust Rinne and follow him, likely because he doesn't have as much to lose.

Kohaku is the most willing to accept Rinne's vision of idols as well, willing to get his hands dirty alongside him because that's all he knows (he brings it up a lot in the joint conversations between Crazy:B and Alkaloid). Even if he would rather take the easy route and go with the system, there's no real fun in that. It would be like he never even left home if he just gave up without a fight.