#c. ayden hook

[cptnhook]

idle time is the devil's plaything. those were his therapist's words and although he could make complete sense of them, there's no indisputable guide to keep his mind clear and his impulses under control. he opened a club, remained sober, and yet there's something about being in a beautiful town with no actual friends that drives him right back to the precarious position of overthinking and overanalyzing everything around him. then comes the temptation; the temptation to drink, the temptation to let loose and escape.

attending the 'springtide bash' was meant to do just that. The art displayed around the gallery was like a vacation; a place he could safely travel into the dreams of others. he could experience their desire, fear, love, and their heartbreak. or maybe those interpretations were just projections of his own feelings. perhaps the lone sailboat on a stretch of dark water meant the artist enjoyed being by himself and longed for the quiet. to him, it felt lonely, isolated, and pushed away.

maybe having a drink wouldn't be so bad...

his lapse in judgement was momentarily distracted by another's company. "are you a fan of art or are you just bored like me?"

[mysymmetry]

2021 Reading List Updated Jan 31 March 30 April 12 July 6

Happy Hour, Marlowe Granados (oh, how affecting)

Pew, Catherine Lacey

Brown Album, Porochista Khakpour

You Were Born for This, Chani Nicholas

Indelicacy, Amina Cain

Conversations with Friends, Sally Rooney

Her Body and Other Parties, Carmen Maria Machado (HO LY FUCK)

Dog Flowers, Danielle Geller (FUCK)

Rest and be thankful, Emma Glass

Hunger, Lan Samantha Chang

Best American Essays 2020, ed. Andre Aciman

Monogamy, Sue Miller

Currently Reading:

Notes of Grief, Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

Everywhere You Don't Belong, Gabriel Bump

What Are You Going Through, Sigrid Nunez

A Return to Love, Marianne Williamson

Eat the Buddha, Barbara Demick

Embers, Richard Wagamese

Keep Moving, Maggie Smith

After, Jane Hirschfield

Somebody's Daughter, Ashley C. Ford

Klara and the Sun, Kazuo Ishiguro

all about love, bell hooks

How to Do Nothing, Jenny Oddell

Braiding Sweetgrass, Robin Wall Kimmerer

On Earth We Are Briefly Gorgeous, Ocean Vuong

How to Carry Water, Lucille Clifton

The Power of Breathwork, Jennifer Patterson

The Practice is the Path, Tias Little

Yoga of the Subtle Body, Tias Little

Skill in Action, Michelle Cassandra Johnson

Embrace Yoga’s Roots, Susanna Barkataki

Want to Read:

When Things Fall Apart, Pema Chodron

The Gifts of Imperfection, Brene Brown (library)

The Factory, Hiroko Oyamada

We Have Always Been Here, Samra Habib (libary)

You Exist Too Much, Zaina Arafat

Sand Book, Ariana Reines

Night Sky with Exit Wound, Ocean Vuong

Sacred Contracts, Caroline Myss

Policing Black Lives, (Canada) Robyn Maynard

Q The Letters, ed. Sarah Moon (queer writers on their younger selves)

MILK, BLOOD, HEAT,

Bone Map, Sara Eliza Johnson (poems)

Fantasia or the Man in Black, Tommye Blount (gabrielle bates)

The Thing That Brought the Shadow Here, Alison Stagner (gbates)

Pricks in the Tapestry, Jameson Fitzpatrick (gbates and ayden)

Sister Outsider, Audre Lorde (allymaz) (kobo library)

emergent strategy

A Girl’s Story, Annie Ernaux (catherine lacey) (avail at library)

All is Forgotten, Nothing is Lost, Lan Samantha Chang (ayden)

The Archive of Alternate Endings, Lindsey Drager (ayden+++)

Fantasy, Kim-Anh Schrieber

Yoga Where You Are, Dianne Bondy &

Your Body, Your Yoga, Bernie Clark

Aligator and Other Stories, Dima Alzayat

A History of My Brief Body, Billy-Ray Belcourt (library kobo, yess!!!)

Lady Romeo, Tana Wojczuk

Milk Fed, Melissa Broder

Burnt Sugar, Avni Doshi (yes indigo)

Minor Detail, Adania Shibli (library kobo - looks heavy)

We Run the Tides, Vendela Vida (library kobo)

Severance, Ling Ma (yes indigo)

Like Love, Michele Morano (yes indigo)

radiant voices, carla bergman (library kobo)

Will I Ever Finish Them?

Small Game Hunting, Megan Gail Coles

Everything Under, Daisy Johnson

The Mother of All Questions, Rebecca Solnit

I Become a Delight to My Enemies, Sara Peters

Why Did I Ever, Mary Robison