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The Daughter of a Righteous Man- Chapter 14

*SEQUEL TO THE LOOK IN HER EYES*

After her husband is drug to Hell, Ava Winchester and her brother in law Sam try their best to do right by Dean and raise her daughter, only to find that good intentions aren’t always enough. Loving someone isnt always enough.

Chapter Fourteen, You Deserve to be Saved

Dean

I gripped the steering wheel tightly, my knuckles white. Ava sat up front next to me, absentmindedly braiding her hair over and over again, and Sam rapped his knee in the back seat.

The air in the Impala was quiet, and thick. I couldn't get the image of Pamela's eyes burnt out of her skull. This thing had to pay. I didn't care if it pulled me from Hell or not.

"I think we should summon this Castiel thing. Gank it for what it did to Pam," I hissed angrily.

"You want to summon it? You saw what it did when Pam got a glimpse of it, and you want to be face to face with it?" Sam asked, leaning forward.

"I deserve an explanation," I said, glancing at Sam in the rear view mirror. "Because if it thinks I owe it anything for pulling me from the pit, it's got another thing coming. I don't make deals with monsters."

Not counting the one that got me into Hell in the first place.

Ava's phone vibrated in her pocket and she picked it up. "John, hey, is everything okay? Mmhm.. yeah he went to the hospital with Pamela. She's in the ICU. No we don't know what it was." She was chewing on her hair, and looking out the window. "Can you just meet us at the house? We are on our way home. Yeah okay. See you soon."

"What was that about?"

"Your Dads dropping Nel at the house."

I squeezed the steering wheel tighter. I'm about to meet my daughter. I wanted to throw up.

We pulled up to the house, and Dads car was already here. I hadn't seen him yet. It was all too much, I wasn't sure if I was ready.

Sam opened up the door and got out of the car, stretching.

"Hey," Ava said, taking my hand. "What's wrong?"

I was frozen, my hands still on the steering wheel. "What if she doesn't like me?"

I glanced at her and her face melted.

"Sweetie, she's going to love you. You're her Dad."

I frowned. Every insecurity that I had pushed away was coming to the surface. "Am I though?" I never had to think about the kind of father I would be, because I knew I would be dead. I'd be in Hell, so why worry? "I haven't been here. She won't know my face. I haven't changed her diaper, or held her when she cried. I wasn't there when she was born..."

"Hey, stop." She took my face in her hands. "Dean Winchester, she will recognize your face, because it is just like her own face. You may not have held her yet, but you talked to her every day that I was pregnant. She is your blood, and you're crazy if you don't think I told her about you. You will hold her when she cries, and I will let you change any diaper you want to. You're her father."

"But I don't know how to be her father. My only example wasn't exactly father of the year."

Ava smiled sadly at me. "You know how. Trust me. You love stronger than anyone else. Just love her. You and I will figure out the rest."

I stared at the smudged eyeliner under her eye, and her wet lips. The crystal blue of her eyes and the eyelash that was on her cheek. I wiped it away and nodded. "Okay."

I chose to believe her. I trusted her, and I knew she would never lie to me. Whatever happened in Hell was behind me, and I wouldn't let if affect the way I was with my daughter. I wouldn't let it change me.

I entered the house holding Ava's hand. Sam leaned against the wall, and Dad was pacing. I couldn't find Nel by just scanning the room, and my stomach dropped. "Where is she?"

"Son," Dad said, walking fast to me. He pulled me into his arms. "I'm so glad you're okay."

"Dad, where is my daughter?"

"She's fine," Sam said. "We put her in her crib. I figured you'd want some alone time with her. She's waiting for you in there."

I looked to Ava, almost for approval.

"Go,” she said gently.

"Come with me," I asked quietly. What if I didn't know what to do?

"Okay."

We walked back to the nursery, every step making me feel a million miles away, but yet too close for comfort.

I pushed open the door, and stood in the doorway. I was paralyzed again. All I could see was Alastair's face smiling at me.

"It's okay, Dean. You sit down. I will get her."

Ava lead me to the rocking chair and lowered me down.

She walked to the crib and reached down inside. "Hello beautiful girl."

I heard a small coo, and I sat up a little straighter. That was her. That was my daughter.

Nothing could have prepared me for the sight of my wife holding my daughter. When I met Ava I didn't think I would ever love anyone like that, but everything melted away when I saw what she held in her arms.

"Dean Winchester, meet Eleanor. Nel, this is your Daddy."

Eleanor's hair matched my own, and her eyes were the perfect combination of blue and green. She wrinkled her nose and smiled a toothless smile. That was Ava's nose.

"Do you want to hold her?"

I nodded, unable to speak. Ava lowered her into my arms. She fit in the crook of my arm like it was exactly where she was supposed to be. She reached for my face, looking confused, and I noticed the little dimples on her knuckles. Her tiny fingernails were painted pink.

"I'll leave you two alone. Holler if you need me, okay?" Ava asked gently.

I nodded, unable to take my eyes off the child in my arms.

"Hi," I whispered nervously.

She smacked her lips in response. The corner of mine turned up in a smile.

"Normally I'm really good at talking to women," I said, trying to be smooth. "You are so beautiful. So much more than I could've dreamed."

I rocked her gently. Her hand wrapped around my finger. I hoped the callouses weren't too rough on her soft, perfect skin. She squeezed my finger with a strength I didn't know someone so small could have, and a wave of emotion rolled through me. "I will always protect you. As long as I'm alive I will always fight for you."

Looking at her, whatever emptiness I had was filled. All my cracks were mended. It didn't matter what happened in Hell, because she was alive. I would live a thousand lives down there if it would keep her breathing. She was a miracle, and so was her mother.

"Did your Mom tell you how we met?"

She yawned and nuzzled her face into my chest.

"I was working a case, you see your Mom and Dad hunted monsters. We kept the world safe." I stroked the length of her forehead, watching her eyes roll around, fighting sleep. "And when I met your Mom she put me in my place. She was strong. She didn't take any crap. You'll be like that one day, a spitfire, just like her."

I ran my finger down her nose, and she sniffled and sneezed. God she was so fucking cute I could actually die. "Bless you, sweet girl."

I couldn't tear my eyes away. I didn't want to. "I don't think your Mom knows this, but I saw something with her that first time I met her. She was so beautiful, and she didn't put up with me. I like that in a woman. Then when I found out she was Bobby's niece... then I wanted her even more. I knew she could handle my life, and she could handle me. I just didn't think I deserved her, and want to know a secret? I still don't think I do. I don't think I deserve any of this, but I am going to spend my life fighting to earn it. I'm going to spend my life fighting to earn you."

Ava

"He wants to summon it," I said with my arms crossed. "We can't let him, right?"

"When have we ever let Dean do anything?" Sam asked, his arms crossed matching mine.

"You know what I mean! He has a baby, and I don't think she is going to like looking at a burnt up husk!"

"Fine. Then I'll do it," Sam said sharply.

"Don't be ridiculous."

"I'm not. I'm not a father. I have nothing to lose."

I frowned at him. "No one is summoning it. We don't even know what it is. We are going to keep it that way. That's final."

"You're not the boss, Ava," Sam said, grabbing his jacket.

"Hey," I grabbed his shoulder. "You didn't want him to do it either. Do you just want to fight with me?"

John stared between us shaking his head. "He doesn't know, does he?"

We both turned and looked at him. "There's nothing to know," I said flatly.

"Mm."

"Don't try to change the subject. We aren't doing it."

"We are," Dean said, stepping into the hallway. He was holding Nel, she was sleeping in his arms. "Well, Sam, Dad, and I are. Not you. You'll stay home with Nel."

"The fuck I am," I said, my voice low. "We are in this together."

He shook his head. "Nel can't lose two parents, and this is my fight. This thing brought me back, and I need to know why."

I walked to him, wishing it was just us. "Look at her Dean... how can you put yourself at risk when you've seen her." I put my hand on her sleeping tummy.

"It's because of her that I have to do this. I promised I would protect her. As long as theirs monsters... it's up to me to take care of them. It's up to me to at least take care of this one. I can't risk it coming after me, coming after our family. Let me do this, Ave."

My heart ached as I looked at the wrinkles around his eyes. "You don't even know how to fight it."

"We have everything we could ever need. We will figure it out." He transferred Nel into my arms and reached down to kiss her forehead. "I will come back to you."

"You promise? You all promise?" I turned to look directly at Sam.

He shifted uncomfortably, but nodded.

"Fine. I don't like it, but I should know better than try to talk a Winchester out of anything."

Dean

Dad, Sam, and I stood in an old air hanger outside of town. Sam stood over a book, staring intently, while Dad painted every warding we have ever heard of on the walls. I laid out our weapons.

"So you've been babysitting a lot?" I asked casually, glancing at my Dad.

He shrugged. "Is that such a wild concept?"

"Yeah, actually," I grunted.

"I did raise two kids."

Raised? Oh fucking please. "What do you think of her?"

Dad stopped and looked at me. "She's amazing. When I look at her I see every place I went wrong and every place I want to get right. She's a miracle."

"I think so too." I lined up the weapons. "Alright. Everything we need to kill everything I've ever heard of."

"Got every protective marking that exists."

"And I have the ritual ready," Sam said, holding his book. "Let's do this."

It seemed pretty anti climactic. Sammy spoke some words, and we waited, sitting around kicking our feet. "You sure you did it right?"

"Of course I did," Sam snapped. "Sorry there isn't an exact science for..."

A large gust of wind came out of the quiet night and the roof began to shake.

I cleared my throat, suddenly wondering if this was a horrible idea. "Wishful thinking, but maybe it's just the wind."

We turned our gaze to the double doors in front of us as they shook. We grabbed our guns, loading them. The doors burst open and a man stood right in the middle. He was shorter than me, with brown tussled hair. He wore a trench coat over a dress shirt and tie. I raised an eyebrow at Sam.

The light bulbs above his head shattered in a shower of sparks as he walked below them, passing over every marking Dad had been painting. He walked closer, and I nodded to the other two men with me, and we let our guns go. Bullets rained over him, into his chest, arms, neck. It didn't seem to phase him at all as he continued toward us.

"Shit," I whispered, dropping my gun. I grabbed for the demon blade out of the back of my pants, and when the man stood in front of me I drove the blade into his chest with extreme force.

The three of us stood, dumbfounded, as he reached up and pulled the blade out with ease. There was no sign it hurt him at all apart from the small amount of blood coming from the wound.

"Who are you?" I growled.

"I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition,” he said flatly. Blankly. He was void of emotion, his blue eyes blinking mindlessly.

"Yeah. Thanks for that." I frowned. I looked around, wondering how I was going to kill him.

Both Dad and Sam came at him, with other weapons I hadn't seen them grab. He easily knocked them out of the way, taking two fingers to each of their foreheads.

"Sammy!"

His eyes rolled up into his head, and he fell to the floor unconscious, and Dad fell with him.

"We need to talk, Dean. Alone,” the man said.

I fell to my knees and grabbed Sams head. He was breathing, and he seemed unharmed from what I could tell.

"They are alive."

I lowered Sam back to the ground and stood up, ready to confront the bastard. "Who are you?"

"Castiel."

"Yeah, I figured that much, I mean what are you?"

Castiel blinked at me, tilting his head. "I'm an Angel of the Lord,” he said, like I heard that all the time.

"That's fucking cute," I groaned. "Do I look stupid? There's no such thing."

"This is your problem, Dean. You have no faith."

Castiel looked at me, and a flash of light illuminated large, shadowy black wings that stretched along the back wall of the hanger. Huge and magnificent.

"Some angel you are. You burned out that poor woman's eyes." I wouldn't be able to forget her gripping for me.

Castiel sighed. More from inconvenience than anything. "I warned her not to spy on my true form. It can be... overwhelming to humans, and so can my real voice, but you already knew that."

"You mean the gas station... That was you talking?" I took a step toward jinx "Buddy, next time, lower the volume.”

Castiel's eyes never left me. He obviously wasn't taught not to stare. "That was my mistake. Certain people, special people, can perceive my true visage. I thought you would be one of them. I was wrong."

"And what visage are you in now, huh? What, holy tax accountant?" I asked, gesturing to his outfit. "Not exactly what I'd expect an angel to look like. No halo, no harp..."

"This? This is... a vessel."

I frowned. Some fucking angel. "You're possessing someone?"

"He's a devout man, he actually prayed for this."

"Yeah I'm sure he did." I shook my head. "Listen, that was a cute story, but I'm going to need you to try again. How about the truth this time?"

"I already told you."

"Right. Angel of the lord, and tell me, Castiel, why would an angel rescue me from Hell?"

Castiel stepped closer, apparently also not knowing personal space. He smiled for the first time as he said, "Good things do happen, Dean."

I turned away from him, looking at Sam passed out on the floor. "Not in my experience."

"What's the matter? You don't think you deserve to be saved?"

What're you a mind reader too?

"Why'd you do it?"

"Because God commanded it. Because we have work for you."

He said it like it was that simple. As if it were easy. "Last time I checked, God didn't care about me."

Castiel smiled again and shook his head. "Oh Dean. How wrong you are. There is so much more going on than what you can see. Maybe if you open your eyes then you can truly see the light of the lord. I will see you again soon."

In a blink he was gone. Maybe he flew away, or maybe I imagined him, but either way something felt off about him. Maybe he was right. Maybe something more is going on. Something big.

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"An Angel?" Sam asked, crossing his arms. His jaw hung open. He looked genuinely surprised.

"That's what he said, but I don't buy it."

Sam, Bobby, Ava, and I sat around Bobby's living room. Pam was out of the ICU, but wasn't quite out of the woods yet. Books of angel lore were strewn across the room. I'd caught them up on everything as Ava bounced a fussy Nel.

"Why not? There's tons of lore about it," Sam said excitedly.

"Yeah, but no one we've ever known has seen one. Don't you think some hunter somewhere would've seen one?"

"One did, Dean. You did."

"Why are you so excited about this?"

"Because for once maybe we aren't fighting a monster! Maybe for once they're the good guys..."

"So what? I'm supposed to believe that there's a god out there?"

"I don't see why not." Ava shrugged, bouncing Eleanor.

"And what? He has a personal thing for me? I don't buy it. I'm not special. I'm just a guy."

"Oh please," Ava scoffed.

"I don't even like being singled out at birthday parties. Let alone being singled out by God..."

"Well, I think it's time to put on your party hat, Dean," Sam said seriously.

Ava said down and pulled out her breast to calm down Eleanor. She took it easily.

"Bobby, have you found anything else that could've pulled me out?"

"There's a book here that says angels can do it, but as far as I know there's nothing else. Maybe it's not such a crazy idea."

"What the hell could God want with me?" I frowned rubbing my face. "Fuck I need a drink."

"Me too," Sam agreed.

I walked to Ava and placed a kiss on her mouth. "Meet you at home later?"

"Sure,” she agreed with a smile. "Love you."

"Love you back."

Maybe if you open your eyes then you can truly see the light of the lord. I will see you again soon.

Castiel's voice echoed through my head as we walked to the car. I didn't know what scared me more, the idea that he was lying and was some other kind of monster, or if he was telling the truth. Because if he was telling the truth, and god called on me... how do I say no?

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Chapter Fifteen, The Witnesses

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""Which costs more, Motorcycle insurance or Car insurance ?

I just got my Drivers License earlier this second quarter and I'm going for my motorcycle within the next month or two. My birthday is in February and I am currently 23 years of age.

First time drivers auto insurance?

Ok so I'm 17 and I'm a first time driver can you please name some of the cheapest insurance for me. The most a 100/ month thanks I live in California

What restrictions do i have with my motorcycle permit in California?

What can I do now that I have my motorcycle permit? I'm living in California (also an CA permit, fyi), and I'm not sure if I'm now able to ride on my own, when i'm able to ride etc. I've heard that I need someone over 21 'supervising'. Does anyone know if there's a penalty for not riding with an over-21 adult? Also, insurance-wise, what do I need to do once I buy my motorbike?""

My insurance policy quote went up?

I have 2 cars registered under my name. Because I use to have one and I gave it to my younger sister and bought a new one so I now have both under my name. She got a speeding ticket this year and also did not have her DL on her. So what happen was that they wrote the ticket under my name and put my DL number and now that shows up on my driving record and when I looked at my insurance renewal notice the quote increased. How can I get this off my record since it was not my fault?

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Is it cheaper to get insured on your parents insurance?

What trackers reduce car insurance for young drivers?

I have heard of trakers that are said to reduce car insurance, can anyone name the trackers and how much they are said to bring the quote down by? Many thanks""

What is a good cheap sports car for a teenager?

I just learned to drive a manual transmission so now i am interested in a more sporty car. I want something that is initially fast and doesn't require modificatons. I have a limit of about 5 or 6 grand.

What will the average insurance payment be for my BMW?

Ever since I was little I've always wanted a BMW. Well now since I'm turning 16 in the fall I have the option of getting a 2004 BMW 5 Series 545i for $9,000. It's in extremely good condition and I just love it. I will be making around $200-250 a month and my monthly payment will be about $106 to the bank till my senior year in college ( yes that's 84 months but it's in good condition so it's worth it) and I was just wondering if any one had a idea how much insurance would cost? I really want to get this car but I won't if I'm not able to pay a payment and insurance at the same time due to other small bills i have. Thanks""

What kind of sport car is good to buy that insurance is not that high ?

im trying to buy 2006 slk but i dunno should i get it or not,20 old""

Wanting cheap car insurance?

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Car Insurance Claim for a respray?

My Ford Galaxy 1998 has lots of scratches all over the body work. Some are malicious where someone has keyed the car, others are from where a car has parked next to me and scratched mine, but the most recent one is from when i reversed into a pillar and scratched the back end. The question i'm asking everyone is am i able to claim on my car insurance for the malicious scratches? For the damage done by another car that i didn't report? And also the damage i caused? I have 6 years no claims bonus (protected) will it be affected? and an excess of 150. Am i able to make a claim for all the damage or will i need to pay where i have damaged it? Any advice please.""

""Help,new driver needs insurance!?""

So, I am a new driver and I just bought a '94 Acura legend. I have looked at some quotes for insurance and nearly had a stroke! Does anyone know of insurance that isn't too high or offers discounts for new drivers. Living in MA if that helps.""

What is full auto coverage in California?

I have a new 2010 Smart Fortwo that I am financing. What is considered full coverage in the state of California? In other words, what are the main components of the insurance that I need, and what can I do without? Please help, I need an answer quick...""

Can insurance companies access your bank account?

My freind got in a car accident and now he is being sued. He has small investments in mutual funds. Can the other oarty insurance company access his bank accounts and investment and find out exactly how much money he is worth? Other than that he doesn't own a house and doesnt have a car or any other type of assets. He is currently not working right now.

Range rover sport insurance?

if i wer 2 go out n buy a range rover sport, how much would insurance per year cost me??? im 19, held a full, clean driving licence for over 2 years! my partner would be the main driver, he is 23. held a full, clean driving licence for 5 years! thanx in advance!""

""If someone is driving your car and they get a ticket, does it affect your insurance rates?

Will it make your insurance higher?

""I want to but a new car in the next few months,can I transfer insurance?

It's insured for the next 6 months. When I get the new car can I transfer that insurance on to the new one? What if the quote my insurance company quotes is not competitive and I want to cancel the policy. Do I get a refund on the amount of months left or do I lose it? Thanks.

How much would car insurance be for me? (teen)?

I'm 16. Driving a Honda Accord 2001, with 130,000 miles. I live in the state of Delaware. I'm a male, with about. 3.0 average in school. If you had to guesstimate , how much do you think my insurance would be?""

California low cost health insurance?

i need an innsurance with a low cost monthly fee.. i just need it for birth control. i dont want to pay full price it gets pricy please let me know of some good ones that you have experience with

Motorcycle Insurance?

Ive been trying to find online quotes but am unable to (don't know why, but they cant give me a quote online). Anyways I was just wondering what insurance company would you recommend for motorcycle insurance? I want to buy a bike, I don't have my M1 (because I don't want to take the test before getting the bike), and obviously I've never taken the motorcycle course. Yea I know it would be hard to get a quote given that I have zero riding experience or licensing but cmon do you really expect me to get my license only to have it expire in 90 days without even having a bike yet? Anyways when you started out what kind of insurance were you paying and with who? Also is 600cc pushing it? will that screw me over for insurance? I was looking into getting a honda 600. Thanks!""

What is the best auto insurance for teens?

Can my apartment management include premiums of renters insurance on my rent ?

The complex I live in requires that each tenant have renters insurance because the management suffered losses from damages as a result of the tenants' negligence. I want to have the freedom to choose the company that I buy it from -- but they want to increase my rent in order to cover for the premiums. The management company in turn buys a policy for each unit. Can they do that ? I live in California.

Would it cost more than 5000 per year to insure a Ferrari F430? heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

my uncle is buying a second hand 2009 ferrari f430. it has done 20k miles. and it is a convertible. he has a 3 year no claim bonus and has been driving for 5 years. he parks his car in his drive way and he drives 15k miles per year. ( i know it is stupid to use a ferrari as an every day car.) how much would it cost him. i mean he earns 30k per year and his wife earns 30k per year. he has always been a big car person and he started saving up about 7 years ago to buy a ferrari 360, but now he bought a f430. so how much would it cost him, actually will cost around the same for ANYONE who has a driving history like his. i wanna know because in the future i would loooooooooove to have a ferrari.""

How much does Auto insurance cost in Mass?

I am moving to Mass, and am curious if someone can give me an idea about how much it would cost to insure a 97 Acura CL 4 cylinder car. I am having a hard time finding quotes online. Round about numbers would help.""

Insurance companies scoop on value of totaled car?

If the market in your area is much higher then what nada is, the insurance is going to do a market analysis. How far can they legally go out. Meaning how many miles. If I am in ...show more""

Individual health insurance plan for college student?

I have social anxiety disorder and am going to visita doctor to get meds. I am new to the whole healthcare thing so I have s few questions. If I were to sign up for a health insurance plan now, wouldthey cover my docyor visits? What about meds? Can you reccommend some good individual health insurance coverages. I am mainly worried about doctor visits costs I assume they will be monthly my meds I can probably pay for myself Also do they have monthly payment plans for doctor visits for those without insurance""

Change car on insurance?

I had a crash what I am to blame. I've had to go scrap my car, need to put a new car on my insurance I know there will be a fee to change it over but will they now charge even extra now I've had a crash?""

Can anyone estimate how much insurance would cost on a 2001 camaro?

i'm 18, full time b student, first car, the car's a v6""

Homeowner's insurance?

My house is now worth substantially more than it was when I purchased it a few years ago. At the time of purchase, I had the house insured for the appraised value. Now it is worth tens of thousands more. I'm concerned that I would lose all of this equity if there was a disaster like fire that destroyed the building. Is it wise to increase the amount of coverage now and if so, is it usually neccessary to have another appraisal done or do insurance companies simply allow a homeowner to get coverage in any amount they desire?""

California auto insurance rates going/gone up?!!!?

I'm turning 25 this month and called because i wanted to get a new (hopefully lower) rate for being that age and not having any tickets or violations. Then they go and quote me something HIGHER than what I'm paying! I asked why and that's what the told me. That the state of California has been hit with higher rates. ~WHY? ~When did this happen? ~Why has no one talked about this? ~Am I the only one being affected? ~Is there anything I can do to lower my rate? ~So being 25 and having no tickets or violations is now pointless when it comes to car insurance??

What is loss of service insurance?

Im a working mom had an accident which required me to stay home to recuperate. Will the loss of service insurance cover answer for my claim considering I will not earn for the days I am away from work?

Insurance on Crossfire. 16 Year old.?

i am a 16 year old boy and i was wondering what the insurance would be on a 2004 Chrysler Crossfire Coupe. I am pretty sure that it is a sportscar. So, help me out. I got to convince my parents to get me one.""

Can someone help me with an insurance question?

new driver no insurance live in ca, 20yrs old, i am considering of buying kia rio my monthly car payment will be around $169. can u give me an estimate of how much my insurance will be.""

Car Insurance Question - diminished value?

My car was struck form the rear, while parked. How can I make sure that I am able to collect the diminished value , caused by the accident. It looks like I have to hire an appraiser, how much do they charge? Do you have recommendation for a specific appraiser? I live in NJ. Thanks""

Cant afford my car and insurance?

I am 19 years old and I financed a 2005 jetta and paid close to 12,500 for my car. Yes I got ripped off.. I pay $333.65 a month for the car and $165.00 for insurance. I am completely out and cant afford this car anymore. What do I do? If i stop paying for it will they take it imminently? I need help. If the bank takes it back they sell it they will come after me for the difference. But i dont have anything they could take. what do i do.. I have made 2 payments of $333.65. Im in california, so will they garnish my wages?""

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Are you 17/18 and recently bought a car/insurance?

Im wondering what are the prices like now, and for what cars. Speaking to my mum,she told m vauxhall astra has a fairly cheap insurance for a young driver but anyway share below of around how much it costed you to get insurance and for what car thank you! 10 pts""

What do I do with the rejected health insurance benefits California?

rejected by Blue Cross and Blue Shield/

How much would auto insurance cost for a 1996 dodge viper?

I just need some sort of estimate.

Can I purchase auto insurance without car registration?

Hello guys and gals, I need your helps here, I live in California and I currently own two cars (A and B), car A which I am planning to sell has not been driven in a year (2011-2012), also I did not buy the car insurance for car A since I don't drive it anymore, in this year (2012) after I paid for the car registration renewal fee for car A, I received a letter from California DMW, stated that they were unable to send me a registration card unless I can provide them with evidences of auto insurance for car A, and unfortunately, I lost all the previous registration cards of car A during moves, so in this case, will I be able to purchase auto insurance for car A without showing registration card to the insurance agent but only with Drive's License, VIN number, etc.? Or alternatively, can I use the insurance of car B to complete registration renewal for car A? Thank you in advance.""

A break in car insurance between my old and new car?

Hi, Tomorrow my current car insurance with my S reg corsa is due to expire at 12:00pm (Noon) now I have decided not to bother renewing this as tomorrow night I am going to buy a new car for which I have already put down a deposit. Now I have been told I cannot insure this new car now as I don't own it yet, but im worried that if my car insurance has a break in it then it will affect me - I currently have 2 years no claims and don't want to loose this - does anyone have any knowledge of what happens in the situation? Also with me not being able to insure the car until i own it, how do i go about getting the car back home from the showroom? Please helpppp""

How much would it cost to be put on my dad's insurance?

I have a provisional license and i'd like to know how much it would cost my dad to put me on his insurance???? and please don't give me any links to confused.com i tried it doesn't help me and don't tell me to ring the insurance company because i'm going to today.... I was hoping you could just give me an estimate like... how much a month? or whatever.... thanks in advance

Car Insurance Price..........?

I have a question on Car Insurance price.. In the state of Virginia If I get my license at 16, and not drive till I'm 18, meaning I let my license sit, is my insurance going to be cheaper when I turn 18? So basically, is my insurance going to be cheaper if I get my license at 16, than 18?""

Car insurance help?

Ok so im about to turn 16 (5 more months). my parents said they would get me a car, but only if i paid my own insurance. can u please tell me how much it would be a month. and what company would be the lowest price. . can u please give me an average amount a month so i know what my goal to save up is. white 16 yr old male audi a4 2.0T V6 (used) Car will be mostly used for school and my job. My GPA is 3.83 i dont know what else""

Any Cheap insurance companies for Aprilia RS125?

My son has a RS125 Aprilia and i am just looking for some cheap insurers, hes 18 on thursday. want Third party fire theft, and i also dont want to pay more than 600 please help""

How much will it cost me to insure monthly a Porsche Boxster 2.5 2dr Roadster 1998.?

Saw a very good one, will like to have an idea of how much it'll cost me before i dive in. Thank you.""

If you receive SSI Disabilty can you stay on your spouse's health insurance?

If you are awarded disability do you have to get on Medicare/Medicaid or can you stay on your spouse's insurance through their employer? I am afraid of not being able to see my regular doctor if I have to get on Medicaid because so few doctors accept it. Anybody familiar with this?? Thanks in advance!

""Question out of curiosity: So if you have a non traffic violation, can that affect your insurance rate?

So say a cop writes you a ticket for mooning or littering... does that affect your car insurance?

How much would the insurance be for this car?

Im a 16 year old boy that has not had any law trouble and is a first time driver with really good grades. I take my road test at the first of november. I am looking at purchasing a 2002 Volkswagen Passat GLS and i was wondering how much the insurance would cost on average?

Where can I find affordable medical insurance as a self employed person?

I am a self employed person so I don't have medical benefits like you would if you work for a company. I am paying well over $600 a month for medical insurance coverage as a business owner. Does anyone know of a program or something that offers cheaper insurance to business owners?

Do you need auto insurance when your car is under Planned NON Operation ?

I have a old car that i am not going to use for the next 4 months till my wife comes back (she's out of country now). My Question is if i file for a planned non operation of the car with DMV, can i take this car out of my insurance. Currently i just have the liability on this old car. Is insurance mandatory even if your car is not driven / in public roads?. Please help.""

Auto insurance for 16 year old female? r/o/p?

I'm sixteen, will be added to my mother's insurance plan. I will be the primary driver of a 2006 prius. I have good grades, and also, there are 2 cars between my mother and I. I am also located in CT! Can anyone give me an estimate of my yearly insurance cost?""

400 dollars a month for car insurance that is CRAZY?!?

Car insurance question ?

I am now 20 and i am planning on buying a car. I heard that the insurance price is high for beginning drivers so I was wondering if the price goes down as I age...what are the best insurance companies that do this ? Thanks !!

Lower my car insurance?

My car insurance is high, $1060 for just 6 months because of 2 accidents in the last few years. I am 21 and drive a 2000 Honda Accord Ex V6. I've shopped around and no other company's are lower so don't recommend that. Do you know any tricks to getting your car insurance lowered??""

So whats the best car insurance company for a teenager?

Im a 17 year old boy and I just got my driver's license in maryland yay!!! only problem is that I'm the very first licensed driver out of everyone in my family. That means NOBODY in my family drives, not even my parents; I'm the very first licensed driver. So how would I get car insurance? how do I start an account or something? I drive a bright red 1999 for taurus. what would be the cheapest insurance company for me and how much should I expect to pay? thanx""

Help about choosing car insurance?

I'm 18 and I need to start paying for my own car insurance. Any suggestions for lowering the cost? I live in New York which means my parents are finacially responsible for me until I'm 21. I know that everyone says to try and stick it out but that is not an option. I'm going to be living with a close friend and we need to keep our expenses to a minimum. Any tips concerning car insurance, OR health insurance too would be great.""

How much more is insurance if I don't take Driver's Ed.?

I'm nearly seventeen, and I don't even have a permit :X, I was never able to find my proper documentation (no, I'm not illegal, I just HATE going through beurocracy). I live in Iowa, and I have to wait six months before I can get my license. But it'll be a limited license, and in order to get it I have to take three months of driver's ed. and do twenty hours of independent driving. So if I got it in March, the earliest I could drive would be September. But I won't have a car, and I don't need a car; and I don't have the money for a car. So I figured I'd wait until I was eighteen, which would be in May of 2011, because I wouldn't need any needless requirements, and I wouldn't have to take driver's ed. But my question is; how much more would car insurance be if I didn't take driver's ed, and just went for my full license when I was eighteen?""

Liberals: How many of you actually pay for insurance and have seen your rates skyrocket?

Due to Obamcare? How many of you or your employeers plan on dropping coverage....and paying the fine ($500) because its cheaper....and then once you get sick (pre-existing condition) buying insurance. Do you morons not see this is the EXACT same thing Fannie/Freddie did to the housing market? And that the ENTIRE healthcare industry is going to collapse?

Buying Individual Health Insurance Florida?

I am having difficulty finding affordable health insurance here in Florida. Looking for a way to compare various plans.

Pregnant teen with no insurance?

Okay, so I'm 16 and I have no insurance,and I'm pregnant. My mom makes way to much for me to even try to get free insurance, but she is saying she is to embarrassed and she doesnt want to take me to the docter and she doesnt want to pay. How do i get free insurance in memphis.?""

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mirberry-blog1 · 7 years

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To My Firstborn: I’m Sorry Life Isn’t Fair

Image source: ThinkstockI am an oldest child. The oldest child and a girl, to be exact. Do you know what that means? That means that in high school, I bought my own cell phone at a garage sale. It did not have an antenna, so I fashioned one out of tinfoil (like MacGyver) that I kept in a hand-me-down purse. Each time I wanted to use the cell phone that I bought with the plan that I paid for, I had to whip out my trusty tinfoil antenna and hope for the best. Contrast that image with that of my youngest sister, the baby of the family. She enjoys what the rest of the family fondly refers to as “Mama money.” The cell phone (that she did not buy) with a plan (that she does not pay for) takes better pictures than most professional photographers — no tinfoil required. (To my sister, if you’re reading this: I love you, but you know it’s true and thanks for taking pictures of my kids with your sweet phone.) It seems as though oldest children get the short end of the stick in a lot of ways, and it hit me today that I have continued the vicious cycle. As I drove my youngest child to preschool, she asked if we could get a Happy Meal for lunch after school. “Of course, sweetie!” I cooed back to her in the back seat. “I would love to buy you a Happy Meal!” So yes, I definitely parented my first child much differently than I do my youngest … right down to Happy Meals. Share Quote FacebookPinterest And I meant it. I really would love to buy her a Happy Meal because she’s my baby and she’s growing up so fast. I can finally see how fast this precious time with my little people goes and I would love nothing more than to cherish the moments when I can make my kid genuinely happy with a few apple slices and a cheap toy. But as I smiled at my sweet, spoiled little girl in the back seat, I was hit with a swift kick of motherhood guilt. When my oldest daughter was her age, I didn’t buy her any Happy Meals. I was strict and stern, without a penny to spare. I had to do motherhood right with her — set the precedent, lay down the law. My mind flickered back to all the times when I turned her down for Happy Meals. Back then I thought if I let my guard down for a second, the kids would win. All control would be lost and next thing you knew, we’d be moving into McDonald’s with my kids sucking down soda straight from the machine. I’d be the worst mother in the world! So yes, I definitely parented my first child much differently than I do my youngest … right down to Happy Meals. Now, of course, I know that a Happy Meal is just one meal of many. It doesn’t matter as much as I thought it did back then. I relish the sweet, simple moments when I can make my daughter happy. But did I do that with my oldest? Nope. And honestly, there’s just no way around it. Life’s just not fair when you’re the oldest. After all, I would know. So to my oldest child, a girl just like myself, I would just like to say that life really is different for you. It’s not all in your head and you’re not crazy. I totally get why you are constantly comparing how we treat you versus how we treat your siblings. There is a difference and that difference exists for a lot of reasons. Your dad and I were completely different people when we had you. Parenting is literally a “learn as you go” gig. And as parents, our views on parenting change with every kid we have. There are great life lessons to be had in learning to pave your own way, like firstborns tend to do. Share Quote FacebookPinterest With you, everything was new and fresh. We just had to get it “right” or we worried we’d ruin everything — including our future children. With your baby sister, we’ve realized that the little things just don’t matter as much as we once thought they did. We now try harder to enjoy the time we have with you all and relish the innocent stages of parenthood. It’s hard watching the little girl you poured so much time and attention into grow into a full-blown person with her own opinions, style, and views. It’s awesome, of course, but it’s also hard. We can now see so clearly where we could have done things different. Even though it feels like that early time with you is now over, we’re trying hard not to make the same mistakes … and buy the damn Happy Meal from time to time. I wish I could tell you that we will treat you the same as your siblings, but truthfully, we probably won’t. For every stage of parenting, you’ll always be the first. And like me, you’re kind of the “guinea pig,” as much as it pains me to say that. Already, your status as the oldest has shaped and molded you. You’re an independent leader and love a good planner (just like me). It’s hard to distinguish between the traits you’ve been born with and those that have been instilled simply by being the oldest in line. Sometimes the ways you’re treated as the oldest may not feel fair, but I know they will make you into the strong woman you’re already becoming. So to my oldest girl, I know life feels different for you and it probably always will. It still does for me, too, and I’ve come to realize it’s not always a bad thing. I hope you can forgive me in advance if someday I, too, make you fashion your own antenna out of tinfoil. Just please know that I am doing the best I can. There are great life lessons to be had in learning to pave your own way, like firstborns tend to do. But for the record, I’m totally buying you that Happy Meal next time you ask. Love, Your flawed, firstborn mother Related Post Thank You to the Neighbors Who Go All Out for the Holidays — from a Lazy Mom Who Doesn’t The post To My Firstborn: I’m Sorry Life Isn’t Fair appeared first on Babble. 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The Daughter of a Righteous Man -Chapter 6

*SEQUEL TO THE LOOK IN HER EYES*

Chapter Six, When Time Stood Still

Ava

"Well, Mom, she is looking great. Her weight is better than expected. Her motor function is excellent." The pediatrician, Dr Randall leaned over my daughter. "And she has an excellent personality." He said as Nel met him with a smile.

"She's been eating a lot." I said with a smile.

"Is she sleeping through the night?"

"Yes." I'm not.

"Good girl. Well, as I'm sure you know, the two month appointment requires shots."

Sam put a protective arm around me. I didn't know if I could watch. "I know."

"Do you want to step out?" Sam whispered to me. "I'll stay with her."

"I don't know."

"Everything will be fine." The doctor assured me, as his nurse prepared the injections. "Okay, Mom, are you ready?" He asked.

I moved out from under Sams arm and went to Nel. I stood by her side, and rested my hand on her small belly. "As ready as I'll ever be." I said breathlessly.

Ten tiny fingers. Ten tiny toes. Little pudgy arms and legs kicking like crazy. Bright, trusting eyes. Dirty blonde hairs floating around her head from static. Her fathers pout.

I thought I was prepared for the wail she would let out when the sting of the injection traveled through her leg. I was wrong. She had three shots in total, and each one made her scream harder. "I know, sweetie I'm sorry."

Tears burned my eyes.

The demons blade against my thighs. Ropes around my wrists and ankles. My own screams echoing in my ears. My daughters cries. Deans skin being ripped by an invisible claw. Tears rolling down his face. Blood coming out of his mouth. The screams that I could never unhear. The pain of a strong man.

The things I could never save. I felt useless. Pain racked me. The pain I'd held in for months. My hand moved from her stomach, and I stumbled backwards. Sam caught me before I hit the floor. "Hey I've got you."

What kind of mother can't even be strong for her baby when she is in pain? What kind of mother am I? If I'm not a good one, then why am I here instead of him? Why?

Eleanor quieted down on the ride. The nurse gave her some sugar water on her pacifier. Sam drove, and I stared out the window. I replayed the moments that haunt me over and over again.

"I'll get her." Sam said as he pulled up to the house.

I stumbled out of the car and pushed through the front door. I needed an escape. I needed something more than what I had. I wanted to be numb. I wanted to see his face, but not like this. Not covered in blood and pain. I stepped into the bathroom and shut the door behind me.

There was no air. I turned on the water to the shower. I fought out of my way to the clothes I was wearing and fell into the shower. I collapsed onto the floor of the tub. I pulled my knees to my chest and sobbed.

My body wasn't my own. I was stretched out, and soft. I wrapped my arms around myself, trying to hold everything together. I was collapsing.

I never told him that I knew I loved him that day in the motel.

"Can you take these stitches out? Please?"

"Do they hurt? Are you hurt?" Deans face was wilting with concern.

"I just... I need them out." Tears were streaming down my cheeks. I couldn't stop them.

"I'll do it."

He was a strong man. He had callouses on his fingers and frequently had dirt on his cheek, but the gentleness I saw in him that night was something else all together. It wasn't about sex or lust. We had plenty of that. It was about security. Safety. He made me feel safe, and in that moment that was exactly what I needed. He was able to give me something I didn't have before him. He gave me peace. He melted away the pain from the assault, and the one I'd had years before. There was nothing but light when I was with him.

So it was no surprise that I was stuck in the darkness now. I couldn't claw my way out. Not now that I'd fallen.

"This shouldn't hurt." He rubbed my thigh gently. "But please tell me if it does."

It does hurt, Dean. It hurts so much. Where are you?

"Ava?" Sam called through the bathroom door. "Are you okay?"

The past is doomed to repeat itself.

"No, Sam. I'm not." I choked out.

I heard the door open, and saw him reach into the shower to turn it off. He handed me a towel through the curtain. "I know it was hard to see her in pain, but she is okay."

I took the towel and wrapped it around myself. Another layer to hold my fragile body together. "It wasn't that." I mumbled into my hands. "It's everything. I'm not myself. I don't look like myself. I don't feel like myself."

"Pain does that." Sam said quietly.

I rested my head against the tile behind me. I was cold from the water, my hair dripping. "Sometimes I wish I'd never met him, because then I wouldn't have known what it felt like to be without him. I can't miss what I never knew."

"You don't mean that."

I blinked away tears. "Sometimes I do."

He pulled back the curtain to take a look at me. "Don't say that."

His palm touched my cheek, and I closed my eyes. "Sam I can't do this."

"Listen to me, Ava Marie Winchester." His face was close to mine. "I will not let you quit. I won't let you give up on yourself, and I won't let you give up on your little girl. This has been hard for me too, but we have to keep trying. We have to wake up, live, and then do it again until it's easier. One day at a time."

I opened my eyes to find Sams bearing into my soul. They were like Deans, but lighter, gentler. I wondered if Mary's were that green. I wondered if with age my own daughters would be.

"When does it get easier?"

"I don't know, Ave, but it has to eventually. Time heals all wounds."

"Do you really believe that?"

"I have to."

I searched his face for lies, but all I found was hope in his innocent expression. "One day at a time." I agreed desperately.

"Good." He helped pull me up, so I could sit on the edge of the tub.

"Sam... am I a terrible mother?"

"No." He said, taking my hands in his. "You're a great mother. She adores you and you love her. You're just hurting. That doesn't mean you aren't a good mother."

I let out a sob, tears falling down my cheeks.

"Hey." He said, pulling me into a hug. "Don't cry."

The Winchesters could never handle when I cried, and they say men are the stronger sex.

"I feel like a ghost." I admitted. "I don't recognize my body. I feel ugly, and I feel so empty."

"Ava." Sam said with a quiet laugh. He took my face in his hands. "You are beautiful. Just as you've always been."

We were close, our faces inches apart.

"Don't ever think less of yourself." His breath was on my lips.

It was in slow motion, but somehow it felt so fast that I couldn't move. I couldn't stop it. Maybe I didn't want to, not at first. Not until it had already happened.

He leaned forward, his nose brushing mine, before his soft lips pressed to mine in a kiss.

It was quick, but full of need. I don't think I realized until then that Sam was holding himself together, too. We were broken, but for a second I wasn't. For a second I was just a girl, being kissed by someone who I shouldn't be.

"Sam." I whispered pulling away. "I'm sorry I can't."

When he pulled back I saw the wetness around his eyes. "No, I'm sorry. I know. I... I shouldn't have." He stood up and ran his fingers through his hair.

"Sam it's.." I stood, holding the towel to my chest.

"Sorry." He mumbled pushing out through the door.

Sam

I went out into the yard. Into the snow. I wanted to scream, to break something. I turned to the closest tree and slammed my fist into it.

I kissed Ava.

Dean would kick my ass if he were here. I'd have to let him.

I didn't know what I was thinking.

I hit the tree again, the skin on my knuckles breaking. I lowered myself to a seated position, leaning against the tree.

"She's like no other girl I've ever met."

"What? You've got a thing for her?" Dean asked.

"Don't you?" I laughed. "I saw that kiss, Dean. That seemed for real."

"We were just acting."

"Keep telling yourself that."

"No matter what it was to me, she told me herself that it was nothing. It's not my place to hope that it's something it's not." He took a swig from his bottle. "Where do I get off thinking someone like her would consider me anyway?"

"Why wouldn't she?"

"Me? With my GED and give em hell attitude? I'm not really someone a girl like her wants to bring home to Dad."

It wasn't true. I never had a thing for Ava. She was always Deans girl. There was no question in my mind for that.

She still was. She missed him. I missed him too, and maybe we were just finding comfort in each other.

No matter what, though, there was no excuse, I couldn't kiss her again. I couldn't give in. She wasn't mine to kiss. She wasn't mine to love or to comfort.

I spent my whole life wanting to be just like my brother. I copied him. Followed him everywhere. All I wanted was to be just like Dean. Maybe this was another desperate cry to fall into his life. To be just like him.

I stood up and dusted the snow off of myself. I needed to talk to my brother.

I got into the Impala and drove to his grave site. It wasn't far from the house, we picked it that way on purpose. We wanted him close to home.

I got out of the car and walked to the grave marker. "Hey. Sorry I haven't visited." I said awkwardly. "I guess I actually have a lot to apologize for."

Ava

I stood in the bathroom alone. Still feeling his lips on mine. Sam Winchester. I shook my head. Fuck.

Without thinking, I exited the bathroom and walked back to my room. It wasn't until I stood inside the door way that I realized I hadn't been in the room since the morning of Deans death.

"I'm not ready to say goodbye. I can help." I told him.

"You will not die for me. Do you hear me? You can come, but the moment it gets hairy you get out of there. You have to keep Peanut safe, because I can't."

"Kiss me."

The bed was unmade, just as we left it. I closed the door behind me, and went to the closet. I opened the doors and Deans scent escaped from the doors. I closed my eyes and smiled. It hurt. I put my hand over my heart just to hear it beating hard. I am alive.

I pulled out his favorite flannel and held it against me. I pressed my nose to the fabric. Whiskey and bacon. I smiled and dropped my towel. I slid into the flannel and buttoned it closed around me. It felt warm on my skin. It felt safe. He was holding me again.

I went to the drawers and pulled out a pair of his underwear. Deep green. I slid them on. His wedding ring still hung from my neck.

I laid back onto the bed, staring at the ceiling. The sheets were cool. If I didn't know any better I would think it had been only this morning since we left the bed. I rolled onto my stomach and took the pillow in my arms.

I stopped when I felt the brush of paper under the pillow case. "What?"

I took out the paper and rolled over, unfolding it. I held it up above me. The sight of his handwriting took my breath away. I ran my fingers over the letters.

Let yourself be happy.

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