#can we pretend i'm five again and we still live in san antonio with the tire swing in the backyard?
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i think i need someone (my mom) to tuck me in like i'm a little kid again
#oh how i miss her#she's still around but. its different since i grew up#can we pretend i'm five again and we still live in san antonio with the tire swing in the backyard?#can we pretend i still have playdates every other day with my best friends and we make cupcakes and accidentally burn popcorn?#that i don't have the crushing weight of having to grow up far too soon weighing on my heart?#that you might still love me?#i know i deserve that love from you! i know i do!#but what did i do to deserve having that ripped away from me like a tablecloth in a magician's trick?#was it all a lie?#were you never actually the sweet loving adoring mother i remember?#was it all a ruse or have i just turned so numb that i don't notice the sweetness anymore?#but can we pretend for one night. just one mama. that i had a nightmare and you let me crawl in your bed#and you sing that song about the moon and the one about butterflies#and you hold me in the rocking chair in the corner while i cry#and i think that this fear this pain this helplessness#will be the worst i'll ever feel?#can you hold me while i cry again mom? would that be ok? i know i've gotten too big to sit on your lap but can we try?#can you kiss my forehead and hand me my blanket and doll and tell me it's ok?
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