#codenamecesare

[i-want-my-iwtv]

Lestat, why didn't you simply lie about your time before you met Louis? Marius told you not to expose the secrets but he didn't stop you from telling "stories". And you have told plenty.

Hello! Sorry for the delay on this. I used to really love taking asks for Lestat (and I still do!) and I tried, but I can't summon him to answer this topic with a palatable attitude, so you're stuck with me 😅

(FYI this response is for my VC opinions outside of the AMC show, I'm referring to the canon characters or '94 movie)

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@codenamecesare's fic the Secret History is one of my absolute faves, in which Lestat told several different stories about where he came from, so Louis in disgust wrote it all off as lies and didn't bother repeating any of it in IWTV! So I highly recommend you check that fic out 💖

Ultimately, I think Lestat loved them too much to lie to them, even for fun, as a "story." In TVL, Lestat says to Armand, "I never lie, at least not to those I don't love." He says it after telling Armand that Les Innocents is going to be destroyed, which I assume was the truth as he knew it. So Lestat claims he doesn't lie to ppl he doesn't love. And I think we can assume he didn't love Armand at that time!

Anyway... I think Lestat knows that telling even a small lie leads to chains of lies, and it would be hard to keep track of the "facts" of these stories... and Lestat might've felt like even in lying, he might accidentally let something slip he didn't want them to know. Even informing them that a vampire's hands can be cut off and reattached later is technically a "truth" that could endanger them by reference to Nicki, even if it didn't name the specific vampire. Another vampire sneaking around could pick it from their minds and use it against them somehow. Or maybe Claudia might try to try it for fun? The possibilities for harm are endless!

(Hit the jump for more, cut for length.)

Plus, the stories could have motivated Louis and Claudia to leave Lestat just as much as the truth might have. Nicki knew most of the truth, Gabrielle knew all of it, and both of them left Lestat 😭

Keeping in mind that even tho Lestat was being a controlling POS*…. he was also right that Louis and Claudia would be obvious targets to any other vampires. (Of course part of what made them such juicy targets was their ignorance, Lestat, but never mind.) So, given that it was a real danger (especially to Claudia) he really might've been unwilling to risk that they'd glean anything from whatever he said, even lies, and just kept completely mum.

*I think part of why Lestat was so controlling towards Louis and Claudia is somewhat in the direction of how we control children for their protection, you'll grab an arm at bruising pressure if it stops them from waving open scissors in another person's face... it can be hard to calibrate the amount of control force to avoid the potential danger, and especially for Lestat, who had suffered so much loss before Louis and Claudia, couldn't bear to lose them, too, so he may have erred on the side of overdoing it 😭

[yoificfinder]

Hello! Thank you for everything you do it’s been a blast reading thru the things in the master list. I was wondering if you had any fics about outsider POVs on the characters of YOI? Like if they go to university and their friends just don’t notice that they’re famous figure skaters, or their neighbours are like huh what’s up with that well dressed couple with the weird pet names and the angry blond teen. Really anything with outsider POVs is fine !! Thank you !!

Hello, nonnie! If you go through the ao3 tag (or search within results) Skygem retirement AU, you'll find lots of fics with a similar premise as your request. Here are the ones I rec, both in the context of retirement AU and ousider POV in general:

"Unfairly Beautiful Japanese Boy" by @diedraechin [T, 4K]

Sofia was sure of a few things in her life, two of those things were:

1) Even though the dog was cute, she was sure the owner was taking advantage of her abuela's kind heart

2) The 'Unfairly Beautiful Japanese Boy' she kept seeing on campus had to be an angel because look at him.

Only one of them was true.

An Introspection of Life and Love by awesomecookies [Not rated, 16K]

Alice really didn't expect to ride a bullet train to some sea side village when she accepted her editor's advice. But she needed space. She needed a place to think. And maybe Hasetsu was just the right place.

and a look that could just hypnotize by @forestealites [G, 4K]

They say that a demon stole away Victor Nikiforov.

Misha, Petro, and Sonya of the Novice group try to figure out the mystery that is Yuuri Katsuki. It goes about as well as you'd expect.

And the answer is... by nessiesaur [G, 2K]

Yuuri Katsuki is adorable, but also one of the most mature people in their class. Yuuri Katsuki is in her study group, which definitely saved her ass on the midterm. Yuuri Katsuki is…wait, who is he!?

Clippings by @radialarch [G, 3K]

Four seasons, four articles — and one future.

five theories about victor "my husband" nikiforov (+ one fact) by @dadvans [Not Rated, 2K]

No one knows the truth about the strange, well-paying man who comes into the bar three times a week and only talks about his husband. But everyone has their theories.

icebreaker by @codenamecesare [G, 6K]

Yuuri's husband is possibly not as oblivious as he seems, because he grins and asks, "Have you never looked up Yuuri?"

"There's a porn actress with the same name who went into politics," says Nate, "so she's most of the results, and some stuff about figure skating."

"Some stuff about figure skating," Victor says ruefully to Yuuri.

Jason's Master Plan (to dating the Cute Asian Guy) by Qwertzu [T, 10K]

Jason Hesling, young ice hockey prodigy, rising star of Detroit Ice Tigers and part-time model, had a smile that made women and men alike weak at their knees. It’s been a while since anyone managed to catch his attention – until he met the Cute Asian Guy at Detroit Ice Castle and decided to become his next boyfriend.

Meanwhile, the actual Ice Tiger™ is having the time of his life watching the pretentious JJ-wannabe trying to charm the pants off the completely oblivious, happily married Katsudon.

katsuki_fc wrote by @tetsurashian [G, 13K]

Just because Yuuri isn't big on social media, doesn't mean his fans aren't.

My fun fact is: by stillmadaboutpetra [G, 6K]

Yuuri fails to mention to his new non-skater friends who he is or who his husband is. Or that he even has a husband.

Queer Club Surprise by DancingInTheSliverGlow / @art-in-the-sunlight [G, 5K]

The door at the front of the class opens. A tall Russian man, probably in his late twenties walks in. He has ash blond hair that’s half in a messy bun and half spilling down his shoulders. He’s wearing a suit vest, dress shirt, dark jeans and a messenger bag. He’s definitely the professor.

Although it is strange, a Russian with a Japanese last name, Katsuki. Eileen mentally shrugs. She’s seen weirder things.

Eileen watches as the Russian looks at the front of the classroom, checks his phone and frowns. He climbs up to the third row and smiles. Eileen distantly notices that his lips are heart shaped. “Hi! Is this, Japanese 101?”

Eileen nods. “Yeah.”

The man smiles again and Eileen blinks. “Great! Mind if I sit next to you?”

Despite asking, the man barely waits for Eileen to nod before he slides behind her chair and sits in the empty one on her right. Huh. Guess he’s a student then.

View from the Top: The Power Pair That Shook The Sports Wolrd by MadameFolie [T, 2K]

A Vanity Fair interview exclusive! At home with international figure skating superstars Yuuri Katsuki and Viktor Nikiforov.

[cheshiretears]

[Podfic] Adventures In Coaching

 by Cesare | @codenamecesare

Fandom: Yuri!!! on Ice Rating: T Relationships: Katsuki Yuuri/Victor Nikiforov Additional Tags: Coach Victor Nikiforov, Food, Comfort Food, Introspection, Insecurity, Language Barrier, Foreign Language, dieting, Athletes, Podfic, Podfic Length: 10-20 Minutes, Audio Format: MP3

Summary: Victor thinks he may be a terrible coach, but Yuuri is the best student, so maybe it'll work out.

Content note: concerns food, dieting, and reference to canon weight issues/name-calling.

AO3 | Drive | Archive (11:23 min | 13 MB)

[vcsecretgifts]

Summary: Daniel is planning an addition to his model train set, Marius offers him encouragement, buying him some accessories for the addition. They have lived together for some four years, and little interaction has been had under the weight of their pasts. The weight presses in...

To: @superhiki​

From: @i-want-my-iwtv​

Relationship: Armand/Daniel Molloy Characters: Daniel Molloy, Marius de Romanus, (Armand is mentioned) Additional Tags: Angst, Blood, Mentions of Death, Aftermath of Violence, model train sets, Scrabble

This takes place after the events of Queen of the Damned, and in response to the below prompt from @superhiki for the @vcsecretgifts​ exchange of 2020 on tumblr.

Sorry for the late delivery, I had only intended for this to be 3-4 pages, and it overflowed! I really enjoyed writing this, Daniel's voice is sassy and fun, under all the angst, he's so lovable. If you enjoy reading this half as much as I enjoyed writing it, then it'll be a win.

Credit is also due to my collaborator Rebness (@wicked-felina​), and for my cheer squad @lestvt​, @codenamecesare​, and @sanguinivora​ (this last person, certainly not least, who gave me the draft for the opening paragraph and concept!).

@superhiki​'s prompt: "I’m always a fan of Armand, Daniel Molloy, Pandora, or Marius.  

Personally, I love “”“mad”“” Daniel when he is crashing (held captive?) at Grandpa Vampire Marius’ ridiculous home in whatever frosty part of the planet he’s at in Blood & Gold. Daniels’ obsession with model trains, jokes about model trains, and all dopey train paraphernalia is 10000% hilarious to me and will be enjoyed. Especially if Marius is involved and overtly annoyed by Daniel’s fascination. Extra Bonus Points if there is a Christmas Village (WITH A TRAIN) involved. That is the best piece of canon material Anne Rice ever wrote about a single vampire and is tragically under exploited in this fandom. I’m laughing just thinking about it. As a grown man who has spent his entire life bouncing between niche obsessions (much to the chagrin of my entire family) this is up and away a home run, hilarious/endearing bit I cherish about VC."

~~~

Daniel had decided to add a zoo.

The southwest corner, he'd build a set of raised tiers, then the various enclosures, allowing plenty of room for the N gauge model trains, of course. He’d have to strip out the grass and dig into the area that had been the swell of a mountain to do it, but major surgery on the understructure had never bothered him.  Daniel was a “Measure once, cut twice," kind of architect.

Marius had known about this decision without a word passed between them, and about a month ago, silently came into his room and handed him a lunch-sized paper bag of a few animals to start with, those that needed outdoor enclosures. Daniel immediately thought about snakes. He probably hadn’t gotten snakes. No sense in buying snakes for a herpetarium, there would be no windows to see in! Did hobby stores even make snakes? Or spiders? Spiders would be too small for even a model Z set, Daniel scoffed at the very idea.

Read the rest on AO3!

[littlesmartart]

@codenamecesare replied to your post “hello I just wanted to say that your art is awesome! you surely give...”

Yes! You've brought a lot of fun and beauty to my dash... thank you! Happy holidays

[brightwanderer]

Jsyk... I've had sushi burritos and they're basically oversized sushi rolls. Similar ingredients, nori wrapper, etc. Just bigger around and shorter to be a good size to hold in your hand, and sometimes the flavors have a poke bowl influence (that is, poke bowls usually have a bit of a sauce and similar sauces are used in some sushi burritos).

I’m sorry but this still sounds like Something That Should Not Be. D:

[mrkinch]

codenamecesare replied to your post “fourteenacross replied to your post “has anyone made or seen a...”

Notpocalypse, I've seen a lot

Yeah, that’s a good one. Thank you!

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not armageddon but i have seen 'apocanope'

Those, too, absolutely! They each crack me up so much. Thank you!

[cafecliche]

18 and/or 48, Victor and Yuuri. (Victor to Yuuri, if I can specify, but it's all good.)

48. Life would be way easier if I were easier. (Fact.)“Who said?” Yuuri mumbles after a while.“Hmm?” Victor barely cracks an eye open. Yuuri’s fingers have paused in Victor’s hair, and Victor selfishly wants them to start their slow path down his scalp again.

Yuuri sits up and back on the bed, his knees perfectly folded under him. “Who said you were high-maintenance?” It takes Victor a good minute to remember his own offhand comment, only ten minutes ago. He’d already forgotten about it. Yuuri’s not like that. He holds onto those little things. Lets them churn.

Victor doesn’t get to eye-level with Yuuri quite as gracefully. He has to climb, a little bit, out of the soft, cozy divot he’s made in the mattress. “Would be a shorter list of who hasn’t.” At Yuuri’s look, he says, “I’m fine with it. It’s not like it’s not true.”

“You’ve never let anybody inconvenience themselves for you in your life,” Yuuri says.His nose crinkles so irresistibly, Victor has to reach out and touch it. “You haven’t known me my whole life. bunny.”“Victor,” Yuuri says, plaintive enough that Victor has to stop a moment. He wrestles with how he wants to word it for a moment. It’s slippery on his tongue. “I can be a lot,” he says. “In other ways.”Yuuri’s touch is soft as he leans in, presses their foreheads. But his voice goes fierce. “Good,” he says. “I’m greedy.”

[kiaronna]

codenamecesare replied to your post: yo hmu with some of that good shit ongoing fics

maybe they want recs for good ongoing fics?

OH POSSIBLY

Wow okay, sorry for being self-absorbed, friends. SORRY I CAN DO THAT

Warning: I have been reading less lately, and have also been reading some other fandoms (BNHA *cough*)

Here’s a couple fics (most of which I did not actually manage to get to the end of, but which I have enjoyed thus far). PLEASE READ THEM. I won’t be mentioning popular fics I’m following that I think most people already know about. Please be sure to read the tags yourself, because while I mostly write painfully vanilla PG content, it’s not always what I read, mmkay. 

THIS ONE: Undiscovered Country. Do it for yourself and your future. I finally started this.

1. without fear, without metaphor:  Yuuri was never one to use more words than necessary. Underutilized it, even, his family and friends would remark. Still, there was a certain relief that came with easy communication. Then he started wanting to use words for more. He even ran his mouth quite a few times in the past months, much to his embarrassment. And he quietly admitted to himself that it came with the sudden barrage of Viktor Nikiforov into what he expected to be peaceful life and probable retirement in his hometown.

2. Not Cricket:  Victor had wanted to be the Japanese competitor's dance partner, and he could because he didn't have one. Victor had also wanted to be Katsuki Yuuri's coach, and he could because Katsuki didn't have one of those either.Now Victor wanted to be Yuuri's boyfriend- except Yuuri already seemed to have one of those.---Basically, Victor thinks Phichit is Yuuri's boyfriend and is ridiculously jealous.

3. blood is thicker than: “You might be Yuri’s biological parent, Mr. Nikiforov. But I’m his father. If Yuri wants to go with you, that’s one thing,” Yuuri Katsuki’s voice flows quiet and dangerous into the room “but if he doesn’t, don’t think that you’re taking my child away from home,”Or: Victor Nikiforov finds out he has a son. He wants full custody.Katsuki Yuuri isn't going to give up his child that easily.Or: Victor and Yuuri fight a custody battle for Yurio. Shit happens.Or: Yuri Plisetsky starts with one parent, and ends up with two.

4. before it burns me numb: “What do you mean, you had a crush on me?” Yuuri asks. “We’d never even met before the Grand Prix Final last year.” Following their engagement, Victor tells Yuuri the story of how he met, fell for, and pined after Japan's Ace. Not necessarily in that order. An Ep10 coda... with a twist.

If you think Viktor having had a crush on Yuuri for a long time would satisfy all your Viktuuri needs, you’d be right.

5. Sixty Impossible Things: Two weeks after his failure at Sochi, Yuuri receives a text from a mysterious number asking why the fuck he’s ignoring Viktor. So begins Yuri Plisetsky’s all out campaign to get Yuuri to fucking finally text Viktor and end his torment of watching Viktor pine, and so begins Yuuri's descent into a wonderland of texting his idol, meeting his #1 fan(s), and slowly rebuilding his life with a little help from his friends.

*swoony swoon* And some quality Yurio&Yuuri frandship

6. boy next door: “Hi, welcome to the Green Bean,” Yuuri says, in the way that’s become something of a joke between them. “What can I get for you today?”In which Viktor buys way too much coffee from the cute barista at the coffeeshop on the corner, and Yuuri has a terrible crush that Viktor never, ever needs to know about, and somehow it all works out in the end.

Cute A/B/O coffeeshop!

7. offer me (that Deathless Death): It was the curse he and his family were fated to: Death would come for him the moment he turned eighteen, and he could only hope the flimsy wards passed down through the generations would protect him. But Death always won eventually, Death would snatch him up as he had all of his ancestors.But somehow he wasn't what Yuuri had expected. He was a constant presence in his life, barely there. A vigilant spectator to his burgeoning skating career, a gray haired man with a soft expression who found him again and again, waiting for him to let his guard down, but becoming something more, over time."Don't be careless," his sister told him, but they were all careless, in the end.

THE SUMMARY IS LIKE A TRIP ALL BY ITSELF OKAY

8. Lullaby of Birdland: In another world, their story might have started with ‘Hi there’, or ‘Lovely sky tonight’, or ‘Hello, stranger’. Or perhaps something less cliché, something like: ‘A commemorative photo? Sure thing!’But in this one, it starts with an electric blue cocktail, the taste of smoke in the air. And: “You have really talented, um. Fingers.”

I literally only listen to the jazz music I do because of this fic

9. The Long Way Round:  In the wake of tragedy and facing change to come, Yuuri and Victor make the ten thousand kilometre journey from Saint Petersburg home to Hasetsu the old fashioned way- on the Trans-Siberian Railway from Moscow to Beijing.

I already knew this would be good because sixpences, but it’s so tragically beautiful

10. Nuclear Hearts Club: Being seventeen and chronically confused isn't always a walk in the park - especially when you've been crushing on your brother's best friend since you were nine. You'd be crazy not to. Victor's the best thing to happen to the world since sliced bread.(Join Yuuri Katsuki on this pine-fueled high school adventure full of teen angst and astronomical fuckery.)

Nothing makes me feel things and cry over prose like butterbeerbitch. I saw there’s a new one-shot too, check that one out!

11. Life Unwoven: Five-Time Consecutive Grand Prix Final Winner Katsuki Yuuri meets Five-Time Consecutive Grand Prix Final Winner Victor Nikiforov.or,In which things are tangled, and untangled, and tangled again. And Victor will always be there to save Yuuri.

*sigh*

12. Human by Choice: When the body of emerging indie director Emil Nekola washes up near the small Oregon town of Quad Axels, FBI Special Agent Yuuri Katsuki is called in to investigate. But as he uncovers more and more of the town's dark secrets, he realises that there are bigger forces at play than previously suspected.After all, still waters run deep, and when you are haunted by your past, you will see ghosts at every turn.

OH HECK YEAH

Archiveofourown writers spookyfoot, xyloophones, mhalachai, and opalish are almost always writing little one-shots, along with... so many other amazing writers, so be sure to check them out for not WIPs but a pretty constant stream of fic.

[shysweetthing]

codenamecesare said: I did wonder briefly in Undiscovered Country if Victor had a bit of imposter syndrome and insecurity? He tells Yuuri about his app and says something about how he’s not as great as people think because he relies on the app and has to work constantly to be on top. But it seems more like he’s afraid of that reaction than that he believes it himself, because when Yuuri doesn’t lose faith in him, Victor is confident again.

This is where I have to get into some of my “confidence is very complicated” spiel. Victor, as I’ve written him, absolutely has some degree of imposter syndrome and harbors insecurities about a number of things. I think it’s pretty much always the case that anyone who rises to a position on basically merit will see themselves differently than the outside world—you are always aware of how much Damned Work you put in to get there, and how much you have to put in to stay there. All anyone outside you sees is the perceived effortlessness of your performance.

This leads almost inevitably to a certain degree of imposter syndrome and insecurity.

The way I write Victor is colored by earlier experience. At one point in my life, I worked for someone who was by every possible metric, incredibly successful and powerful. She was literally the first woman who _____ (you could insert about fifteen different things here). Grown-ass men who were themselves incredibly powerful were afraid of her.

She was also incredibly confident. Like, undeniably confident. Anyone who has actually met her and talked to her would call her confident. (Because she was a woman, people who hadn’t met her painted her differently... but those who were in the know knew.)

The thing I discovered working for her was that she was as human as the rest of us. She fretted when she felt her performance was not where it needed to be, or if she thought she didn’t understand something that she should have understood as quickly as she had hoped she would. She was insecure about some...very surprising things.

Great people don’t stop being people just because they achieve greatness.

But here’s the thing—by the time I got to knew her, many decades into her long and incredible journey of ass-kicking, she had become secure in her insecurity. She knew that the things she had done to become great had worked, and so she wasn’t going to question the fact that she was questioning.

I honestly don’t think you get better than that.

By contrast, I have never met a person without self-doubt who was anything other than mediocre. 

The act of doubting yourself is, in a way, a supreme act of confidence. What can be more confident than telling yourself that you can do better? 

The act of protecting yourself from all possible doubts? Of insulating yourself from criticism and refusing to believe it applies to you? 

We call that confidence too often on TV, but that ain’t confidence. That’s running scared.

[goodyoific]

"They were all going to be blue, but just because those are my favorites doesn't mean they're yours." Victor adjusts a bowed bloom. "So I asked for two of every other color they had, too."

"Um. Why two?" It's really kind of an unreasonably large bouquet.

"I didn't want any of them to be lonely," says Victor.

looking for a rhythm like you by Cesare. 61804 words (WIP), rated T.

Canon divergence, mutual pining, fake relationship - it’s like this fic was made just for me or something. Aside from being the perfect storm of absolutely delightful tropes - this fic is wonderfully executed. The care taken in showing how Victor and Yuuri’s relationship develops as they talk and get to know each other is so natural and so gorgeous. Their conversations are equal parts funny, serious, sweet, and layered with different meanings that will leave you internally screaming. The attention to research and detail in this fic is much the same - rich, woven in, and quietly growing in the background until it becomes a vital and necessary part of the world and the characters and their story.

[i-want-my-iwtv]

@annabellioncourt tagged moi to do nine films! This was harder to do than I thought, editing them down. As an extra challenge, I didn’t let myself choose any that Annie did 😉. These are films/TV I love and love recommending to others, and if you like one or more of them, chances are we’ll get along ✨ In no particular order (other than wanting IWTV in the middle):

Only Lovers Left Alive - Tom Hiddleston is a Nicki/Louis hybrid, I love him, I love the dynamic between him and the other vampires, I kinda love how fragile these vampires are, and they have unique gifts. Very slice of life.

What We Do in the Shadows - also love the TV series, but if I had to choose?? IDK I NEED BOTH but only giving it one slot, so the original takes precedence, I love Vladislav. 

Jennifer’s Body - UNF I love this. I don’t love the official posters, but I really like this VHS fanwork by CratereanDesigns on Etsy.

Let the Right One In - the 2008 original!

Interview with the Vampire, of course. And I do not think it’s the Best Movie of All Time, it’s just one of my personal faves and a comfort food for me 💗

30 Days of Night - the delicious ANGST, ah my heart. I don’t love the poster, oh well. 

Good Omens - I didn’t read the book so if it’s unfaithful in any way, doesn’t bother me! I loved this series, psyched for season 2.

Better Call Saul - I know, not a film. I love it too much, and if GO is on here, then TV can be on here. 

And here I end with the impossible choice of favorite animated movie, and there are a LOT of them, but I have to choose one! What’s more important, beauty, story, music? Beauty and the Beast (1991) still holds up, after all these years. It might not be as technically proficient as Wall-E (another fave of mine) but it’s well acted, strong story, good soundtrack. I think what I love most is the bantering and courtship of Belle and the Beast, it’s so genuine and earned. IDK, call me a baby, I love it. 

Tagging those I haven’t seen do it yet, and I'm also sorry if I'm wrong and just missed your post, no pressure at all to do this, of course!:

@codenamecesare, @vamp4rebatscave, @xxhellonursexx, @good-evening-kiss, @eliestela, @0junemeatcleaver0, @wicked-felina, @cygnaut, @thevampirelestat, @tealightcandles1794, @monstersinthecosmos, @emileesaurus, @terryfphanatics, @loki-wants-an-army,  @sarahpaulsonsclown,  @theworidentire, @hekateinhell, @the-apostates-martyr, @amadeo-child-of-the-renaissance, @vampiricmusicaltheatre, @radiatorfromspace, @kf-tea, @headfrst4halos, @mymillenniumpuzzle, @amelthebravennian, @carolusofmycastle, @auburnandamberangel, @elisaintime, @obsessional-ram, @nodominion, @compressedconstellations, @calamity-cain

(Tumblr didn’t allow the tag on some ppl so I’m putting you all in the tags below)

[kevystel]

cafecliche replied to your post “talk to me about viktor’s fear of rejection”

Every time I think about him phrasing the things he desperately wants as a joke I have to lie down for a bit

viktor wants things SO BADLY and he makes his tone light and teasing to compensate for that, when he floats the Boyfriend Idea at the beach his voice drops half an octave for dramatic effect and i clutch my heart

@codenamecesare​ made very very good points about this tendency becoming marked only after yuuri rebuffs him, and i agree! still, i feel it’s an innate trait (it’s not yuuri-specific, is what i mean), and if so we have a good reason for (as chris points out) viktor being widely perceived as someone who never takes things seriously

talithan replied to your post “talk to me about viktor’s fear of rejection”

this is tangential probably but i have been thinking a lot about how different yuuri's and victor's approaches to rejection are, how yuuri fears it but sees it as out of his hands and creates a protective distance while victor instead sees it as very much within his control and spends a great deal of thought and effort preventing it, or doing his best to. this is probably another area where they balance and learn from each other

you put this so well!!! yuuri’s boldness is all the more touching when you think about this. there’s an impressive level of trust required for him to make such gestures as hugging viktor before onsen on ice and ofc buying the rings in barcelona. both times you can see viktor looking, frankly, fucking stunned, and while i don’t think yuuri Thinks about these things much compared to viktor, it takes a lot of bravery for yuuri to put himself out there like that. esp with his anxiety, it’s the emotional equivalent of trust-falling, constantly. he’s resting on his secure sureness that viktor will accept what he’s offering

yuuri deals with wanting things and getting the things he wants by nudging himself into viktor’s space on the comfortable belief that he is welcome, probably in contrast to how yuuri sees other people he doesn’t know as well: 1. he assumes he’s unwelcome 2. please fuck off, don’t hug me, don’t comfort me, this is my space, don’t intrude. i think he is very attuned to viktor’s responses and emotions, even if he doesn’t quite pick up just HOW MUCH OF THEM THERE ARE, so this is the yuuri-to-viktor version of ‘he meets me where i am’. yuuri is so used to viktor saying yes to everything he comes up with that he’s genuinely taken aback when he suggests ‘let’s end this’ and viktor cries

ladyofasheru replied to your post “talk to me about viktor’s fear of rejection”

He seems more blasé about Yakov's rejection, maybe because he feels more secure about him to start with?

yes!!! i think viktor & yakov are at that point where yakov is so far into giving a fuck (A Lot of Fucks!!!!) about viktor that viktor is equally far past giving a fuck about what yakov says. viktor doesn’t really perform a version of himself labelled ‘yakov’s viktor’ for yakov, because yakov has watched him grow up, and presumably knows/has seen a lot of things about viktor that viktor’d really rather not have other people know. viktor could do literally anything and it wouldn’t change their relationship, and yakov could say literally anything and viktor wouldn’t care. yakov has been very proud of him since viktor was seventeen, and viktor’s known that just as long. ‘why bother’ - viktor about yakov, constantly

that sort of feeling lies behind yakov’s rejection & viktor’s reaction at the cup of china. and it is a very harsh rejection!!!! i think yakov’s harsher with viktor than he is with anyone else, and more fiercely caring (not in the warm & gentle sense of caring, more like ‘i care!!!! vitya!!!! i care!!!!!!’) with viktor than with anyone else. rushing to the airport in person to try one last time to talk viktor out of it? where do you think viktor learned his Extra-ness from

as with anybody who yells as much as yakov, there is a lot of openness between the two of them, in the sense that there are quick short-lived explosions and zero resentment. in beijing yakov is blowing off frustration because VITYA, and also VITYA CAN’T YOU SEE I’M BUSY WITH OTHER SKATERS WHO ARE NOT YOU (this happens with yurio at the gpf too), WAIT YOUR TURN, and the words that come out are hurtful words. and viktor brushes them off, tamps down his hurt, smiles, and walks away. with his arm around yuuri for good measure.

[turtletotem]

song meme: Q! (Or W if you don't have a Q)

I will do Q and W!

Q: “QWERTY” by Linkin Park. (I feel that this meme is revealing some things about what lurks behind my sweet exterior...)

Like a pill you couldn’t swallow so it swallowed you whole

W: “Whispers in the Dark” by Skillet. You have to understand, the very first time I heard this song, within the first twenty seconds, my entire soul was screaming in joy. I never stood a chance.

No, you'll never be aloneWhen darkness comes I'll light the night with starsHear the whispers in the dark

[vcsecretgifts]

To: @codenamecesare

From: @good-evening-kiss 

Your request: Claudia, Louis and Lestat. 

I drew one happy “modern” family. Merry Christmas!

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just saw Almostageddon last night

They just keep coming! It’s pretty great.