#college papers suck

[thiinka]

[spielzeugkaiser]

kaiser, I've been low-key worried about you as you crawl your way out of the Covid Hole. How are you doing? Hopefully recovering some energy? Sending you good healing vibes from afar!

Ahh, I hope you don't mind that I answer this one publicly. First of all, aww, that is very sweet, thank you 🥺💖 I'm not gonna lie, I still struggle quite a bit with breathing and concentration, but I'm getting there! (That I'm exhausted all the time is a given, but it's always been like thay.) I'm currently working out to get my lungs back to where they should be, but I'm also currently teaching and studying and working and moving and traveling for work and- *deflates*

I miss drawing a lot and I feel really restless since I stopped. Hopefully I'll come back to it by next month - once S3 is here I'm definitely back in my clown makeup 🙈🤡

[roguemonsterfucker]

Sorry to talk about it again but I'm just still flabbergasted by the whole plagiarism thing

Like... When watching hbomb's video the first time and seeing him point out the rewording of stuff to change it *just* enough to (hopefully) not get caught stealing... I flashed back to my college days of when I did exactly that. 😅

There was a limit on how many actual quotes I could use, so I got around that by literally looking at my sources and rewording it enough to get past the plagiarism checker (TurnItIn.com my belothed) without losing the meaning of the text that I honestly didn't fully understand because I was writing on topics I had no real knowledge of myself.

BUT BUT BUT

I still cited my fucking sources.

Yes, I was using other people's words so I could get through the hell that was college, but if you read my stuff, you'd know exactly where I got it from. I never claimed credit for all the ideas.

And... again... I was just doing it to survive. I wasn't making money. I didn't even end up actually graduating, so it didn't even help me academically.

Somerton on the other hand not only rarely *if ever* credited the people whose words he stole, he was doing it for money, while also putting down fellow queer creators. He *wanted* full credit for all the ideas in his videos. To cite his sources would be to pass the credit on to others. And he couldn't do that.

Edited to add: It's probably a bit extreme to say I "stole" anything for my papers. Like I said, I cited my sources. I just paraphrased what I could when needed, probably to a degree that was questionable at worst. I just have anxiety and feel like "OH NO I"M A TERRIBLE PLAGIARIST."

[dark-night-hero]

Isgt if I don't get an email back, reply email by the end of the week from the OJT/Intern companies, hotel, agencies that I had send my resume/CV I am so gonna cry lmao.

This suckssss sooooo much I'm so stressed I can't even make an update

College if one hell of a cluck bait, this is not how I see it in movies. I NEED A RESET HAHAHA GET ME OUT OF THIS.

*proceeds to binge watch young justice and read from batfam (mainly my love so sweet Jason) angsty fanfic on ao3

[the-sea-anemone]

on the one hand, i am very much a proponent of the "first draft doesn't have to be good, it just has to exist" strategy for writing but on the other hand i'm working on the second draft now and i am Suffering

[luna-loveboop]

Uuuurrrghh let's play the game of how long I can resist making another LU character analysis post when I have homework to do........ it's gonna be tonight isn't it. (maybe I can resist enough to put one in drafts and post later? Idk man but yeah I've got ideas that must leave my head)

[silentchamp]

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[ifyourereadingthisblinktwice]

i need to stop forgetting things exist the fucking second they leave my field of vision. why is is impossible for two things to occupy my mind at once especially when im tired. like. i feel like a sim. i feel like actions are being canceled and i just. move on. and completely forget what i was doing moments before. i fucking hate it

[love-has-a-way-ofgrowingbackward]

gonna try for bits otherwise im kinda fucked

[middlechildanxiety]

While I'm ranting, why the fuck did no one tell me that dysgraphia exists or that it's probably why my handwriting sucks? My handwriting is only good when it's tiny enough that lines don't matter and I thought that was fucking normal but no!

My inability to perceive lines in a normal way means I have no idea how to make letters the same size with consistent spacing. I can't make lists in a way that makes sense to other people because if I do then I can't read it. I eventually had to tell people at work that I can't cut desserts anymore because of lines? Are you shitting me? LINES?

[shikai-the-storyteller]

I'm so burnt out and stressed about a variety of things lately, but a funny / sweet coincidence recently happened that I wanted to share:

Last week, I had a university student reach out to me (via my work email) asking for resources / advice on their research paper because I've written a lot of articles about the thing they're writing about. (I just got back to them today and they were real sweet, I'm excited to see how their paper turns out)

A week or two ago, I had someone reach out to me on RA asking for some specific clip info / date info because they were doing a research paper about Pac, and today I saw that they published their paper and put a special thanks to RA in the notes :')

I just think it's very sweet and a funny coincidence that my work (professional and fandom work) is getting cited in research papers. It made me smile a lot, I genuinely love that.

[fridayyy-13th]

guess who finally finished submitting his college applicatiooons~

[bungletheglasscat]

I kind of hate that I care so much about doing well in school. I'm already paying enough money just to be here, why am I giving this institution my soul, too?

[grungepoetica]

i love getting hit with last-minute paranoia that this paper isn't good enough to submit

[transgenderenkidu]

whining in the tags lmao

[gaywiththesauce]

I just scored a 37% on a paper... I need to write some fluff to cheer me up :')