#croszukis

[moregraceful]

does nick suzuki getting more rookies mean as much to you as it does to me? like shaking the bars of my enclosure going let me SEEE IT

yeah 🥹 he's 25! he's getting close to his prime years! he is raising rookies in a way that is wholly different than how he was attempting to wrangle rookies when he was first captain! not to be like romanticizing the passage of time in the panopticon but it really is something special to watch him grow up and really...idk i don't want to say come into his own bc he's always kind of had a handle on himself, but it's really nice to see how he's settled into the role as captain and how he's settled into leading the team. obviously deeply viewing this with a fujo lens, but more recently in the past season/year it does feel like he's gotten confident enough his leadership of the team to be more outwardly playful with his teammates and with holding a kind gentle ownership of his team in the montreal media meatgrinder as much as he leads them in the locker room.....does that make ANY sense...i hope the rookies follow him around like ducklings. it was always clear he was a good pick for captain but as he gets older i'm just like aw man you really are the boy king of montreal 😭

[coffee-at-annies]

#18 + sidgeno (or whoever sparks your interest tbh!)

SidGeno always sparks my interest :)

18. Go Easy by Matt Maeson

This one is injury fic. I think it could go either way but I’m a Sid girlie at heart so we’re gonna go Sid-centric. I don’t want it to be retirement fic so instead I think it’s concussion era SidGeno.

This is a song about pain. It’s a plea for wellness and if not that, then comfort, but primarily it’s about pain. This is all from the POV of the singer asking for care — ostensibly from a partner —but struggling to move past his pain to accept it. It’s as much an acknowledgement of the singer’s self loathing as it is an apology for the way the singer acts when dealing with it.

My own reflection's making me sick/ I've been this way since my faith quit./ And I never asked for this pain/ It's taking me over/ It's taking me over/ It's making me colder (Oh)

Concussion era Sid who is hurting and he doesn’t mean to lash out at Geno/Mario/Flower/the team but it hurts. It hurts — it hurts — he hurts — and he’s not getting better. Every day he ends up back in bed with the blackout curtains, unable to even look at himself in the mirror cause that’s too much light for his head. He’s cold and shaky and it’s not just the nausea. He doesn’t want to be a burden. He doesn’t want to lose hockey. He doesn’t want to be in pain.

If I broke it, would you quit?/ Is this heartache we could fix?/ In the morning, when we wake/ When I'm sober, would you stay?

He is though. He’s all of those things. Facing that fact leaves him with self loathing so strong it’s all he can do to not lash out at everyone trying so hard to help him. Sid has so much support. So much help. He doesn’t want any of it. He would give all of it up if it meant he could play hockey again.

Please just go easy on me, baby/ Go easy on me, baby/ Can you understand it?/ I can't keep living for the damage

I’m not sure where we are in the concussion timeline re: Geno’s knee injury. This chorus feels like Sid and Geno leaning on each other, hurting and letting the other take care of them because they’re both hurting. They stay together because Sid refuses to be a burden and Geno doesn’t make him feel like one. They fall into bed together because of course they do. They’re both looking for care, for healing, and they’re hoping to find in in each other. They do, for a time. Then the season ends and they go their separate ways.

My own deception is moving too quick/ I tried to love and I lost it./ And I never wanted to change/ It's taking me over/ It's taking me over/ It's making me colder (Oh)

Geno gets better. He recovers from his surgery in the off-season. He gets back on the ice. Sid… Sid doesn’t. His head still hurts and his stomach still swims and he doesn’t get better. He pretends that it’s okay. That he’s fine. That he isn’t burning to get back to hockey or he isn’t monstrously jealous of Geno. The season starts and Sid isn’t there to start it.

If I broke it, would you quit?/ Is this heartache we could fix?/ In the morning, when we wake/ When I'm sober

This is set deeper in the timeline. Sid is still too sick to play. He’s tried to come back to practice a couple times and he’s failed. Maybe he’s even played a couple games. Geno moved back in at the start of the season but is he staying because he loves Sid or because Sid needs someone to take care of him? Does Sid know? Does Geno?

Please just go easy on me, baby/ Go easy on me, baby/ Can you understand it?/ I can't keep living for the damage

This chorus is just as much about Geno as it is about hockey. He’s hitting the point where he can’t keep living for the sport. It’s been too much time and too much pain since he last played hockey without this weight around his neck. He gets back hockey. We know he does. He doesn’t stay back though. He’s back in Pittsburgh and so are his symptoms. Throughout it all they persist and he can’t do this until they’re gone.

Can't change me, can't save me, can't blame me/ I know love/ Can't change me, can't save me, can't blame me/ I know love/ Can't change me, can't save me, can't blame me/ I know love/ Can't change me, can't save me, can't blame me/ I know love (Love)/ I know love

There is no savior coming. Geno can’t fix his head. The pain is just there. Hockey is the source and the reason and for once in his life he can’t will his way through. Practice won’t help. Playing through it won’t help. Nothing has helped. He’s still concussed. He loves hockey, he loves Geno, and it’s not enough.

Please just go easy on me, baby/ Go easy on me, baby/ Can you understand it?/ I can't keep living for the damage (Oh)

Go easy on him. Be gentle with him. He loves two things, hockey and Geno. At the end of the day, end of the season, he doesn’t know if he can keep either of them.

Send me a number 1-100 + a pairing and I will tell you what song it corresponds to on my Spotify wrapped AND give you a 5 sentence summary of a fic based on that song

[selkiefinalist]

20.  How many WIPs and story ideas do you have?

@nateslehky (<333) also tagged me in that wip title game this evening (post the names of all the files in your wip folder, let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, post a little snippet/tell them something about it, tag as many people, etc.) and i was thinking that something i want to try to get better at in 2024 is responding to asks and ignoring that worry about sounding like an entire dumbass when i do so here they are:

jmac dan alien fic

oc cuck fic

timmy spaghetti legs

nietsy/sid one-up

fader

gifted

sidgeno divorce fic

ghost

nate/ej slow burn

sanny/phil

tk/patty

timbrady

some of these are SO OLD and are truly just abandoned but i meant for them to exist at some point. i shall tag not as many people as i have files but @patrichornkissed and @girldewar and @paintingtheice have at it if you would like

[croszukis]

pictures for reference

rookie/baby nick

current nick

[princemick]

kyle's graphic requests: Nick Suzuki + Blue + World on your shoulders requested by @croszukis

[yabagofmilfs]

Ten Opening Lines

thanks for the tag, @eusuntgratie!

Rules: list the first line of the last ten (10) stories you published. Look to see any patterns you notice yourself, and see if anyone else notices any.

unclaimed territory

Zhenya couldn’t stand the smell of Mario.

2. god's gift

You wake up one day and you don’t recognize your room.

3. checkmate (i couldn't lose)

“Like I say, I hope I stay here forever. I hope I retire here, but again like, I’m understand it’s a whole business,” Geno said with a shrug.

4. sea change

Sid gets to the rink early on the first day of camp.

5. of use

The team piles onto him when they get into the locker room, screaming in delight and tugging off his gear so they can get to his skin.

6. legal & binding

She’d been at the party almost half an hour and could have counted the words spoken directly to her on one hand.

7. don't read the last page, but

He’s nervous, fussing with his sweater and wondering if maybe he should have worn a tie.

8. antithetical dream girl

“Be so much easier if one of us is girl,” Zhenya grumbles, hitching up his pants delicately.

9. want the full effects

“Thank you, Зайчикm,” Zhenya says, grabbing the gatorade Sid hands him.

10. no absolution

In the claustrophobic silence of Sid’s hotel room, Zhenya feels the kernel of meanness that has been steadily festering in him for days flare to life.

i don't really see a pattern, but if you do i'm all ears haha.

tagging: anyone who wants to do this (you can say i tagged you!) and @nejineeee, @cuprun, @beggingwolf, @malk1ns, @couthbbg, @ellen-shame, @ticklefighthockey, @fahatesyou, @croszukis

(I try to diversify the people i tag, especially for fic stuff, so it's not always the same group going around, but this proved to me that i haven't done a great job matching tumblrinas (gn) to their ao3 names. if you want to reply/send me an ask or message with yours so i can put face to name, please do!)

[loviess]

make a new post with the names of all the files in your wip folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! then, tag as many people as you have wips. i was tagged by @whatthe-puck :)

wips

1. another fortnight lost

2. roses on the flat bed

2. eighty nine to boston

4. milanese gold

5. lies and affectations

6. can we drag this out (and never quit?)

7. elle est pomme mes de yeux

8. helsinki wine

9. iced arrangements

10. grieve normally/500 YEAR TIMELOOP??

11. if i don’t have the stanley cup, and you don’t have the stanley cup, why is there a baby?

12. stargirl

13. this lake can hold a lot of repression

14. fake worlds/parallel lines

@croszukis @kitnita @capsvsducks @sunnysombrero @hutson-reinbacher @insevens @hughes-marino @jimothystu @offside-the-lines @keyshui @coffeehound91

[moregraceful]

for ship bingo robo/roope!

YES....HAHAHA...YES...BLORBOS FROM MY HAGIOGRAPHIES.... IF THEYRE NOT IN DALLAS FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES I'M OUTTA HERE

IF I LOVED THEM LESS I COULD TALK ABOUT IT MORE (<- guy who was cooking something beyond deranged this summer before being afflicted by the agonies)

Give me a ship to express an opinion on

[sayheykid]

last line meme!

tagged by @philtstone, who is indulging me to keep posting clips of this silly little story<33

two sentences as a treat, because the last line was short. as always, clip from my big big big oc project (i need a better working title than 'baseball story' so please hmu if anyone can one up that for me)

He could chase that high for the rest of his life. It doesn’t matter where they are — her arms draped over his shoulders on a crowded dance floor at Mills, sitting a little too close not to be chirped at the house, talking more with looks than with words over a table in the library — it was always just the two of them. Charlie didn’t have to be the funniest person in the world, as long as the only person who mattered kept looking at him like that.

tagging: @hxvphaestion @goldensparrows @technofinch @croszukis mwah. open invite to anyone else:)

[pvtchurch]

rules: pick a song for each letter of your url and tag that many people (if you can)

@nastybastian thanks for the tag <3

sever the blight - hemlocke springs up! - kep1er zima - auktyon u-fig - system of a down faget - korn intentionnel - simone ringer & mathilde fernandez everything matters - aurora ft. pomme lives - daron malakian & scars on broadway documentary filmmaker - squid

tagging @mikuhats @nick-cassidy @buqbite @croszukis @pink-car @ninler @dacchamp @glitchcel

[croszukis]

nick & sid at the 2023 nhl all star game

[daddy-mothman]

Shuffle your 'On Repeat'/Favorites playlist and list the first 10 songs that play, then tag 10 people!

ty @mp-47 for tagging me

steal my sunshine by LEN somebody told me by the killers given up by linkin park 1979 by the smashing pumpkins hand in my pocket by alanis morissette two princes by spin doctors ain't no rest for the wicked by cage the elephant she's so high by tal bachman gives you hell by the all-american rejects smooth by santana ft. rob thomas

tagging @suzukiszn , @croszukis , @gothbf-exe and umm totally 7 other people !!

[yabagofmilfs]

thanks for the tag @simmyfrobby

rules: show the last line you wrote and tag as many people as there are words (or however many you like)

Sidney shook off his touch. “I renounced my supplication before my king. I would not betray him or my people by kneeling for the Wolf who killed him.”

my wordiness foils me again. i will not be tagging 27 people: @girlfriendline @malk1ns @cuprun @nejineeee @cascara-soda @ticklefighthockey @croszukis @ellen-shame @fahatesyou @eusuntgratie + you if you are so moved!

[sayheykid]

WIP tag game

thank you thank you @philtstone! mwah i'm touched to be included

RULES: Make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it!

these are all, technically, the same wip — one might say THE wip — but little sections i've been working on include

partycrasher

he's built, he's stacked

the crash™

newcomb athletics

god they don't even KNOW

extended bresnahan/florence fam lore

yacht club drama

some of these names are boring lmao but i can explain them better if you're interested:))

i'll tag: @hxvphaestion @croszukis @technofinch @goldensparrows @guentzel but please know there's no pressure!

[croszukis]

nick media — 09.19.24

[croszukis]

yes im delusional look at the url, but hey politician and young staffer au