#cuz i felt there was a lack

[verytrustworthytrapdoor]

that durge in all of us

my brain went to "he got that dog in him" but durge idk man just go with it

[superbellsubways]

theres no fanart of this guy so i have to make it myself hello Sousborg nation (population: Me)

[growinguparo]

Hi! I just wanted to jump in and say thank you, because your blog has actually helped me a lot recently. I read your post from a while back (like a WHILE, 4ish years ago) about the aro/ace future and what that looks like as we get older. I’ve been coming to terms on and off in the past few years about how averse I am to relationships and dating, and with the fact that really don’t care if I’m single for the rest of my life. But you very nearly articulated the main concern: what happens when everyone else is wrapped up in their marriages and their families I am truly alone? I’m still not sure that the aromantic identity is accurate for me, but it feels pretty close and so thank you, again, for opening this world up to me and putting words to my feelings. :)

Aww thank you for telling me!! 💚

I still feel the way I did when I wrote that post, although it occupies less of my brainspace than it used to. However, I will take this opportunity to talk about the big thing in my social life that changed since 2020: I dove hard into my local community. Any local community will do I think, but the main one for me was my local trans community. I was also in a community music ensemble, I spent a couple years in a survivor support group, and I went to local queer events. I valued those communities highly enough that they were the main reason I was upset to be moving to a new city.

Community made a huge difference for me. I wasn’t really friends with any of them exactly (like I rarely hung out with any of them outside of whatever thing we had together), and community definitely doesn’t occupy the same niche of social requirements as friends or a partner. But it HELPS. It helps with social support, feeling connected to other people, having regular social interaction, and (crucially imo) meeting people who are older than you in a peer environment instead of one where they are of higher status than you.

I know so many trans people in their 30s, 40s, 50s, even 70s, from my local trans community - variously single, married, divorced, multiply divorced, dating, polyamorous, nonamorous, etc. It really broadened my view of what people older than me are actually doing in real life, not just what the twenty-somethings around me anticipate they will be doing when they are that age. People who are like me too, queer transgender people who will never fit the conventional narrative. It enriched my life in a way I wasn’t expecting.

I still don’t know what an aroace future looks like and it’s still scary but at least now I know that mine will include local communities and that I can get a fair amount of the social fulfillment I’m seeking from them.

[strawglicks]

i can feel myself drifting from the TTCC community .. like i still love the characters and their dynamics, but ive been thinking less about toontown as a whole and just some of the characters are lingering . this usually happens towards the end of my obsessions

plus i just dont feel in touch with the community LOL i just kinda stick to my own stuff and sometimes like the art and stories ppl make .. but im in this awkward spot right now where im MENTALLY not engaging as much. idk if this is anything

[cyberdragoninfinity]

if youre doing the ask game

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unpopular opinion for seto motherfucking kaiba? mayhaps? blease?

ok so. i wrote. like four fucking paragraphs answering this, talking about how i feel about kaiba, and then. when i went. to fucking add tags. tumblr fucked up and deleted my whole post <333 super cool website very fun to use <33333

anyway im not rewriting all of that so here's the tl;dr: i like kaiba, he's iconic for a reason, but my 🔥🔥🔥est kaiba take is just that honestly i dont think he's nearly as deep a character as people want him to be, and that's not a bad thing. He fulfills the role he has in DM's narrative fantastically well, and he has his veins of things that could be interesting to discuss, but after 25 years it feels like it's just nonstop hitting bedrock when it comes to kaiba 'analysis.' I feel like i see the same 3-4 kaiba meta posts every other week (and i do sometimes wish that level of love and dedication to character analysis got extended to. any other yugioh character. i feel similarly about atem too tbh dfghd)

like with kaiba, it feels like a massive chunk of his implied depth is things fans have willed into existence through the sheer power of I Want it To Be That Deep. and i dont even think there's anything wrong with that, it just doesn't interest me very much. i like my kaiba discussion where the elephant of "this character is in many ways defined by stagnant growth and if this is left unchecked it's going to get really fucking bad" is Very in the room. kaiba is at his best to me when he's doing digital duel links necromancy, when his interpersonal relationships beyond mokuba are under the microscope and revealed to be, uh, hanging by a thread or two!

also, just, with not being terribly interested in it all, at this point now five yugiohs in and fully out in the spinoff reeds, i gotta say, every other yugioh rival is a more engaging character to me on a narrative and symbolic level than i have ever personally found kaiba. i honestly think a lot of them are also, by their series' end, far kinder people than seto kaiba is. 🤷‍♀️ maybe in another world another life kaiba could have dueled a robotic embodiment of all his negative traits and been humbled to some degree by that. what a world to think of

[titanebaby]

i agree w things being said on both sides abt the ghosts finale… unfortunately still choosing to dismiss the ep as a whole tho. i can’t quite put my thoughts into coherent enough sentences so i won’t go into specifics, simply cuz i can’t find the words for all of it.

it had some wonderful moments but overall……. like i’m not disappointed but i’m still upset yk? and i don’t think it’s just the writing either, it’s the fuckass bbc & the fact that it was 30 minutes long like girl the pacing . i think if it was longer or if things were rearranged, they could’ve maybe pulled it off. the actual text/execution of the episode disregarded (which i hated) and paralleled (which i loved) a lot of things simultaneously so i really can’t make up my mind. in short, it’s not as if the ghosts can’t live or haven’t lived without alison, but i don’t believe that any of them would be that quick to let them go. i just think 506 was a better ending i’m sawrrryyyy anyway i did cry 👍 and all of their tweets (ben's especially) made me cry some more 👍 and they’re still my silly best friends forever. and they’re not permanently separated! they’re still a family, no matter what. thank christ nobody died or got sucked off peace and love and light but also let me in the writers’ room

[root1412]

(ENG SUB) Chinese Drama “Hi Producer” Zhang Nan and Sun Yihan Supercut

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FYI Couple of Mirror fans! Our girls are back together on screen in a new drama as rivals turned…friends lol. Personally I’m guessing the production company is testing out to see if the fanbase is still there, so please support! I mean why else would they not only make a supercut just of their interactions when they don’t appear to be the two leads AND sub it in English. The entire drama is available on YouTube as well!

[aria0fgold]

The recuperation days are over! Gonna be going back to my mom's house today :3 Ngl though it was preeetty nice living with my sister for 6 days! And also, the power of moving my body around and going outside is amazing... my skin feels so smooth even though my mom and sis has the same bodywash like whoooaaa... the power of being healthy...

[hellishgayliath]

Shoutout to the rottmnt fandom for curing my depression ✌✌✌

[spamsandsuch]

they mean everything to me

[carbonateds-oda]

randomly decided that I needed to memorize every country flag and have been rigorously taking flag quizzes for the past week

[area51-escapee]

Yes I agree that representation is good and whatever but that includes representation that doesn’t represent you in particular. Reading about experiences you can’t personally relate to can be good actually. Learning about other people, cultures, religions, experiences ect is so important for learning and growing as a person please read things that don’t reflect your experiences only

[mukuharakazui-official]

Hey, Kazui. *holds out a phone with Kazui's cover songs queued up to play*

I like your banner, by the way.

"Ah, what's this now..?"

He recieves the phone with hesitance, though he smiles and recieves it nonetheless. He can only hope it's not as...personal as the last was.

[ you know the drill, under the cut for peoples dashboards :p ]

He sighs internally as he plays the first song, labelled "Cowardly Montblanc". He immediately regrets it when he hears his own voice. They're definitely trying to commit some sort of psychological warfare on him... ah, well. No chickening out now...

The song is melancholic, and he listens to the lyrics despite his hesitance.

"These are all the feelings I have; I’ll only say them in this many words. I loved you, but it was a heavy burden. Is that all there is?"

Oh. Hilarious, it's almost like what he told Hinako. He truly was regretting choosing to listen to the songs, but... For some reason, he couldn't bring himself to stop.

“I wish you’d just hurry up and die!”

"...Ah... I'd never say that, i hope you all know, ahaha" was that what she felt he was telling her? Is that why she...

"While quelling my doubts by thinking, “Even the truth is okay,” I was wishing for it all to be a lie Because I worked out the consequences, And I was still a cowardly mont blanc, after all."

He lets out a sigh as the song ends, though he's quick to put on a calm smile again. "Well, it was a very nice song...I'm not too sure on the lyrics, though..."

...He was very sure that they were targeted, though. Hearing his own voice admit to cowardice, the implications he could catch of a failed confession... It wasn't very pleasant to think about.

So he doesn't think about it! Or, well, he tries not to think about it. He doesn't need to say anything to these people anyway, revealing so much to the warden was embarrassing enough, if he were to be honest. And it was their job to hear these things.

"On to the next one then, right?" He hopes it's not as bad as the last. "Let's see...Neo-Neon..?"

"Going in circles, Neo-Neon I should have told the truth if it was going to be like this but I wanted to keep on shining to show you I can lie for you “I’m sorry”"

He has to consciously stop himself from reacting to the lyrics. He's jinxed himself, he thinks. He can't help but feel like the lyrics are connected to him, to what happened, though. They sound awfully similar to how his thoughts were before he'd started dreaming again.

they sound awfully similar to how his thoughts were now, too, but he doesn't want to think about that.

"Something that impossible is impossible Love always wins and I always lose, and that’s fine"

Haha...that's almost comedic, when it comes to what he's been through. Maybe he should've just let "Love" win, if he was going to lose either way.

...He does react when he hears another voice join in. One that sounded awfully similar to Hinako...

"I can’t say it even if it kills me"

The line stands out, spoken instead of sung. He had felt that way once...and he wishes he'd stuck to it.

"e.g. You quit your heartbeat e.g. I quit my breathing Something that impossible is impossible Love always wins and I always lose, and that’s fine"

He can't even bring himself to fake a smile, but he lets out a half hearted laugh anyway. "Well that's...not a very happy song, huh. It was... nice sounding, though, thank you for showing it to me"

Lying is like breathing, just something you have to do to live. He should've learnt that sooner, but he can't do anything about that now.

[darkvolley]

Theres some kind of bigger thing here I wanna explain but Im not really sure what it is or how to explain it, but basically I think wandering around lost for three hours at 10 years old is vital to the KH1 experience

[macncheesenibblers]

Hi guys I think I had/have serotonin syndrome today and yesterday. Started a new drug for el fibro

[filmcel]

my anxiety is coming back