#cvtaddict

[styrostuff]

okay you know what

1,000 notes and i’m gonna make an active attempt at getting clean and trying to figure out how to learn to enjoy life.

i don’t mean this in an attention seeking way! well kind of. i think i would be a bit more incentivized to recover if i had a couple hundred eyes on me instead of just my friends and family.

i’m tired of being sick. i’ll still use this account to vent but i wanna prove to myself that someday i’ll be more than my addiction and mental illness

i’m at a day right now, which is a very big milestone for me. i hope i can continue to make strides towards somewhere better.

[chiyeko-kurea]

-kurea:)

[gh0stcvts]

You ever forget why you sh, like your just so used to doing it, so you just do

[shcultureis]

Sh culture is wanting to stop without wanting to stop

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[ghostcvtzzz]

codependent?? me??? NEVER!!! i’d never cvt because he’s not responding within 10 seconds of my message!! thats preposterous!!

[hardcoregayanalsegx]

Are people deadass not depressed like what does that even feel like

[analyfeglory]

Suicide attempt went a little bad so now my friends won’t laugh at my suicide jokes anymore..

[deathgames5]

Trying to forget everything that had happened this last week

Ready to die

All be safe and careful

[styrostuff]

no feeling worse than hitting styro, bandaging and cleaning it, and having it be almost completely gone the next day

[r1cecakelov3r]

I can deal with b100d but hitting styro and seeing it makes me nauseous 🤡

[magg0t1nfested]

There’s this weird dichotomy of not wanting anyone to know you’re suffering and also desperately wanting someone to acknowledge your pain

[monzter3nergy]

one thing that makes me sad is not the fact I $h, its the fact I'm $h'ing in the same room I used to play with my toys in, little me is probably confused right now

[shcultureis]

Self harm culture is getting sober and wishing you weren’t. Self harm culture is needing that release, that mark, that proof that you’re hurting so maybe someone will believe you. Self harm culture is your dad threatening to kick you out if he sees another cut

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[f41l1ng-0c34n-cr34tvr3]

I fucking wish I wasn’t such a baby

cause if I wasn’t, my body would be covered in scars and I would probably like myself more

I want to cvt all over but I’m terrified of my parents finding out

and I can’t wear long sleeves in the summer because I have issues w/ thermal regulation (if I get too hot I freak out and have a meltdown)

[razorspidey]

my mom left a note in my room that she found my blades but the funny thing is no she didn't i have one thats my "on hand" blade holder (kinda like something that i can js carry them around in) and the one with more blades that are (mostly) unused and sharp. so like i win!!!

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