#cw dysphoria mention

[punkitt-is-here]

I think I’ve sent you something about this before but I’d just like to say again that your freedom of judgement regarding other ppls view of themselves is so special and it’s really helped me confront the fact that I always kinda considered my transness to be less than other ppls bc of my lack of dysphoria. I find that a lot of the younger trans ppl I’m around focus upon it as a solid reason that they’re trans, and I always felt alienated from being truly trans bc I didn’t feel that way.

But your posts make me feel so much more comfy!! I’m queer I’m trans and I’m bisexual and no footnote can take any of that away from me

hell yeah!!! i feel that too since I really don't get a lot of dysphoria; I'm genuinely very comfortable with my body all things considered and for a moment I was worried that I wasn't trans enough because of it, but it's just like......a cool part about me. I like my bod! I'm transgender! I'll probably like it more as I go! Happy I could provide some confidence to ya, that really makes me smile :>

[digitaldoeslmk]

Hi Hi, i saw you wrote something about some missing dragons and i couldn't stop thinking about Ao Lie, and remembering you said that the members of journey to the west are still there and alive (if i got the right) does it mean Ao lie is gonna appear later, maybe to help to train mei or something?

Also, i won't lie, when you said Lady bone demon wasn't gonna be a big antagnist i was a bit sad but made wonder, the samadhi fire is gonna be used here or it won't have a big importance in this au? Ja ja i sure Mk wanted to be taller but now he has to deal with his tiny monkey form, don't be sad mk you have more space in your bed to sleep comfortable and amazing celestial monkey powers... if you forget about the trauma is about to come. Always the kids ending in the middle of the fights, poor Red son and Mk, is not easy to be in those situations, strenght for them.

Ao Lie is canonically made into a bodhisattva and wraps himself on a pillar in the Great Leiyin Temple, though it is also implied he does remain a dragon prince since he's not an ordained monk like the other disciples. In my au he protects temples against weather damages, but he lives in the West Sea with his family. He does appear during S3 as the gang is on their """journey""", as they try to find the missing dragons and what became of them. it's a minor plot overall but him and Mei do have a family moment together. He doesn't help Mei train but does give her some pointers on patience and resilience.

the Samadhi Fire is used but much more casually since it's just one more skill on Red Son's repertoire. they do intend to use it to burn off all the damage LBD has caused, but for that, they need some help from the celestial realm as well as some clearances from the dragons since it will involve a bit of a rain of fire xD

well, it's less about just height and more about how the height is one in a long list of stark dysphoric traits of this new body, smth he thought he was done with after transitioning but here we are again. hey, maybe third puberty is the last, right??

and yeaaaah it's, rough. immortals or not, all family have their drama TvT they figure it out eventually but it's gonna be a road full of growing pains. and real pains. oh man, it's a lot of blood and broken bones and disembowelments-- ANYWAY they figure it out tho, so there's that!!

[maxcatz]

people who vent without warning in the middle of conversations are so strange. i was talking to an online friend about a mass killing that happened in their area and then suddenly they were venting about how gender dysphoric they felt?? huh????

[gattmammon]

Can i donate my boobs to some transfem person. Or somebody who just has dysphoria about being flat-chested for whatever reason. They're well-kept. I'm just tired of them and I feel like I'm no longer able to appreciate them like I should.

[grungepoetica]

you know... the more i think about it, the more i realize that the biggest thing hindering my transition is the fear that i'll end up alone because of it

like obviously i know i'll end up alone at the end of my life because that's how life and death work, but the journey to get there feels. very empty. large chunks of my family have had & will continue to have negative reactions (or acting like i never came out), friends are a very temporary presence that fade whenever somebody moves away, and the romance i thought i could depend on doesn't exist anymore

but so much of transition is physically and emotionally draining and the vast majority of people NEED others that they can lean on and trust with that level of vulnerability, and who also won't see this leaning as a burden

and i don't really have anyone like that. i have one or two friends that would be willing, but they don't have the resources to help as much as i need it, and my friends that have resources probably wouldn't be willing for one reason or another. which means i'm left with myself.

realistically i know that someone would be willing to at least try to help if i asked, but that doesn't make me feel less alone with this chaotic mess of gender anxiety and rejection and dysphoria and religious trauma and psychic damage from the looming threat of genocide. which i never want to bring up, because i don't want people to avoid me because i talk about the negative too much.

it's self-destructive and idk how to get out of it :/

[dietmountaindewdiaries]

i made one comment about my dysphoria to my sister and she laughs and says skill issue.

[askcometcare]

Sly is available for questions!

[thatqueergarbagerat]

I hate being trans, this is bullshit <- wants to kiss boys but is too dysphoric to even flirt

[deadeyedfae]

Here it is! Part 3 of Dead Eyed Ivy Second Puberty Edition 💜🏳️‍⚧️

[certainty2witch]

For Crocodad theory, imagine if the way everyone finds out isn't either of them admitting it. It's Sengoku being mad after the events of Marineford and deciding to hand over declassified info on the revolutionary army, collected by Cypher Pole, which proves that Crocodile is Luffy's birth parent, to Big News Morgan. Imagine everyone has just started their two years of training when they pick up the daily newspaper and right on the cover is confirmation that Crocodile is Luffy's parent.

Since you mentioned the revolutionary army, I suppose you’re talking about my revolutionary crocodile au, even if you talked about Marineford.

And i take some time for adding a bit of lore for my au because is important:

(Answer for anon’s ask after the ‼️‼️‼️)

Crocodile was never evil and with so he never did something wrong in Alabasta. But, he’s still a warlord, and a fake pirate, because he’s a revolutionary undercover.

But let’s say that the marines discovered Crocodile is a revolutionary and that’s a way for putting him in impel down?

Iva obliviously, since is there too, save him and bring him at level 5.5, they both wait for the right moment for escaping (imagine Croc being uncomfortable around all that extravagant people, he doesn’t like loud people, and Iva likes to torment him because they think Croc miss Dragon and Croc says he doesn’t.

Is the truth btw he just wanna run into Dragon’s arms and kissing him).

And with so, Impel down arc happens, but Croc is always with Iva instead of being locked at level 6. His reaction to his son almost dead is pretty devastating, just imagine that… I mentioned in a recent post that they have a deep and special bond when Luffy was little. With older Luffy this keep existing!

So Marineford is pretty the same with Doflamingo bothering him (lmao, sorry babe your love is busy with the world’s worst criminal, he’s not a single man), with him protecting Ace (this time for Luffy and only for him💕) and other canon stuff.

And he suffers seeing his son losing his sense after his brother’s death. He obliviously protect him and Jinbe from Akainu (in every au he always saves him in that scene *sigh* good daddy).

So after Marineford he and Luffy separate, and he finally reunite with Dragon.

‼️‼️‼️

And now about the ask.

But first i add little warning.

Cw //mention of gender dysphoria!

Somehow Sengoku knows and decides to reveal everything (my god you should just close that trap sometimes, stupid marine) I honestly can’t imagine why he would know something like that, maybe due to Garp? (Close that trap too!!) because yep Garp knows Croc is trans and Luffy’s other dad.

Crocodile never liked the idea of people knowing his secret: him being Luffy’s other parent. He knows in that world people like him are seeing in a bad way and if others will discover he isn’t cis, my god I’m sure people will keep misgendering him… and he would hate that. I imagine his past full of transphobic people, keep using wrong pronouns with him and forcing him to just be like “Mother Nature made him”… you know useless things like this. So well he grow up frustrated and angry, Iva was his light, the revolutionary army were his light. Even after hrt, Crocodile felt the oppression of not being cis (mostly when he got pregnant of Luffy). But in this Au, he with the support of others started to feeling more and more comfortable just being himself. He’s not cis? Who cares!

But if people will discover he is Luffy’s dad too and with so, the father that gave birth to him, i like to imagine him asking his friends (and love) some support. He is more comfortable being trans, but something like that is hard to handle anyway, because nobody asked for his consent! If that was his secret, and he wanted to keep that hidden, well there’s a reason.

I hope I explained everything at least in a decent way, feel free to ask for some more if you are curious or to ask something else in the ask box.

And correct me or tell me to change something, if you think is inappropriate please.

For a dear anon that i still didn’t answer, if you are seeing this, just know that your idea inspired me. I will draw what you said, because I know what to draw hehe but i need time because i have other art first 🙏🏻

[azrael-is-haunted]

me: avoiding mirrors because that doesn't look like me

also me: pffffft... I'm trans. It's the dysphoria, not like everything is wrong. Not at all a DID thing. Definitely not. ಠ_ಠ

[trickstarbrave]

modern au part 3

i know i said they were gonna meet this chapter but. this part got too long and if i kept going the chapter would be like 6k+ words. so. i think this is a good place to call the chapter. they'll meet up in the next one and have a crying reunion

however, let me say nerevar gets some sense talked into him by his mom and agrees to see voryn. the angst is ending. his mom called him out on his spiraling thoughts. everyone say thank you nerevar's mom

also theres some fun pregnancy things like back pain and sciatica. and baby steren is kicking

If Nerevar was honest, the only reason he bothered taking care of himself was because of the baby. He got up, showered, ate, and exercised a little almost solely because of the little bump in his stomach. If it wasn’t for the baby he would have just laid in bed and rotted.

But he reminded himself that he chose the baby, so he had to take care of them. And that meant taking care of himself since they were growing in him.

His mom wasn’t ever the most affectionate woman, and definitely not what you’d call maternal, but she was knowledgeable and took him to all of his appointments. She even made sure he was following nutrition guidelines, got his stupid pre-natal vitamins and took them, and even got him a dumb pregnancy pillow (well, it looked dumb anyways, but it was honestly heavenly to sleep with).

Eventually the rawness of the break up faded. Instead of worrying about Voryn, he was worrying about the kid. The tiny little thing growing in him. Actually being pregnant was quickly a much more pressing issue than the break up between morning sickness, dysphoria, and back pain.

He even found out he was having a boy (or well, possibly a boy unless he came out as a girl later in life) a little while ago, and he was over the moon about it. Nerevar wouldn’t have cared either way about the sex of his baby, but it was nice to just know more about them. To be able to track development, and know they were one step closer to being born. Going to appointments he got to see the little fuzzy blob getting bigger and bigger as his stomach grew, the baby getting more and more… Well, looking more and more like an actual baby. The kicks went from a weird fluttery feeling to his stomach to soft bumps to slightly more painful. 

Nerevar was still stuck on a name, but his mother told him not to worry about it. Nivara said he could pick out all the names he wanted but he would likely change his name the second he saw the little guy, as she couldn’t make up her mind until Nerevar was screaming in the hospital with her boyfriend crying in joy off to the side. 

At the very least, he was hoping his mind would be fully off Voryn once the baby was actually here. When times were peaceful and he wasn’t in agony, either from back pain, kicks, or a shooting pain in his legs, his mind often wandered. This late into pregnancy there were fewer and fewer peaceful moments, but it still happened from time to time. He’ll be on the couch watching tv (just so he didn’t lay in bed all day) and remember Voryn wasn’t there and his entire mood would drop. He’d likely never see Voryn again, and his son would never meet his other dad. He couldn’t share all the stupid little pregnancy milestones or tell Voryn how big the baby was or that their baby could dream by now and wonder what he was dreaming about. 

Just as his thoughts were starting to get to him though, his mom came in, holding an envelope in her hands. 

“... Hey kid,” She began, clearly apprehensive. It was out of character for Nivara, she normally hated delaying things or beating around the bush. “There’s a letter I think you should read.”

“A letter?” He raised an eyebrow, holding out his hand. 

When Nivara handed it off to him, he almost wished she hadn’t. He made it to the name of who sent it and already wanted to fucking burn the damn thing. 

“Nerevar,

If you’re reading this letter, I presume your mother gave it to you. I already wrote a letter to her as well explaining the situation urging her to let you read this. Apologies for involving her in this, but I felt like it might be safer than mailing you directly and having you dispose of it without even giving it a glance. 

I found out what Gilvoth, Vemyn, and Uthol did. Let me tell you outright: what they did was wrong. They not only hurt you and Voryn, they also broke the law and my trust. They had no business getting your medical information and coercing you with that information. 

Simply all I ask is that we speak about this like adults. You never got the chance to talk with Voryn about it properly, nor were we ever able to speak about it either. At least for the sake of closure and coming to an agreement, I want us to speak about everything.

Voryn isn’t in trouble. You are not in trouble. I am not angry with either of you. Voryn will not be disowned or disinherited regardless of your decision. I am not asking you to come back if you don’t want to. You are more than free to refuse being involved with my son or moving back at all. I won’t push you to give up custody. I just want us to speak, say everything we want to say, and hopefully agree on something. 

Signed,

Morvani Dagoth”

Nerevar stared at the letter for some time, dread creeping over him. He reread the letters over and over, almost nauseous. 

Morvani knew. Voryn’s mother knew. She said Voryn wouldn’t be disowner or disinherited, but he didn’t know how much he believed her. It could just be an excuse to confirm if he was actually pregnant or not. That, or she could just want to see him to make sure the baby and Voryn would never have a relationship, throwing a check at him to make him stay away from her son. 

“I think you should speak with them.” Nivara said as Nerevar put the letter down and covered his face. 

“Why?” Nerevar asked, in a tone he couldn’t decipher was annoyed or distressed, even though he was the one speaking. 

“Because I think she’s telling the truth.” Nivara continued. “She seems to want to sort this all out, and at the very least give you both closure.” Nivara was tense, staring at the tv but not really watching it. “And you’ve been miserable this entire time.”

“Mom, I’m pregnant, of course I’m miserable.” He could be in college right now, laughing and joking and getting ready for winter break, but instead he was on his mom’s couch seven months pregnant, feeling like shit from a combination of pain and dysphoria. 

“It’s more than that and you know it.” Nivara shot him a glare. “You cry about everything and you rarely ever cry. You would lay in bed all day if it wasn’t for the baby. Your eyes are dead. You’re miserable.” 

“I’m pretty sure most of that is because I’m pregnant.” Sure, he felt hollow and wanted to lay in bed all day because of the breakup, but most of the other stuff was just the pregnancy. 

“You miss Voryn.” She sighed. “You don’t have to lie or say it’s for the best to stay away from him anymore.” She urged him again. “His mother already knows. I at least want you to just go speak with them to tell them you’re through with him and get everything off your chest.” 

Nerevar could see her point. The issue was Nerevar didn’t know if he was strong enough to face Voryn right now. Not any time soon at all, actually. He was terrified he would break down and fall right into Voryn’s arms, apologizing for hurting him with that text and just vanishing on him, especially since it seemed like it didn’t fucking matter considering his mother found out anyways. 

And even if he went back with Voryn, what good would it do anyways? All he’d be doing is delaying the inevitable and letting his son get attached to Voryn. They would play together, spend time together as a family, bond, and eventually Voryn would grow distant and leave the two of them behind. He would have to explain to his son that his other dad just didn’t love them anymore and didn’t want to be a part of their lives. That would be even more cruel, right? Looking into his little baby’s eyes and telling him they weren’t wanted or loved anymore or having to lie to him and tell him his other father just was going through something and still loved them when the child could see otherwise…

Ah shit, Nerevar was crying again. Like, really crying, tears pouring out of his eyes at the heartbreak. In his stomach, seeming to protest it, the baby kicked hard and Nerevar hissed in pain as he wiped his face. 

“Neht,” Nivara wrapped an arm around his shoulders. “It’ll be alright.” 

“No it won’t.” Nerevar groaned, still unable to look at her. “I can’t face him right now, I’ll just want to go back with him.” 

“Then go back with him.” She said, as though it was simple. 

“I can’t.” Nerevar stressed. “I can’t just go back with him, not when he might leave me--”

“Why are you so worried about something that might not even happen?” Nivara asked him incredulously, almost like Nerevar was stupid for even suggesting it. 

“Because it’s going to happen!” Nerevar snapped. “He’s young and stupid now, but he’s going to grow out of me. He’s going to realize he wants someone of the same social standing as him, someone he isn’t fucking embarassed to be around, someone his whole family actually wants around, and he’s going to leave me behind!” He hadn’t ever actually told anyone his fears for the future, but he couldn’t stop the words tumbling out of his mouth. “And the last thing I want is to let my son get attached to him, only for Voryn to change his mind and leave the both of us behind, having to explain to the kid why his other dad doesn’t fucking love us anymore and why he’s unwanted. I can’t put him through that, I can’t let him be hurt like that…”

He was sobbing almost uncontrollably now, between groans of pain as another sharp pain shot down from his hips to his legs. 

Nivara continued to rub his shoulder, before sighing after a few minutes.

“Nerevar,” She began, “You’re being a fucking idiot.”

“Mom!” Nerevar hissed. 

“You’ve gotten yourself so worried over something that may not happen.” She continued. “Sure, he might do it because rich people suck, but you never know what people might do. He might never leave you. He might chase you down no matter how many times you push him away.” Nerevar couldn’t see that happening if he was honest. Sure, maybe at first, but why would Voryn chase after him. 

“Did he ever seem like the type to change his mind like that? Is he uncommitted?” Nivara asked, her tone showing that she demanded an answer. 

After a few moments, Nerevar hiccuped, still hiding his face. “No…” He mumbled. If anything Voryn was overcommitted to most things, even to his detriment. He didn’t seem to know when to quit or obsessed over things. “But why would he stay with me?” 

“Maybe because he’s a bigger idiot than you are.” Nivara answered. “Look, do you love him?”

“... Yes.” Nerevar answered. 

“Do you want to be with him, if you knew he wasn’t going to leave you?”

“Yes.” Nerevar answered again.

“Has he ever done anything to break your trust?”

“No.” The kicking was calming down, as were his sobs.

“Then why not give him a chance.” Nivara urged him again. “At least hear him out. And if you go back with him and he pulls that shit to you and my grandson there isn’t a single person on this planet that can stop me from kicking his ass.” Nerevar snorted at that, before eventually he erupted into laughter, his body shaking from the force of it. In response the baby kicked again, making Nerevar wince and stop. 

“Be careful. Little guy is sensitive.” 

“I think I woke him up from a nap with my crying. Now he’s pissed at me.” Nerevar groaned, rubbing his stomach almost apologetically.

“Relax a little bit and calm down.” Nivara patted his back. “I’ll call Voryn’s mom and set up a meeting. Probably at the house, or at the very least somewhere private. Does that work for you?”

“Yeah.” Nerevar was still nervous about the whole thing, but he felt a bit more reassured. It didn’t seem impossible anymore, at least. And if he got nervous he’d just hide in his room until his mom forced them to leave. And in his mom’s house he didn’t have to worry about causing a scene if he broke down crying. “Here would probably be good.”

[theshadow-inthelight]

I really need a better way to describe my dysphoria to older folks (usually conservative)

because I don't think saying "if I don't get top surgery by the time I'm thirty, I will end up killing myself ' will really ...work the way I need it too

And the ways I've tried so far I usually just get weird responses like them asking if I'll grow out of it, or if it's trauma related. Like how do I explain that no I don't think it's from my past trauma because I've worked through that and it hasn't decreased my discomfort,if anything im more uncomfortable now than I used to be about a lot of things. Like how...how do you describe dysphoria to people who have never experienced it.

[fr0zenballs]

Small Rant/Vent

Cw/Tw/Mentions: Genitals in a Nonsexual Manner + Gender and Species Dysforia

Aaghhhhh this is probably going to sound really weird but I genuinely think I would prefer to have a more realistic werewolf sheath (with or without a shaft nub I don't care) packer than I would a usual humanoid realistic packer.

I've been getting pretty bad bottom dysforia lately and one of the things that has been comforting me is calling my bottom growth my sheath and my tip because of the way it feels in my hands. And that makes me feel so much better because it makes me feel way more like a t-fueled werewolf that's growing his sheath in rather that a sad human with the wrong set of genitals (even though I am technically both a sad human and a happy werewolf).

Plus the idea of having more werewolf oriented genitals gives me both gender euphoria and species euphoria, as someone who is both transgender and a canine!!

But it's not like I'm saying that I wouldn't be over the moon with a typical packer!! Quite the opposite actually, the idea of having a normal penis is still very appealing to me, hence why I plan to get bottom surgery in the future ^_^

Sorry if this rant(vent?) was weird or offputting, I just really needed to get my thoughts out of my head!!

P.S: If anyone knows where I could get something like I described please let me know!!! I probably will end up making my own at some point but It'll take a lot of work and sewing on my part-

[askcometcare]

[austinramsaygames]

Posting the original tweet since it has the author in it.

CW sex, gender dysphoria, homophobia, military recruitment, war, death, body modification.

This is a very interesting story that touches some of the same complexities that Isabel Fall's I Sexually Identify As A Helicopter worked with. Minor difference is that it's about mechs.

PS the author still appears to be working on it as I read what seemed like a finished version earlier today, but two additional paragraphs have been added since then.