#didnt expect that post to actually get attention lmfao

[luvdisease]

hi i'm half surprised you didn't put "the moon will sing" on shadowheart's playlist since u had a crane wives song. i just think its the PERFECT shadowheart song idk

Mmm maybe I have a different interpretation of the song but I can't really seem to associate it with her.

Plus admittedly i've been listening to the crane wives for a few years now and it's not one of my favourite songs hahdgdhdg

[picnicbask3t]

Damn Joe, can't believe you kin Jeff ~ Mandika

[bigmack2go]

Ok so i found something from a while ago and never posted it so here u go ig

Ok first coment: „hey, i just noticed qll the little deatails. You’re really in character, good job!“

(Might not have been abozt that but like i feel like it was)

LMFAO SOMEONE PASSING BY JUST YELLED AT ME ACROSS THE ROOM„wrong foot!“ I CANT 😭💀

Ok so apparently a lot of people know what foot kaz hinks on???

Lmao this one came from my friend who went to the con w me??? „You wanna be completely in character? Hink! Trust me thats the deatails“ i just sort of looked at him fir a minute and then he went „cuz rn ur just walking like u alsways do“ and idk what do respon😭😭😭

Cleared tho whole thing up. Apparently the motherfucker didn’t knew i hinked??? Anyway so i think he’s just an idiot bc i cant believe what he said later. Half an hour later he said „you’re hinking with the wrong foot“ LIKE MF I CANT CHANGE ME DAMAGED FOOT IM SORRY

Ok so i won a price omfg

Im honestly embarrassed by how fucking dumb and oblivious my friends are cuz i think at least seven strangers noticed my limb today and pointed it out and at least as many friends of mine that know me for a very long time haven’t even known about it? I mean i dont rly bring it uo but you have eyes.

Just won another price for being in character. Like the guy SAID IT OUT LOUD.

Why do so many people know which foot Kaz Brekker the Bastard Of The Barrel™️ hinks on?

Someone asked if i choose the character with the limb on purpose 💀💀 (worst part is: yes. Yes i fucking did😭😭💀)

Ok this one was kind of cute. I dont think they knew the character but they noticed i was hinking and asked if i was okay🥹 my heart melted

Its really weird how people are super supportive about kaz and tell me they really like that i represent disabled people by cosplaying him but at the same time just assume that my limb is fake??

Lmfao someone just said im a furry for hinking😭😭

I didnt think that ACTUALLY so many people would notice that im not hinking on my left.

I made this more as a joke tbh. I expected them to notice the limb but the side guys?? Seriously?? I was joking!!!

So turns out that i the only reason i permanently hurt my foot when i was eight, was so i‘d get attention (which i absolutely love! I love love love being the centre of attention for something that isn’t even represening me as a person! And the pitying? *cheffskiss*🤌🏼) and could say im representing kaz? Who I absolutely totally knew about when i was EIGHT? I mean ofc like duhhh. What did u think?

Ok so ive never had so many people even notice my limb on one day and now they’re all kinds of people noticing?? some are insulting my about it?? Why tf are you insulting for a limb? Like thats a genuine question: why?

Conclusion: even tho there were less people at that convention than living im my town, there were still 5 times more that ever noticed mine in years of having it there at one day

[mypimpademia]

hi!! i absolutely loved the "i like ya cut g" hc (i think its a hc, my tumblr lingo is terrible so forgive me) and i was thinking, could i request the same idea for mirio, kirishima, and aizawa? thank you very much!! remember to take breaks and stay hydrated!!

Mirio x reader, Kirishima x reader, Aizawa x reader

TW: Swearing

Note: I'm glad you like it, and yes it is hc lmfao. And I will, thank you💖

Mirio still has his quirk for this one

Taglist: @myhoodacademia @bnhainthewoo @iiminibattlehero @ecao @v-vpluto @cheerfulpeople1234 @strawberry-ice @mixxfi @renzai @liltodo @deepsleepysheep @wolfkid22 @mythiccheroacademia @soy-diablito @myfandemons @melanimed

MIRIO

The idea of doing it had been at the back of your head for a good while

You were gonna do it when you first thought of it

But you honestly felt kinda bad💀

You weren't gonna seriously hit him of course

It was for a tiktok

And hes beefed up as shit so you doubt that even if you did hit him hard that it'd actually hurt him badly

But Mirio is just a sweet lil ray of sunshine so you just felt bad

But eventually, you got over it, because he probably wouldn't care too much and would laugh it off

So there you are, standing a few feet behind your wonderful boy, phone in hand, and about to do something you'd probably feel bad about if it went even a little south

He was sitting on the couch just scrolling through is phone, you had the perfect opening to hit his neck

So you went for it

You hit play, and took the moment of silence to walk up to him

'I like ya cut g.'

You expected to feel your palm make contact with his neck, followed by a sharp slapping noise

But you didnt

Why you asked?

Because this man is too damn smart and activated his quirk

So your hand just went straight through him

Mirio turned around and looked at you, smiling just as widely as always.

"Nice try, Sunshine.😀"

KIRISHIMA

Like I said... Denki does it, so he knows what it is

He thinks its funny tbh

He wouldn't do it to you though because he'd never hit you

So again... you felt really bad doing this 😭

You guys play fight every now and then, but he usually sees it coming since its gradual

This was gonna be entirely out of the blue

But plus, he wouldn't get angry since Denki already does it. Plus, youre you and youre like one of his favorite people

So you stood behind your boyfriend while he sat on his gaming chair, headset on but one off his ear

It wasn't abnormal for you to mess with him a little while he was playing, he actually thought it was cute

Poke his cheek, kiss all over his face, sit on his lap, anything

But this time was different, simply because it wasn't affectionate

So you took a deep breath, and hit play, using the moment of silence to wind your hand back

'I like ya cut g.'

SMACK

Eiji didn't move for a second, blinking, needing to process what the hell just happened

Then he turned around, an extremely confused expression on his face

And even more confused when he saw you

"Babe??? What was that for???"

You honestly were laughing because his confusion was funny

"It was for TikTok, I didn't hit you too hard, did I Eiji?"

He ended up smiling 🥺

"Not at all baby, can I see the video though?"

You posted it then showed it to him, and Denki and Sero must've overheard since Eijiros mic was still on

You all got a good laugh out of it, and Eijiro wasn't mad at you at all and found it amusing

However, this did prompt denki into screaming into his mic

"I LIKE YA CUT G."

AIZAWA

Most definitely not one of the best things you could do to this man while dating him

Or to him in general...

You knew Shoutas reaction wouldn't be a positive one, but you just wanted to see what his reaction would be

He didn't even know what the trend was, he doesn't even pay attention to social media

Shouta is one of those people that mispronounces social platform names like they weren't made when he was a teen

So he honestly doesn't know what most trends are and if he does its from his students (especially denki, jirou, sero, and mina)

As funny as it would be to make it into a TikTok, you knew that'd be crossing the line with him

So you were just gonna do it as a little joke

Shouta was grading papers at the kitchen table

And you often didn't bother him when he did so unless it was to help him or ask a quick question

So you just strolled up and...

"I like ya cut g."

SMACK

Shouta remained looking down for a moment, before whipping his head around to glare at you

His eyebrow was twitching, and the vein in his forehead bulged

As much as you loved him, seeing him like this because of a silly joke you did was kinda funny so you started laughing

This prompted Shouta to go back to work, opting to ignore you

"Shouta, come on, I was just messing around."

No response.

"Shoutaaa."

He was so petty about it and ignored you for a full day🙄

You didn't get so much as a glance from him till he got home from work the next day

[ogkunty]

Furcadia Toxicity

The complete log file is provided, everything here is unedited, this all transpired publicly and should be available for everyone to have access to at all times. Thank you. (19:14:03) Tacada: watching the riot police going (19:14:21) Kixy: Protesting doesn't do anything. (19:14:23) Kunty: Nah, tell people to spend time with their fucking families they keep trying to ride dicks/cunts out of (19:14:23) Tacada: theyre taking the hong kong approach the protestors. using cones n water to stop tear gas nades (19:14:32) Kunty: they riot if quarantined. (19:14:33) Ditty: god (19:14:37) Ditty: turned out as expected (19:14:45) Ditty: Kixy: People will make a bigger stink out of not being called the correct pronoun than anything important. (19:14:48) Ditty: so peoples pronouns are important (19:14:52) Ditty: not sure why you have to bring that into this lmao (19:14:58) Puffin: ^^^^^^ (19:15:01) Ditty: Maya: Just offer free heroin and meth, you'll see enough people. (19:15:02) Ditty: so thats gross (19:15:07) Ditty: not sure why you have to bring that into this either (19:15:08) Kunty: IDC about pronouns, why is that even a thing? (19:15:09) Kixy: The point was that people get more angry over stupid shit than anything serious? (19:15:15) Ditty: pronouns are not stupid shit (19:15:19) Kunty: They are (19:15:21) Kixy: Yes they are. (19:15:27) Puffin: Riots are the language of the unheard, fam (19:15:29) Kixy: Compared to SO SO many things. (19:15:34) Ditty: why do we have to compare (19:15:39) Ditty: peoples identities are extremely important (19:15:41) Ditty: you cant rank it among other things (19:15:54) Ditty: did you know humans have the capacity to care about multiple things at once or are furcadians not able to do that (19:15:55) Tacada: sorry ditty i started all of this O.O (19:15:57) Kunty: I agree with Kixy, pronouns are NOT important in comparison to riots, killings, and corona. (19:16:03) Ditty: why are we comparing them (19:16:06) Ditty: answer the question

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The Devil’s Den Discord Meanwhile... Yes, you may Join.

/6:33 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: IMAGINE SEXUALLY HARASSING PEOPLE AND BEING TRANSPHOBIC AS FUCK ON FUCADIA [6:34 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: LITERALLY JUST FOR ATTENTION [6:34 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: WHO FAILED YOU [6:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: JK ITS YOUR OWN FUCKIN FAULT [6:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: "THE DEVIL'S DEN" THIS IS SOME SERIOUSLY TEEENY EDGELORD SHIT [6:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: ESPECIALLY WITH YOUR GROSS RAPE FANTASY THESAURUS-FUCKING DESCRIPTION [6:36 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: UNAPOLOGETIC SEXUAL HARASSERS SHOULD BE SHOT [6:39 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: jesus your discord server is dead as fuck [6:39 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: small wonder you have no friends [6:39 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: you are human garbage(edited) [6:43 PM] Hellcat: I'm here to fuck ass [6:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: its completely dead its no use [6:44 PM] Hellcat: Plague queens are my fetish tho [6:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: im here to fuck ass and fuck bubblegum [6:45 PM] Hellcat: Who failed you lmfao [6:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: yeah i had to rethink that cuz that'd mean it's someone else's fault [6:46 PM] Hellcat: It smells like poop and semen [6:47 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: as expected [6:55 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: [REDACTED] just thought yall should know your friend is a gross transphobe who repeatedly talked about my partner's genitals after being asked not to [6:55 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: and also claimed corona was a good thing because the world needs a "plague" [6:55 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: attention seeking teen edgelord bullshit [6:56 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: could only respond with "k" when it was brought up [7:08 PM] Ill: ? [7:09 PM] Ill: Logs please @Xzfgiiimtsath#6669(edited) [7:11 PM] Ill: It is without saying that unless evidence is provided, everything else is simply hearsay. I’m sorry to say that, without visible proof of this outrageous claim, you’re kind of just making empty accusations and slanderous character bashing. ): [REDACTED]  [7:12 PM] Ill: Oh, I guess they just wanted to troll. ): I’m sorry, hopefully this can be cleaned up. [7:28 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: OH HI [7:28 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: JUST ASK HER SHE WONT DENY IT [7:28 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: she was pretty proud of it on furc [7:28 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: i can post logs but judging from your response to that you'd just say i'd edited them lol [7:29 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: is it really hard to believe that she'd say something like that? seems pretty in-character for her [7:31 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: i mean you guys jerk it to beast porn tho i dont have high hopes for any moral outrage here [7:31 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: but if there were any trans people in the server id def want them to know [7:33 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: she was shit-talking people who care about their pronouns [7:33 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: my partner, who is trans, tries to explain to them what's wrong with that [7:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: then Kunty's response is to repeatedly talk about not wanting to hear about their genitals(?) which has nothign to do with pronouns and wasnt part of the conversation [7:35 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: when asked to stop talking about their genitals she continues unabated just to piss them off(edited) [7:36 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: you can choose to believe im just making this up for no reason if you want, but that would be really fucking brickheaded of you [7:37 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: care more about your shitty transphobic friend repeatedly who was bringing up my partners genitals randomly and without their consent(edited) [7:37 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: @ill [7:40 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: again, 0 hopes for you response, youre a fantasy animal r*pe enthusiast who says things like, "It is without saying that unless evidence is provided," [7:40 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: holy fuck get your head out of your ass [7:41 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: but ill STILL warn you of your transphobic friend since judging on your art youre lgbtq+ [7:43 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: are you just gonna wait til i leave again to respond? figures [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: you didnt even ask them about it, just "NO EVIDENCE SO ITS FAKE" [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: you'd really go that far to defend this person when you have no idea what happened? [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: god you fucking suck [7:44 PM] Ill: Okay but [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: but nothing [7:44 PM] Ill: You are actively here [7:44 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: wow youre a fuckin genius or something eh [7:44 PM] Ill: Why are you being aggressive? [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: because im pissed [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: obviously [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: stupid question [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: why are you deflecting [7:45 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: and defending your transphobic friend for no god damn reason [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz [7:46 PM] Ill: Okay, I understand that you are in an emotional state right now, but I would really need you to calm down first before coming off on a rage to people that have no idea what you are upset over. [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: ? [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: read my post dumbass [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: then you'd know [7:46 PM] Ill: No [7:46 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: LOL [7:47 PM] Ill: Here is why [7:47 PM] Ill: The stupidest things we say are said out of Anger. [7:47 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: are you legit like 14 [7:47 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: im wasting my time [7:47 PM] Ill: I will advise you a little more directly that you take time to calm down before you come venting. [7:48 PM] Ill: No, I am asking you to be an adult [7:48 PM] Ill: And not a raging tween with a hormone spike [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: said the literal child who thinks having emotions means "not being an adult" [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: lmfao [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: not being pissed about transphobia is a character flaw [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: work on it bitch [7:48 PM] Ill: I emphasize with your anger, I am not saying it is wrong to have them [7:48 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: emphasize with my anger [7:49 PM] Ill: I am saying that you are abusing everyone else for things we have no knowledge or control over [7:49 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: what the fuck are you talking about [7:49 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: im warning you about your transphobic friend and youre being a piece of shit about it [7:50 PM] Ill: You are acting like a child, I’ve been there and done that - it does not end well. Please take time to self care for yourself first so you can be an adult that can have a calm conversation [7:50 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: and you also fantasize about r*ping animals so again: 0 hope for you to have any concept of why things are wrong [7:50 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: total fucking human garbage [7:50 PM] Xzfgiiimtsath: [8:05 PM] Ill: I am going to go step away before I address this further, I am losing some patience very quickly. I am kindly asking you to do the same so that you may take time to care for yourself during this clearly highly emotional state you are in. Maybe sip some cool water, dab your cheeks with ice, and/or take a moment with a loved one that makes you feel safe. I do not know what else to recommend here, I do not assume ignorance right away when meeting people, and I would like to think that other people can also step back to rationalize themselves down from tensions like these. I call this being an adult, growing up enough to get beyond yelling and throwing every accusation at someone simply because you’re angry. Accepting that it could be possible there is a grave misunderstanding, or maybe even misinterpretation of intent/meaning. As a person that never gets these opportunities to rationalize issues away from pure misunderstood hatred, I have never seen the actual outcome. In the adult world here, if we are angry with someone that offended us, we can’t just go into their family bbq and be screaming like lunatics about how their goat fuckers based solely on our interpretations, either. That would lead to calling the police... it doesn’t get you anywhere ... not in the adult world. You need to stop and care for yourself before you come guns blazing. You don’t DO this in the adult world and then call the adults staring at you like a tantruming toddler “children” because they won’t feed your anger. I’m sorry, for whatever it is you feel WE did to you specifically. You came here, though and whatever your assumptions are, I understand that there is no arguing with you or reasoning with you beyond you are the victim of some unproven atrocity. 

- Xzfgiiimtsath#6669 - Hellcat#0186

(19:15:15) Ditty: pronouns are not stupid shit (19:15:19) Kunty: They are (19:15:21) Kixy: Yes they are.

[meggannn]

more for lydia (of course): 21, 24, 45, 49

i am the worst person for taking like a day to respond to this omg

21)   Best Friend(s)?

it’s hard to categorize her best “friends” because for a while she doesn’t really consider them friends, she considers them “acquaintances she has varying degrees of closeness and unique relationships with” while not realizing that like… that is the definition of a friend? lmao (like for example, she only really let herself think of garrus and tali as ‘friends’ instead of ‘crewmembers i’m fond and protective of’ until the shore leave after the battle of the citadel. though while she was close with her me1 crew, i do think me2 is the first time she realizes she’s allowed to think of her team as friends too.

me1: kaidan and ashley at least in the beginning. by the end of the game i think she’s closer to tali as well

me2: at first, garrus and kasumi, and later when they join, tali and samara. i say this with like, knowing she has fondness for all of her crew

me3: garrus and, after renewing their relationship, ashley

24)   Do they have a love/hate relationship with any of them?

not with any of those mentioned above, though i think her relationships with miranda and jack in 2 are a little… not adversarial, but shepard is wary of them as much as she likes them. miranda for obvious reasons, and jack because she genuinely likes her after a while but being around her for so long is a bit of a drain on her energy, since she kind of reminds her of the kids from her old gangs. zaeed she definitely has a love/hate relationship with in 2, in that she appreciates his talks and advice but doesn’t appreciate his attitude and volatile unpredictability.

45)   Do they use social media?

lmfao I HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS ABOUT SHEPARD ON SOCIAL MEDIA OKAY YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE ASKED ME THIS, it’s not that she’s very tech savvy (though there’s some proficiency with hacking) just growing up as a teenager on earth who stole/resold a lot of omnitools and translators and laptops, she had very few other pasttimes when cash wasn’t coming in. i think she was really into social media during ict training with other candidates, as a way of bonding and non-physical de-stressing. and she obviously knows a lot of online slang and shitty corners of the internet from her teenage days. in the alliance she goes through periods of activity followed by periods of forgetting about the internet at all, like when she’s on missions.

by me1, she’s established enough that i think she’s convinced herself a commander shouldn’t post on social media, that’s not appropriate, blah blah. so for a while she’s mostly quiet with only occasional funny but nonoffensive comments on things like pop culture or whatever. then after the battle of the citadel she gets a huuuuge influx of followers, and she’s like ??? cause she doesn’t use her space twitter much, so she kinda posts once like "hey thanks for the support, look out for my album coming out next spring” and everybody loves it, until she starts talking about the reapers publicly and preparing for war, then everybody’s like “god shut up i thought you were cool” so she gets angry when it becomes apparent that most people just want a figurehead, not her to actually say anything, but she can’t go back to making jokes and pretending things are normal, so she stops posting altogether. maybe like, once or twice more about something irrelevant, and then three weeks later she’s dead. (and then her crew like garrus and tali in particular waste so much time on the internet looking at her online profiles, rereading her last posts, hunting through years worth of her feed far back enough to see she was a different person once, both of them in mourning but garrus denying it)

and then me2 happens, and she’s obviously not thinking about social media for a while. when she does, it’s like maybe midway through the game, like maybe on illium kasumi drags her out to dinner cause she found authentic thai in the markets, and shepard’s just content enough to think “this is the kind of meal you post a picture about and share on social media” and she considers it before remembering oh yeah i was dead……. is my account even still there? how weird would it be to suddenly post out of nowhere again? i know the rumor is i was just under cover, but would it help or hurt the war to treat this like normal? and she basically overanalyzes and decides not to say anything at all. (in reality i think after she died her account was given the space equivalent of a twitter verification, like Yes This Was The Real Shepard’s Account, Tweets Might Be Recorded, which she only discovers after she logs in on a whim back on the ship). i don’t think she breaks this social media fast until she either uses it one day because she 1) completely forgets she was avoiding it, like she just wakes up randomly and types “i had the weirdest fuckin dream let me tell yall about it” because she’s still half asleep and convinces herself it’s a good idea, then goes back to sleep and wakes up to a million notifications like “i KNEW YOU WERE BACK!!” and “SOMEONE HACKED SHEPARD’S ACCOUNT THAT’S DISGRACEFUL” and she’s like oh boy. OR 2) she gets so heated over something stupid (that is definitely about human pop culture) that she completely forgets/doesnt give a rat’s ass anymore about maintaining silence online. like “I JUST HEARD SPACE BEYONCE WASN’T NOMINATED FOR A GRAMMY LAST YEAR. WHAT THE FUCK?” after the collector base, she feels a little more freedom to be funny and has the time to engage and post about pop culture again, so she gains some attention back for that

by me3, coming out of alliance-imposed isolation, i think she takes back to the internet whenever she can, for better or worse, but because most of the news she swallows is so awful, she tries to be positive and reach out to people who @ her, like she doesn’t want to lie to them, but she tries to signal boost official evacuation and relocation efforts and stuff. when the alliance starts gaining allies, there’s a little bit of expectation for her to use her accounts as a political “so honored the turian hierarchy is joining us” blah blah kind of tweet, so she’s kind of like…. well people deserve to know we’ve made an accord, but i’m gonna do it my way, and she essentially starts sharing all the stuff that’s happening on the citadel that might get easily lost in translation, like

“i can confirm councilor udina was just killed by spectre williams after a standoff on the presidum, after he threatened the life of another councilor. we have confirmed that he was compromised by cerberus after his participation in a failed coup. please see the official statement for more details. the death of a high profile politician is always a shock, but to those feeling betrayed, i want every human and alien to be reminded that spectres are chosen to protect the galaxy from both foreign and internal threats. ashley williams takes her role seriously, as do i, and her actions saved lives yesterday. in light of the recent citadel attack, the alliance would also like me to encourage people to remain vigilant against cerberus cyberwarfare and contact with reaper tech. stay safe, everyone.”

just like, very honest, frank statements or clarifications that might not otherwise get out there, with an emphasis on trying to keep morale as high as reasonably possible. it’s not classified info, but she wants people to stay informed, like she wants people across the galaxy being bombarded who think they’ve been abandoned to know that she’s still fighting for them everywhere she can. even though she’s feeling really dejected and pessimistic sometimes i think she’s determined to make other people believe they can win even when she isn’t sure herself.

post-war (AHHA YOU THOUGHT I WAS DONE AFTER ME3, DIDNT YOU) as soon as she can travel, she kind of shoves her way into politics via reconstruction efforts despite her unstable health because she’s terrified everything will just go back to normal and the underprivileged people in slums and terminus colonies will be ignored. i think she keeps up the informative trend of letting people know what’s going on, like explaining what this or that emergency bill that was just passed by the council means, ‘cause she’s still new to politics and honesty all this dense language would’ve definitely confused her too. eventually as things start getting more settled she feels less guilty posting about how her day’s going. and then at one point, there is definitely a collective internet freakout when shepard acknowledges/makes a joke about one of the memes about her, and she’s like “what, you guys think i never go online or something?? i was a teenager once, i know how the internet works!” (she actually doesn’t spend that much time in forums or the like, she just learned about the meme from garrus and vega.)

(and then at some point post-war garrus, who used to have a dumbass video game let’s play account that gained a ton of popularity after me1 when shepard found out about it and asked to play turian call of duty with him on it (the vid was entitled “i play turian call of duty with commander shepard (my co)” and was mostly just them horsing around and then it went viral, but he took it down after she died and then purged the whole account/his entire online presence when he went to omega. but anyway a while post-war garrus comes to her like “hey you remember that video we made” “i remember the jokes about it” “well uh, i just managed to fix this old console i found at a flea market, do you want to do it again? yknow just kill time and lift people’s spirits?” so he makes a new account and introduces her to a lot of other games, she’s good at space overwatch but then when she gets cocky he makes her play like turian dark souls or some shit, and they record and post it online for kicks too)

fuck, i still have one more question left to answer???? i spent a fucking lifetime writing up this, I TOLD YOU ASKING ME QUESTIONS ABOUT LYDIA WAS A MISTAKE

49)   Would they consider themselves as a good person, bad person, or morally grey?

mostly i dont think she lets herself think about whether she’s a “good” person because emotionally, and morally, she doesn’t feel much different than she was when she was committing crimes for a living (though she knows logically she’s grown a lot, she convinced herself back then that she was justified in doing bad things by just trying to survive, which is… not entirely too different from now). anyway she still feels like she’s trying to make up for who she used to be, like she wants to put more good into the world than the harm she once contributed to, or failing that, she can at least remove as much of the evil in the galaxy as she can. (i keep forgetting to clarify, she didn’t just do petty theft and break-ins and lookouts and illegal reselling, she was occasionally a debt collector and beat people near to the point of death with biotics, and she hated it but it was mostly out of sympathy that she insisted on going instead of another gangster because if it were anyone else she knows they might’ve dismembered or tortured the person too.)

god i still haven’t answered your question. ive been writing for a full hour, keely. the long and short of it is that i think she’s morally gray. i call her paragade for a reason. she tries really hard to be a good person to make up for who she was (who she “had” to be), so she fights to save every life she can, but against enemies that show no remorse or whatnot, some of her old habits of ruthlessness and reluctance to forgive die hard. 

ASK ME QUESTIONS ABOUT MY OCS IF YOU FEEL LIKE SCROLLING PAST MORE LONG PARAGRAPHS ON YOUR DASH, YO

[kosmicdream]

Oh, so Locket's dysphoria relates more to his eyes than the shape of his body he can change? Kind of like how Knife actually prefers to have boobs but gets really self-conscious about his eyes, since for hekatons eyes are the primary sexual trait?

WHEE LONG POST TIME abt my ocs opinions abt themselves 

Locket didn’t enjoy having breasts and they also made him feel dysphoric! he probably has  ripped them off at some point lmfao. it honestly wasn’t easy for him cuz he used to have to wear Pretty Matching Dresses™ with the twin and be paraded around the kingdom like some sort of spectacle. He HATED it but wouldn’t even really protest just Stand and Look Quite Uncomfortable. It was key that was like u dont like wearing this stuff so dont do it!!!!!!!!! dum baka!!!!! and helped pick outfits that locket would actually enjoy. locket would feel bad to not enjoy dressing up like key did but key would b like mom runs around fking naked!!!! it doesnt matter!! so locket would be like.. O .. TRUE.. Even though hekatons can shift their bodies around they still hold a lot of human opinions w/ gender. I suppose its just inherent from originally being a sort of species that was meant to seduce/destroy all humans? (They also base these values on the original hekatons, with laima/lauma being ideal visions of ‘womanhood ultimate moms’ with velns/dievas being what is considered ‘masculine and manly dads’.) Knife’s identity as a transman isnt really known to most hekatons, in fact most details abt him are still pretty secret. Locket only knew b/c Laima explained it to him personally, since, she.. knew Knife. But it was kind of uncomfortable b/c Locket was like WOAH i didnt know you could just.. DO THAT??? mind blown and was amazed by it but also it was like uh shit perkons is supposed to be this hella bad murdery hekaton.....uhm..... does that make me bad too??? uh oh. locket felt really conflicted about these things. (and still does actually)So when locket left the kingdom, he decided that he didn’t have to worry about his mom’s silent mysterious judgments anymore or feel guilty abt his feelings and so he used this opportunity to try and live what he felt was more comfortable to him!! he was the boss now!! hell yeah!! im not a shy kid anymore im a grown adult!!!!!!!!!!  i cant rely on key for correcting pronouns anymore!!!!!! its up to me!!!! see ya, tits!!!!!! springs into the sunset!!! wheee!He was still concerned over his face, however. So the mask was sort of an easy fix, it also helped muffle his voice (which he isn’t a big fan of either).He has gotten a little bit more confidence since he first left home, he just avoids what he feels are the problem areas that make him upset/uncomfortable.  

Also - I wouldn’t say knife is VERY self conscious..? idk its tricky.. i think he just gets pretty annoyed when ppl don’t get it but he is used to ppl not understanding him. so its just another added reason why ppl fucking suck. Hes very stubborn about how boobs or any body parts shouldnt be gendered. Boobs r just boobs!!! Knife has a lot more strong opinions abt these things than you might expect but like with many personal things, he struggles to talk abt em. So he’s got that  “take or leave it” attitude abt it, hes made a decision on it.  I think spoon is literally the only person he really opened up to about it in detail which really changed spoon’s perspective on the whole thing as well. (And eventually, spoon passing his own feelings onto Cash, ect.)

Anyway, knife prefers to wear a binder if he doesn’t want to deal w/ unwanted boob-related attention. Fork also literally has 0 idea knife has boobs. I guess knife still really didn’t know how to approach that topic with him. so he just.. avoided it. huh!!!!!!!! mysteriousIf Locket and Knife were both given an opportunity to change their eyes locket would prob highly consider going for it while Knife wouldn’t. 

[swampgallows]

salt, etc.

way to take something i was praising for being cute and innocent and immediately sully it. like, really, i can’t have fuckin anything lmfao. like obviously i’m not gonna get miffed over orc p/rn or whatever the fuck every time i see it; i know it’s not for me and i dont take offense at it existing. but this isnt p-rn and it doesnt feature an adult; the child was the focus of the entire cinematic and she is still the focus in that screenshot. the context of the screenshot was that the normally enraged and violent orc could still play fair so as not to hurt the child. to make hearthstone a welcoming atmosphere for children and adults alike. the entire point of me being like “reasons to live” is that the orc is not hurting the child and she is not threatened by him, that they can get along. it’s extremely cute and innocent and i felt personally so very specifically protected by that imagery. NOT to mention it very legitimately helped to pull me out of a deep suicidal episode. that sounds like SUCH a fucking “tumblr fandom” thing to say but hey, it’s the truth! I wanted to fucking kill myself the day before and couldnt get out of bed and then i woke up to something so charming and uplifting that I actually got energy to get out of bed and to be productive.

i know im salty about this but i really dont care. what, you gonna tell me i’m being “too emotional” over explicit sex acts mentioned on a picture of a child???????

my blog is not child-safe by any means, nor could i even argue that it is worksafe, but it it most definitely intended to be a safe place for fellow csa survivors. and not that id expect anybody 500 notes deep to know me or my personal preferences but im [bi] asexual, i was raped as a kid, i was raped as a teen, and i was raped as an adult, anybody who’s read my blog for more than like ten minutes knows that i look to thrall and jaina as parental figures and my love for orcs is nonsexual. that doesn’t mean im gonna shit on people who love orcs sexually; i dont blame anyone for it existing. but if you were to send SPECIFICALLY me p*rn of thrall (KNOWING MY ADORATION OF HIM AS A PARENTAL FIGURE) in hopes that i would “enjoy” it, i would be extremely fucking disgusted. i dont care if people make porn of thrall or that they want to fuck him or whatever, i am not offended by that notion at all. i dont even care about seeing it on my dash. BUT I DONT NEED IT BROUGHT TO MY INDIVIDUAL ATTENTION. that’s also why i blocked that anon and disabled anons altogether when i made it explicitly clear that i dont want some fucking stranger filling my inbox with their sexual fantasies about wow characters, ESPECIALLY WHEN THE TWO ARE FATHER AND SON, and they SENT ME MORE ANONS ANYWAY!!!!!!!!!!!

there are literally thousands of other pictures of orcs with their big-ass muscle hands that they can reblog and vomit their stupid fisting bullshit on instead of the one picture in existence of an orc holding hands with a child. EARLIER TODAY i reblogged a post about garrosh’s big muscley hands dunking you like a basketball and breaking all your bones, like that post was very clearly asking for that kind of attention instead.

part of the reason im deterred from posting any art of he who is urnj is because im scared of what people will do to him. they’ll fetishize him or draw p()rn of him or kin ID as him or some shit if he got popular enough, and he’s just too personal of a character for me to throw to the public. people will do what they do and i know i cant stop that, but considering he was my coping mechanism while i was being raped as a child and is extremely fucking personal to me as a symbol of safety and comfort and protection and strength (as orcs are too, but nowhere near to this degree) id rather keep him in my head than risk him being ruined (AGAIN). my ex gf pulled him too far out of me and he ended up being something i didnt recognize, something that might have wounded him and his identity personally, and it will take a lot of healing for me to see him the way he used to be. if that’s even possible. it’s another reason why im not sure if it’s safe to go back to him yet, or if it ever will be again. he’s been attacked so many times. every man who learned about him felt threatened by him, and the women perverted him, sexually and metaphorically, forcing him into a role he never had. 

i dont have a therapist so my blog will have to do lmao and i couldnt talk to a professional about this shit anyway. ive tried, and they told me to kill him. im scared he’s already dead. 

i do not know where i am in life any more and i do not know if i am capable of advancing. 

[foxstens]

lets talk about drama cds (DONT READ)

long and rambly and probably makes no sense don’t read

its really weird cause im tempted to compare drama cds to audiobooks but theyre not really that.  they can be sort of like ovas, as in they adapt certain chapters of a manga but this particular variety can’t really stand on its own. usually theyre just something extra for the source material

but then there’s drama cds that adapt the full source material and thus they can stand alone. they might add some things, cut some things, switch some things around, as any adaptation, but a lot of the time you can listen to them without the context of the source material (provided you understand the language lmfao)

and then there’s blcds which as far as i’m aware usually fit into the second category. and they’re a lot less like audiobooks, and a lot more like listening to the audio of an anime. as in there’s a full cast and sound effects and music and it really feels acted. audiobooks can have that too but i haven’t found an audiobook that feels as real as one of these.

also they tend to be shorter? audiobooks are like anywhere from 5 to 27 hours depending on the length of the source material, whereas these ones usually adapt manga or light novels and so they’re usually 1-5 hours long. 

i’m the kind of person who usually prefers the source material to any sort of adaptation and yet in this case i’d sort of like to keep them separate because if i read the source material first i’d have already imagined voices to the characters and there’s a higher chance of me disliking the voices in the drama, also i’d be hella nitpicky about possible changes

but if i listen to the drama first i’d have already imagined everything while doing the listening so when i read the source material there’s a higher chance of me disliking it. this might make no sense but that’s how my brain works so i’d rather take no risks

AND WHEN IT COMES TO BLCDS SPECIFICALLY the voices are incredibly important bc i am very picky abt that but it’s great bc they allow me to experience the same story twice or to experience the story of a manga whose art i might not like

u feel

and its so interesting bc i hate audiobooks with a full cast or music but here it doesn’t bother me at all. neither does the fact that i don’t understand 100% of it, it’s very great for language-learning purposes or for background noise-purposes or for.......... other purposes

B)

and it’s so weird when a seiyuu i know pops up in one of these (that’s usually the case actually lmfao) bc they often feature some kind of h-scene OR SOMETIMES ARE ALMOST PWP and i wouldn’t have expected respectable seiyuus to take part in smth like this but i hear they use it to kind of get their voices out there and sometimes retire from it after they establish themselves in the industry. which is fine i mean this is a job as any other so like

BUT THEN IT’S REALLY WEIRD when a lot of their voices i’ve already heard in  very great very beloved anime roles and that definitely changes the experience of listening to such a drama

bc while they’re very good at portraying different characters in different situations in general, there’s just some roles that are too influential and might make me not want to listen to a particular drama if it features a particular seiyuu (has happened before)

and then there’s the h-scenes themselves which sure are interesting. i mean i am well-versed in audio p0rn but it feels completely different when it’s acted and with voices i know and might even have a story around it like wow

it took some getting used to. like at first i was just like O_O and i felt so embarassed??? now they just make me grin like an idiot because they’re great and also seiyuus are really fucking talented literally wtf

i swear i will develop a pokerface one day

they’re really great tho bc i can totally use them as background noise. i tried putting on some anime episodes as bg noise at some point but it didnt really work bc i always had the urge to just watch them. but there’s no such thing with these dramas so they’re great while doing chores or writing this post or possibly even doing homework???? lmfao that’s probably not the reason they were made but who cares

also most of them have really fucking amazing background music WHICH I TOTALLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND ESPECIALLY ??? SAD PIANO MUSIC DURING H-SCENES ??? i’d sure like to download the osts to some of them tho wtf

i do guess that some people get off to them which i 1000% support but i just keep wondering what ............. certain people............... would say if they knew these existed and what purposes they were used for

‘YOU’RE FETISHIZING PEOPLE’S VOICES’ or smth like that probably l m f a o

i really have no idea how i should experience them tho bc i’m s h i t at imagining things like even when reading books if something is described in a lot of detail i’ll be able to imagine it but other than that it’s just shapeless blobs doing things in a colourless void. and when listening to drama cds i dont even bother trying to imagine anything idek. so i have no idea how ppl who can imagine stuff experience them omfg. OR PEOPLE WHO KNOW JAPANESE FOR THAT FACT AHGJNDGDNJ.

im really glad i found them tho i really am (they have..... made me start paying attention to some seiyuus i barely noticed before which is gr9)