#distracting myself with hayden Christensen

[jaca3rys]

Me a month ago: I'm so in love! I want kids and four cats! Big house with me wife! Wind chimes and pretty dresses

Me now: blocking EVERY. SINGLE. happy WLW couple on my fyp. crying on my knees on my (concrete) floor. Unable to look at happy couples WLW or not without wanting to sob uncontrollably. Literally wanting to rip my fucking hair out whenever I see my brother in law kissing his girlfriend. PHYSICALLY unable to listen to certain songs.

[gremlinvanfleet]

𝖐𝖎𝖓𝖐𝖙𝖔𝖇𝖊𝖗 𝖉𝖆𝖞 𝖔𝖓𝖊 - 𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖘 𝖙𝖔 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊𝖗𝖘 

anakin skywalker, circa. the clone wars

kinktober 2023

masterlist

who else is better than hayden christensen to kick off the month? we also have the same name and that's so wicked.

summary: you and anakin have been fighting in the deadly war for far too long, and you finally begin to turn to each other for comfort in the trying times after so much loss.

warnings: smut, swearing

word count: 1,884 (i'm so sorry)

The war had been taking its toll on everyone. Yourself included in that list of people as Obi-Wan’s new Padawan. You hadn’t noticed it about Anakin however. He commanded your fleet and you trusted him with every fibre of your being. He was strong, wise and had animal like instincts. A true leader. He never ever wavered and that’s why there was so much confidence in him, even if he defied orders, he always did it with the best interest of the people.

“Y/L/N! I need you here. Focus please.” He touched your shoulder. You didn’t even noticed you zoned out. 

“Sorry, General.” He nodded. He continued with his attack plan. It was simple but unbelievably effective. He didn’t believe in making things unnecessarily complex, especially when it could put his men at risk. 

“General Skywalker, how are we supposed to sneak in when they have droids outside the whole ship?” A clone asked. 

“That’s were Y/N comes in.” He gestured towards you. You felt your face heat up. You thought you were just going to be piloting with Anakin, not heading the mission. “She will fly around the perimeter and act as a distraction while we strike underneath.” 

“You have faith in her flying? She’s just a kid.” Another one chimed in. He shook his head. 

“Myself and General Kenobi have yet to see a reason to not. She’s reliable and smart. Don’t second guess me again.” He glared. Him defending you made you have a funny feeling in your stomach. 

You took a moment to admire him in this state that came so naturally to him. His hair had been a bit more tousled than usual, and his uniform was more wrinkled than you remember it. You saw him run his hands through it before he came into the command centre. Stress. The lightsaber attached to his waist shined under the light of the hologram above him. His blue eyes were as fiery as usual and the intensity behind his voice made you think he received intel that he didn’t find favourable. You felt for your friend and mentor in the moment. Obi-Wan may be your master but Anakin was a true friend. He’d been through everything you had already. He understands you. 

“Okay. I think that’s everything. Let’s go men. We have a hard battle ahead. Fight hard and with valiance and I’ll be endlessly proud.” He smiled but his eyes looked sad. He knows not everyone in this room will be coming back. 

The clones left the room but Anakin grabbed your wrist, prompting you to stay behind. 

“What is it, General?” You thought he had something important to say but instead you were met with his sad blues looking into yours. 

“I just feel like something bad is going to happen with this mission. I just don’t want it happening to you. Please promise me you’ll be careful.” 

“Anakin, you’re the one who taught me how to fly, remember? I believe you called yourself the best pilot in the galaxy. If you can’t have faith in me, have it in yourself.” You smiled at him. He chuckled. 

“Point taken. I do have faith in you though, Y/N. So does Obi-Wan. We are both so incredibly proud of you. You’ve served the council well and I’m certain you’ll continue to do so.” 

“Then why are you so worried? I’ll be just fine.” You tried to reassure him, even though you didn’t fully believe yourself. It’s scary when he gets a feeling like that. He’s always been able to see ahead. 

“Okay, okay. Let’s go then.” He walked beside you and nudged your shoulder. You laughed and walked with him to the hangar. 

The mission was gruelling but a success. Anakin had lost many of his men this time around but you made it out okay. In fact, you pulled it off perfectly. You had taken down one of General Grievous’ droid ships. Only a grain of sand in the scheme of things however. After the mission, Anakin came out of it with a heavy heart. He thought no one was looking but you saw him ignite his saber and use it in a supply room. Items clattered everywhere while he took out his rage. What was he mad at? It could be anything. The loss of his men. The knowledge that there is still so much work that needs to be done and that means losing even more men. It hurt you to see him in so much pain like this. You couldn’t just leave him like that. 

“Hey…” You stood in the doorway. He looked at you, nostrils flared, eyes in a frenzy. 

“What are you doing here? Go get some rest.” He sighed and ran his hands through his hair again.  “I won’t be resting until you do, General.” You knew he hated when you called him that, but you took the risk of poking a little fun at him. God knows you both need the pick me up. “You know I don’t like that.” He had a small smile on his face. You stepped closer to him. 

“Yeah, but it’s good fun.” You smiled. He chuckled. 

“Come on, lets try to get some sleep at least.” 

You followed him up to the sleep chambers. He got in his bed and you got into yours. The sleep came on quickly but just before you drifted off, you heard a shout from the room next to yours. Anakin. You ran into his room and found him sitting up, bare chested and breathing heavily. 

“What’s wrong?!” You searched his distressed face for an answer. He blinked at you. 

“Nothing, nothing. Go back to sleep Y/N.” He sounded defeated. Not something you’d expect from the strong man across from you. 

“Come on. I’m not that naive. You can talk to me.” You sat on the edge of his bed. He tipped his head back and sighed. Something was definitely weighing on him. 

“I just can’t get their faces out of my head…” He said dejectedly.  

“Who are you talking about?”

“The clones. We lost so many. I know its the fortune of war but I still can’t help but feel responsible.” He rubbed his forehead. 

“Anakin, listen to me. None of this is your fault. In fact, you’re the only person I know fighting in this war that cares so much about his men. I admire you so much for that.” You put your hand on his. He sighed and closed his troubled eyes. 

“We all care, Y/N. Some of us are just more radical than others.” 

“You’d be the most radical I think.” You joked. He cracked a small smile. 

“I think you’re the only one keeping me sane here…” He whispered. 

“Lucky for you, I’m not going anywhere.”

“Promise?” He searched his eyes. 

“I promise.” You squeezed his hand. 

“Can you stay here with me? Just for tonight so I can sleep?” His eyes looked sad. Your face heated up. You had wished for this to happen. You’d never admit it but deep down you’ve always hoped something more would happen between the two of you. 

“Yeah. I can stay.” You smiled and he returned it. 

He laid back down and you did the same beside him. He sighed a few times and turned over too. You gently put your hand on his arm and started drawing circles. He hummed and turned on his side to face you. 

“That feels nice.” He murmured. He kept his eyes on yours as you continued. He leaned in a bit closer. You felt your heart beating faster in your chest. Is it finally happening? He gently placed his soft lips onto yours. 

You quickly returned the kiss and slid closer to him. He wrapped his arms around your waist and pulled you into his chest while never detaching from your lips. You whimpered into his mouth as he pushed his tongue in. You felt his mouth turn into a smirk after hearing it. He flipped himself over so he was between your legs. He pushed himself against you and started kissing down your neck.

“Is this okay?” His eyes were filled with concern. 

“Yes. Please keep going.” You pleaded. 

“As you wish.” He smiled and continued down your neck. He pulled your housecoat off revealing only underwear underneath. 

“You have no idea how long I’ve waited to see you like this. I’ve thought about it all the time.” He admitted.  

“Me too.” You managed out between pants.

He quickly but carefully took off your underwear, revealing you completely to him. He stared for so long that you started to feel self conscious. You began to cover yourself again. 

“No no. Don’t do that. You just look so pretty, I can’t help myself.” He caressed your side, giving you goosebumps. 

“It’s your turn now, General.” His words gave you confidence. He shook his head and began taking off his clothes. His skin was such a beautiful colour and his battle scars just added to it even more. His metal arm glistened in the moonlight. You stared at his toned abdomen while you both took each other in. 

“Ready?” He was hard and not trying to hide it. His size was intimidating but definitely enticing at the same time. 

“As ready as I’ll ever be.” 

He slowly circled your clit with his hand while he pushed himself into you. You felt so full even after only half of him was inside. He groaned when he bottomed out and you clenched around him. 

“Fuck… So tight…” He hovered over you and rested his forehead against yours. The heat radiated against your skin so pleasantly as he pulled himself out and then back in again. The pleasure was unlike anything you’ve ever felt before. His pace was too slow for your liking however. 

“Anakin, please… Faster.” You whined. He chuckled and began to move his hips faster. His skin smacked against yours and he spent time rubbing your clit to get you there. 

“Fuck, Y/N.” He panted. His fingers moved faster against you and your legs began to shake. “You gonna cum for me?” 

“Y-yes. Please don’t stop…” He smiled down at you and kept the pace of both his fingers and his hips. He drew you closer and closer to the edge with every movement. The coil in your stomach was ready to snap at any moment. 

“Come on, sweetheart. Cum for me.” His words were enough to bring you over and you shook and clenched all around him. “That’s it, pretty girl.” He wasn’t done though. 

He pounded you even faster as he chased his own high. He pushed deep inside you one final time with a loud groan. He pulled out and his seed spilled out of your swollen hole. He collapsed beside you and pulled you into his arms. 

“That was-“

“Unreal.” You finished. 

“Yeah. I can’t believe it took us this long.” He laughed 

“Me neither. Kinda kicking myself for it.” 

“Just don’t tell Obi-Wan. He’ll kill me.” You laughed at the fact that he was still scared of Obi-Wan after all this time. 

“Wouldn’t dream of it.” You kissed his cheek and snuggled into his chest. 

A good sleep was on its way. 

© gremlinvanfleet 2023 <3

[gustingirl]

10 films I love (not showing pictures lol)

tagged by my angie again @smythecriminal ilysm and you should know it.

ok this will definitely be long cuz i love talking about myself so after this break!

i. dead poets society (1989)

i think many of you have seen my obsession with this film oh my god it truly went through my heart and still does every time i rewatch it

ii. relatos salvajes / wild tales (2014)

i rewatch it every chance i have. there's something about watching humanity lose their mind over maybe mundane things, it's so weirdly entertaining. every story is written so beautifully, i can’t believe it didn't win an oscar

iii. velvet goldmine (1999)

i’m amazed not many people have seen this film, that's a whole crime. you got gay ewan mcgregor and gay christian bale, what else do you need? it's glam and it's fun to watch and i can go on but i already said what needed to be said

iv. esperando la carroza (1985)

one of the few films i can rewatch a thousand times and never get tired. i laugh every single time and i quote it at least once a day.

v. takers (2010)

it's a silly movie tbh but that makes it fun to rewatch. besides hayden christensen is hot as fuck and so is idris elba, the only problem is trigger warning chris brown but other than that it's such an enjoyable film

vi. hijo de la novia / son of a bride (2001)

i cried, i laughed, i sobbed, i enjoyed it so fucking much. i cannot rewatch it for the sake of my heart but please this movie is so perfectly done. it has a thousand life messages, they get to you the older you get.

vii. the budapest hotel (2014)

i’m sorry i really do enjoy wes anderson films. i’m obsessed with simmetry and he's the best at the cinematographic resource. besides, he does it so well, i’m surprised. it never feels forced and, adding to the palette he uses, it just has this feeling of comfortable and cozy, no matter the story.

viii. nueve reinas / nine queens (2000)

obsessed for real. well anything ricardo darin does but this one blew my mind. i just really enjoy watching films that completely distract me from the unimaginable ending. very well done, very easy to carry too.

iv. death becomes her (1992)

i've read that this film did not help meryl's career but i don’t understand how. i know she was doing many good dramatic movies with accents and strong scenes and this film was silly next to them, but it's so fun to watch. she's hilarious and so fucking beautiful oh my god and i had no idea bruce willis was this funny too!

v. el secreto de sus ojos / the secret in their eyes (2009)

had to leave this one for the end because i consider this film one of the few masterpieces i've seen on the big screen. i can’t even write down an opinion, it was outstanding. the ending still lives rent free in my head. deserved that oscar and many more.

little extra one just because: tacones lejanos / high heels (1991), i just love pedro almodovar's films so much

tagging @joon-rkive @mangoslixes @peachy-101 @zurdoabsurdo @50-cm @harryduboisbignaturalss @laucha-posting @70sturner @trashlord-007 @loser-user-noaccuser @guribel

[sainztander]

it's what he deserves ✨✨✨

[avengersassemble-fics]

Lost and Found

part 03/10 “a lesson in the force”

masterlist

previous part

word count 4.2k

an: yeah this one is...long... LOL but its also important.. and i love it?? also hayden christensen is a beautiful man thank u god

spotify playlist to listen to while you’re reading!

part 03/10

The soft plush mattress felt suffocating. The way it folded in around your body made you feel constricted. It wasn’t comforting, not now. You spent most of your night tossing and turning, and trying to wrap your mind around what Anakin had said to you. It was true in a way that you had felt something stir inside you at times, when you didn’t feel at ease really, but you had always thought it to be just a consciousness you had to situations.

The Force.

That was silly. No, Anakin was the one who was gifted with that connection. That’s why he was taken from Tatooine all those years ago. And that’s why you had to stay. Surely, if this was all true, then you would’ve been taken as well. Right? Of course. They didn’t just leave you behind. Anakin didn’t leave you behind.

You stopped yourself and sat upwards. Your eyes felt dry from the lack of sleep, but you couldn’t just stop your mind from wandering. You looked over to the pendant you had put on the table by the bed and grabbed it to hold in your hand. You sighed and leaned back as you rested against the pillows. You looked down at the pendant, the reminder, and rolled it between your fingers as the thought of last night entered your mind.

He meant to give it to you. He told you that and walked away but you had stood there with a silly grin on your face. Even now you had a little smile to yourself, and you glanced outside the window in the room. You could see the sun beginning to rise and you threw the large fluffy blanket off your body. Your eyes hurt but you felt fine overall. You got maybe two hours of rest, but you were used to it at this point.

You stood and reached for the robe you had found yesterday. It was the silkiest thing you ever felt and you wrapped yourself in it. You walked out of the bedroom and into the main room when there was a cute beep from the door. You tried to mask your excitement as you neared the door and pressed a button for it to open, but not seeing Anakin on the other side threw you off a bit. You suddenly felt too exposed, not that that’s what you were trying with Anakin.

“Master Kenobi,” you said almost unsure, hoping you had got it right. He nodded at you, only focused on your face and that seemed to put you at ease, “um—would you like to come in?”

“Yes, there is something I’d like to discuss with you.”

You nodded and stepped to the side to let him in. He walked past you, his long dark brown robe swaying over the ground. You walked behind him as he made his way over to the chairs in the middle of the room. You made the first move to sit and he sat opposite of you, and you were careful to fold your legs to keep yourself modest.

“The Council has asked Anakin and I to train you in the ways of our Padawans,” he started and your eyes lit up, “but you must be aware that we don’t train adults in the ways of the Jedi Order. It will be hard, but I believe you can succeed. We would like to start with a meditation process, later today if you feel up for it.”

You rubbed your hair, realizing the mess you must look. He was too kind to say anything, but still you felt small in front of him. He was put together while you felt strung apart inside.

“Master Kenobi,” you said in almost a whisper, before clearing your throat, “may I ask you a question?”

“Of course,” he nodded, lacing his hands together and leaning forward to rest his arms on his legs.

“Why do you think I can do it exactly?”

“Because I have felt your presence in the Force already,” he said, pausing for a moment, “before Anakin and I arrived in Shuule’s city, we heard your cry for help. The Council felt the disturbance as well. Your connection with the Force seems deeply rooted, but.. What we don’t know yet is how.”

You nodded slowly as he talked, and you braced yourself for your next question, “If I have this deep connection then why.. Why didn’t you and your Master take me too?”

Obi-Wan hid his shock. He wasn’t quite sure until that moment if you had remembered him from years ago, but he shook his head, “At the time you didn’t show these signs.”

“Are you sure?” You asked and he blinked at you. 

You were forward, you couldn’t help it. A part of you didn’t believe him, in all honesty you thought that their focus on Anakin may have clouded their acknowledgment of you. But Anakin was special, you had heard them call him The Chosen one, and maybe that was why they only focused on him. But what if all the kids had this connection? How was he so sure? You wanted him to tell you so that you could feel like you were sure.

“I.. Didn’t feel that connection around you then like I have now,” he stated carefully, “but our meditation session will tell us more.”

“What happens?” You asked and he nodded. You took his answer and he was glad to move on from the topic. He honestly wasn’t too sure himself.

“Anakin and I are going to help focus your thoughts, and the Force will guide us to the moments you mostly felt your connection. But I must warn you, it may be draining.”

You nodded your understanding, “When do we start?”

He left you shortly after that. You had kept your arms crossed in front of you as you walked him out, and when the door closed behind him you had relaxed your body. You were nervous about this mediation session, but you tried to put the thought in the back of your mind as you walked back to the bedroom area. You were sliding the robe off your body as you headed for the refresher, eager to drench your body in the warm water.

You were also a little sad Anakin did not return to you over the night or with his Master. Maybe he was too tired, maybe he got caught up with something. You rubbed your hair backwards into the water and it slicked down your back. The pressure felt as if someone was massaging your scalp helped release all the tension in your body. You took your time washing all the grime off your body, your feet turning a light shade of red from the heat on it. You rubbed your neck as you shut the water off and then slid open the door. Your wet feet met the tile, and you reached for a neatly folded towel to your side and wrapped it and wrapped it around your body. It was modest, but you didn’t care too much since you were alone now.

You walked out of the steamy bathroom and into the bedroom, passing by the opening to the living area and seeing a figure around the chairs.

“(Y/N)—“ the voice stopped suddenly when their eyes fell on your barely covered body.

You froze, meeting the eyes of Anakin himself. He must have let himself in while you were in there. Your face felt hot, from the shower or from this, and his lip trembled as he was frozen in place. Quickly though he spun around to face the other direction.

“-I-I’m so sorry.” He managed and cleared his throat. You still hadn’t said a word.

“Um let me change,” you mumbled and he nodded to himself, his back to you now.

“Yes, of course..sorry.” He said again and you hurried to the other side of the room, where some clothes were kept. You had laid out a pair of fitted black pants, and a long sleeved shirt. You preferred the more covered pieces of clothing for reasons you didn’t want to admit, and you let the towel slide to the floor as you began to change.

Anakin tried his best not to hear what you were doing. He heard the towel fall to the ground in a pile, and he moved the weight of his body between his two feet. He had to distract himself from turning around to look. No, that was inappropriate. But he also couldn’t help himself.

Thankfully it didn’t take you long to reemerge, completely clothed. You cleared your throat and Anakin turned back around. He was taller than you, and you took a couple steps forward to him, “I’m so sorry for barging in,” he said and you waved your hand at him.

“No it’s..it’s okay, Ani. Not like you saw anything.”

But he did. Your legs had been exposed to him, and he could see the flesh of your chest, all smooth and wet. He had seen a trickle of water slide down the middle of your breasts and down into the towel. He cleared his throat.

“Yes, but it’s impolite to let myself in.”

You smiled, “You’re welcome anytime Ani.”

Anakin smiled down at you, “Obi-Wan sent me to bring you to the Temple so we can start,” he said and you swallowed the lump in your throat, “he thought it best to start when you were well rested.”

“Right, well rested,” you repeated and his brows furrowed. You slid your damp hair behind your ears, and looking back at his gaze, “what?”

“Did you sleep?” He asked you and you sighed.

“Not.. a lot,” You admitted and you watched his shoulders fall “I’m fine Ani. I’m used to it.”

He took a step closer, nearly closing the space between you both, “We can postpone this if you want.”

“No, no, I’ll be fine,” you assured him. You smiled up at him and slowly his hand came to your cheek. You froze as his gloved fingers glided over your cool skin. They spread across your cheek and into your hair, his thumb resting on your cheek. His hand felt heavy, and his gaze even heavier. He was looking for something in your irises. Just as fast as he had placed his hand on your skin, he removed it almost as fast, lingering only for a moment.

“Then we should get going.”

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Anakin was quiet as he escorted you back to the temple. You struggled to keep up with his strides and kind of stared at the back of his head. Anakin was always a lot of things, but he was never hard to read before. But now.. It was starting to feel as if he was a different person. One moment he was soft and gentle with you and the next stone cold quiet, just like this. But what were you honestly expecting? People change, and you didn’t know what he had to go through all these years.

Anakin stopped and you bumped into his back, mumbling an apology as he threw a glance over his shoulder, but he offered you a smile. You glanced around, not seeing many other people in this part of the temple. You hadn’t really noticed where you both had gone. Anakin turned to you and you looked up at him.

“Before we enter you must know that the Force can be..overwhelming at times, especially with how strong it feeds from you,” he paused and you swallowed the lump in your throat, “what Obi-Wan and I are trying to do is wade through your thoughts, and see if we can find where it all began for you.”

You nodded and he seemed to sense your hesitation, and his hands grabbed your arms, “I promise you I wouldn’t put you in harm's way.. Do you know that?”

“Yes,” you answered almost automatically. Anakin nodded, and offered you another smile. Damn that smile.

“I’ll be there by your side,” he said and let go of your arms, one hand sliding behind your back and moving you beside him. You both were ready to enter the room.

The door opened and inside was Obi-Wan and the other Jedi you had met the night before. He was tall and didn’t have a single hair on his head. Their conversation stopped and looked to the two entering the room. Anakin nodded at the pair.

“Master Windu,” he greeted and the other motioned to him.

“I’ll leave you three so you can begin,” his low voice said. Anakin motioned for you to step forward and you did, walking past Master Windu as he exited the room. Your eyes moved around the room, seeing it was pretty bare. Plain carpet, plain walls, and Obi-Wan stood in the middle. He had removed his robe and folded it neatly far away in the corner, and you watched Anakin do the same. But you didn’t watch him continue with the process, your attention going back to Obi-Wan. He smiled at you for the first time.

“You’re nervous,” he said and you nodded, “I understand, but you don’t need to worry, here,” he motioned for you to come to him. You walked over and he sat down on the ground, crossing his legs and you mimicked his movements. You crossed your legs beneath you and Anakin came over to join. The three of you had formed a triangle, with the two men facing you like you were the point.

Well, you guess you were.

They had their hands on their legs, looking at you. You shifted yourself and wrapped your fingers together, glancing between them. You felt like something was pressing into your mind, but relaxation poured over your body. Your breathing leveled out, and Obi-Wan began to speak.

“Close your eyes and relax,” he prompted and you watched as their eyes closed, and yours fluttered shut too. You took a couple deep breaths, trying to relax your mind. It felt as if something was unfolding in you, a numbing feeling as your body relaxed into itself. Or maybe your mind.

“Let the Force flow through you,” he said next. A warm feeling filled your chest, and you didn’t fight it. It was something you had felt before, it didn’t scare you.

“Let the Force guide us, and show us what we need to know.”

Your eyes flew open, but you were no longer in the room. A scarf covered your mouth and goggles were over your eyes. Bright sunlight and the feeling of the scorching heat danced across your skin. You knew where you were, the memory flooding back to your mind. But this time it was different, because you weren’t alone. You could feel a presence there with you, but still, you played through the memory. You were inside one of the Jawa’s Sandcrawlers, climbing the exterior wall, a cable helping you from falling. Your hands gripped the wire as your heart rate skyrocketed. This instance was when you thought you were going to die. You looked from the ground up at the top where you were attached to. This excavation trip had turned sour quickly, when the Tuscan Raiders attacked. They had been waiting for the team to get there, and ambushed when you had started repelling up. Your cable shook, and you looked up to see one trying to dislodge the wire and to make you fall. They shook it vigorously, and you hit the side of the metal, letting out a grunt. Blaster fire sounded below you, and you pulled your blaster from your hip. You didn’t even look as you fired it upwards, but the shaking came to a stop, and a body fell past you to the sand below. You watched the body fall, and regret filled your stomach, but the fear of dying outweighed that. You looked back to the sky and gripped the wire and kept climbing. A voice below had called out to you, but you kept pulling yourself up, up, upwards.. And then the wire snapped. Watching now, you felt the air leave your chest as you clawed the air as you fell to the ground. Your body hit the sand, and it felt as if something had cushioned your impact. This was one of those instances.

Your vision went fuzzy, and you were pulled from that memory. Now, you were younger, probably not more than 16. The suns were beginning to set in the distance, and you walked behind your mother. You smiled to yourself, watching her walk away from you. She was alive at this time, and you stopped walking, looking to the side. A familiar face had caught your eye, and you turned to walk to them. Shmi Skywalker.

A feeling of love entered your mind. But you didn’t know if it was yours or someone else’s thoughts. Your feet kicked sand as you walked over, and she saw you out the corner of her eyes and turned to you with a smile on her face. You rushed over and her arms were open to you waiting for you to be wrapped against her.

Shmi was always close to your heart, and when your body met her in an embrace her hand held your head. But this time it felt different. Like she was saying goodbye. Looking back on it now you wondered if she knew she wouldn’t see you again. If she did, then you had wished she said something, you would’ve skipped work that day to see her off, and tell her everything you wanted to tell her. You voices were mumbled, you couldn’t remember what exactly you had spoken about, but her hands gripped yours, and the only words you could pull from that memory was.

“I know that my boy is doing just fine, all a mother wants is better for their children,” her hand lifted your chin to look at her, even if they were almost the same height, “you’ll leave this place too one day. Maybe you two will find one another again.” You wanted to reply but something stopped you, the memory fading once again.

This time when your eyes opened before you, you were somewhere unfamiliar. Grass cushioned your bare feet, it felt soft and you looked around. You had never been here, and you turned in a circle to look around. There was a large tree on a hill, and it looked as if someone was sitting there.

Go over to them, Obi-Wan’s voice rang in your ears. You nodded, to yourself or to the presence you carried with you through these memories, and your feet moved you closer. You trudged up the hill until you stood behind the figure. They slowly rose to their feet, but didn’t turn to you. You tried to move forward but couldn’t, stuck in your place.

You’re here child, they said to you, but not out loud, you’re here to see the truth. Your part in the galaxy.

You supposed so. But you weren’t too sure why you were here, or where this even was.

Where is this? You asked, your voice echoing around you. Something inside of you was saying to be cautious. So it wasn’t only you had never seen this.. they hadn’t either.

This is where the natural Force flows, where you belong.

Your chest felt heavy with the words, but they continued, The Jedi. The Sith. They believe the Force to be either good or evil. But they are wrong.

Wrong, you pondered, what do you mean?

The Force is neither good nor evil. There is always an equal balance, it looked like their hand extended to their side, and you felt pulled forward.

We have chosen you to carry this responsibility. As the Force runs through them, it runs through you naturally. Not good, and not evil.

I don’t understand, you shook your head. You wanted to turn and see the figure, but you couldn’t. They didn’t want you to see. You felt a rippling pain in your mind, and you tried to grip your head, but the figure had too much power over you. You were alone. Obi-Wan and Anakin are no longer there with you in your mind.

The Chosen One is said to bring balance to the Force, but he also can destroy the peace.

No, you stopped them, he could never.

But he can, he is.. strong. Overpowering. You must be there to guide him. That is why we have brought you together. You need one another.

This doesn’t make any sense, you wanted to say.

It will, they assured you, one day it will. You cannot stop what has happened, but you can be here now to guide him. You will be stronger than him in ways the Jedi will not be able to understand. But he is more powerful than you in others. They are blind in their own ways, like the Sith are in theirs.

You felt like you were shoved backwards, and when your eyes flew open you fel to the ground. You were back in the room and Anakin and Obi-Wan were already by your side.

“(Y/N) are you alright?” Anakin had asked you. You were laid back on the ground, your head on the carpet and staring at the ceiling. You breathed heavily, trying to adjust to your surroundings. You nodded abruptly, and they helped you sit up.

“I have never seen anything like that,” Anakin said, looking over to his Master, “what was that?”

“I’m not sure, Anakin,” Obi-Wan said and noticed your shivers. He quickly grabbed the robe he had folded earlier and wrapped it around your shoulders, “but it was strong enough to push us from her thoughts.”

You mumbled a thanks, and Obi-Wan helped you stand, his hand pulling you upwards as Anakin had his on your other arm. Your legs felt weak, and Anakin helped you to stand fully.

“She needs rest, Master,” Anakin said, and Obi-Wan nodded.

“Yes of course, get her checked out first in the medbay,” Obi-Wan commanded, and Anakin nodded. He had to help you out of the room as Obi-Wan stayed behind. As Anakin carried you out into the hallway, you felt a wave of emotions hit you. Anakin’s panic next you while he tried to keep his body calm hit you, and each person you passed you could feel something from them. A thought, a feeling, anything you could read hit your stomach in a quick flash.

You felt very overwhelmed.

“Air,” you mumbled and Anakin looked to you, “Anakin please—I need air.”

“Okay okay, hold on,” he said to you in a low voice, bringing you somewhere farther away from where you were headed. You could see the sunlight in the distance, but felt as if your legs couldn’t get you there. When you did make it, Anakin helped you ease yourself on to a bench. He kneeled before you, looking up at you with worry in his eyes. You rested your arms on your legs and let your head roll downwards as you tried to collect yourself.

Anakin could feel something different about you, but he didn’ want to say anything.

“I’m so sorry, I didn’t know any of that was going to happen,” he said and you shook your head.

“No it’s okay—“

“No it isn’t,” he cut you off, anger laced in his voice, your eyes looked up slightly at his tone change, “I should’ve known you needed more time.”

“Anakin,” you warned. You were looking at him straight on, and his eyes met yours, “I.. Needed to know that. Everything. I just feel overwhelmed.”

Anakin nodded, “I can feel a change from you,” he commented, and glanced down to your hands, unsure if he should take them in his own, “what did they say to you? That being?”

You shook your head, you couldn’t tell him, their words echoed in your mind about being careful, “Just that.. I needed to be here. I don’t know what they did to me I can feel.. Well everything. Like I feel you, right now.”

Anakin smiled, “That’s the Force (Y/N), we just have to help you control it.”

You nodded and sighed, your shoulders falling, but Anakin took your hands in his. You looked at him and he smiled.

“I’ll be here. Every step of the way.”

And you knew he meant it. You didn’t know if it was because of the way he looked at you, or the way his gloved hands drew circles on the top of your hands. But you knew he meant every word he said. And you would be there for him. Just like you needed him in this instance, he would need you. When that would be you may not ever know. Something changed that day, and the Jedi weren’t the only ones who felt it.

[haydennation]

A party animal whose best friends go 'oink'

He's among the hottest actors in Hollywood, but the star of Jumper is happiest when poking around his old Ontario farm. Hayden Christensen has been cozying up in the winter wonderland of his Ontario farm, playing with his snowmobiles, his tractor that turns into a snowplow and his pet pigs. There is drilling and banging going on in his house; he is overseeing construction work. He had wanted to do it all himself, but somehow that never happened, because he's been constantly on the move - two days in New York, four days in the Bahamas, two days in Dubai.

"Yes, I am aware that I can be difficult to get hold of," he concedes sweetly over the telephone. No wonder his latest movie, Jumper, all about teleporting, held great appeal for him.

Christensen is a strange mixture of shyness and machismo. He seems both old and young for his 26 years. "Actually, I don't really like travelling, I mean the act of it. It took 20 hours to get to Dubai. But I just wanted to go and see it.

"If I could teleport myself right now, it would probably be to here, an old farmhouse north of Toronto. Or maybe to a beach in the Bahamas. The beaches are very nice there. I also like London. I had a great time when I did This Is Our Youth in the West End. And I'd like to do something else there." It is clear that, for him, it's all about the destination, not the journey.

After roles in some smaller films (The Virgin Suicides, Life as a House) Christensen became a household name overnight as Jedi bad boy Anakin Skywalker in the Star Wars prequels. At the time, he was overwhelmed by his huge celebrity - and by screaming teenage girls. When the last instalment wrapped, he lay low for two years, and then was back opposite Jessica Alba in Awake (the thriller that did for surgery what Jaws did for fishing) and with Factory Girl, in which he played a character based on Bob Dylan.

Now, he's embracing blockbuster life again. "My Star Wars experience, which was amazing in all aspects ... was completely overwhelming in how it related to my personal life. It was a big deal, you know. Afterwards, I was more inclined to do smaller films that were more about the character, and which were more of a means of self-expression and the reasons I initially got into acting.”

"When Jumper came up, I was still in that head space, [and this was] a big movie and possibly a franchise, and big science-fiction. It didn't necessarily get my attention at first, but then I found out that Doug Liman was directing it. I'm a fan of his work," he says of the man behind The Bourne Identity and Mr. and Mrs. Smith.

"He was at the Toronto film festival doing preproduction, and I met him. We cut a bond. It was instantly clear to me that I could have the best of both worlds. ... Doug cares about his characters and his process as an artist. It was also going to be a movie that reached a broad audience, that had commercial value. Very few people can make that work."

Christensen enjoys talking about the male actors he has worked with. He likes to show you that side - the guy's guy. But he is perhaps most famous for being his current leading lady's man. Not a film goes by without some kind of rumour of an off-screen romance. His co-star in Jumper is Rachel Bilson, best known as Summer Roberts from The O.C.

"Rachel," he says falteringly, "I became very fond of. She's quite special." He avoids, however, direct questions about the fact that they've been seen and photographed together acting like a couple. "Umm, I don't really talk about that stuff much, I'm sorry. People speculate all of the time. ... I do understand why people who work together, especially on film sets, it can lead to that because you are in intense situations for a period of time and sometimes in a unique situation, and it's its own world."

Christensen's world, for the moment, revolves around his farm, and today he's especially focused on his pot-bellied pigs, Petunia and Buddy.

"She's very much a girlie girl," he says of Petunia, "and he's rambunctious, curious and oinking. I have more fun with the boy, but I feel closer to the girl actually." He tells me they are very intelligent. They became litter trained in two days.

So has he stopped eating bacon? "It's a big dilemma for me now," he concedes. "I'm not a vegetarian ... [but] these pigs are starting to mess with my head. I had my family over yesterday, and I went to the market to buy a bunch of food, and I would usually buy pork ribs. I had this whole dilemma at the counter as to whether I should get them, and in the end, I didn't."

His tractor is another distraction at the moment. "I just got this new one and I spent the morning figuring out how to use it. Cool tractor, top-of-the-line. Enclosed cabin, really monstrous, you know, six-foot wheels. I spoke to my dad on the phone and he told me how to turn it on, and I was able to figure it out from there. It has a snow plow on it and I've got a few other fun boy toys.”

"I like my dirt bikes, my building equipment. I've also got an excavator, a dump truck and a Bobcat."

About other guilty pleasures, though, he is less forthcoming. "The really guilty ones," he says with a dirty grin, "I can't tell you about." Such a guy's guy.

[carsenandmovies]

Venom

What a superb movie for children. It had chase scenes, one-liners, and literally no depth. It felt like a movie written by someone who’s both never seen a movie or ever written a movie. It lacked substance in a big way. And there was Natalie Portman and Hayden Christensen levels of chemistry between who we are told are the love interests.

I found myself incredibly bored during what should have been the height of the movie, and what they probably spent millions of dollars on: the chase scene. I wanted it to be over almost as soon as it started and it dragged for 5 minutes.

The wardrobe was so terrible, everyone’s clothes were so distracting. Why did they put a wig on Michelle Williams? And why did they make her wear a tiny pleated skirt a la Clueless? Why did they include that line about Tom Hardy changing his shirt? And why did Jenny Slate have to wear scientist glasses and an ugly ponytail? These are questions not even worth answering.

I was really excited to see Riz Ahmed play a villain, but his lines were so forced and he fell really flat. I’m certain that was because of the writing, and not because of Riz.

The plus here is that we got to see Tom Hardy’s face and his lips look like juicy fucking steaks. Honestly his lips took me out of the film and it didn’t even matter, because it was so easy to follow along with anyway.

Also Jenny Slate is a national treasure that should be protected at all costs.

1/5 for the inclusion of tater tots. I won’t watch this again but i will show it to my kids. Because it’s a kids movie posing as an R-rated film.