#dont blog at 4am kids

[dittolicous]

i think im having my midlife crisis. cuz time is passing so fast and im just... so tired. so tired of spending everyday miserable and stressed and hoping tomorrow will be better, when it never is.

i dont want to have to struggle for another 10 years just to get a simple little home that isnt infested with roaches or has rats in the walls. i want to be able to get up in the morning to drink coffee and watch the news. see kids walking to school. learn to sew. go fishing every now and again. own a car. be able to sleep without fretting over which bill to pay before cutoff.

i. i dont feel like ill ever escape. the community around me doesn't care because im not homeless of suffering enough, because i can still work even if im a husk of a human. because everyone has to work or die. work or die.

ive spent thr last few days pouring over applications, loan possibilities, houses, financial aid, bills, etc. no jobs have reached back to me except scams or ones that are basically downgrades from what i already do. i look and i look and i look, i used that suggested google jobs thing, but all the good jobs are off the island, require 10000 years experience, have no benefits, or are all work that i utterly despise. i dont qualify for loans and make too much for financial aid.

and they always say the same thing. get rid of your pets (as if rehoming is even cheap or easy), get rid of internet, make sacrifises sacrifices and more sacrifices. get up at 4am to wait in food bank lines for old meat, leftover produce, and stale cake. constantly plead to strangers and justify your life. because thats just life! your not allowed to have nice things when youre poor, dont you know? if you do, then thats wasting money and we wont help you. you deserve what you get because happiness comes with money.

i just want out. and i guess jokes on them. if i rehome my pets, well, that would mean id finally be free to off myself. because im sorry to say, but theyre the only thing that holds me back. i hate this world. i wasnt built to survive here. i dont have any passions or drive or... anything.

i dont know why im here. just to suffer and be miserable until im too old and weak to work, to die alibe in a ditch.... i dont have anything worth anything.

and what makes me fucking laugh! is that the last time i went to my psych appointment i was like. i cant do this! im tired of being tired! and they pushed me to try their therapy again and that theyd get a case worker to call me and to think of all things i can change instead of what i cant... i agreed but was open with how i didn't have much faith in the system. how they failed me in the past and that makes me wary.

that was two weeks ago.

case worker never called me. therapist never called me. i cant change anything.

all because of stupid fucking bills and checks and jobs and money because no one deserves to live happy!

ill never escape. ill never have a live worth living. i dont have anyone to go to the movies or amusement parks with, no one who would drop by for coffee and a chat, no one to go to cons with. im just a little icon on a blue website. if i died tomorrow, if my queue ended... no one would mourn me not really. no one would cry. because im just broken and incapable of making genuine connections. id just be another quiet blog, a blip in the radar.

[angel-nero]

I will change my url to moonlightkeith do u like it

[tastyykpop]

Hiii Congrats on reaching the milestone💕💕love your blog btw!! Could you please do a Taeyong smut where he is kinda cold to her before but confesses after he becomes very jealous??

Hii ty so much u have no clue how much this means to me🥺

ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ, ɪᴅɪᴏᴛ

Pairings: tsundere!taeyong x reader

Genre: smut

Warnings: d/s themes, jealousy, possessiveness, marking, praising, a dash of spanking, fingering, hair pulling, unprotected sex

I finished this at 4am so it's not edited 💔

"Lee Taeyong!!" You chased the dark haired boy down the side walk, never turning to look back as his name was called, "Wait for me please!"

He scoffed. Luckily you couldn't hear him. "What an annoying brat." Taeyong continued on, still ignoring you and your protests of him walking away.

Running as fast as you could to catch up was easier said then done. You held boba and your food from a nearby fast food restaurant in one hand, Taeyongs in another with your purse flopping against you. You wouldn't be in this situation if Taeyong scare you into holding his food for you, threatening you with a cold stare.

Yes, you and Taeyong are friends. It's odd because of how cold and almost rude he is with you, but you're somehow friends, at least you think you are. Some people say he's got a soft spot for you but you're not too sure anymore. One day hes calling you an idiot for not taking care of yourself and the next hes rolling his eyes at you and telling you to fuck off. Coming to the conclusion that maybe he only thinks of you as a friend, you started pushing him away recently and hung out with another friend of yours. Too bad because you may have had feelings for Taeyong too. Something about him made you want to stick around even though most of the time he didn't want you around.

"Goddammit Taeyong...wait up!"

As annoying as it was to be running with food and drinks in both hands, the most annoying part had to be the purse. It was big, heavy, and swayed with every step, bumping into your left arm ever millisecond. Why couldn't you just man up to Taeyong before?

"Bastard."

"Did you say something?"

"Huh- what!? When did you-" you tilted your head upwards to meet Taeyongs arched brow and impatient face. How did you not realize you caught up?

You pushed his food and drink into his chest and grumbled, "Here." And without waiting for Taeyong, you readjusted your purse and walked to your house with expectations that he would follow.

Taeyong frowned yet tailed you like a lost puppy.. He didn't have any plans catching up to you or telling you to wait for him and just admired you from behind. He liked the way your hair bounced over your shoulders with every step, the way your hips swayed as you walked. He even liked how long the skirt made your legs look even though you were tiny compared to him. Taeyong liked you without a doubt, but he wouldnt actually tell you that.

"Are you coming?" You opened the door to your house. Taeyong didn't answer, only pushing you out of the way and beelining it to the table where he placed his food and drink. "I'll take that as a yes..." you sigh.

Placing your food gently on the table, you sat across from the male who eyed you up and down but with no expression crossing his face.

"Y/n." Taeyongs stern voice startled you as you almost choked on a boba pearl. "Whats on your neck?"

"My neck?" Softly, you touched the side of your neck before realizing what he meant. Yesterday, that friend of yours that you've started hanging out with asked you to hang out. And little did you know, hanging out didn't mean just watching movies or joking around. It soon turned to small touches, then kissing, then making out. Before you knew it, he was kissing and sucking your neck, creating the purple mark that now painted your skin. "Oh...it's nothing. Just a bruise."

"What are you stupid? Your telling me you just happened to bruise your neck? Dumbass."

"Then why did you ask if you already know?" You mumbled.

As you took the biggest bite from your burger, Taeyong had to speak up again, "I hate it."

"Its a good thing it's not on you then isn't it."

"I think you would look better covered in my marks." His voice never faltered and you were sure he was joking. Taeyongs always been straight forward with you, but this seemed like a joke, it had to be a joke. Your mind was playing tricks on you and this is what you wanted to hear. It can't be real.

"You're kidding right...?"

"Completely serious."

"So you're...jealous?"

"Stop asking so many questions." He said coldly, shutting you up quickly, but the smirk on your face still lingered.

"I just think it's funny that a small mark on my neck could make someone as cold as you are, jealous." You say, confidence flowing out of you out of nowhere and this time, Taeyong went quiet. "Its cute."

"Cute? You know what's cute is me bending you over this table and fucking the life out of you so you only remember my name and who owns that cute ass."

Heat rose to your cheeks and the tips of your ears, and maybe Taeyong could tell but youre sure your face was starting to show a hint of red, "Now I know you're just bluffing."

Taeyong rolled his eyes, "Come here and shut that mouth, I'll show you I'm not." It had to be the way his voice growled that made you suddenly get out of your seat and stand before the man. It's easy for you to be flustered but it's also easy for you to obey someone that shows more dominance and Taeyong- well he was just overflowing with it.

"We're gonna have a little fun, yeah?" He smiled devishly, "You trust me right?"

"Y-yeah, I m-mean we are f-friends."

Suddenly, your body was bent over the table and your wrists were bound by Taeyongs hand. If you wanted to escape, Taeyong wouldn't let allow it, so you were locked in place.

God, the way this position impacted Taeyong to the point where he just wanted to fuck you all day and night. With your skirt barely hiding your pretty pink panties, he could easily get off by himself at the sight. He didn't need to do that though, he had you after all.

"Did he touch you?" You hear him say, voice low and frightening, enough to paralyze you from moving and speaking. But to his dismay you didn't answer. Moreover, hesitated to answer because of the tone he used. "I asked you a question." He growled, "Did. He. Touch. You."

A soothing hand ran up the sides of you skin, it was cold, almost like a vampires touch compared to your warm skin. "Y-yes."

Taeyong stopped, "Where?"

"Why does it matter?" You say, finding your confidence again though that won't last since your bent over the table with your ass in Taeyongs face.

"I dont want you to remember his touch, only mine. So I'll touch any place he touched." He continued touching where he could reach, the hand binding your wrists let up and rested on your ass as if about to spank you. "Now answer me."

You grumbled and arched your back as a way to tell Taeyong to shut up and fuck you. The pain of something not filling you up was unbearable, you even thought about slipping your fingers inside dripping cunt for relief. "Stop asking me questions and fuck me please."

"God you're so annoying." He spoke. "Im not going to fuck you until you tell me. It shouldnt be that hard since you're so confident." Taeyong pulled you up by your hair and forced you on his lap where your back was pressed against his chest. You couldnt look him in the face, too afraid that you'd break into a blabbering mess.

"H-he touched m-me," you grab Taeyongs hand with hesitation and placed it on your panties that covered your leaking hole, "here."

Almost positive Taeyong could feel your juices soaking through your panties, you pulled your hand away letting his own linger where you needed him most.

"What did he do when he touched you here?" His middle finger went along the slit of your cunt, dragging up and down gently.

"N-nothing."

He crooked his head before pushing your panties to the side and dipping two fingers in, "He didn't do this?" As you body arched into him, he was able to go deeper and finger you slow enough that you were sure it was teasing. And the pain of wanting to be filled up slowly disappeared but not enough.

"N-no, he d-didnt." As he began picking up speed, you cursed a threw your head back. You cried for more, struggling to stay still in his lap and his fingers worked magically inside you.

Taeyong loved every second of this. To finally see you melt in his arms literally when you could so easily turn him down for this. And he'd like to think he was the only one who could make you feel this way. Make you whimper and whine and call out to him for more. He was the only one for you.

"Please T-Taeyong, i want you to f-fuck me so bad," with a third finger slipping inside you, you moaned uncontrollably at the pace. Though you weren't stuffed like you would be with his dick, it was obvious Taeyong knew how to work his fingers to make you act this way. "Please, please, please..."

"Where else did he touch you?" He ignored your please.

It irked you how he didn't bat an eyelash at your desperate self. If you had your confidence again, you would have taken his dick out and sat on it without a question, even so you knew Taeyong wouldn't allow it just yet. He wanted you to fall apart before he even started.

"Mmm Taeyong-" you moaned with content as his fingers curved against your walls, "H-He touched m-my ch-chest."

Taeyong bit the inside of his cheek trying to hide the smirk that formed, "Guess ill just do the same." His free hand worked its way to your mounds where he proceeded to grope you and brush over your sensitive buds. The combination of his fingers inside you and his hands fondling your boobs was sure to bring your to an orgasm soon.

"Youre so beautiful." Taeyong mumbles into your ear, "so fucking perfect."

As carefully as can be, his fingers pulled out of you as a string of your slick connected to his three fingers.

So delicious, Taeyong thought, everything about you was so delicious.

You were flipped around so you faced Taeyong. This time, you didn't look away from him or hide your face from him. Instead, you maintained eye contact with the pretty boy below you before you suddenly pulled him into a desperate and needy kiss.

His heart beat faster than before. His ears burning as his face was flushed. You kissed him. You, the girl that he's been crushing on for years finally kissed him. It only took his jealousy to make this all happen.

"You don't understand how much I love you," he unbuckled his belt, "I cherish every minute and every second I spend with you," soon his pants were unbuttoned, "I can't stand seeing you with someone else," He slipped his dick inside of you with ease, a moan falling from both of you, "Even if you don't love me back, I still fucking do."

You couldnt find words to speak. Your mind was running but not thinking. If you spoke, you weren't sure if it'd be babbling or moaning because of how hard Taeyong fucked up into you. "I-i lo-" No, you couldnt say it back, not while being fucked into a whole new galaxy.

Taeyong on the other hand, was anxious yet pounded into you, enough to bring tears to your eyes. He wanted you to speak, he wanted to hear those three words come out of your mouth, but all he got was your adorable moans and sighs. Yet he wasn't complaining, they sounded lovely apart from the skin against skin. He's just overthinking.

"Youre doing so well, baby." His voice slowly fading, you were so lost in the feeling that anything Taeyong said, went out the other ear.

"F-feels so g-good. Want m-more..." Your greedy hands tugged at Taeyongs locks, but you weren't the only one being touchy. Taeyong was also kneading the plush skin of your ass, giving small taps before digging his nails in, making you whimper.

"Youre so needy baby, huh? So cute and needy for me." He slapped your ass playfully. The smirk on his face was evident that he loved every second of this.

"F-fuck yes, i-im so needy f-for you." You cry, "Youre t-the only one who c-can make me f-feel t-this good."

Of course he is. And Taeyong couldn't be any happier hearing that from you. It gave him energy to fuck harder while now holding your hips still like you were his personal toy. You struggled with keeping the hold on his hair. Your light tugs now harsh pulls but Taeyong didn't mind, in fact he liked how his head was forced to look at your beautiful face.

"Pretty girl." He leaned over the slightest bit and sucked on your necks sweet skin as you tried bouncing on his cock along with him thrusting up. "How much do you love this cock?" He questioned against your neck.

"S-so so much, Taeyong!" Your hips stutter and you know youre close but refuse to faulter, "Y-you h-have the best c-cock."

Taeyong moved back from your neck and grabbed your chin, "Are you ever going to let that guy touch you like that again after this?" You shook your head quickly. "Good girl."

"Im g-gonna cum." You say and without a single thought or word, your body shook as pleasure washed before you. Still, though Taeyong was on the edge of cumming himself, he kept the quick pace from before. But you were so sensitive from the orgasm, and even started screaming Taeyongs name. It wasn't pain, but pleasure, very sensitive pleasure that could easily make you cum a second time.

Seconds before you were about to feel another wave, Taeyong shot his seed deep into you, thrusting slowly as he came down from his high.

"D-did you mean what you said?" Taeyong breathes heavily and raises his brow in question, "About you loving me."

"Duh. I love you, idiot. I wouldn't say that if I didn't mean it." He rolled his eyes. That's the Taeyong you knew. "And what about you? Are you gonna say something or leave me hanging."

"I l-love you t-too." You say quickly. "I mean it."

Taeyong smiles a real smile before patting your head like a puppy and lifting you off his dick, "Lets get you cleaned up, baby, then we can talk about planning a date."

"A date??"

"Mhm," he smirked, "but not after a round two."

[uchiha-no-hime]

About the Jonsa ship

Hi, I saw your post about asking why the jonsa ship is a thing and as a fellow passenger of the ship, I'd like to share my side. I don't speak for everyone simply wanted to share my take.

You know how sasunaru is a thing even tho its clearly never going to be canon but people still ship it. Its kind of the same, we enjoy finding parallels with them. And Regardless of whether or not the ship is canon I enjoyed it because its about the adventure. I like reading people's meta on what they think might happen and their excitement. There are many things i like about the ship but I'm sleep so I'm in a rush to finish this so I apologize if its messy it's 4am here and I havent been sleeping well. 

Point is it does have to make sense to anyone, it makes us happy so we go with it. Just as your ship makes you happy. I wont ever tell you what to like or what not to like. Ots your opinion and their valid but so is mine. I would never try to belittle things you like. Honestly I'm fine with whoever ends up with who because I love the CHARACTERS more then I do a ship. So if Jon and arya happens great because I like them too, i just wanna see how grrm ties them together again because I always views their relationship as platonic siblings. And if its jon and Dany great, I'd like to see how grrm will write their interactions, if its jon and sansa great I'd like to see how grrm would write their romance. The point is I respect ever ship even if I'm not personally a part of it because i have fun on my ship and thats enough for me. So I'm tired of the drama on "which character/ship is better" or "who's/makes a real feminist" can't we just get along? 

I enjoy reading your blog because I adore Arya too, and would be happy if she become QitN or Qof7 ot sails and builds a nation and pack of her own, as long as she's happy. I'll stan practically anything that makes her happy. I just don't think to like someone/something/or a ship we have to drag someone else down. It hurts when the fandom of  two ships or characters i love belittle each other. Everyone can have their own stans and that's fine we dont all have to agree we just have to be respectful I mean we are all part of the same fandom. 

Anyways, thanks for reading my "ireallyneedtosleep" rambling. I don't mean to ofend, its hard to convey tone on text to strangers but I genuinely want to get along with arya stand because I love the stark kids

[strawberrybabydog]

isnt waking up at 4am (or so) and howling a normal kid behavior thing? not an otherkin thing. just kids being #quirky. help im not implying or trying to imply otherkin arent normal i

yeah they just want to attach “otherkin” to it for shock value/clout probably. and it worked! i mean, i had no idea this blog existed until this. and i wish i could travel back in time to when i didnt know it existed. but hey - all press is good press, right?

but yeah it is all normal #quirky kid shit lol. waking u at 4am probably not - unless they’re sneaking out and being quiet. i dont imagine any parents would allow this [their kids being awake and playing at 4am] to happen. but they’re apparently not being quiet and sneaking out, because if they’re being so loud its waking up neighbors... yeah.

but children roleplay all the time. thats what i meant in my reblog by “obviously antikin have never been children” because roleplay is an essential part of childhood play and development. children roleplay as many things: animals, teachers, parents, certain jobs, etc. and they express it in different ways as well - through toys or more of a live-action type thing. and i guess maybe the antikinnies themselves have never... roleplayed in their childhood (which i just know is a huge fucking lie)? but were they homeschool and never saw any other children doing it? did they never, ever go out into public and see kids playing at a park or even, hell, in stores sometimes? have they never.... met... a child... to they know... children... exist... so many questions we will never have answers to /j

if antikin never roleplayed when they were children (which again! is essential to their development, they are literally programmed to do this, so they will do it whether you like it or not,) were homeschooled their entire lives, and never went out into public. um. who’s gonna tell them they were (apparently lol) severely abused and people who that actually happens to, have an extremely (near impossibly) difficult time re-integrating into society as an adult? 

people who talk openly - even as a “joke” - about violently harming children desperately need therapy and desperately need to never be around children, ever. i mean, my partner’s youngest siblings are 3, 5, & 8, and sure they annoy us sometimes when we see them. they’re fuckin kids, what did you expect? but never out of anger, even as a joke, would i think “i am doing to hurt them” THEYRE KIDS LIKE I??

anyways, the moral of the story is there is no story and these children are either 1. not real, or 2. they do actually exist and just don’t do any of these things. these stories are clearly fake and meant to hurt otherkin so

ps: wtf is with antikinnies and wanting to abuse kids jfc. now they’re making up shitty see-thru stories just to hate kids openly? they’ve [d]evolved,,,,,,

[lavendersage]

i saw that post from the girl who's girlfriend isn't quite ready to be out. if ur blog didnt seem to celebrate love of all kinds (and i'm not talking straight vs gay, i'm talking happy vs sad) i would have kept this to myself, but between ur response and the op's story itself, i think im going to take this chance of sharing a burden on my heart, maybe to help someone else, or just for the shot at becoming at peace with it. a couple weeks ago, when u asked for everyone to send u stories of their lovers, i wrote most of this out but didnt send it.

i (21F) am a college student (god, is this reddit?). my entire life, i have cultivated the cleanest good girl image that i could. my parents sacrificed so much for my sister and i to grow up far more comfortable then they did, so i have tried to honor them with a little golden child they could brag about. straight As, never missed school, did community service, perfect SATs. i worked tirelessly to be on-paper perfect.

one of the reasons i've worked so hard to earn Good Noodle Stars is to make up for the fact that i am terminally homosexual. i realized real early that i could literally cure cancer and the first comment on the news video will be, "okay, she cured cancer, but at least I'm not gay like she is." i could raise thousands for charity, and my aunts would still say, "our kids may not get off the couch but at least they have sex correctly." so they dont know. few people do, none outside my closest circle.

in walks Mars(21NB). Mars is an anachronism. they are both a romantic with and without a capital R. be still my Dark Academia heart.

we got very close before school broke for Covid. Mars wrote me a letter every other week, encrypted and folded so that the only way to open them was to rip a paper seam that would show if someone had tampered with it. it was intoxicating. it was the first time i felt able to communicate freely about anything. i dont know - i didnt hold back my emotions, emboldened by writing in cipher. i spent all summer waiting for those red sealed envelopes, filled with stories and poetry and honeyed nonsense, and i refused to not respond with mirrored passion.

it was all great until it set in that I was going to have to face Mars again, in person. i prayed our school would decide all students had to stay remote. of course I wanted to see Mars, i want to do much more than just see them, but i knew it would only be a matter of time between us being reunited and them asking me out.

this was a person who crafted a puzzle where the answers were flowers that were a declaration of fidelity in Victorian Flower Language. of course i ate that up with a spoon. u would have too. listen, i know all aesthetics are fads and all fads age badly, but if the cottagecore girls get to learn to sew and bake and grow, i owe dark academia for teaching me the vocabulary and actions of my most treasured relationship yet, and giving me permission to be earnest and vulnerable in this life for 10 goddamn minutes. Mars is handsome and a genius and i was not used to feeling connected to anyone. but for all that joy, i was also drowning with the thought of having to break their heart by explaining i cant date anyone AFAB.

so the semester starts. Mars asks me over for a homecooked meal since restaurants don't exist here at the end of the world. they made me a beautiful dinner with all my dietary needs in mind. just like everything else i ate it up. and i made no effort to stop them from inviting me over for food and conversation again and again and a fourth time just to make sure it really hurt.

they kissed me after the last dinner. and I kissed them back, before stopping. they apologized for moving too quickly, but i explained that they had moved at the perfect pace, just with the wrong person.

there is no nice ending to this. it's real life. Mars took it as a breakup and didnt reach out to me again. i sobbed from halloween to christmas, i swear. i'm the villain in this story.

i started this post off as a sign of solidarity to the other young lady, but now im realizing that this letter would be better read by her fearful beloved, not her. it is 4am where i live, so i apologize if this has all gotten away from me.

love is a garden u have to water yourself. ngl, my favorite part about this blog is all the posts about learning to love yourself, learning to see ur intrinsic value dispite the core facets of u that have been deemed flaws, and trust the relationship between me, myself, and i.

i started out telling myself i was writing this to help the high school kid, but i havent shared this with anyone. writing this out has helped me process a thing or two, or at least start to. i like this idea of lavendersage being a kindly cryptid who will alchemise ur heartache into calm.

i hope you dont mind if i try to make this a thing.

my story is in the shape of a love letter. its tearstained before it even hits the water. i drop it in your river and watch it float away.

y’all are breaking my heart with these stories this week 🤧i feel so sad to read them and so helpless to respond, because i know how deep that pain must run and i don’t know if there’s truly anything i could say or do to take it away. but if i can lessen it from 100 to 99, well, then i’ll have fulfilled my goal of existing on this website. at the very least, i’m glad that writing this message helped you process some things on your own, but i’m happy to share my thoughts anyway.

your mars sounds like a top tier human being. victorian flower language? i’m swooning. it’s no surprise to me that you fell for them, and they were clearly head over heels for you. folks don’t make grand gestures like that for just anyone, that’s for sure 🥺

and i’m very sad to hear about the way things ended. but, anon, i can’t help but wonder if it is indeed over, or if hope exists on the precipice of a great act of bravery performed by you--something i know from experience is much easier said than done, and something i’ve failed to do in the past, so i’m not trying to be a hypocrite here. the ball is definitely in your court, though.

also...it doesn’t sit well with me to hear you call yourself a villain. i understand why you see it that way, as it’s clear that you deeply care for this person. but for many folks...the fear of what our family will say or think or do weighs so heavily on us that it robs us of any possibility of happiness with someone who isn’t the kind of person our family wants us to end up with. i’m sure plenty of folks, myself included, can empathize with this. and i’m sure on some level, mars does too.

my love, as with all things, i hope whatever happens next works out for the best, and that you don’t let this experience darken your heart. if things change between you and mars, please feel free to drop me a note. i’ll always be here to listen 💚💚💚`

[suqarbreadz]

all of them shawty bae

im assuming this is payback HAHAHAHAH

i lov u

🤳 what does your url mean?

i like bread.

thats literally it HAHAHAHA

💻 what pushed you to make this blog in the first place?

cause i literally hate every other social media website besides youtube and sorta insta

🌧 go to song when you’re feeling depresso?

i dont ever feel "depresso"

☀️ go to song when you’re feeling on top of the world?

i have too many to name, but grandson is a lot ov em so

🧁 favorite memory with a specific song/album?

i dontttt haveee one???

🍃 favorite part of nature?

i like flowers

💖 something you love about yourself?

"q" ~cat thing

🌋 one thing you wish you could be doing right now?

animating but my hand decided to say fuck you

🥤 go-to drink (doesn’t have to be alcoholic!)

milk

🎄 favorite season of the year?

snow snow snow

🍀 meaningful life-lesson or quote you vibe to?

im so swaggy

🥘 what is the best meal you make? or bake?

toast is my specialty

💬 something you wish you knew 5 years ago?

idk

🏡 where is your dream house?

i dont care where it is so long as i got roommates

🐻 do you have a comfort object? what is it?

dont got one

🌟 what is something you’ve been proud of recently?

my art did 180 recently and im loving it, but it got ruined when i couldnt draw today

🌅 what does your evening routine look like?

brush my teeth then talk on vc till 3-4am EHE

🌺 describe your aesthetic (even if it’s just what you’re wearing now)

neon colours or retro

also stars

📝 do you have a WIP (work in progress)? share a piece of it!

aaaaaanimation

🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

🍄 what is your personality like?

"q" -cat thing

🔥 what kind of kid were you in high school?

im still here what do you mean

[cynettic]

welp, apparently 4am it isn't late enough for the damn chickens to stfu. *cough* Anywhoo fuck it im gonna make an acc in America server lmao, ive been meaning to make one for each server but im legit scared of the DS quest and the story in konda (I haven't finshed the Konda one and my exploration in DS is 48% n my DS tree is at level 4 or 7) ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and this time ill be choosing aether for experimental and educational purposes ofc not bc I found out i was a simp for him or anything ehe

And awww hopefully in her rerun you'll get her!! advance gudluck on her boss lmfao. also fun fact-actually it's not fun but it's still a fact-I slandered Ayaka like rlly slandered ik it was a shameful dark part of my life 😔

"Oh it's just mona and kaeya i dont see what's the big deal, nah i aint rolling for her" but boi her story quest was the literal definition of 'gay panic' then i was so shocked when she said 'keep your eyes on me' then she aahhhyutyu hummed that tune and started to dance ughefgaijugyufb 😫 I kid you not i was speechless lmao pls tell me im not the only one- n when i got her-not tryna brag dont bonk me-i felt so satisfied i could die then and there with no regrets except maybe the regret of not finding u/ur blog sooner lmao

im cutting this short bc dont get me started on the ppl in my simp list bc i swear i wont stfu- btw can i be Cinna anon? or just Cinna?

p.s. ur sweeter <3333 although ur ayaka angst made me doubt just a little im jk <33

Pffft, getting sleep with any noisy animal is a feat. I have an adorable dog who wakes up at 3am and starts barking at the bears in our backyard, its not usually an issue though cause the majority of my motivation to write happens at 3am ;)

And it’s fine haha, I don’t have too much progress on ds either- I regret not choosing aether at the beginning oml, I love precious Lumine, but I want to experience playing with both twins and just don’t have the motivation to ;-;

And ty!! I’ll be sure to wish on her rerun, and you weren’t the only one who got attached to her in her story quest. I literally started crying, mainly cause I had to stretch the quest thing for a few days (cause of work) and built up a connection to her during that time. And when she had that whole ‘keep your eyes on me’ dance and aidbeusbsksshsj- heart captured, then and there. My life and soul offered to her- if only I could somehow transfer to the game and just stay with her :,)

Ofc you can be known as Cinna anon, I would prob just call you Cinna in general but that’s a cute name :3

don’t judge me based off my angstttt- I swear I just think of Ayaka when I’m emotionally unstable (comfort character) and I just end up writing angst. I’ll write some sweet fluff dw

I know you said you had a ton of people you simped for, but who would be your top? Top 3?

[jinned]

okay gang. let’s go (pls keep in mind i am #wasted and i love all the boys with my whole heart okie)

now most of my friends have PROBABLY heard that i used to bias more than jin before. at one point, i biased THREE members at once. becuase of the daily suffering i yeeted them to the bias wrecker zone and now i sit here comfortably, a jin stan

AND YET

what if i want to figure out the order of bias wreckers hmmmmmm

under cut is my in depth analysis (took me about 10 times to spell that right) of my bais wreckers and why they hold the spot they are in. we wont go in depth on jinnie today. we all know he’s ult. if i talk about him while drunk i’ll never shut up. yes these are in order

jin: hah BITCH u thought i couldnt talk about my main and leave him out??? ot7 hoe forever. jin is that friend you know will do anything to make u smile rght. and u really have to be friends for a while to learn when he needs help cause he’ll never say. and i love him so much. he’s so private and just wants tohers to be hapy but jin i want u happy too. he desreves the world okay. he deserves more lines and more camera time. he deserves to be in dramas like hee  awnts. hes so talented?????? yhis voice makes me cry not gonna lie it’s so beautiful and he has so much raw talent like wtf where did u COME FROM. he’s so beautiful and humble and funny and wow how could u not want him as a best friend or boyfrind. 4am pancake mornings where teh kitchen a mess but we having fun. wishing on airplane type cute shit like that yes sign me up. hugs you so tight. body language is really improtant here okay like he mgith not verbally tell u somethin g but you can tell by how he acts using his body. he might hug u tigheter and longer than normal ad thats how u know youre his comfort and he just isn’t feeling 100%. he gives those sentimental gifts. llike hey u mentioned this one time like five years ago and i finally was able to get it for you or hey heres a personalized ting to remember that one time we spent together. lots of polaroids and comfy sweaters. pooring our hearts out to each other while sitting on the kitchen counters.he want sto go through what youre going through so you dont go through it alone. wil ltake the fall for you, hyp eyou up better than anyone and is slick about it. he makes u think that lvoe exists

jimin: there was once a time when i was platonically in love with jimin. i often said “in anothe r life i was probably ulting jimin” then i saw jimin in person at a concert. i left a changed womamm. he is so sexsy that i t physically hutrss me. like wtf how are u even real. once on my prevoius blog i posted begging for pink haired jimin. three days later. jimin had pink hari. i think we are connected by souls are something. he’s 363 days older than me. i understand him sm. am i hard stan or soft stan? no i’m really asking i cant figure it out. he’s so sexy but i also want him to be my best friend. the hnonesty that owuld come from him is something i really need. we would try new foods together and go get lost on purpose. 

hoseok: my libra ass needs him to balance out my life. i see him and i smile so big. ovwer the years i have grown to understand hoseok a little bit ore and why he is the way he is and it made me soft soft. he so humble and talented and deserves so much love and recognitgion. the way he loves and cares for others is something i htink i nee dmore in a friend. he the type to hug you tight and cry with you. i like that. i apprecoiate that. he big softie and also so attractive like damn okay go off u relaly made like that and im here for it

namjoon: namjoon....imma start crying okay depe breath. namjoon was my first kpop bias ever. he the reason im even into bts and kpop in general. namjoon so sexy on like every aspect wtf. sexy brain. sexy body, sexy face. sexy talented. i ned break from u namjoon my heart just swells thinking of him. wow. namjoon is real person.namjoon give sm e hope. i want to hug him and feel those namtiddies irl u feel? i want to tel lnamjoon its okay to be urself. and to not be emjbarrassed. i love him so much and want to just pour all my love into him. he like older brother status. i never had an older brother but i imagine it would be like namjoon. comfort

yoongi: either my enemy or my best frined. cant tell. comfortable in each others presence, no nedd to talk. our talks alwasy deep and introspective. i want to talk about the world with him. i want to descover new hobbies with him. lets cuddle on the couch and watch documentaries. lowkey think he would be annoyed with me alot. but our love runs deep. that good wholesome friendship where we don’t talk everyday but whenever we see something and think of each other we send right away. that friendship that picks up where it left off. im soft soft yoongi stan. i see him and melt. i see a fool waiting to be exposed (read my fic chromatic to understand) lately he’s seemed so much happier and i legit cried one night thinking about it. i love seeing him smile and let losose an dbe more himself. like wow that’s joy right there. i love u 

taehyung: was once my ult for like a solid 6 months. i think i cried every day. his duality is too much to handle. we on firm break. taehyung leave me be pls for my sanity. are u adorable baby or are u father of my baby? the questions never end. i think he’s too handsome for my own good. i’ll never forgigve u for war orf hormone. anytime he wears beret my uwu metershatters.  but he capricorn. capricorns and i on rough terms. we would be good friends i think. those supportive friends who art together and who take long walks and talk ab out life in depth. 2am grocery shoopping trips like yessss lets make those young adult movie cliche’s come true

jungkook: straight up my arch nemesis. enemy to lovers au. we hate each other so much people start to get sus. like uhhh did u guys hook up or sumfin? we probs annoy the heck out of each other on a daily. but best friend material af. we annoying but we ride or die for each other. i see him and feel proud and just so happy for him. watching him find himsefl is like wow if he can do it i can do it too. great motivator. empathetic af. his heart pure gold i swear. trying new things all the time like wo w i wanna do that. emo looking jk is my weakness tho he automatically jumps to tpo of the list don’t tell sober bean i said that ause i would never admit that out loud. he’s younger friend u wanna protect and i am in constant awe of him. u goin places kid

[gone-to-oregone]

oh wow a post from a cryptid!

whaddup kids, it’s me, your local father Patrick, hows it hangin?

i just wanted to take the time to say a few things:

1. if you don’t see me on here very much, it’s because work is eating my every waking moment, and also my will to live, because it’s retail during a global pandemic and we’re nearing the three biggest retail holidays, so yeet i guess. i’m not leaving or anything, but if you wonder why i’ve been quiet, that’s why

2. there will be random moments where i’ll spam reblogs, it’s sort of my moment(s) to catch up in the starkid tag. these usually happen between the hours of 10pm-4am, when i’m resetting my people battery/battling my hella insomnia, so i apologize in advance

3. in addition to posting here, i’m also always reblogging stuff on my other sideblogs/main blog! i’ll link those now in case anyone is interested:

main blog : @boopbooppatato

shipwrecked comedy blog : @dont-do-murder

critical role/dnd blog : @mightyfeinnein

beetlejuice/musical theatre blog : @beetlejuimst

mcelroy brothers/taz blog : @packyourbagsandmoveaway

4. my dm’s/asks are always open, if you wanna get something off your chest, or confide in your ol’ dear papa pat some secret information, i will respond as quickly as time will allow

5. eat the rich, get to votin’ if you’re old enough, black lives matter, send as many love letters/friend letters as you can to help the usps, and you’re doing great, sweetie 💛

[chobanist]

thank you to @the-optimist-hoper-dreamer for tagging me! i love talking about myself for no reason at all so i vibe.  name: Evani but I also go by Chobani like the yogurt lol

sexuality: Bisexual

gender: F

hogwarts house: I took the quiz and im 98% sure im a ravenclaw but I actually never watched or read the series bc I wasn’t allowed to until I turned 18

time: 1:02 PM (EST)

Cats or dogs: I really love both, I’ve also had both! Dogs are more energetic and I loved coming home to see my dog waiting for me in the window and then to run up to the door to greet me. But I also like coming home to see my cat slowly slink over bc she wants pets.

favourite animal: the pangolin! I think they’re so cute and really neat

dream job: realistically, it would be working in bioremediation or remediation at all, i tend to like research more than industry but either is interesting to me. not as realistic but still a possibility: working for the AMES center in NASA doing microbiology astrobio research or being a professor who does microbiology focused astrobio work. This is like god-tier dream job no lie i actually picked my major bc i started reading more about astronomy and i ended up reading that one infamously retracted paper about organisms that utilize arsenic over phosphates lol and then my friend bought me the oxford press intro book for astrobio and i fell in love love. also about that researcher!! omg he came to a conference i was at but i missed his speech by a day bc i had class :( but he was doing more work with arsenic and someone asked him about his retracted paper and he like threw a fit and started blaming his grad student fully and completely. it was insane omg anyway yea kids always think critically about the papers u read and cross reference when you can

when i made this blog: April 2014 but I had another blog before this one (lol when I was still a homestuck) and like that was probably made in 2011/2012. i actually ended up meeting one of my oldest friends through that blog! 

reason for my url: I wanted a new URL and Chobani is my nickname (and discord name, if u wanna talk to me ask for my discord or smth) and my best friend threw out chobanist and I took it

Tagging: @the-4am-crew @aestheticemoji @polymorphicsentientrocknroll @junebloom21

i forget how many ppl i had to tag lol but obviously dont feel pressured to do it, i just felt lame by not tagging anyone also i think ur all p neat 

[angelhyunjin]

got tagged by lovely @atinysketch to answer 21 questions thanks love 🙇🏻‍♀️ im not going to tag people this time but if someone wants to be tagged feel free to do this 🙆🏻‍♀️

name- my full name is angelina 💌 (its an italian name i got asked several times if im from italy hxnsnnd)

nickname - angi

gender - female

star sign - virgo 🌸

current time - 23:11 ; i need to sleep

favorite artists - music artists ... a lot okay here we go ; stray kids, ateez, annenmaykantereit, angèle, deantrbl, dpr live, colde, twenty one pilots, the neighbourhood, monsta x, day6, taemin, troye sivan, lorde, NF, ikon, txt, a.c.e, nct, bts, red velvet, the 1975 (ive seen 6 of them live 🙇🏻‍♀️)

song stuck in my head - ta reine by angèle and new rules by txt, also lay back by verivery ;;

last movie i saw - my neighbor totoro

last thing i googled - 'nashornkäfer englisch' im crying if you dont know the story behind it it seems so random HDJSJK

other blogs - its my only one 🐇

do i get asks - sometimes and i really appreciate them 🙇🏻‍♀️💞

following - a lot

average sleep - im struggling with insomnia and currently doing farm work so - no sleep i guess ; today i woke up at 4am uff

lucky number - 5 ?

currently wearing - jeans skirt + baby pink sports bra

dream job - smth creative with arts ofc

dream trip - im currently in the country i always wanted to visit (australia) 🌸 but there are sO many places i want to go - norway, brazil, south korea, vietnam, malaysia, mexico, canada, ...

favorite food - lasagna also i looove berries, since im in australia im just constantly eating berries and other fruits hdbdndn

instruments - i mean i tried to play guitar once lmao im so untalented

favorite song - currently i lovee 'say so by dolja cat', 'bei dir by das moped', 'runaway by txt', and 'fight on' by the lathums 💌

[h0neywheat]

i dont have anything in mind exactly but i think maybe what they'll be doing in post-canon? like how's their life, where would they live, maybe even a random fact!! i love ur ocs :D

thank you so much lulu! ily. but ah

i think its obvious that wheatley goes into culinary arts, specifically with a focus on pastries like...i see him not necessarily owning a bakery but playing a big role in some local shop that makes everything from scratch. i’m sure he’s looked at high tech fancy places that are like $30 for a slice of cake and could probably work there with what he can do, but it just doesn’t feel right to him. sometimes making bread at 4am is a calling.

a lot of micah’s storyline is focused in not knowing what direction he’s headed or what he really wants to do seriously, but i don’t think i’ll ever really address occupation in the main story line but omg...i’m stuck on micah being an elementary school teacher. like first graders. i’m also absolutely stuck on him landing a job within the same school district wheatley’s mom works in (she’s a kindergarten teacher and probably an amazing reference) like...he’s amazing with kids he just...doesn’t know it yet. he probably goes takes education classes just for some elective, really the idea of teaching...thinks maybe high schoolers at first, ends up only being able to TA elementary kids...he now cannot think of teaching any other age group. (i’ve given him the most thought akdjlasdjk can you tell?)

i haven’t really decided on what esther does when she’s older. i feel like she travels a lot and probably takes pictures and writes articles for a magazine...maybe even her own magazine. she seems like she could independently run some sort of photography travel blog or run her own small photography studio.

i’m still trying to decide what rome wants to do in canon. i originally wrote her as being very much into being a vet and super studious and does a lot of volunteer work, but when we first meet her, it doesn’t make sense for her to have that much motivation, she’s honestly at a very low point in her life and in a rut, not really seeing life beyond just getting through each day, and obviously things get much better for her as the story progresses, but i haven’t found out what fits for her yet. 

honestly i want quinn to go back to school and study horticulture, or just work with plants in some way. they find a passion within gardening and keep so many plants around the house. i feel like they would have a small garden of vegetables and have a little stand in their front yard or sell them at a farmers market or even just give veggies away to friends and family. maybe they end up in a flower shop of sorts...just enjoying the hell out of gardening.

[one-and-three-sevenths]

21 Questions Tag!

Thank you so much @rogersmeadows for tagging me!!! This has accidentally been sitting in my drafts for ages I’m so sorry lol

nicknames: I dont really have one, the only one who uses it is my mum lmao but “Lou”

zodiac sign: leo  (roger hmu)

height: 5′1.75 !!!! (.75 is very important when ur as smol as me)

hogwarts house: ok ok dont get me STARTED i was a big HP fan as a kid and ALL MY LIFE I was a Gryffindor (this is based off of Pottermore btw) and then I thought, hey I havent taken the test in a couple years, lets try again..... AND I GOT HUFFLEPUFF. I FEEL BETRAYED AND I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS. so tl;dr i’m a gryffindor

last thing i googled: taron egerton as eggsy 

fave musicians: ............ this is a queen blog so i mean???? but gosh my music is all over. I also love people like Conan Gray and Dodie and Hozier, but also stuff like Motley Crue (i do not condone the actual band) and Twenty One Pilots. i also like lots of indie shit. Apart from Queen tho I dont think I could choose favourites.

song stuck in your head: can’t help falling in love by Elvis Presley ... my mum just got back from memphis so theres a lot of Elvis in the house

following: 589! (I also run two other blogs so its not all Queen haha)

followers: 165 here!!! 1,383 on my main:)

do you get asks: almost never tbh!! I get one or two very rarely and they make my heart go !! every time cus i love interacting with you guys

amount of sleep: im currently running on about 7 hours but with no alarm and no commitments I can easily sleep 12+ hours in one go. My schedule is wack so sometimes im not even in bed till like 4am

lucky number: i dont have one!!! i kinda like the number 7, he seems cool

What are you wearing: a grey hoodie from my housing company (they gave them out on move-in day) and a pair of my bf’s boxers lmao comfy lyfe

dream job: i would really love something in the film industry. I thought I wanted to be a cinematographer but after my first year at uni, I’m not sure which exact job I want! but if it could be annything I wanna be a musician (singer).

dream trip: every trip? I think rn I want nothing more than a roadtrip in some hippie fan with my friends from North California to SoCal.

instruments: i sing!!!! I can play guitar, I’m better than beginner for sure but I wouldn’t actually say Im any good. I also play ukulele pretty well:) I used to play piano but I dont anymore. (ask/dm me if you’d like to see something of me playing!!)

languages: english and a small amount of spanish and hungarian!! but very small amounts

favourite songs: hhhhhhhhHhhhhhhHHHHHH these questions make me combust bc i cant come up with accurate answers. my CURRENT faves (as in, right now, it changes basically every day) would be: Close My Eyes by Hey Violet, Son and Daughter by Queen, Drowse by Queen, Guiltless by Dodie ????? idkkkkk

random fact: i have an outie belly button👀 only 10% of the population do! and mine is super rare bc it was caused by an umbilical hernia,,, (tmi??)

aethestic: the sun on your skin, acoustic guitars, dirt under your feet, hand-holding (with everyone), vanilla, building fairy gardens, drunken karaoke, candid Polaroid’s, cat eyes, dancing in your room, colour coded notes, cry laughing, dirty boots, afternoon naps, losing your voice at a concert, summer sunsets, losing your friends at a party, denim jackets, fairy lights, pillow forts, tattoos, short skirts, getting lost in the woods, London buses, loud music

I am tagging @cool--cats and @im-addicted-to-queen !!!

[kihyunshighnote]

New to your blog. Monsta X are great. SHOWNU IS FINE and I’m curious about 23, 24 & 34 (also Shownu is cute and hot at the same time idk he does it)

23. Favorite song?

my current top 5 songs i say are

because of you by monsta x

knock on by nct127

city127 by nct127

I AM YOU by stray kids

My Pace by Stray Kids

24. Favorite band?

Monsta X is the TOP. They are my ult group and my 2 ult biases are in that group. 2nd group is stray kids. they helped me through alot and plus my sister @domo-boo *not really my sister but to me she is* we both have a major love for them and helping us bring each other together. Non kpop wise i listen to like heavy metal and older rock, 90′s grunge music. red hot chili peppers, metallica, nirvana, def leppard, etc...

34. Any talents?

does sleeping at 4am to 1pm count???

I dont understand it either. Shownu is literally like love of my life and he can be both cute and sexy and im just hurt by his handsomeness

uwu thanks for the ask and welcome to this messy blog about mx and others!!

[lovely-quarterlife-crisis]

I was tagged by @kyoohyeon thanks for tagging me~ and sorry this is so late

Nickname: Q, que, quetzo

Zodiac: Scorpio

Height: 163cm rounded lol

Last Movie: someone great

Last google search: what does the ted in ted talk mean

Fave musician/band: vixx + more

Song stuck in my head: bloom bloom by the boyz

Blogs: i dont know what this is asking

Instruments I play: piano and i used to play the cello

Followers: under 200

Following: a lot cuz i have a lot of hobbies

Lucky number: i dont really have one but i guess 8 cuz im just a fool in love with one whole xu minghao

Amount of sleep: idk 8 hours?

Fav food: right now its elote

Languages: spanish and english

Dream job: I’ve been asked this a lot lately. im starting to dislike this question. but as of right now (and i say this with tears in my eyes) i think i wanna be a park ranger? and maybe later just travel

Random fact: I’m learning the tarot and its fun lol 

Aesthetic: The kind of feeling you get when your awake at 4am and you feel alone but youre also content like you have a secret that is shared between you and the cosmos. its raining and you feel nostalgic over being a carefree kid. your vision is hazy and you might have a million and one problems but in that moment you feel like roses tasting water for the first time in what seems like years cuz you can breath without having to put on a face for people. youre just you, alone at 4am.

i asked my mom and she said dark but vibrant colors. burgundy shades in nature.

Fave Song: Ultimately i really like Starlight by Muse. Will never get tired of that song. but also i will never get over trigger by vixx

Im tagging whoever reads this. thats right i mean you! (only if you want to sorry im being corny)