#dont want to give jonah the satisfaction

[butcharyastark]

i've got very big feelings about the fact that not only can jon not confront his abuser after all of this, but the mere act of attempting it would damn him to a fate worse than death in the last possible even more horrible situation that exists in this world for him.

like that's so onbrand for his life at this point, holy shit.

like. he's been so helpless the entire story. he started off as a sad, grumpy, anxious man who was overcompensating for his fear of inadequacy and his history of trauma, and he gradually gets more and more worn down by the events of the story that KEEP happening to him and traumatizing him further, and finally, finally we are at the end of the story and maybe jon can finally reclaim the tiniest bit of autonomy and control, maybe he can do something good with it, too, after being forced over and over down a terrible path against his will, but that's taken away from him too. jonah has done so much shit to jon, he's orchestrated the ENTIRETY of the plot of tma in order to Specifically traumatize jon and cultimates in fucking over the entire world USING him, and jon, at the end of the day, has to realize it's yet another trauma that he just. has to take. and accept. and get over. and keep pushing past so he can, yet again, make some fruitless, painful, traumatizing and desperate attempt at saving the world and other people again.

after all this journey, after finally gaining an upper hand, after realizing maybe he does want some catharsis of revenge and justice for what's been done to him, and maybe finally yell and accuse and confront the ONE person actually responsible for everything he's been blamed for, for everything that's happened to him, the one person he can ACTUALLY lash out at because they DESERVE it-- he can't. he can't even look jonah in the face and accuse him of his crimes, bc jonah isn't even there really. he can't make a last ditch effort at just. terminating jonah from existence. bc it's just. yet again, another misguided, unintentional, attempt at helping or gaining some sense of relief that will only backfire again and will just hurt him again.

idk man. i'm upset.

[hejer-maomao]

SUP BRO I READ UR FLUFF AND GOT HAPPY AND SQEALED RLLY LOUD MY MOM THOUGHT I WAS DEAD LOL ANYWAY CAN I HAVE CUDDLES WITH IKEMREV I DONT EVEN CARE WHO LOL BTW THAT COMFORTING A SAD MC THING MADE ME HAPPY CUZ EDGARS CUTE WITH THAT HUG HEHE OK BYE

Hey mate! I’m so glad that you’re enjoying my fluff to that point ❤ When I was writing the comforting HCs, all I had in mind was how I can manage to make my readers smile whenever they’re having a bad day. So I’m beyond happy that my writing managed to heal you even by a fraction ❤

Of course you can have as many cuddles as you want! Your ask made me smile like an idiot and brightened my entire day, so let me write as many suitors as I can for you!

Cuddles HCs:

Edgar:

When it comes to cuddling, Edgar Bright essentially has two moods. The first one is his teasing cuddles. He would patiently wait around for his prey (you) to come, until he spots the moment where you let down your guard, so he can tackle you into a tight back hug, eliciting a heartfelt laugh from you.

At other times, whenever you’re lying tranquilly in your shared bed, reading a book or simply enjoying the sunlight filtering through the window, Edgar would creep around you, throw his arms around your waist, before starting to mercilessly tickle your sides. He will not stop until you repeatedly beg him for mercy after exhausting all of your strength on trying to escape his strong hold on you, clumsily kissing his cheek in an attempt to distract him from his teasing.

Your kisses are the only escape route, and Edgar will happily stop his assault, contently pulling you to his chest, his carefree laughs echoing between the walls.

Edgar’s second mood, however, is much heavier than the first. These specific moments happen seemingly out of nowhere, in the middle of the night or in late evenings, Edgar will surely find his way to wherever you are, before wordlessly placing his head on your shoulder, a gesture you quickly learned to recognize as a silent cry for help. When his dark thoughts simply refuse to leave him alone, Edgar always opts to stay by your side, your soft presence chasing his inner demons even for just a short while. 

Enveloped in your cuddles, your lover seems to let himself fall apart at last, his tense shoulders finally relaxing and his forced smile dropping away to allow his true feelings to surface for once. Edgar will let you hold him for hours without budging an inch, basking in your warmth, allowing your affection to seep through his bones, healing his very soul.

Jonah:

This one here, is undoubtedly the Queen of Cuddles. 

Jonah does not only love cuddles, no no, he demands cuddles whenever he feels like it, and at any place he deems appropriate. Jonah doesn’t care for the book you’re reading, nor the appointment you have in five minutes, nor the party you promised you’ll attend with Blanc. If Jonah Clemence wants cuddles, cuddles he will surely get.

However, if he is ever faced with “Are you a cuddler?” type of question , don’t be too surprised when Jonah denies this statement as if his life depends on it. “I simply go along with your wishes!” Jonah would indignantly explain, a lovely blush spread on his cheeks. “It’s not as if I want to cuddle all the time because you smell heavenly and it feels so peaceful in your arms! Not at all!”. Sometimes, you really think it’s a good thing Jonah is too cute for you to get angry, or else you would have banned cuddles since a very long time.

Jonah’s cuddles are warm and soft. He likes to bury his face in the crook of your neck, breathe in your smell, close his eyes and enjoy the peace.

Jonah utterly despises it when someone interrupts your cuddling time. He will shout and complain at whoever knocked at your door, immediately dismissing them if he deems their words unimportant. If it’s a matter which cannot bear to await, Jonah, although very, VERY reluctantly, will eventually disentangle himself from you, a death glare engraved on his porcelain features, scaring everyone away from him, as he heads for his office.

Jonah, once finished settling his duties, will return to your side, quietly slip beside you, sighing in pure happiness as he wraps his arms around you, his silky voice barely a whisper as he says: “I’m home, darling.”

Harr:

This precious cinnamon roll never knew cuddles existed before he met you. The first time you tried to push yourself closer in his embrace, he immediately shifted away, asking you if having him this close is not utterly  uncomfortable for you. 

No matter how hard you keep on trying, your hugs barely last a minute, and every time you quietly attempt to shift close to him while you’re both lying on the bed or on the sofa, Harr will wear a troubled expression on his face, and put more distance between your two bodies, as if he is afraid he will hurt you just by touching you.

As your relationship slowly progress, and Harr gains confidence in himself, your cuddling sessions become more frequent. Step by step, you find Harr sticking closer to you, his hands further settling on your hips, embracing you from behind as you doze off to sleep.

And if ever Harr is in the mood for cuddles, he will shyly approach you, steal glances at your face until you pay him attention. Your lover is slowly getting addicted to cuddles, and you can’t be any happier. You noticed that the more closer you two get, the more often Harr smiles, his aura finally appearing more relaxed and less guarded than the day you two first met. 

Harr simply adores laying his head on your chest, listen to your steady heartbeat, while you’re gently stroking his head. He will melt between your fingers, his well-crafted walls completely down, his eyes twinkling in pure satisfaction at the feeling of safety in his lover’s arms.

Lancelot:

To be honest, I do not particularly see Lancelot as they type to cuddle a lot. Due to his demanding job and extremely busy schedule, Lancelot do not exactly have the luxury to bask in your embrace and forget about the entire world. There is always papers to sign, meetings to attend and soldiers to supervise.

His strict upbringing is also another factor in his not-so-touchy attitude. He was never taught how to communicate through close touches, nor how to transmit his emotions by hugs. This explains his puzzlement when it came to cuddling.

This does not mean that he completely hates the intimate gesture. Far from it, Lancelot adores having you close by his side, wrapped in his arms, safe from all harm. It is just that his cuddles never extend beyond a certain time.

The warmth and passion in each of his embraces, however, compensate for this and more. Lancelot tend to tightly pull you against his chest, his hand coming up to caress your hair while the other is drawing relaxing patterns into your back, lulling you to a peaceful sleep.

At days where you notice that Lancelot is having a rough time, his stress building up to the point of torture, you will immediately suggest taking a break from work, before dragging him to your shared room away from other people’s eyes. 

As you try your best to pull him into your embrace, Lancelot will start off a bit stiff, still not used to receive too much affection all at once. But as minutes ticks by, he will slowly but surely start to relax against your chest, his face buried in your neck, arms tightly secured around your waist.

The gentle smile and the soft peck on your lips you later on receive from him encourage you to further get your lover used to cuddles. After all, nothing is better than having Lancelot all to yourself, wrapped between your arms, protected from the world.

I thought about writing more Suitors, but I quickly run out of ideas >/w/

I chose to give you my top 4 Suitors in the game, since you did not specify any character! So this ask was also written for my own sake too!

I hope you enjoy these fluffy cuddles ❤

My Ask Box is re-opened for the moment, so make sure to make the most out of it! I’m looking forward to your Asks!