#down bad for all eternity

[hey-its-sybarite]

Every single vampire upon encountering Louis de Pointe du Lac:

[trustymikh]

Queen give us more of your Rocket admins agenda I love to see it

oh boy, I do have a lot to say regarding these four, so here are a few hcs

Petrel and Proton started off as an agent duo similar to Jesse and James before being promoted to admins

Every day Petrel wakes up and chooses to be as annoying to other executives as possible

Do not mess with Proton, he is not above bypassing a pokemon battle to throw fists directly

Archer is unreasonably jealous of Giovanni’s Persian. Hates that thing (the feeling is mutual)

[prolibytherium]

Probably shouldn't have planned out my personal project workload on the notion of this being an easy week at my job because so far it has been the worst week I have ever experienced at this job and I am in hell

[katyspersonal]

Do you think Laurence genuinely felt bad about the stuff he did or was it last minute regret before he turned?

Hmmm, I think it is sort of both!

Starting out would be scary, of course! He was forewarned about the potential risks upon using the holy blood, and for sure Byrgenwerth figured similar plan to his already ruined at least one civilisation (Loran). He would be using people as guinea pigs, put them against something you need a lot of willpower to deal with- something most do not have, so he'd have to firmly control as much as their very thoughts and emotions, let alone various social structures. And that, in turn, demanded eliminating a lot of potential threats; ideological, openly hostile, simply people that would freak out upon learning too much even if on accident and blow everything up before he got real results by running their mouths... It could and did include not only various strangers, but also people he held dear.

I imagine he was building up the guilt and doubts, realising that the progress was being built on too many victims- Like, hey, he was supposed to help the humanity, not to throw them all into jail, have them burned or offer them for research of his not-very-mentally-sound doctors! But slowly, it was being repressed and he embraced the 'ends justify the means' mindset. He believed that Willem's gatekeeping and lack of daring to try something dangerous but more effective was a bigger of two evils..... and that "evil" Cainhurst's ways to use the holy blood was the third evil, even bigger than previous two. xD He started to feel less guilty and more machiavellian, arrogant, narcissistic and even... heroic, seeing himself as the only one brave enough to do all this, to take soooo many sins on his shoulders for the greater good... *rolls eyes*

Pppffffttt lol sorry yeah xD ^^^ Visually, I associate his 'still has doubts' stage with a different outfit, the more detailed one with the crown is past Cainhurst massacre! But... True, at some point it became apparent that he himself fell for irrevercible beasthood, that he built up way too much faith in his own moral and mental invincibility. He had a short window of time to think about how concerned people that tried to expose him but were assassinated by Brador did nothing wrong, how people afflicted by beasthood (or even suspected to be) murdered by Black Doctors and the Harrowed hunters were not guilty of anything but not being prepared for his ideal picture of the world where everyone is strong and pure enough to forever "hold back"- Heck, how everyone got caught in the cycle of the hunt nights too much to ever bother freeing Gehrman when he is gone! Realizing that even "holiness" and "being smarter" could not protect him really was insightful on how everyone he sacrificed were simply humans. They were good enough; maybe lacking both health and intellect ("eyes"), but they only had their humanity to still persist... And yet what he set to motion at the expence of so many innocent lives was inspiration to lose that humanity, be it 'hunt and beasthood' way or 'aliens' way.

So yeah. A lot of guilt, then a long guilt-less period, then a LOOOOT of guilt.

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P.S.: I mention that Laurence was considering himself 'courageous' unlike Willem a lot, and it can be confusing, so, clafirication; "Master Willem was right, evolution without courage will be man's downfall" is a mistranslation!

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He sure had some courage sending Byrgenwerth('s hunters) to scout Fishing Hamlet for the eyes, but that was it. Otherwise, I think Laurence thought his methods were "toothless", willing to simply 'learn' from Great Ones without messing with the blood... or without spilling their blood, for that matter. Yet, that whole 'commit great atrocities and transcend the humanity' attitude ended up spreading even in the parts of the Church that avoided the blood ministration (Choir and Mensis), ironically. He poisoned the well THAT badly! (though I think with Micolash, there wasn't much to poison, but I digress)

[beebisbeeble]

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[ruairy]

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[leatherbookmark]

i quite wish slash hope jgy (i’m talking about him because he’s my #1 boy but this also goes for jc and xy and probably every character that inspires such takes) didn’t have the fandom just... regurgitating the most random takes and/or treating them as gospel and Such Good, Insightful Meta because it agrees with their Vibe Read of jgy, when said Vibe Read is 99% rooted in fandom and maybe 1% in zanzan’s evil smiles, and Very Little, If At All, rooted in the things that happen in canon.

[winepresswrath]

The choice to make HotD a lesbian divorce drama would have been IMPECCABLE if they had leaned into the Rhaenyra/Laena and lesser but imo still present Daemon/Laenor implications in the book. Daemon genuinely loving Laena and killing men for her while also saying that she's almost as pretty as her brother. Rhaenyra and Laena growing "fond and then more than fond" of each other. Cowards!!!!! This could have been the worst polycule of all time!!! It would have made the Rhaenicent divorce even more bitter!! Never forget or forgive how they shied away from the absolutely rancid vibes here. COWARDS!!!!

I had no idea I was being robbed like that how very dare they. I'm outraged, I'm aghast, I had already thought that part of Alicent's deal was that she was jealous both of Laenor getting to be Rhaenyra's confidant and friend and Harwin getting to be all that and her secret love. The blinding rage she would feel at another woman getting to be her friend and lover while also being publicly married to her older male relative would have been impeccable. I'm so mad. Also Laena's actress was super hot so that's a waste. I will sulk about this for an undecided period of time.

[glitchthesenuts]

i ain’t forgetting any of those words they said to me

every little song they liked, every band they loved

[calsvoid]

charlie: i think i could go back to any of my past fandoms

charlie2: yeah same except [that one popular minecraft server that blew up in 2020 that i will not be naming not because im embarrassed but because tumblr likes to put what should be 0 note posts out to fans whenever i mention a fandom]

charlie: oh yeah right

[fingertipsmp3]

Oh my grandma liked the crocheted tote bag btw

[weareuniqueandimportant]

WHEN THEY SAY GET HELP THEY MEAN I DON'T CARE I GIVE UP I NEVER GAVE A SHIT ANYWAYS.

[cuntwrap--supreme]

That thicc bitch struggle of your thighs eat your fucking shorts -_-

[elisaenglish]

Now I’m down bad, crying at the gym Everything comes out teenage petulance Fuck it if I can’t have him I might just die, it would make no difference Down bad, waking up in blood Staring at the sky, come back and pick me up Fuck it if I can’t have us I might just not get up I might stay down bad

[sparky-is-spiders]

My beautiful baby lizard can have another edgy song on her spotify playlist. As a treat.

[vamptastic]

way some people talk about buying clothes is bonkers. you just walk into a store and shit fits you and then it lasts a long time? you're joshing me rn you're yanking my fucking chain