#eating disorder tw

[support]

Everything okay?

If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, you are not alone.  

If you are in the United States, please try:

National Eating Disorders Association (support, resources, treatment options)

If you are outside the United States, visit IASP to find help lines related to eating disorders for your country. 

For self-help courses on body image and general peer support, please try Koko. 

If you need some inspiration and comfort on your dashboard, follow Post It Forward on Tumblr.

[catgirl-kaiju]

me: hmh getting hungry

adhd: u can't eat rn you're already doing something

autism: there is nothing in the house that u like

anorexia: like u even need any calories

trauma: u've barely done anything today. you don't deserve to eat

little anime girl: burg her

me: burg her...

me:

little anime girl:

[one-time-i-dreamt]

I feel like we need to be talking more about this book and Jennette McCurdy in general

[she-whodreams]

Im back fellas

[anakinism]

#girlhood

[scientia-rex]

It is WILD to me that people continue to think they can "gotcha" me into saying the science on weight loss doesn't say what it says. Like, it's not what the authors say; it's what the data reflect. And the data don't give one single hot shit about your reason for wanting weight loss. You can have a terrible reason or a great reason and it doesn't matter. The reason behind your desire for an outcome doesn't change whether the data support the likelihood of it happening or not. There isn't a secret Option C here. The options are A) try to make peace with your weight or B) fight it forever. And if you fight it, the data are pretty clear that you're worse off than if you make peace and take the best care of yourself that you can. You can hate vegetables, you can want it to be easier to find clothes that fit, you can be disabled and find physical exertion challenging, but it doesn't matter. There is no secret option where, because you hate vegetables, your body works differently than every other body that's been studied.

There IS a database of people who have managed to sustain long-term large-scale weight loss. They're so rare we study them extensively. In general, they eat severely restricted diets and exercise for at least an hour a day. I have no desire to recommend eating disorders to my patients. If staying thin is occupying time and brain-space you could be putting into other things that are more meaningful to you, do those other things.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I don’t really talk much about my personal history with eating disorders and especially my bulimic tendencies partially because I’m just not that emo about it like it genuinely doesn’t bother me anymore and partially because I’m still obese after all that and people just don’t wanna confront the fact that all that nonsense just doesn’t make you skinny. It doesn’t even work. Like not only is it bad and dangerous it doesn’t even work. Like. I went through all that and what did I get? A cavity.

[knifewieldingenby]

If I have to read one more "I hate picky eaters, they have the taste palette of a 5-year-old" post, I WILL actually start killing people. You don't want to be around "picky eaters?" Fine, then get the fuck away from us. We're better off without your judgment.

"But wahhhh why won't they just try something new" Shut. Up. Look up how things like adhd, autism, depression, and many more affect eating. Look up food allergies, intolerances, and general sensitivities. FUCKING LOOK UP ARFID. Seriously I am so damn tired of people not knowing shit about arfid, refusing to research even when I tell them about it (most of my doctors don't even know anything about it even though they've known about my struggles for over two years!) And then you have the nerve to shame us for dealing with an eating disorder that is fuck all hard to work through cuz, again, no one knows fucking shit about it and they don't want to learn! My therapist reached out to an eating disorder clinic to find help for me, and the only goddamn one who even knew it existed was the director.

Stay the hell away from so-called "picky eaters" if you're gonna make post after post complaining about how annoying you find us, or how you just so badly want to go to restaurants with your friend but they eat like a child! Go alone, asshole.

[nyancrimew]

it'd be kinda cool if tumblr didn't show me like 4 different fasting ads a day

[muppetmagic]

ANTI-HERO

[uncanny-tranny]

The thing that sucks about disordered eating recovery is that... you're expected to have a completely healthy relationship with food, eating, and exercise, but you also need to know and self-enforce the idea of Good Foods and Bad Foods, and you also cannot recover into a fat body or keep a fat body, but you also need to effortlessly maintain a thin and trim body. You also can't make other people (i.e. the "normal" folk) uncomfortable if you aren't doing okay or if you have a disordered experience. But you also cannot "glamourize" your past experience, even if you aren't glamourizing it at all.

It's really hard to internalize the idea that there isn't a "good" way to recover, and that recovery will look different. I always felt so out of place amongst people who don't get it because they often have their own ideas of your experience that they expect or even demand you adhere to.

[teaboot]

was feeling some jiggle at work today and thought "huh maybe I should try a diet" and that's how I know the devil came close. Prescribing myself 2 weeks chillin at home in lingerie till the auras are purified

[egberts]

fat phobia is so insane my own mother calls me model-body and skinny and has a fucking complex about it when I've been losing weight due to epileptic seizures. her own internalized fat phobia is trying to praise me for being extremely ill. I want to scream

yup, my mom is actually a fat woman and would do the same thing. their generation was raised during a rapid decline in public opinion on fat people, when being fat was really starting to be equated with being ugly and a moral failing. this is a really good video i watched a few weeks ago about the history of fat fashion that talks about this topic a lot

it's bad to the point that when I went to the doctor for antidepressants and one of the side effects was weight loss the doctor got happy and acted like that was a good thing, that I'd be losing weight from not eating because my new antidepressants suppressed my appetite

[aropride]

the second you start posting your eating disorder publicly- the second you start naming your "goal weight" and your "current weight," the second you post lists of what you ate today, or lists of "proana meals!" or diet plans or cute little calorie tracking calendars, the second you reblog thinspo onto a public blog, the second you put your ed posts in unrelated tags, the second you encourage restriction, REGARDLESS of whether your bio or tags say you're "only pro for yourself," you are contributing to an online community known for sucking in children and giving them life ruining eating disorders. you are no longer "only pro for yourself" because your blog is not "for yourself," it is public, and you are using public tags. you are reblogging from real people and we see when cigarettesanddietcoke reblogs from us, and it's at best uncomfortable and at worst actively triggering. the second you post the details of your disordered thoughts or behavior publicly you are being actively and dangerously irresponsible. you are encouraging disordered behavior in yourself and in others, by way of platforming it on your blog. how can you say it's not harmful to post this stuff when you yourself look at this content to trigger yourself?? it does not matter how many times you say you're "only pro for yourself." you are complicit in others' eating disorders worsening. get a diary. at least private your blog. it's even possible to vent about your eating disorder without encouraging that way of thinking, and that would be the responsible thing to do, and you are actively choosing not to do it. and for the love of god keep your posts out of unrelated tags. eating disorders kill people. at least try not to cause someone to develop or relapse in theirs.

[genderkoolaid]

people will genuinely seriously unironically be like there is an eating disorder epidemic so many people from all ages are literally dying and doing awful unhealthy things to get skinny.... what do you mean fatphobia lol that's not a system of oppression. being fat is just unhealthy and bad. anyways what could POSSIBLY be causing so many unhealthy relationships with food and weight

[taylorswiftdebut]

i swear to god i swear to god! some of you need to rewatch Miss Americana and realize that yes these candids are exciting but she hasn’t been “hiding” or “silenced from being her true self” because of joe she has stated on MULTIPLE occasions how bad being photographed constantly like that is bad for her mental health! in fact in Miss Americana she talk about in July 2018 (a time when was literally dating joe btw) that all those candids of her in new york were so bad for her mental health because she overanalyzed them like it was literally the segue in the film she used to talk about her eating disorder and maybe that mindset has changed but i don’t know how y’all can go from seeing taylor talk about how bad being photographed like that was for her to suddenly thinking “oh she wasnt getting photographed cause her boyfriend couldn’t handle it” like shut up i’ll kill you 💔