#emailed tungle

[unityrain24]

tumblr please stop with the unfollow glitch and block glitch. please tungle please

[littlemut]

This is not a drill!

[ghnosis]

*rips bong* (this is my bong in case you're curious)

so some of you have asked me, over the course of the 80-someodd interviews I have so far conducted, why I am doing my PhD on Ghost.

tonight a participant asked me in a manner that sort of finally clicked for me - because I assume all of you live inside my head with me and know why I do everything.

Rose, why are you doing your PhD on Ghost fandom?

when I was 12, American Idiot by Green Day came out. I lost my mind immediately. Green Day were my first hyperfixation. I promise if you ask about "Green Day Girl" to people I went to high school with, they would remember me. not only did Green Day teach me about the Iraq War, and American progressive politics in general, they also taught me, a bullied and weird child, what it meant not to give a shit. someone thinks I'm wrong/bad/inferior? cool! I don't fucking care. "now everybody do the propaganda," etc.

if I kept talking about everything I learned from Green Day, we'd be here all night. but. Green Day *also* taught me that music didn't have to sound like pop, or like country. that music could be written because someone felt something. that music could be used to express rage, a thing I felt in spades.

so from Green Day, my door is blown wide the fuck open and I get to learn about Dead Kennedys, about David Bowie, about Nirvana.

the other thing I know I love, back then in 2004, is learning. and teaching.

fast forward 15ish years, give or take (or pack me a second bowl and I'll tell you the middle), and I'm looking, halfheartedly and in a bummed-out manner, for a PhD program. I have my master's, I didn't like the experience, but I want that Dr. I've been presenting at conferences and doing some piddly academic writing on video games and the use of games in education, and I'm on a listserv for other people writing about games. I get an email from someone at Falmouth University about a PhD program there in "Dark Economies." who's listed on the email? none other than Tanya Fucking Krzywinska, my number one academic girl crush (in my subject area. my actual number one is a historian)!!!!!!

so I read this email and it's talking about the intersection of the occult, video games, and heavy metal. as I said, I've been writing about video games. one of the things I'd been writing about was a certain thing that happened in that industry ooooh, 14 years ago now. something in my brain slots into place.

the occult: I know what that is. occult rock, certainly. I maybe could squeeze in some punk or pop punk. the goffik. we got some MCR.

heavy metal. well, I'm a punk girl through and through, but I used to date that guy in the metal band and have seen Slayer et al multiple times live. sure. I can occupy that world. wait a minute. Ghost.

video games. the thing I'd been writing about, specifically the mistreatment of anyone who wasn't a cis guy. you know what that sounds a lot like? sounds a lot like going to metal shows with my ex. WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE. GHOST??? on TUNGLE DOT HELL???

so I log my ass back on to this website and I look at you, at all of you beautiful people I'd been reblogging ass wobbling gifs with for years, and I said "oh my god. are they me? is whatever is going on in there just a bunch of me's, except it's Ghost not Green Day?

are all of you finding the most beautiful thing there is to find, namely, empowerment and freedom, in the goofy Satan band music band? was it the heaviest thing you had heretofore encountered? did it crack open a yawning chasm in your soul? were you hurting in ways you didn't know how to articulate? are you learning what it means to take up space, to demand rights for yourself and for others, to truly let your fucking freak flags fly? are you feeling the stirring in your heart that only comes from religion (read: witchcraft) or from seeing the most important band in the fucking world live, in the flesh, singing TO YOU, sweating FOR YOU? if you are, I think we are fucking important and vital. I think that we can tell our stories and make a bunch of other weird little girls realise that they, too, have rights - including to transition.

cos immediately in doing this research I found out - you're also NOT me, in some really important and specific ways. maybe being AFAB in the US isn't part of it. maybe it's bigger than that. and I feel so lucky, so truly fucking blessed and lucky, to have gotten to speak to over eighty of you beautiful people, to have been trusted with your stories. to learn what makes YOU ache in your soul and how it is different to but also the same as mine. I have to stop now I'm gonna cry!!!!

[bookshelfdreams]

i greatly admire everyone who responded to that latest staff post in a calm & knowledgeable manner to explain how many of their propositions are terrible ideas

(which, jsyk, they are. tungle, you lost push notification privileges the second you started sending them for polls. if you start sending me spam emails, you're getting blocked.)

but i think the crux of the matter is: they don't care.

they don't care about you, or me; they don't care about the people who have been on here for 10+ years and they don't care what makes this site enjoyable for us. they don't care about the things that are unique to this site either.

the "small portion" of users? that's us. to them, we are only baggage, expendable, because we're not profitable anyway. right? it's not hard to figure out what we want fixed, or at least un-broken, but they don't care because they don't really want us. they want the scores of potential new users that can be attracted with a promise of unique ""content"" (god i fucking hate that word) and then trapped in an endless algorithmic scroll. they don't want people who curate their own experience because that means we're harder to market to. they don't want niche subcultures, they don't really want to be a place where people can express their unique creativity for an audience of 10.

they want influences.

they want things that have mass appeal because (I suspect) those are easier to research and easier to make palatable to advertisers.

fic? textposts? even things like gifsets which this site is famous for?

can't really do sponsored content w that, can you.

to them, alienating their core userbase is worth it for the potential new users (nevermind if those ever show up).

the way reblogs were recently fucked up is a good example, as is the way they talk about comments in reblogs as "clutter". they'd much rather be an instagram/tiktok crossbreed than what they actually are: a niche microblogging platform for fringe weirdos. because we're not palatable, we're not respectable, we look terrible in a portfolio. making money off of us is not impossible, but it's not easy either, and it's not revenue that can be grown exponentially. which is all socmed is about these days, I'm afraid.

[jewishbarbies]

I have three tumblr blogs that I use - my old main blog, a sideblog that’s essentially my primary blog, and then another sideblog for aesthetic posts. I barely post on my main blog anymore. It’s basically just there so I don’t have to restart from scratch with my other blogs lol. I haven’t gained followers on it in years and I certainly don’t have people sending me asks on it… until recently. Every day I wake up and I have like 3-4 new messages from people claiming to be Gazans and telling me to post their fundraiser links. On my unused main blog that’s like 11 years old. That hasn’t been updated since June, and since February before that. I post on there like twice a year at most.

It honestly is making me a bit uncomfortable lol. I get those messages on my other blogs and I usually delete them. I don’t know to vet them. I also don’t really post about the conflict as a whole (there’s not a lot to post as a non-Jew from America who wants peace for both countries and also believes Israel is allowed to exist lmao) so I’m like… idk, it just makes me feel weird that these spam blogs are now spamming my unused, decade old main blog. Like none of my blogs are safe from it lol. I’ve already gotten shit from followers on my other blogs for not believing/posting potential spam. I feel like it’s becoming a problem and nobody cares and it’s driving me crazy tbh

especially if you dealt with the porn bot surge, it’s so obvious that these asks are all spam bots. because no, gazans are not creating tungle blogs and sending mass copy paste messages to random blogs all day every day begging for money. I dare one of these “but we vetted it!” people to reverse image search the pfp, header, or any of the trauma porn images posted with no caption on these spam accounts. there’s already so many donation posts with actual ways to donate and send aid to gaza- why the fuck would anyone need to be pressured into sending money to an unverifiable person on the internet. it’s so dumb. people have been saying if you fall for these bots then you’d give your social security numbers to a nigerian prince in your email and they’re not wrong.

[kermakatti]

I tried to answer to this anonymous ask with an inappropriate GIF and Tungle didn't really like it, so it's now gone :( I did receive this email for it, but can't answer to the ask itself anymore.

Anyhoo, thanks for enjoying my backside! :3

[timeisamarmaladeconstruct]

HEY TUNGLE WHY

Hey PSA as someone whose account was shadowbanned and then terminated for no apparent reason: if you use a VPN you might get caught up in spam bot sweeps if you unknowingly end up on the same ISP bots are using. Reach out to tumblr support on twitter or reddit, a tumblr support person who monitors the reddit help subs got me reactivated in about 24 hours.

I posted in r/TumblrAcctTerminated  but there is also a megathread for that purpose in r/tumblrhelp or you can tweet @ tumblrsupport and their staff might see it those places before they get to the backlog of the email support from the normal support form (though I did submit there too, they recommend doing that regardless).

Also, HI TUMBLR PLEASE STOP DEACTIVATING PERFECTLY NORMAL ACCOUNTS.

kthxbye,

[pointdotiozao]

do you have any other socials we can follow you no? :D

Hii yes >< I'm on mastodon: @pointdotiozao@mastodon.art artfight: rosecaptain inkblot: pointdotiozao ko-fi: rosecapt4in And for good measure here's my email also: rose_captain@hotmail.com Most of these are new accounts, so they're still empty ^^' but I will get to them soon hopefully!! I'll keep being mostly active in here I think, tungle dot hell has been the only social media I've really put my time into for the past 10 years and I rely almost completely on it for comms, but all the bulshit going on in here lately got me thinking: Well!! Maybe I shouldn't do that!!!!! lmao Anyway, thank you for asking <3 Here's a silly card I made with the social media info I mentioned. Patrick Bateman moment

[prophecydungeon]

not quite to the date (yet) but ten years ago i posted a fic that is somehow still sitting on the front page of results by kudos and by bookmarks for the most popular ship in the most popular fandom on AO3 and i still don't know how that happened.

like... really genuinely truly i don't know what kind of WILD perfect-storm-level shit was going on to make this happen. the original post got eleven whole notes here on tungle (yeah i checked lmao). i am not, actually, a very Doing Numbers blogger or writer, nor had i ever been, nor will i ever be. as far as i know, there wasn't any wildass six degrees of separation thing that happened where someone very Doing Numbers made it Do Numbers. i didn't "advertise" it or anything (ppl who make fic graphics and have a posting/rbing/rting schedule.. i could never lmao), i didn't post it on every site known to man, i didn't tag it to hell, i didn't really do anything. it just fucking happened. and it's still happening!!! and i am just so fucking baffled. how did this happen. why are there people making tiktoks about this fic in the year of our lord 2022. how??????

i have a lot of very complicated feelings about this fic, with a lot of them boiling down to just, like, brain chemicals being very stupid, and i know that logically it's just brain chemicals gone bad! but it's still hard to shake ten (10!) years of feeling like my growth in writing is being constantly undercut by this thing that's created its own gravity well to keep sucking in kudos and comments when just about everything i've written since has been Better™ (which again, logically, i know is untrue -- i write for fandoms now that are relatively VERY small lol so of course nothing is ever going to Do Numbers again like this)

this fic was something i wrote after a very difficult-to-process series of events, so it was complete and utter wish fulfillment and it felt so good to write. the flip side of this, which in retrospect really soured the fic for me, is that i tried my damndest to live out the life i wrote in this fic. i went to grad school for linguistics two years later and TA'd, Just Like The Fic. it was supposed to be great! and those turned out to be the two most miserable years of my life. maybe not specifically because i was trying to live a daydream, but that disparity didn't help (though my friends certainly did). so in a way, aeiw is this image of a failed dream -- i'm not in linguistics as a field, not even remotely, and i likely never will be; i don't want to ever go back to academia, even though i will likely need to get another masters (derogatory) in my current field at some point.

BUT. i promised that this is not a negative post so i will pivot here to say very genuinely that i am so, so grateful to all the friendships and good times this fic has brought me. thank you to all the people i met because of this fic or while writing it. thank you to everyone who's gotten to know me for totally different reasons/fandoms/etc and then been like WAIT A SECOND. (it's so funny, every time.) thank you to everyone who's ever left kudos and said a kind word. (i still get kudos emails nearly every day just for this fic.)

and thank you to the incredibly beautiful personal anecdotes people have left on this fic, holy shit. i have a folder in my email for those specifically. here are some excerpts from comments that made me tear up:

Hey, so...you probably don't still read comments on this fic because it's so old and so wildly popular*, but I hope you see this. [...] I just started my first year of University as a Linguistics major, and I know for a fact that I wouldn't have figured out what I wanted to study had I never read this fic. I've always had trouble with school, and struggled to find subjects that weren't wildly difficult or insanely boring-until Linguistics. Now, I'm excited to learn and pursue my degree-maybe even a master's eventually. I just wanted to say thank you for this sweet story that stuck with me for all of these years, and helped me find what I want to do.

*i do. i read every single comment. every single one.

[...] Reading this, I don't understand how anyone could say that you, the writer, did this alone and will only ever be alone for this story.** I mean, we're separated by computer screens, but I feel that I was transported into your story in a way that transcends what is expected of the written word. Maybe this is my biased opinion as someone who has grown up in a secondary orality culture, but I just had to let you know that this story was more than the written word is often perceived to be. If that makes sense. I felt like I was there, getting the story and so caught up that I couldn't stop reading. And you might not be the narrator, but you're essentially god and you breathed life into these characters and I'm so in awe of you. You make it seem so easy! What's worse is I know it's not, so here I am, seeing something unfold with what looks like practiced ease when I know just how much work you've put into writing to get you to this point. I'm so proud of you! And it feels silly to say but I am, and I wanted you to know. [...]

**this is one of the most incredible things anyone has ever said to me.

[...] I first read this a long time ago (at least 6 years) when I was really Going Through It and this fic - specifically Dean - really resonated with me.*** It gave me an inkling (pun intended) of hope. And it was the first positive representation of tattoos that I'd seen. I started planning tattoos I wanted soon after reading this, using them the way Dean does in this to identify the important and best things in my life and figure out how to represent them and always have them with me. I just got my third done and I love all of them. So thank you for the impact that you've had on my life, and for writing such a wonderful story.

***i was really Going Through It as well. i'm doing great now and i hope you are too.

thank you to past me for writing this fic and finishing something "long" (lol..... lmao). thank you to past me for writing unabashed wish fulfillment, something i would lose the capability to do for a long time (dw, i got it back). thank you to this fic for irrevocably fucking up my AO3 statistics.

so anyways, ten years on i'm doing great. new career. new gender. new fursona. i live in a super cool area. i got like seven anime figures of this one horrendous guy. my sick tattoos have gotten even sicker. here's a portrait of the author for good measure:

and here are some fun facts about the fic that idr if i've ever shared before:

the scene at the very end where cas goes to get tattooed by dean? my beta wrote that for me. yes, the whole scene. thank you.

i don't remember who it was that carried a bike up some stairs but i always hefted my bike up onto my shoulder when walking it up my outside stairs so i pictured whoever that was doing it too (and i still have that bike! i refurb'd it last year!)

i think i own every vinyl i mentioned... i think

i definitely own led zeppelin's entire discography on vinyl

i finally bought a pair of rough-faced amethyst plugs for myself, something like two years ago? took me a while to get there

that sex scene was in there because i felt like i "had to" include one lmaoooo i had no idea what i was doing and i've written way better p*rn since then

when i turned 24 i did actually listen to 4 + 20 by csny first thing in the morning

soooo much of the tattoo and piercing stuff was so fucking pretentious of me.... but really, be thorough when looking for piercers and tattoo artists, stay safe, there are a lot of great resources out there

i actually pretty legitimately don't like showing my tattoos irl just because people can be really annoying/weird but i also just enjoy wearing long pants and long sleeves lol

...also yeah i do dress Like That. unironically.

some things i have written since then that i am very proud of:

P vs NP, RvB

the more i run (the farther away it seems), destiny

quema, bleach

in the details (not the devil), haikyuu!!

apsidial precession, destiny

and so in conclusion........ thank you. but i'm still baffled.

[katrinawritesthings]

Hello fellow gays happy December

I never actually said this before because I never really needed to and technically I still don't need to but with all the new people following and sending asks I feel like it is a good idea

tw dec 18 mentions

But like December is a bad month for me for. obvious reasons. lol. And I do not post fics in December

And I am also not very interested and in fact am very Uninterested in talking about it or mentioning it or being reminded of it or thinking about it or saying it out loud with my human mouth so like. Don't. Even if what you have to say is something nice. I am very happy if you read my stuff for comfort about it if you want but just like don't tell me. Good for you but I don't want to hear it. I am a stranger on the internet and you are a stranger on the internet and it is weird and rude and hurtful to make a stranger experience your grief unwarned in an email at 2 p.m. on Wednesday afternoon

You might think that sounds weirdly specific and that's because that has actually happened to me enough times on one of my fics on ao3 that I just turned the comments off on it and I would like to not experience the same thing here on tungle dot net and if it does I will block you lmfao I already have my own grief to deal with and I don't need yours too

This goes for like the entire year honestly but especially this month

Also speaking of being new to tungle if you didn't know you can go to your settings and add filtered words and then if any post shows up on your dash with those words then it will be blocked and you will be prompted on if you want to actually look at it or not

anygay I hope yall are kind and gentle with yourselves and can keep yourselves safe and have a happy winter present time this year : ) choice amirite

[skyvale-s]

I can’t believe I’m about to unironically use tungle again in the year of our lightbearing lord 2022, but. here we are.

I think I stole my own username (skyvales) from myself and can’t figure out under which email I did because I am, unfortunately, a moron. Once I do, though, I will finally be on brand again. 👍🏻

[fairyblue-alchemist]

R u back darling xan?

it looks like it!!! i got an email from tungle today saying that they fixdd the problem so i'm free now ♡♡♡

[desertbled]

i miss when tungle let you log in via email bc i want to login to @psychebled but i forgot my password 💀

[lovely-english-rose]

tungl has now sent me six (6) emails about new badges-

[normaltothemax]

𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐍.

— BASICS! ♡

NAME: Psy

PRONOUNS: She/her

ZODIAC SIGN: Pisces (god I can never spell that)

TAKEN OR SINGLE: Single pringle

— THREE FACTS! ♡

I used to write self-insert Supernatural fanfiction where I'd basically just rewrite the episodes with my character added in

My fanfiction.net account is still up there, along with all the stuff I used to write, and my mom recently asked what the username was bc she forgot it (thankfully)

Uhhh the average person produces 2 swimming pools worth of saliva in their lifetime

— EXPERIENCE! ♡

PLATFORMS USED: Omegle, Chatzy, Tumblr, Discord, and Email are all ways I've rped in the past. Now I stick to Disco and Tungle

PLOTTING / WINGING IT / MEMES: I actually love all three, but if I have to choose, I'll say memes to start. I love plotting, but it's usually easier once I've written with someone for a bit, though with winging it I might come bug you to figure out some plot points, just so we're both on the same page

— MUSE PREFERENCE! ♡

GENDER: Mmm boys. Idk why, I just feel like it clicks quicker with them, most of the time

MULTI OR SINGLE MUSE: Single, bc then I know and get exactly who I followed for. Don't get me wrong, I love a good multi too, but I just don't always know/have an interest in all the blog's characters.

LEAST FAVOURITE FACECLAIM(S): I honestly don't know any of their names, but there are a couple who make me go meh.

— FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡

FLUFF: I do love some good fluff, but I somehow almost always manage to turn it into angst without meaning to. I'm a fluff ruiner.

ANGST: Love me some good angst. Gimme that pain. Let us scream at each other in the IMs or Disco about everything terrible we're doing to our muses

SMUT: I am not good at writing it and getting down into the nitty-gritty kind of makes me uncomfortable, so I generally don't write it. I'm alright with the build-up, it's just the act itself, for the most part. If things start heating up, I usually want to move them over to Disco anyways up until I have to do the fade to black

Tagged by stolen from: @lamentingwclf

Tagging: Everyone! Tell me about you!