#engel x noor

[bookclub4m]

Episode 161 - Hate Reads

This episode we’re talking about Hate Reads! We discuss annoyance reading, hate reading vs reading something you hate, completionism, experiencing bad media as a social bonding experience, and 1-star reviews of books. Plus: Books about women murdering!

You can download the podcast directly, find it on Libsyn, or get it through Apple Podcasts, Stitcher, Google Podcasts, or your favourite podcast delivery system.

In this episode

Anna Ferri | Meghan Whyte | Matthew Murray | Jam Edwards

Media We Mentioned

The Communist Manifesto by Karl Marx and Friedrich Engels (Wikipedia)

"A spectre is haunting Europe”

Ready Player One by Ernest Cline

Game of Thrones (Wikipedia)

Divergent by Veronica Roth

“Divergent might have been sloppy in places, but in a bizarre continuity error, both Tris’ disabling trauma around guns and an actual gun appears and disappears as is convenient in the final chapters… This violates both Chekhov’s Gun and some corollary: if you introduce a gun, it must exist.” (from Jam’s review; see also “I’m not reading another YA trilogy unless someone guarantees me no queer people die in the second act”)

Insurgent by Veronica Roth

The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins

Gideon the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

Harrow the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

“reading this book felt like having to eat three bags of raw spinach before I was allowed the ice cream sundae I'd been promised” (from Matthew’s review)

The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown

Links, Articles, and Things

161 (number) (Wikipedia)

Schadenfreude (Wikipedia)

Mark Oshiro (who Jam mentioned) appears to have deleted their YouTube channel? Or Something? You can still go to their website and the Mark Reads website.

Hazel & Katniss & Harry & Starr Podcast

Episode on Ready Player One

A recent(ish) episode of Watch+Play (there’s a lot of them!)

There’s also this playlist of shorter, edited videos if you don’t want to commit

Hark (Jam’s holiday music podcast)

Hot take (Wikipedia)

Hate-watching (Wikipedia)

Episode 011 - Religious Fiction (the one in which Anna read the book she hated)

BookTok (Wikipedia)

Matthew can’t find the specific X-Men review he mentioned, but it’s buried in this site somewhere (that link specifically is to a scathing review of the final issue of Mutant X)

Show, don't tell (Wikipedia)

Questions

What Romance genres do you want us to read?

What comic would you use to introduce superhero comics to adults (who haven't read them before)?

Twitter thread

15 works of Experimental Fiction by BIPOC (Black, Indigenous, & People of Colour) Authors

Every month Book Club for Masochists: A Readers’ Advisory Podcasts chooses a genre at random and we read and discuss books from that genre. We also put together book lists for each episode/genre that feature works by BIPOC (Black, Indigenous, & People of Colour) authors. All of the lists can be found here.

Aphasia by Mauro Javier Cárdenas

When I Hit You: Or, A Portrait of the Writer as a Young Wife by Meena Kandasamy

Big City by Marream Krollos

Search History by Eugene Lim

Dreaming of You: A Novel in Verse by Melissa Lozada-Oliva

The Story of My Teeth by Valeria Luiselli

This Could Have Become Ramayan Chamar's Tale: Two Anti-Novels by  Subimal Misra, translated by V. Ramaswamy

If an Egyptian Cannot Speak English by Noor Naga

Oreo by Fran Ross

We Cast a Shadow by Maurice Carlos Ruffin

Pedro Páramo by Juan Rulfo, translated by Margaret Sayers Peden

Noopiming: The Cure for White Ladies by Leanne Betasamosake Simpson

I was the President's Mistress!! by Miguel Syjuco

Split Tooth by Tanya Tagaq

Savage Tongues by Azareen Van der Vliet Oloomi

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[sekoui]

may i present to you: beewens

[beewenslove]

get a little closer, get a little closer

[smileykeijser]

Nooel: the beginning

[honestlyhaunted]

★ Skam NL Moodboards: Engel x Noor (Nooel)

» for anonymous

[michellejackson]

YOOO SOMEONE SUGGESTED ENGEL x NOOR AND NOW THATS ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT SOMEONE PLEASE WRITE SOMETHING🤧🤧🤧🤧💕💕🤧💕💕

[noorengels]

the seasons with you

Engel detested winter.

She hated the cold air and the days so short that made her feel unaccomplished at 4pm. She hated having to constantly put on or unload layers of clothing whenever she entered or left a building. She hated how the beloved summery months of January and December were suddenly freezing in the northern hemisphere. She hated the icy roads that made it difficult to walk and drive. She hated being stuck indoors when the weather was too bad. She hated having permanently chapped lips and a constant cold. She hated everything to do with the season. And it was in the winter when she met her.

She was a face she frequently saw sitting next to the window in the coffee shop by Engel’s school. She was a face that often watched the snow fall outside with a smile, the warm mug in her hands fogging up the glass. She was the face that nodded Engel over to her table for two on that abnormally packed day in which she couldn’t find a seat. “I’m Noor,” she told her. Engel began to sit there every time she could after that.

Over the weeks she learnt that winter was Noor’s favourite season, and how sad she was to see it soon come to an end. Noor learnt that Engel craved those summer nights where she felt like she had the world in her hands. Engel learnt what her favourite drink was and surprised Noor outside the café with one in her shaky hands as she asked Noor out on a date. Noor learnt that she had never ice skated before after walking past a frozen lake. Engel learnt that she liked to take the long way home just to enjoy the winter scenery a little longer. Noor learnt that her kisses were sweet, even if they tasted like coffee.

Soon the hot drinks turned into roses as the winter became spring. Engel loved how everything around her began to regain colour and life, and the world did seem a little brighter whenever she was with Noor. Noor met her friends and she met Noor’s. Their relationship blossomed like the colourful flowers at the park where Noor asked Engel to be hers. Stolen kisses became a regular thing. The rainy days that once dampened Engel’s week turned into lazy days with Noor. Engel’s notebook started filling up with doodles of flowers and short poems about Noor. Daisy chains and soft kisses became her favourite thing that day they spent in her garden, singing to all their favourite songs with flowers in their hair. Engel grew to love the feeling of fingers as soft as dandelions running through her hair. Noor loved how her cheeks would blush whenever she surprised her outside school with buttercups for her favourite girl. Engel’s yellow-coated nails matched the sunflowers she painted on Noor’s guitar. She didn’t mind the teasing from the girls whenever her face lit up after receiving a text from Noor. Engel was happy.

Engel was ecstatic when the days grew longer and the sun was warmer. Engel loved summer. She loved the whispered ‘I love you’s as she laid beside Noor beneath the stars, sharing their deepest secrets. Engel loved dancing with her in the moonlight. She loved the feeling of their hands intertwined as Noor led her towards the rollercoaster at a fair. She loved midnight driving with the windows down. She loved lazy days at the beach that ended with her in Noor’s lap, arms wrapped around her waist, gathered around a bonfire with their closest friends. She loved the spontaneous trips, each becoming an unforgettable adventure. She loved making out in the pool. She loved waking up with Noor between her arms. She loved smushing ice cream onto Noor’s cheek, the happiest of laughter escaping her lips as she chased Engel. She loved feeling like she was on top of the world. She loved the drunken nights where she could only remember her. She loved singing at the top of his lungs while Noor drove through the streets. She loved Noor.

Autumn came as the greens were replaced by browns and the air became chilly. The burgundy lipstick Noor now sported often stained her neck. Engel enjoyed walking on crunchy leaves with their hands intertwined. She liked wearing Noor’s warm hoodies. Noor loved seeing Engel after they had been discarded onto the bedroom floor. Noor liked how dates at the coffeehouse where they met became more frequent. Noor loved using the excuse of “I’m cold” just so she could wrap herself around Engel whenever she pleased. Watching films hidden beneath piles of blankets became a recurring theme throughout the week. Baths that smelled of cinnamon while they sipped on hot drinks were the highlight of her day. It was the season for baking pies and making out on kitchen counters while they sat in the oven. It was the season when Engel held Noor’s clammy hand when she met her parents, grins wide when they noticed them visibly approving of her girlfriend.

The winter felt foreign to Engel this time round. She didn’t mind the cold air that whipped around her as Noor taught her how to skate on ice. Because with her she felt warm and happy. The snow that she once thought of as a nuisance became ammunition for their snowball fights in the garden. Date nights consisted of spending hours in Engel’s new car with the heater at full blast, eating takeaway in an empty car park. She didn’t mind caring for Noor when she was sick, even if she managed to catch whatever it was a few days later too. She liked drinking hot chocolate while her other hand held Noor’s in her pocket.

Engel loved the winter. Engel loved Noor.  

[dagcutie]

you know what i really fucking miss???? SOBBE SOCIAL MEDIA AUS SKDNEJDKFJD does anyone remember those?? they were so good and fun imma need a new one ASAP

YOU UNLOCKED A NEW MEMORY!!! HOW COULD I FORGOT ABOUT THOSE it was so good omg xhhdbdbdbbdjdnd you got me all excited it was really so much fun to read and follow along omg i miss that

my personal fave : ground control to us by @/hopelessromanticvirgo 🤧🤧🤚

also the ones by @/peaceoutofthepieces were so great

[suusbauwens]

Turn the lights off, I'm in love

Noor x Engel, messy first meeting

[ayellowcurtain]

I love the noor/engel ship so much! Could you maybe write something about them?

Engel looks around her, the airport is so crowded it makes her uncomfortable. What if Noor wants to kiss her right there? In front of everyone? Engel never did that, but she might not be against it, it’ll just be...new. That would be a good world to describe what Noor brings her: all the newness in the world. 

Noor once told her about her favorite chocolate that she hasn’t eaten in years since she moved to Belgium. Engel thought it would be the perfect gift as a welcome back home type of gift. 

She looks around more carefully when big groups of people start walking out of the door that’s supposed to be of Noor’s flight. She knows who she’s looking for, but maybe Noor is taller, shorter, maybe her hair is not as dark as when they  facetime each other. Engel starts doubting everything that she remembers of Noor’s appearance. 

When she’s finally there, Engel stops because there’s no way she wouldn’t have recognized her. Noor is so much prettier in person and the way she walks so certaintly towards Engel makes her knees weak. 

Engel hods the chocolate bars a little tighter while Noor stands right in front of her and Engel is already giggling like a child. 

“Hi...” 

“Hi!” She answers way too quickly and Noor smiles quietly, at least someone is having fun and not a panic attack. 

-

Noor is so confident and cool. Engel feels like she’s the one in a complete new place, not Noor. She’s so at ease, suggesting them renting a bike to go back to Engel’s place. 

She didn’t ask the girls, her best friends and also rommates, but they all found a place to stay for the weekend. Or her way back home, sitting behind Noor, carrying her bag for her, with her arms tightly around Noor’s small waist, Engel lets herself indulge. 

She lets herself hold Noor as tightly and closely as she wants. The wind hitting their faces is a little cold, but Engel doesn’t care, quietly looking at Noor’s profile, smiling, with her cheeks getting red from the cold. 

She’s so pretty. 

“You’re so pretty,” Engel lets it slip when Noor has just parked the bike in front of her house. She looks at Engel and she almost apologizes for saying it, Noor seems a little taken by surprise and the last thing Engel wants is to make her umcomfortable. 

This is not the first time that Engel said that to Noor, but when it’s in person it feels a lot more meaningful. 

“Thank you...”

They walk in silence to the apartment and Engel isn’t thinking much about her words, she meant every one of them, but the silence between them is still a little heavy and awkward. 

She walks inside first and quietly watches as Noor follows, getting inside and stopping a second later. 

“I’m sorry.” Engel turns back around, a little lost and Noor is there, still beautiful, looking at her, “I was stupid. You’re so very pretty too. It’s actually a little bit disorienting, I should have said it when you said it to me.” 

“You don’t have to say it back...it’s ok. It just came out of my mouth, no pressure.”

“But I mean it. I was just nervous and guess my brain didn’t know how to form phrases anymore.”  She smiles and Engel laughs, waiting for something she doesn’t even know what it is, “Your house is cool...very big. And your friends...?”

Noor looks around them, but she’s still close to the door, close to Engel, not really seeing much of the old apartment they rented almost a year ago, a few weeks before Engel found Noor on one of Kes’ old photo on insta. And suddenly she decided to add that stranger girl that she thought was so her type. Engel didn’t even know she had a type, but Noor was it. 

“They left. Liv and Jana are with their boyfriend and girlfriend and Isa is with Kes and Lucas again, I think...maybe she and Kes are back together.” 

They’ve been talking for over a year, so Noor knows all of them by name (and Kes and Lucas from when they were all kids, living close to each other) and she nods her head, smiling and Engel blushes, thinking she should shut her mouth already. 

“Sorry.” 

“For what?” 

“Talking non-stop...” 

“No need to be sorry. I like hearing you talk.” 

Noor walks slowly closer and Engel’s brain stops working completely. Noor’s whole attitude is intimidating and mesmerizing to her so it’s hard to know what to do now that she’s actually around, looking straight into Engel’s soul, probably discovering all her dirtiest secrets. 

And she’s obviously the first girl Engel ever got actual feelings for, if something really happens between them, it’ll be the first girl Engel ever kisses. And she’s more than okay with that, could die happy if Noor was the only girl she ever kissed, because this is all that she has been thinking about for months. 

They talked about it, more times than Engel can remember, but it’s totally okay if Noor changes her mind now that they’re seeing each other in person. Engel knows she can be a little naive sometimes, and a little too much. Too loud, too girly, too silly. 

She doesn’t have time to think about anything else anymore, because suddenly, Noor’s lips are against hers. Gently, but they’re definetely kissing. Engel hears herself softly moaning against Noor’s lips and Noor smile, Engel meets her soft, but strong eyes looking stairght at hers when she opens her eyes and Noor smiles, leaving one last quick kiss on her lips. 

“Your lips are so soft.” Engel’s no filter brain says it again and her heart beats faster when Noor smiles even wider, brushing their lips together. 

“Thank you. You’re so cute.” 

[kartoffelblume]

Noor x Engel and on a cute date at the carnival?

Ohh I love this one 😊💛 There is way to little content for those two - I've tried searching for a ship name and I found two on here: Beewens and Nooel. Now I really want to write a fanfic about the two of them :|

~

Noor x Engel - Date at the carnival

- Noor is really excited for this

- She visited primary school with Engel but they lost contact, especially when Noor moved to Antwerp

- But she found Engel on Instagram when browsing through the profile of an old friend and was instantly starstruck by her beauty

- They texted for a while and decided to meet soon after

- Noor really hopes this is a date but she's not sure

- When the day comes she gets really nervous

- She even calls Britt to help her decide on an outfit

- Soon she is standing at the entry of the carnival, waiting for Engel to arrive and nervously checking her phone

- When she spots Engels blond hair she's even more beautiful than her instagram would suggest

- Her hair is cut short and she has a cute nose ring plus the most beautiful smile Noor has ever seen

- Fortunately Noor is able to regain her posture until Engel walks over and wraps her in a quick hug

- "Hey" Is everything she is able to say

- But Engel talks about how happy she is that they finally meet and that they haven't seen each other in ages

- It's like they're still friends - just like many years ago

- Also Engel smells like flowers

- Noor hopes she doesn't notice how Noor is leaning into her personal space just to be able to smell it

- Engel wants to get cotton candy so Noor buys her one, colored in pastel pink

- They stroll around the carnival, looking at all the different rides wile eating it

- First Noor doesn't want to eat but Engel waves the cotton candy in front of her face and tells her she should try so she does

- She tells Engel about Antwerp and the art academy, how adjustung to living there had been and that she misses their old friendgroup

- And in return Engel tells her about her close friends who support each other

- She's still friends with Jana who Noor vaguely remembers

- Also Engel sounds really happy and Noor is really glad about that

- Once the cotton candy is finished they try a few rides

- First they are on a really fast one and Engel starts clinging to her

- Noor wouldn't have really enjoyed that ride otherwise but now she'd love to do it again

- Still she cant convince Engel so they try a few slower things, soon sitting a little merry-go-round probably designed for children

- But Engel looks so happy on her horse that they do it several times - laughing loudly

- As last ride of the day they decide on the large ferris wheel that supposedly has a great view

- They sit together, talking lowly, looking at the city lights beyond them

- And suddenly it dawns on Noor that she never found out if this is a date

- And that she'll maybe never find out

- It happens when a strand of hair falls in Engels eyes and Noor gently tucks it back, not even noticing what she has done

- but then Engels eyes get wide and she looks at her in that way and Noor isn't able to do anything else but to lean forward and capture Engels lips in a soft kiss

- First Engel seems to freeze and Noor already wants to pull back but then there is a hand in her hair and Engels eyes close and Noors entire body turns soft

- Having Engel in her arms feels so incredibly right that she's not able to let go

- They just go for another round once the ride is over anf then another one

- That night in her dreams Noor can still feel Engels soft lips on hers, her silky hair under her fingers

- But luckily this is not their last date - there are many more to come

- Every year they go back to the same carnival - it becomes a tradition

- Especially the making out on the ferris wheel part but also the pink cotton candy and the little merry-go-round

Send me a ship and one or several tropes and I'll write a list of headcanons for them

[nyttvera]

i posted a noor x engel video on instagram and people are tagging wtfock in the comments begging for a crossover mood

so yeah i’ve just created a crackship my power

[ravenbrenna09]

Beewens and Moyo/Noor are the first couples where I would be fine with either outcome. 

[beewenslove]

I made a alternative musician Noor x indie singer Engel edit a while ago and I can't stop thinking about how cute that would be. They could be 'rivals' and have to date in secret for a while. And Noor gets protective over Engel when they're around her punk friends and Engel's friends don't like Noor because of her reputation.

I love that!!!

I like to think about Engel calling Liv for music advice, or they duet and Liv’s like...I dont know who this is about, but you’re in love with her.

Britt notices that Noor’s spotify playlist has more love songs than usual and tries to coyly figure out what’s going on.

they end up booked at the same venues and Noor pretends to be annoyed but in reality she set it up to see Engel

the barely coded lyrics, maybe their sounds even start to mesh a little from spending so much time together.

Engel’s friends fearing that Noor won’t be a stable support for her. Noor’s friends fearing that Engel absorbing so much of Noor’s time won’t be a good influence.

covers of ALL OF THE GAY SONGS 

[smileykeijser]

Engel x Noor part 1

Sometimes, Engel Beekman’s mind got cluttered. School, social life, home life, inner thoughts that had no where else to roost and feelings that had no real focus and yet filled up her mind like smoke. Even small things, insignificant, normally invisible things, either positive or negative, took up too much space. 

She thought of it like a closet, every new piece meant that closing the door and keeping it closed took more and more of effort, and with each passing day the risk of the door bursting open crept higher.

When she felt this way, she tended to become more impulsive, wanting to do what made her, or others around her feel good right then and now. Which was why, on the first day of school, after finally getting out the door, she had hopped off her bike and let it fall to the side in order to pick a bunch of wild flowers.

After a summer of not biking this route to school, they stood out. It was their lushness, the bright bursts of colours and the fact that even though there were hundreds, they didn’t take up a tenth of the green grass. There was room for them to be so wild, but taking a few, she reasoned, wouldn’t really hurt anyone. A plan came into focus. Flowers, plucked from the side of the road, to present to her friends on the first day of school, something to set the year off right.

No one saw her, and even if they did, Engel was on her bike and fleeing the scene. Seeing the flowers laying in the basket with their flowers being brushed to and fro by the wind brought some salve to Engel’s brain, just enough.

—

By the time Engel sailed into the school yard, an entire conversation had taken place, and all she had felt was a series of buzzes in a her pocket.

Isa: I can’t meet up before school :(

Janna: awwww why

Isa: mums taking me

Liv: that’s sweet

Isa: I guess lol

Janna: oooops i’m gonna be late

Liv: guess its just you and me @engel

Liv: never mind…

Liv: Noah picked me up

Janna: get a room!!!

Isa: you guys disgust me… I love it

Liv: sorry guys :(

Feeling deflated, Engel looked down at the flowers she was holding. She considered carting them around for the rest of the day, only realise she would surely end up with a bunch of bent, broken and bruised blossoms.

She was wondering if it would be best to just set them on a bench somewhere, leave them as a present for someone to discover, or if they would just get sat on or left to blow away or rot. Just then she spotted a girl, dark hair and pale skin, leaning against a wall.

The girl’s eyes were focussed on something far away, and other than blinking, they were still, or stuck. She tapped one manicured nail against her phone case in a steady, rhythmic way. Tap. Tap. Tap.

Engel truly couldn’t think of a better way to deal with the flowers than to give them away, and no one else around her was still, they were all busy with conversation or getting somewhere. So, with little thought. In reality, this girl was one of a few others in the same position, but for some reason, Engel didn’t see them.

Engel approached her.

“Hi,” Engel said brightly.

The girl was startled, seeming to tense up and the interruption, but relaxed quickly. Her eyes moved from where they had been stuck to Engel, and when the girl’s eyes connected with Engel, Engel felt something right in the middle of her chest, between her lungs. If she had been a bit more in tune with herself, she may have noticed it was a little left of centre, suspiciously close to her heart. But Engel was not, and so she didn’t.

“Hi?” The girl with dark hair replied with a humoured twitch of her lip, “do I know you?”

“No,” Engel shook her head, and after a moment of awkward silence between the two, Engel remembered the flowers clutched in her hand and extended them towards the girl. “I just picked these flowers and realised that I would probably mess them up, or forget them in one of my classes today, so I was wondering if you wanted them?”

The girl’s eyes flicked down to the flowers, an assortment of purple, blue and pink blossoms, and some more of that humour drew her lips into a full smile, sort of cheeky. She slipped her phone into her pocket, freeing up her hand to take the flowers.

“Do you normally come to school with a handful of flowers or is this just a first day of school thing?”

“I- I don’t know what I was thinking,” Engel spluttered out, “they were for my friends, but they uh- they couldn’t meet up today.”

“Shitty friends,” the girl mused as she brought the flowers to her nose and breathed them in. “Aren’t you worried that I might mess them up or abandon them?”

Engel felt her cheeks heat a little, “I don’t know,” she paused to shrug, “you could throw them on the ground as soon as I leave, but at least they made you smile?”

Sure enough, the girl’s smile broadened, and Engel felt her own broaden too.

“Well then, thank you,” the girl nodded, “I’ll make sure to take good care of them.”

Just then, the harsh sound of the bell rung out around them and Engel stiffened.

“First day of school, wouldn’t want to be late,” she sent the girl a last smile before turning to the door with a, “bye!”

Engel didn’t take five steps before she heard “Wait!” and not seven before she felt a hand on her shoulder.

“You’re- not going to ask for my number or something?” The girl asked curiously.

Engel turned around in confusion, “No. Why?”

“I don’t know, it seemed like you were coming onto me.”

That sent Engel’s cheeks returning to their flushed state, and she found herself unable to meet the girl’s eyes, something she had no problem doing a minute earlier.

“I- um- No, I wasn’t,” Engel got out.

“Well I guess I’ll have to ask you for your number then, even though it’s pretty selfish of me because I’ll leave with two presents.”

If it was possible for someone’s cheeks to be fire engine red, Engel was sure her’s were, and that only made her feel even more like she was tripping over her feet without moving an inch.

“Or…” she heard the girl say, and the cautiousness of her tone made Engel look up, to see that the girl did, in fact, look reminiscent of a deer in headlights.

“Or you’re totally straight and I’ve just fucked up and assumed…”

Engel swallowed, there were two routes she could see. One, she turned on her heels and ran to her class, forgetting that this had ever happened. The other was-

“31 030 28 0375” Engel said.

“You don’t have to give me you number just cause I asked, we can forget about it-“

“-That’s my number,” Engel said firmly, with more reserve than she thought herself capable of.

“Could you say it again?” The girl asked, phone in her hand, eyes looking at Engel like… well Engel couldn’t quite pinpoint what it felt like, but it definitely felt like something.

Engel repeated the number more slowly, watching the girl’s fingers move swiftly across the screen.

“How about a name?” The girl peered up at her.

Engel opened her mouth, only to let it flop closed. She had meant to say her name but she hadn’t and she had no idea why, only that she was standing stock straight, and the girl had another smile playing at her lips.

Before she could open her mouth again, Engel was shook from her stillness by an, “Engel?” From behind her, which, she saw when she whirled around, happened to come from Janna, who was strolling across the courtyard like the bell hadn’t already rung.

She snapped her head back to the girl who was already tucking her phone back into her pocket. “Well Engel,” the girl pushed herself off the wall, “I’m Noor, it was nice to meet you.”

With that, Noor slung her back over her shoulder and began towards the school, and Engel was left feeling more tired than she had when she woke up, and like something had changed, if only she could figure out what it was.

Janna traipsed over to Engel and flopped her arm around the stunned girl’s shoulders.

“What’re you doing out here, missy? Shouldn’t you be in class?”

“Yeah, I was um… just about to go.”

“Well come on then,” Janna took her hand and pulled her forward, “don’t we have class together first period?”

—

Unknown number: The flowers are safe and sound ;)

Engel: glad I didn’t throw them away then

Unknown number: if you have any other flowers that need protecting

Unknown number: you know where to send them

Engel: :)

Engel: oh also

Engel: my friends aren’t shitty, they’re pretty awesome

Noor: what do I have to do to meet these amazing friends of yours

[honestlyhaunted]

hello, could you write a fluffy nooel fanfic about Engel shopping for lingerie and having Noor (who’s works at the store) help her? a very blushy engel and a confident Noor with some flirting involved please

Lovely anon, I am so sorry this took so long! But now here it is, a little something I wrote based on your wonderful idea.

I have more things planned for Noor and Engel, maybe this will become a longer fic or a series or something. We’ll see!

If you have any requests or ideas for Nooel, let me know! I love these two and want to write more about them.

Title: Something New

[read it on ao3]

This would be good for her, Engel thought when she entered the store. A day just for herself, to get her mind off of things.

She scanned the clothes around her and thought about what she wanted to get. Something new maybe, something that wasn’t like the rest of her wardrobe. Something unusual.

She looked at some dresses, felt the fabric under her skin and unwanted thoughts came out of nowhere: You’ll never be pretty enough to wear this. You’ll never look good like these models.

Engel shook her head slightly and tried to focus on her surroundings. She really wanted to think about something else.

Somehow she ended up in the underwear section and looked at the bras. She remembered the time she went shopping with the other girls and saw Liv in that beautiful blue bra. At the time she just thought about how pretty Liv was and how she would never look like this… And maybe there were other thoughts as well but she ignored them and instead focused on the pain that came from Noah being clearly into Liv and not her. Liv always getting what she wanted. Having it all.

But that was over now. She was happy for the two, she really was. She didn’t want Noah and she couldn’t even understand why she had been so obsessed with him in the first place. She didn’t want him and deep down she knew why.

“Can I help you?“ The voice appearing out of nowhere startled Engel and her brain malfunctioned when she turned around and looked in the eyes of the most beautiful girl she had ever seen.

She had pale skin, dark hair with bangs, a septum piercing, tunnels and wore red lipstick.

Then she smiled at Engel and her heart skipped a beat while the room disappeared around her until she only saw the girl in front of her with that beautiful smile and beautiful brown eyes.

They just looked at each other for a few seconds until Engel realized the other girl had asked her a question and managed to snap out of her temporary paralyzation.

“Umm… I just… I was just looking around actually“, she answered and sounded a bit out of breath.

“Okay“, the other girl said friendly and turned to leave but something in Engel was faster than her brain and she suddenly heard herself say: “But I could use some advice I think.“

The girl turned around again and raised her eyebrows. “Shoot!“

Engel blushed and cleared her throat. She had no idea what she was doing but she knew that she didn’t want the girl to leave.

“Well, I thought maybe I want to try something new? I usually wear light colors like blue or pink, so -“

“So you wanna mix it up a little?“, the girl asked. Engel just nodded.

The girl smiled again, this time it fully reached her eyes and Engel felt dizzy.

“Let me just show you some things and we’ll see what fits for you, okay?“

“Okay.“

Engel followed the girl as they made their way back further into the store. They stopped in front of a shelf full of lacy bras with bows, ribbons and other ornaments. Some of them were see-through and Engel felt nervous and somehow very aware of her body.

“Do you like lace?“, the girl asked.

“I think so, yeah…“ Engel’s voice trailed off, distracted by all the clothes in front of her.

The girl reached out and took a black bra off the shelf. It had various sorts of ribbons in the back and a flower pattern.

“How about that?“

Engel looked at it for a second. “Hm… That would be something new for sure.“

The girl grinned. “I’m gonna pick a few and you just try them on, okay? Sounds good?“

Engel shrugged and smiled back. “We’ll see how it looks I guess.“

“I bet you’ll look great in all of them“, the girl answered and sounded sincere.

Engel blushed and looked at the ground. She was used to Janna, Isa or Liv saying something like that but this felt different. The way this girl looked at her… It did something to her and she could feel it in her chest, her stomach and her head.

The girl took some more bras off the shelf and nodded, seemingly pleased with herself.

“Let’s go!“ They made their way to the changing room and the girl turned to Engel as they walked side by side.

“I’m Noor by the way.“

“I’m Engel.“

“The name fits you.“

They smiled at each other and Engel could feel herself blush again.

Noor handed Engel the bras when they arrived at the changing room. Engel looked at them sceptically. They were all lacy and seemingly revealed more than they covered.

Noor just smiled at her again. “Do you want me to stay and advise you a bit?“

Engel just nodded and entered the changing room.

She looked at herself in the mirror and frowned. She could see the small pimples on her skin, her hair sticking up little on the side of her head, the bags under her eyes although she tried to cover it with make-up this morning.

But there was a girl outside who didn’t seem to care about that. So Engel also tried to not care about it.

She put on the first bra: a red one with various ribbons and bows and a lot of lace. Engel was surprised that it actually looked good on her but realized a second later that she could see her nipples through the fabric.

“Do you need help?“ Noor asked from outside and Engel started panicking.

“Uhm, no, I’m not - uh… give me a second!“

She heard Noor chuckle and closed her eyes in embarrassment.

She quickly put on the second bra, the black one Noor had picked out first. She turned in front of the mirror and frowned. It didn’t look bad but… it just didn’t look like her.

But wasn’t that exactly what she wanted? Something new?

She took a deep breath and summoned all of her courage.

“Hey, could you come in for a second? I think I need your advice.“

The curtain was pulled away and Noor entered the changing room. She looked at Engel and her eyes widened for a second. Engel wasn’t sure if it was just the lighting in the small room but she tought she saw a hint of blush on Noor’s cheeks.

Noor contentrated on Engels bra (and her boobs) and frowned.

“Hm“, she said and Engel looked at her expectedly.

“Not good?“

“I mean… You look fantastic, sure, but… I don’t think it fits right“, Noor said.

Engel looked at herself in the mirror.

“Maybe you’re right. I’ll try the next one.“

They smiled at each other and none of them moved.

„Do you want me to leave again, or…?“ Noor’s smile grew wider and now Engel was sure that she was teasing her.

“Very funny“, she said and blushed. This was definitely flirting. Holy shit. Engel felt like she entering a whole new territory and it was scary and exciting and wonderful.

Noor winked and pushed the curtain aside to leave the changing room.

“Call if you need help“, she said and Engel was alone again.

She took a breath and had to surpress a giggle that wanted to come out of her throat.

This cute girl was flirting with her – and Engel liked it! Of course she knew what this meant but she didn’t yet want to put it into words. She just wanted to enjoy this moment and didn’t want to think about all the other complicated stuff in the back of her head.

Somehow this thing with Noor just felt right.

Engel put on the third bra – dark pink with a cute flower pattern.

She turned in front of the mirror and for the first time in what felt months she actually liked what she saw. She felt great in her body.

“Okay, you can come in again“, she said and a second later Noor entered the the changing room.

She looked at Engel and nodded.

“This is it, chief!“

“Do you like it?“

“Sure. But do you like it?“

Engel nodded. “It’s somehow still me but also… a little bit different.“

They smiled at each other again.

“So… thank you for your help.“

Engel had paid the bra and now the two girls stood next to the entrance of the shop.

“It was a pleasure“, Noor said with a smile.

Engel blushed again (how often can you blush in such a short amount of time?) and looked at her feet.

“Can I get your number?“, Noor suddenly asked and Engel looked up again.

“Why?“ she asked, stunned by the question.

Noor raised her eyebrows. “So I can text you? Maybe we can meet again or something?“

For a second there was a weird expression on her face that Engel couldn’t decipher.

“Unless you don’t-“

“Sure“, Engel said quickly.

“Cool.“ Noor sounded relieved.

They looked at each other and Engel forgot what else she wanted to say and didn’t notice anything around her until an older lady cleared her throat to get past them.

They let her pass and Engel made an awkward hand movement towards the door.

“Okay, I think I’m gonna…“

“Yeah, sure.“

Neither of them moved.

“Okay, bye.“ Engel laughed quietly and waved.

“Goodbye, Engel“, Noor said and smiled at her while Engel walked away.

Engel hummed all the way back to her apartment. She sun was shining and everything felt light and warm.

She realized that she had achieved her goal for today: She definitely had discovered something new. And it felt amazing.