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dizzying-faust · 5 months

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I'm in the minority that dislikes Blitz//bee that isn't related to Bumblebee's age.

#c's thoughts #i say minority because i know people who dislike the ship for the same line of thinking #but mostlyeveryone I've met that hates it mostly bring up Bee being a minor as a reaspn #which honestly i don't see it #just because he's short and acts childish doesn't mean he's a child #and i know someone will bring up human error as proof #even though i dont personally count it #because i see it more as a joke on his height let alone was a form forced into him by soundwave #i don't think it's meant to be a serious indicator of his age #plus as someone said it before #no one brings up the age thing with bulkhead #even though you can make some similar arguements with him #it just reeks of people infantilizing bee just so they could justify not wanting him shipped with blitzwing #i dislike the ship #but this is just a whack reason to hate it imo #transformers animated #tfa

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bluwus-art · 4 months

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He is ready for summer ☀️ 🏝️

#my art #kaito #vocaloid #vocaloid kaito #kaito vocaloid #my kaito #NT #KNIGHT !!!#summer knight >:)#weheheheh #i went feral trying to figure out how to color his flippers #and then again when trying to figure out what pattern to put on his innertube #ive had his sketch done for weeks #;;#i just want to draw without coloring them in rn #haaaah #but i also want to mess with knights personality more #and the only way to do that is to write and make comics that no ones going to see >:)#not because i dont want to share them #but i just dont think anyone would be interested in little short story plots they have to read or even the drawings and sketches that go w #with it #i love my boys #and they are constantly running around doing things #whether thats a good or bad thing isnt up to me #clear and knight are trouble makers though #writing for count makes me sleepy though

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bobosbillionsknives · 9 months

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He's kinda feminine rage vibes

#only one person in the universe is going to understand what im referencing here #hi nora #this but im actually being 100% serious I am not joking #hes LITERALLY fiona apple dont play with me right now #he hates men even though he is a man but it doesn't count when he does it #his worldview isn't very logical or consistent this is well documented #millions “we are seen as objects to be used and discarded” knives 🤣🤣🤣‼️#my sillies

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icewindandboringhorror · 4 months

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If you became super rich and could design your own house, but could only add THREE unnecessary/random/expensive home additions (like how people will have bowling alleys, movie theatres, closets with museums of shoes, car display rooms, spa rooms, wine cellars, etc. in their mansions) - what three would you choose?

#I think I would have: an indoor pool (but like heavily customized with a faux weather system so I could get the feeling of swimming in #rain or fog or snow etc.). a very small arcade consisting only of skee-ball and DDR machines. and an old Library Room with authentic #historical furniture/interior design to store old books/tapestries/study room equipment/whatever other antiques I'd collect. It'd be #like some fully intricate movie set or something that would feel completely like stepping into another world/time.#Though I might would trade out the arcade for a roller skating rink.. i DO love skating....#And I wouldve put rock climbing gym because I love indoor rock climbing but.. as I understand it they have to change out the rock things #on the walls every once in a while so that you can have new routes and it doesnt get boring. and I'd rather have an activty room thats like #self sustaining and doesnt require me to hire some person to come switch things around once every month. Otherwise I would #totally do that instead.#I'm also personally not counting ''craft'' type stuff like having a pottery room kiln sort of thing because #that doesn't count as 'unnessecary' to me. since stuff like that would not at all be just a hobby I 'happen to #do sometimes for fun'#but would definitely be a career sort of thing. Like if I had the money for a fully stocked sculpture room and and a sewing room #with a good machine and etc. then I would literally be professionally selling pottery and designing clothing and etc.#so I wouldn't count it as 'just a random side room I dont need' etc.#The same way that if I played tennis professionally or as a very intense hobby that takes up most of my life/time #then I wouldn't count having a tennis court in your house to practice in as 'unncesscarry' etc.#wow that is the worst I have ever spelt that word ghbjh #Un Cess Carry #ALSO would obviously have an underground bunker of some sort with food and emergency supplies which also does not count as unnecessary to m #since it's literally like... survival.. And I thought most health organizations literally reccomend that even #the common person has a small 'go bag' prepared in their house. and like an evacuation plan in case of fire or other things #It WOULD be an unnecessary rich person thing to have a full on undergRound village or something stocked with 9000 guns and #whaetever. but I think just a basic emergency room with basic supplies could still be counted under the 'not unnecessary' requirement.#Like I would say that a sprawling courtyard of flower gardens and fountains and hedge mazes that takes up like a hundred thousand #dollars a year in maintenance would count as one of the three 'unnecessary and expensive' things. But having a small garden in the #back yard with a few planters in a little greenhouse or whatever would not. The 'excessiveness' of the thing matters lol #ANYWAY!!!#Just curious what other peoples Three Main things would be... hrrmm

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featherymainffins · 6 months

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Now this might be because I have issues but is it just me or does Slay The Princess feel like an allegory for a relationship?

#like i dont even mean the actual textual stuff like the two gods loving each other i mean like #while the narrator himself does say that he is not the protagonist at all the voices do in fact count him as one of them and #both the narrator and the voices are described as shattered glass pieces on the floor #and im saying that just to contextualise what im about to say because i feel like the narrator is an echo of someone who was in #a relationship with another person and is trying to 'slay' the memory of this person and defeat death not only literally but #on a metaphorical level (as in the death of a relationship). if you do slay her you destroy her memory and in that way you do not know her #at all nor do you care to #and the routes would be the perspectives held by different parts of you. shes literally a being that changes based on who perceives her #but metaphorically thats just how people work isnt it? relationships are complicated and there is a part of you who sees someone as a razor #and there is a part of you who sees them as a damsel and another who sees them as a god etc etc #its like youre a person who is trying to make sense of the situation and; which is why the construct of the princess is made up of #several vessels called perspectives. you understand the whole of what you think only when you take apart all your perspectives;#and theres a you who isnt you anymore who doesnt want to do this. hes telling you to just destroy it. it was wholly wretched and wholly bad #and it changed which is a crime in itself. theres an echo of you. and theres you; built by this echo because thats how the self works #we are each our own god and we build ourselves. the different voices are like different parts of you #much like the vessels are the equivalent of the voices. theyre the finite confined perspectives; aspects of a whole person #and slaying her in this context would obviously mean literally just destroying the memory and deciding that change and all it brings #is an awful thing. though im not yet sure what the difference between leaving with the whole and between separating yourself #and leaving with just an aspect would be.#thats probably like the only thing thats kinda ruining this interpretation lol #oh and obviously a lot of the routes have like very strong relationship symbolism. specifically a lot of them feel like #scenes from a relationship that is falling apart. for example in the adversary and then the fury when you run away the dialogue #basically mimics a partner running away from a conflict and the other one destroying themselves because of it #witch and the thorn are both heavily Esop-coded and the text itself says that its about two people hurting each other even though they love #each other but both are afraid of the other one and of being vulnerable. thorn is about finding forgiveness in one another #and deciding to be better and love each other despite the hurt youve caused each other due to your problems #etc etc #like am i insane am i mental am i projecting?

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orcelito · 3 months

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I'm being like astoundingly social lately. Starting from Thursday last week, I saw my girlfriend, then spent time with family on Friday, then saw my girlfriend again on Saturday + some of her friends, then watched a movie and drew stuff with friends on Sunday, then had a session 0 for new dnd on Monday, then watched anime with a friend on Tuesday. Off day on Wednesday. Then on THURSDAY I hung out with my girlfriend, had a study session with friend group (with mixed success at the studying part), AND watched anime with a friend again. And then today, watched a different anime with a different friend.

And TOMORROW I'm going to a concert with family and a friend, Sunday I'm hanging out with my girlfriend, then Monday I've got dnd thing again (probably? Need to double check). And then potentially more hangouts to come.

It's insane. What is this new social me. I don't think I've ever hung out with this many different people in such a short time before.

#speculation nation #it's fun though i probably will need to slow down a bit to not tire myself out bfkshfkd #the concert and the family thing last weekend are not normal occurences at least.#the movie and the study group were both from my discord server. tho with mostly different sets of people.#i think im at like... in just the past week ive hung out with... well...#3 on friday (plus saying hi to others at the temple but i dont rly spend time with them)#7 on saturday... i think it was like.. six? on sunday? i think. then Uhhhh #4 on monday. i think. 1 on tuesday. thursday had 3 new with 3 repeats from earlier in the week #and today was another person i hung out with earlier in the week #which puts me at TWENTY FOUR....... different people ive hung out with this week....holy shit....#granted on saturday 6 of them were my girlfriend's friends and im not very good at talking in a group irl #so i mostly talked to my girlfriend there. but even if U didnt count them that's still 18 people i hung out with #crazy. mind boggling. im a total introvert so this is like unprecedented.#I SWEAR I DONT NORMALLY COUNT PEOPLE LIKE THIS..... im just like. trying to put it into context for myself #and surprisingly i dont feel That exhausted by it... it helps that only 3 of these days had in person interactions #bc thats more tiring to me than just talking online. physical space takes more energy to emote etc etc #i think this is good for me honestly. spending time with people. not just wasting my life away with video games. you know.#tho i do need to balance it with writing.. i havent written anything since i posted the itnl update #and i rly need to get that reverse bang fic finished....hmmmmmmmm #ah well. i'll try to get lots of writing done next week. next week for sure..!!

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plasticsandwich · 3 months

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like theres a lot of you nnow

#i dont really check my follower count often since i dont visit the actual 'activity' page much #and i dont think theres any other spot to view the total count? so it doesnt catch my eye often #i dont think i like to obsess over numbers. especially online #but ive more or less starting drawing again since last year january #and posting it too #sdjfsn thanks to the encouragement of both new and old friends mksfds #and the support and help ive gotten through it all has been insane #and im really happy i could manage to make a habit of it (drawing and posting). i genuinely love drawing. regardless of how good i am at it #ive always sucked ass at sharing my stuff with others though #mainly due to anxiety #even now whenever i post something i always close tumblr immediately cuz i dont wanna see other people interact with it mkss #and like. the amount of support and kind words ive seen is genuinely overwhelming #and i dont really know what to say other than like. thank you all for helping me. and being kind #its like. more clear than ever that i like sharing things with others. regardless of its reception #if one person is happy with the result (and that person can be me) then i dont mind the outcome. ive never had anything to worry about #so like. i hope i can repay your kindness through whatever i choose to create. because i dont think i wanna stop again #diary

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britneyshakespeare · 3 months

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i finished the merry wives of windsor today btw. 4 shakespeare plays left to go

#tales from diana #i'm in a pickle bc i've been burning through the remainders in the last year or so in a way that makes me... melancholic #i didnt hate merry wives even though i wasn't looking forward to it for a very long time bc i knew it was mostly prose #im neither a big falstaff fan (im sorry) not do i get the most charm from shakespeare from his prose #but admittedly it was still rather enjoyable as a comedy. you dont get a lot of fake cuckoldry plots from shakespeare specifically #not in comedy certainly! so i enjoyed the trickery of it #not the worst shakespeare play as far as pure entertainment value at all. nothing's as boring as henry viii #that one was a big disappointment #i have one play in each category left (counting the romances as their own category) (and counting kinsmen as his work)#coriolanus. king john. measure for measure actually! and two noble kinsmen #i know a lot about measure for measure already i just have never read it in full. twelfth night was like that as a reading experience too #i wasn't in a rush to get to it but in the case of measure. i wanted to get merry wives out of the way first #and leave my last pure comedy to be something i would almost certainly enjoy more #now im kind of in a pickle bc i feel the ecstasy of being tempted to just finish the complete plays already #but i also wanna pace myself and read other things #i kinda have this idea of what if i saved the last 4 to read in 2025? but we're not even halfway through 2024 #i dont have that kinda patience #maybe ill reread some old favorites in the meantime or something. idk #i dont think i mentioned it on here but i got the rsc complete works second edition from 2022 #last month! bc my riverside is in delicate condition. but i switched back between the two when reading merry wives #i just couldnt help it. i miss my mother. it's always going to be the most personally comfortable book for me to read from #i read the majority of these plays in that volume. that book TAUGHT ME to read shakespeare #but i need to be strong and i also enjoy comparative literary studies and a more recent book has a lot to offer #im yammering on to myself incoherently im sure nobody really cares what im saying. even i dont! ok goodbye goodnight

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lesbovalentine · 6 months

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the feminism leaving my body whenever i enjoy asshole guy befriended by I Can Fix Him bubbly girl dynamic

#what do i count for this um um neku and shiki.#part of the fun is shiki trying to adopt eris bubbly girl personality though and the reversal of it #sigh ayano and shintaro. HE DOESNT DESERVE HER!!!!!#umm . cloud and aerith also actually.#my deep adoration for selphie and squall friendship doesnt apply even though personalitywise it should #squall and rinoa does apply but doesnt have anything fucked enough for me to care about them SORRY...#fucked Or emotionally sweet enough. although i do love the ending cg of ffviii #sometimes the fun is also in the ways they Werent good for each other and sometimes dont get the chance to be better #looks at cloud and aerith and ayano and shintaro

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octarineblues · 6 months

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not to doxx myself but ive just seen player kings (with ian mckellen!!) and uhhhh it was so good. brb gonna explode.

#player kings #christ #ok a part was scary because there was a medical emergency and it was relatively close to my row #everything ended up ok as far as i can say but it was. not looking great for a second.#i hope the person is alright #missed part of the ending because of that though - they paused the play only after the person was walked out #i think to keep the corridors clear?#and the pause itself was very professional but before when it continued to go on while the emergency was happening? jesus christ.#so i missed a chunk of the ending and i think tbh everyone around me did as well #but. other than that!! it was good!!#(not the best play ive seen this year. that goes to death of beautiful deer/śmierć pięknych saren ive seen in kraków)#(but thats a play im counting towards the best ive seen like. this decade.)#it was such a massive production and im so happy i got that experience #on my limited student budget even!#it was so well done also from a technical perspective #prince harry (toheeb jimoh) was also phenomenal #and ian mckellen!!#so many good actors actually everyone was on point #ok ok ok #last thing #the was scenes were very action movie-y and im not sure how i feel abt that #it was all very dramatic & cinematic #but ive never seen a play approach war/fight scenes like this one so that was cool #(i also think not many plays have this play's budget? idk i dont usually go for larger productions like this one.#maybe the war scenes like this arent that usual? i wouldnt know. they were unusal for me)#ok ok ok ok ok #thats it this time #im good im calm #thank you if youve read this till the end <3

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basementxdweller · 6 months

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thinking about that time i was asked "who molested you for you to turn out this way" on here. something something that action had consequences

#dolly gross posts #internally for me it did anyways #me when the repressed memory resurfaces. its fine. its fine. its fine. its fine.#at leastnow when i think abt it its like. ah okay. that happened to someone else and not me so its ok.#and i simply ignore the fact that it happened to my body. it doesnt matter. yay <3 #also im still not fully convinced that what happened to me was in fact molestation. shrugs #its like 'well they were also a child so it doesnt matter or count' and 'it isnt that big of a deal even though it very much feels so'#they should invent childhood experiences for me that dont make me feel like i have to preface everything i say with #'okay so heads up this is probably heavy and weird and will sound venty even though i dont really mean for it to'#also. idk. ill probably delete this later #because i swing wildly between being like #'this is something unfortunate that happened to me as a kid but i dont really care and it doesnt really matter'#and #'if i think about this i will want to eat glass & cry & cry & cry & cry & cry & cry and mourn who i could have been had it not happened'#they should invent someone i can talk to about this without feeling like i am lying or a bad person or making things up for attention or #making them uncomfortable or feeling like they dont understand #idk. i need to go psychoanalyze myself so i can make sense of how i think #this needs a cw probably #cw vent #cw molestation mention #i guess #shrugs

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fallowfield · 2 years

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Night of the Living Dummy part XVII: the boys are back at it again

#seed #harvest #goosebumps #mr wood goosebumps #slappy goosebumps #i honestly dont even like these books i just had a dumb idea after listening to an audiobook of the first one #< specifically i mean night of the living dummy. ive never liked them personally i ADORE goosebumps though #id in alt #also YES there are 17 books just involving slappy (and mr wood in one). i counted.

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icewindandboringhorror · 3 months

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#OUghh... I've been really sick the past few days like not able to keep food down and had to go to the hospital #to get iv fluids and etc. to stay hydrated lol...#perhaps some sort of stomach virus or something. but still very grrrr for it to happen in the middle of the evil summer of #course #when everything is hot and uncomfortable anyway.. I really wanted to get a sims video and costume pictures finished this week and keep #up writing like 1000 ish words a day for my game. but.. alas... the universe was like... I Think Not #I at least have been able to have some tea and juice and applesauce and like 4 saltine crackers today so #I always think it's funny when you're ill what sort of little things count as successes #like on any normal day eating a few crackers would just be something you don't even give a second thought #to . But when you're really sick it's like .. WOW.. I ate TWO crackers.. amazing.. huzzah... I should get an award certainly #call the press and alert them. I should be in the newspaper headlines for this harrowing feat. etc. lol #I still feel very shaky and weak though.. but am like... hhhhh... when can I work on my projects again...#Also I literaly never leave the house or have contact with anyone so maybe it's not a virus and was more food poisioning or something #since I'm not sure where I'd get a virus even but... regardless... stinky #just complaining since I suppose that is what personal blogs are for lol. I'm a private person in the sense of wanting to proect my identi #ty and like.. I dont want an alexa in my house listening to me all the time and I dont tag my real location on social media or share photos #that could reveal the front of my house or etc. etc. But in all other senses I really don't beleive in holding stuff in. Because it will #just fester. especially when it has to do with other people (like relationship issues or something) but even when its just stuff that only #has to do with you. If something annoys me then I shall let it be openly known. if I'm bothered it will be clear. etc.#Which I guess makes me seem like a Hater And Complainer but I guess I just feel like its better over all to explain and express openly #than to just silently stew and hold everything in and then probably feel worse for it later or something.#Expressing annoyance is kind of like casting the concept off from yourself and releasing it into the wild so that you're not harboring it #anymore. all grievances must be aired eventually. etc. this is a Pro complaining zone lol #If you feel like shit dont hide it. just go 'man I feel like shit'. etc. etc. Cast it off into the universe. be free #ANYWAY... aughhh......... the wizard has fallen ill in his stinky little tower.. pacing the stone floors in tattered robes. hair disheveled #. carefully sipping a single cup of tea over the course of an hour lest drinking too fast upset his fragile stomachs againe..

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mainfaggot · 8 months

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had a cup of chai and listened to my little sister talk for an hour and a half. she may not understand me the way i wish she did (and i may not understand her the way she possibly wishes I did), but I can see how hard she tries to be nicer to me (and I hope she can see that despite my general neuroses regarding existence, I really do try to care for her as a sibling)

#shes a really good kid. she is also really mean sometimes but #shes a good person. i dont think i have a say in what kind of person anyone is in the sense that #i just dont think my opinions on people who arent public figures are that important #but i do think that. shes a good kid. if that even counts for anything #idk im glad my parents have her because if they didnt it would be really miserable at home #I think part of this is me taking the blame for existing the way i do though. having issues with my self esteem is just another type of self #obsession #its just in the opposite direction of hubris #but yeah anyway idk im okay even tho today was really difficult bc i was so anxious i couldn't get myself to study until like 4:30 pm #z.post

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orcelito · 3 months

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I'm tired of dreaming about my dad. I know it's part of processing, but I am just so tired.

#speculation nation #negative/#sometimes theyre nice dreams where i have him back. except i still wake up sad.#sometimes theyre dreams where im trying to prevent what i know is going to come. but without fail i wake up. and he's already dead.#and then there are dreams like the one i just woke up from. where i know he's dead and im feeling the full force of grief once again #bawling and bawling in-dream. with enough force that it wakes me up.#and of course. i wake up sad from these too.#it makes me think about that passage i wrote for ITNL. well over a year ago. before the Year Of Death even began.#where i wrote about vash dreaming of wolfwood. with a similar sort of vibe to this.#i wrote that inspired by the death of my grandma. who i was close with and greatly troubled by her death.#even that had nothing on my dad though. no loss has ever felt this severe before.#it's been 5 months and sometimes i feel okay. but then i feel the ache deep in my chest again #and i know im never going to be fully free from this pain.#i want to go back to the person i was before i lost my dad. to before i lost my uncle.#i want to go back to early may of last year. where life seemed hopeful and i was minimally touched by death.#only 2 deaths from people close to me. 3 deaths if you count my childhood cat.#now im up to 5 deaths of people who were close to me. and 7 if you count my sweet baby boys.#can you believe that? 4 deaths ive grieved in the past year (and a bit). 2 more deaths of ppl i knew but wasnt close to.#and 2 of them were so genuinely life-altering that they changed me as a person. my uncle and then my dad.#i still dont know who i am now. i feel so lost. i look out at the piles of boxes of my dad's stuff and i feel so overwhelmed.#im supposed to go through them. i havent touched them in months. i dont know how to even begin.#and so i try my best to keep up with my cleaning and my schoolwork. it's about all that i can manage

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jam-campasta · 2 years

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Sooo, thoughts on the whole dsmp mess with all the r@cism and other countless amounts of drama? What's your stance on that? What's your opinion on it

shout out to this anon I got months ago asking me my opinion on racism I guess

#its bad. thats why i stopped making art for it lmao #idk why you need some random artist on the internet's opinion on it though #i dont think my opinion or stance on the matter even counts for much cause im not in the groups affected for the most part #the only thing i can really say as a native person is dr**m defending making 'wooping noises' is dumb #and i dont have the energy or respect for him to care more than that #asks

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