One of my friends sent me some very long messages with deeply personal stories.
Empathy machine is a bit broken right now so it's taking me a long time to think of a proper reply.
To be fully honest I just want to talk about myself right now lmao. I want the focus of the conversation to be on me.
But I have to put my ego aside and put real effort into a properly detailed and supportive response, even though it's hard right now. Because this friendship is important to me, and putting in the effort is the least I can do.
I'll have to find other ways to satisfy my desire for attention later.
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I might be shooting myself in the foot here but I keep thinking about this and feeling conflicted so fuck it
In the days of olde (like what two months ago maybe?) I made a post about perceiving Astarion as a pansexual (I wrongly called him bisexual in the post) man with a preference towards men as a headcanon of mine
But lately there's been so much discourse around the sexualities of these characters, Astarion especially, and I just want to put down my stance here in case someone sees that old post and gets the wrong idea
The Baldur's Gate 3 characters are not gay or straight or "playersexual". They're pretty deliberately pansexual. I don't even think they're written as preferring any gender over another, contrary to the headcanon I held previously (it was a silly comment that really just blew up too much and not something I even agree with anymore particularly)
Romancing any companion as any gender is completely legitimate and true to their characterization and that's final in my book.
I just wanted to correct myself and say that definitively. If you're going around saying Astarion is clearly gay or whatever you're being a doofus
I'm also sorry to anyone who I made uncomfy with that post forever ago because it was so reminiscent of the discourse and erasure going on, I wasn't even aware of "gay Astarion" hot takes at the time of making it and it was careless of me overall
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Y’all will be your own undoing the fact none of you have not even the slightest bit of doubt is rather worrying. what happens if neither is endgame and let’s say Mike is killed off? You can’t say that won’t happen either because you don’t know the same way you can’t say byler is endgame because you don’t know hell even milevens can’t say they’re ship is endgame because they don’t know. Ego is ruining both sides and neither side is correct and shouldn’t proclaim to be.
I'm sorry anon, but I'm not all bylers. While there are a great deal of bylers like myself who have less doubts these days, there are plenty that have mostly doubts. PLENTY. Arguably the vast majority. And for good reason, ie. history.
To be completely honest anon, I don't think you're worried about bylers and their lack of doubts. I think their lack of doubt scares you bc it's caused you to go from confident to having doubts yourself. Why else would you be here on anon all condescending otherwise?
Personally, I'm not even here bc I want to believe byler's endgame. And no offense to those that have went through it, because the whole point of queer-baiting is to basically mock queer fans and lead them on with no intention of following through, but I have never been queer-baited before.
I did however, like many milkvans, go into Stranger Things loving Mike and El under the assumption they were peak romance. I literally skipped all of s2 during my first rewatch to get to their reunion! But genuinely, do we think the show is supposed to be watched that way?? Hell no.
If you're having to skip all of s2, most of s3, most of s4 in rewatches, bc Mike and El are separated, fighting, or broken up, what does that tell you?
If you're having resentments for characters like Max and Lucas and Will and Hopper bc the story has made points to have those characters interfere with your confidence in Mike and El romantically, I'm sorry, but I'm gonna go out on a limb and say you're probably watching the show wrong. To be clear, if you have resentment for ANY of the main characters, you are missing something!!!
And that was my problem back then when I subscribed to these assumptions, because I WANTED to believe Mike and El were the pinnacle of romance, despite the signs incoming that went against it. And what that meant is I had to hold resentments for all the characters, including Mike and El themselves and even the Duffer Brothers for ruining what I WANTED to believe.
After s3, me, my friends, family and quite honestly anyone I spoke to about the show, said that it went downhill since the previous two seasons. And I do think a big part of the reason why, is because of the Mike and El conflict conflating everything. It felt regressive. And s4 repeating that exact storyline????
It took me a while to even consider byler as an idea. It's not like I latch onto every non-canon mlm ship and just ship for nothing (very few bylers do this, no matter how much anti's need to convince themselves this is the case as an excuse to be homophobic).
I am a hopeless romantic. Doesn't matter if it's queer or straight, I only ship stuff that I feel confident is endgame bc why would I put myself through scenes of something that doesn't feel right to me, merely bc I want to believe it and despite everything pointing against it??
Full serious, IF I was confident in milkvan endgame as a possibility, I would probably just convince myself to like them and provide evidence supporting it, bc I would honestly rather be right? Who tf wants to be wrong?
The problem was it didn't matter if I was initially convinced Mike and El were the pinnacle of romance (I was a child okay, give me a break...). Once I let go of that assumption because of all the doubts I had of them piling up, and took off my heteronormative goggles, I went woah... Holy shit. This show is actually fucking epic. Doubts gone. And the rest is history.
So, what happens if neither is endgame and Mike's killed off? I guess I would be confused, especially because the Duffer's specifically mentioned not being able to kill off Mike in a podcast last year. They gave their reasoning as to why, being that they take deaths on their show very seriously, needing 1+ seasons for them to show the characters mourning the loss. And so ending the show on that exact note, would be kind of a spoiler since they brought it up specifically? Therefore kind of redundant?
I guess, sue me for thinking the Duffers care about the show and put a lot of meaning into it. All of my analysis and theories are based on that assumption. No one's going to change how I think about that, so trust me, not worth getting worked up over it, anon.
If your evidence is all based on the assumption that the Duffers are not that good of writers, that almost everything on the show is coincidental and there's no deeper meaning beyond surface level, why are you even watching it in the first place? You do you I guess, but I just don't know why you wouldn't want to watch something that is more worth your time?
People being confident in their theories wont hurt you. If it bothers you so much, maybe find a way to be confident with your theories after looking at all the evidence from both sides. All sides. Any sides. If you still come up completely indifferent, then don't work yourself up by going on anon and making it other peoples' problem.
If it turns out everything meant nothing, and I was wrong about everything or most of what I interpreted, I will be okay! Because the show went from being about what I wanted to believe, to just what I genuinely believed.
Would I be disappointed? Sure. But lets hope I'm right bc in my scenario the show is epic and everything means something... not sure why anyone would root for the alt...
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I have one (1) fear that btsv will reveal Miguel gets his spider powers from his T-shots.
Stabilisers for his spider dna/power was my original thought except I think Miguel took his shot right before throwing the bin at Miles so uh, doesn't seem very stabilising.
And now my personal theory is that, given how they seemed to be "hugging" the cells, maybe Miguel spent too long LARPing as his alt self he became part of that universe. And now that that universe is gone he needed to give himself shots to stop from glitching out. Which, may not make sense since that's what the watch is supposed to do, but I think it'd be a neat parallel to Miles having cells from 42.
ehhhhh i don't think miguel exploding really swings the pendulum in either direction (in terms of what the shot actually does), at least in my conception of a dna stabaliser. your theory is a neat one though! it would be interesting if miguel was dealing with some longlasting sideeffects from dipping dimensions.
personally, i think given the visuals of the scene, the most likely answer is that it is to do with spider powers (very similar visual to miles's spider bite, the blue blood cells, the actual needle mimicking a spider bite in terms of the literal injection etc) but it's a toss up right now as to whether spiderverse's iteration of miguel is going to have him be irreversibly changed (and have that change be one out of his control like in the comics) or have it be a self inflicted transformation. the latter possibility of which im personally ehhh not a fan of. but again, at this moment just a possible direction and not a certainty.
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I'm not going to listen to this podcast because I would probably dislike it but this take on jc performing improv comedy is exactly why that fic about him being a successful standup comedian is so absolutely out of character
And I want to be clear regarding that last part, the improv comedy debate that again destroyed our apartment for a few days: Jiang Cheng would be the worst at improv comedy. I cannot be shaken from this view. And it's not because he can't joke or he isn't funny or I don't love him. It's because--and I do feel I'm SO right about this--the SECOND one of his jokes bombed, he would not be able to recover. There is no point in canon where he wouldn't make his embarrassment everyone's problem. Jin Ling would do the same, but he's fifteen so at every moment he is having the biggest emotions possible to the inconvenience of others, and that's a teen's prerogative. Jiang Cheng is a full adult man who would be so visibly furious at himself and everyone else on stage that comedy would just stop for a while.
also they made him a knight-in-shining-armor who told off a guy harassing a nameless barista and then she gave him her number and now they're married and she's pregnant and look. I don't have anything else to say than 🤮
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