#externally: chill

[oensible]

🦈 post-win celly-ing ^_^ // SJS @ CGY // 2024.02.15 🦈

+ some gifs:

[033h]

I just feel that grinding and professionalism are sooo against my desired state of being and the older I get the more I feel like I’m just collecting these fractured versions of myself I’ll never be able to reconcile but maybe that’s okay… I still kind of envy people who can condense it all into one genuine self tho

[gingerhastoomanyobsessions]

for a webbed site that claims to love rehabilitative justice tumblr sure has a love of vengeance huh. somehow we’ve created a digital atmosphere where literal murder is less bad than (checks notes) not emerging from the womb with a perfectly calibrated moral compass and the Correct Political Opinions

I’ve seen people on here say that, not only can people Not Change, but that people who try to change are a) lying b) manipulative and c) undeserving of the chance to change. besties…becoming a better person isn’t about whether or not you deserve to become a better person, it’s not even about becoming 100% perfect, it’s about doing damage control after you realize you fucked up. like yeah people you’ve hurt aren’t obligated to like you/forgive you/interact with you, but tumblrites seem to think that anyone who’s ever made a serious mistake should be exiled from society and/or guillotined. we’ve gone from reasonable and correct takes about how people change (ex. “it’s not my responsibility to teach you”— yes! of course it shouldn’t be up to underprivileged random people on the internet to educate the uninformed!) to utterly deranged ones (ex. “nobody with privilege will ever realize that they’re doing harm and the ones who claim to be in the process of learning are just virtue signaling and should be punished for it”— a take I’ve seen applied to men learning about feminism, cishets becoming allies, white people learning about antiracism, relatives of shooters who go on to advocate for gun control, etc)

you do realize that people can genuinely change for the better, right? I’ve seen my parents un-transphobia themselves firsthand, going from thinking that my sibling came out “for attention” to wholeheartedly believing in trans rights. my grandma’s father was every kind of asshole imaginable and she grew up indoctrinated, but as an adult she broke away from him and has spent the rest of her life working on unlearning stuff. my cousin grew up in the rural south and parroted his rural southern dad’s opinions until he was thirteen and started actually thinking for himself, at which point he did a total 180 and is now studying history with a focus on the evolution of the rights of the underprivileged

so when I see people on here say that people shouldn’t change because they don’t deserve to change it rubs me the wrong way. cause at that point it sounds like you’d rather have that person stay harmful so you can stay mad at them, instead of letting them change and gaining yourself an ally. again, you don’t need to interact with them, but. at this point it kind of feels like you care more about hating The Oppressors than about protecting The Oppressed.

[handsfreepizza]

Some new drawings of an old character.

Left was a warm up in the pallete and then the right was playing with effects and new brushes .

I think I’m going to rebuild them entirely and play them soon!

[risingsunresistance]

im trying desperately to find a modern desktop computer with decent enough specs that also has a cd drive and im fighting for my life out here

[bonetrousledbones]

anyway. i think i am going to order a pizza from my favorite pizza place. i think i deserve it today

[s0fter-sin]

i had an eye test done a few days ago and one of the tests gave me mad vertigo, it only lasted a few minutes but i still have a major headache and nausea and it flares up when i’m scrolling. obviously the answer is to get off my phone but it’s making me think of the march that shall not be named when i couldn’t look at fucking anything and ya girl is getting nervous

[tearlessrain]

the number of inadvisable choices I have made in bg3 because it was hot...

[saintlesbian]

once again I still think finn and Liz are better as friends, but also I think what’s very irritating about this pairing is that they aren’t really playing a part in any major plotlines rn, so seeing them show up feels like these two have been paired together to hit contract minimums in the meantime, like they’re in this romance story holding pattern until the writers figure out what to do next…

[emily-mooon]

OH FUCK IM GOING DOWN A LOOP HOLE BUT I AM REMINDED OF THE FACT THAT SOME OF JONATHAN’S S4 FITS LOOK SIMILAR TO THE FIRST OUTFIT WE SEE LONNIE IN IN S1.

[vexangle]

see heres the thing. mob is not only the autism character. he is also the AUTISM NARRATIVE. and that is truly the autism swag of all time

[aemeshi]

welcoming 2024 ill and starting my period i think

[yasashiiku]

thinking abt how shou spent his whole life seeing and acknowledging wrong deeds despite all the terrible influence, thinking abt how he understood the world better than so many delusional adults including his own father, thinking abt how he experienced hardships as much as said delusional adults claimed to have- yet remained undaunted and relentless about doing the right thing, thinking abt how terrified he was but he didn't want to be a coward like everyone around him so he ended up making the whole thing HIS responsibility, thinking abt how he wouldn't have moved an inch from that explosion had it not been for Kageyama brothers ( shige in manga, ritsu in anime ) because he was supposed to "save" his dad and he wouldn't favor the idea of a life as an orphan so why even brother

thinking abt how Shou is the closest a mp100 character got to experiencing loss & grief TWICE. and is still living with that horrible sense of anticipation that smthing might suddenly happen to his dad and he's being very brave about it ...

[mainfaggot]

If I wasn't me, I'd be having so much fun right now!

[swankpalanquin]

feeling very much like if a portal to middle earth appeared right now i would walk through immediately

[sparklingbinjuice]

... consistency