#fanficion culture

[underthetree845]

[haveyoureadthisfanfic]

Hello!

So, I made this account on a whim. If it turns into nothing, cest la vie.

But this is an account inspired by the likes of @haveyouwatchedthisyoutuber-poll @haveyouseenthisseries-poll @haveyouplayedthisgame-poll @haveyouseenthismovie-poll @haveyoureadthisbook-poll @haveyoulistenedtothisalbum-poll @haveyouheardthisband etc. etc.

As the name suggests, this account is all about fanfiction! Submit any fanfic you want and find out whether the general Tumblr population knows it. And hey, maybe a few people will discover your suggested fic and fall in love with it!

Here's the google form to suggest your favorite fic, from any site. Go nuts!

Reblogs and whatnot are always appreciated :)

[frannonfire]

the moment of glory when you are faster than ao3 notification

[hauntedcheesecakewizard]

Me during quarantine: I'm not going to write omegaverse fics. That's cringe and weird.

Me now, after finally reading some omegaverse, realizing the potential behind the political views of this society built on animalistic instincts and how it could be used to talk about real world issues in a fun and subtle way: well shit.

[zakizendetandi]

me reading a book in bed: okay i’m tired now, time to put the book away

me, immediately after: pulls out ao3

[mebemilena]

Not like we have a date with destiny

You met Layla online and her visits to your store became more regular.

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A/N:

it's been YEARS i don't post anything, just silently reading fanficion around. Gotta relearn how to use Tumblr again. I waited one year to watch Moonknight, always wait for the hype to pass because i know i get hyped too and my poor mind can't really take that. I absolutely loved Layla, that's a fact.

as usual, i'm just trying to exercise my english writing skills. I feel like this was a part of a bigger piece but I can't really develop much. Thank you for reading though. Life's been a bit difficult at times. Lots of anxiety and fear of the future. I wanted to get something light.

i'm starting a series, that's why Sersi is mentioned.

my AO3 link if you'd like to see.

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You met Layla online. She sent a message to the store you worked at looking for a specific book. You attended her on the phone and she went to the bookstore shortly after, paying in cash.

"You're a lifesaver.", she thanked you.

Soon, her visits to the store became more regular. Layla would take her time to read the back of the covers or arrive with a specific request. You became friends over illustrated books though, specially the ones about ancient culture. You told her about your beliefs and about your own culture, finding it amazing when she shared her own story. There was no denying you had a great connection.

"We should go out for drinks.", Layla invited you. "We only meet when you're working or when I need something work related." she'd insist.

It was true. You had never met in other circumstances and knew very little about each other outside duty, except a few things you could notice by yourself. Layla was an interesting woman, she was gentle and polite. Maybe not very social but very friendly anyway. It wasn't hard to slowly fall for her but of course you decided to keep a safe distance. If she didn't like you like that by any chance, you were not up to spoil the friendship you were developing.

"Let's do it tonight then? It's Friday, tomorrow's my Saturday off", you agreed. Was it too soon?

Layla seemed to think for a moment. Almost like she didn't believe it had been so easy. All she had to do was ask. Simple like that. "Okay.", a smile ghosted her lips and she shook her head, as if getting rid of intrusive thoughts. "It's gonna be fun."

Around 6:30pm, when you had closed the store, Layla appeared by the door. She was supposed to text you her location and you'd meet here but she had other plans. "I thought it'd be nice for us to walk there, it's not far from here.", she explained.

Layla was uncaractheristicaly nervous. She was watching her feet as you walked to the bar and you could sense the thick atmosphere. Was she nervous?

"So, i think we could grab something to eat first.", She finally looked at you. "You know, so that we won't get drunk too fast."

You agreed, as easy as it sounds, and suggested a small cantina you liked. You had some pizza and decided to just try their wine, not wanting to leave the cozy place. You drank and ate and talked for hours, leaving only because the owner came talking to you saying it was time for them to close.

Layla walked you home, the cold air sobering you up way too fast. Your night couldn't end better, though you thought that maybe it could. If Layla kissed you goodnight.

You stood by your doorway and bent goodbye and Layla kissed your cheek when you hugged. It happened a few time after that. You went out for drinks or food, hanging out together for log walks, cultural programs and sometimes to watch movies at each other's place.

You were talking about your romantic life when you mentioned the last mess you got involved in. "She was nice and all. Really. We'd go to the museu, to natural parks. We had fun together, i thought we were fine. But then her ex came along and she just disappeared.", you told her, realizing that it didn't really hurt anymore.

Layla listened to you, giving the attention you deserved. There was a hint of something in her eyes and she smiled. "Just like we do? You seem to have a type.", she said, playfull.

You chocked on your drink.

Layla laughed at your antics and gave you a napkin. She kept looking at you, a smile never leaving her face. "I mean, you said she was a Historian, that she worked with museology, and i'm an archeologist. We both like going out for drinks and trying new food, we're both into ancient culture...", she explained.

Your jaw dropped, you were speechless. Layla looked into your eyes and took a big gulp of her wine before dropping the bomb. "We both have a close relationship with our exes, she told you. "I mean, i just got divorced.", her eyes inspected you for the smallest of reactions.

You felt your heart falling on the floor. If she had just gotten a divorce it meant she probably wasn't ready for any romantic bullshit. Part of you was okay with that, because you liked her a lot and were willing to accept what she had to give you. Another aspect she had in common with Sersi.

The other part of you was catching the bitter taste of rejection.

Layla was waiting for you to say something, you knew that. But there were no words for you to use. She seemed to understand the hint and started talking again. "We are friends though. Kinda.", she cleaned her throat. "We work together sometimes.", she explained and noticed you were still silent, which made Layla start to panic. Was it the wrong time? The wrong words?

She took a deep breath. "I don't know where this is going but i'd love for it to continue.", she smiled, almost shy at herself. You nodded and approached her side of the couch way too slowly , kissing the tip of her nose.

Layla relaxed and smiled larger. She placed her hands on your cheeks before kissing you on the lips.

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[trickstarbrave]

Do you have any headcanons on how mer show emotion compared to humans, I want some more ideas for my fanficion.

Aw fuck that’s tough. I suppose it’s a cultural thing mostly as I write it? Or depends on the person.

I am a fan of their ears moving tho maybe like a cat? Perking up when happy, drooping when sad, flat against the head almost when mad??? Or play around w how different animals show emotion depending on the not human traits you give ur elves

[sasterisk]

Sasterisk's Intro Post (for the tumblr culture)

Call me Saster! I'm Bisexual and I use She/Her & They/Them pronouns!

I’m a 20 y/o Art and Design student focusing on animation!

I mainly post about Inanimate Insanity, mostly Suitcase and Balloon stuff.

Here's my Linktree! Follow me elsewhere!

These are the fandoms I like! Prone to change, so sorry if its outdated;

Hermitcraft

Life Series / Trafficblr

Moomins

Object Shows (mostly Inanimate Insanity (and mostly season 2 (and mostly suitloon stuff)))

Warrior Cats

Adventure Time (I love Prismo)

Pokemon & Pokemon Mystery Dungeon

Splatoon

Others I can't think of rn :P

DNI's;

The usual (bigotry, sexism, ableism, proshipping, etc etc)

If you're under 13 y/o. My blog will not contain explicit NSFW (probably) but I swear and might talk about things meant for mature audiences occasionally.

BYF;

I do a LOT of shipping (Hermitshipping and Object Shows especially), and have a lot of opinions on said ships.

If I ever reblog something of yours that makes you uncomfortable, let me know! I will delete it if you ask!

I'm not too familiar with the internet culture on Tumblr, so sorry if I seem awkward lol, happy to learn, though!

Please use tone indicators for things you feel could be taken in the wrong ways, such as using /p(latonic) and /j(oke)

My tags;

#SasterDoodles - For my artwork!

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will make others when needed...

Thanks for reading, happy scrolling!

[redroomchatbox]

It is really actually just the beginning

[bang-me-bangtan-style]

Archive

OLD FANFICS AND ONE SHOTS RESIDE HERE.

My 2013-2020 fanficion

This is a masterlist of old fanfiction I’ve wrote through the years. From when I first started writing at sixteen with FORBIDDEN ALL THE WAY TO 2020. It’s 2021 and I feel like I want to start new and fresh. So I took all my masterlist and put it as an archive. My new masterlist is empty. Will be Comming soon.

Don’t fret, I still may continture some of the series below. but for now all this work is going to remain in the archive unless i change my mind.

✔ - Completed ||   ••• - Ongoing || ✖  - On Hold -everything for now is discontinued

BTS

Kim Namjoon

Kim Seokjin

Series:

Oneshots:

Smut:

(SMUT) corrupted | bangtan smut series | JIN,bts | 2.4k words

Min Yoongi

Series:

••• ⭐️ (FANFIC) Updated May 14,2020 | THE BANGTAN LIST | YOONGI, bts | with 1 chapter (s) | 3k words | ONGOING | SUMMARY - That one story where you work as a stripper, meet Min Yoongi, fuck him, and cant forget him- but he can’t remember you- so you fuck his friends to fuck the pain away.

Oneshots:

(SCENARIO) 01 the creator | you don’t own me series | YOONGI,bts

Smut:

(SMUT) 02 SUGA - 불타오르네  |bangtan smut series |  SUGA, bts | 1.5k word

Jung Hoseok

Series:

(MINI SERIES ) forced break up  | JHOPE, bts | 2 chapters |  1 , 2 | When Yoongi is your brother nobody wants to mess with you. no, not when Yoongi had set them all straight not to touch his little sister. Jhope is Yoongi’s best friend and Yoongis threats doesn’t scare him. What happens when Jhope goes behind Yoongi’s back to fuck his little sister. That sister being you.

Oneshots:

Smut:

(SMUT) 03 we on | bangtan smut series | JUNGKOOK+JHOPE,bts | 1.6k words

Kim Taehyung

Series:

✖ (FANFICTION) Updated Jan 14, 2019 | the temptation | TAEHYUNG, bts | With 2 chapter (s) |  4316  words  | ON HIATUS | SUMMARY- Church. School. Work. Home. Home.work. school home. It was a hell of routine. But it was old. It was getting way too old. This pure innocent life was just a facade nowadays. Your mind had fell into the fifth circle of hell. And your boyfriend jungkook realized this. Especially after you cheated on him with the person he hated the most. Taehyung. And now according to him you would burn in hell for it. How long could you keep your legs closed after reviving oral sex from taehyung? Could you keep the rest of your innocence or did you really want to burn in hell like jungkook said you would?

Oneshots:

Smut:

(SMUT) 04 treat you better | bangtan smut series | TAEHYUNG, bts | 3.4k words

Park Jimin

Series:

Oneshots:

Smut:

(SMUT) 01 caught in a lie | bangtan smut series | JIMIN,bts

(SMUT) three is a charm | bangtan smut series | JUNGKOOK+JIMIN,bts | 4.4k words

Jung Jungkook

Series:

✖ (FANFIC) you make me begin  | JUNGKOOK, bts | 1,954 words | ON HIATUS | | SUMMARY- what if you are an angel and you fell from heaven for a troublesome boy who needed you, him being Jeon Jungkook?

✖(FANFIC) Updated june 23, 2018  || (FANFIC) UNKNOWN || JUNGKOOK, bts || With 2 chapter(s) ||  2,586 words  || ON HIATUS|| SUMMARY- what if the famous front man of bangtan accidentally texts the wrong number thinking your his cheating girlfriend only it’s really you?

••• ⭐️ (FANFIC) Updated May 12, 2020 | THE CREATION | with 2 chapters | words | ONGOING | SUMMARY- Your mom Jeon Yoona was one of the greatest scientist of her time. She created a man made male fetus called Project 1997 (later known as Jeon Jungkook) in the GIO lab that resided in Busan,South Korea in 1997. Jeon went down in the hall of fame creating what was said to be the most difficult project of the decade. in 2002 Jeon Yoona died from cancer leaving you behind. This was also around the time when PROJECT 1997 (Jeon Jungkook) started having complications and had became very ill. Because of this the GIO lab wanted project 1997 to be destroyed because they couldn’t figure out what w as wrong and  why he was defective. After being saved by Yoonas colleague- project 1997 (Jeon Jungkook) had fell into Your hands and you from then on raised him like a son. But you didn’t know that pretending to be PROJECT 1997’s (jungkooks) mom would be so hard, him angry, moody and bitchy all the time because all his friends wanted to do was fuck you. And maybe he wanted to fuck you too!

Oneshots:

(SCENARIO) 01 Jungkook | bangtan scenario series | JUNGKOOK, bts

(DRABBLE) mate killer | JUNGKOOK, bts

Smut:

(SMUT) 03 we on | bangtan smut series | JUNGKOOK+JHOPE,bts | 1.6k words

(SMUT) three is a charm | bangtan smut series | JUNGKOOK+JIMIN,bts | 4.4k words

(SMUT) 07 you’re mine |  bangtan smut series | JUNGKOOK,bts

세븐틴 | SEVENTEEN (SVT)

Dino

Vernon

S.coups

Wonwoo

Mingyu

Seungkwan

Joshua

••• ⭐️ Updated august 1st , 2018   (FANFIC) fucking with Joshua | JOSHUA, seventeen | With 12 chapter (s) | 29,125 words  | ONGOING | A recorded list of incidents of you corrupting the innocent Hong Jisoo. can you corrupt him and make him go against his morals?

Woozi

Jeonghyun

The8

Hoshi

Jun

Dk

엔시티 | NEO CULTURE TECHNOLOGY (NCT)

(some members of nct is still under age, will not write any smut for underage 19+ and under nct members)

Taeyong

(SMUT) the dirty secret | nct smut series | TAEYONG,nct (4.5k words)

taeil

johnny

yuta

kun

doyoung

ten

(SMUT) the dirty secret | nct smut series | TAEYONG,nct (4.5k words)

jaehyun

winwin

jungwoo

lucas

mark

renjun

jeno

haechan

jaemin

chenle

jisung

갓세븐 | GOT7

Yugyeom

⭐️ (SMUT) lust of denial | got7 smuts | YUGYEOM,got7

Jackson

Jaebum

Jinyoung

Youngjae

BamBam

Mark

(SMUT) ewwww | got 7 smuts | MARK,got7

에스에프나인 | SENSATIONAL FEELING NINE (SF9)

Rowoon

Jaeyoon

Taeyang

Hwiyoung

(SMUT) guilty pleasures | sf9 smuts | HWIYOUNG,sf9 | 2.1k words

Dawon

Chani

Inseong

Youngbin

zuho

엑소 | EXO

Chanyeol

⭐️ (SMUT)breaking boundaries | exo smuts | CHANYEOL, exo

Suho

Xuimin

(SMUT) 01 | you’re mine | exo smuts | XIUMIN,exo

Chen

Kai

✖ Updated Apr 4, 2018 (FANFIC)degraded | KAI, exo | 8,806  words | |With 4 chapters | ON hold| In hopes of getting rid of Kim Jongin for ruining your life further after your friends with benefits disaster and your violent meltdown, you finally get him to agree to leave you alone for good give you some space…. you get a month of quiet. till one day he shows up at the same convenience store as you. from there he follows you home and fucks the shit out of you claiming you to be his again. Even with a girlfriend still on his arm your his play-toy again.Its all just a vicious never ending down spiraling cycle. He would never leave you alone. not until he calls it quits.what do you do when Kim Jongin won’t  leave you alone? degrading you until you disappear? welcome to degraded.

D.O

Lay

Baekhyun

⭐️ (MINI FANFIC) drunk bitch | exo smuts | BAEKHYUN,exo | 1 chapter | what if you got drunk and didn’t realize what you were doing? Baekhyun being your victim.

⭐️ (SMUT) human mate | exo smuts | BAEKHYUN,exo

(SMUT) forced | exo smuts | BAEKHYUN,exo

Sehun

✖ discontinued | LISTEN I wrote this fanfic when I was like 16 ish or 17 it was my very first fanfic and it was a FORBIDDEN mess I’m now about to be 26 and cringe so fucking hard at what my 16 year old self was up in here doing, mom should have beat my a** 🥊 anyways I still have this on the internet to show where I came from it’s been what 8 almost 9 years since I wrote this sicko book, which btw way was requested I remember exo-Ls back in the day were.... anways if you read spare me I was young 😂😂😂 (FANFIC) forbidden |  |15 chapters | SEHUN, exo |  57,146 words | ON HIATUS|  Sehun is your twin.You’re his twin sister.You love him, More than you should.You push him away.He pulls back.You hate him he hates you back.You’re strangers, and he knows that.He misses you.You miss him back, but a question?Does he love you like you love him?

(SCENARIO) chanyeol’s noona | exo smuts | SEHUN,exo

빅뱅 | BIGBANG

G-dragon

(SMUT) mean because I like you | GDRAGON,bigbang

(SCENARIO) how to tame a dragon | GDRAGON, bigbang

[laurelismyblackcanary]

There is one thing ( well no there are a lot of things but this one is bothering me right now) that confuses me about American culture.  Why women change their surname or add the husband’s one to their own when they get married? 

Like sometimes I watch shows, or read a book or a fanficion, and this changing the name is a big deal. In Veronica Mars fanfiction ( which is what spurred this question) is such a big deal that Logan decided to change his own name. 

And I’m Italian and it’s just incomprehensible to me. Why can’t each partner keep their name? What am I missing? Cause in Italy we keep our  name and I could never change mine cause it’s part of who I am is a piece of my identity and I could never give it up. 

[polar-stars]

Some Notes on what the grown-ups are up to...(Part 4 | SnKimiko Related)

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

Basically: Some info on what the canon characters from “Shokugeki no Soma” are up to in my Next Gen Fanficion. 

Nene

Nene Eizan, formerly Kinokuni, opened three restaurants over the course of the years. She also became independent from the Kinokuni-family. (Why that is will be explained someday within the story, I promise)

The first restaurant she ever opened, is also her most treasured one where she ultimately also spends the most time. “Chishiki No Hana” in Tokyo. It’s a very expensive place, where Nene perfects her traditional Japanese cooking, not strictly bound to the Kinokuni-Style anymore. Although of course, the restaurant’s crown jewel is the Soba. The interior is more on the noble side but still invokes culture and tradition in the end. Critics praise this restaurant as very authentic.

Nene’s second restaurant is in Seoul and it’s called “Sakura Pond”. This is the place where Nene is probably the most experimental with her dishes, often letting elements of other Asian cuisines flow into her ideas and such. She also really tests herself out in the visual department of her dishes in this restaurant. There’s also a secret menu at this place, which includes dishes constructed by her husband. 

From beginning on the Nene was pleaded by multiple personalities of the culinary industry to bring her excellent Japanese cooking to the West. Many offered spots in Paris, Washington, Rome etc. already. But it was when Nene started to notice her middle child’s love and longing for New York City that she decided to carry her cooking over to the West and opened the restaurant “Chōwa” in Manhattan. This is the place where her cooking is the most traditional and authentic, although the interior is actually rather modern. It’s also, once again, super expensive and high-end. 

Nene is generally seen as one of the biggest, noteworthy names when it comes to Japanese cuisine and her opinion is hold in high regard by many. Occasionally she does publish a few essays or think-pieces in various magazines. 

She is married to Etsuya Eizan and has three sons with him: Masashi, Shigeo and Kei Eizan. Masashi is part of Totsuki’s 113th Generation, while Shigeo is part of the 114th. Both are members of the current Elite 10. Kei most recently started his journey on Totsuki and is part of the 118th Generation. 

Satoshi

Satoshi Isshiki got independent from the Isshiki-Family and more or less cut ties with them over the years. 

After some years of traveling, practicums in various restaurants and some honorary work, enjoying his freedom at last. Satoshi eventually decided to return to the place that became so meaningful for him throughout the years: Polar Star Dormitory. 

He began helping out Fumio in taking care of the dorm and the children and was granted a room in the dormitory once again. It didn’t took long until Headmistress Alice fully employed him as dorm-caretaker. 

Fumio and Satoshi worked close together for some more years until she eventually retired and later on also passing away, which left Satoshi to continue the job and nurturing the dorm with the same care as Fumio did. And he does a great job at it. All Polar Star Members who were and are under Satoshi’s care, greatly appreciate the slightly silly but insanely caring dorm-mom and he’s quick to gain anyone’s trust. He has a careful eye on the children under his wings, advises them when he feels they need it and also has a good understanding on how to approach them all individually. 

When it’s the holidays and the door is eventually empty, Satoshi does actually offer himself as help for their restaurants to some of his friends, mainly the PSD4. 

Terunori 

Terunori Hojo, formerly Kuga, opened 5 restaurants over the course of the years, with a sixth one currently in planning. 3 of the restaurants are his own while the 2 others are co-owned with his wife Miyoko Hojo. 

The first restaurant Terunori opened is in Chengdu and, well, what can I say? It’s a high-end place where he challenges the gods on just how much fire he can put into his cooking. It’s appropriately named (“Fireball”) and it’s definitely not something for anyone who likes it mild. 

Then there’s “Jade Tingle” in Osaka. This is another super-expensive place (honestly all of them all) where you have to make reservations months in advance. In this restaurant with rooftop bar, Terunori truly challenges himself in presentation (inspired by Soma’s dish from the Moon Banquet Festival, although Terunori would most certainly never say that) and gets the most creative. He’s not as focused on burning the customer’s tongue away in this restaurant, so there’s also quite some mild choices on the card. 

The last of his sole-owned restaurants would be “Feu et fumée” in Paris. This is the place where he aims to introduce the fiery side of Chinese cuisine to Europe. The dishes here are also to behold and insanely spicy, however unlike “Fireball”, Terunori actually develops himself beyond the Sichuan kitchen in this restaurant as he also develops dishes with elements of the Hunan and Guizhou kitchen. 

The two restaurants he co-owns with Miyoko, are two new branches of Hojo-Ra which Terunori urged her to open. She eventually agreed to the idea and over the years the married couple opened another Hojo-Ra restaurant in Tokyo and then later on one in Beijing. Both look like actual Chinese palaces fit for Emperors and Empresses because Terunori was left with the decision of interior and exterior so these restaurants became extra & extravagant af. 

As mentioned already, Terunori got married to Miyoko Hojo, took her last name and also had two children with her: A daughter named Suzume Hojo, who’s not only part of Totsuki’s 114th Generation but also it’s Elite 10, and a son named Takayuki Hojo, who’s part of Totsuki’s 115th Generation. 

Etsuya 

Not long after graduation Etsuya’s father retires, quickly making Etsuya the CEO of his family’s consulting company, The Eizan Group.

While he doesn’t opens any restaurants on his own, he certainly has a very impressive line up of restaurants in his hands. But also hotels, malls with food courts and various other establishments are his clients. He’s excellently networked and has a large reputation within the culinary industry.

Adulthood, Marriage and Fatherhood did end up making Etsuya a tad bit more tamer, but he’s still none or less not someone to fool around with. While he mostly resigned off shady, not-all-too-legal tactics through Nene’s influence, he’s still ruthless in his ways and he’s smart enough to drive any opponent in the corner without having to cheat in one way or the other. He ultimately still prefers to be feared over being loved and maintains a rather menacing, remorseless image within the culinary world. 

He has three sons with Nene. 

[thisdiscontentedwinter]

DISCO, it's me again! vpn still working and I'm not called to the pc station yet! About the ask you got. Yes, Yes we do have a website for fanficion but it's also based in US or something and at least I have to use vpn to get on it. It's seems some people don't? Could be the data servers we use blocking it. It's based aboard for exactly this reason. So They(TM) can't take it down or regulate it. And it's mostly for US/UK shows. I'm using it posting my writings. (1/3)

Also there're home based platforms as well. They're all under censorship and one of them didn't let me posted a piece with the world "ass" in it. Good times. That's how "clean" it has to be. So yeah, it's either using vpn and websites based aboard. Or it's local sites with random strict (and always evolving) censorship and random strikethroughs. There was taking down actions all the time. When They feel like. No matter how you comply to the rules it's always a possibility (2/3)

you one day see your work getting taken down for being "against the regulation". Whatever that means. They law forbids "lewd" content on TV, in movies and websites and such. Published books could have a bit more freedom but it's not that easy to get it published. And we don't have rating systems so it's all "for the good of the children". And that's bullshit. That's why I hate anti culture so much. I've been told to "think about the kids" all the time but it's never really about kids. (3/3)

_________________

DW: Anti culture is perpetuated by spoiled privileged brats who don’t realise that censorship spares nobody. 

And “think of the children” is a ridiculous argument. There are no real children in fictional stories. And real children reading stories on the internet should be parented by their parents, not by the government. 

Thinking that censorship is the answer to the non-existent problem just makes it easier for a government to control you. 

And for anyone who thinks that this is an extreme position to adopt, or that the slippery slope argument is nonsense, doesn’t know their history, and hasn’t opened their eyes to the many places in the world that this is happening today. 

It has happened, it is happening, and it can easily happen anywhere again. 

[longtalkscutshort]

My crisis with the moral fabric of fan fictions.

I don't know how to put this concern in words. I'm not even sure if its valid or if I'm just being immature.

I want to address something that essentially drives the kpop fandoms to explore content, and its not necessarily unusual- fan fictions have been in existence since a long time. Its just that they're more easily accessible and promoted now than before.

I love reading fanfiction. I don't think I subjectively try to impress their real life versions to the ones written. I objectively view them as different beings because its not like we're reading autobiographical accounts, right? Just someone's imagination.

What makes me uncomfortable is when I view the ratings, especially on ao3 and the fics having the most kudos aren't the sweet romantic ones you'd want to think fanficions are about. But extremely sick perverted fantasies that raise a lot of red flags in my head because if you think about it, the idols you write about are still people. People who have dignity and the sort of content that is written on them, is sort of repulsive at some point. How can I justify this? Its just a weird icky feeling that nags me - a sort of moral shock factor when I realise that these people are essentially being used as 'objects' to fulfill some sick sexual fantasies. Even if they might not necessarily be aware of them, I think certain warning tags that are almost taboo to public speech does warrant a raised eyebrow from me. I'm all for creative freedom, but I can't help but morally question the purpose of such content? The degradation may not be so pronounced because you'd like to think that you're just writing about them as what 'you' think as a story.

Especially fics involving dubious sexual consent-- since most fanfic writers are statistically females, how can you justify your urge to write such content? Does it not make you uncomfortable? Does it not strike you that you are generating content about actual people? Sure, you might argue about warning tags. And I do take them seriously but when you want to read a well written fic and most of the highly rated ones have such elements in them, it does make you question the moral fabric of the society. It wouldn't have mattered to me the least had it not been real people who are being exploited-- I don't even know what to say. Did they sign up for this as idols? I don't know.

What concerns me is that why is all this being normalised? A fic in which your idol gets raped by another apparently appeals to a lot of audience. Its not a matter of warning tags. Its a matter of 'why' you felt the need to generate such content? And more importantly, why do a large mass of people subscribe to it?

Since all kpop fandoms are heavily dedicated towards respecting their idols I posed this question specifically under this category. I know that 'sex, violence and drugs' sells most even in mainstream media culture. But to what extent is this degradation allowed to idols who have no say in the matter? It might be silly of me you might say, since that just comes along with fame.

But seriously, why is all this okay when happening to them in your imagination? But it would be devastating if it happens to some other person in real life and even you, God forbid. I'm not a self proclaimed feminist but this shit is rape culture being normalised and add in a stockholm syndrome in the mix- and I just lose my tolerance.

I don't know what to make of all this I wrote except that we are not as conscious of our actions as we like to think.

Wow. This sucks.

[sygneth]

8 People I’d Like To Know Better Tag;

cTagged by @arno-is-best-boi​ Thanks *^*

1. Name: I don’t actually use my given name, so let’s assume it’s Runa (that’s the one I use mostly)

2. Birthday:  March 2nd

3. Zodiac sign: Pisces (I guess that’s why I’m such a mess hah)

4. Height: like 176-177 cm, so about 5′9″

5. Hobbies:

drawing!!!! Both traditional and digital, but I guess I suck at digital xP

gaming counts too, I guess

reading bookss! However I don’t really feel like reading lately :<

writing :D Currently I’m writing scenario for my comics and a fanficion, even thought about translating it one day,  but duh, I’m not sure.

travelling! I loooove travels, visiting new places, museums, taking photos and meeting new cultures. If I could I would like to live in a different country every year.

architecture. Both history, sightseeing and designing as well :D 

And finally: history! I’m fascinated in middle ages and renaissance. Thanks to my studies, and Assassin’s Creed too I guess 😂

6. Favorite colours: Blue! black and white. But blue at most.

7. Favorite books: Ouhh, tuff one xd So my fav series is written by polish author Maja Lidia Kossakowska and it’s called “Siewca wiatru”, but I also love russian classic literature, like “The Master and Margarita” or “Crime and Punishment” (Razumikhin is bae), but I have a great fondness for Harry Potter saga, as I grew up reading these books :D 

8. Last song listened to: “Dirty Paws” by Of Monster and Man 

9. Last Film Watched: I don’t remember  😂 But I suspect it could have been BBC Sherlock - “Study in Pink”

10. Meaning behind your URL: Um yeah, so I’m Runa and I do arts xd

i tag: @loupilou45 @gagrawicz @cath-with-a-c @deejayers @pakhnokh @valshaena I hope you won’t kill me for tagging you guys xd  Also I’m sorry, but I don’t know 8 people xP

[thegloriousbluerose]

I was thinking to share this at my instagram… But I think this place is more suitable to say everything… ✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️✴️

I was just a little girl then I find Japanese culture. It was an inspiration for me. Nobody knew about this except my family. After some time I was tired of my music playlist (there was basically only jrock music) and I wanted some new music. I searched on YouTube and I find BIGBANG - Haru Haru. It was the ending of 2009. At that time I recognised South Korea music and culture too. After a while I find BIGBANG forum.. I registered and at 20100213 I become an official fan of BIGBANG, VIP. I was happy. Really. Because of them I fell in love with music, I started writing… And Im still doing that. I was so happy.. Later on I find Shinee’s Ring Ding Dong MV. And I was impressed with Jonghyun’s voice… Lucifer MV’s I was impressed with Taemin… From YG ent I supported BIGBANG. They are really meaningful to me. They built my personality. I am thankfull to them. From SM ent I supported Shinee.. Everything were fine… Later on I find attractive other groups like Super Junior, FTISLAND, UKISS, GIRLS GENERATION, The Trax, 2ne1, 2PM and so on. I was kind of multifandom person. But everything changed… Actually nobody supported let’s say so my hobby… At school I was bullied because of this desicion. My family couldn’t transfer me to another school so easily because my mom was a teacher at that school and she would be scolded if the school would lost their student… (it was a small school so every person was needed if that school wanted to exist). So I decided to fight until 8th grade. Because after 8th grade I could leave that school and go to Gymnasium (9th - 12th grade). It was hard. I spent all breaks with earphones, listening to korean pop music and imagine things, how I gonna go to MAMA awards and to see them all… Or going to the concerts, even being on the same stage (I was studying at music school since 2nd grade until 12th grade). I waited till I can come back at home and write my fanficion or my diary. But I was just in a 6th grade. My mental health was never strong enough. Especially after my only friend/classmate decided to go to another school after 5th grade. She was my only friend who at least tried to support me. But desicion was made by her parents. I was shocked. I was thinking that if Im friends with someone it would last forever.. It was so childish of me. We stopped talk to eachother really soon. I tried to became friends with other girls in my class.. But for them I was always a weirdo. But one of them somehow started to see me as her friend. I was happy. I think now I could finally be happy.. But she do not support me, I had to be with them other person. I changed my personality so easily. I stopped listen to a music I really loved and I was still bullied by my boys in the class. They even punched me to my stomach, kicked my legs. My mom was shocked… She had a conversation with two of them. She told them: “What do you think if she couldn’t have a child in a future?”. I couldn’t understand what that means… I just wanted everything to be over… I wanted to be happy. I find rock music and emotional people like me also. At that moment I was thinking this is the great path to choose, finally I have someone I can talk with… But it was a big mistake of me… I started to see my demons… And started to think about life meaning… Why people are dying.. Why we have to.. At 7th grade I transformed to emo style… My mom was sad… I was sad and screaming all the time at home… My little sister came into this world.. And I was not the only one… In the family. That fact.. It was easy to understand. I was happy. Just for a some moments… But I was still lonely.. I tried to be back with Korean music.. But it was too hard for me… Later on, I finally made into Gymnasium. New people. Everything should be fine, right? It wasn’t. Because of some metalistic girl I break a law. I was drinking alcohol near the church then police came. I wasn’t drinking much. But still. It was bad. But because I wanted to be loved by others I made that stupid desicion… After that incident.. I started to think more about myself. I wanted to runaway from myself… I wanted to be happy, kind person I was… But I couldn’t comeback… When I tried, my new classmates started to bullying me. They taken my things and putting somewhere else. Not all classmates were like that. I started to friends with one classmate. But still she hated my taste in music. She laughed at me… Even though she supported that emo side… Why girl.. Why… She also lefted me like my first friend. I even didn’t knew anything about that… But I was happy because it was hard with that class too. I also started to date my classmate… It was such a big mistake… I did that because I guess I didn’t wanted to be alone… But I was alone… I had a band at that moment… And after one concert I felt embarrassed… Nobody loved music in my band like I did… I realised.. That for other members.. It was just a game… And actually all that rocknroll damn emo thing… It makes me so annoying… I was really tired of that… So.. I disbanded my band. I focused on education and I also breakup with my classmate after 2 months in relationship. I finally started to recover… 11th grade was finished. I started to listen to korean music, I was so happy. Finally I had a true friends and they supports me. I also was happy because my mom give a birth to my little brother.. I was soo happy… But at my 18 bday my other classmate… Who was friend with that classmate who I used to date decided that he also could get me and that would be easy… I was shocked.. Because I couldn’t see him more than just a friend… He kissed me… And I couldn’t stopped him. It was disgusting.. But I didn’t wanted to hurt him. (eventually I did…Because I hurted his feelings). So, after my bday at the next day June 23 we had a goodbye party at my friends house. Because she was leaving to Norway for a summer. She is from my first class.. That girl who I mention before. Who started to be friends with me at 6th grade. At that party was my childhood friend who decided to bring his friend. We didn’t knew him. And what is ironic? That friend he eventually became my boyfriend. My first and still the only one true relationship. We started dating at 20150711. He was amazing. I was happy.. Finally someone really likes me. And appreciate me. But at that same month 20150721 my friend from Turkey was murdered at the bomb attack. That was really hard to deal with it. It broke my soul. My boyfriend helped me… But sometimes I cried like crazy… And after his death I started to listen rock music once again. And this time it was like a trap. My boyfriend. I though he liked Asian culture like I did.. But it wasn’t a case. He just wanted impress me. So it became hard to believe him. We fought a lot. And I was at 12th grade.. I have my graduation exams.. I also had to decide what I want to study after finishing school.. It was a really stressful time. But I decided to stop. I decided to once again focus on a dream I had as a kid. So 20160901 I started my korean language studies at university. It was new place, new community, new city, different people. But we all love Asia… And it was a great desicion… For me at that moment. Eventually, my boyfriend decided to left me… And at that same damn day he almost did not raped me. It’s hard… We were together for 1 year and almost 3 months. He never pushed me. Idk what happened to him that day… And he lefted me. It was… For me… Such a big deal. Because I give him all me, my soul, my body, my heart.. We were talking about life together.. And he wanted that. Not me. He was who suggested that. But he decided to choose bar, beer, girls over us. I fell in a deep depression. I started to have trust issues. And I still have it. I lost my friends at university, they couldn’t deal with my negative minds… I was toxic for myself and others… I had just one friend… And she is still by my side. I love her… But she also didn’t knew how to help me. It was the first time I really wanted to end everything… I cut my wrist… (Im left handed), I drink two beers and one spiritual alcoholic drink.. I even filmed myself… I really couldn’t believe he lefted me… He throw me.. I was just a used b*tch like he told my friend… My life was broken. Because of him I didn’t want to go to Korea… I loved him.. And I wanted to be a great woman for him… I was blinded by feelings that he even disrespected. And after that incident… My ex’s sister tried to lock me at the hospital.. To take a treatment… But psychiatric told me that I could deal with everything by myself. I believed in that but at the same time I pushed that. After some time other boys wanted to be my friends from university… But they wanted to be more than my friend…. I couldn’t.. I was still his girl… And they lefted me… Two more people throw me like I was a trash… After 6 months after my break up I started to heal. I started to fight… I went to organisation.. I though I find new people.. But it was once again a failure. They never saw me as I am one of the organisation’s members… It was hard.. They started gossiping about me and lying things after I left… Also my physical health went worst… I couldn’t believe how people could do that to me… I want to be wanted but you just all are using me as you wanted and then you throw me like a trash… Also some other guy used me as a cure from his breakup… And he made up with her later… At that time.. I wanted to kill myself… To really kill myself… I was exhausted… About Everything… I didn’t see any light in my life once again… It was a second time then I…. I… Cut my right hand… And I still have those scars… But I managed to reach my 20th bday. It was at this summer… I decided to be myself… I started to go with my bestie and my childhood friend to hangout.. Everything was fine. Until I find one guy… I don’t know why… But I tough Im finally free so I could be trying to trust someone else… And it was a bad desicion. Because my childhood friend tried to touch me… Even he knew everything what I went through… He said it was a joke..but I was traumatised.. I tough that all men wants just that… I realised that I couldn’t trust the new guy, so I wanted to cut all the connections with him… Guess what… He already slept with another girl at the festival… Even though he knew my past and even though he told me he likes me and want to be with me… And he told me after that, that it was my fault that he had done that. Because he tough that I hated him… I was shocked… But I realised that he would never gonna push me over to the same damn thing that I already went. No. I cut all the connections with my childhood friend and him. Finally I was free. Second year of university started. I decided to focus on my education. I started to listen more kpop. And my puzzle were almost finished. However, that guy who used me as a cure.. He came back… And he wanted a help from me. To be just his friend… I couldn’t push him. Because of what I went through… Even I released that cut I made because of him was so stupid action… So I helped… I was a fool… He used me once again… Even though I believed in him… He also tried to impress me and that’s why he always listened to my darkest thoughts. I still couldn’t trust no one… My friend circle that I was building really hard… Just one friend was left.. Thank you God… She is still with me… Im still critique myself… Because of my choices… So… He decided to left me until he recovers from his breakup. When he texted me I decided to stop. I stopped. I studied hard, supported my family, I was smiling and happy, I decided to take an opportunity to have a second major at business administration… I was happy… I survived this winter exam session. My holidays started… I went to my parents house. I was listening kpop music BIGBANG, PENTAGON, WINNER and so on… Even Shinee old songs… And I remembered my old school days… When I found this KWORLD… And how it actually makes me happy… They built my personality… Even though I had these ups & downs… They always were my reason why Im still looking and believing into future. And I was pushing this pure world so many times because of others… Because I couldn’t stand loneliness… Because I was afraid to be an artistic mind person who I am since birth… I was so afraid that I wanted to die… But at every time I wanted I looked at BIGBANG and at SHINEE and others kpop groups… They helped me to reach my 20s… And finally I find peace… At December 18th morning I dreamed that Im with alot of people I don’t know… And I saw a boy with dark hair he told me that he is finally going to be free… I couldn’t see his face… I Even don’t know if his hair were really dark… After that I saw an animal dying in a river… And then I wake up. I saw all news about Taeyang weddings & I was so happy for him. At that time in Korea was around 15pm… And you know… He was still alive… He was still preparing.. While I was screaming from happiness… My friend from Korea told me if I knew what happened.. Of course I didn’t… And after I heard… I just couldn’t believed… I was waiting… And waiting… For the statement.. But I already knew… He was dead… I felt really bad… I though if I was more supportive… If I was more stronger to deal with myself… Maybe I could saw his signals… I was angry and Im still am. People commenting about depression how is hard and so on… It looks like it is easy to talk about it… But it’s not… I opened everything for the first time… Because I want to tell people what it is really means to suffer… How it is hard to find a light… I was thinking about my little siblings… What if something happens to my parents? Im an adult… I have to take my siblings… I have responsibilities… I just can’t left them alone… Even though it’s really hard to live…. And after I had reading his letter… I though that Im reading one of mines… I was telling so many same things… I was asking same damn things even before his death.. And Im still asking… I hate death… I do not want to put my parents in a box and hide it like some used trash…. I just can’t… And these kind of thoughts push me to go and do not try to kill me…. You know what people are saying that the third time…. I had my two… Im really afraid… Because his death… Made my childhood world shaking… I thought they would for me… But Because of my mental I couldn’t be for them… Even though Im tried… And then I finally really came back… Jonghyun 오빠… Decided to die at my mom’s birthday… Moms bday, Taeyang wedding… I was so happy… And then boom… Sadness made a comeback to my life… I just want to be happy… I just want to know why we are killing eachother… I just want to know what is the meaning… I just want to be happy… But life saw me as a trash… Since beginning… And Im fighting.. And I even do not know for what… I do not believe in love anymore. I do not trust people anymore. Mates at my uni don’t like me… They laugh at me then I though I was doing everything fine… I just though that KWORLD would be still the same… Im sorry… Im really sorry… For everything.. Those feelings you shared… I know it all. Im depressed since I was a kid… But Im telling to myself that everything is going to be alright… It have to … But you are not here… Im sorry… Im really sorry… Maybe if you had readed my stupid life story.. Maybe you knew that you are not alone… Im also not talented I can’t write anything… No one notice my makings… I don’t know how to deal with it but Im trying… Im afraid but Im trying… Im really thankful to you. And to you who readed this rock of my heart… I just wanted to help everyone who reached me in my life. I want all people to smile. So please SMILE.

Rest well, Kim Jong Hyun, the Angel of Shinee.