#feeling sappy and sentimental

[saradika]

some thoughts and thanks and a wrapping up the year 💕

First off, I’ve kept a running tag of the fics I read this year, so I have been working on a couple rec posts to share tomorrow! 💖 so many of your fics have kept me happy and cozy and feeling loved this year, and I would love to help share them!

Next month I have an entry into PMAMC (so excited!) but I think after that I’m going to take a writing break (which I always say but never do! 😬). This year I wrote a little over 200k, and was really excited about tackling some series and AUs - something I never thought I would be able to do when I first started a couple years ago. Being able to explore some new ideas and really work on writing for myself this year has been really gratifying. And I’d like to spend some time catching up on the fics I haven’t gotten a chance to read!

And I really want to say thank you. To everyone who read my fics, left a kind ask, shared one of my graphics. Writing has become so important to me and I am still in awe that people might want to read my thoughts, and feeling lucky I get to say hello to so many writers I truly admire and look up to.

There’s so many of you that I am just so happy to know - beloved mutuals, the amazing tnbf crew, star wars pals, the harvmind, and new friends from tlou 💕 I won’t tag anyone (because I live in fear of accidentally forgetting someone!!), but if we’ve chatted or followed or sent asks or shared the same space I absolutely and truly mean you. Thank you for making 2023 such a nice year and keeping me company and sane through a number of considerable ups and downs. 💖

Hope you had a great 2023, and looking forward to kicking off 2024 with you! 🎉

Lots of love,

- j💕

[bluetorchsky]

Birthday Thoughts

I just ramble about stuff since it's my birthday today. I'll put it under a read more but like, TL;DR: I want to keep growing and keep finding the bits and pieces of who I am, keep loving the person that I am, and be kinder to the person (me) who does and tries their best no matter what.

*blows party maker* Happy Birthday to me! I'm gonna be spending the day by myself, just going out and doing stuff. But it's gonna be a good one, I know it.

Another day, another year where my age ticks up another number. It's been one hell of a year since my last birthday and just, a lot of stuff has happened. Usually stuff happens but like...it definitely felt a lot more than usual. I just felt a lot of stuff, I did a lot of stuff in regards to work and school, even if I didn't finish school.

I don't really see myself going back to college or university at this point, just to take a course that might get me in a career that's not needed anymore. It's also been really stressful, and I think I'm just not ready to be back there. Which is totally fine, I need a break from it. Sometimes I do feel bad for not completing any of the courses in Animation, but it just didn't really click with me at all. The technically stuff stumped me, but doing character designs and what not (except layout) is what I liked doing better.

Still, I'm not about to throw more money just to take another course. At this point, I just want to take it day by day and try and enjoy the time I have. Even when I'm dealing with customers almost every day, I'm at least in a department where I don't always have to do that, heh.

I would love to learn more skills in art, but I also want to get back to writing. The last fic I did "You Are Here (You Are Love)", I really felt proud writing it. I want to do more, I want to be able to write stories and create images in the minds of the readers, that at some point they will feel like they are there, even for just one second. It's ambitious, but it really just comes down to wanting to improve on my writing.

Another day, another year where I turn a year older and feel like it's any other day in my life. But at least I know that I have changed in some ways, that I have improved in some aspects of my life, that there are people who do look to me not just for help but because I'm their friends, and even though I try to be more than myself, I love the person who I am now. I love that I am still learning more about myself. I love that I can find a piece of me either in my family or friends.

I know there are days when I put myself under so much pressure and stress, that I'm never kind to myself if something goes wrong or what I say doesn't happen. I am only human, I can only do what I can do that is in my control. So I'll keep being who I am and continue finding out who I am.

I think I've yapped a bit too much, haha. So much I want to say, but I can't always say all of it. I do want to say thank you to those who speak and interact with me as mutuals or as friends. You guys really do mean a lot to me, and I know I would not have been able to do what I do without y'all there with your support. You all really mean a lot to me, I love ya guys.

[revenantghost]

I know that Tristamp changed a lot of our lives for the better and led to many of us making new friends and creating and growing outside of our comfort zone, and it's so sweet to see Orange say the same thing. If you're up for it, here's the tweet if you want to reply with your own thanks and are in the mood for gushing like me lol. (If you don't have a Twitter account but want to share something, I'd be happy to share a screenshot of a comment for you!)

[serpentdaughter]

No matter what happens after this, whether they stay together (which I firmly believe) or this is it either for now or forever (which it won’t be), I’m am so eternally grateful. Grateful for this tour, this time we have shared together, the people I’ve met and for this band that has given me so much that I don’t think I could ever express it in words. 

So thank you everybody on this site that have made this such an amazing time and thank you My Chemical Romance for giving us so much life and joy and light even in all the darkness. And love! So much love it practically felt tangible. I can’t wait to see what the future holds and I can’t wait to experience it with everyone. My Chemical Romance forever and ever and ever. I love you all 💕

[bunnygirlskull]

I think one of the more tender thoughts ive thunk is that there is always gonna be someone who looks at you tenderly and wish they looked like you or had someone like you in their life. Like some one will always adore the way you are and all the -isms you have, even if its fleeting and they never see you again. Someone will remember the way your cheeks were when you were just talking to the person next to you, or how nice your hair was, or the way you wore your clothes or the warmth in your laughter. And people will also love the strange things you may do, or the ay youve stared off or the stutters in your voice or the odd twitches. I think people are really good at heart.

[larsnicklas]

2023-24 NHL SEASON SNAPSHOT MOMENTS ↪ TAMPA BAY LIGHTNING VS. DALLAS STARS

Tampa Bay's VICTOR HEDMAN is honored in a heartfelt ceremony prior to his 1000th game in the NHL. He becomes the first Lightning defenseman and only the third player overall to play 1000 games for the club. Tampa Bay would go on to win the game 4-0 in a dominant performance in front of a raucous home crowd. HEDMAN logged over 23 minutes of ice time in the victory and was +1 to end the night as his team snapped a four-game losing streak.

[neonparades]

my favorite thing is when people remember little details about me and sending me stuff based on these seemingly minute details that i off handedly mentioned one time

[yopossum]

The Arbor Day Foundation 2024 California Tree Survey is so fucking wistful

[themoonunderstoodmydadjokes]

✨Committed to being silly and frivolous and whimsical in a world that tries to steal every ounce of joy and happiness and magic from you✨

[shinysparklesapphires]

Z lulu xen and Edie I hope u guys know I consider y’all my online besties :3

@lowcallyfruity @angelhairpastawithherbs @xen-blank @edith-is-a-cat

[yumemiruuuu]

The Happiest of the New Years from me to everyone! I haven’t been in this fandom long, but I am so incredibly glad that I’ve discovered this series when I did. To be honest, when I first found the series as the donghua, I didn’t think I would get far with it because I’ve dropped MDZS so many times (I’m so sorry, I swear I’m trying 😭), but hohhh boy was I wrong.

2 days later and I was already on Season 2, which is when I started to listen to an audiobook version that was posted on Spotify. By the second week of December, I already had my hands on the first 3 volumes, with the 1st volume being completely read through by the 2nd day of being in my possession.

I am so grateful to my friend who got their hands on the volume 8 Special Edition for me for Christmas, which I read over the course of New Year’s Eve and at the crack of dawn on New Year’s Day.

Truly, I did not expect to fall head over heels for this series the way I did since I normally don’t read romance filled reads, but I guess the universe has it’s own ways of proving me wrong.

This series will forever have a special place in both my heart and mind; it has taught me so many different things and have helped me through the processing of so many difficulties that I’ve accumulated over the course of my life.

I remember trying so hard to not get frustrated and upset, and have told myself that I’m in the wrong for having these feelings. I’ve gone back and forth from being overly positive for no reason, to feeling bitter and angry for several days because it felt pointless to force myself to be positive when life just… didn’t seem fair to me. I felt like I didn’t know who I was, who I am, and who I’m meant to be. Why I’m here, what purpose I have, and where I even was.

But this series taught me that sometimes, it’s okay to let go. It’s okay to feel frustrated, and to feel upset. It’s okay to not worry. It’s okay to not dwell. You don’t have to be overly positive and friendly all the time. You don’t have to force yourself to be out there just because you want people to like you, and care for you. Life has its ups and downs but no downs are forever, just the same as how no ups are forever.

And quite frankly, this sounds cheesy, but after starting this series, I’ve felt so much better about myself, my outlook on life, and the way the universe has its own ways. Yeah, life sucks. But life also doesn’t suck all the time. So… as XieLian had said (or at least a reiteration because I don’t have the exact quote on me) why not think about the good food that I’ve had, rather than dwell on the complicated and negative stuff that happened in the past?

Again, happy new year to everyone. And I hope to see you all and interact one way or another somewhere down the line.

(Please enjoy my TGCF shrine that I’ve set up in my room right past the door)

[jorvikwildhorse]

happy bday star stable. i love this honse <3

[phoenix-flamed]

My New Years resolution, or one of them rather, is going to be to have more of a presence on this blog again, especially in terms of roleplaying/interacting with people. Because I love this muse to bits, and I love Elwin as a character to bits too! And I will never stop pulling a Maes Hughes with him by whipping out my wallet of pictures of him and being like HAVE YOU SEEN MY BLORBO???! (yes Vonny we have seen him, we have seen him so many times by now oh my god)

I really, genuinely love interacting with you all, seeing you on my Dash and getting to know your muses and headcanons and thoughts, and exploring different scenarios and building up relations and unique dynamics between our muses and just. It's such a pleasure.

All of that is to say... thank you guys. When I first made this blog after the demo dropped, I don't know what I was expecting from it or the little RP community that would eventually form -- but I'm so glad I did impulsively make it back then, and I'm even more glad that I've stuck around, because for all of the little bumps along the way, and for as much as life has been kicking my creativity's ass... I've had the pleasure of meeting so many wonderful, talented people through it.

Thank you for sharing your visions of these characters with not just me, but with all of us. Here's to a brighter future for everyone, both on here and offline, and to all of the new folks we'll meet once the PC port of the game is released!

[fckthtgetmoney]

my seats for seattle were nosebleeds but the electricity and excitement of the crowd for the closing night of the na leg of satvb was completely unmatched

I got to meet and hug @hollyfhumberstone (and allison who helps coco run @1975archives ) after almost a year of friendship - thank you to tumblr for bringing one of the kindest, gracious, and absolute sweetest people into my life, I can’t imagine my life without coco in it

After a decade of being in this fandom and community, it’s kinda scary to think that after the 2024 tour, we don’t know when the boys will be back, but what matters is that we’ll be waiting for them 🤍

[teabookgremlin]

recent(ish) joys/things that have made me feel good/things i love about having a solid friend group for the first time

- my roommate and i discussing what to wear to pride tomorrow (our city celebrates in september)

- running into the lake at night with my friends while “girls just wanna have fun” blasts from someone’s speaker

- my roommate telling me that he couldn’t get to sleep until he knew i got home from work (worked my first get out past midnight shift since we started living together)

- knowing exactly the stupid joke one of my friends was about to make in the middle of class (and it making me laugh anyway)

- some friends buying me ice cream bc i was having a rough few days

- a movie night with friends

- my roommate and i’s saturday morning routine of going to the farmers market together

- having silly little inside jokes and phrases

- my roommate and i agreeing to work really hard to preserve our friendship bc we want to stay friends after college

[semisolidmind]

methinks ill bring back that cute magic snowman and his lady for Christmas this year