to the poor (or otherwise financially unwell) person reading this, please don't beat yourself up about how you spend your money. especially if you're disabled or come from a not-well-off family.
it's not wrong to buy fast food if it means you eat. it's not wrong to make indulgent purchases if it means you're happy. it's not wrong to get things to make your life easier. it's not wrong to buy something to comfort you. it's not wrong to get new clothes, especially if what you have is old or doesnt fit well. etc. etc.
you're doing the best you can under an oppressive system (ie. capitalism). and odds are reducing your spending won't make you financially stable (which sucks but still). life is hard enough. don't make it harder by beating yourself up over something that ultimately is not your fault. it is not your fault.
anxiety abt the future SUCK because it’s tied to job anxiety, which is tied to financial anxiety, which is tied to housing anxiety, which is tied to social/relationship anxiety, which is…
I accepted my current job knowing it was temporary, that we'd be closed for renovations around/after the holidays. my boss, store owner who micromanages and doesn't really know wtf he wants, has yet to give us a closing date. we don't even know our holiday hours; this makes it very challenging to make any sort of plans or schedule appointments.
yesterday, i finally received the unemployment money i've been filling for since july. at least that paperwork is finally straightened out so if I become unemployed again in the near future, i (theoretically) can easily return to filing claims. i am grateful to receive this benefit but frustrated that 15wks of claims is approximately equivalent to 2wks of employment at my former job. on top of regular household bills, i have medication to pay for, and specialist appointments (RD, therapist, psychiatrist). I don't currently have a therapist, bc i've had a hard time finding one who will take me and struggle to justify $150ish/wk. i haven't seen a psychiatrist since mine left over the summer either; i finally have an appt w/ the replacement next week but that's gonna cost me over $200.
i also received word from my lawyer yesterday, we're moving forward w/ my case and i've been instructed to compile discovery documentation. any time i think about my case or the sitatuation, i am filled w/ so much rage and complex emotions. i need to find a way to collect this info w/o reviewing it in too much detail or spiraling out. maybe @theaeolianharpist can be a coworking buddy. or this new girl i'm sorta seeing (??!!)
i kind of want to email my old therapist to give her an update. idk if that's appropriate. but i don't really feel like i have any supports-i can't talk to my family about it and feel uncomfortable sharing w/ newish friend who don't really know me that well.
i have a couple of job interviews lined up for next week but not holding my breath. i think my family is visiting for xmas but still not sure. no one communicates effectively or takes initiative besides me.
/endrant. just lots of feelings of grief, loneliness, despair. thanks for reading.
I know I have financial trauma and anxiety, because I'm looking at a $9.99 e-book I want to buy, but in my head, I'm thinking, "You're spending too much! You'll regret making this purchase if you lose one of your jobs!"
Like, these are irrational thoughts because it's literally just $10.
does anyone know of like a budgeting app that might exist for grocery shopping? like i need something that i can make a list and it will show/compare the prices of that item of all the stores i shop at. there can just be such an extreme difference in prices of the same item at different stores and it’s frustrating
it's okay to spend money. it's okay if you have trouble saving. it's okay to buy things that make you happy. it's okay to buy things that improve your life. it's not your fault the world we live in is so incredibly expensive and inaccessible. all you can do is your best. please don't neglect yourself.
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my partner lost their job which means i might have to cover their portion of the bills this month... which means i won't have any money to celebrate valentines day OR my birthday.
i swear something happens every year around my birthday that messes it up. i'm never able to celebrate it the way i want. scheduling, budget, or i get sick.
it's such a small thing but it sucks to constantly be reminded how little control i have over my money
Ordering expensive things is somehow the worst feeling in the world, even if it's something I've been wanting a while (technically both my husband and I have been wanting it).
i love that i looked up wrist instability symptoms and checked off like 2/3 symptoms and my brain was like "well it's only 2/3 of like,,, 6/7 so im good" and will not look for treatment till im legit fucked......... we luv financial anxiety / knowing-i-wont-be-taken-seriously-by-doctors anxiety