#fractured psyche

[neko-bituin]

I’ve been given the opportunity to attend NASA’s Psyche Mission Launch and to document and share the experience with you all! I will be share more of my experience on my instagram story, but in the meantime here’s an informational about the mission taught by Heliodor and myself (Since the other rank 1’s haven’t made an entrance yet) :3

[heuldoch7b]

hmm. magnus musings. this is a bit dense and extremely fluffy information.

• he likes havings peircings/jewelry for the weight it adds, and the feeling when he moves (on top of the cultural normalcy of it). it helps him stay focused and confident, as its a reliable consistent stimulus. he consistently keeps an eyebrow ring, at least a single large peircing on each ear, and a snug set of bangles around his neck, horns, wrists, and ankles. he is fine with rings on his fingers, but they can be a bit overwhelming and arent as commonly seen in the primarch's casual days.

• he is a very gregarious individual (when hes not deep in focus on whatever hes studying at the time), and loves to actually physically touch the people hes socializing with! its normally just a firm touch on the arm or shoulder, or a hug after a conversation has finished. he became more withdrawn post-heresy, and instead you will see him wringing his hands together in one-on-one conversation, or other self-regulating fidgets...

• self-regulation, other than the many bits of jewelery he adorns himself with, falls a lot on his hair. he busies himself by wrapping the locks between his fingers, or combing his digits through a dense part of it. he also enjoys ponytails/hair wrappings, but has had issues of it being too tight in the past, and prefers to do his own hairstylings. you will also see him popping joints regularly, his shoulders and fingers being popular targets.

• the daemon primarch, while intensely more withdrawn, still yearns intensely for the open social atmosphere he grew up surrounded by. he lacks the ability (or the guts) to voice it, and has (embarassingly, he feels) grown meek from the loss and pain. if this is brought to attention, he will rebuke the claim and insist hes grown to be strong enough to leave companionship behind. this goes poorly for him, further isolating himself from potential interpersonal relationships he needs... wait, who said he needed friendship?! no, thats an inane mockery to everything he is, he alone got himself to this power!

• being splintered into many fractures has caused a plethora of issues for magnus' psyche. memory recall is one he can be seen becoming physically distressed when faced with it, clutching at his head frustratedly and avoiding conversation as a whole. ontop of all of the loss surrounding him, it seems his fracturing has even further buried him into depression and unrest. his mood ebbs and flows to the tune of manic conviction to abysmal uncertianty.

[pangolin-404]

budlet going on a noble quest to find a warm ray of sunshine to lay down in

[atopvisenyashill]

Can you tell us more about your female Joffrey/Cersei only has daughters au?

okay so i can’t remember if it was @chena-h or @shunnedmorlock bc both of them were talking about how cersei would lose her mind over this, but i DO think there’s a high chance cersei feels her daughter is the ymbq. i think she’d become terrified that her oldest is going to kill her two youngest and herself. i think jaime does not take her hostile turn towards their oldest seriously (the way he doesn’t take her hostility towards tyrion seriously literally until tyrion is on death’s row).

not concrete yet but i think i’ve decided on jocelyn, myrcella, and *coughs* lucinda or tyana for the names. i think cersei is clearly picking names that are westerlander And stormlander names as a dig at robert (we Don’t have any other myrcella’s so it’s hard to be sure but the westerlands love to throw a bunch of e’s and y’s in their names and the stormlanders love a three syllable (cassana, ravella, argella, cassandra, cyrenna, johanna, etc etc) so it feels like a safe assumption to make). Jocelyn is common enough while also stormlander associated, also it’s a J haha. I haven’t found a T name for a girl that crosses over both except tya lannister/tyana wylde, but i Do know there’s lucinda crossover, and the joke of like, tommen being named for a lannister king but being so young & sweet and unable to live up to that name vs lucinda being given the most old lady name imaginable is funny to me. wish we had more lannister queen names 😭

i think after daughter number three, jon arryn sits all three baratheon boys down and goes “one of you needs to have a fucking son, i just finally did it, now one of you needs to please for the love of the seven” and robert goes WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY. ARE THE LORDS CLAIMING THEY *WOULDNT* FOLLOW MY DAUGHTER? THEYRE GONNA PASS HER UP FOR WHOMST EXACTLY. A FUCKING PENROSE? THAT NEWBORN VELARYON? FOR THAT DRAGONSPAWN ACROSS THE SEA? I DONT THINK SO! and before jon can finish his sentence Robert is officially naming Jocelyn the heir to the iron throne TO BE QUEEN when he dies, and everyone who doesn’t like it can suck shit.

I think jon can talk robert into putting a little clause in there that says like “if i have a true born son, he’ll go before Jocelyn but if that time never comes, Jocelyn WILL succeed me as Queen of the Seven Kingdoms and the crown will pass to her first born son.” but robert is really serious about like,,,, regardless of if stannis or renly have a son, it’s ROBERT’S KID that comes next, not one of those two dweebs.

Tywin imo thinks Cersei Fucked Up Somehow. He’s not saying he won’t back Jocelyn, but he IS saying if Cersei had just had a boy, there wouldn’t be this problem. He's blaming this on Cersei and really mad because of course Genna wrote him a mean letter saying if Tywin refuses to acknowledge Tyrion as heir, there’s always Cersei and her girls and it pissed him off so much he sat in silence gaping at Kevan for three straight hours.

Tyrion "History Understander And Enjoyer" Lannister finds this hilarious. He literally cannot stop laughing at how absurd this all is.

Jocelyn…..okay so the way i see joffrey is joffrey is a kid just RULED by his first, base instinct. his instincts, his core emotions, tell him to love and trust both robert and cersei, and imo he twists himself into a MONSTER to try to appeal to both of them. no one else matters - not his siblings, not his uncle, not his grandfather, not the realm. he needs to be the sort of vicious person they could BOTH be proud of, he needs to be BETTER THAN THEM BOTH AT VIOLENCE, so he absorbs all of their faults and none of their virtues.

ANYWAYS, so this translating to a girl - who idolizes her violent father, loves & resents her manipulative and miserable mother, suspects but would NEVER say out loud the truth about her paternity, fucking HATES all of her uncles - imo means she’s got a reputation for being unpleasant & hypercritical, can’t hold onto a lady or a maid because she straight up slaps them when they fuck up, sexually humiliates the court fool (hashtag serving saera realness), like i think she is known for being Gorgeous And Difficult. i’m trying to think of a comparison. A mean girl but not nearly as charming because under all that vileness is a sullen little shithead who can and will throw a tantrum to get her way. Regina George but significantly more pathetic. Cordelia Chase without the heart. All the popularity of Quinn Fabray all the pathetic hysterics of Rachel Berry none of the intelligence of either girl.

Robert does Not enjoy her for a long time, same as canon. She looks exactly like Cersei, she’s catty and mean to everyone around her like Cersei, and while she quickly dropped the habit, she had a worrying violent streak as a little girl that Robert misliked so much he nearly beat her to death over it. It wasn’t cute and outdoorsy like Lyanna, it was the exact same cat killing shit. Cersei really loves and gets along with her in the beginning. She’s not the sweet perfect daughter Myrcella is, but she’s a mini Cersei, and Cersei loves having An Ally Against Robert.

THEN. She’s named heir and this dynamic completely flips. Cersei becomes distant, paranoid, essentially treating her like she does Sansa, with a sort of threatening affection, and Robert doesn’t become a doting father overnight but he DOES expand her education, and let her be Jon Arryn’s cupbearer, and drunkenly rants to her about his battle days. Cersei becomes determined to have a son.

HOWEVER. When her sadistic streak doesn’t go away by like 10, I do think Robert flips on her again. He has no fucking intention of unnaming her, especially because he hasn’t had another son, but I think a girl with a hard time controlling her temper would stand out in a worse way, and Robert would worry if she’s TOO much like her mother, especially when he can’t get her to hold onto a lady to give her another influence. the thing is, now that cersei is convinced jocelyn is going to destroy her, she doesn’t have another parent to run to. does she cling harder to robert, turn to someone else? if sandor is still her personal guard, i mean jesus fucking christ how is THAT going.

Been going back and forth on if this means Stannis brings Shireen to court. That Robert & Jon, hoping to straighten Jocelyn out, would try to give her a companion in sweet Shireen.

I’ve also been debating like,,, who Robert would betroth her to once Jon Arryn is killed (because Petyr & Lysa are still doing their thing, so even regardless of if, maybe, Stannis tries slightly harder to have a son, and winds up having another kid, or Cersei & Jaime have yet another daughter even after their third, Jon Arryn will still die and there’s no one else Robert would trust as Hand than Ned. Altho what i AM debating is whether this speeds the plot up a bit more by Robert asking for a betrothal AND a lady’s companion early? Because I think Jocelyn becomes a problem Jon wants to unseat much quicker, so he and Stannis wind up suspecting something is up with her a little quicker?? idk i’m still thinking it out). BUT ANYWAYS. Because Robb is three years older, and Bran is four years younger, and i’m kind of assuming they’d do a Myriah thing instead of a Laenor thing bc Robb has two younger brothers? So Robb would no longer inherit Winterfell, Bran would? Would they WANT a husband four years younger rather than three years older?

anyways that’s like, my characterization. i’m really getting into the weeds with this one because i kind of love it. there’s two like, forks in the road i think i could go here and i’ve been debating between them -

I’m just unsure if Jon doesn’t stumble on the incest earlier. It might not be TOO much earlier, i mean joffrey is only 12 when jon dies but a year? two years? especially if cersei has another blond haired green eyed daughter. if he can genuinely put the pieces together faster, before he starts talking about sending sweetrobin away, that’s a big change. but if he figures it out faster AND is also like “hey can i send sweetrobin to your place i know he’s like five but things are gonna get dicey here and also i want to get him away from lysa” that means agot still essentially happens (the catalyst of it) just earlier.

on the other hand, does robert approach ned about a betrothal earlier because of the inheritance issue with robb? does BRAN grow up heir to winterfell and robb with the knowledge he may one day be king consort of westeros? which also leads me to how robert would approach this - would he take the excuse to visit Ned to ask for this so they can hammer out the details? does robert just fully give up on the idea of having a son at some point, and THATS when he asks Ned, completely independently of whatever scheming Jon Arryn is doing?

so there’s one au where lysa still offs jon arryn, and agot plays out but with robert asking for robb, sansa, and arya to come south with ned bc robb is gonna marry jocelyn.

and then of course there’s another branch where jon exposes the incest earlier and…would varys try to off him? would lf take the opportunity to sow some chaos be ensuring the lannisters stay in power? the moment robert knows, he’s storming cersei’s rooms to murder them all, but if cersei finds out beforehand, she and jaime are going to REACT.

[age-of-moonknight]

“What If…Venom Had Bonded To Loki?” What If…? Venom (Vol. 1/2024), #4.

Writer: Jeremy Holt; Penciler and Inker: Diógenes Neves; Colorist: Ceci de la Cruz; Letterer: Ariana Maher

[micamicster]

Spent all of lunch talking about how ted lasso doesn’t get enough milage out of its football premise so petition for a b-plot in season 3 where Jamie gets nutmegged and he absolutely can’t handle it

[jademight]

Happy birthday to the best Hulk adaption <3

[dandorkity]

Butchie stole my spot while I was peeing. Guess I can't work anymore ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[eclipsecrowned]

also please always remember the man does not think there is anything wrong with his mental health!

whatever happened in his mysterious backstory that led to his need to inflict fear and exert control over the populace is not reliving his trauma from the position of abuser rather than victim. and if it was, how could you know that? no one in this city even knows who he was before he stepped off that bus.

he is not delusional to his own eyes, clawing at a sense of order that from beyond his purview is pure panicked chaos. what’s normal to the spider is chaos to the fly. he can’t be judged by something so gossamer thin as subjectivity.

he is not obsessive, compulsive, needlessly violent, in his pursuit of ‘study,’ his thinking is perfectly ordered and logical. he is a man of rationality and the scientific method, after all. if a few people must die in his pursuit of truth, well, build them a pretty memorial when it’s all done. human testing is always so messy.

his belief that he is returned to the asylum time and time again is simply a sign of his peers in the former psych department wanting to victimize him. they are jealous of him. they hate him. they want to break him, hurt him, but they can’t.

[a-shrieking-cloud-of-bats]

just chiming in to say that yes apparently tumblr is harvesting a fuckton of data with tumblr live and this is a universal social media thing

so like if you want to use non mastodon social media you’re fucked in any case

tumblr is not uniquely terrible in this sense

okay actually taking my sabbatical

[brucenorris007]

“You don’t have another guy to wrestle with for ten years!”

“Cool.” Jenn said with a shrug; she smirked, striding for the stairs and feeling eager to take her greenness for a test run without moving walls and sawblades.

Right up until she realized her cousin wasn’t following her. She glanced back and found Bruce’s gaze a thousand miles away, his jaw still hanging agape.

“C’mon,” she cajoled, trying to get him out of his own oversized head. “I need fresh air after you tried to vivisect me.”

He didn’t move. Jenn frowned; on a second look, he seemed borderline... distressed? Confused? 

“Doc?” She prompted again. 

His head turned toward her voice, but his eyes were still unfocused, like he’d only reacted to the sound instead of actually responding. 

“Bruce?” She asked, sharpening her tone a little.

“Huh?” He blinked, coming back to the present at last. He shook his head. “Uh, right, let’s... let’s head upstairs.”

He powerwalked by her without commenting on whatever had just driven him to distraction. Jenn watched him go, hand on her hip and eyebrow cocked.

“You’re paying for that, by the way!”

She shook her head; he’d probably figure it out.

[separatismor]

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[lomloml]

i feel like a lot of people don’t realize that when you have someone fuck you over in a very public and traumatic and long way, it impacts you so deeply that it becomes a part of you. every single time you encounter a new hardship, that trauma reappears and you’re forced to relive that experience on top of whatever hell you’re actually going through. it gets better over time but it never just goes away. it rewrites core aspects of your personality and worldview. you can’t just get over it because it is literally intertwined into your cells; removing that experience would kill you bc from now on there is no you without it. and people do get sick of hearing over and over how much it still impacts you and that just makes you feel crazy too bc you know you should be over it but it ruined your life and it killed you. you don’t get to be who you were supposed to be and you have to live instead as this person that you sometimes hate and despise but it’s all you have so how the fuck are you not supposed to remember it all the time. it’s unfair to ask someone to not discuss a personal trauma that they’re still reliving just bc you think it’s old news and you moved on before the issue even concluded.

anyway i don’t think thanK you aIMee is actually about kim, but i also think if taylor releases a thirty track album in ten years about how much she still hates everyone who fucked her over during that period that it would not only be justified but also a totally normal reaction to what she’s been through

[blackgxatcultist]

Smelling a bit of of alcohol, Faust appears to be attempting to summon a creature! What possibly could a drunken cleric to Shub-Niggurath be summoning is anyone's guess, but perhaps the slurred speech might actually be helping him in this case?

[uh-ohspaghettio]

Season 1: Daddy issues

Season 2: Daddy issues 2: electric boogaloo

Season 3: quirky lil psychic boy things

Season 4: gay angel?

Season 5: ultimate meatsuit™️

Season 6: oh no the gay angel’s psyche is fracturing

Season 7: Dicks

Season 8: live laugh love lobotomy

Season 9: but ultimately it was just for one man

Season 10: toxic bromance

Season 11: they hate to see a girlboss winning

Season 12: pro-abortions

Season 13: beefing with a baby (in grey scale)

Season 14: coming out my cage and I’ve been doing not fine

Season 15: family bonding time! let’s fight God!

[classic-toxic-medicine]

00c

would be fucked up if Jim was involved in a certain project and has experienced horrors from it