#gen.talks

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the way dream says "you need not have come to my defense" will not stop replaying in my head like.. the slight shake of the head, the looking down and then piercingly meeting hob's gaze, the beginnings of a smile playing at his lips.. i mean sure he didn't NEED to come to your defense but my guy you clearly ENJOYED IT

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why is no one talking about "you bucked that up didn't you" howard howie chimney han funniest man alive

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hi i have another spec ramble, what if. at the wedding reception. after everything is resolved and chimney's safe and they've said their vows and everyone's having fun. buck and tommy are dancing. some popular 80's dance song is playing, it's super fun and lighthearted and they're jumping and singing along and smiling like crazy and they can't take their eyes off each other. everyone's on the dancefloor, finally putting their worries aside for a while and just having fun! it's a great time! eddie tho, is watching from the sidelines. he's just broken up with marisol, but he's ok with it. he's having a drink, looking over the room, and his eyes find buck, all giggles and incoherent singing and tommy's nose pressed to his cheek. eddie smiles at first, happy for his friends. then almost immediately he feels something.. wrong. a churn in his stomach, a knot in his throat. his smile drops, weirded out by his own involuntary reaction. what the fuck diaz. jealousy? resentment? god (or whoever) forbid, disgust? no. god no that's not it. that's not who he is. you know, he probably just feels left out. everyone has a date while he just broke up with his, it's fine. those are his friends, and he's happy for them. end of story.

except he looks at bobby and athea. at hen and karen. at chimney and maddie. and he feels nothing. nothing but joy at seeing them all happy and in love.

but he looks at buck and tommy, and tommy kisses buck's cheek, and there it is again. his chest tightens and he looks away and his hand starts squeezing the glass out of its own accord, so hard he's afraid he'll break it so he puts it down.

eddie leaves the reception bit earlier than everyone else.

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why the focus on "you know how you meet someone and you just click"/"i do. i really do" and the absolutely destroyed expression on buck's face. why the worry about tommy's quick impression on christopher as if tommy could possibly be taking his place in the diaz family. why show off weightlifting. why upset that he couldn't be the one to take eddie to the hospital. why "i was pissed seeing him and tommy being such good friends after two weeks, i felt left out and i was trying to get his (eddie's) attention" (because why would bodyslamming eddie get anyone else's attention?). why. why why why any of that if it was actually about tommy??? because it wasn't!!!!! buck!!

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ARE THEY headed to each other in this scene. Is this their reunion. in the middle of a battlefield. Is Stede plowing through the fight on his merry heroic way to reunite with his love while Ed is on a warpath of revenge and then they meet. In the middle. is stede gonna go in for a hug/kiss and ed for the kill. Is it gonna be this

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he's an ALLY you guys. even fist bumps to prove it

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about the callback in 7x01 to eddie's panic attacks and how he used the jell-o technique to relax himself. what if when buck tells him he's dating tommy, eddie's super chill. he's calm, collected, rational, the perfect supportive best friend listening to buck and making him validated and appreciated. and what if the second he walks away, is out of view, on the other side of the door, his heart starts palpitating. his breaths cut short. it's not a full-on panic attack, he knows how to mitigate those now. jell-o technique. but he still has to stop walking for a second and brace himself against the wall with a hand to his chest and take a few deep breaths. he's ok but.. why? why did that happen? why did he get a physical, anxious reaction at the thought of buck dating another man? and why does it feel practically the same as how he felt at the thought of dating a woman (ana) long-term......

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yeah yeah "you don't know me" is about unrequited love towards a close friend but have we considered. it might not be from buck's pov... but eddie's.....

i'm afraid and shy i let my chance go by????? i watch you walk away beside the lucky guy??? this could be eddie's thought process watching the bucktommy date y'all.......

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anyone else think about the irony of aziraphale using the alias "fell" when crowley's the one that fell..... and az has always been afraid to...........

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casting directors took one look at jay lycurgo and said ok we'll take him. now get a boy for him to kiss

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never thought i'd say this. my stepfather just died of a heart attack. he was my family's main provider. it's now my mom and i (a college student with a part-time) providing for both of us, my little brother, and two dogs. we're ok for now, our family is helping as much as they can, but it's looking rough ahead. i've set up a kofi. if i've ever created something you've enjoyed (fic, amv, etc), please consider helping me out or at least sharing. any bit of support is appreciated to help us keep our lives on track. thank you.

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TUMBLR FRIENDS. YOU ALSO GET TO SEE HIM

HIS NAME IS APOLO WE BROUGHT HIM HOME TWO DAYS AGO AND HE IS!! THE GOODEST!!!!

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911 moots i cant watch the ep for a few more hours so no spoilers. we good? we happy?

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honestly i feel like how i felt between 15x18 and 15x19 but with a smidge more hope and slightly lower expectations

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first time a flight i'm on gets delayed and it's by six. Fuckin. Hours.

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a manipulator