#geza x

[gotankgo]

1985

[mitjalovse]

Some female singers-songwriters from the 90's ended up having a bitter-sweet recall for their work then, i.e. they achieved their biggest success and that was all there was. Meredith Brooks was one such case despite the fact she had more to offer than many assumed at the time. Then again, her example causes us to ask ourselves an important question – how come some musicians manage to get a career out of their hits, whereas some ended up with them as the biggest hurdle? No one can answer that completely, the record labels attempt to do so, yet they merely destroyed many players this way. To return to Brooks – she was a peculiar example thanks to her achieving her success so late and the ageism in the music industry remains present. Then again, she also sounded way too similar to many.

[aayakashii]

routine

Pairing: Kagami Subaru x MC/reader

Tags: SFW. Character analysis, a bit of angst, hurt x comfort (I think), fluff and romance between you and Subaru, over 6k words

Author's note: this is probably the biggest fic I've written lol and I'm kinda proud of how it came out, since it also took me some days to fully flesh it out. I'd appreciate comments if you liked the fic! Comments literally keep every writers alive. Anyways, hope you enjoy!

Kabuki Glossary:

Biwa: Japanese short-necked wooden flute traditionally used in narrative storytelling

Geza: the music that plays during kabuki, performed live

Hanamichi: flower path; a long, raised platform, running left or center to the stage through the audience, connecting to the main stage, used to make dramatic entrances and exits

Mie pose: a powerful and emotional pose struck by an actor

Onnagata: actor who acts the role of a young woman 

Sewamono:  a genre of contemporary setting plays in Japanese traditional theatre

Shamisen: three-stringed traditional Japanese musical instrument

Tachiyaku: young adult male roles, the actors who play those roles; most commonly these are hero roles, though not all of them

Takemoto: a specific type of song, it is also the narration device used during a kabuki play. It consists of a chanter/narrator (tayu) and the shamisen players

Subaru had become used to it.

You would come to visit him right after your classes, if you weren’t assigned a mission, and Subaru would welcome you with tea and some obscure sweet he managed to get, just to let you try it. You two would talk, and you would share stories about your friends in the Academy, how your life was before you became cursed, and he would tell his own stories, even if he thought they weren’t nearly as interesting as yours.

It gave him a sense of belonging.

Subaru hadn't had much experience with friendships or any interpersonal relationship at all.

His life was merely the background for his career as an actor. His bare skin was merely the foundational bricks for the red and white makeup that would adorn him once he was out on the stage.

When he was under the spotlight, his monotone voice resounded loudly – louder than the drums, louder than the shamisen, louder than the biwa. Subaru became gigantic under his costume. His movements were sharp and hypnotic, the flow of his kimono as he walked down the hanamichi and the pierce of his gaze turned all heads towards him. He was a genius, a talent like no other, the future of the kabuki theater.

And he did not see himself in any of it.

Here lies the true tragedy of a burned out genius child: to go under insurmountable levels of pressure, only to find that the dreams of your parents were never your own.

Subaru did not want to be under the spotlight, no matter how much the spotlight wanted him and no matter how much others wanted him to be under it.

As he was forced to keep walking the flower path, his chances of living life as a normal kid were gone: he had no friends, no acquaintances, nothing that helped him find out who he was for himself.

So, he had no experience.

But he knew that he could pick out the feeling of belonging somewhere after spending time with you.

Eagerly, he waited for the clock to reach 5PM everyday, knowing that you would come through his door to spend time with him.

Routine was always something he appreciated, anxious as he was. He didn't like surprises, he wanted things to be predictable, to give him even the slightest sense of control over his new life as a student.

Therefore, to know that you would come to visit everyday, at the exact same time, was his comfort – even if the thought of you made his heart skip a beat, although he didn't quite understand why.

Not even standing behind the greatest stages made his heart drum loudly after a while. As the green, red and brown curtains of the stage were pulled, his body went on automatic. The takemoto went through his ears, unnoticed, and the geza became white noise. He moved gracefully, although his mind flew into other planes. As the audience clapped enthusiastically as he stood in his mie pose, Subaru wished he was somewhere else. He felt extremely guilty for not being able to appreciate the hard work of the musicians and the actors, but after he figured out that the passion he thought he had was merely a reflection of his parents’ passion, everything became black, white and gray.

Yet, planning fancy snacks for you made his hands clammy and his heart restless – and it wasn't the most comfortable feeling, however, he didn't hate it. He knew you'd come through with the routine and wash his anxieties away.

However, much to his dismay, his comfort had been ripped off of him for the past three days. His precious routine had been broken and Subaru would be lying if he said he wasn't counting the hours, the minutes and the seconds until it was restored, somehow.

He just had no idea how to fix it.

You had been fiercely avoiding him for three days, ever since the last meeting was cut short, and he blamed himself for hurting you in the worst way he could have ever done it.

Subaru has always had awful self-esteem.

No matter the compliments about his genius, none of them stuck to him. When you despise what you do, being good at it just brings forth more bitterness towards oneself.

Subaru was a rarity in the kabuki world – someone who could represent a captivating tachiyaku or the most elegant onnagata. He could be the hero or the princess, something that most actors could not do. To don the costumes of two genders was the cause of endless praise and awe from the audience and members of his acting house alike – none of which he accepted.

To him, his talent came as second nature. There was no need to hone his skills – they were already there, much like an additional organ he was born with – and he loathed that fact. He loathed how this pushed him towards a world in which he didn't want to participate. 

He truly valued the hard work he was now putting into his studies, something he was creating with his own hands. He could see his own growth and pat himself on the back for it – even if he still had a hard time accepting compliments (he knew the only reason he was the captain of Hotarubi was due to his status, after all. He was just a figurehead).

Subaru’s stigma was an even bigger burden towards his path of bettering himself. 

If he hated being an actor, he hated himself even more for his powers. Much like his talent, he did not ask to be bestowed with such a repugnant stigma. It was the reason why his parents would never touch him, never hold him. He was a walking breach of privacy, a dangerous little thing that could easily become a weapon, if the truth of his stigma was found out. He was untouchable in every way, figuratively and literally.

He truly couldn't understand how Lyca, Zenji, Haku and you were so quick to accept his ugliness. 

“You aren’t disgusting, something like this could never be your fault”, you had said, when he wallowed in self-pity after revealing his secret. But to step out of his cycle of self-hatred was a tough task.

Your visits helped, however. For the first time in his young life, someone saw him as himself and stayed. 

Haku and Zenji were his true friends, but they still saw him through the lens of that one genius kabuki actor. And Lyca… he was alone and desperate.

You, however, had the ghouls of Darkwick Academy wrapped in your little finger and, still, you chose him. Despite his social awkwardness, his anxieties, his anger, his stigma. You chose him whenever it was time to get lunch, when you could be resting, when you could have anyone else. The thought of it made his heart skip a beat again. He was sensing a slight pattern.

Yet, it had been three days, and you were gone. No messages, no visits, no news.

He understood your avoidance despite it all. He had committed the worst sin he could have done to his dearest friend.

He had touched you.

You had come to Hotarubi at your usual time, 5PM, sharp. Your hair was disheveled and a few droplets of water stained the tatami of the tea room as they fell from your face and hands, while you hurriedly took off your shoes.

“I’m so sorry for making a mess, Subaru! I had to run here to arrive on time and ended up forgetting my umbrella… I had to walk under every cover I could find, but I still ended up being sprayed by the rain.” you said, as you stood at the entrance, shaking your body as if you were trying to get rid of the excess water.

Subaru shot up from his spot, his face contorted in worry.

“Oh no, please don’t do that!” he said, as he ran to quickly rummage through the drawers of the room for towels “You always have to use an umbrella when you come to Hotarubi, what if you get a cold?”

You grabbed the towel he gave you, smiling awkwardly.

“I know, I know. I just didn’t want to arrive late. I didn’t want you to get anxious.”

Subaru blinked, face blank, as he was caught off guard by your answer.

“You… you don’t need to worry about me. I’m not that anxious.” 

You laughed, and he felt his breath hitch on his throat.

“Suuure, and I don’t breathe oxygen…” you said jokingly, hanging the towel on a nearby hanger after you finished patting your face and arms dry, giggling as you noticed the way he was pouting slightly. “I’m just playing with you! I’m sorry.”

“No no, I’m sorry about worrying you to the point of you having to hurry…”

You rolled your eyes and raised your hands to put them on his shoulder, quickly stopping yourself before you could actually touch him, resting them on your hips instead.

“Subaru. You don’t have to apologize for something like that. I am doing this because I care about your well-being. You're my friend and I want you to be okay. It’s not something to feel apologetic for. Instead, you can just thank me for being a great friend.” you winked and he immediately looked away from your face, that was too bright for him to stare at.

“O… okay… Thank you.” Subaru murmured, forcing himself to look at you again, from under his lashes, a small smile adorning his features.

“You’re very welcome.” you nodded “Now let’s drink some tea please, I do need something hot to warm myself!”

“That’s true, let’s get you warm so you won’t get a cold, please.”

Soon, time slowed down as you two sat and chatted about everything and nothing at all. You talked about how weird Darkwick's shopkeeper is, how awfully crowded the dining hall is (Subaru avoided it like the plague), how scary Professor Hyde can be sometimes, how loud Kaito and Luca are, how cute are the little cats running around all day…

How funny it is that you two always met for lunch in a place where only romantic couples hung out, you mentioned in passing, almost mumbling to yourself like you didn’t want to be heard.

“Does it make you uncomfortable?” Subaru asked, already looking apologetic, hearing you despite your low voice.

“No, no” you were quick to dismiss his concern “It’s, um, I don’t know... Doesn’t it make you a little nervous?” you said, laughing sheepishly, a foreign blush warming the tips of your ears, which went unnoticed by him.

“You get nervous when we’re there? We can eat somewhere else, you don't have to stay in a place you dislike just to appease me…” Subaru muttered, frowning “I’m so sorry I didn’t notice that it was making you uncomfortable…”

“No, no, no” you shook your head vigorously “That’s not what I meant at all! I… I don’t think I can explain it to you just yet. I don’t think I’m… ready, or… whatever, I don’t know…” you trailed off, incoherently.

“Ready? I’m sorry, I don't understand.”

“It’s okay” you flashed him a smile and grabbed one of the kimono catalogs that were littering his table, fidgeting with it, mindlessly “Don’t worry about it. Let’s just keep eating there, okay? Promise we’ll keep eating there?”

“But I want to understand what you mean- oh!” Subaru cut himself off as he saw a thick sheet of paper cut your thumb while you flipped it anxiously “Your thumb…”

You looked at the small cut that was letting out a single droplet of blood and shrugged.

“Oh, I didn’t even notice… it’s okay, I’ll put a bandaid over it later. Wait, Subaru? Wait… wait, no!”

The boy didn’t quite register his own movements, as his hand went to grab your bleeding one, gently grasping your pulse with his soft fingers, running his own thumb over your cut, as if his touch could heal you faster. 

His hands were bare.

You inhaled sharply and, instantly, it all flashed into his mind in quick succession. Like a large wave overwhelming an inexperienced swimmer, he was pushed down into the deep waters of those memories, causing him to gasp, breathless.

Subaru was swarmed by visions of himself in every possible situation. He saw how your gaze followed him when you spotted him from a distance in the campus; how you searched for him in the crowd of students during lunch time, on the tranquil balcony in which you two have shared your food together plenty of times before; and how you turned your head around whenever you heard someone mention his name in passing.

He had glimpses of the way his hands moved while making tea; his profile as he smiled gently when he tried explaining your homework to you; and his own eyes softening as he talked about Lyca. In your eyes, he looked magical. Ethereal, even. Someone who deserved to be admired, loved, praised and he knew these were your own emotions being whispered so subtly to him.

Subaru saw himself in a way the mirror had never reflected back to him. He discovered parts of his being that he wasn't able to find out for himself, because they would only come to the surface when he was with you.

In his mind's eye, right then, Subaru laughed, loud and breathless, as he clutched his stomach – all the restraint he built through his lifetime, gone through the window, after you had merely told him some silly joke. The way he brightened with your words, making your heart beat in a terrifying, yet delightful way, made your breath catch on your throat.

And much like a dying man seeing his whole life flash through his eyes, he arrived back to the present and saw himself, staring wide-eyed at his own hand tightly gripping yours.

He blinked, and his consciousness came back to him.

Subaru, like usual, felt incredibly weak after using his stigma, yet he still quickly turned his gaze towards you, eyes wide and mouth opening and closing like a fish, unable to say a word.

Your face was beet red and your eyes were blankly staring at your own lap, lips pursed into a thin line and eyebrows furrowed. Your free hand was clenched into a fist, knuckles pale with the force in which you dug your own nails into your palm.

“I…” Subaru murmured, trying his best to weave a coherent thought.

You got up quickly, breaking the hold Subaru had onto your arm, and grabbed your things in a hurry.

“I think- I think I should go.” your voice cracked and you cleared your throat harshly “Thank you so much for the snacks and tea, they were delicious like always” you blurted out, quickly making your way to his door.

“Wait, no, I- I'm sorry, I-” Subaru held his hand out, as if he tried to reach you but you were too far away, oceans of distance between you two.

“There's nothing to apologize for!” You said, way too cheerfully for him to believe you “I just gotta go now. I have… I gotta go. Yeah. See you soon, Subaru.” you stepped out into the rain and soon disappeared into the mist that surrounded Hotarubi, not waiting for whatever he tried to say.

Subaru stared at his own hands. The little droplet of your blood stained his fingertip, and he took a deep, shaky breath.

He had betrayed you. He had seen your innermost memories without your consent and now you were mad at him. He had to apologize. He had to beg for your forgiveness, until you took pity on him and allowed him to be your friend once again. 

Falling into a deeper pit of self-hatred was hard, but he tried to keep it together, for you. He needed to be lucid in order to beg for your pardon once you came back to visit him. He just hoped it would be soon.

But you did not see him soon at all.

“I don't think they're mad at you for seeing their memories, it’s not really like them. But maybe they're embarrassed?” Haku pondered, taking a bite of the mochi Subaru had set out for you out of pure habit.

“No” he shook his head, adamant “They wouldn't simply disappear if it was just that. I don’t believe that. I have done something that made them angry at me. I saw something I definitely shouldn't have seen.”

It was the fifth day of you avoiding Subaru and he was hanging on by the thinnest thread. He was so close to snapping that it was becoming clear to the other Hotarubi students. And so, Haku and Zenji came to intervene.

“Well... I can't really give you my proper opinion if I don't know what you saw.” Haku said bluntly, making Subaru flinch.

“I can't tell you. I would be breaching their trust again. That’s the last thing I need to do right now.”

“You are absolutely correct, my dear friend!” Zenji remarked “However, we can’t possibly figure out the true essence of your situation if you can't tell us the whole entire story! How can we write an ending without knowing the beginning and the middle of the plot?”

“I don’t know…” Subaru murmured, looking more miserable with each second.

Haku sighed loudly, shifting his legs on the seat.

“Subaru. We don't want to gossip. We just want to know the situation better. We are their friends as well, you know?” he smirked “We can help you figure out their emotions. If anything, you might feel better after venting. How’s that phrase? A burden shared…”

“Is a burden halved!” Zenji finished, boisterously.

A pang resounded in Subaru's heart at how his friends were doing their best to help him.

“O…okay. I'll tell you”

After finishing recounting the last day he saw you, Subaru sighed loudly.

“Well?”

After a moment of silence, Zenji exclaimed loudly, startling the other two.

“Oh!! The spring begins!!” he yelled, one hand on his chest as the other went up in the air “How lovely it is to see young buds bloom into perfect flowers!!”

Haku slowly nodded at Zenji’s words and chuckled, rubbing his own face in disbelief while he noticed how absolutely perplexed and confused Subaru still was.

“I see now…”

“What?” the brown-haired boy fidgeted, almost desperate to grab Haku and Zenji and shake them by their shoulders “What's going on?”

The other boys looked at each other, before turning back to him. 

“Subaru, I don’t want to beat around the bush so I’m just gonna say it straight away. They're like… very much in love with you.”

He blinked slowly, as if the words were entering his brain at a snail’s pace.

“What?” was all he managed to utter.

“Yes, my friend! Our lovely flower seems to be completely smitten by you!”

“No” Subaru shook his head “That can't be. It doesn’t make any sense.”

“Man, if there’s one thing that makes sense in the world, is what we’re telling you right now” Haku said, while laughing “Specially after everything you said you saw. You just… saw their feelings when they weren't ready to tell you yet, so I bet it feels embarrassing. It's probably eating them alive right now. That’s why they’re not visiting.”

Subaru stared at his own lap, his mind not properly processing the depth of the situation – the word “Love” bouncing in his brain like a lost temari.

“Then…” he whispered, throat hoarse “What should I do now?”

“What do you feel for our little flower, my friend? Do you correspond to their feelings? Do you love them back?” Zenji worded gently, as if he was talking to a scared wild animal.

“Do I love them back…” 

Haku nudged Zenji, motioning for both of them to get up and leave Subaru for the moment.

“Figure that out first. If you do, go after them and tell them you correspond to their feelings. If not, just let them deal with it on their own. Also, if you don’t like them back, don’t ask for them to come visit you again like nothing ever happened. You’d just be rubbing salt on their wounds.”

“How do I figure that out though?” Subaru looked up at the two men as they leisurely walked outside of his room, eyes already brimming with tears.

“You're a smart guy. You'll figure that out by yourself.” Haku winked at him and both him and Zenji slipped away, leaving Subaru at a loss.

Subaru did his due diligence the only way he knew how: by studying. He started reading romance mangas and watching romance movies. It was the type of media his family would never approve of, as they deemed it unworthy of someone refined like him.

Still, despite him thinking that that “forbidden knowledge” would give him all the answers, it still led him nowhere.

He wasn’t like any male lead from these works. He could never run after someone in an airport and yell their name, begging them to stay and forgo all of their life plans. Subaru wasn’t like that. He couldn't run, couldn't yell and could never see himself as more important than anything.

His self-esteem wasn’t nearly as good as what was necessary for him to feel even the slightest kinship towards the strong, bold male leads, who always had something impressive to show – something that made them who they are, even if they had failures in their personalities.

Subaru could say he had his career as a Kabuki actor as something impressive, but again, it wasn’t him. Kabuki was a part of him, yes, but he wanted to shed it like a cocoon.

Despite that, he thought, then, of all the romantic plays he had performed.

He remembered the pain of most love stories, the tragic end of most sewamono plays he performed and he felt the thorns of grief strangle his chest, tightly.

He remembered the star crossed lovers who could never be together, the man who was promised to someone else and couldn’t be with his beloved, and the woman who had her life binded to a place that would never let her be with the one she desired the most.

All of them, lovers who could never be together, so they chose to erase their own light, because being without one another was more painful than dying together.

Subaru thought about not having you in his life for a moment and he figured: maybe not having you was its own type of death. A life without his most beloved friend felt like an empty one. A loveless one.

He paused.

Love. He thought of this word so candidly, it came to his mind without conscious thought – like it was second nature, like it was the obvious conclusion. And so, he decided to allow his thoughts to flow naturally, without pressure or expectations for once.

He thought of the way he searched for your gaze whenever you two were in public, seeking your comfort and approval. 

His heart skipped a beat whenever he glanced at you and you found his eyes, smiling silently at him, as if you two had a secret inside joke. 

His chest swelled with pride whenever you agreed with him (it didn’t matter the subject) and he almost felt like he could burst with it whenever you thanked him for his help studying, or when you praised him, or when you giggled at something he said.

Subaru cared for your tastes and opinions, always asking for your favorite foods, flowers, scents and colors. He made sure to smother you in your favorite things, in order to keep you more comfortable – in order to keep you with him just a little longer everyday.

His thoughts wandered over to you at any given moment and he didn't even notice. He'd question himself whether you'd like something, which sweets he could order for you, which teas he could brew.

Without noticing, he based his life around you and it felt absolutely right when he did that. It felt like belonging somewhere.

Subaru inhaled sharply.

The place in which he belongs is wherever you are, he figured.

Subaru hastily got up and bolted out of his room, out of Hotarubi and into Darkwick's campus, where the rain was pouring heavily, accumulating around the lamp posts and pitter-pattering loudly on the asphalt. His clothes were drenched in mere seconds.

He had forgotten his umbrella.

Subaru banged as loud as he could on the door of the rundown cathedral, trying to blink away the raindrops that stuck to his eyelashes and blurred his vision. He could barely see through the heavy rain anyway, so he missed the lights on the windows flickering on and your shadow hurriedly descending the stairs to walk towards the tall doors.

“Subaru?!” you yelled through the sounds of the storm, his hands still raised in fists, ready to keep on banging at the door. “Oh my goodness, Subaru, you’re drenched!”

You pulled him by his uniform’s sleeve, doing your best to avoid touching him without his consent. ‘Always so thoughtful’ he thought to himself, feeling a little floaty after finally seeing you after a whole week.

With his realization, the dam that was keeping his feelings for you safely contained inside a hidden part of himself was no more.

Subaru acknowledged that he was madly in love with you and he immediately began feeling foolish. His fingers itched to touch you despite his fears and he could look at you for hours on end, drinking every detail and every mannerism.

It was like admitting his love was also letting go of his self control. He felt like something inside him nudged him to be as close to you as possible and it flustered him.

No wonder the movies and mangas said that being in love made people a bit sillier, a bit dumber. But the extent of it was almost ridiculous.

He followed you like a lost puppy when you motioned for him to come with you, and soon you two found yourselves in the kitchen.

“Okay” you let out a loud exhale “This is the warmest place in this dorm. You’re lucky I was already making myself some tea. Also, I’m gonna bring some towels and a change of clothes for you, although I might not have something that’s your size. Geez, Subaru, what were you thinking, walking all the way here in this storm? And this late? Without an umbrella!” you rambled on and on, pouring boiling water into a mug for him to drink and dipping a tea bag inside, carelessly.

Subaru grabbed the warm mug and looked at you, with saddened eyes that felt like an arrow through your heart.

“I missed you.”

You took a long breath as you heard the words coming out of his lips, and stared at him, dumbfounded, like he had suddenly grown a second head. You were about to reply, when Subaru shivered intensely despite the warmth of the kitchen, and you came back to your senses, walking briskly towards your room, in order to fetch the towels, leaving his words unanswered.

Subaru sipped on the tea, suddenly every insecurity bubbling up to the surface while he waited for you to return. What if he totally misunderstood your memories? What if you just loved him as a friend and nothing else, what if Haku and Zenji were totally wrong, what if what if what if-

The sound of your hurried footsteps interrupted the avalanche of thoughts that were most definitely about to bury him under a panic attack. He focused on your silhouette approaching him with a handful of towels and what appeared to be a big nightgown.

“Okay, let's get you near the stove.” You said, beckoning him to sit where you were standing.

As soon as he sat down again, you covered his head with a towel and began drying him up as best as you could. Subaru focused on the feeling of the soft fabric rubbing against his head, and then his neck and his arms.

“I'm gonna turn around and close my eyes. Meanwhile, please try to dry yourself properly and then put on this nightgown I found, okay?” you said, quickly turning around on your feet, not waiting for his input.

Subaru stared at your back for a moment, and began doing as he was told – the thoughts that were plaguing him calming down and silencing on your presence, as if you were a protective charm. His protective charm.

“I'm done” he muttered, hair still dripping, but mostly dry when it came to his whole body.

You sighed, looking at his wet mop of hair and began drying him again, in silence.

“I’m sorry for touching you” Subaru was the one who first broke the comfortable stillness between you two. 

“You know I’m not mad at you because of that, right?” you replied.

“You disappeared” he stares at you, the hurt in his eyes clear as spring water.

“I know, and I'm…” a beat passes by, longer than it actually was “I apologize. I know running away isn't the best approach, but that was all I came up with.”

Subaru stayed silent, as if he was waiting for you to complete your answer.

“It's just… I can imagine what you saw and I wasn't ready to discuss it yet.” you finished, shoulders slumping after you finish drying his hair.

Subaru moved a few strands of his brown hair away from his eyes.

“What do you think I saw?”

You glared at him, cocking an eyebrow at the question that sounded way too much like a tease.

“I don't think you’re in a position to ask questions like that, are you?” you replied, unintentionally snappy.

“Oh, I'm sorry… it truly wasn't my intention”

But it was Subaru that was standing before you, not anyone else. Truthfully, you knew he would never in a million lifetimes think of teasing you on purpose. It was one of the reasons why you ended up so lost in your feelings for him.

You sighed, more in frustration with yourself than anything else.

“I know, I’m just… Look, Subaru… I'm sorry too.”

It was his turn to raise his eyebrows, but in confusion.

“For what?”

You chewed on your bottom lip, avoiding his eyes even though you were standing so close to his sitting form that his whole presence overwhelmed you. 

“For putting this burden on you. I know you saw my… like…”

He waited yet again for you to finish.

“I know you saw my feelings for you.”

Subaru could immediately feel a warmth spread through his chest, cheeks and ears at your words. So he wasn't mistaken? So you liked him back? Truly?

“But I didn't want to burden you with them.”

The smile that was tugging at the corner of his lips suddenly dissolved into nothing.

“B-burden me?”

You pursed your lips, transferring your weight between your legs, back and forth, back and forth, anxiety clear on your face as you thought of how you could tell him what was on your mind.

“I didn't want to ruin what we have, I think? But there's no point in hiding now, right?” You chuckled nervously “I mean, you already know, but I really like you, Subaru. If I ruined our friendship because I got too greedy, I think I wouldn't be able to handle it.”

You looked at him, eyes swirling with emotion and, for a second, Subaru thought this could all be a dream – the only thing that confirmed otherwise being the uncomfortable chill of his body, a sign of a fever approaching.

“Everything you do… every interaction we have, I just get more and more in love” you cringed at how emotional your own words sounded “But I am so scared of your rejection. I think in part I was hoping you'd forget about that incident during my time away from you. I didn’t imagine you’d come after me.”

Subaru's heart beat drummed loudly and fast inside his chest, although he tried to keep it hidden (his face betrayed him, however).

“Did you think of me while you were away?” He managed to mutter.

“Are you kidding me?” you laughed, breathlessly “You were all I thought about this whole week.”

His ears burned red.

“I… thought about you all the time too.” he mumbled, gaze fixed on his own hands.

“What?”

He took a sharp breath and steadied himself, training his eyes on you as he spoke his next words.

“I'm so… I'm so sorry I'm not good with emotions and I'm sorry that it took me a whole week to understand things when I could have relieved you of this earlier but… I figured it out. I finally did.”

“Figured out what?” you tilted your head to the side and his chest warmed once again at the effortlessly cute gesture, giving him even more certainty to keep saying what he had to say.

“I like… no… I love you too.” he watched the way your eyes widened and darted all over his face, as if to search for a sign of truth behind his words.

“I am so blind and afraid of other people that it took me that long” he proceeded “But I know now. I.. I really do love you and I don't want to be away from you any longer. You don't have to stay away anymore. So please.” He got up from his seat and took a small step towards you “Please don't leave me behind like that anymore.”

You shook your head, tears welling up on your eyes, his intensity squeezing your lungs until you thought you could die, breathless, his eyes stealing every ounce of air from you.

“Subaru… Please… please don't tell me you're doing this to appease me.”

He paused.

The thought of you not believing in his words tugged a little at his heartstrings, but he also couldn't blame you. Not when he was so unsure of all of his feelings on a daily basis, towards everyone and everything, and you were the main witness of the way he clumsily stumbled his way into understanding himself.

He was absolutely sure of this, though.

“I'm not.” he said, voice steady as he looked at you.

“Because if you're saying this just because you want to keep me close, I would never be able to forgive you.” You looked away from him, pain over this imaginary scenario clouding your face. It was the time for him to extinguish your anxieties and insecurities for once.

“I'm not.” He took a step closer towards you.

“Please… don’t try to please me if you don't truly feel the same way.” You shut your eyes tightly, throat clenching as you felt the tears threaten to fall.

“Look at me.” He pleaded, and you hesitantly complied, breath hitching on your throat when you noticed how close he was standing to you “I promise you. I'm not.”

Subaru leaned forward, capturing your lips into a quick, chaste kiss, a fire burning on his cheeks at his own boldness.

He was still afraid of his stigma and how it would work with the other parts of his body besides his hands, but once he noticed he was still grounded in reality and not locked in another memory of yours, he got a bit bolder once again, and kissed you for just a little longer, lips melding together just a little more. The softness of your kiss made him sigh and his heartbeat deafened his ears. 

He tentatively rested his forehead on yours once the innocent kiss was broken.

The first thing he noticed was the warmth you radiated while he stood near you. Both of you had beet red faces and your minds were hazy, as if they were made of clouds.

You were the first to come back to reality and giggle at how overwhelmed both of you were with just a little kiss.

Slowly, hesitantly, your hand came up to cup his cheek, and he leaned into your touch like a cat.

“The stigma?” you whispered

“Not activated”

“Good.”

Your other hand came up to run your fingers through his hair, on his nose, on his chin. 

“Do you believe me now?” Subaru asked, wholeheartedly.

“Maybe, I think I'm going to need a few more kisses to fully believe you.” you smiled, teasing him a little bit.

“Really?” He leaned away to look at your eyes, still a bit worried he hadn’t convinced you yet.

“No” you snorted “I'm just joking.”

“Oh I see… sorry I didn't get it right away” he furrowed his brows, apologetically.

“I don't mind getting more kisses though!” you squeezed his shoulders, reassuring.

Subaru chuckled, still a bit flustered at your proximity. Suddenly, however, he scrunched his nose and stepped backwards.

“Subaru?”

“Oh. Oh, I think I'm gonna–” Subaru quickly turned around and sneezed into the towel that still hung on his shoulders “Oh-oh. I think I'm getting a bit sick.” he said, nasally, nose dripping a little bit as he sniffed loudly, back still turned towards you.

You fretted, hovering all around him as you scolded the poor boy.

“See! What did I tell you!” You quickly placed your hand on his forehead and gasped “Let's get you to bed right now, Subaru. You're already feverish!”

You pulled him quickly towards your room, hearing his wheezes as both of you climbed the stairs that led to your quarters.

“But I don't regret what I did” he stifled another sneeze “I needed to talk to you.”

You blushed, opening the door to your room, and glared at him.

“And now you're sick…”

You two climbed the stairs to your lofted bed and you pulled the covers, motioning for him to lay down.

He sat on your bed and looked at you, puppy eyes blinking his allergy tears away.

“But… it kinda looked like a movie thing, didn't it…?” he said, sheepishly.

You pushed him towards your pillows and covered him thoroughly, pouting a bit.

“I think it did…” you stared at the giddy smile that tugged on his lips and sighed, shaking your head.

“I'm going to be down there” you pointed to the bottom of your room “So if you need anything, I'll be here. I'll just grab you some water and medicine and come back quickly, okay?”

You got up, but as you began to leave, Subaru held your hand. His eyes were already droopy, the events of the day getting to him, along with the cold that was quickly racking his body.

“Are you going to start visiting me again?” he asked quietly.

You felt your heart skip a beat as you looked at his sleepy face, the question making you fall even deeper in love with the adorable boy in front of you, if that could be even possible.

You nodded.

“Everyday, for as long as you want me near you.” you said quietly as well.

He shifted on the bed, snuggling closer to the blankets, and closed his eyes, letting sleep wash over him.

“Forever, then.” he mumbled, and, soon afterwards, began snoring softly.

[kvetchlandia]

Raymond Pettibon Black Flag, Geza X and the Mommy Men, the Circle Jerks, the Stains and the Descendents at the Hideaway, DOwntown L.A. 1980

5 good bands for 4 bucks. Pretty hard to beat.

[kimwexlers-brownhair]

I was today years old when I found out Bela Lugosi and Clara Bow might have had an intense fling, and if that isn't the most Erik x Meg thing I ever heard, I don’t know what is.

A lot of people think Lugosi commissioned Geza Kende to make the girl in this painting look like Bow. Lugosi kept it in every home he lived in until his death.

[bloopington-indiana]

Bela Lugosi

Portrait of Bela Lugosi by Geza Kende - Oil on Canvas - 47" x 61" (ca. 1932). This stunning, large and famous portrait of the legendary Bela Lugosi stands as a lasting tribute to a great actor. Apparently painted in the early 1930s at the height of Lugosi's fame (he became a household name in 1931 with the premiere of Universal's Dracula, directed by Tod Browning), Kende's work reveals an urbane, debonair Lugosi at the peak of his creative powers; bold and confident, yet utterly charming. The artist was a Hungarian immigrant, like Lugosi, and became an important painter of portraits and landscapes. Born in 1889, Kende studied at the Nati Academy of Art in Budapest, as well as in Italy and France before settling in Los Angeles in 1932, where he would live until his death in 1952. It was undoubtedly the Hungarian connection that drew these two talented artists together, an alliance that produced the great work offered here. Kende has captured the essence of Lugosi, Hollywood's "Master of the Macabre", in this wonderful portrait, particularly the penetrating, almost hypnotic, quality of the actor's eyes. Slim and handsome -- the epitome of the iconic leading man -- was the way Bela longed to be seen by Hollywood, which insisted on casting him as one monster/mad scientist after another, and by his fans, who, for many years, saw him as only Dracula. This portrait hung in a place of honor in Lugosi's home for many years, until his death; Arthur Lennig, in his definitive Lugosi biography, The Immortal Count, shows the actor with this painting at two very different times of his life, and says, "Before the unchanging portrait on the wall, the actor - unlike Dorian Gray - aged." On the back of the canvas Bela Lugosi has signed his name in pencil with an illegible inscription above the signature. This painting, which is offered in its original frame, has had some expert conservation work performed upon it, and is beautifully preserved. It will make a marvelous centerpiece to any film aficionado's collection. Included with the lot are (4) 8" X 10" black and white glossy stills which document this treasure's presence in Lugosi's home for so many years. Also included is the fine art conservator's written report on restoration performed and the current condition of the painting. (Note: Also offered with this painting is the original funeral plaque, which was displayed at Lugosi's funeral. The painted crescent board measures 18" X 12", with "In Loving Memory Bela Lugosi 1882-1956" is painted on it. The board is in very nice condition with some chipping in the upper right corner.)

[joubliemapromesse]

> ZAD KOKAR (Strasbourg): Lorsqu'il n'est pas en train de travailler sur ses bandes-dessinées, Zad Kokar développe depuis plusieurs années (en solo ou accompagné par les Combi Beyaz) un univers musical spécifique et extra-terrestre. Sorte de mélange cathartique du minimalisme de Devo, de l'étrangeté des Residents, et de beats hip-hop 80’s. Le tout sous l'influence des dissonances et de la nervosité no-wave. Ses concerts sont définis par une grande énergie dansante, forte, et libératrice qui remonte le moral ! Il a déjà sorti plusieurs vidéos, cassettes et disque vinyles dont le dernier « Mold Grows » a été masterisé par le punk weirdo Geza X. Voici quelques captations live ainsi que des clips : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qAJIQsIOYgU https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVZ1pjX1fCU https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHllqb4E-tM https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKl_i8Ej7x4 Vous trouverez ici des liens pour écouter sa musique : https://petite-nature.bandcamp.com/ / HOUSE OF DIAMONDS (Strasbourg): La House of diamonds n'est pas un collectif de joaillerie. C'est un collectif de drag artists de Strasbourg. Et pourtant, des diamants, il y en aura mais ils seront dans vos yeux (attention ça pique). Vous allez en voir des clowns, des fées, des aliens et autres créatures. C'est 100% faux mais c'est plus vrai que nature. Pour vous iels chanteront, danseront, se déshabilleront. Pour vous certes, mais contre le cisteme ! Pour vous oui, mais sans le patriarcat ! Pour vous ok, mais au-delà des normes ! Pour donner une idée du drag qu’on fait, on a par exemple fait deux shows en vidéo pendant le confinement : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yDmUJ31FYvE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L0OvtnXPLME Ces vidéos sont assez à part de ce que nous faisons en général. En effet, durant les crises sanitaires nous voulions continuer à faire perdurer notre lien avec le public malgré les restrictions gouvernementales, néanmoins nos shows prennent tout leur sens et leur substance dans le lien avec le public. Afin de vous faire une idée de nos performances avec un public, voici des captations faites en live cette fois-ci :https://www.instagram.com/reel/CfI8XOQDBXz/... https://www.instagram.com/tv/CX3R8VahMf3/... / FEARLESS ALFREDO (Strasbourg): Mixs éclectiques de ses morceaux préférés pour danser. De l'électronique plus ou moins expérimentale, des boîtes à rythmes vénères ou mignonnes, des synthés tantôt sombres et tantôt rigolos, des percussions dans tous les sens, de la grosse pop... Tout pourra y passer suivant l'humeur, même du reggaeton queer, attention attention. Pour vous faire une idée des genres qu'elle mixe, en vrac il peut y avoir : electronic, experimental, avant-garde, hip hop, no wave, techno, world, EBM, post-punk, new-wave, dub, synth-pop... Vous pouvez entendre certains de ses sets pour des radios sur son soundcloud (du coup y'a certains sets super calmes ou expérimentaux, mais en live ce sera plutôt dansant ! Parfois weirdo dansant mais dansant pour sûr : https://soundcloud.com/earlesslfredo Et sinon voilà son instagram : https://www.instagram.com/fearless.alfredo PAF 4E Portes 20h30 ACCUEIL FROID NUKE 21 rue Sully, Amiens Événement associatif privé réservé aux adhérents Adhésion possible les soirs de concerts (2E sept/ sept) > http://accueilfroidnuke.blogspot.com/

[vmonteiro23a]

Geza X from The Deadbeats at Whiskey A Go-Go, Hollywood, Ca., 1979. Photo by © Mike Murphy

Geza X from The Deadbeats at Whiskey A Go-Go, Hollywood, Ca., 1979. Photo by © Mike Murphy

[alexadd77]

Geza X- Hot Rod/Sex Melt 7" 2022 Munster Records - Spain Limited Edition 600 copies. Dos temas inéditos de 1980 grabados durante y al poco del álbum, You Goddamn Kids. Sex Melt es una demo olvidada en los masters de YGK, Hot Rod fue rescatada y restaurada de una cinta.#gexax #hotrod #sexmelt #indielabel #usapunk #punk #punkrock #7" #45rpm #instavinyl #vinylcollection #vinyljunkie #vinylrecords #alternative #vinylcollectionpost #rarepunk #recordcollection #vinilo #recordcollector #artwork #design

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[666radio666]

Rise Above - Aug. 23, 2023

FILL-IN

Black Flag - Rise Above, Damaged Husker Du - I'll Never Forget You, Zen Arcade Bikini Kill - Blood One, Pussy Whipped The Ghouls - Treachery II, In Blood Chilling Stereo Luminous Green Snow - Luminous Green Snow, Split cassette with Yogsothoth/Boiled Lollies & Puppy Dogs (Demo)/bonus track Neuros - orchids on a budget, 7" Trungllion Horsepower - Just Meat, Just Meat-single Otoboke Beaver - I'm Tired of your repeating story, Itekoma Hits Replacements - GImme Noise, STINK The sound of Mercy Killing - Living under the constant threat of being fisted by ruth Cracknell and her leathery fisting machine, 2 minute warning Jaguar God - Heart of the Jaguar, Revenge asnd retribution Raw Power - Our Oppression, Screams from the gutter - After Your Brain Cull The Band - Master Plan, Live From Studio 3 The Damned - Melody Lee, Machine Gun Etiquette The Twenty Second Sect - It Ain't Good, Unexploded + Bonus Tracks Celibate Rifles - Billy Bonney Regrets, The Turgid Miasma of Existence X - Your Phone's off the hook, but youre not, Los Angeles Paul of Blood - Fuck for the revolution, The Good Time Buddies ep Jihad against America - Terrorism is the New Black, 2 minute warning Meat Puppets - Split Myself in two, Meat Puppets II Geza X - Isotope SOap, Let Them Eat Jellybeans Grong Grong - Poor Herb, To Hell 'N' Back Mudhoney - slidin' in and out of Grace, Superfuzzbigmuff The IInvisibles - evador, 2 Minute Warning Hit The Jackpot - the football team, Hit The Jackpot Flipper - HA HA HA, Let Them Eat Jellybeans The Fall - Rebellious Jukebox, Live at the Witch trials Goon Wizarrd - mediocre Mountain, Hoyeons secret girlfriend Aborted Tortoise - Primordial, A ALbum Black Flag - Police Story, Let Them Eat Jellybeans Bad Brains - Pay to Cum, Let Them Eat Jellybeans Belle of CHaos - Dead Orpheus, Belle of Chaos Rollins Band - 1000 times blind, Life Time Rollins Band - Lonely, Life Time Minor Threat - Stepping Stone, Discography True Radical Miracle - Divorce '87, Taste The Rainbow x - Nausea, Los Angeles Dead Milkmen - Serrated edge, Big Lizard in my backyard Blood Sucking Freaks - Nekromantik, Nose Full o' snot, Dick full o' attitude Luminous Green Snow - Creeping Mould, V Fugazi - Back to Base, Red Medicine Lost Sounds - Do You Wanna Kill Me, Black Wave Johnny Thunders - CHinerse Rocks, LMFA

[bartholomaus]

Deutsche „Willkommenskultur“, wie sie meinem Vater, Christian Maurer, 1992 zuteil wurde:

„Hurra, dachte ich, in Deutschland angekommen, endlich zu Hause!

Bitte - wo?!

Zunächst war da die Schwierigkeit, mein Deutsch-Sein dem deutschen Amtsschimmel klar zu machen! Das war Bedingung number one für die Einbürgerung eines Vertriebenen; genauer: meine Zugehörigkeit zu den sogenannten ‚Volksdeutschen‘ hatte ich zu beweisen, und über diese dann zu der Stammesvielfalt des german people.

Das Unsinn-Wort ‚Volksdeutscher‘ – ein waschechter Pleonasmus stammt aus dem ‚Tausendjährigen‘; hat sich im Sechzigjährigen aber erstaunlich gut erhalten und bewährt.

Nun bedeutet ‚deutsch’, laut Duden, schlicht und einfach ‚Volk‘ oder ‚zum Volk gehörig‘; ein ‚Volksdeutscher‘ wäre also ein ‚Volks-Volker‘, einer, der ‚zum Volk des Volks‘ gehört; klingt struppig, wie?

Luchste ich aber tiefer ins Unwort hinein, dann schwang da etwas mit, das – speziell im Bezug auf das Völkchen dem ich angehöre, – die Siebenbürger Sachsen –, irgendwie ‚Sinn macht‘ (oder Mist); von diesen Leuten nämlich steht zu lesen, sie seien ‚germanissimi germanorum‘ (gewesen), die ‚deutschesten der Deutschen‘.

Volks-Deutsche, oder? Eine bald 900jährige Geschichte belegt es in schmerzlichen Zügen.

Nicht für bundesdeutsche Beamte.

Meine Familie wurde – wie die meisten der Landsleute, die nach der ‚Revolution‘ von 1989 aus Siebenbürgen (Rumänien) in die Bundesrepublik als Spät-Aussiedler kamen – vom Ausgleichsamt gar scheel beäugt, und schräg durchleuchtet.

Resultat: ‚Sie san a Rumäne, vielleicht sogar a kumanischer Wirtschaftsflüchtling, nix Deitscher!‘ wurde mir, nach dem Studium meiner Akte, bedeutet. Abgelehnt.

Ich wies darauf hin, dass (spätestens) aus dem ominösen ‚Ahnenpaß‘ von ’42, den Mutter unter Zittern und Zagen in Siebenbürgen aufbewahrt hatte, hervorgeht, dass die Meinen seit Generationen nichts anders als Deutsche …

‚Des is zwar a respektables Dokument, der Ahnenspaß, aber – was war des Siebenbrücken für a Winkel – ?! War’s deitsch, wia’s Sudetenland? Deitsch, wia unser Behmen?‘

Ich vermeldete beschämt, dass Siebenbürgen immer schon ein Viel-Völker-Ländchen, und eine Zeit lang ein ungarisches Fürstentum unter türkischer Oberhoheit gewesen sei …

‚Da ham mas! Sie san a Türk! A ungarischer Kanak dazu!’

‚Ach, nein, Herr Hammelspringer, das Land ist ungarisch meine Vorfahren aber sind Deutsche gewesen; seit 1141! Seit sie aus Deutschland auswanderten, als Ackerbauern und Handwerker (als Multi-Kulti-Apostel, wenn Sie wollen …), gerufen vom ungarischen König Geza II. …‘

‚Un – mö – glich! A x-beliebiger Deitscher, der wo heutzutag auswandern tut, im: April … sagen mir: nach Amerika …, is im M a i scho a waschechter Ami!

Und Sie behaupten – ?!’

‚Ich behaupte nicht, ich kann’s beweisen!

Unseres leidigen Deutsch-Seins wegen sind wir ja im Wechsel der Jahrhunderte wieder und wieder gepiesackt worden!

Wir haben unter ständigem Vertreibungsdruck ausgeharrt in der mühsam erworbenen Heimat. Unsere Muttersprache haben wir gefiekelt – will sagen: gehegt und gepflegt – wie der Neandertaler sein Feuer. Solange es ging.

Denn sie haben auf uns eingedroschen, angefangen mit den Kumanen und Petschenegen, und wollten uns gar zu ihresgleichen machen, und haben uns malträtiert: die mongolischen Reiter und die Tataren, die Türken, die Russen und die Madjaren, die Waffen-SS und die Valachen – die heute Rumänen heißen …’

‚Hoilt! Wo neman S’ jatz Rumänen her?! I moan, Sie san a Muselman, a ungarischer?‘

‚Nun – 1918, im Frieden von Versailles, ist Siebenbürgen Ungarn ab– , und den Vereinigten rumänischen Fürstentümern zugesprochen worden; und seither heißt das Ganze … România!‘

‚Also, warum sagen S’ des net glei! Romania! Jatz ham mas! Endlich! A Roma san S’, a liaber Asylant!‘

Schön langsam bröckelte meine Geduld.

‚Herr Hammelspringer‘, – ich biss mir auf die Lippe – , ‚ich fasse noch einmal zusammen: Meine Eltern und Großeltern, meine Ur-, Ur-, Ur-Ahnen sind allesamt als ungarische Staatsbürger deutscher Nationalität vor 1918 – ich aber als rumänischer Staatsbürger deutscher Nationalität nach 1918 im gleichen Land Siebenbürgen geboren worden! Unser aller Nationalität, unsere Volkszugehörigkeit war und ist die deutsche!‘

‚Aber, liaber Herr Antragsteller‘, – Hammelspringer griff sich an den Kopf –, ‚Sie sagen’s ja selbst, Sie san in Rumänien geboren!‘ Er sprach wie zu einem geistig Verwirrten. ‚Nachha san mir – a Rumäne!! Verstegen S’?‘

‚Wenn ein Haflinger Hengst‘, sagte ich sehr beherrscht, wobei mein Blick einer Fliege folgte, die so schnell um Hammelspringers Glatze kreiste, dass man meinte, sie zeichne einen geschlossenen Heiligenschein mit ihrem Flug, ‚wenn ein bayrischer Schimmel aus Hintertupfing am Ufer des Nils dahintrabt, und versehentlich bei Assuan ins Wasser fällt – steigt er dann als Nilpferd aus den Fluten?‘

Der Beamte verfinsterte sich; er dachte lange nach.

Endlich erhellte sich seine Mine; er strahlte geradezu.

‚Wollen S’ damit sagen – Sie san a Rinozeros?!‘ Und er gluckste, wie ein gutgelauntes Hippo.

Ich gab auf.

Und suchte nach weiteren Beweisen.

Meiner geliebten Mutter – der ich das meiste verdanke, im Leben – sei’s auch gedankt, dass ich Hammelspringer endlich den entscheidenden, den finalen Beweis für meine deutsche Herkunft vorlegen konnte.

Es ist dies eine Urkunde von martialischem Aussehn, pergamentknistrig und schwer von schwungvollen Charakterunterschriften, mit rotem Siegellack und Stempelglanz geschmückt.

Dies Dokument sagt deutlich aus, dass ‚Seine kaiserl. und königl. Apostolische Majestät‘ (Franz Josef, versteht sich) ‚geruht haben, dem Leutnant Johann Maurer (der später mein Vater werden sollte) am 31. März 1915 die bronzene Militärverdienstmedaille am Bande des Militärverdienstkreuzes zu verleihen für tapferes Verhalten vor dem Feinde‘!

Gezeichnet: der Kriegsminister persönlich – unleserlich, freilich … bis auf die Worte ‚Ritter von‘ und die ersten beiden Silben des Namens: ‚Kroha…‘

So weit – so fern und vergessen; erster Weltkrieg, eine Art Strauß-Operette, verglichen mit dem Zweiten, oder mit Hiroshima und Vietnam.

Ganz unten auf dem Prachtwisch aber ist mit einer der ersten Schreibmaschinen der Welt (die Lettern waren da auf einer Art von sumerischem Rollsiegel angeordnet!) hinzugetippt worden:

‚An / den Herrn k.u.k. Leutnant des Infanterieregiments Rupprecht Kronprinz von Bayern Nr. 43 Johann MAURER.’

Herr Hammelspringer las den Papyrus, und als er zur hehren Zeile ‚Rupprecht Kronprinz von Bayern‘ kam – und diese in fraglosem Zusammenhang mit dem Vor- und Familiennamen meines Vaters verstehn musste, des K.u.K.-Leutnants – erhob er sich.

‚Mein Herr‘, sprach er feierlich, ‚hiermit erklär ich Sie, stante pe, zum Voll-Deitschen! – Sakra! Sie san mehr wia des: Sie san a echter Bayer!!‘

Mein Selbstgefühl blähte sich auf; wie ein Heißluftballon; in Form einer riesigen Weißwurscht.

Hallo! Guten Morgen, Deutschland!

Grias di Good, Bayern!“

[jaynedolluk]

Rest in Power Lexa Vonn. Sad to hear of her death - she was an amazing woman

[ozkar-krapo]

GEZA X & The MOMMYMEN

"You goddam Kids!"

(LP. Dyonisus rcds. 2002 / rec. 1979-81) [US]

[fodderstompferz]

um... i'll try and explain this. geza x was a producer most associated with the west coast hardcore punk scene. many of the most popular bands of the scene were produced by him - dead kennedys, germs, black flag included. he also had solo ventures, like his exploits with the mommymen (yes, that's a favorite band bame of mine). but as you can tell, 'pony ride ii' is not a punk song. what is it? where did i hear of it? are the rest of the tracks on the album anything like it? to provide some answers, i don't know, my mom (of course - who else??), and... maybe remotely. but anyway, who's to say a producer can't have a wild side? sincerely, i can say no more... except it is a fun song though. pony ride indeed!

[midnightmines]

On 6 June we’re playing the brilliantly named Snotty Seaside in Stockholm with Isotope Soap