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mylarena · 1 year
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god im fuckin. thinkin abt soap distancing himself from ghost when roach comes back. cause hes been vying for the lieutenants affection for a while, but then roach is there and ghost is so obviously besotted with him and they have a history and they obviously in love so what place does he have to get in the way of that?
then roach, whos heard so much from ghost about the sergeant and how good he is, goes and starts talking to soap and befriends him, and soap is drawn back closer to ghost and he soon realizes that fuck. hes in love with roach too.
but ghost and roach are happy together. theyre happy and in love and, again, who is he to get in the way of that? he hasnt known either of them as long as theyve known each other, he hasnt been through as much as them, and hes not worthy of them. not the way theyre worthy of each other.
so he pushes himself away again. everytime theyre together it hurts. every smile roach gives him when hes ranting. every chuckle ghost gives when he tells a stupid joke. every pat on the arm he gets after a good mission, every bit of praise he gets after doing good on the field, everything- it all hurts.
so he pushes away. he makes excuses to skip out on invitations to hang out, he stops ranting so much, he goes to meals earlier than usual to avoid the pair (even when ghost gets up at an ungodly hour in the morning) and eats as fast as his stomach can handle, he spars with gaz or konig or anyone other than ghost or roach.
he doesnt really expect them to notice that hes distant- at the very least expect them to care. but as time goes on it gets harder and harder to stay away, to the point where he starts to spend his breaks in his room instead of somewhere open. he starts sneaking snacks into his room for when he doesnt eat enough at meals because roach had dropped down right next to him with his own food and tried to start a conversation. he swears he fills out his sketchbooks three times faster than before with all the free time he has.
he ignores the ache he feels from being apart from them- its better that its him feeling that instead of making things awkward with ghost and roach.
eventually he ends up cornered- very nearly literally- with ghost guarding the doorway and roach with one hand on the wall next to his head and one pushing his chest, pinning him against the wall. it flusters him more than he'd like to admit.
roach asks whats going on with him, and he starts to spew out some fib about being swamped with work, but then ghost is way closer than before and he places a hand on the other side of soaps head and leans in and fucking growls "thats bullshit, sergeant." and soap lets out an honest to fucking god whine. on the fucking spot. hes surprised his legs didnt give out and drop him to his damn knees right then and there. hes too caught up in his embarrassment that he doesnt hear the way roachs breath hitches, or the way ghosts gaze gets a little darker.
ghost reaches out and grabs his chin, making him look him directly in the eyes.
"tell the truth, johnny."
and soap cant fucking hold the words back anymore.
"im in love with you! both of you!"
but he doesnt stop at a simple confession- he figures that maybe if he rambles long enough theyll get annoyed enough that theyll fucking forget what he just said, that theyll miss the point of the conversation, that he wont have fucked everything up.
"soap- johnny- johnny."
he stops, catching his breath the best he can.
"you've been avoiding us.... because youre in love with us?"
soap swears that hes on the verge of tears as he nods. he expects something- disgust, anger, annoyance- but he doesnt expect roach to lean in and press him lips against his own. his mind goes blank.
he cant help but lean to chase roach a bit when he pulls away, and he has only a moment of fuzziness before his eyes widen snap to ghost, distress filling him once again, and he tries to stutter out an apology but is cut off by ghost lifting his mask and kissing johnny himself.
when they part, its all johnny can do to look at both of them and breathe out an "oh."
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subpar-celestial · 1 year
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THE GIRLLLLLL
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twinstxrs · 22 days
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just now realized that kristen started off fantasy high choosing the path of doubt & uncertainty by choosing to go with the bad kids. for unrelated reasons i need to lie down forever.
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tennant-davids · 5 months
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OUR FLAG MEANS DEATH Ed and Stede in 2x08 Mermen
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tomatoart · 9 months
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Transgwender 🎉
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TRANSGWENDER ‼️
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when Angel and Husk get together- properly together, “i love you” together- Angel finally has to face the fact that what Valentino is doing to him, is abuse.
he knows that it’s bad, it’s fucked up, it’s an unhealthy power dynamic- but he’s never thought of it as abuse because at one point, a long time ago, he consented, and he signed that contract with a fairly decent idea of what he was getting into, and if this was abuse then he wouldn’t have signed up for it, right? right? and it’s not that angel is too dumb to see it for what it really is. Angel knows that Valentino is abusive and we see that when he stands up to him at the club and when he tries to get Val to ignore Charlie when she comes to the studio- but what gets me is the fact that Angel focuses more on protecting his friends than himself. Angel’s threshold for abuse is “you can do it to me, not to my friends,” and in a way isn’t that kind of consent in itself, right? so Angel isn’t really being abused, even though he openly admits to being exploited, right?
that’s what he desperately tries to tell himself, at least, even when he does try to break himself so Valentino can find another toy to play with.
so, no. Angel doesn’t think of himself as a victim of abuse until he gets closer to Husk, until he starts dating Husk, until Husk is asking for consent just to kiss him and holding him in a way that doesn’t make him feel caged in and letting angel bitch and moan all he wants. Angel doesn’t see himself as a victim of abuse until Husk apologizes for raising his voice at him during an argument and holds his shaky hands after a nightmare and listens to Angel when he asks for time alone.
and that makes going back to the studio that much harder.
because he finds has someone who will listen and respect his boundaries. he has someone who asks to touch him, even when just holding his hand, and someone who knows him well enough to make him a drink in advance when he gets home after a long day. he has someone who makes him want to get sober, someone who makes him believe in this whole redemption thing, someone he doesn’t have to perform in front of.
it’s hard to go back to Valentino. it’s harder knowing that Husk will be there at the end of the night, regardless of how fucked up Angel feels.
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puppyeared · 1 year
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Remember how ppl used to draw Luz’s Palisman as a blue jay before String Bean was revealed. so she could match with Hunter and Flapjack
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owlmii · 3 months
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I suddenly read a little verneider fic (tragic) and I couldn't help but draw something fluffy and cute to undoom the yuri
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"the ghost of gertrude robinson haunting the archives judging every decision jon makes" is a very inspired idea especially if it includes gertrude mildly inconveniencing jonah as much as possible, but have you also considered the following: the ghost of adelard dekker haunting the archives screaming crying throwing up in frustration at jon destroying that table.
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inkskinned · 5 months
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am i gonna put you in the book acknowledgements am i gonna be able to say your name without flinching am i ever gonna get a word in edgewise am i ever gonna recover the time i spent with you. computer virus kid; i arrived in your life already begging to be let in. somehow insecure i could even be your friend. like you had a line outside the door and we were all shifting our weight, begging.
you're so fucking good at that - at making people feel like they need to earn you, like you're a commodity none of us can afford. no kindness or careful communication could work on you - you were so good at just going-ghost, about deciding someone just wasn't cool-enough. something about that is super ironic. even the parts of it that weren't romantic felt like a romance book. i wanted you to like me so badly i scrubbed myself clean just so you'd spare me - what. your favor? a look?
okay okay okay. it's just a friendship - if it was even true that we were friends, if you even saw me as someone you trusted. on reddit someone would tell me girl literally just cut her out of your life, it's not that difficult. even i was aware of how fucked up the whole situation was. like, why the fuck do i even care about your approval? you're like, not even that fun to be around. you are often a little bit cruel.
but for almost four years of my life, i thought i had found someone like me. somebody who liked the same things i do. someone who liked to read and who liked making jokes with esoteric references and who spent maybe too much time on the internet and who was absolutely a little bit pretentious. i don't know, something about that was powerful and addictive.
i keep thinking about our last conversation. about how i said - okay, enough is enough. you pushed me too far, you really hurt my feelings.
and how you laughed and said - you think you're the victim?
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marblerose-rue · 1 year
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sisters cinderpelt and brightheart
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hubrishazard · 5 months
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they really had 10 lay on the floor bloody and bruised surrounded by broken glass for several long minutes, pick up a gun and tremblingly aim it at the man he had previously cradled in his arms and begged to stay alive, and then had him have a mental breakdown where he yelled and shoved things off of countertops, and then had him writhe around in agony and then lay down curled up in a fetal position inside a glass container. All within the span of like, ten minutes.
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spaciebabie · 2 months
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oh so you wanna fuck that monster huh. make sexy art of them without giving them muscles and/or making them look human
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honestlydarkprincess · 2 months
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i’m trying to concentrate but mentally i’m still here
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nateezfics · 2 months
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i haven’t been the same since this man picked up that electric guitar…
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huckleberrykai · 6 months
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mmmm more dom kai thought bcs it's 1am and i can't sleep~
BIG BOY absolutely manhandles the fuck out of you just bcs he can. idc how tall you are this man is just Big and Strong okay
kai who's so stressed from work :( he won't ask you for anything, so when you put on that lingere that he likes and hand him the fluffy handcuffs he loves to use with you.. you're in for a long rough night >.<
he will go as hard and as long as you let him. hours of hair pulling and pushing you into different positions - always giving you little kisses and asking if you're okay after every round, running his fingers against your scalp in case he pulled a little too tight
dom kai is also Definitely possesive. he's such a cutie normally and especially in front of other people, so when they see the fingerprint bruises and splotchy red and purple hickies on your neck they almost can't believe it.. but mean horny hyuka is a sight only you are lucky enough to witness <3
we know I can't leave out how much this man loves your tummy, and best believe in the whole time you've been together you have never gone a day without at least one mark on your stomach. usually plenty littered around from him grabbing you so tight while fucking you from behind, feeling his bulge inside you and absolutely wrecking you just how you liked. also covered in hickies from the times he just can't get enough of you, teasing before he eats you out like a man starved just to over stimulate you.
he's actually the softest boyfriend in the world. bringing you flowers and plushies and your favorite snacks 24/7, cuddling with you always, and being so cute it makes his members sick ~ if you hadnt discovered it yourself you'd never guess he was the kind of guy who'd edge you to the point of tears and spit in your mouth to remind you who you belong to hehe
but that's just the way you like him !! and he'll always be your big sweet bf who takes a bath with you and feeds you animal crackers after rearranging your guts <3
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