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after-nine-at-the-oasis · 7 months

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Abbott Elementary Episode 4: Smoking!! I lowkey forgot Abbott aired last night till I saw a clip of it on YouTube earlier, I believe lol. I watched it earlier today and did not liveblog it, but I'm here to talk about it a bit now!

Not much though, because it's late and I had a show tonight, and more tomorrow and Saturday lol.

The fact that they were discouraging substances while all actively using substances is hilarious xDDD It's not where I was expecting that to go lol! Idk what I was expecting, but not that xD

I'm glad it really talked about how broken the system is. I hope that kid doesn't get suspended <3.

Also the jokes the kids made about their vices were wild 💀. That dust bowl was out of control XDD Iconic all around though lol

I'm glad Jacob decided to give up vaping lol, good for him :') <3. Out of all of them his was honestly the most actually harmful lol.

Even though I don't love the detail that he vapes (mostly because you'd think being against it would be one of his many liberal policies lol), I really love that it brought back that smoking comment from the pilot!! Also I can totally spin this into a vices from deep anxiety thing which is lovely lol. Also the air bit was hilarious xD

Anyway they're all idiots but I do love them all lol <33

Also Janine was wild with that teacher lol 💀. I do think there were some things she was right about (like. the literal education parts lol) but dang girl xD love that the sub did not care at all lol

Unrelated but I love Jacob immediately blaming Morton for the smoking lol xD

Anyway seeing them all being chill at the end was great xD. Like Barbara trying the oil, Jacob quitting, etc lol. Good for them :).

This episode caught me off guard a bit, especially since I don't use substances, but I kinda like that, once again! This season is really throwing me off my game in the best way possible - we all need to be made uncomfortable sometimes to learn stuff :). This episode it wasn't too much, because I don't disrespect anyone who uses drugs (of the safe kind), but since I don't it's still a view into the other side.

Also Gregory's was so him xD. Honestly all of them lol - Janine's makes so much sense in hindsight (also Gregory's comment to her about like "Did you smoke last night" 💀 XDD iconic lol), Melissa's (and her smoking background - which by the way, the comments about that were funny too lol) made sense, Barbara's was- yeah xD, her lol, we basically already knew about Ava xD. And of course Jacob's is a callback lol! And it does kinda make sense for him, even if I thought he would know. I mean hey, we do things we know are bad all the time lol, and nobody can resist everything. Also I think I'm in partial denial because I don't want him to have gone through what it puts you through lol xD. Anyway, they were all super accurate :D.

I loved this episode!! I thought it was really great and I'm so excited for the next one :D. I am also utterly terrified :). Help me please :'). The title and description are scaring me and I swear to goodness they better be a mislead. I think they probably are but still xD.

Don't break them up please I need them lol

Also I'll just pretend it never happened anyway xD

Oh dang I probably won't be able to see that episode live either- eh we'll deal with that later.

So yeah! I loved the episode :D. I thought it was really great and super interesting :). I'm excited for the next one!

This has been my review for. . .

Abbott Elementary, Season 3, Episode 4: Smoking

It was really good :)). I'm really excited to see the next one but y'all I am so scared lol.

I'll be back next week for my review of. . .

Abbott Elementary, Season 3, Episode 5: Breakup

See you guys then!!!

#abbott elementary #ae #oasis's ae chatter #abbott elementary 3x04 #it's gonna be the choir it's gonna be the choir it's gonna be the choir it's gon-#xD #anyway!!#as I said I just did a show (like two hours ago lol) and I have two more ahead soon so I'm gonna head out xD #gonna eat and then go to bed lol #get some rest y'all :))#I love you all :DD ❤️❤️❤️❤️!!!#byeeee :))) 🥰🥰🥰🥰 <33!!!!

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b4kuch1n · 6 months

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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

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orcelito · 2 days

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I'm going through another character arc

I'm becoming worse

#speculation nation #negative/#im mostly just being dramatic. still very deeply unhappy n #*right now lol #not in breakdown territory at least. just. tired.#yes this still has to do with the damned tub. i need to be in bed in less than half an hour.#first round of drano did nothing. i prodded at it with the snake. nothing. then had to scoop drain the tub Again.#if there is still no progress after the next adminsitration of drano im just going to try to wipe the tub (to remove drano residue)#and just take another foot bath shower. :/#might try to eat smth while i wait rn. it's messing up my routine but #just gonna have to deal with it i guess. i dont want to stay up Too late.#sigh. whys this gotta happen to me man.#my curse for what. having ungodly thick hair???#mark my words. after this im buying a drain guard.

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slythernnn · 10 months

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Ahh fuck it, here’s some more pics

#I’m kinda obsessed with the middle one ngl #made it my profile pic on fetlife lol #my thighs look nice af #and I usually hate how my thighs look #anyways #im gonna eat this quiche smoke a bowl then go to bed #send me asks while I’m still up I’m bored #shut up rian #me #self #face

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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months

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#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer?#i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

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pegglefan69 · 1 month

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tonite I am having the kind of mood I can only describe as 'if I was unmedicated & still drank I would be spending the evening drinking most of a bottle of cheap wine in a sitting while listening to sad songs & crying'. not sure why? impending migraine? probably? anyway extremely bizarre to understand that I'm having the same Emotion but like. So greatly diminished that I had to sit here & puzzle out what was even going on. Anyway. I love not drinking & I love only having intense mood swings sometimes, when there's drastic changes in barometric pressure, instead of, like. Most of my waking hours. Good grief.

#definitely all unrelated to elderberry jam mistake OR anything else that happened today lol #that was the worst thing & that just got a shrug outta me #anyway eternally grateful i don't have an unhealthy relationship with weed. thank G-d.#gonna go get Bedtime Stoned & eat something tasty then read in bed. wahoo !#dial p for post

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nervocat · 2 months

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Sometimes I forget abt my hunger. Unless I'm made aware of it and ppl start to worry I haven't eaten much today

#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#In other words I need to eat #but I don't wanna make anything 😞😞#or I just don't want to eat #Idk I haven't rlly eaten a lot today at all #my dad asked if I ate anything and I genuinely had to think for a second lol #idk maybe I forget to eat (very rarely) bc I'm simply not aware I'm hungry #but now I am aware and I wanna eat smth but don't have the motivation to make anything #yeah I can't make much but still #I stay in my room too much 💀💀#anyways I'm gonna be off and do my own things until I go to bed

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muirneach · 3 days

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committing to getting up at 7 tomorrow to watch the two atp finals. however i have to get my ass to the school farm for 9-12, so im gonna miss the last sets. tragic. but that’s not even that bad because then i have a lecture on the opposite end of campus 12-1, and then i have a seminar back on the other end of campus 1-2. i may pass out tomorrow afternoon

#i have tuesday morning field shifts for the next three weeks #my tuesday schedule is actual death lol #i dont even go to that big of a school so this running around isnt TOO bad but the farm is really farrrr #i dont think theyre gonna mind if i leave before 12 so i can hustle to class #also idk when im gonna find the time to eat. um.#maybe i go buy something now so i can take it with my tomorrow idk #i dont wanna tho because im already in bed ugh

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gibor-zolel · 4 months

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POV you're dealing with a sinus infection, an increasingly annoying job, and cptsd all at once.

+Plus no weed :(

#cptsd vent #actually mentally ill #don't reblog but can comment #I know I should go to bed but I'm just so wired and yet tired at the same time #absolutely VISCOUS cycle #tbh bad eating and sleeping habits is why I get sick more often #wish I could just take a month off work and get my shit together #me #oh AND I'm gonna be off my parents healthcare this July lol #I should see a doctor before the government throws me to the wolves

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deus-ex-mona · 3 months

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wakefulness comes with a ✨price✨

#still can’t believe my bro actually rented a car just to drag me out of bed… granted it was on my dime but. smh #he’s a decent driver though. napping in the backseat was quite comfortable #still can’t believe my family tbh lmao. i told them many times that all i wanted to do today was to sleep #b u t they had somehow latched on to a passing remark i made like over a month or so ago about wanting to eat burgers from a certain place…#‘it only comes once a year; you can sleep after you leave your job on friday—’ they said… so welp.#man. at least i got good food and a few new plushies out of it. so it wasn’t all that bad… i think #either way i’m truly grateful to my mother and bro for everything. don’t tell them though; it’s embarrassing #u m. anyway. i guess i’ll finally have time to resume idol sengen after i’ve caught up on sleep?#i’m gonna try to zoom through the next 2 vols before mona’s album comes out s o. well. um. i’ll do my very best!!!!!#remind me to make the masterpost thing free for rbing once im done with it bc. y e a h.#anyways!! gn!! i gotta go fill up some forms or something before i forget lol. have a great week ahead!!!#l o r d i just realised i forgot to off rbs again aaaaaaa my memory is getting worse with age frrrrrr

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orcelito · 3 months

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Everyone be proud of me

I am eating dinner 👍

#speculation nation #u know when ur feeling bad enough u wanna do fuck all or like the most self destructive shit ever #and ur tryign to reign in the 2nd urge so ur just sitting there zoning out #i wanted to just go to bed. but i am eating something first.#i dont want to eat. i should be hungry but im not. but im still eating.#not gonna bother with the video game today bc itd probably just make me stay up until 6 am again and i wouldnt even enjoy it #emotions cut off bc it was the only way to calm down etc etc u know the drill #tomorrow... will be gentler. i'll make sure of it.#and for now. i am eating this leftover biryani. whether i want to or not.#negative/#disordered eating/#kind of lol. whatever

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patheticpuppyboyslut · 3 months

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(not hornyposting just musing lol) so i’m a singer-songwriter and performer irl and i’m thinking about the fact that i go around on a day to day basis singing serious, professional songs that use dogs and brainwashing and cannibalism as painful heartbroken metaphors. and i’ve been doing this for years but little by little all these things i process my anguish through in songwriting, have also become how i satisfy my sex drive. and i don’t know what to do with that information i just think it’s wild!! fun fact abt me i guess. i go out there in public singing about how service is my fulfillment and calling myself a good boy and i sing about wanting to be violently torn apart and eaten and i’m like. yeah it’s a metaphor. yeah dw i’m really normal. i don’t fantasize about having my humanity stripped from me and being treated like a stupid sweet puppy barking and whining for my lovers sick and twisted pleasure what are you TALKING about. i just like the poetic imagery of it. i SWEAR.

#i just think it’s silly….#like no joke i’ve written five songs this school year and lets see #there’s one about being a ‘‘silly stupid angel’’ who’s degraded and abused and idealized and stripped of all dignity #(yes it’s a commentary on the patriarchy. yes it’s about the toxic relationship i was in at the time. it’s also several of my kinks in one)#there’s one called GOOD BOY about being a dog. whining and kicking up the dirt. growling and whimpering. being taken advantage of #ITS JUST A METAPHOR. obviously. i actually wasn’t into puppy play yet when i wrote that song iirc. guess it got to me….#then there’s the cannibalism one. i gave my soul up you can eat me raw diced up and vulnerable i’m yours to try #it’s a ummmm it’s just a commentary. (also about my toxic relationship. he didn’t want to fuck OR eat me. but somehow still used me)#anyway the other two are just normal one is about filtering myself for him and the other is about being oppressed and poor and angry lol #still though. the fact that over half my songs are literally my kinks turned into poetry. and NOBODY KNOWS #it’s not my fault that those things are on my mind ALL THE TIME. what am i supposed to write songs about if not being a stupid puppy??#i don’t think anyone on my kink blog ACTUALLY wants to hear about this but my kinks are secret so this is the only place i can post about i #hope u can get some sort of psychological insight about me?? or idk stalk me?? show up 2 my shows and kidnap and use me?? who said that #i’m not even like. wet rn i’m just on here as reflex. and i’m THINKING. abt my TWISTED MIND and the weird shit i write about #in an intellectual way. cause i’m not USING my KINK BLOG this week. cause i SAID SO cause i need to KEEP MY WITS ABOUT ME #so i’m gonna be so normal. and not touch myself even a little bit cause i need to sleep and i need to move house and i need to be so normal #unrelatedly: tomorrow i’ll be one month on testosterone!! definitely hasn’t awakened anything in me….#anyway. anyway. i’m going to try to go to bed. probably going to end up edging myself stupid instead though #will just have 2 see what happens…. god it would be a shame if someone came in and used my sleeping body. who said that

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blitz0hno · 4 months

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I don't want to get off my phone I don't want to stay on my phone I don't want to pump gas I don't want to do deliveries I don't want to get ready for bed I don't want to write anything of substance I don't want to create I don't want to not create I don't want to be here I don't want to go anywhere I don't want to move I don't want to stay still my brain and body seem to simply want to sit here and Yearn

#is this like a shutdown i think we're having a shutdown #cuz like #we're not experiencing the pain of the overwhelm #but that's because we're dissociating really bad #like am i blitz are we blurry have we been in this parking lot for hours #why can't i just do anything but type #we're just sitting here numb and unmotivated #vent #i guess #tagging in case as always #idk man #“get a hobby” we have several #“get a life” we have. one but we have to share #“get a job” 2 jobs going on possibly 3 next month ok im starting to understand #we are indeed having to face a future and have no solid Plans yet #i thought getting our biggest worry out of the way now that my cat is w a trusted friend would help #but everything else is at the Forefront of our mind now whoops!!#ironically it would be better if we just. cane up w a plan #but noooo sensory overload from our own fucking chatter #allllll dayyyyyy #fuckkkkk #we're probably gonna go to bed lol i can try again tomorrow #we're ok just. we “shouldn't be” if that makes sense lol #if we're going to be a wreck i wish i could at least provess it #like it's worse than emotional denial i straight-up don't have access to said emotions rn #“don't underestimate my capacity to not wanna” type shit sjfhhshsh #oh also we need to eat dude come on #dont want to do that either but alas we need nutrients to live #at least we like living!#usually lmao also i did it (apparently) i reached 30 tags. thank u tumblr i love yapping

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imwritesometimes · 5 months

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my brother, after raiding the fridge of the peanut butter fudge I made yesterday, when I mention I'm planning on trying out a bundt cake this week: idk if I can eat any more sweets......

#like buddy I could hear you getting into the fudge last night #after you 'went to bed' 😆😆😆#I WAS gonna give some of that away in treat bags but I guess not now lol #like dude it'll keep in the fridge. it's not going to spoil in a day #but lol he loves it so 🤷‍♀️#in a way it's kinda flattering like I made it and it's so good he eats it all lmao #and he loves that it's in little shapes now lol #practicing means I will have to find more taste testers though lmao he does really get burnt out on sweets #much faster than I do. just not the peanut butter fudge LMAO #erin explains it all

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bo0zey · 2 years

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anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

#laying in bed everytime i think abt myself i feel literally nauseated n like it’s so weird #this feeling comes in waves intermittently just even .01 sec of ‘hm i’m hungry’ FFFFFNOPE HRRGRHFFF VOMITTY #i want to curl up in a ball and die forever i don’t care about me i don’t want to take care of me anymore i’m not even good at it #whyyyyyyyy did i stop taking my meddsssssss i guarantee y’all this is why i’m being such a crybaby on the dash lmaoooo #i have a headache i’m def dehydrated from crying n sniveling n barely drinking any water today while sweating like a mf at work #imma go to bed 🛌 if i don’t wake up i will be soooo pleasantly surprised y’all have no idea FINGERS CROSSED🤞#real talk tho can someone tell me why my body is literally reacting this way for like no real reason #like am i truly that disgusted with myself i make myself nauseous just thinking abt me #ok yeah the answer is yes lol BUT LIKE WHY THATS SUCH A DRAMATIC BODILY RESPONSE TO MY BRAINS DUMBASS THOUGHTS???#ik the body and mind have a super powerful link n the brain influences the body like crazy but like #why this why does my brain literally want me to berate and degrade myself and isolate me and make me cry alone n starve me that’s so mean #i’m not starving btw i’m literally always eating just these past 2 days i’ve been such a fuckup my body won’t let me do anything #i had a chocolate poptart for dinner last night (thurs) n threw myself to bed #i hope i don’t end up hurting myself that would be so lame #i literally don’t have time for that like i am Not doing wound care duty off the clock for my damn self lol #also don’t want to take care of myself so i wouldn’t bandage myself up properly sooo yeah i’m not gonna do anything actually #cleaning ur wounds r super important ok yall ur literally playing god if u don’t do good aftercare snfjfbdj #i can’t believe i’m in this nasty ugly depressive episode i hate this so much i don’t have time for this i hate this cycle #i hate being bipolar 2 n my moods n meds have been so fkcdd up lately that i don’t even have the rlly fun hypomanic episodes anymore #i’ve just been constantly having mixed episodes im unbearable to be around im so sorry for everyone that’s ever spoken to me im insufferable #ok that’s enough im done being dramatic lmao #im gonna give myself a bolus PRN dose of clonnie then i’m going tf to bed #ramblings #shut up cianna

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sucktacular · 1 year

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YALL THEY FINALLY HAD MY ACNE CREAM IN STOCK AGAIN LISTEN ITS BEEN LIKE A MONTH!!! MY FACE FEELS TERRIBLE!!!! LIKE, FUCK!!! BUT I HAVE IT IN MY HANDS!!! HAZAA!!!!!!! GO TO HELL ACNE AND OILS!!!!!!!!!!!! AND STAY THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#sucktacular sucks #hi so im also a lil high and tired as fuck lol #but man I'm so glad to have it again fuck man #my skin has been literally the worst its ever been. i think suddenly stopping the medication cream #really made my skin/pores go NUTS #shout out to all my persistent adult acne folks!!!! i see you i love you i understand and im sorry #also i started using an antibiotic face cream and not to be dramatic but it literally changed my life #like i feel more confident and i dont have to worry about touching my face and im not in pain!#and i think it also helped smooth my face skin texture out a bit?? idk the lack of pain alone is such a huge difference to me #its not like it was super painful 24/7 but trying to open my mouth to eat would hurt at peak cystic acne times. and woof #don't miss that at all #sorry im rambling my life story nfkdbjfjs thanks for coming to my ted talk im gonna go to bed BYEEEEEE 😤✌️

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