#gotta get back on the billy/chrissy train is what I’m learning from this hdjdjddjjccndk

[hardestgrove]

Hell is wanting to do more with bi Billy but also having so few ships I’m interested in exploring. Like I have mungrove and then I start fighting for my life making ocs and hoping they mesh well with him romantically because I’m just not really all that into any other canon character ships.

Like I would love to give him a girlfriend and see this boy have to navigate like, an actual relationship with a woman and not just sex. Because his concept of what men are allowed to be like or do with women is all fucked up thanks to his dad. Then he has some weird shit bc of his mom leaving bc you know he does and you know it would come out in an actual relationship.

I’m getting some of it with Jodi but she was always gonna be his bestie. I’d love to see him grappling with his shit in the context of a romantic relationship with a woman. Bc even tho he and Jodi were sleeping together they were never romantic so I’d love to see how he deals romantically. Imo it’s actually easier for him to love and accept love from men, he still has issues ofc, but he’s in a weird place with how he thinks men and women should/have to act from his dad and when he’s with women the fear of becoming like his father is more stark. Like he’s seen an abusive m/f relationship and he’d be terrified of doing it himself, it’s easier for him to grapple with the Dad Fears when they’re male/amab.

Like Emily is non-binary but afab and it’s easier for him to manage that relationship but he still struggles at times bc he’s used to seeing a certain kind of amab/afab romantic relationship and he’s scared of being Like That.