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[vael-fire]

Weight of the World

Alonza, an Oath of the Ancients paladin, desperately wants to convince Halsin that he deserves all the love in the world. Aka Act 3 bonus romance scenes my brain invented to resolve outstanding character trauma weeee~ Named for BRMC's song "Weight of the World"... because Halsin.

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Chapter 1: Let the Master Become the Student

“Did you wait to tell me that you wanted me… because you thought, somehow, you didn’t deserve to be happy while the shadow curse lingered?” -Alonza

"Every straight-laced, tight-assed paladin could benefit from a sweaty, semi-feral bear-man willing to help him unleash his inner freak." - Astarion

[deer-with-a-stick]

Me, going through the romance options: Lae'zel is hot, I'll try it out. Ooh, Karlach has a great personality I love her. Shadowheart's got some issues but she's grown on me. Wyll is interesting because I feel like I don't see characters like him that often. Astarion's got plenty of angst, I like it. I'm curious as to how Halsin's bear form would work...ugh how do I choose.

Gale, eating my boots and infodumping about his cat: Do you have a good place where I can die so that I won't murder innocents I'd appreciate it

Me: I want that one

[momochanners]

"You all only like Halsin because he's hot!"

Firstly: Like, DUH. LOOK AT HIM.

Secondly: I'm sure that him being scholarly, kind to refugees in peril, well-regarded with affection by druids & critters alike...basically an all-round stand up guy has no bearing whatsoever over why he's a BG3 fan favourite at aaaall 🙄

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[foonoodlesart]

Mamas to be!!!

Someone came out pregnant-

[choudaikookie]

somebody requested karlach carrying halsin

[barfville]

pen pressure broke so i tried to nail down their shapes... much 2 think abt.........

[oddthesungod]

Nature Lovers 🌿💖

Halsin and my Tav, Selren an Oath of the Ancients Paladin <3

[veilkeeper]

you'll have to forgive him, wyll, he just had his brain extracted by a mind flayer

[vael-fire]

Jesus Christ Halsin is heart-wrenching. First he's all nervous and eager for his first romance scene, then...

More Halsin spoilers below...

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The Scene: Paladin!Tav/Halsin hook up with the drow twins in Sharress's Caress. A good time is had by all.

The next morning:

Tav: So you're famous in Menzoberranzan? That sounds like a fun story!

Halsin: Oh it is! [Proceeds to tell a tale that would trigger the shit out of Astarion.] :D

Tav: Babe...

Halsin: :D

Tav: You okay, babe?

Halsin: You know what, maybe not? Love you for noticing tho! :D

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Between that and "Sometimes I think people look at me and think my feelings can't be hurt," Tav's just like: "The next person to reference Halsin's body in camp gets a blinding smite up the ass DO NOT FUCKIN TRY ME you dizzy bitches."

[immortalspacelesbian]

can i ask what happened on twitter? i'm sorry BG3 twit is so insane but there are a lot of active folks here on tumblr that are much nicer imo. hope you can find a new place here and we stan all minthara lovers. queen shit. 🙏❤️

i’d say “long story short” but there’s 0 ways i can make this short there’s just SO much 😭

basically those datamined lines with halsin and minthara were found, where halsin refuses to work with minthara and makes tav choose between them even though minthara is begging for shelter from the absolute, and minthara lovers were like ‘ew wtf halsin fuck him she’s a victim of the absolute.’

we were in our own corner on our own tweets with our mututls ranting about these lines, and some halsin fans decided to come onto our tweets and talk about how they want minthara dead dead and the ways they’d kill her and stuff like that. which, to be honest, is completely unwarranted and a dick move. they were told to basically fuck off and that’s where shit hit the fan.

i won’t name names, but someone made a thread about how halsin wasn’t in the wrong at all because minthara was his abuser (which she wasn’t, she did nothing to him, it was the goblins, and she hardly knows who he is.) i think some people corrected them but i can’t remember? anyway, we made our own tweets like “minthara isn’t halsin’s abuser btw.”

person who made that thread proceeded to say that people who dislike halsin are queerphobic…

some of us tweeted about not throwing around words like abuse, abuser, and queerphobia and to not water them down. i made my own tweet too.

and then they said that we think ‘lesbians are the only “good” members of the community’ and that ‘supporting gay, bi, or trans members is oppressing lesbians.’ which is incredibly thoughtless and stupid of them to say considering queer history and how many lesbians are trans, considering how many of my minthara mutuals on twitter fall under the trans umbrella.

the lesbophobia got called out, rightfully.

i then said that i’m uncomfortable with the way halsin’s va interacts with the nsfw stuff in the fandom and it kinda gives me the creeps. yknow, on my own tweet, on my own account, not a single halsin account in sight. and since i’m a lesbian (and my personal history) it seems pretty normal to me to be uncomfortable with men being all nsfw like that’s not my scene thx. anyway, their little group found it and said i was targeting his ga and bring him into the drama (which i really wasn’t i was expressing personal feelings on my own account but aight.)

cue the ‘supporting halsin is anti-lesbian.’ and ‘if you like halsin you’re being “creepy” because all male sexuality is creepy to them, and halsin’s va, dave, supporting halsin’s sexuality obviously pisses them off.’ which is a wild thing to say. we never brought dave into it, it was them that did that. my tweet had nothing to do with the drama they kept making go on by not shutting up about it. by this point minthara lovers were back to normal tweeting and only reacting to whatever of those drama tweets showed up on the timeline.

oh! and here comes the inevitable: we all got called terfs. most of us fall somewhere under the trans umbrella. i’m agender myself. but we’re terfs to that person apparently. lesbians always get called terfs, no matter what.

i’m sure there’s more insane shit they’ve said in private.

all of that just because we got pissy at halsin sending minthara to a fate worse than death when none of what she did in act 1 was of her own free will.

[deerieme]

Heheh,, big hunky bear man 🫠💕

I’m so fucking in love with this man 🤡

[goatsghost]

it really is a testament to orin’s strength that she’s able to kidnap one of the companions — not that she’s able to sneak in and replace them under our noses, which is a feat in and of itself, but the fact that she doesn’t give them back after being stuck with them for more than 24 hours

the whole party really exudes “i’m not stuck in here with you, you’re stuck in here with me” vibes in different ways and will not shut up about it

[chryza]

THE FUCKING TAZBAL REFERENCEEEEE I'M DYING

[swordmaid]

the fact that the only way for minthara to survive in shri’iia’s playthrough is if shri’iia is the dark urge meaning she does not care about lolth that much. like … just thinking about the sheer cunt and eatery two ex lolth-sworn oath of vengeance paladins would bring (though one of them is an oathbreaker…). one has the noble background and the other a charlatan they’d be so so terrible and magnificent together I fear

[lesbianralzarek]

larian writers, with hands placed on astarions shoulders like a proud parent: this is a thoughtful and touching narrative about male victims of abuse

fans: hey, thats fuckin sweet! do you have any more of these stories in your game?

larian writers, grimacing as they turn their heads towards wyll and gale: okay so, in our defense, it gets kinda murky when its a hot white woman doing it

gale stans: wasnt he groomed?

larian writers: but he liked it? his ultimate goal is to get back with her :)

wyll stans: isnt it kinda gross that the devil who owns his soul keeps blatantly sexually harassing him in front of everyone as a form of humiliation-based punishment?

larian writers and also whoever the fuck wrote that christmas animation (you motherfucker, when i fucking get you i stg): i know canon says otherwise, but he secretly wants her. dont you want her? you can fuck her if youd like

halsin stans: hey, so, uh-

larian writers, sprinting out of the room:

[autistichalsin]

So many times the toxic side of the fandom gets nasty, asking "why do you care about Halsin, of all characters?"

THIS is why.

Halsin's story is one that often goes untold. Recovery is "supposed" to be like Astarion's, not Halsin's. You're "supposed" to be loudly traumatized. You're "supposed" to know right away that what was done was wrong, you're supposed to have doubts about intimacy and not enjoy sex or kink, you're supposed to be hurt by "the right people." You're not "supposed" to be hypersexual and kink-positive. You're not "supposed" to have conflicted feelings towards your abuser that go beyond love or hate.

Halsin is all of those things. I talk about him because his survivor story is just as important as Astarion's. Halsin is a voice for survivors. He is IMPORTANT. Just like Astarion.

THIS is why I stan the character you call boring, annoying, nature-obsessed, too forgiving of Kagha, a bad leader, "pushy", "confusing basic kindness for flirting", hypersexual, "lacking depth" or "lacking plot relevance." I stan him because he makes us SEEN and HEARD.